Look look!! >w<

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52274323/

I am now no longer in a Disambiguation State
I've gone through my gallery and bapped a submission just to be on the safe side (it's archived essentially, can go back up later on)

The hasky brain can relax
uwu
And I wish you a good huggies =w=

Btw there's going to a be a Funny Thing which I am going to do and it might require you to click two buttons to see more stuff buh bai!!!!!!! <w>

>>>>>>> https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10557600 <<<<<<<<<

The attitude of this public statement is good news for us and a massive relief for me.
Things to note in particular:

- Is that they're not going to be extremely harsh on the enforcement at the beginning; for up to 90 days after 1st of July it won't be a severe offense.

- They've listened to us, officially, on how we wanted better communication and acknowledged that people were worried sick. This is huge because it means that they've got a growth mindset, and will learn from community feedback. I've been trying my best to suspend disbelief but was worried sick that a "sorry not sorry :)" type of public statement would be posted. So this has cemented my trust in the staff.

- Ultimately the ONLY change that happened in this internal update is that the scope of what is a Minor was expanded to include Digimon/Pokemon and this happened BECAUSE there were so many trouble tickets from users, of which (conjecture) I imagine are people going "ummm this canonically accurate Mew kind of looks like a minor.." So the outlook on the policy is quite good; And yes there are some Digimon and Pokemon that kindda ARE baby-like / child representing and those need to aged up. It's not a blanket ban on certain Digimon/Pokemon that you can't draw them even if you age them up, because that's a worry I had in particular.

Let us emotionally reward the staff for being open like this. Raise concerns and clarifications right now, but be gentle. Remember, trust has been an issue for many years, so guide them on how we want them to manage us.

For those who are scared and angry about Internal Policy change like I am..
I'm doing my homework to keep you updated with what's going on in real-time!
I am giving evidence and doing my best to clearly separate fact from conjecture

>>>>>>> https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:59913942 <<<<<<<<

IMPORTANT

- If you have sent trouble tickets that have gotten a response
- You have screenshots of moderation team saying that specific submissions are bannable
- You are compiling a list of trouble tickets and their moderator responses

PLEASE note me/DM me the info or share links in this journal

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NOTE: I am giving live updates by editing this journal whenever I learn something new about the situation.
Scroll to the bottom to see my comments with any live updates

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So a lot of people are worried about the INTERNAL update to AUP Section 2.7

Are you worried or angry? Do you like sexualizing minors? Are you Fur Affinity staff? This journal is for YOU.

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THE PROBLEM

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So I'd like to spread some awareness first.
The better we can understand the big picture, the less stressed we will all be. So let me give you my current best understanding of the history.

So years ago, FA banned cubs. At the time of writing this journal, I'm not actually sure why! https://en.wikifur.com/wiki/History_of_Fur_Affinity
But no doubt that FA staff will be under pressure to comply with US regulations, from advertisers / search engines, and that a payment processor actually dropped FA citing that reason.. but also because it's a real problem on platforms like these and we need to protect the young'uns. Funding is important for FA, it is THE biggest furry website right now with the largest and most active community and so they need to maintain it.

At some point, they added a very ambiguous clause in order to address the "1000 year old lolis", to address that trop because it is still risky enough to generate a lot of outside trouble. But at the same time, FA staff are only human and Language. Is. Ambiguous. so they also had internal confusion with their own moderation. So this internal policy update is not scary, it's actually GOOD NEWS because it means that they sat down and agreed upon internally, what exactly constitutes a minor?

So, right now, let me provide a framework for discussion for what I think FurAffinity intended for their definition of What is a Minor. Yes, to disambiguate what FA is REALLY trying to achieve here and for you to decide whether your "childlike proportions" are a problem to the platform or not.

The problem is not the childlike body alone: but rather, a childlike body coupled with a fascination with age
See ADDENDUM 1 for a constantly updated list.
Examples of "non-obvious" cases that will fall under this:

- The 1000 year old loli, aka "shes actually 1000 years old isnt it cute that she looks so young but is actually 1000? ;)"
- Asserting a characters age from a place of fear has no indication on whether they are fascinated with the age component.

- Minor identified by Duck Typing, aka Childlike proportions, No mention of age, specific emphasis on several Child-like behaviors (goes to school, is vulnerable, dependent on a caregiver, naive)
- Child-like behaviors are behaviors displayed by vulnerable people. Adults can also display child-like behaviors, hence terms like "manchild". What we are REALLY interested when we describe """childlike""" behavior is that there is an indication that this character is vulnerable and can be groomed BECAUSE THEY ARE YOUNG.

- Minor identified by publicly available evidence of the artist believing that it is ok to sexualize minors
- Type 1: "ok they may be technically a minor, you can't hurt pixels, only IRL pedos are bad"
- Type 2: Clear Agenda "I'm 'genuinely interested' in discussing it even though I have a 100% track record of explaining away evidence that disagrees with me, and will always blindly agree anything that supports my opinion, and my opinion is, whatever it is, loosen the definition of what a Minor is."
- Type 3: The Bad Eggs - Draws childlike bodies, but is coupled with a history of, especially when an upload policy update happens regarding minors, starts to: Threatening to leave FA, regularly is seen on journals panning the FA staff for factual (or even made up) mistakes, spreads mistrust ("Oh, FA doesn't actually give a shit about you, they want advertiser money"), regularly encouraging other platforms "Oh there's other websites that actually care about you, that's where I go ;)"

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To those who feel wrongly accused and caught in the crossfire.

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Yes. Yes, it's extremely frustrating and ironic. FurAffinity was founded so strongly in the idea that we're all furries, the last thing we want is to be judged.

So, let us go to the FurAffinity Staff and have open and honest communication. If FurAffinity is telling you that your content is cub stuff and you don't agree, we need to get people discussing. Maybe you might be right. Maybe you might be wrong.

But throwing your arms in frustration and losing trust in FurAffinity doesn't help you look good and will polarize the community further. The community is big, important and has a lot to offer to you. So yes, even if you genuinely believe your entire gallery is wrongly under question (it could happen!), it is in your interest to have open discussion about this.

PLUS: being open to discussion and genuinely agreeing that you think sexualizing minors is wrong puts you on the right track to be in this community. The problem here is that what a Minor is hasn't been publicly defined yet.

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To those who, deep down, know they like cub porn and are angry at FA for the hurt and guilt caused

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So you want people to stop thinking so hard about something that is so simple to you.
You don't want to feel like a bad person. It's just a bunch of pixels?

Allow me to turn this on its head for you and not even talk about whether it's right or wrong to sexualize minors.

Let me propose to you, an alternative: have you considered that, you do not need FurAffinity to validate your stance on it? Use FurAffinity to post anything that isn't a minor, there's other things you can enjoy bonding with other users over here.

This transcends whether it is ok or not. Whether it is legal or not. This is about how you can get more out of FurAffinity, suffer less yourself, and cause less suffering.

If you traverse journals posting comments about how the FA staff is bad, you will only feel worse. People will tell you why you are a monster. People will fight you. People will come up with valid arguments that hold merit. You will spend many hours suffering and trying to reconcile whether you deserve to exist and be happy or not rather than actually enjoying your life.

Do you want to be happy in life? Then engage smarter. I'm not even going to enter the rabbit hole of discussion on why I think you shouldn't even like cub porn, because what I am saying here transcends that point.

We have to live with each other. You might as well do your part to make it less of a living hell for yourself, and people you get into touch with. You want to be remembered as someone who people liked. So engage wisely, take the stuff elsewhere, knowing that harrassing the FurAffinity staff and people is going to get you NOTHING but pain.

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To the FA Staff: My recommendations

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If anyone from the FA staff is reading this, I have potential solutions for big picture problems like these!

So on one hand, you want your community to trust you, but you also do not want to give any more openings for people to find more loopholes. I may be wrong, but I am 95% sure that this is what's going on under the hood.

Leaving ambiguity in language sparks a lot of Bad Discussion. People start assuming what your intentions are and start to begin building a narrative of what FA's intentions are, either because they are scared that they're going to be the next false positive ban, or because they're operating under wrong assumptions, or because they're into minors and are bitter about the ban.

I highly, highly recommend open and honest communication here. Do things like creating megathreads where staff can go in there and see what kinds of ideas people are thinking - create FAQs about frequent misconceptions - make periodic updates to the AUP to update our evolving shared understanding on what is a Minor and Why sexualizing them is dangerous to this community

Like this, you leave little room for ambiguity - people will be less worried about being wrongly caught in the crossfire, and people who are trying to intentionally destabilize the community for the cub porn ban become far, far easier to identify. And if you identify edge cases? Ask for a temporary removal and discuss the issue with the public. You'll have bad eggs in the comments, they will try to do their harm, but once people *en masse* are more effectively educated on the big picture, these bad faith actors will find it harder and harder to do anything, and the people who are scared of losing their accounts will stop feeling scared.

Open and honest communication

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Why did I write this?

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Mental health is #1
I cannot stress how important mental health is for not just me, but EVERYONE.

FurAffinity has given me my online social life, it has picked me up from a lonely, desolate, unhealthy IRL and put me down in a place where I've met so many fun people who validate me. So FurAffinity is damn important to me personally.

I feel that big picture problems are rarely understood because often times, topics devolve into what I call "Untouchables" - where people are often punished for contributing to discussion to the point that they become jaded and stop caring.

I have spent years, years passively and then actively trying to figure out how to have good mental health.
Through learning and constantly updating my best understanding of reality, I have realized that THIS is the "meta" on how to achieve mental health: Learn and Disambiguate, eliminate Unknowns

And part of my mental health is FurAffinity.

It's tough for me to give such a long essay on such an Untouchable topic and I foresee that I may get some backlash myself, buuuuut.. it's important to discuss these things you know!

Mmmmmmwah! That's all! 💙

ADDENDUM 1: Ongoing, Updated list of my current best understanding of what constitutes a "Minor"

LINKS:
- Bobler's post on things to consider RE: upload policy changesp
- Angelbird's big-picture perspective on the staff's communication from their understanding
- My first post on the FA Forums https://discord.com/channels/991855.....94880809910292

- a Minor is stated to be, by the artist, under 18 years old OR is under the legal age considered by the species
- OR the character is drawn with childlike proportions and the character is officially known to be underage in the medium it appears in. Yes, Digimon babies are also babies in the official digimon world.
- OR has a childlike body and the artist expresses a clear fascination with young age
- OR has a childlike body and the artist publicly, currently expresses interest with the Age component. They are interested BECAUSE they look so youthful
- OR has a childlike body and the artist expresses the opinion that Minors in fantasy are acceptable to sexualize because no-one is getting hurt (wsache)

# Childlike proportions is 6.5 heads high
# Fascination with young age is defined specifically as fascination with young age in the region of adolesence or lower
- Fascination with young age can be proven if their art has been tagged as loli on another website and there is no reason to believe that this was a coordinated attack specifically to get someone else in trouble

# Introduction #
Hiiiiii!!

In light of seeing a common problem among friends I wanted to write a journal inspired by this qwq

Ok so!

We have problems and want to solve them. Maybe you don't draw because a lack of an established workflow paralyzes your progress, or that you're coloring things and it just doesn't *feel* right for the vibe you want.

Trial and error is very effective, but there is a risk to this.
It is human nature to want results when you put an effort into something, and if you're spending an inordinate amount of effort and achieving very little, your brain will command you to stop wasting energy.

This is where Learning is an effective tool for achieving your goals; it is a time saver when harnessed correctly.
But there are millions of tutorials out there, and being told "Just watch some tutorials and learn" or "just read the documentation" does not give you the necessary framework to do this correctly.

So what will happen to most is that, without proper guidance, people will enthusiastically sink many hours into learning, and if the d20 of life deems it so, they will meet several bad tutorials/resources or engage in resources in the wrong order, and after several hours they will realize that.. they're not getting anywhere. And if they're in their early stages, especially if not particularly important to them, they may decide they'd rather spend time on something that makes them feel good (or, far worse: that they're quitting art because they have no options left, and enter a painful cycle of quitting and restarting). Others have been deemed luckier by the great d20 of life and just have so much passion for art that they're willing to jump through all the hoops and eventually find a way. Others are deemed even luckier and just intuitively find out or are taught their Learning Strategy.

Chances are, if you are reading this exact sentence, that you're like how I spent years of my life - not so fortunate - so let's reroll your fate and turn you into one of those people who have the meta of learning all figured out... and we'll do this by me sharing my knowledge with you ;3

Remember, there's an inherent problem with learning itself: there is an unspoken meta to *knowing how to learn*. Let us call this Learning Strategy.

Here's a list of practical if-thens you can adopt in your Learning Strategy. Down the line, let me know if this has worked for you as much as it did for me!

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# Your Learning Resource keeps assuming that you already know certain parts of the process #

Solution: Put this resource on hold and switch your focus to learning the assumed knowledge

The risk of not doing this is losing trust in learning in general and forming a mental block around it, which means losing a tool that could be in your belt (which, if this particularly distresses you, skip straight to the last section)

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# Your Learning Resource doesn't address a problem that means anything to you #

Solution: Stop - create a list of art frustrations / goals that you have and this will be your guide on what tutorials, articles or questions to ask
- Your time is valuable. If you sink too much effort into learning without any results, you risk losing trust in learning from resources completely and may resort to pure trial-and-error, which is time consuming in its own way.

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# You've already lost trust in active learning, so it's hard to bother with it anymore even though you wish it didn't intimidate you #

This is only relevant if you're feeling things like: "Tutorials are scary. A lot of them are crappy."
Solution: First, start by fully accepting that it's NOT shameful to not want to actively learn! You don't feel like going to YouTube to watch tutorials, so what? It's not a big deal and don't let anyone shame you for it. Take some time to fully, genuinely accept that before proceeding. Second step now is, think of active learning as a tool to solve a really annoying problem. It's your ticket to getting what you want. That thing you really really want? You can use this tool. You can also hurt yourself with this tool. It's fascinating how it works and you have a curiosity for this tool. That is the frame of mind that will allow someone to un-stuck themselves, it's how to get what you've been craving.

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# You feel like you've "tried everything". Your problems are not technical, and learning technique doesn't only not address that, it adds stress to an already troubled state #

Relevant for those who feel "A tutorial on coloring isn't going to help me actually draw, I haven't drawn in 5 months / I don't color things / I don't post things and end up with a never ending backlog of art pieces I wish I could do / Every time I start drawing I feel disappointed and ashamed"
Solution: Stop learning from tutorials and redirect your #1 priority to learning about yourself and your situation. Your #1 priority is creating a Routine / Life Manifesto / Standard Operating Procedures, whatever you want to call it. It's a long, painful, and immensely rewarding process of addressing all the elephants in the room that have just been *there*, unresolved. List what frustrates you (e.g. can't draw), and then identify what are the factors that are causing this problem to happen (e.g. i'm afraid of being disappointed). You will then unearth the core of the problem, a cognitive dissonance that you have to make an authoritative decision about.
For example:
> "I wish I could draw something sexy"
-BUT-
> "Art is only sexy to me if it's good quality, and I cannot produce good quality work at my skill level"
In that case, you will need to focus on one of the statements and resolve the dissonance by creating a win-win scenario.

In that example, resolving it could mean authoritatively, permanently, truly, GENUINELY deciding to adopt any of these resolutions into your core beliefs:
- "For something to be sexy to me, it doesn't have to be good quality, it instead must (fuel my imagination / tickle my friends' fetishes) <3"
- "I don't feel like drawing sexy things, I want to draw funny things instead xD"
- "I thought I wanted to DRAW something sexy, but really and truly I just want the sexy art itself so I don't have to be the one drawing it so I'd rather commission it or browse online <3"
- "I thought I wanted to draw something sexy, but really I just want to experience sexy things <3"

So, many of these kind of resolutions will crop up and as you resolve them one by one, you will be less burdened and more able to figure out a way forward (hopefully one that involves you drawing, but it's entirely ok if it's not for you <3)

So, another question someone may ask is: Why not do both this internal resolution process AND learn from tutorials at the same time? The problem is that the risk of trying to juggle technical learning with this process of internally sorting yourself out is that, the nature of your problem is systematic and there's no one-size-fits all solution to it, and any resource that claims to be an "easy fix" is not to be trusted. There is no easy fix. And if you spread yourself thin you will distract yourself from the real priority and get stuck for years like I did. Life is complicated and there are multiple variables and the reason why (as an example) someone can't get themselves to draw can't just be boiled down to "10 simple steps". Take self-help content with a pinch of salt. It's not that self-help content is necessarily evil, but those "10 simple steps" can be things that work for some people, but don't work for others when put into practice. So you need to go through your emotional homework and figure out what is causing your large-scale problem, your learning is focused on learning yourself and how to manage the external pressures.

You may have financial pressures. Or are committed to too many responsibilities. Or have extremely low self-esteem. The underlying point you need to take away from this is is, that if you feel like you've "tried everything", then solving your art problem is not a matter of tutorials, it's dealing with the systematic problem.

Note that if you relate to this part, this doesn't imply that "barely coping". There is a sliding scale of dysfunction in a system - what this part of the journal is referring to is

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I hope this helps someone out there!!
Good luck and may this help you all >w<

I like sleeping, when I get enough of it I feel sooo much better and enjoy things more >w<
This has been today's fluffy husky shower thought

Everyone is going nuts, being weird as hell and I love it xD
It's like-

I just like it when April's Fool is about lying in a funny, even obvious way rather than causing inconveniences
"Just a Prank Bro" culture is DEAD!!!

Edit: oof. I'm looking at this journal and wanted to edit it. So ironically, April's Fool day marked the end of a year-long joke that evolved into a guilty pleasure, and since it's been almost a year in the making, it grew into a significantly unfunny betrayal rather a prank - because of all the smokes and mirrors that I deployed in sticking to the target. And at the end of the day, it was a big inconvenience to some close friends. I apologize and will do better. Y'all had enough experience with me to know that when I dun fuck up, I admit it right away and get to working on myself so I can do better, and make up however I can. The last thing I want to do is friendly fire on the same people who have helped me out, so I really carry my year-long April Fool's joke with shame. Love you all, and I am deeply grateful for the honor of a second chance <3

I know that at the end of the day, the only person I pranked was myself 😔🍞
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On a lighter note, I'm wondering whether to post my new completely SFW OC, that has no sexualization whatsoever! I posted it in the extreme embarrassing lewd channel in the server I frequent, i'm proud of her and feel free to ask if you like monsters uwu

I just love it so much when there's emphasis on someone flaunting their curvy body home-grown al naturale, and I looove it when someone is being loud and proud with their fake boobies

Just the emphasis excites me sooooo much!! It's like, "Look at me I have a balloon butt hehehe! And oh my god I love your natural curves you look super cute <3"

That's all. Stay freaky, fellow weirdos 💙

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Question for you about alts and edits
I noticed that on my drive there's a number of edits that I haven't posted anywhere.
I wanna show my boobie or fwoomp edits of some pics >w<
How would y'all best want me to approach this?

Gallery has been re-tagged and properly organized!
Yep! Take a look at the folders; not only sorted in neat lil categories for your viewing pleasure..
But also there are certain tags that you can filter in or out of!

Try look at these two examples!
(Search for all images that include the tag 'inflation')
(Search for all images without the tag 'dickgirl')

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Gallery update: I'm moving some of my extreme stuff to here!
Yep, that's right. The fat face succ and the paw stuff from my secret alt account is going here, especially now that people can view my stuff with negative keyword searches to not see stuff they don't like <3

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IRL Life Update
This year I'm looking forward to continuing my transitioning journey, I've been taking some exciting steps for it. I've been voice training with guidance, I've been going for laser hair removal, counseling, and I know a good endocrinologist who'll be able to help me out as well once she makes the necessary checks that it's safe to go on HRT.

Life has been peaceful these days, it hasn't been without problems but they've been relatively very minor. Doing the gastric bypass operation and losing the excess pounds really has helped me! It's triggered a domino effect of life improvements that I thought would never happen. The cure for my depression was finally beating the years-long uphill struggle to solve my life's major problems, and now there are no more unacceptable problems left - no more living in survival mode.

I got the good ending! 🥰

That's all. Go crazy and be bouncy! 💙

My health and energy has been on the up and up lately owing to some lifestyle changes and finally getting a hold of the help I needed.

A big operation is coming up that will consolidate these changes, and more imminently, I've been given a new drug that's helping me immensely with my energy levels. Because I'm big and my liver is a monster pills rarely have any noticeable effect but this is the one out of two that actually do have a noticeable effect.

I'm really happy I don't have to suffer the sleepy torture anymore. I'm just plain out of the woods now thanks to this.

*Hugs!!*

i literally need 12-14 hours of consecutive sleep to feel kind of ok, just not ok enough to really want to do much other than vegetate on video games and do my effortless chores
8 hours leaves me exhausted throughout the day, sleepy enough to not cope at work
less than 8 hours turns me into a disaster

what the literal, actual, everloving hell
i hope i lose weight soon so I can stop feeling like this and actually return to having fun working and drawing because I actually legit enjoy those when i'm not desperate for sleep

A stroke of luck? Playing my cards right? Family being reasonable? The situation's been resolved. I know what to do to prevent this from happening again. Plus there's light at the end of the tunnel because my family, defects and all, can actually help me diet in the new arrangement, without impacting my online lifestyle.

Hooray! I hope to, at the end of this year, lose 15 kilograms. That's the weight where I will stop getting the constant sleepiness and that'll help me become more active and put more goodies out there <3

Edit: I've settled on a compromise that doesn't affect my lifestyle as badly, so I'll be able to keep showing up at the times I usually do, thank goodness. I have my younger brother to thank for that. Thank goodness this whole situation is over.

Below is the original text for the sake of preserving history.

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Here I am at 03:12, seething with anger in bed for the past 4 hours. I've been coerced into staying at my parents' place, the same people who contributed to me being the emotional mess I am. They say they won't repeat past mistakes but I feel like I can't trust them after having trust broken so many times.

I've made a lot of progress on working on my flaws but I still crack every now and then when I am feeling sleepy.

But using mental health as a card to draw me back in is not ok. I am subtly being threatened that if I leave, I will get institutionalized again.

The irony is massive. I just want to go home and be alone and safe again. My older brother panicked and coerced me into staying as well so here I am against my will.

What the hell is even this ridiculous clown show of handling of mental health? They haven't tried obvious things like reassuring me and building up my ego. It's one big sham of people saying they care about you and then using information you confided to them to hurt and complicate your life.



Anyway, I'll do what I can to get things back to normal, I've got some new goodies to post!

From today till Friday I am going to make an experiment alone so I most won't be online often on Discord until then. If something's urgent, send me a note on Discord or FA and I'll respond. (And to clarify, the point is to spend 5 days avoiding as much stimulation as I can)

Things are going well overall, I'm living alone and extremely relieved. This is the peace I need to continue my journey.

Best of wishes to all of you!

I love the internet. I have been very well lately and good things are happening! Not without challenge, but I'm happy to say I've been stable and solid and filled with passion and drive. A number of things lined up to get me to this point and I'm taking a moment to cherish this moment after a long stretch of bad times.

Eeeeeee! That's all! Plenty of hugs for the online friendos especially over at Discord and here on FA! 😍

We're through 2021... I'm going to give you a hug and it's going to be big and floofy!

This felt like such a long year full of twists and turns. I'm not the only one who feels this way for sure.

I really appreciate all the friends I have online who I've had some fun times with. All the Drawpiles, games together, things we talked, the pain we shared, the successes we shared, the stories we told in voice chat, our Jackbox partying, movies we watched.. it really is just a really fulfilling social life and I wouldn't ask for anything more.

💖 I hope your holidays will be lovely 💖


P.S. I love you  ToastyYogurtTime 😄

So for the past month or two I've been having a pretty bad art block.

I have a scheduled time where it's time for me to draw and every day, day in day out, I get this massive internal reaction where I utterly don't want to start anything. Not even games. Eventually after enough staring I end up just playing games and chatting. In fact, it's affecting just about every aspect of my life where I put off anything that requires even a slight amount of delving into new territory or doing something unfamiliar.

I've got a backlog of goodies that deserve some coloring which I haven't posted here yet but I feel like I'm stuck and I need some advice.

Anyone got any thoughts on how to get this hasky out of this bleh art block?

hi

A moment of silence for my Genius PenSketch M912A. Yesterday, it has drawn its last line, drawing what it loved drawing best:

...boobies.

...

Ok, now I need suggestions on what graphics tablet to buy but I don't know where to start. I prefer a 9x12 inch surface size.

My maximum budget is 700 euro. Any help is super appreciated!










bonus Dianna secretly hiding in this journal

Heck yeah, I've just woken up a day after my 30th birthday. The birthday was definitely one of the best ones I've had! I got to spend lots of time with lovely friends, I got some birthday hasky drawings, and I drew some birthday stuff!

Thank you all for being such a pleasant group of friends and community!

Hello all! ^w^

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I wanted to make it clear what the Freaks For Harmony (FFH) Discord Server is about, so that people know what they're getting into:
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- Organizing group events / Voice chat (Drawpile, Gartic Telephone, Jackbox, Minecraft) .. especially on Saturdays and Sundays! I voice chat there a lot so if you want to hear my lovely voice you know what to do~
- Exploring our identities together, because we're all complex, amusing, twisted, a tiny bit broken, and we each can have our own "thing". I get a huge kick out of bonding with others by learning about what they like, and them finding out what I'm into! Especially since I always felt like I was a bit of an oddball so I feel very comfy with oddballs like me, thanks internet >w>

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The best way to get mileage out of the server is to:
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- Get involved in events / niche channels, they're a great way to break the ice
- Get other people's input about things you're interested in/amused about
- Simply post art or other things you're interested in that you think others may like too
- Whenever you're curious about someone, try asking them a few things to get to know them better

You can also lurk and observe if you prefer to sit by the sidelines, people will get the hint (and if they don't and you get pinged, just say that you're a little shy). There's also a bunch of side niche things going on, but you don't need to get into every single nook and cranny. So if you see a ton of channels, it's normal to mute most of them except for the ones you're interested in. If you feel intimidated or it's not what you expected, don't feel guilty about leaving, it's normal.

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How did it start?
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I originally created this server back in my Picarto streaming days where it became a weekly ritual to meet up and hang out while dual streaming while people participate. I wanted a more permanent place where I can meet the people I had a really great time with and do things with them. I never planned to make a Discord server because I preferred to be in other people's servers and I didn't want to create one unless I had a good reason to. And then a good reason came along!

That is all! Have a nice day! ^w^

Hello welcome to this upbeat journal about a serious topic, here's a hug to help foster the good vibe *hugs*

Starting from today I'm committing to a few changes to the way I carry myself.

I am going to start putting effort into life, I am going to be the me I want to be, I am going to go get it
I've put my cynicism behind me, and I'm going to do this without pretending or ignoring the realities of life
And most of all I am going to be more terse

What led to this doesn't matter anymore!
That's all. Many thanks for reading! 💗















... are you still here?

do you want another husky huggle? C'mere, I want you to indulge in my goofy online cringe if you're into that >w>

Also if you have something totally random to ask just ask me go on ◾◾◾ do it do it!!

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looks like all I needed was a lil' mental break~
my baseline mood is back to normal!

love you all ^w^