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MOOOVEED - friendly reminder
Posted 12 years agoIN CASE YOU MISSED IT OUT IM NO LONGER USING THIS SO GO FIND ME AT
EVERYTHING FROM NOW ON WILL BE RIGHT OVER THERE!!
This is just a friendly reminder!!
Oookay then
Posted 12 years agoOkay so some of you seem to think I just came back without even caring about the things I owe??
That I changed my account just to run away?
Sorry but no. I only came back to deal with all the things, to finish what I started.
Once my FA stopped working I could've just let it be and run away, leaving you as it is but I came back. Exactly to finish this all.
I have a bad reputation? Fine be that way. But I just want to end this all because wow you dont think I dont feel bad?
Oh I do. Dont believe me? Then dont it's all up to you.
Excuses? No, none of these are excuses but if you want to believe so then hm fine.
All I care about right now is that I'll get my things clear. Sounds bad I know but it's true. Better to go with brutal honesty.
And probably once Im done I'll leave for good. But for now Im here, to end this all. Ok? Thank you.I'VE RETURNED, kind of.. - !!MOVING!!!
Posted 12 years agoIt took a while to get my FA 100% working but here i am... Thought last time would work but didn't. Now Im certain it works so here I am again..
Tho I've decided to start over at a new account. For several reasons. Mostly because I dont feel like using this anymore, also my art style has changed pretty much during my time away so...
Go find me at sphintus !!! Future arts will be all posted there from now on
So... Sorry and Hi again you all!! ;;;
This feels really weird omfg......exam week
Posted 13 years agoMy lovehate relationship with exam weeks
It's cool our days are so short
but sadly the rest time is for studying for tests
So I'll mostly be just studying and dont have that much time to work on things ;;
But I'll be on working with adoptables whenever I have bit freetime over at 
For rising funds for food and the refunds I owe you
So so so so sorry for all this crap I've been putting you throuh but school just takes it all ;;
IMPORTANT - for my commissioners etc.
Posted 13 years agoI dont have much time at all really to do things and there'd still be some pictures to finish off
So Im just offering refunds now really
I so wish I could finish it all but making you all wait is just a waste of time and makes me feel fucking awful
Honestly I wish I could express how bad and sorry I feel right now but I cant, no words good enough
Never wanted it to end like this but, highschool wins this match
I will be sending the last pictures Im able to finish this evening but the rest I'll be refunding
Also note that even after I have refunded you I might still do the picture, just because i feel awful enough unu
I'll be selling a lot of my characters and other adoptables over at miikku so head over there
Thank you and mightiest apologizes ever ;m;IMPORTANT - for my commissioners etc.
Posted 13 years agoI dont have much time at all really to do things and there'd still be some pictures to finish off
So Im just offering refunds now really
I so wish I could finish it all but making you all wait is just a waste of time and makes me feel fucking awful
Honestly I wish I could express how bad and sorry I feel right now but I cant, no words good enough
Never wanted it to end like this but, highschool wins this match
I will be sending the last pictures Im able to finish this evening but the rest I'll be refunding
Also note that even after I have refunded you I might still do the picture, just because i feel awful enough unu
I'll be selling a lot of my characters and other adoptables over at miikku so head over there
Thank you and mightiest apologizes ever ;m;For all friends (angsty rant ;;)
Posted 13 years agobecause I'm losing you like hair due my own retardness
I am one fucking insecure asshole and I do something, I even at some level regret, everyday.
I'd wish to change that but so far it seems it will take forever.
I feel horrible saying this but I genuinely feel like I really have only one friend in my life.
Yes i do have you my friends here, I talk to you somewhat a lot and I love you from the bottom of my heart. But Im afraid, no, I know you all too will leave me at some point anyway. There's no doubt of that.
The only friend I've had for several years, i almost lost her too due my own idiotness.
I've tried to change, I've tried so hard to actually be a better person and worth it all. But guess I'm just doomed to stay as an asshole for the rest of my life.
I push people away. I treat you like crap. I may seem like I dont give a shit about a single thing.
But I do. I push you away, I treat you like crap because Im just too insicure about everything. But that's also my way to test who is here to stay, and so far only one person in my whole 16 years I've lived, has been brave enough to stick up with me for this whole time.
There is no words invented for me to describe how grateful I am to have her in my life.
But as for the end of this rant, and to make some ''sense'' and ''use'' for this journal.. Instead of just whining
Dead serious, I just dont want any disappointments , so if you actually dont think you'll be able to stand through all my crap, just leave now.
Dont want to disappoint you, nor myself.
So if you just have any doubts of being able to bear with me, just, step out of my life before it's honestly too late. :I
How awfully cliche and crappy pity party rant journal but I had to do it okay. ;;
Now go laugh at me as you all will. Waiting for it.POLL - What should my fursona be
Posted 13 years agoSo i was just having a convo with almond
She told me how she came to the conclusion of her fursona being badger + cat
Sssssoooo I myself got curious,
What species you think my fursona should be?
Meaning what species you think represents me the best
Currently considering Edelweiss, and sort of Gum as my sonas but..
What do you guys think?
I want to know XDDon't mean to be butthurt
Posted 13 years agoBut just doing this to test out..
So if you want me to be your friennnd and that, or just wanna keep talking to me
Then do please start the conversation
Seriously don't mean to be a bitch, but doing this for several reasons
1. Every time I start the convo, it ends almost right away..
2. It doesn't bother me if you start the convo, vice versa, it makes me really happy
3. Related to reason 2, I wanna see who really want to be my friends and such lol;;;
So.. Really just do it if you want to talk to me, because I probably won't be starting many convos anymore until I find out people who do want to talk to me and so on, you know..?
Of course there are some expectations with some people I already do know that do want to talk to me XD;;Wow just wow
Posted 13 years ago THis day just
SUCKS
Lightly said
...
First of all still horrible migraine
7am had to run for buss and still missed it
with migraine and I almost fainted, for the 3rd time in one hour. 2 times almost at home earlier
Then my headphones broke
Then my favorite necklace broke
then my phone charm I got from my childhood friend broke too and got lost
Still don't know where it is and probably never will
Okay I'll get over that..
Then I had to do geography test with migraine
And I can't see anything because my eyes tend to blackout for time to time
Kay I'll get over that too..
Havent eaten a single piece of food since last thursday
Tho I'm not even hungry
And I'm used to it so I'll get over that too easily
..
BUT FOR GODS SAKE
What is it with my friends..
AM I HONESTLY THAT ANNOYING OR WHAT
... there's like..
Only, well now 2 people that talk to me..
Losing friends like hair..
Fine.
Never even wanted anyone in my life
I'll survive on my own if you really hate me that much
Funny
Feel bit used, can you believe that :--D
SO I'LL BE SO FAIR LITTLE BITCH
AND DO A PUBLIC THANK YOU FOR RESHIRAM BECAUSE ONLY BROHAM THAT STILL REALLY TALKS TO ME
YOU ARE THE MOST EPIC BROHAM ANYONE COULD EVER HAVE
<<33 CCC:CHARACTER RESALE - UPDATED FOR MORE
Posted 13 years agohttp://i1193.photobucket.com/albums/aa344/Bonoc/newfemales7_15.png - $7 by chevi
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....noc/pixull.jpg $5 by enjoipandas
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....014-bonnii.png $4 by myra hngghesitating
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....onoc/Pawau.png $4 by rani
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums...../Bonoc/Cho.png $5 by gasmask
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....ters/nurse.png $5 by poofylion hesitatinggudsif
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....tled-6copy.png $6 by Griffsnuff@dA
Let's see if more to come2 REF SHEETS
Posted 13 years agoC:
Because funds suck
And it ended up being actually really fun so
2 more ref sheets like this
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7960211/
$15
No too complicated, manly (muscles), or clusterfuck mecha
Paypal onlyMY CHARACTERS
Posted 13 years agoAt lostparadise ,
as I go couple of questions already and continue of the past tryings
I DO WANT TO PAIR THEM SO if you want to go check them up and note me or something
I can RP too (text or pic) if you want lol
There is the ''mate'' section in their descriptions
Or just befriend them with your charas U vU
Uguu:::::CCCC
Posted 13 years ago...
Nobody talks to me
uguu
Lonely as fuck LOL
Atleast I have my DS and PSP <3
U wU <3CHARACTER ACCOUNT
Posted 13 years agoBecause people always tend to ask me about my characters and all
I decided to turn lostparadise into my character ref account
If you don't wanna see my chars then go unwatch now C:
And prepare for sort of spammingCHARACTER RESALE - UPDATED FOR MORE
Posted 13 years agohttp://i1193.photobucket.com/albums/aa344/Bonoc/newfemales7_15.png - $7 by chevi
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....noc/pixull.jpg $5 by enjoipandas
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....014-bonnii.png $4 by myra hngghesitating
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....onoc/Pawau.png $4 by rani
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums...../Bonoc/Cho.png $5 by gasmask
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....ters/nurse.png $5 by poofylion hesitatinggudsif
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....tled-6copy.png $6 by Griffsnuff@dA
Let's see if more to comeCHARACTER RESALE
Posted 13 years agohttp://i1193.photobucket.com/albums/aa344/Bonoc/newfemales7_15.png - $7 by chevi
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums/aa344/Bonoc/fawni.jpg $5 by opium5
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....onoc/Griza.jpg $2 by gockt
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums...../adorpness.jpg $6 by masangai
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums.....Bonoc/Etna.png $3 by myra
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums/aa344/Bonoc/MiriyanKira.png $1 by chunnie
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums/aa344/Bonoc/Niobe.png $8 by me
http://i1193.photobucket.com/albums/aa344/Bonoc/137936.png $5 by me
Let's see if more to comeWOULDNT YOU LIKE TO KNOW
Posted 13 years agoStole this from someone, forgot who OOPS
Ff lol nobody's probably going to ask but just for the kicks
1: Full name
2: Zodiac sign
3: 3 Fears
4: 3 things I love
5: 4 turns on
6: 4 turns off
7: My best friend
8: Sexual orientation
9: My best first date
10: How tall am I
11: What do I miss
12: What time were I born
13: Favorite color
14: Do I have a crush
15: Favorite quote
16: Favorite place
17: Favorite food
18: Do I use sarcasm
19: What am I listening to right now
20: First thing I notice in new person
21: Shoe size
22: Eye color
23: Hair color
24: Favorite style of clothing
25: Ever done a prank call?
26: What color of underwear I'm wearing now?
27: Meaning behind my URL
28: Favorite movie
29: Favorite song
30: Favorite band
31: How I feel right now
32: Someone I love
33: My current relationship status
34: My relationship with my parents
35: Favorite holiday
36: Tattoos and piercing i have
37: Tattoos and piercing i want
38: The reason I joined FurAffinity
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
42: When did I last hold hands?
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days?
45: Where am I right now?
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
49: Am I excited for anything?
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
55: What is something I disliked about today?
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
57: What do I think about most?
58: What’s my strangest talent?
59: Do I have any strange phobias?
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
61: What was the last lie I told?
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
64: Do I believe in magic?
65: Do I believe in luck?
66: What's the weather like right now?
67: What was the last book I've read?
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
69: Do I have any nicknames?
70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?
71: Do I spend money or save it?
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
73: Is there anything pink within 10 feet fof me?
74: Favorite animal?
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
78: How can you win my heart?
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
80: What is my favorite word?
81: My top 5 blogs on Tumblr
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
86: What is my current desktop picture?
87: Had sex?
88: Bought condoms?
89: Gotten pregnant?
90: Failed a class?
91: Kissed a boy?
92: Kissed a girl?
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
94: Had job?
95: Left the house without my wallet?
96: Bullied someone on the internet?
97: Had sex in public?
98: Played on a sports team?
99: Smoked weed?
100: Did drugs?
101: Smoked cigarettes?
102: Drank alcohol?
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
104: Been overweight?
105: Been underweight?
106: Been to a wedding?
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
109: Been outside my home country?
110: Gotten my heart broken?
111: Been to a professional sports game?
112: Broken a bone?
113: Cut myself?
114: Been to prom?
115: Been in airplane?
116: Fly by helicopter?
117: What concerts have I been to?
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
119: Learned another language?
120: Wore make up?
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
122: Had oral sex?
123: Dyed my hair?
124: Voted in a presidential election?
125: Rode in an ambulance?
126: Had a surgery?
127: Met someone famous?
128: Stalked someone on a social network?
129: Peed outside?
130: Been fishing?
131: Helped with charity?
132: Been rejected by a crush?
133: Broken a mirror?
134: What do I want for birthday?
135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?
136: Was I named after anyone?
137: Do I like my handwriting?
138: What was my favorite toy as a child?
139: Favorite TV Show?
140: Where do I want to live when older?
141: Play any musical instrument?
142: One of my scars, how did I get it?
143: Favorite pizza topping?
144: Am I afraid of the dark?
145: Am I afraid of heights?
146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
148: What I'm really bad at
149: What my greatest achievements are
150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me
151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery
152: What do I like about myself
153: My closest Tumblr friend
154: Something I fantasize about
155: Any question you'd likeALL MY BROHAMS
Posted 13 years agoEXPECT SOMETHING SOON
LIKE, KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN BECAUSE I GOT SOMETHING FOR YOU ALL CCCC;;;Sadface :C + IDEAS?
Posted 13 years agoTomorrow, 5th of May..
My brother
is turning
18
And I can't believe.. that's just..
NOO.. Bro you can't be already an adult D:
Hnnnggg ; A;
Lol feel awful saying this but I don't want him to be an adult yet D:
.. also need to draw him something..
BUT WHAT?
Any ideas? lol I know you don't know much of him at all..
But he loves many games and all, and I guess i could draw him a card of one character he adores but idk..Back from the exam
Posted 13 years agoAnd oh god
I feel awful
:III
It went even worse than I had in mind
Out of 3 things I had to do, only 1 came out somehow well, but other two oh god..
first pic, Made it bit too detailed so I couldn't finish it in time
and second pic, made it like in 15min so it looks like something Bon 8 yrs. would've made
So not cool..
And I was hoping for them pics to come out well, since my grades are not that good at all so :I
But now I'm just afraid and all, probably won't get in omg..
Doesn't this suck :::IIIBRACE YOURSELVES
Posted 13 years agoBECAUSE LOT OF MOOMIN FANART COMING TOMORROW
Most likely
because all my feels
Lately I've been reading a lot of moomins, and the backgrounds of it
Partly because i have to do a school project of it, and partly because I really didn't now much anything about moomins
Even tho I'm finnish.
So, I read this whole thing about Snufkin, and noticed how really sad character he is in the end.
His father left him alone and he is just really
Sad you know..
Sad.
So I read more about his father, Joxter
AND OH MY GOD
WHAT HAVE YOU DONE, TOVE JANSSON
WHY, DID YOU CREATE SUCH A PORNO CHARACTER AS JOXTER
all my feels
alll my feels
And I just watched the 2 episodes that Joxter is in..
And I feel pathetic..
I'm obsessed with a moomin character
he is just.. perfect
OTL
SO A LOT OF JOXTER COMING UP TOMORROW
Possibly snufkin too
but Joxter
letmeloveyouI want
Posted 13 years agoShittons of more AVIAN characters :C
because I noticed
In the end, I don't have much at all
And that makes me saaaddd because I simply adore avians, out of all D:
pff Will trade or something for some LOL
idk
I just want more of them
And I suck at designing avians, really do :C
Well, more like, suck at making them original enough..
ShoooAnxiety problem proved today
Posted 13 years agoOr either I seriously have real real trusting problems, which I didn't even know about..
But I was at shoootingstar's house, it was sure relieving to see her after 2 weeks
I helped her with the project she needs to do for the new school she's going in
And I brought some of my jewelry and shoes there to finish the outfit.
So when she had made my hair and make up, I had to sit there eyes closed so the make up wouldn't get messy before taking the pictures,
she poured all my jewelry there, just honestly to get the ones she needed better, instead of getting them out of the messy pouch..
I couldn't sit there eyes closed.. I honestly couldn't
Even tho it's my best friend sitting in front of me, and I know, I 100% know she wouldn't steal my stuff
she might joke but we both do that, but she wouldn't do it for real, trust me.
But I just.. my anxiety and paranoia levels just started to grow, until I bursted out crying because of the anxious feeling..
So Ida just stood up and told me to open my eyes, if my make up would get messy she would fix it..
It felt awful...
Like now I can't even be normal with my friends without thinking all the worst possible things..
But I can't tell my mom either about this, that would be the last thing I'd want to do.
She wouldn't believe me or get me to psychiatrist.
But I do think I need help, this is driving me crazy.. I can't even walk at school without thinking someone will do something to me..OFU TWILIGHT (pony O:)
Posted 13 years ago.. You.. little..
I don't really like you at all you know,
but now you got the best song in the series :C
I love the song.. god..
Better than pinkies smile..
And the most annoying ponay sings it..
oh irony..
