been humming a lot more often <3

Random ferret fact of the day, I like to hum a lot lol

I think I am going to try to design a 5 axis fire fist build, because I can lol. There is 3 axis, newly bolstered 4 axis, and some awkward level fives that no one uses. Fire fist coyote and fire fist swallow. Well with transturn (transmodify is a crappy name), kirin, and chicken, I think a 5 axis deck is just a couple cards away from being possible.

I'll make a journal with the newly thought up cards (hopefully without broken effects) and a potential deck. This will be fun lol

Got my first adult paycheck ^^ and in all respects, it was a pretty light paycheck, but having over 60$ of my own real money is awesome >w< unlike my first ever job five years ago, I will not be spending it alll on stuffed animals and a DS x3

A fellow carpet shark is looking to draw a furpile of us ferrets, and she would like your help.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4850519/

 xiamtheferret has amazing artworks~ watch her now, even if you aren't a ferret

Best comedy of the year. Holy shit that was a terrible movie. Want to know how Mich I laughed? Completely cheered up from my last journal. The movie is incredibly predictable, has the cheesiest lines taken directly from previous action movies, and the characters... for one, Charlie day was in it, that should have given it away that the director had a funny idea and just rolled with it.

As a whole, over looking it, it was a nice film. If i summed it up in a paragraph or two. But it dragged on forever and ever... oh Gawd it was hilariously crappy x33

If you are going or planning to see this film, take all of your friends. It will create a pact so strong that inside jokes will last generations.

Im getting it on DVD for terrible movie streams <3

No, im not going to answer random questions, you are just getting too much information. Inb4 block of text

I went to a furry bowling meet just now, and it helped me realize a few things. Three, to be exact. I'll list them off because it helps organize things while im not in an organized state (never really am but I am in a less organized state than my already ... know what, im not clarifying that)

1. If I am ever fursuiting again, I'll need contacts.
-I went fursuiting for the first time with  grandmaster's spare suit, Randal. It was a somewhat small suit, the paws had an inch long pinky if that helps put comparison on it. Anyway, I needed to take my glasses off to fit the head on. Snug fit, wasn't ridiculous hot though. In addition to that lack of vision, looking through a fursuit head's eyes is like rough sunglasses. And the bowling alley was dark. I couldn't see anything past armslength and even then sometimes I couldn't see a chair or honestly recognize anyone.

Didn't matter much anyway, because I didn't know anyone. Which leads into number two.

2. I need to work on my awkwardness.
-there was a ton of furs at the bowling meet, and I knew grandmaster, could recognize two or three others, ans someone named Miles (I think his fa is ). Both of them couldn't be by my side 100% because they had tons of friends to talk to so that left some time where I was by myself. See, most people would take the opportunity of a furMEET to go MEET some new friends, but I couldn't ever work up the courage. A couple times others would talk or interact with me a little bit, but I never pursued it. I craved that little bit oof attention to prove I existed there, but let the spark smoulder so I could sit on a chair in the back until it was my bowling turn again.

Yeah, there was a ton of strangers, but if there was ever a time to act myself is around a bunch of gay furries. I laughed at many of there jokes, wanted to be a part of it, but no I decided to be a rock in the center of a watering hole. Life of all types happening around me as I lay grey and inanimate. I have to work on that or I'll just be friendless and unassertive my.whole life. After a low paying job I'll retreat back home and eat sandwiches with my boyfriend and complain.

I wasn't always like this, though. I was in therapy for almost two years and gained a lot of confidence. And I know exactly when it got flushed down the drain.

3. I never should have went to Howard University.
-first, I never liked it there. A ton of hoodrats, male and female, dominated the school, and I couldn't feel safe in an already unsafe city. Next, even with the ones that were decent, the culture there was completely opposite of what im used to, loud and too personal, insulting even in jest, way more liberal than I was. After class, I would go back to my room and rarely leave. My best friends were a couple RA's and a one time lab partner that became my neightborly gamer friend. That was it, never felt good in clubs, certainly not partying fraternities, never liked enough people for a study group, just never cod interact.

I retreated back into the shell I thought I discarded from before. I made it cozier and tighter so that it was a lifestyle, not a choice anymore. My first semester I got a 4.0 GPA. Next semester I got 2.5, adding up to a 3.13, just shy of my scholarship requirement. Yeah, I failed out of college with honors. Now im back home with nothing to show for it, a wasted year. No, more than a wasted year. I lost confidence, respect, drive, even my love of animals is taking a backseat to things like yugioh and sly cooper. Those were ALWAYS secondary things, even when I was younger I cared more about reading and animals and creating. This was up until the summer I left for college in DC.

The bowling meet made it clear finally that I should have just went to UCF in Orlando. With my earned confidence, id be making friends with a bunch of furs and not be far from home, id still be at a reputable university, id just be so Mich happier. Instead I am a sad sack now. Hey, at least I am moderaty good at yugioh, eh? Plenty of alone time to look up decks and cards, im not even that great. Just above average.

I hated Howard but could never fully admit it. I always take bad situations and make the best of it, but I really can't do that now. It is past tense, and I just feel regret.

<sigh> introspectiveret is done now

There is always stress going on. Without fail. Between aspie sister, bratty brother, hbic older sister, and stressed out parents, I never really catch a break. I don't have a room, a real place to put my stuff, no where to be alone usually except for the bathroom.

I know peeps have it worse, but it doesn't make me feel much better. Not having a place to be alone means I never get to recharge. Even now, im in bed right now while little brother is playing legos on a wooden train table and making weird noises. It annoys me greatly, but I don't have anywhere. Other crap is going on right now, id like to chill out somewhere.

Im trying to get out more though so that I get that relaxing time.  grandmaster has been a great help in that :3

Im just ranting about being uncomfortable all the time, mosey on with your other stuff.

I am 96% switch
93% Submissive
and have an 86% inclination to exhibitionism and voyeurism

Awesome -w-

___

Also, I got my little siblings into Sly Cooper. Obviously teaching them the first one first, since it is a linear track that doesn't really have a penalty for dying too much. I anticipate having to help them heavily with clockwerk though... Even I had trouble on that one T^T Shooting the boulders and drones and mines was hard enough, Shooting him down wasn't that hard, but the lava place was rough. One slip, and you were a fine redneck dinner.

also been distracting myself with more dueling lately, you will find me on DN or devpro more often now

Hatchdays? Eww, I got birthed like a real ret. 19 years old, and I already got some art and two birthday cards from my family that were otter themed <3 "you are not like the otters~" "otterly amazing~" <3

"Will draw porn for 3ds"
"Art for bells!"
"Friend codes = sketch"
"Will sell body for new leaf"

Last one is a joke. But really animal crossing,while enjoyable im sure, does not need this much craze.

Unless someone explains what getting new people over does. Pokemon friending equals Pokemon you can't get any other way. I understand that. But animal crossing, all I know is fruit trees which is good for selling at a higher price. Big whoop.

Convince me!

Welp, final fantasy 12, with 98 hours put in, last collecting items to get a weapon called the tournesol, hunting marks, is now on the back burner.

I started playing kingdom hearts on expert with nighttime leveling (original proud mode) and im kinda hooked lol. Dangit!!!

Powerpuff girls are now on boomerang.

Stuff like yogi bear and Kung fooie are on boomerang.

I feel ooolllllld T^T

That is what I would say if I were in massive pain :3

I have always walked alone. When I looked back everyone was so far away.
Even so, I kept walking, that was my strength.

I finally read the English lyrics for "Brave Song" by Tada Aoi. It is the credits song for Angel Beats, and it is soooo sad T^T and so wonderful TwT

See, I did the Japanese title for interest. How many weeaboos did I catch with my trap?

Try an easier lyric to translate by yourself.

Aoi, aoi sora ni tsuki no hikari o tomosu
I light the light of the moon in the blue blue sky :3

Ending to darker than black

Im rambling for no reason, im really not that invested in this.

It's late, go away x3

And it is already looking pretty cool ^^ So much art happening, and I think only one of them is a gift for the day XD So hopefully I'll be posting stuff soon, idk.

Also, been playing too much Final Fantasy and Spyro. Guh. So imma try writing some stuff to do something with all of this free time. So much free time -___- And it is weirdly spaced free time, since I sometimes have to stop right in the middle of something to do an unknown time of chores.

(those of you who are intuitive will notice I could not possibly admit to too much yugioh >w> I think of it equal to peeps that claim spending hours on sudoku or crossword puzzles as brain activity. There is some srs strategy involved, plus lengthy memory, and blah blah stuff)

Yeah, this is a journal looking for attention, i like comments owo But not enough is going on to make a real journal lol

I'm looking to spruce up my town because i like to micromanage. I was tired of the clearly randomized tree placement, so I cut everything down. So im asking my friends and stalkers for a little help. Im looking for virtual peaches, apples, cherries, watermelons, and tomato plants, I'll be starting anew. I tore down all the houses so I could make them myself. (Where do you think the tree logs went?) Slaves would also be nice.

Im willing to trade furniture, fish, FA icons, and my body for these fruit. Plz help

Everyone, drop everything.

It is time to play....

GUESS WHAT IS GOING ON IN FERRET'S LIFE!

I'll give you a hint, it has to do with me and is going to happen this month

My little bro made me start spyro: year of the dragon again.

Last time I poured tons of.time into it for 117% complete, really like 120 since there was a hidden world after that.

Id like to think I won't do that again, but uggggh already im getting upset at not getting an egg. I need Sheila first (just started)

Final fantasy 12 ^^ 40 hours in a little over a week xD I have been doing some plot, then spend ten hours doing marks. Gil snapper was hard T^T but discovering the secret place with farmable silicon tortoises is so worth it. They usually drop stuff worth about a 1000 Gil, and that is amazing at my.level. over 1000 XP each time.too. only problem is that it is during the rains, and I fear the electrical elementals and entites >_>" save the ret, plushie

In general, I really like the game. It did something new, and did it right. Fighting isn't just press x to win. Gotta move around and stuff, the new maps and dungeons are generally hard the first time you enter. Leveling up actually takes work. License points allow you to level up without leveling up x3

PAWSPAWSPAWSPAWSPAWSPAWSPAWSPAWSPAWSPAWSPAWS

PAWSPAWSPAWSPAWS

OMG

PAWS!

Now for the friendical, that is a radical friend.  diarist is a hip and cool artist and also a great new friend ^^ you all should watch him, or I may cut off your paws and add them to my collection ^^ rotting paws are especially soft, so don't even try to reason me out of the deal.

Anyway, like, you should watch him :3

Im barely on here,and you know how I act. I'd like to think ferret is kinda unique :3

I watched all of Angel Beats while I was on the train back home T^T it's so amazing and tearjerking in the right ways <3 plus I love the music. Like, omg. I love the music. I'll be watching this again soon heehee

https://youtu.be/TmOOdop6SeI

Third opener to Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, and it is friggin stuck in my head lol