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Posted a year agoHello, I'm trying to get away from my deadname/username. And apparently you can't change your name on FA? So I am working on migrating everything over to a new profile. It'll have the current stuff re-uploaded, but i also have some new stuff to upload as well.
So, if ya want, go check it out! I'm gonna be getting art more often for my Shark and Kobold now, and life has been going pretty well lately. ^_^
Valdis~Yennefer
So, if ya want, go check it out! I'm gonna be getting art more often for my Shark and Kobold now, and life has been going pretty well lately. ^_^
Valdis~YenneferDoing Better.
Posted 2 years agoBeen a couple years since the last.
I'm doing better, it's still a big struggle though. But! Here's some cool stuff.
I have had a kobold OC/Sona for a bit, but couldn't get art for her. She started as a VRChat avatar that I edited and that served as the basis. A friend gifted me a commission slot with someone for my birthday! So My wonderful Kobold girl has an adorable reference now, go check it out. I'm just the cutest punk rock, 3 foot, anarchist lizard ever.
I've been on HRT for almost 15 months now! It's great, emotions feel more real and powerful now, my body is slowly becoming more of MY body, and I'm getting some confidence back. I'm kinda cute now.
Transition is going good! My hair loss stopped and is reversing, my face is more feminine now, weight/fat is slowly going away from other areas and going to my hips, butt, and breast. Body hair is very thin and much much more sparse, and is much lighter in color. I HAVE BOOBS NOW! 15 months apparently is enough for me to have D-DD cups? lol
My voice is hard to deal with though, voice training is very difficult and I do not have a support group.
About 3 months ago (I still can't believe I got this), I was able to legally change my name and gender marker IDs. Such a fantastic feeling.
I have a corgi!! A real one! She just turned 2yo a couple weeks ago. She's been wonderful as emotional support for me, her name is Astrid Toes-bane. She is such a spoiled princess and I love her so much, she loves meeting new people and going to the drive through for McNuggets and pup-cups.
I'm trying to learn a couple music instruments. I've absolutely no knowledge of music or how to read notes or anything. But I'm trying to teach myself. I can't afford lessons and the area I live in isn't safe for me to be out in public. I've got a Mandolin and Kalimba.
There's plenty of bad things that've happened in the 2 years since the last Journal, but I don't wanna bore anyone with everything. But, Please PLEASE, support your LGBTQ communities and continue to stand against all the hate and genocide that the Conservatives keep pushing against the Trans community. We are suffering and being attacked, I've gone through a lot of it myself. We are being killed, assaulted, discriminated against, denied basic health care, and denied jobs.
I'm doing better, it's still a big struggle though. But! Here's some cool stuff.
I have had a kobold OC/Sona for a bit, but couldn't get art for her. She started as a VRChat avatar that I edited and that served as the basis. A friend gifted me a commission slot with someone for my birthday! So My wonderful Kobold girl has an adorable reference now, go check it out. I'm just the cutest punk rock, 3 foot, anarchist lizard ever.
I've been on HRT for almost 15 months now! It's great, emotions feel more real and powerful now, my body is slowly becoming more of MY body, and I'm getting some confidence back. I'm kinda cute now.
Transition is going good! My hair loss stopped and is reversing, my face is more feminine now, weight/fat is slowly going away from other areas and going to my hips, butt, and breast. Body hair is very thin and much much more sparse, and is much lighter in color. I HAVE BOOBS NOW! 15 months apparently is enough for me to have D-DD cups? lol
My voice is hard to deal with though, voice training is very difficult and I do not have a support group.
About 3 months ago (I still can't believe I got this), I was able to legally change my name and gender marker IDs. Such a fantastic feeling.
I have a corgi!! A real one! She just turned 2yo a couple weeks ago. She's been wonderful as emotional support for me, her name is Astrid Toes-bane. She is such a spoiled princess and I love her so much, she loves meeting new people and going to the drive through for McNuggets and pup-cups.
I'm trying to learn a couple music instruments. I've absolutely no knowledge of music or how to read notes or anything. But I'm trying to teach myself. I can't afford lessons and the area I live in isn't safe for me to be out in public. I've got a Mandolin and Kalimba.
There's plenty of bad things that've happened in the 2 years since the last Journal, but I don't wanna bore anyone with everything. But, Please PLEASE, support your LGBTQ communities and continue to stand against all the hate and genocide that the Conservatives keep pushing against the Trans community. We are suffering and being attacked, I've gone through a lot of it myself. We are being killed, assaulted, discriminated against, denied basic health care, and denied jobs.
I'm not okay
Posted 4 years agoThis has been the worst year of my life, a constant battle with just... wanting to exist.
I had a fiance, friends, a job. It's all gone.
I'll try to keep it short, there's so many details to everything, but the general idea is here. I know everyone's tired of seeing bad things. I just wanted to update where I've been and what's going on.
My Fiance was cheating all through 2020, and blamed it on her ADHD. Told me right before Christmas that she "remembered". Said we would be ok and go to couple's counseling and she'd spend time with me, she was full of lies, she did none of those things. She left this year, back in March. Her friends (my former friends now) and her just took her stuff while I was out at the store.
I couldn't afford to stay in our apartment, I got an offer from a friend up north to live with her and her mom and I could start my Etsy store.
I quit my exploitive job with toxic management and moved.
That turned into a huge wreck, my friend's mom was a terrible abusive person, my friend stayed with her Fiance, and I was alone with her mom, and struggling to make it through on my own with anxiety attacks and remembering my fiance.
I couldn't stay up there, couldn't afford to support her crazy mom or get my own place alone. So after working so hard, being a good person, doing everything I could for the woman I loved, getting a home with her... losing it all...
I'm back in my toxic parent's home.
While living up north for a month or two, I at least got to see my two friends there a few weekends. and being away from everything I was able to think and explore some things that had been on my mind. And I'm pretty sure I'm transgender, I feel that I should have been a woman, and should have been able to figure that out sooner.
All year I've been trying to get help. The American health care system keeps letting me down.
My impacted wisdom teeth exploded under their own pressure over 2 months ago, dentists told me they couldn't help, or that the doctor didn't like queer people, or the soonest they could get me in was months away.
My old therapist's office isn't taking me in for new appointments because I was already "cured" last year and was on meds.
Well, they also fired my doctor, told me they would get a replacement, I had an appointment, the doctor ghosted me. they don't return my calls, and during the worst time of my life, I was cut off from my anxiety and depression meds.
I have sleep apnea, my airway gets obstructed by my tonsils, soft pallet, and uvula. I stop breathing and choke in my sleep. My now Ex-fiance told me about it when we were together and that she'd help me find a doctor, she never made the slightest effort to help, she was too busy cheating.
My Ex angered a lot of people, her friends passive aggressively harassed me. Before she had left me, she picked political fights with one of my oldest time friends, and co-founder of our local LEGO group. I tried to talk to him, but he was too far gone to listen to me.
I resigned and left the group I had founded after 10 years.
Through her manipulations and other actions, I've lost more friends.
Everyone lives so far away or is too busy for me. I'm alone here with my transphobic, conservative, super religious parents. Their home is a mess, I'm trying to clean it on my own, it's very slow work. It's not healthy here. And all my friends have moved away, I'm alone, this city has lost so much.
Mentally... I've pretty much checked out.
I can't feel positive emotions anymore, every day since March 6th, has had me missing my fiance. Constantly feeling betrayed and worthless.
I feel I make progress, but then something reminds me about her. Some friends have not been helpful, just telling me to get over her like it's just some casual girl friend. They've gaslighted me, saying I'm upset over nothing, my feelings are not valid.
I haven't been able to bring myself to go to her favorite stores. or play the games we used to play together.
I have to stop myself from ordering for her at places she liked. For a moment I start to order her dish, thinking I'll bring it home and surprise her... that she's still home, waiting for me to get back from work and give her kisses. I still wake up sometimes, rolling over and putting my arm over-nothing-, there's no one there.
I'm so angry at her... but I still fucking miss her, so damn much. My heart is empty, broken, and worthless.
I constantly have nightmares now, I don't like to sleep. I wake up from them, thinking for a second that she'll be there to tell me it's ok.
I'm. really struggling. Everything is a monumental effort, just to get up and feed myself is hard. If it wasn't for being responsible for some animals, I wouldn't get up.
I've got a handful of friends that have been very supportive and caring. but I think I'm just annoying everyone. They tried to help and give advice, but my life is just hot garbage and nothing has worked out. I don't want to bother them anymore. They're happy with their own relationships, they'll be ok.
I'm tired of failing everyone... failing myself. I'm just a monumental failure and a letdown.
I had covid at the end of the year/start of this year. A bit after she had told me she was cheating. And I'll be honest. I fucking wish I hadn't survived. I would have rather died and not seen her continue to lie and emotionally abuse me. I would have rather died than seen her leave me without even trying to fix things, just throwing me away like an old used up bag.
My life, myself.... it's just broken and shattered, and I don't know if there are pieces left to pick back up.
I'm not okay.
I'm just... so tired. I just want to lie down and stop hurting.
Anyway, my friends, if you read this, I'm sorry for being such a burden. I've squandered your help and support and I just kept failing. I'm sorry.
And if my Ex-Fiance ever sees anything, I hope you're okay and happy. I hope you kept learning to paint, and get to go on trips to your favorite places still. I'm sorry you wasted your time with me. You were the best thing to happen to me.
I had a fiance, friends, a job. It's all gone.
I'll try to keep it short, there's so many details to everything, but the general idea is here. I know everyone's tired of seeing bad things. I just wanted to update where I've been and what's going on.
My Fiance was cheating all through 2020, and blamed it on her ADHD. Told me right before Christmas that she "remembered". Said we would be ok and go to couple's counseling and she'd spend time with me, she was full of lies, she did none of those things. She left this year, back in March. Her friends (my former friends now) and her just took her stuff while I was out at the store.
I couldn't afford to stay in our apartment, I got an offer from a friend up north to live with her and her mom and I could start my Etsy store.
I quit my exploitive job with toxic management and moved.
That turned into a huge wreck, my friend's mom was a terrible abusive person, my friend stayed with her Fiance, and I was alone with her mom, and struggling to make it through on my own with anxiety attacks and remembering my fiance.
I couldn't stay up there, couldn't afford to support her crazy mom or get my own place alone. So after working so hard, being a good person, doing everything I could for the woman I loved, getting a home with her... losing it all...
I'm back in my toxic parent's home.
While living up north for a month or two, I at least got to see my two friends there a few weekends. and being away from everything I was able to think and explore some things that had been on my mind. And I'm pretty sure I'm transgender, I feel that I should have been a woman, and should have been able to figure that out sooner.
All year I've been trying to get help. The American health care system keeps letting me down.
My impacted wisdom teeth exploded under their own pressure over 2 months ago, dentists told me they couldn't help, or that the doctor didn't like queer people, or the soonest they could get me in was months away.
My old therapist's office isn't taking me in for new appointments because I was already "cured" last year and was on meds.
Well, they also fired my doctor, told me they would get a replacement, I had an appointment, the doctor ghosted me. they don't return my calls, and during the worst time of my life, I was cut off from my anxiety and depression meds.
I have sleep apnea, my airway gets obstructed by my tonsils, soft pallet, and uvula. I stop breathing and choke in my sleep. My now Ex-fiance told me about it when we were together and that she'd help me find a doctor, she never made the slightest effort to help, she was too busy cheating.
My Ex angered a lot of people, her friends passive aggressively harassed me. Before she had left me, she picked political fights with one of my oldest time friends, and co-founder of our local LEGO group. I tried to talk to him, but he was too far gone to listen to me.
I resigned and left the group I had founded after 10 years.
Through her manipulations and other actions, I've lost more friends.
Everyone lives so far away or is too busy for me. I'm alone here with my transphobic, conservative, super religious parents. Their home is a mess, I'm trying to clean it on my own, it's very slow work. It's not healthy here. And all my friends have moved away, I'm alone, this city has lost so much.
Mentally... I've pretty much checked out.
I can't feel positive emotions anymore, every day since March 6th, has had me missing my fiance. Constantly feeling betrayed and worthless.
I feel I make progress, but then something reminds me about her. Some friends have not been helpful, just telling me to get over her like it's just some casual girl friend. They've gaslighted me, saying I'm upset over nothing, my feelings are not valid.
I haven't been able to bring myself to go to her favorite stores. or play the games we used to play together.
I have to stop myself from ordering for her at places she liked. For a moment I start to order her dish, thinking I'll bring it home and surprise her... that she's still home, waiting for me to get back from work and give her kisses. I still wake up sometimes, rolling over and putting my arm over-nothing-, there's no one there.
I'm so angry at her... but I still fucking miss her, so damn much. My heart is empty, broken, and worthless.
I constantly have nightmares now, I don't like to sleep. I wake up from them, thinking for a second that she'll be there to tell me it's ok.
I'm. really struggling. Everything is a monumental effort, just to get up and feed myself is hard. If it wasn't for being responsible for some animals, I wouldn't get up.
I've got a handful of friends that have been very supportive and caring. but I think I'm just annoying everyone. They tried to help and give advice, but my life is just hot garbage and nothing has worked out. I don't want to bother them anymore. They're happy with their own relationships, they'll be ok.
I'm tired of failing everyone... failing myself. I'm just a monumental failure and a letdown.
I had covid at the end of the year/start of this year. A bit after she had told me she was cheating. And I'll be honest. I fucking wish I hadn't survived. I would have rather died and not seen her continue to lie and emotionally abuse me. I would have rather died than seen her leave me without even trying to fix things, just throwing me away like an old used up bag.
My life, myself.... it's just broken and shattered, and I don't know if there are pieces left to pick back up.
I'm not okay.
I'm just... so tired. I just want to lie down and stop hurting.
Anyway, my friends, if you read this, I'm sorry for being such a burden. I've squandered your help and support and I just kept failing. I'm sorry.
And if my Ex-Fiance ever sees anything, I hope you're okay and happy. I hope you kept learning to paint, and get to go on trips to your favorite places still. I'm sorry you wasted your time with me. You were the best thing to happen to me.
Been afk a while. lol
Posted 4 years agoFinally got around to hopping back on here to upload art and character I've gotten.
2020 was crazy, I am holding on. Can't wait to have a social life again, until then I'll keep talking to my soccer ball named Wilson.
2020 was crazy, I am holding on. Can't wait to have a social life again, until then I'll keep talking to my soccer ball named Wilson.
Sorry... been busy...
Posted 7 years agoA lot has been going on, I'll get around to going through messages eventually.
Life is.... a thing.... it's not going great.
Got some commissions and pieces of my Shark to upload. I'll get around to it when I can.
Life is.... a thing.... it's not going great.
Got some commissions and pieces of my Shark to upload. I'll get around to it when I can.
Here is another Raffle~
Posted 7 years agoHelp this artist get to 500 watchers and enter the raffle~
Posted 7 years agoaaaand Another Raffle~
Posted 7 years agoMORE RAFFLE!
Posted 7 years agoHere's another raffle to check out! Think up some puns, cause you need to post one as part of your entry XD
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/268.....#cid:128118257
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/268.....#cid:128118257
And another art raffle!
Posted 7 years agoMore art raffle!
Posted 7 years agoThis artist draws stuff on an ipad... that's really impressive, I can't even type correctly on a phone. XD
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8670916/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8670916/
Another art raffle!
Posted 7 years agoI've been entering a lot of art raffles lately. Here is another one to check out :3
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8647825/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8647825/
Check out this art raffle! :3
Posted 7 years agoI am really bored... I need IRL friends.
Posted 7 years agoWell, commissions have been a bust. Not many people were interested in LEGO figure art like I thought they would be.
But now I have a super cool idea that I am excited about. it's a new twist on Adoptables, and I can't wait to show everyone once it's done.
My first meetup is in a couple days, hopefully it's not too awkward and anxiety filled. I'm still shy as ever, but at least I have chatted with them on Telegram.
After this meetup I will concentrate on finishing up LEGO builds for Brickworld Indianapolis, and work on my new awesome adoptable idea. After the LEGO show I'll be able to concentrate on other forms of art and stop putting my money into LEGO. Which means I will be starting the work on my fursuit partial! I just need the money.
I also plan on going to AnthrOhio, it is looking to be quite fun for me since I'll actually know people this time. I've got the room and badge covered, I just need to figure out how I am going to get there.
But now I have a super cool idea that I am excited about. it's a new twist on Adoptables, and I can't wait to show everyone once it's done.
My first meetup is in a couple days, hopefully it's not too awkward and anxiety filled. I'm still shy as ever, but at least I have chatted with them on Telegram.
After this meetup I will concentrate on finishing up LEGO builds for Brickworld Indianapolis, and work on my new awesome adoptable idea. After the LEGO show I'll be able to concentrate on other forms of art and stop putting my money into LEGO. Which means I will be starting the work on my fursuit partial! I just need the money.
I also plan on going to AnthrOhio, it is looking to be quite fun for me since I'll actually know people this time. I've got the room and badge covered, I just need to figure out how I am going to get there.
Cons, and sharks, and telegram, oh my.
Posted 8 years agoWent to my first FurryCon. i didn't know anyone, and was way too shy and nervous. So didn't have a lot of fun, but I overheard someone talking about telegram, so I joined that after the con, it's been going well. Hoping to make friends in the local groups so I'm not completely alone when I try the next convention.
Had lots of anxiety and near the end was getting depressed and lonely, but I did really enjoy the panels I saw.
Am slowly saving up for Fursuit materials. I don't make enough money to commission anyone (at least any of the prices I have seen), so I'll be trying to make my own Partial. I'm thinking that being behind a cute shark head/mask will help me feel less shy and nervous.
Going to offer commissions for some cool art I am practicing soon, hoping that will help with affording fursuit stuff and other things.
My plush shark collection grows! (have I mentioned before that I collect plush sharks?) Someone got a mixed lot on Ebay for me which had the only White-Tip I had ever seen. I should post a picture of the collection someday. Maybe When I have more of an income down the road, I can commission someone to make a custom shark plush of my character.
Had lots of anxiety and near the end was getting depressed and lonely, but I did really enjoy the panels I saw.
Am slowly saving up for Fursuit materials. I don't make enough money to commission anyone (at least any of the prices I have seen), so I'll be trying to make my own Partial. I'm thinking that being behind a cute shark head/mask will help me feel less shy and nervous.
Going to offer commissions for some cool art I am practicing soon, hoping that will help with affording fursuit stuff and other things.
My plush shark collection grows! (have I mentioned before that I collect plush sharks?) Someone got a mixed lot on Ebay for me which had the only White-Tip I had ever seen. I should post a picture of the collection someday. Maybe When I have more of an income down the road, I can commission someone to make a custom shark plush of my character.
Super tired.
Posted 8 years agoGot back from staffing Trotcon. Boy am I beat. My nerf war took longer to run and set up than I expected, and coupled with other staff work, I didnt have any free time at all. Then, I had been super excited to go to the pool and hottub after the con to hang out with other staff. But, I was nervous in the pool as flashbacks of homeschooler kids trying to drown me popped up.and then the hottub was broken, so it was just a tub. Guess my first time in a hottub will have to wait. I also was full of anxiety cause i was depressed at the time, and so wasnt feeling great about my body weight.
Didnt have time to meet anyone new or even look at the art vendors.
But, the attendees who participated in my nerf war had the most fun ever, and I am really happy about that. The entry fee more than made up for my costs, and will help to boost and improve the nerf war for later events.
Next year's con theme is underwater, so I am excited for that. Going to do as much shark stuff as I can think of. Hoping to get a partial fursuit made of my sharky fursona once I have art of it.
Also going to try and lose weight and get in better shape for the pool next year, i even found a strap-on foam shark fin for swimming. Lol
Now, to do a mad rush and get things ready to be an art vendor at a LARP event and prepare for shark week!
Didnt have time to meet anyone new or even look at the art vendors.
But, the attendees who participated in my nerf war had the most fun ever, and I am really happy about that. The entry fee more than made up for my costs, and will help to boost and improve the nerf war for later events.
Next year's con theme is underwater, so I am excited for that. Going to do as much shark stuff as I can think of. Hoping to get a partial fursuit made of my sharky fursona once I have art of it.
Also going to try and lose weight and get in better shape for the pool next year, i even found a strap-on foam shark fin for swimming. Lol
Now, to do a mad rush and get things ready to be an art vendor at a LARP event and prepare for shark week!
Sharks? sharks!
Posted 8 years agoGetting hyped for Shark Week.
have lots of plans to flood my accounts with sharks.
Twitter? shark facts.
Instagram? Pictures of my shark things. Mostly plushies and teeth.
Youtube? Shark videos. Including LEGO shark tutorials
Etsy? Shark stuff. Including Megalodon tooth pillows!
Fur Affinity? uuuuh, dunno. I might try to art/doodle some things. Maybe I'll have a sharky Fursona in time for that.
And of course my DVR will get full of sharks. and shark accessories.
But until then, I am busy getting ready for Trotcon stuff. I'm running the Nerf War, it's gonna be fun.
have lots of plans to flood my accounts with sharks.
Twitter? shark facts.
Instagram? Pictures of my shark things. Mostly plushies and teeth.
Youtube? Shark videos. Including LEGO shark tutorials
Etsy? Shark stuff. Including Megalodon tooth pillows!
Fur Affinity? uuuuh, dunno. I might try to art/doodle some things. Maybe I'll have a sharky Fursona in time for that.
And of course my DVR will get full of sharks. and shark accessories.
But until then, I am busy getting ready for Trotcon stuff. I'm running the Nerf War, it's gonna be fun.
What have I been up to?
Posted 8 years agoWell, I've been "kinda" busy I guess.
Or at least I'm trying to keep myself busy so I'm less bored and can keep my mind off of unhappy things.
What have I been doing?
Been displaying my awesome LEGO work at some fan expositions and cons.
Running a youtube for myself, mostly LEGO, but it's got some other stuff as well. Video games, cosplay, and more will eventually be on there, but I just can't afford the supplies or better hardware.
Still unemployed since... I don't remember now. probably 6 years?
Still don't have a car, and I still live too far from town to walk.
I was playing Dagorhir for a while, but that didn't work out too well for me, so I am missing that. Trying to get into another LARP, hopefully closer to my area and friendlier.
Went to Anime Central (ACEN) for the first time. It was interesting, I was mostly behind a booth the whole time, but I got a feel for how many people were there. It was huge, too loud, too many voices. But There were cool costumes and fursuits, wouldn't mind going again.
I'm staffing at Trotcon this year, a MLP convention where I have known the staff since the beginning of the event. I'll be running 8 hours of events/panels for them in addition to of a few more hours of staff work. I'm excited about my panel, hoping it will go well.
I've got plans for some cosplays, working on a low-budget Fallout one at the moment, but It's nothing special.
If I can make some money this year, I hope to at least re-work an older Star-Wars costume I made so that I can use that again.
Fursona? Not yet... yes I know, I'm taking my time on it aren't I? lol
Got an idea for it though, just gotta come up with details (I am terrible at making these kind of decisions) and then get art of it done up.
Ehh, doesn't matter too much, it isn't like I am part of the community.
I've got an Etsy Store... sorta. It's closed at the moment while I try to get a new bank account, the terrible bank I was with before hit me with new hidden fees, dumb policies, and no longer offers free checking accounts.
My town keeps closing down stores. I'm honestly surprised that the shopping mall still exists. It's lost all but one anchor store, and now the only good thing in there is a Comic/Games store.
The town has lost a few department stores, restaurants, and other places. It's pretty boring here.
Learned I'm probably on the autism spectrum. Self diagnosis kinda thing... that, and friends making observations. After looking at lots of information, traits, signs and what not, it makes sense. Explains why I am awkward and have trouble reading humans.
Been feeling better depression wise. Keeping myself distracted and busy with little things and labeling my awkwardness with "autism" has been taking some stress away. I still have my bad days, but they have been much less frequent.
And now that I know more about myself, I've been able to avoid over exerting myself and have not had a panic attack in a while.
Trying to exercise more, I want to lose weight and be more active. It's going OK I guess. Compared to a few years ago, I've lost a good amount of weight, and I hope to lose more once I get some allergy meds so I can survive outdoors. lol
Don't really know what else... I unno. Just saw my last journal was old, and thought I'd do another one. Not that I know many people on here... I was just bored. Guess I could link to my youtube and such. That is not my personal FB by the way, just the one for my youtube channel and media network.
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/Brickule
Flickr: https://www.flickr.com/photos/25071763@N07/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Brickule
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/brickule/
Youtube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/TheRealBrickule
Playlists: https://www.youtube.com/user/TheRea.....kule/playlists
Etsy Shop: https://www.etsy.com/shop/KevrolsForge
Or at least I'm trying to keep myself busy so I'm less bored and can keep my mind off of unhappy things.
What have I been doing?
Been displaying my awesome LEGO work at some fan expositions and cons.
Running a youtube for myself, mostly LEGO, but it's got some other stuff as well. Video games, cosplay, and more will eventually be on there, but I just can't afford the supplies or better hardware.
Still unemployed since... I don't remember now. probably 6 years?
Still don't have a car, and I still live too far from town to walk.
I was playing Dagorhir for a while, but that didn't work out too well for me, so I am missing that. Trying to get into another LARP, hopefully closer to my area and friendlier.
Went to Anime Central (ACEN) for the first time. It was interesting, I was mostly behind a booth the whole time, but I got a feel for how many people were there. It was huge, too loud, too many voices. But There were cool costumes and fursuits, wouldn't mind going again.
I'm staffing at Trotcon this year, a MLP convention where I have known the staff since the beginning of the event. I'll be running 8 hours of events/panels for them in addition to of a few more hours of staff work. I'm excited about my panel, hoping it will go well.
I've got plans for some cosplays, working on a low-budget Fallout one at the moment, but It's nothing special.
If I can make some money this year, I hope to at least re-work an older Star-Wars costume I made so that I can use that again.
Fursona? Not yet... yes I know, I'm taking my time on it aren't I? lol
Got an idea for it though, just gotta come up with details (I am terrible at making these kind of decisions) and then get art of it done up.
Ehh, doesn't matter too much, it isn't like I am part of the community.
I've got an Etsy Store... sorta. It's closed at the moment while I try to get a new bank account, the terrible bank I was with before hit me with new hidden fees, dumb policies, and no longer offers free checking accounts.
My town keeps closing down stores. I'm honestly surprised that the shopping mall still exists. It's lost all but one anchor store, and now the only good thing in there is a Comic/Games store.
The town has lost a few department stores, restaurants, and other places. It's pretty boring here.
Learned I'm probably on the autism spectrum. Self diagnosis kinda thing... that, and friends making observations. After looking at lots of information, traits, signs and what not, it makes sense. Explains why I am awkward and have trouble reading humans.
Been feeling better depression wise. Keeping myself distracted and busy with little things and labeling my awkwardness with "autism" has been taking some stress away. I still have my bad days, but they have been much less frequent.
And now that I know more about myself, I've been able to avoid over exerting myself and have not had a panic attack in a while.
Trying to exercise more, I want to lose weight and be more active. It's going OK I guess. Compared to a few years ago, I've lost a good amount of weight, and I hope to lose more once I get some allergy meds so I can survive outdoors. lol
Don't really know what else... I unno. Just saw my last journal was old, and thought I'd do another one. Not that I know many people on here... I was just bored. Guess I could link to my youtube and such. That is not my personal FB by the way, just the one for my youtube channel and media network.
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/Brickule
Flickr: https://www.flickr.com/photos/25071763@N07/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Brickule
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/brickule/
Youtube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/TheRealBrickule
Playlists: https://www.youtube.com/user/TheRea.....kule/playlists
Etsy Shop: https://www.etsy.com/shop/KevrolsForge
*rolls around*
Posted 10 years agoI have been trying to think of a Fursona for at least 4 years now... I want to get into the furry community, but I just don't know how. I can't make it to meetups or anything as I don't have a car...
I'm thinking, maybe a corgi or Vallhund... or Raptor, or Shark... I dunno.
And, I'm bored, I want to make more friends, but it's hard to do when stuck at home. I keep trying to join websites to make friends, but even then I don't seem very good at it.
I'm thinking, maybe a corgi or Vallhund... or Raptor, or Shark... I dunno.
And, I'm bored, I want to make more friends, but it's hard to do when stuck at home. I keep trying to join websites to make friends, but even then I don't seem very good at it.
