Thank you so much for 200 followers, everyone! I know I am a little late on making this journal, I was a bit busy with school and other art stuff that I kinda forgot to make this. But anyway, I am very happy that I managed to grow this much! I will be planning on doing a raffle of some sort sometime soon to celebrate, so stay tuned!

My commissions are open! Prices can be found here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61087735/

I started an auction, check it out
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60.....oad-successful

The server is live! It's still a bit of a WIP but things will be sorted out! I will continue editing the server tomorrow and you are free to ask any questions and suggest changes!

https://discord.gg/7fyrPCxbE8

I have created a Kofi and I have membership tiers ranging from 2$ to 15$! If you are interested on giving me a tip or becoming a member, feel free to hop in! https://ko-fi.com/bxb777

Good afternoon everyone! Today is the end of the month so I figured I give updates on everything.

First of I have started a secret project! It's going to be my biggest art project yet and I am excited to start it!

Secondly, I an current doing free sketches for people and friends I like! I am a bit selective~

Lastly, we are planning to do a special deal this September to celebrate skunktember~

We have been seeing great growth lately! And I hope September goes even better!

Hey all. So if you have been following me, especially on telegram, you might have noticed that I have been doing a lot of art lately. I figured that I really got to get my shit together on doing art so I decided to finally just fucking do it. Honestly, it has been going a lot better than last time, just so much motivation to do shit.

Outside of art, everything is not well honestly. My brother and his fiance are moving in. You might know them by wolfcoin009 (big bro) and Shiron9. I like my brother, but we have been going through a lot so our relationship lately hasn't been 100%. We have been nice to each other on telegram so I think he is willing to forgive me and me to him as well. We know we struggle through some bad trauma so I think him being with his fiance at my home will help.

Mom has been getting worse and worse. I wouldn't get into too much detail but I'll give this example. Lately, I have been taking the advice to start saying no when necessary. A few days ago before an art stream, she asked me to cook pork. I don't know how to cook pork and I was about to go live, so I told her no. She started being passive-aggressive, doing the begging-for-sympathy type shit. and she even said, "Wow this food is great, glad you didn't cook." When I graduate from college, you know I am going to get out of here asap. I talked to Grandma and she brought up the idea of me staying with her for a while, so I hope if that goes through that can help.

Now it's time for something I have meant to write for a while, but I think it's time to finally talk about this.

I have to be blunt, Neer's passing broke me. I have been thinking about writing a Journal about him since his passing but there have been a couple of reasons why I held it off. Mainly the emotional weight would make the journal not well thought out and I tend not to want to talk about our relationship since my being associated with a high-profile figure could lead to manipulation. I had friends who grew up and became friends with people who became YouTubers and people used them just to get closer to YouTube. It's bad

Me and Neer were at least mutuals. I think our relationship can be considered a friendship, but that might be a bias from my end. We are mutuals on Twitter and friends on Discord. I think I might had him on Steam at one point since we're both part of the general Felis group, but I can't find him there so I might be misremembering. Anyway, he didn't treat me like a random person. We were familiar and he often replied to me on Telegram. I don't usually talk to him privately because he is a busy person so I often don't message him. Like once every month or two I hit him up and chatted. He was so nice... and understanding. I remember before Felis moved in with him, (basically before us being mutuals) I would send him some ads that are violating the TOS of FA on there because it would be more effective since I knew his tele lmao.

Around 2020~ Neer randomly put on a contest to make your fursona into an Eevee. I remember joining it, and I ended up drawing this. Idk if luck was on my side or not but I ended up winning. I feel like since I was associated with Felis + me winning, he followed me on Twitter. This kinda means nothing, but later on, he added me on Discord and from then I remember us treating each other more like we knew each other. We never gotten close, I have friends that I am close to much more than him, but I just, forgot he owned this site. He was someone I honestly cared for. When I won, I got a gift card and bought myself a skunk plushy. It's my second one and I remember my mom seeing it and saying it was gross. Now that he's gone I will protect him for life...

One time I wanted to get art from him, so I hit him up and he told me to buy him a pack of Redbull for art. I honestly expected more but I think he knew me enough that something as essential as caffeine is enough for art. I haven't really shown people it, since it's unfinished, and like I said earlier, the a chance of manipulation, but if you want to see it, here, warning it's NSFW.

I remember the final chat we had. It was public, 23 hours before the announcement of his passing. I told him that I was worried for him because his illness has been getting worse and worse and the docs are doing jack shit. He told me something like "I'll be fine, I'll live" Those final words to me... keep on echoing in my head. You can find my final chat with him in the FA telegram chat if you search for his messages there. I feel... so destroyed... This is the first person I knew who passed away online. I had family members go on, but for someone who I viewed as a friend or at least a mutual, I couldn't stop crying. It's hard for me to cry, it really was, but I cried so much these past few weeks. I dad dreams of him being there... only just to wake up, remembering he's gone. Even now, I feel like I am gonna cry writing this. When I mean I miss him, I truly mean I miss him. A genuine part of my life has been taken away. I fucking miss him still.

Despite everything being shit, I am more motivated than ever on doing art. Doing art genuinely makes me happy, and I've been doing some art that isn't motivated by money, just doing art to see people being happy makes me feel... like I am worth living. Thank you for reading and staying with me. You don't understand how much I mean it when I say everyone here who follows me and be my friend is amazing <3

THE PWYW STREAM IS NOW LIVE

Rules:
-Min of 5$ for upfront payment
-the amount I will draw depends on how much you pay
-submissions can be sfw or nsfw!
-specialty nsfw art is not accepted atm, although i am planning on doing a future stream where i do that so don't worry!

Hop in if you're interested or just want to hang out and watch me draw :3!

https://picarto.tv/Bxb777

Hey everyone! I know these past few day sucks balls for the furry fandom. I was originally planning doing this on Monday but uhhhhh, you know.

Anyway, I will be doing a PWYW art stream tomorrow! I haven't figured out of the rules and details but the minimum prince will be 5$~ it will be nsfw but sfw requests are allowed!

Follow me on picarto! https://picarto.tv/Bxb777

🌟Hello everyone! I am proud to announce that I am starting my 150 FA watcher raffle! This raffle is made as a thank you for the growth I have been gaining over the years~

⭐️There will be two winners and there are two prizes you can choose to get. You can get an art piece of your choosing that is worth at most 100$ of my price sheet (if you don't want to use the full 100$ that's fine!)
🌟or you can get 5 telegram stickers that would be worth around 100$!
⭐️In order to enter the raffle you need to fill out the survey I have created. This helps me a lot with raffles!
You can get at most 3 tickets when you enter. These ways to enter include
📨Following my Telegram Art Channel
🦊Watching me on FA (18+ warning)
🦋and following me on BlueSky

—> Form link is right here!<—

The art can be either SFW or NSFW (NSFW art requires you to be 18+)
The raffle will end Saturday, June 22, 6pm EST and the winners will be announced shortly after.

Hello everyone. I recently have gotten 150 watchers here! I am thinking about starting a raffle! Unfortunately, I have some art I gotta do before I start it. If I manage to finish them by later this month then I'll start! I am very excited to do one because I haven't done one in a while.

So uh, it's been a few years since I made a post here. I was going through a lot over the past few years and It impacted me and my dedication to working on art and commissions. I mostly sprinkled stuff here and there and did things for ArtFight. I think I have gotten my art Mojo back and I have been doing stuff much more often than normally. I am planning on hoping to grow my reach as an artist again and hopefully be able to create a commission flow since the last time I got a job, shit didn't work out. Expect more art from me, especially non-commission and personal stuff.

Hello everyone! Sorry for not doing commissions, I am currently busy with artfight and trying to find a new job.

In the meantime however, I have decided to set up a Kofi page! This can be used as a way to commission me as well as people who want to give me a tip for my work~

https://ko-fi.com/bxb777

I'm looking to do some NSFW arts. If you to do a trade with message me at @/bxb777 on telegram, messaging me on discord or Twitter is also ok.

With my 3, soon to be 4 years of being on FA, I haven't imaged anyone would bother to watch me to view my art, but here we are.

100 watchers

Thank you so much for everyone who was watched me on FA! I mostly do art for fun and it warms my heart knowing they're people out there that are willing to spend there time looking at them.

As a thank you, a 100 watcher raffle will be held this august!

I'll always try to attack back <3

https://artfight.net/~bxb777

also follow my toyhouse if you can :'> https://toyhou.se/Bxb777

Hi everyone. Recently I have been pretty upset on my art. I've recently feel like that I'm literally improving on nothing and I'm completely clueless on what I should do to become a better artist. I think I'm working too little on my art or I'm doing not much as what other people are doing.

I want to find someone who would help me on digital art and teach me other ways in methods to improve on because I know my method is not as good as others on here. I'm completely blown away on what some people can do here and I don't know how they can do it x_x

Congratulations on   Paused for getting first place and   KaneTheCrocodile for getting second place! Once I reach 100 watchers, I will host another raffle! Thank you so much for everyone who participated!

Winners will be announced later today thank you for all for participating ♡♡♡

Hey guy! I'm hosting a poll on my Twitter that is ending in 12 hours that needs more votes! It would be very nice if ya guys vote in my poll! Thxs ♡♡♡

https://twitter.com/bxb77777/status.....052338689?s=19.

So I want to draw more female pokemon because I like doing it. I want to see what you guys would like to see me do so I can get some ideas uwu.

Click on the link to join! ♡♡♡
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35180018/

Some amazing artist is doing a raffle that is ending in four days!!!! Join while you can! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34945992/

I don't know I'm slowly feeling my creativity leaving me right now. I only really get motivated when I do art for other people which is hard sometimes because it's hard to find people who would commission me it's easier to find people who would like to do art trades though

I just want to remind you guys that my commissions are open! Commission info can be found in the link below.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9411026
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9411026
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9411026