It's not for anything complex. I just don't have the time or resources to do this myself.

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Didn't make it an announcement channel. New to this.

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I don't know how to communicate my feelings very well. I never have. In real life. It's not easy for me to do that. I keep changing identities and trauma dumping on people. And whining and complaining about shit. And screaming offensive things social media. Every single time someone talked to me I felt like I couldn't trust them with my real life. I really really really fucking could not stand me, my identity, the house i lived in, the family i had, the family I could not speak to anymore when they found out I was gay. My mother and aunt loved me very much, but my problems kept me from loving them. My sexuality or sexuality as a thing in general even though I played with a lot of you all the time. Offline I couldn't stand living. It's shitty dealing with a situation and having nobody believe you. But when you talk too much about things people who hurt you wind up dead or in prison. You can't get justice without someone else getting severely hurt for it. And I don't want to have that shit on my mind again. I keep getting drawn into situations I don't want to be involved in. I wanted to tell every single person I met everything about me so badly for years but I can't. I hated being black I hated having to go back to being 12 just to get off and not being able to get people to understand how when a lot of sexual things happen to you as a child you don't get how to deal with things. I was not raised by my parents and there were a lot of very sexually stimulating things that I cant let go of. I want to post tender as a cub and not feel like im going to be called out as a pedophile. I don't handle accusations about this kind of stuff that well. I yell at people who don't stop. I know you're having a hard time. You don't understand how it is when it's "family" that does these things. You look at them in the eyes and realized you could get them in a lot of trouble but guess where they go? Jail or they kill themselves. I did not want my family to go there. Having sexual shit from my past constantly come up in my mind. Liking white people being considered race traiting and whether or not being black and liking body hair meant that I was either self hating and wished I was white but thats was wrong. Theres a lot of shit that I was dealing with and smoking was not helping that....

I'm doing this here cause I'm tired. Seriously. I'm tired of doing what I was doing. I'm sick of it. I'm tired of it. I'm sorry for being a massive offensive prick all the time. I do every thing wrong. This also might be the wrong way to do this if it is tell me.

My behavior over the past 10 years has been dogshit. Especially to my friends and people who spent time with me.

I have a lot more I can say, but I can't right now I have a health issue to take care of. I'm just really terrified. When I started smoking a lot of this stuff started coming back. You all have every right to be upset with me for anything that you are upset with me for. You are allowed to tell my why you are upset and what you are upset about and why and what for. I'm sorry.

I was somewhat involved in the situation between nico, antidev, arcarc, and azul. And I handled every single part of it wrong and I'm sorry. I don't handle serious situations very well. I came back home and I just could not get over getting drunk or high or something so I can feel a feeling. I did not know what to do.

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