Surgery next month! :3
Posted 12 years agoSo.. I've finally gotten the money and a date set for my top-surgery and
it's going to happen next month! :D
The 25th of June I will be leaving home and on the 26th I will arrive in Troidsdorf in Germany
where I'm getting the surgery done.
To those who doesn't know what a top-surgery is it's a surgical removal of breast tissue done to
FtM (female to male) transgendered people. It's something I've been wanting so badly for such a long time
now and I can't describe how much I'm looking forward to it.
To all of those who have been there to remind me this was going to happen and that everything
would get better, thank you! I love you guys!
This means that I wont be drawing much if at all after the surgery and atleast a couple of weeks,
depending how fast I heal and how much pain I'm going to be in.
I haven't ever had any surgical work done and I'm a bit nervous but hopefully it'll be fine and heal fine.
This means though that I don't know how my body reacts to strong anesthetics.. I just hope I wont
get really sick like my mom used to :/
Anyway that was all I wanted to say and I'll ofc update you all when I arrive back home after surgery
and let you know that I'm alright :b
it's going to happen next month! :D
The 25th of June I will be leaving home and on the 26th I will arrive in Troidsdorf in Germany
where I'm getting the surgery done.
To those who doesn't know what a top-surgery is it's a surgical removal of breast tissue done to
FtM (female to male) transgendered people. It's something I've been wanting so badly for such a long time
now and I can't describe how much I'm looking forward to it.
To all of those who have been there to remind me this was going to happen and that everything
would get better, thank you! I love you guys!
This means that I wont be drawing much if at all after the surgery and atleast a couple of weeks,
depending how fast I heal and how much pain I'm going to be in.
I haven't ever had any surgical work done and I'm a bit nervous but hopefully it'll be fine and heal fine.
This means though that I don't know how my body reacts to strong anesthetics.. I just hope I wont
get really sick like my mom used to :/
Anyway that was all I wanted to say and I'll ofc update you all when I arrive back home after surgery
and let you know that I'm alright :b
Busy wolf is busy
Posted 12 years agoHi all :)
I'm just here to update you all on my art status and life situation and such..
Atm. I'm really busy wich has made close for commissions/trades/requests.
This'll be temporary and hopefully I'll be open for lots of good stuff soon :3
So why is the wolf busy?
I'm in the middle of something big and complicated in my life, I need to lent money from my bank
to get my top-surgery in Germany and I'm very nervous about the banks decission.
I'm also in the middle of a reference sheet for
scyrex wich is taking quite some time to get done.
Other than that I have 3 pet portraits I need to make and I haven't even started on them, well I'm
starting on the first one today :b
Other than that I have terrible moodswings these days and I have a hard time sleeping properly
most nights. So I'm a bit stressed out and I'm just trying to get through all my projects nice and slowly.
Art Status and list:
I am CLOSED for all trades/commissions/requests atm. sry.
1. Ref. sheet for
scyrex - DONE
2. Pet portrait 1 - Started sketching
3. Pet portrait 2 - Not started yet
4. Pet portrait 3 - Not started yet
5. New reference for Boscoe - Not started yet
I'm just here to update you all on my art status and life situation and such..
Atm. I'm really busy wich has made close for commissions/trades/requests.
This'll be temporary and hopefully I'll be open for lots of good stuff soon :3
So why is the wolf busy?
I'm in the middle of something big and complicated in my life, I need to lent money from my bank
to get my top-surgery in Germany and I'm very nervous about the banks decission.
I'm also in the middle of a reference sheet for

Other than that I have 3 pet portraits I need to make and I haven't even started on them, well I'm
starting on the first one today :b
Other than that I have terrible moodswings these days and I have a hard time sleeping properly
most nights. So I'm a bit stressed out and I'm just trying to get through all my projects nice and slowly.
Art Status and list:
I am CLOSED for all trades/commissions/requests atm. sry.
1. Ref. sheet for

2. Pet portrait 1 - Started sketching
3. Pet portrait 2 - Not started yet
4. Pet portrait 3 - Not started yet
5. New reference for Boscoe - Not started yet
Free photoshop CS2
Posted 12 years agohttp://www.adobe.com/downloads/cs2_.....ads/index.html
Adobe finally made it possible to download a version of their software for free!
It's the Photoshop CS2 version and even though it isn't the newest out there
it might be worth it, since it's a legal free download from their official website.
I'm not gonna go and download it myself though, since I just got Photoshop
Elements 10 for free with my new tablet.. But maybe some of you guys would like it? :)
Adobe finally made it possible to download a version of their software for free!
It's the Photoshop CS2 version and even though it isn't the newest out there
it might be worth it, since it's a legal free download from their official website.
I'm not gonna go and download it myself though, since I just got Photoshop
Elements 10 for free with my new tablet.. But maybe some of you guys would like it? :)
New tablet :D
Posted 12 years agoI bought a new tablet that arrived with the mail today and I can't
wait to try it out. It's a Wacom Cintiq 22HD and it looks great :)
Right now I only have 1 problem.. It won't connect to my laptop. It's using a DVI cable
and my laptop doesn't have a DVI input, so I looked in the manual and found that I could get an DVI-I to VGA
adapter for it. So I went down town to find such an adapter and bought it.
Now when I came back home and connected all cables to my laptop it didn't work. I couldn't figure out why,
since the drivers were installed correctly and the cables were connected correctly.
I then asked my dad for help because He's the IT-nerd in this house :b
We tried several things on my laptop before moving the tablet to his computer and then we found out the problem.
His computer couldn't get a signal transmitted to the tablet either and then we tried using the adapter on his
regular screen instead. This showed us that the adapter was broken and now I have to go down town tomorrow
to complain and get a new adapter.. hopefully it works this time.
Other than the connecting problems I'm fully satisfied so far. As soon as I've found a way to connect my
laptop and my tablet you guys will get a lot more art from me. I'll probably be using all my spare time to draw :b
wait to try it out. It's a Wacom Cintiq 22HD and it looks great :)
Right now I only have 1 problem.. It won't connect to my laptop. It's using a DVI cable
and my laptop doesn't have a DVI input, so I looked in the manual and found that I could get an DVI-I to VGA
adapter for it. So I went down town to find such an adapter and bought it.
Now when I came back home and connected all cables to my laptop it didn't work. I couldn't figure out why,
since the drivers were installed correctly and the cables were connected correctly.
I then asked my dad for help because He's the IT-nerd in this house :b
We tried several things on my laptop before moving the tablet to his computer and then we found out the problem.
His computer couldn't get a signal transmitted to the tablet either and then we tried using the adapter on his
regular screen instead. This showed us that the adapter was broken and now I have to go down town tomorrow
to complain and get a new adapter.. hopefully it works this time.
Other than the connecting problems I'm fully satisfied so far. As soon as I've found a way to connect my
laptop and my tablet you guys will get a lot more art from me. I'll probably be using all my spare time to draw :b
No art for a while :(
Posted 12 years agoSo.. as the title says I'm unable to deliver any art, or atleast digital art for a while.
I was visiting my friend who lives over an hour from here and I accidentally forgot
the pen for my tablet :(
I still don't know when I will get it back, and I don't really have the money to go get it myself.
I'm just hoping that she will be able to mail it to me as fast as possible, but for now
you'll have to wait to see anything from me.
And I'm very sorry that I won't be able to deliver the last art raffle price before new years. :/
I was visiting my friend who lives over an hour from here and I accidentally forgot
the pen for my tablet :(
I still don't know when I will get it back, and I don't really have the money to go get it myself.
I'm just hoping that she will be able to mail it to me as fast as possible, but for now
you'll have to wait to see anything from me.
And I'm very sorry that I won't be able to deliver the last art raffle price before new years. :/
Busy wolf and christmas times :3
Posted 12 years agoHi all :3
First I wanna say sorry to the raffle winners, but your prices are pushed a bit, since my
exams and christmas with my family is more importent to me and it's taking up more time
than expected.
I have started on the drawings and have an almost finished sketch for the first one that I will
try to get done today before leaving for christmas evev with the family.
Other than that I wish you all a merry christmas nad a happy new year! <3
First I wanna say sorry to the raffle winners, but your prices are pushed a bit, since my
exams and christmas with my family is more importent to me and it's taking up more time
than expected.
I have started on the drawings and have an almost finished sketch for the first one that I will
try to get done today before leaving for christmas evev with the family.
Other than that I wish you all a merry christmas nad a happy new year! <3
Beagan description
Posted 13 years agoName: Beagan (meaning: small)
Species: Tiger/lynx hybrid
Sex: Male
Age: 18
Sexuality: Gay
Height: around 5, 3 ft.
Appearance: Beagan has the normal tiger stripes, a big fluffy tail wich ends in 1 black stripe 1 white stripe and a black tip, red eyes, white chest and belly with dark brown spots, white toes and fingers, tuft on ears like a lynx.
Clothing/Accessories: He wears a black T-shirt with a solved rubiks cube printed on it, blue, grey, or denim jeans (both tight and loose-fit), can wear leather wristbands and an ear-ring in the right ear (small silver stud or small silver ring with ball).
Personality: Beagan is a kinda neutral character, who loves to use his head, and hates when others don’t. He’s kind and calm. He’s smart, and loves to play chess. Beagan is a mature, young tiger/lynx who can’t stand a dirty/messed room. He likes to cook and help in the kitchen, especially with the cleaning. His favourite item is his rubiks cube. He’s a very calm and laid back type, but he does like to work on projects, both big and small. His favourite subject in school is math. He’s not very athletic, but doesn’t dislike sports. He needs peace to do his stuff, and especially when it comes to settling dates for activities and assignments. To him, He’s always right, but he does like discussing just to stress it to others.
Likes: Math, cooking, cleanliness, chess, reading, relaxing music, vegetables and fish, discussing things, homework, going to the beach.
Dislikes: Mess, loud music, violence, bad grades, deep waters(more than 3 meters),
Reference sheet: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8803208/
Species: Tiger/lynx hybrid
Sex: Male
Age: 18
Sexuality: Gay
Height: around 5, 3 ft.
Appearance: Beagan has the normal tiger stripes, a big fluffy tail wich ends in 1 black stripe 1 white stripe and a black tip, red eyes, white chest and belly with dark brown spots, white toes and fingers, tuft on ears like a lynx.
Clothing/Accessories: He wears a black T-shirt with a solved rubiks cube printed on it, blue, grey, or denim jeans (both tight and loose-fit), can wear leather wristbands and an ear-ring in the right ear (small silver stud or small silver ring with ball).
Personality: Beagan is a kinda neutral character, who loves to use his head, and hates when others don’t. He’s kind and calm. He’s smart, and loves to play chess. Beagan is a mature, young tiger/lynx who can’t stand a dirty/messed room. He likes to cook and help in the kitchen, especially with the cleaning. His favourite item is his rubiks cube. He’s a very calm and laid back type, but he does like to work on projects, both big and small. His favourite subject in school is math. He’s not very athletic, but doesn’t dislike sports. He needs peace to do his stuff, and especially when it comes to settling dates for activities and assignments. To him, He’s always right, but he does like discussing just to stress it to others.
Likes: Math, cooking, cleanliness, chess, reading, relaxing music, vegetables and fish, discussing things, homework, going to the beach.
Dislikes: Mess, loud music, violence, bad grades, deep waters(more than 3 meters),
Reference sheet: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8803208/
Boscoe discription
Posted 13 years agoName: Boscoe
Species: Grey wolf
Sex: Male
Age: 18
Sexuality: Bi – likes guys and girls equally
Height: about 5, 5 ft.
Appearance: Grey main fur, black legs and arms, black head, white triangles on the back of his ears, white toes and fingers, white inside of ears, white from muzzle to crotch, black ears, black stripe down his back that leads to a black tail tip, dark grey paw pads, and yellow eyes.
Body shape: He’s fit build with selected muscles, though no six-pack.
Clothing/accessories: He wears generally dark clothing, but also wears more mainstream clothing from time to time. He likes wearing tanktops and also always wears 2 dog tags in a silver chain(1 with his name and 1 with the text: I am and will always be uke).
Personality: Boscoe is a young and kinda asocial character. He’s very emotional, and is having a hard time letting go of his past. His favourite places would be his own bed, a lonely corner of a room, in front of the computer or anything not so social. He loves walking around in empty areas alone, and he’s a real city-kid(can take care of himself). Because of his asocial behaviour, he’s very defensive of his room and his personal belongings, and he becomes aggressive when his lines are crossed. Though when he is with other people, he’s most likely to act submissive, and he loves to ‘serve’ pretty girls. He’s actually a real gentleman, but only a few gets to see this part of him. He loves all kinds of music, and it’s a big part of him, but tends to listen to the sad numbers most of the time. He’s rarely attending a party and tends to get a bit too drunk when he does. He loves to keep his room nice and clean, and doesn’t like when things are out of place(though when He’s drunk or high, his room is a mess). You have to be very accepting to become one of his close friends, but if you make it, He’ll be there for you through everything. He’s creative both with his camera and on paper, and his favourite subject in school is art class. He also plays the guitar. The only thing that he is really terrified of is spiders, and if he sees one on him he’ll panic.
Likes: lonely walks, rainy days, meat, coffee, lots of cola and chips, video games, photography, very masculine activities, lazy-days, being dominated, graffiti, working out(biceps, triceps, abs etc.), sad music, playing guitar.
Dislikes: Mess, too many rules, clinging people, close physical contact (at least with most people), public transportation, crowded places, making decisions, P.E(cuz’ of public bathrooms), cooking, sports freaks.
Species: Grey wolf
Sex: Male
Age: 18
Sexuality: Bi – likes guys and girls equally
Height: about 5, 5 ft.
Appearance: Grey main fur, black legs and arms, black head, white triangles on the back of his ears, white toes and fingers, white inside of ears, white from muzzle to crotch, black ears, black stripe down his back that leads to a black tail tip, dark grey paw pads, and yellow eyes.
Body shape: He’s fit build with selected muscles, though no six-pack.
Clothing/accessories: He wears generally dark clothing, but also wears more mainstream clothing from time to time. He likes wearing tanktops and also always wears 2 dog tags in a silver chain(1 with his name and 1 with the text: I am and will always be uke).
Personality: Boscoe is a young and kinda asocial character. He’s very emotional, and is having a hard time letting go of his past. His favourite places would be his own bed, a lonely corner of a room, in front of the computer or anything not so social. He loves walking around in empty areas alone, and he’s a real city-kid(can take care of himself). Because of his asocial behaviour, he’s very defensive of his room and his personal belongings, and he becomes aggressive when his lines are crossed. Though when he is with other people, he’s most likely to act submissive, and he loves to ‘serve’ pretty girls. He’s actually a real gentleman, but only a few gets to see this part of him. He loves all kinds of music, and it’s a big part of him, but tends to listen to the sad numbers most of the time. He’s rarely attending a party and tends to get a bit too drunk when he does. He loves to keep his room nice and clean, and doesn’t like when things are out of place(though when He’s drunk or high, his room is a mess). You have to be very accepting to become one of his close friends, but if you make it, He’ll be there for you through everything. He’s creative both with his camera and on paper, and his favourite subject in school is art class. He also plays the guitar. The only thing that he is really terrified of is spiders, and if he sees one on him he’ll panic.
Likes: lonely walks, rainy days, meat, coffee, lots of cola and chips, video games, photography, very masculine activities, lazy-days, being dominated, graffiti, working out(biceps, triceps, abs etc.), sad music, playing guitar.
Dislikes: Mess, too many rules, clinging people, close physical contact (at least with most people), public transportation, crowded places, making decisions, P.E(cuz’ of public bathrooms), cooking, sports freaks.
The Wolf Is Back!! :3
Posted 13 years agoHey there all
I'm back! And when I say that I mean that I'm back at drawing.. :b
I got photoshop elements back, so now I can start drawing digitally again.
Though I wont be doing much traditional art in the nearest future, since I'm moving out for 5-6 months,
and wont be united with my scanner too often.
I'm currently working on something special that I'm sure will turn out FANTASTIC! Especially cuz I made it! >:3
... JK xD
But It should turn out great. If not I'll have to burn in hell :b
When all this random crap is said, feel free to contact me if you've contacted me earlier about a trade,
comission etc.
I'm likely to be doing some freebies when this little project of 2 drawings is done(might make it 3 but that
depends on how much time I get...).
Talk to ya later fuzzies
I'm back! And when I say that I mean that I'm back at drawing.. :b
I got photoshop elements back, so now I can start drawing digitally again.
Though I wont be doing much traditional art in the nearest future, since I'm moving out for 5-6 months,
and wont be united with my scanner too often.
I'm currently working on something special that I'm sure will turn out FANTASTIC! Especially cuz I made it! >:3
... JK xD
But It should turn out great. If not I'll have to burn in hell :b
When all this random crap is said, feel free to contact me if you've contacted me earlier about a trade,
comission etc.
I'm likely to be doing some freebies when this little project of 2 drawings is done(might make it 3 but that
depends on how much time I get...).
Talk to ya later fuzzies
Frustration, anger, sadness and sorrow
Posted 14 years agoIn these days I feel a mixture of various feelings..
I started in highschool in august, and it went pretty well.. but not for long.
I've already started to feel unable to focus on class and I just missed an assignment this sunday.
There are many reasons to this lack of focus, problems with friends, the fact that I miss my mom, but most importantly the fact that I don't need this to get one of theeducations that I want.
So I talked to my contact-person yesterday and we agreed that I should talk to my supervisor here at school.
And so I talked to her and the whole school problem should be solved eventually, but for now I shouldn't
stress too much about homework if I feel too sad or demotivated to focus.
She told me to do stuff that I love as much as possible in my sparetime untill we find a solution.
And then she will talk to my contact-person and another supervisor outside of school, and we should
be able to figure out what's best for me.
And then I have problems with love once more -.-
I'm considering just throwing that crap away for eternity.. :b
It's frustrating and it has made me sad and angry many times by now.
Atm. though, I guess I'll just hang on and see how things turn out. It might get better when my whole
school situation is solved.
Finally I'm having a hard time keeping my tears back, and I get sad really easily.
I used to get sad before too, but I never just started crying like this before I went to a psychologist.
She helped become able to talk about my feelings, and not just anger, but sadness and sorrow too.
This has helped in some ways, but now I'm having a really hard time controlling it, especialy since I have
so much to think about these days.
Does anybody out there know a way to get better at controlling this?
I'm not trying to hide my feelings again, since this didn't turn out well the last time, I'm just trying to
control it.
And this will be the end of my crap talk... just needed to get this out somewhere..
I started in highschool in august, and it went pretty well.. but not for long.
I've already started to feel unable to focus on class and I just missed an assignment this sunday.
There are many reasons to this lack of focus, problems with friends, the fact that I miss my mom, but most importantly the fact that I don't need this to get one of theeducations that I want.
So I talked to my contact-person yesterday and we agreed that I should talk to my supervisor here at school.
And so I talked to her and the whole school problem should be solved eventually, but for now I shouldn't
stress too much about homework if I feel too sad or demotivated to focus.
She told me to do stuff that I love as much as possible in my sparetime untill we find a solution.
And then she will talk to my contact-person and another supervisor outside of school, and we should
be able to figure out what's best for me.
And then I have problems with love once more -.-
I'm considering just throwing that crap away for eternity.. :b
It's frustrating and it has made me sad and angry many times by now.
Atm. though, I guess I'll just hang on and see how things turn out. It might get better when my whole
school situation is solved.
Finally I'm having a hard time keeping my tears back, and I get sad really easily.
I used to get sad before too, but I never just started crying like this before I went to a psychologist.
She helped become able to talk about my feelings, and not just anger, but sadness and sorrow too.
This has helped in some ways, but now I'm having a really hard time controlling it, especialy since I have
so much to think about these days.
Does anybody out there know a way to get better at controlling this?
I'm not trying to hide my feelings again, since this didn't turn out well the last time, I'm just trying to
control it.
And this will be the end of my crap talk... just needed to get this out somewhere..
I am not dead :b
Posted 14 years agoHey everybody..
I know I haven't been uploading anything in a long time, but there are many reasons to this.
First of all there was all the things that I had to attend and my bad mood when my mother died.
Then my scooter got stolen, and I couldn't focus on anything artistic, since I was really angry.
And then my computer broke and we had to get a man out to repair it, but when it was repaired we found out that it was also infected with malware and therefor had to be completely re-installed.
So I'm almost back up and running with my computer, but I still need photoshop back, before I can make anything digitally again, but if I don't get it soon, I'll make and upload some traditional art, cuz' I really miss drawing.
Other than that I've been on vercation with my family and on a rugby camp.
Though I did get to take alot of photos this vercation. If you'd like to see them, here's a link:
http://fotohvalp.deviantart.com/gallery/
I know I haven't been uploading anything in a long time, but there are many reasons to this.
First of all there was all the things that I had to attend and my bad mood when my mother died.
Then my scooter got stolen, and I couldn't focus on anything artistic, since I was really angry.
And then my computer broke and we had to get a man out to repair it, but when it was repaired we found out that it was also infected with malware and therefor had to be completely re-installed.
So I'm almost back up and running with my computer, but I still need photoshop back, before I can make anything digitally again, but if I don't get it soon, I'll make and upload some traditional art, cuz' I really miss drawing.
Other than that I've been on vercation with my family and on a rugby camp.
Though I did get to take alot of photos this vercation. If you'd like to see them, here's a link:
http://fotohvalp.deviantart.com/gallery/
R.I.P Mom <3
Posted 14 years agoYesterday (23/5-2011), my mom passed away.
She had breast cancer, that had infected the brain and therefor couldn't be treated.
It's been some long and though years for her and our family, and the last month has been the worst.
But now her pain and suffering is over and she can finally rest in peace.
I can only hope that I gave her reason to be proud of me.
Mom, I love you, I always will.
I'll miss you and send you thoughts everytime I accomplish something, big or small.
You were so brave, and even when you couldn't sit up by yourself, you still worried about
us, your kids.
That was all for now...
R.I.P
She had breast cancer, that had infected the brain and therefor couldn't be treated.
It's been some long and though years for her and our family, and the last month has been the worst.
But now her pain and suffering is over and she can finally rest in peace.
I can only hope that I gave her reason to be proud of me.
Mom, I love you, I always will.
I'll miss you and send you thoughts everytime I accomplish something, big or small.
You were so brave, and even when you couldn't sit up by yourself, you still worried about
us, your kids.
That was all for now...
R.I.P
Update - Rugby!
Posted 14 years agoHey fuzz ballz :3
I just wanted to make a quick update on everything, and thought I might as well add in some
personal stuff..
I'm sorry that there haven't been any new art from me lately, but I just have so much to take care of
atm. with school, economy etc.
So I hope to get some creativity in my head during the end of this month or start of June.
Right now I'm a bit short on money, but that'll hopefully change as soon as I get a new tire for my scooter
and get my dad's GF payed for the new football shoes we just bought.
I have had a very positive week and just started playing rugby in the local rugby club with my little bro ;)
It's lots of fun and good exercise, so I don't need to spent money on going to the gym now :3
GO ARK!
Not too long to summer vercation either, so I hope to get a great summer this year!
That's all for now, cya ;p
I just wanted to make a quick update on everything, and thought I might as well add in some
personal stuff..
I'm sorry that there haven't been any new art from me lately, but I just have so much to take care of
atm. with school, economy etc.
So I hope to get some creativity in my head during the end of this month or start of June.
Right now I'm a bit short on money, but that'll hopefully change as soon as I get a new tire for my scooter
and get my dad's GF payed for the new football shoes we just bought.
I have had a very positive week and just started playing rugby in the local rugby club with my little bro ;)
It's lots of fun and good exercise, so I don't need to spent money on going to the gym now :3
GO ARK!
Not too long to summer vercation either, so I hope to get a great summer this year!
That's all for now, cya ;p
Wounded
Posted 14 years agoI’m wounded.
You keep hurting me and
I keep telling you to stop,
But you just won’t listen,
It’s like you can’t see the problem.
The anger and frustration in my voice.
The tears in my eyes.
All that is prove enough.
I can’t help it and I actually try my best.
But you won’t let me in, you won’t accept me as I am.
I don’t really know what to do or say anymore.
What should I do?
No reaction, no “I’m sorry”.
It’s like you don’t care.
Like you love to hurt me and see me die inside.
When I slip away into darkness,
And need your support the most,
That’s when you hit me and make me feel like I’m nothing.
Try to look, try to listen.
I’m here and I’m a person too.
Don’t just laugh it off or make a joke.
I’m not a joke!
It’s not just a fun prank anymore.
Keep it up and I promise to keep away from you.
Cuz’ I won’t take this shit from no one.
Don’t tell me I’m something else.
Don’t tell me to get real or act normal.
I am what I am, take it or leave it.
And I’m not just here for you to have
Something to laugh about.
I’m doing what I can to pass, but
You keep breaking it down.
Of all the days we’ve had, yesterday was the worst.
It was a nightmare, and I want you to know.
I want you to know you hurt me and made me cry.
So I added another word yesterday.
It’s logic when you think about it.
But logic can hurt too.
‘HATERS’, cuz’ that’s what you are.
And I’m leaving the haters behind.
Never Surrender!
Posted 14 years agoDo you know what it's like when
You're scared to see yourself?
Do you know what it's like when
You wish you were someone else
Who didn't need your help to get by?
Do you know what it's like
To wanna surrender?
I don't wanna feel like this tomorrow
I don't wanna live like this today
Make me feel better, I wanna feel better
Stay with me here now and never surrender
Never surrender
Do you know what it's like when
You're not who you wanna be?
Do you know what it's like to
Be your own worst enemy
Who sees the things in me I can't hide?
Do you know what it's like
To wanna surrender?
I don't wanna feel like this tomorrow
I don't wanna live like this today
Make me feel better, I wanna feel better
Stay with me here now and never surrender
Make me feel better, you make me feel better
You make me feel better, put me back together
I don't wanna feel like this tomorrow
I don't wanna live like this today
Make me feel better, I need to feel better
Stay with me here now and never surrender
Put me back together
Never surrender, make me feel better
You make me feel better
Stay with me here now and never surrender
You're scared to see yourself?
Do you know what it's like when
You wish you were someone else
Who didn't need your help to get by?
Do you know what it's like
To wanna surrender?
I don't wanna feel like this tomorrow
I don't wanna live like this today
Make me feel better, I wanna feel better
Stay with me here now and never surrender
Never surrender
Do you know what it's like when
You're not who you wanna be?
Do you know what it's like to
Be your own worst enemy
Who sees the things in me I can't hide?
Do you know what it's like
To wanna surrender?
I don't wanna feel like this tomorrow
I don't wanna live like this today
Make me feel better, I wanna feel better
Stay with me here now and never surrender
Make me feel better, you make me feel better
You make me feel better, put me back together
I don't wanna feel like this tomorrow
I don't wanna live like this today
Make me feel better, I need to feel better
Stay with me here now and never surrender
Put me back together
Never surrender, make me feel better
You make me feel better
Stay with me here now and never surrender
lack of art and other updates
Posted 14 years agoHey there
Sorry for the lack of new art in my gallery, but I think I got an art-blog..
I can't really seem to figure any themes or motives out for drawings or photos, and
I don't really feel like being creative these days.
I hope to get back into doing some new art soon, but I think It'll take some time.
And right at the moment I'm trying to get some real life stuff to work.
Have some things with my therapist, my school and the municipality.
I'm also trying to stop smoking and I really feel like I have too little time for everything
at the moment.
I need to see my mom more, need to get back in shape, attend guitar lessons, attend school, hang out with freinds, be social with my family, go to therapy, talk to my doctor about alot of stuff and figure that thing out with the municipality...
I know it ain't much compared to others, but it's alot to me and I am forgetting things quickly because of all the stuff I need to do and get checked or sorted out..
So that's kind of it for the time being :)
Sorry for the lack of new art in my gallery, but I think I got an art-blog..
I can't really seem to figure any themes or motives out for drawings or photos, and
I don't really feel like being creative these days.
I hope to get back into doing some new art soon, but I think It'll take some time.
And right at the moment I'm trying to get some real life stuff to work.
Have some things with my therapist, my school and the municipality.
I'm also trying to stop smoking and I really feel like I have too little time for everything
at the moment.
I need to see my mom more, need to get back in shape, attend guitar lessons, attend school, hang out with freinds, be social with my family, go to therapy, talk to my doctor about alot of stuff and figure that thing out with the municipality...
I know it ain't much compared to others, but it's alot to me and I am forgetting things quickly because of all the stuff I need to do and get checked or sorted out..
So that's kind of it for the time being :)
New youtube channel + random updates :3
Posted 14 years agoHey furballs
So I just made a new channel on youtube, mainly because I wanna be able to do blog videos
and the likes and discuss stuff with people online through videos.
But also to talk about my experiences with different topics(mainly being transgendered).
If any of you is interested in watching my videos, here's a link: http://www.youtube.com/user/SimonFo.....p?feature=mhum
Other random stuff... I'm broke..
I have 2 projects still going on regarding reference sheets for atleast 2 of my characters.
I finished the request I had on my 'to do' list :D
Aaaaand that's it for now.. bye :3
So I just made a new channel on youtube, mainly because I wanna be able to do blog videos
and the likes and discuss stuff with people online through videos.
But also to talk about my experiences with different topics(mainly being transgendered).
If any of you is interested in watching my videos, here's a link: http://www.youtube.com/user/SimonFo.....p?feature=mhum
Other random stuff... I'm broke..
I have 2 projects still going on regarding reference sheets for atleast 2 of my characters.
I finished the request I had on my 'to do' list :D
Aaaaand that's it for now.. bye :3
Updates
Posted 14 years agoSo.. it's been some time since my last update, and I've managed to get all my new furniture in and the old ones out.
It was alot of work and I lived in the biggest mess that have ever been in my room for about 2-3 days. And even when I got some of my furniture in I still had nowhere to put the giant pile of stuff on my floor.
But now that everthing is up, I am back and running.
This means that I am able to draw again both traditionally and digitally.
Though you must already have known, since I uploaded 5 pictures since I got my room done. :3
PROJECT:
I am doing kind of a project atm, and It's going to take a while for it to get done.
It's a reference sheet for Boscoe, Beagan and Tokie, since I haven't gotten any real reference for them yet. Got Boscoe's and Beagan's main reference sketched out, but still need alot before they're ready to be colored and such.
It was alot of work and I lived in the biggest mess that have ever been in my room for about 2-3 days. And even when I got some of my furniture in I still had nowhere to put the giant pile of stuff on my floor.
But now that everthing is up, I am back and running.
This means that I am able to draw again both traditionally and digitally.
Though you must already have known, since I uploaded 5 pictures since I got my room done. :3
PROJECT:
I am doing kind of a project atm, and It's going to take a while for it to get done.
It's a reference sheet for Boscoe, Beagan and Tokie, since I haven't gotten any real reference for them yet. Got Boscoe's and Beagan's main reference sketched out, but still need alot before they're ready to be colored and such.
Christmas art raffle drawings!
Posted 14 years agoSo, since I'm a bit busy the next 2 days with preperations for christmas eve and celebrating christmas with my family, I thought I'd upload the drawings for the winners of my art raffle. Remember these are simple, flat colored drawings, so no big, fancy anything :b
So here are the links:
For
iLos http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4977131
For
charzek http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4977140
For
silleren http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4977157
For
sinatzeek http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4977175
Hope you guys/girls like, even though these were quickies :3
Merry christmas and a happy new year to all of you ^^
So here are the links:
For

For

For

For

Hope you guys/girls like, even though these were quickies :3
Merry christmas and a happy new year to all of you ^^
Commission List
Posted 14 years agoCommissions:
Trades:
Colaborations:
Requests:
Gifts/prizes:
Art Status:
Trades:
Colaborations:
Requests:
Gifts/prizes:
Art Status:
Commission Info And Prices
Posted 14 years agoThis journal will contain info about the commissions, what I make and prices. Note that you wont find my art status and commission list in this journal. You can find these on my main page and here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1944167/
What I make:
-Badges digital (Done digital and send by email NOTE: I might not be able to print these.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10880108/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16450231/
-Badges Traditional (done traditional with markers, colored pencils or watercolor, laminated and send.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4808052/
-Traditional media drawings/paintings (Done in traditional medias, with or without background.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13880647/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3541129/
-Digital media drawings (Done digital, with or without background.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16377699/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17600012/
-Pet portraits (Done digital, with or without background.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10729405/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9217356/
-Icons/avatars (Done digital, with background or transperant.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19906524/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16260838/
-Reference sheets (Done digitally, with or without background color)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10637339/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11748044/
-Lineart (Done as traditional or digital art)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17806567/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3590486/
-Sketches (Done either traditional or digital. Can be colored.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10312666/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8579641/
-Other (If you have another idea for something you'd like to commission, please let me know, and I'll see if I can make this.)
Adult Art (Done traditional or digital. With or without color.)
Examples: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12113828/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19764495/
About adult art:
I prefer people being 18+ when commissioning these, but It's not a requirement.
Prices:
-Badge (digital): emailed/6$ laminated/8$
-Badge (Traditional): 10$
-Traditional media drawing: from 20$
-Digital media drawing: from 20$
-Pet portrait: from 30$
-Icon/avatar: 6$
-Reference sheet: from 20$
-Lineart: 10$
-Sketch: from 5$
-Other: ?
The above prices are base prices. This means that a specific commission can be more expensive, depending on how complex it is, how many characters are involved etc.
Therefor these prices are guidelines, and they may not be the end price for YOUR commission.
Prices on badges and traditional art are not including shipping costs, since these depends on where you live.
If you're in doubt, you're welcome to note me with a commission idea, and I'll put a price on it. (this doesn't mean you need to actually commission me.)
NOTE: Prices may change!
How to commission me:
(Please read the Terms and Conditions first.)
1. Send me a note with your commission here on FA. Do NOT comment in this journal!
2. Wait for me to respond on your note, I may be busy but I will get to you as quick as possible. (later contact may be through email.)
3. When the commission is set, and a price is made, you will need to send payment(If you are on a waiting list, you wont need to pay before It's your turn.).
You will receive updates on your commission after every step in the process. And if you've commissioned a badge, you will also get updates when I mail/send it to you. The commission will be uploaded here on FA and you will receive the original piece or a copy in true size and resolution(digital art).
Remember, you can always back down on a commission IF you haven't payed for it yet.
And you can always make changes on the commission IF the work hasn't started yet, and the changes doesn't result in a price change.
If I got something wrong on your commission please be sure to tell me this before I finish up the piece
so that I can make the needed changes before it gets too complicated and time consuming.
How to pay:
Payments will be received through PayPal, via bank transfer or via mobilepay(for danes only) so
please make sure you can use one of these payment methods.
Date of payment can be before or after a piece is made, depending on what kind
of piece it is and if it's a specific offer.
Paypal: simonsteffensen[at]hotmail.com
Bank info will be noted to you during the commissioning process
and only if you can actually do bank transfers to danish bank accounts.
Terms and Conditions:
Here's a link for the Terms and Conditions journal, please read this BEFORE making a commission: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1258854/
What I make:
-Badges digital (Done digital and send by email NOTE: I might not be able to print these.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10880108/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16450231/
-Badges Traditional (done traditional with markers, colored pencils or watercolor, laminated and send.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4808052/
-Traditional media drawings/paintings (Done in traditional medias, with or without background.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13880647/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3541129/
-Digital media drawings (Done digital, with or without background.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16377699/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17600012/
-Pet portraits (Done digital, with or without background.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10729405/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9217356/
-Icons/avatars (Done digital, with background or transperant.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19906524/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16260838/
-Reference sheets (Done digitally, with or without background color)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10637339/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11748044/
-Lineart (Done as traditional or digital art)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17806567/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3590486/
-Sketches (Done either traditional or digital. Can be colored.)
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10312666/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8579641/
-Other (If you have another idea for something you'd like to commission, please let me know, and I'll see if I can make this.)
Adult Art (Done traditional or digital. With or without color.)
Examples: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12113828/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19764495/
About adult art:
I prefer people being 18+ when commissioning these, but It's not a requirement.
Prices:
-Badge (digital): emailed/6$ laminated/8$
-Badge (Traditional): 10$
-Traditional media drawing: from 20$
-Digital media drawing: from 20$
-Pet portrait: from 30$
-Icon/avatar: 6$
-Reference sheet: from 20$
-Lineart: 10$
-Sketch: from 5$
-Other: ?
The above prices are base prices. This means that a specific commission can be more expensive, depending on how complex it is, how many characters are involved etc.
Therefor these prices are guidelines, and they may not be the end price for YOUR commission.
Prices on badges and traditional art are not including shipping costs, since these depends on where you live.
If you're in doubt, you're welcome to note me with a commission idea, and I'll put a price on it. (this doesn't mean you need to actually commission me.)
NOTE: Prices may change!
How to commission me:
(Please read the Terms and Conditions first.)
1. Send me a note with your commission here on FA. Do NOT comment in this journal!
2. Wait for me to respond on your note, I may be busy but I will get to you as quick as possible. (later contact may be through email.)
3. When the commission is set, and a price is made, you will need to send payment(If you are on a waiting list, you wont need to pay before It's your turn.).
You will receive updates on your commission after every step in the process. And if you've commissioned a badge, you will also get updates when I mail/send it to you. The commission will be uploaded here on FA and you will receive the original piece or a copy in true size and resolution(digital art).
Remember, you can always back down on a commission IF you haven't payed for it yet.
And you can always make changes on the commission IF the work hasn't started yet, and the changes doesn't result in a price change.
If I got something wrong on your commission please be sure to tell me this before I finish up the piece
so that I can make the needed changes before it gets too complicated and time consuming.
How to pay:
Payments will be received through PayPal, via bank transfer or via mobilepay(for danes only) so
please make sure you can use one of these payment methods.
Date of payment can be before or after a piece is made, depending on what kind
of piece it is and if it's a specific offer.
Paypal: simonsteffensen[at]hotmail.com
Bank info will be noted to you during the commissioning process
and only if you can actually do bank transfers to danish bank accounts.
Terms and Conditions:
Here's a link for the Terms and Conditions journal, please read this BEFORE making a commission: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1258854/
DO NOT COMMENT TO THIS JOURNAL!
Slepping cub/puppy - FREE requests!!! *CLOSED*
Posted 15 years agoI am taking FREE requests on my slepping cub and sleeping puppy linearts.
The lineart is already made, and all you have to do is go to the submission, and
comment.
Write the following:
Name:
Species:
(link to reference)
Then I'll make a sleeping cub/puppy for you of your fursona! :3
[i]NOTE: I wont be making to many changes on the lineart,
unless it doesn't fit your feline/canine at all![/i]
Feline/ sleeping cub:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4593721/
Canine/ sleeping puppy:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4593595
Request list:
The lineart is already made, and all you have to do is go to the submission, and
comment.
Write the following:
Name:
Species:
(link to reference)
Then I'll make a sleeping cub/puppy for you of your fursona! :3
[i]NOTE: I wont be making to many changes on the lineart,
unless it doesn't fit your feline/canine at all![/i]
Feline/ sleeping cub:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4593721/
Canine/ sleeping puppy:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4593595
Request list:
OMG great news!!! ^^
Posted 15 years agoI just lost THE GAME!
and got top grades in english today :b
and got top grades in english today :b
I cost 413.00$ a night! xD
Posted 15 years agoStolen from
Drake_theGreen
Natural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $10.00
[ ] Blonde - $7.50
[ ] Black - $1.50
[ ] Bald - $0.50
[ ] Other - $5.00
Total: $10.00
Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $5.00
[ ] Green - $10.00
[x] Blue - $15.00
[ ] Hazel - $7.50
[ ] Other - $1.50
Total: $25.00
Height:
[ ] Over 7' - $20.00
[ ] 6'8" to 7' - $17.50
[ ] 6'0" to 6'7" - $15.00
[ ] 5'5" to 5'11" - $7.50
[ ] 5'4" to 5'10" - $8.50
[x] Under 5'4" - $9.50
Total: $34.50
Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $17.50
[ ] 46 to 50 - $15.00
[ ] 41 to 45 - $12.50
[ ] 31 to 40 - $10.00
[ ] 26 to 30 - $7.50
[ ] 21 to 25 - $5.00
[ ] 19 to 20 - $2.50
[x] 0 to 18 - $10.00
Total: $44.50
Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $75.00
[ ] First Born - $32.00
[ ] Only Child - $25.00
[ ] Second born - $15.00
[ ] Middle child - $10.00
[ ] Last Born - $10.00
[x] third born - $55.00
[ ] fourth born - $30.00
[ ] fifth born - $40.00
[ ] sixth born -$21.50
Total: $99.50
Drink?
[ ] I did like once - $40.00
[x] Only Holidays or Occasions - $25.00
[ ] Sometimes - $21.50
[ ] YES - $20.00
[ ] only weekends - $30.00
[ ] Every other day - $5.00
[ ] Once a day - $1.50
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[ ] No - $60.00
Total: $124.50
Vision?
[x] perfect vision $40.00
[ ] need/have glasses/contacts but don't wear them $20.00
[ ] No correction $10.00
[ ] Glasses $5.00
[ ] contacts $2.50
[ ] Surgical correction -$10.00
Total: $164.50
Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $30.00
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $25.00
[ ] 11 to 12 - $40.00
[x] 7 to 10 - $50.00
[ ] Under 7- $45.00
Total so far: $214.50
Favorite Colors (two):
[ ] Green-$75.00
[ ] Red - $60.00
[x] Black - $10.00
[ ] Yellow -$47.50
[ ] Brown - $30.00
[ ] Purple - $22.50
[x] White - $40.00
[ ] Aqua - $35.00
[ ] Orange - $30.00
[ ] Blue - $30.00
[ ] Pink - $10.00
[ ] Other - $50.00
Total: $264.50
Letter your middle name(s) start with:
[ ] a-f - $5.00
[x] g-k - $17.50
[ ] l-p - $30.00
[ ] q-u - $35.00
[ ] v-z -$25.00
Total: $282.00
Bedroom walls- select all that apply!
[x] white - $11.00
[ ] green - $33.00
[ ] black - $11.00
[ ] purple - $22.00
[ ] orange/red/yellow - $33.00
[ ] blue - $22.00
[ ] other - $35.00
Total: $293.00
First letter of the person you last talked to
[ ] a,b,c,d,e,f,g,h,i - $10.00
[ ] j,k,l,m,n,o,p,q,r - $5.00
[x] s,t,u,v,w,x,y, - $20.00
[ ] z - $25.00
Total: $313.00
Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[x]Nope- $100.00
[ ] some- $75.00
Final Total: $413.00
Re-Post as "I Cost $_________ a Night"

Natural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $10.00
[ ] Blonde - $7.50
[ ] Black - $1.50
[ ] Bald - $0.50
[ ] Other - $5.00
Total: $10.00
Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $5.00
[ ] Green - $10.00
[x] Blue - $15.00
[ ] Hazel - $7.50
[ ] Other - $1.50
Total: $25.00
Height:
[ ] Over 7' - $20.00
[ ] 6'8" to 7' - $17.50
[ ] 6'0" to 6'7" - $15.00
[ ] 5'5" to 5'11" - $7.50
[ ] 5'4" to 5'10" - $8.50
[x] Under 5'4" - $9.50
Total: $34.50
Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $17.50
[ ] 46 to 50 - $15.00
[ ] 41 to 45 - $12.50
[ ] 31 to 40 - $10.00
[ ] 26 to 30 - $7.50
[ ] 21 to 25 - $5.00
[ ] 19 to 20 - $2.50
[x] 0 to 18 - $10.00
Total: $44.50
Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $75.00
[ ] First Born - $32.00
[ ] Only Child - $25.00
[ ] Second born - $15.00
[ ] Middle child - $10.00
[ ] Last Born - $10.00
[x] third born - $55.00
[ ] fourth born - $30.00
[ ] fifth born - $40.00
[ ] sixth born -$21.50
Total: $99.50
Drink?
[ ] I did like once - $40.00
[x] Only Holidays or Occasions - $25.00
[ ] Sometimes - $21.50
[ ] YES - $20.00
[ ] only weekends - $30.00
[ ] Every other day - $5.00
[ ] Once a day - $1.50
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[ ] No - $60.00
Total: $124.50
Vision?
[x] perfect vision $40.00
[ ] need/have glasses/contacts but don't wear them $20.00
[ ] No correction $10.00
[ ] Glasses $5.00
[ ] contacts $2.50
[ ] Surgical correction -$10.00
Total: $164.50
Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $30.00
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $25.00
[ ] 11 to 12 - $40.00
[x] 7 to 10 - $50.00
[ ] Under 7- $45.00
Total so far: $214.50
Favorite Colors (two):
[ ] Green-$75.00
[ ] Red - $60.00
[x] Black - $10.00
[ ] Yellow -$47.50
[ ] Brown - $30.00
[ ] Purple - $22.50
[x] White - $40.00
[ ] Aqua - $35.00
[ ] Orange - $30.00
[ ] Blue - $30.00
[ ] Pink - $10.00
[ ] Other - $50.00
Total: $264.50
Letter your middle name(s) start with:
[ ] a-f - $5.00
[x] g-k - $17.50
[ ] l-p - $30.00
[ ] q-u - $35.00
[ ] v-z -$25.00
Total: $282.00
Bedroom walls- select all that apply!
[x] white - $11.00
[ ] green - $33.00
[ ] black - $11.00
[ ] purple - $22.00
[ ] orange/red/yellow - $33.00
[ ] blue - $22.00
[ ] other - $35.00
Total: $293.00
First letter of the person you last talked to
[ ] a,b,c,d,e,f,g,h,i - $10.00
[ ] j,k,l,m,n,o,p,q,r - $5.00
[x] s,t,u,v,w,x,y, - $20.00
[ ] z - $25.00
Total: $313.00
Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[x]Nope- $100.00
[ ] some- $75.00
Final Total: $413.00
Re-Post as "I Cost $_________ a Night"
The wolf is going on camp
Posted 15 years agoHey all !
I have sketched out Mangopaws's and Lowlow64's drawings, and am trying to get them both done for tomorow.
This is beacause I'm leaving for a camp on wedensday and not returning before monday the week after.
Soo there for you guys have to be patient and wait till next week, where I'll probably get more requests done.
Also I am sry to say, that after this round I won't be able to take in new requests in a couple of mounths.
This is due to my upcoming exams, and they're pretty important for my future, so I'm focusing on them instead of requests and trades.
I'll do some projects of my own in that period though.
btw. made this quick cute animation:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3624602
I have sketched out Mangopaws's and Lowlow64's drawings, and am trying to get them both done for tomorow.
This is beacause I'm leaving for a camp on wedensday and not returning before monday the week after.
Soo there for you guys have to be patient and wait till next week, where I'll probably get more requests done.
Also I am sry to say, that after this round I won't be able to take in new requests in a couple of mounths.
This is due to my upcoming exams, and they're pretty important for my future, so I'm focusing on them instead of requests and trades.
I'll do some projects of my own in that period though.
btw. made this quick cute animation:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3624602