It's been a while so I guess I should give some updates about my progress.

I am painting my Cat pencil holder. It will look like the first one but this one will be orange.

I'm going to try to enter in the Arts and Craft contest
Theme: Flower
It's going to have a bunny yo >: )

Why I haven't updated is because school has been really weird for English SOL's so I have no art time. It kind of sucks.

I plan on bring my camera to school tomorrow so I should have updates. I may start taking commissions for pencil holders I always thought Paypal was something you had to pay or to own one. I'll talk it over with my parents and go on from there.
I would do small animals but after what happened to Potato I want to make a few more on my own and figure out what I did wrong before I anyone's time. I'm sure it's the newspaper that screwed up the paint job but I don't know : /

I started watching Toradora because it got second place on the Anime's Newcomers award list. First place looked like creepy so I didn't watch it. I like funny things : )
I'm sad Chi's sweet Home didn't even make it onto the "Slice of Life" theme or "Short watch" It deserved to make it on the "Slice of life >.<

If other news my brother chocked me : ) I think he's drunk. I kept telling him to leave me alone then he keeps turning off the internet while I am finishing a project yo >: ( so I go down to take his mind reading software and then he freaks out and chucks it at the floor and blames me. No way I'm replacing his shit. I would never break anything that I can't afford to replace and he starts blaming me of course. My parents realized he was drunk so there taking me side. Thank you T.T
I can't wait for him to move out I hate my brother. I know every family is dysfunctional but when you got my brother who is a violent ass hole things well... yeah =.= I know he tried to delete my anime stash because a bunch of it was deleted. Luckily I backed it all up so I didn't have to re download it.. Thank you external drive T3T good thing my computer hit the 50 GB space left mark today : P ( got like a 120 GB and I never let it go below 50 GB) Yeah I do a lot of anime stuff >///> I do buy it as long as FUNimation doesn't get it.

Well I hate the one's that can't clean up after themselves!

So in Art call I got these freshman girls that sit were I sit for 3D art. I use to sit there but they were so annoying I switched tables! SO yesterday I clean up the table and scrape all the paint, glue and clay that was on there because that area was becoming a mess. Line a un workable mess!

So today they get paint all over it again! I got most of it off before it got hard but I was so pissed off. Those freshmen are such pigs.

Please be an artist but clean up after yourself!

Now I'll have to scrap down the table again. My goodness it's called newspaper! put the paint on there don't put it straight on the table! I am about to explode on those stupid Freshmen hopefully this journal entry delays that >.<

Yeah!!! I got 4 GB of RAM : D

my computer is a even sexier beast now! Dose anyone know how to make it so RAM can be used to help the video card?

Well I got so many new games to play.... like a lot I don't know if I'll have time for them all...

- Rockband (old but I haven't been able to play it yet)
- Kirby 64 (that crystal shard game for Nintendo 64. Got it with my Wii points)
- Tales of Symphonia 2
- Spore

I hope I can make time : (
So far Spore has rocked my world but I really want to play Tales also >.> I never got to end of the first Tales because my friends second Disk went bad or was never good. I'm guessing Nina did something to it >.>

o well until my brother wakes up it's Tales... man I got a test to study for. I better write that down on my whiteboard. >.<

It's that time of yea... Shedding... ugg

Yeah my rabbit is shedding and when she sheds she like moults so she had a few empty spots now.

I love my rabbit I really do but I hate these heavy sheds at least they only happen once every 6 months. Once before winter and once after winter. So I brush her about 4 times a day now and then pull out fur the brush didn't catch. No I'm not ripping it out it's already out it's just in her pelt still. It's hard to explain.

I wish they could make it so pets don't shed I'm going to be covered in fur for the next week or two

Well not really but at least it's funny. Make sure you catch the clips right away because there hard to find on youtube. Unless you are going to be a pirate and get it that way.

It's called Melancholy of Haruhi-chan Suzumiya
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vi-y9S_6c1s

The first eps has been hidden away sadly.

More info here and aniDB
http://anidb.net/perl-bin/animedb.p.....e&aid=5335

It seems to be the first season but it's really silly and funny. It's like a Chi Sweet Home so a certain someone may not want to watch it >.> Yes it's stupid IQ dropping and short. Which is why I like it >.< b

I don't get it this series is Youtube aloud so I don't know why it's being set to privet right away.

ugg I'm so depressed : ( I officially think men are complete idiots ignoring the fact I thought that already. I want my Cell Phone Charger back D: Man I just want to kick him in the balls and walk off >.<

My my friend is still being a silly head. I told him he doesn't need to 'repent' for his sins. Well I don't want him to do it more or less. I'm an atheist and the last thing I need him to do is to ask 'God' for forgiveness and feel better about it. That garbage pisses me off so much. 'o God forgave me so everything that I did wrong to hurt someone is forgiven' ugg

Which is the main reason I didn't talk to him at school today. I still see him leaning towards repenting for his sins.

It's called apologize and try to fix it. Live with the mistake you made and move forward. There is no God that will say it's all forgiven. Because I'm not going to accept that after what he did. Sure he thinks that apologizing isn't a good idea. Men, such idiots >.<

He hasn't even given me my Cell phone charger back yet. WTF is he using it so I have to talk to him >.>

Well in that case I just as well see what he has to say. That way I can get my cell charger back.

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Talk about blackmail.

Well apparently I took like no pictures except for those fursuites XD

So I got like 9 total I think I'll have to steal from my friends i guess XD

Gust Pass: Anthro

http://s139.photobucket.com/albums/.....Byfuzzerabbit/

OK Friday was fun and enjoyable. I didn't get my Brawl Tournament because we got inside at like 5 or 6 ish @.@ o well and goodness I didn't join the brawl tournament was so messed up XD It took like 4 hours to finish.Le gay. Rozt was treating my like I was his and only his the hole day which I am but were not dating or anything o.O I mean I have like 20 guys ask me to that V-day dance. and rozt kept saying how he would make sure they would leave me alone =.= then the one furry I met he gets all defensive over. sure he asked for my number but it was joking abound. I would have loved to talk to him but like IM no Numbers for him o.O he was the first furry I met in real life aside from jacob.

So to the point Friday was amazing and completely enjoyable.

Saturday. Different story. It went to the gaming room and at 4PM ish when Rozts Guilty Gear tournament started. So he was told that he couldn't use his own controler so he put it in his bag. When we saw people were useing there own controllers I asked if he wanted to get it. He wanted to hear is he was next so I offer to get it for him. Then I relize that this dress I'm wearing won't cover a controler. So I ask for his jacket and while he takes it off his button colored shirt comes off also. Here's were things go sour. I giggle/laugh. He tells to to shut the fuck up and get on the damn jacket and tells me to shut up again then says everything is my fault if he loses if I don't get it quickly. Well I was going to but changed my mind on a split second. I'm not taking that shit. I offered to help. He gets PMS because I was trying to keep the mood good so he wasn't stressed. I hate it when he gets into gaming mode. He tells me to fuck off so much it's not funny. I even asked him to cool down when he plays countless times. Like I hit the point that I couldn't take it anymore and went off to cry in the restroom.

Well after 10 min I got it out of my system and waited for about 2-3 hours when the tournament was over. I do admit I was upset and was somewhat snappy because I didn't appreciate him treating me like his bitch or something. No lazy told me to never take that kind of shit because you can't let them push you around. I calmed down and hung out with katie. Everyone is back together heading to Live 2. I try to do the 'kiss and make up' But Rozt is still being a ass hole about everything so after 30 minutes of trying I'm on the verge of tears again because it's my fault most likely. I tried to stay cheerful because men don't say sorry or at least Rozt doesn't >.>

So he ditches us in Live 2 when I see he is still angry. So I have to suck up my crying because it was a question and Answer in Live 2 and I get over it quickly with hugs of me shaymin doll I got. Katie and I go up to Kats room and they give me advice about telling Rozt I like like him I just fucked up the first time and said no because dating well I have never dated and everything is new. They had to explain a lot to me. The said they saw that Rozt was moving to quickly. Like I was still behind the line and Rozt was running to first base already. They had to do a lot of explaining because I'm stupid XD They told me to wait till he calms down. Well that didn't work out ,,!,,

So we go back down and meat the others randomly. apparently they danced with out us. Thy didn't even call! Rozt is still blowing me off after I asked why he didn't call. So once more I'm about to cry again and I'm hitting this choking tears from about 9 PM till I got home when was 12 because I guess I'm a fucking ass hole for trying to help him out. I do start crying when I get home and I still am. So it's almost 10 and I try to say cheerful. Now my art action was a 10 PM and I made this perfectly clear to the point I won't shut up about it. So everyone knew. Rozt says that we should head out to dinner. I do my likkle 'but I ..." deal and he goes. What? When I'm like never mind I'm going to the third floor you eat without me. What kind off jerk does that I'm sure he did that on purpose. I tried to do everything for him and that he said he would go in the art auction with me before things went sour he conventionally forgets it. So I walk off crying for like 5 sedonds then I have to hold it in becausr Kat comes after me. She tells me katie is telling Rozt is being a complete jerk and should apologize. I guess they knew I was crying and completely sad. Must be a girl thing : /

I go to the auction room and had my dreams shattered because I was out bid on a picture i wanted. O well. However the Auction room was very cheerful and it got me to laugh and smile. I was very happy. Now I'm wondering at this point why no one has called that they were back from dinner. WTF did they go to the Brodmore or something o.O I have a major fear of being lost so after calling Alexis a billion times, Rozt once or twice. and Karl twice I start to freak and once more about to cry. I go back to the gaming room and find them there and apparently Rozt still didn't call to ask if I wanted to drop of my stuff and once more I feel like real shit again. So I'm guessing that me feeling miserable was just an act to him. O yeah and I'm not a crying person and I never cry unless I'm just destroyed to a pile of dust which happened today thanks to Rozt : )

I am told I can't go in the gaming room a because I left to refill my water bottle. I was going crazy on water to keep myself from crying. So I have to pee really badly now >.< I tell them I'm not aloud in the gaming room and then leave just now completely destroyed mentally like I'm not a pile of dust I have been reduced to nothing at this point. I find Alvin and sit next to him wondering if I should call my dad to pick me up.

So for the rest of the time I'm trying my hardest not to cry and it only gets worst when I see Rozt because I'm scared he's going to hurt me because It was all my fault. He gets really mean when playing his vid games though

So about 11 we head back and I try my hardest not to cry but I lose the ability to breath after doing the sucking it up what not. So I start to to the sighs and quiet gasps of crying because it's hard to hold it in. So I get to my house and don't really catch what anyone sayed because my ears are popping like crazy because I can't breath. Rozt said something but I know it wasn't sorry o I just left with a sobbing break down of 'whatever' So that brings me to here. Crying and I haven't cried for like a year now. My Spanish teacher made my cry on my B-day by calling my stupid and stuff if it weren't for her it would have been like 7 years or something of not crying.

So yeah I am still crying because I can't stop because apparently it's all my fault. He will probably deny it so that's why I posted it on FA were he doesn't really look on because he's not much of a furry.

So yah Katsucon. Worst con of my life so far because Rozt got me to to cry for the rest of it. I could have saved at least 100 $ if I didn't go. I wish I knew Rozt was going to blame me for everything and make my cry.

POSITIVE NEWS
I got a big shaymin land form and a shy shaymin Pokemon center plush size.


I'm happy about that but it's not enough to make me feel better. So I'm going to cry for the rest on the night. so don't expect anything this this weekend. So good night I will go cry some more T.T

What I hope to have learned for Katsucon 09 : 3

~Dance Listing~
Hare Hare Yukai(full dance) DONE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1Wd.....eature=related

Motteke Sailor Fuku!(Full Dance) DONE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_RP.....eature=related

Go-onger Ending! LEARNING
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qt8g.....eature=related

Magiranger (Full Dance) LEARNING/MAYBE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OzWW.....e=channel_page

MikuMiku Dance WAITING
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZAip.....e=channel_page
OR
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VCtj.....eature=related

Danjo WAITING
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1yg.....e=channel_page

Night Of Fire MAYBE/WAITING
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1o1.....e=channel_page

I got 5 days to learn what I can. I should be able to do it : / Yeah I tried learning over Winter Break but I got lazy XD Alvin is making me wear a Chinese dress so I am Cosplaying in a way : 3 and Alvin and I are making Rozt were that man robe ; )

So yeah really skimpy dress suing the winter. That will be so much fun! Well at least it will only be for Sat.

Looking for in the dealers room
-Shaymin (anything)
-Chi's Sweet Home (anything)
-Chi's Sweet Home DS game
-Giant Pikachu plush
-Raw manga
-Cinnomoroll Plushy
-Getsumen To Heiki Miina (anything)
- Kitty ears
- Bunny Hats
- GREEN TEA POCKY!

I hope they have what I am looking for; well I'm sure they will have a giant Pikachu

Well I bought the game when it was released thinking that Nintendo had done something amazing. I was mistaken. The music is the same from Wild World and it has been fancied up to be Wii worthy with the graphics. It was good for a month... then it just because painful to get on. Like doing your HW painful : (

So I am probably going to sell the game at Gamestop because it's just not interesting. After playing the last 2 animal crossings... this was a disappointment. I mean couldn't they have added the option for you to be a anthro. Jaz it up a bit like they did in yellow version for pokemon. Yeah you were getting the same thing but now you have Pikachu following you.

Also when you talk to your friends the quotes seem to be repeating often and I didn't get that in Wild World.

So yeah I haven't played Animal crossing for a week. Maybe when I finish playing Tails I'll be interested again. : /

Over all I am very disappointed with the game. I mean E3 made animal crossing sound amazing T.T

These are updates about my fish.

12/28/08
I think I mentioned this in an earlier journal but one of my female fancy guppies that I predicted would die, did. : (
I think she was pregnant when we got her so maybe the move was to stressful. So she had a fish heart attack or something and did the stander suicide swim around the fish tank then kind of floated to the bottom. I kind of blame petco for encouraging a heater and said to keep the water at around 80. She seemed to be slightly recovering fine until the gave me that shity advice Right now my water is about 76 and I expect it to go down to 74.
Not to mention there advice really messed up my water in a way. It's all cloudy now. I put some waterClarifier in there but I really don't like to use chemicals after what happened with the 55 Gallon tank. "Real plants will kill the fish, buy are chemicals, keep the water at 80"
Anyways R.I.P Yellow finned guppy : ( ( I had my mom flush it because she was still alive but it was clear she was going to die in an hour because she was just laying at the bottom on her back )

12/31/08

I got 2 new guppies >.< b one female and one male I have another female that was a test fish for the tank so don't worry that fish is going to get all the ladies he will need >.< b However he is very intrested in the lovely lady we bought with him. My other guppy isn't getting any attention. Then again the Bottom feeder tried to eat her and took her tail well a part of it. It's not like he has a mouth o.O but she is very pretty.

Big News is that when they were getting my fish I guess they accidentally picked up a baby fish so I got a fry also. Gender is unknown I hope it;s female so that I don't have to get more guppies. It's in a breeders net right now safe from all the other fish I will let it out with everyone else in 3 days probably.

I might get a real plan tomorrow because I dun like the plastic stuff or just wait till Tuesday when they are suppose to have male Guppies in. I think it would be good to let the tank calm down after a dieing guppy : /

1/3/09

The Baby Guppy died I guess it wasn't given enough or to much food when I was gone skiing. There is always next time.

I really like my male Guppy he seems to know when to leave the females along and he doesn't do them unless they want it. He's a good fish he hasn't bother my injured Female guppy that much at all unless he's waiting till I am sleeping XD

1/4/09
One of my female Guppies died. I know she was dieing and I tried to give her a chance but most fish owners know when there is no turning back and the fish is going to die. last week she was hitting sick mode and she stopped eating 3 days ago. : /

She was still alive but I have my mom flush her. Got to get a sick fish out before it spreads.

1/5/09
My fish are spazing randomly. I am not sure if they are playing or seriously sick
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/i.....6174958AAHeOkl
This helped out a bit and I tested my water and everything is perfect but the buffer which is just a tad bit low but not deadly low. I'm not sure what Buffer is anyways XD

Luckily none of them are swimming upside down yet but I'm still worried. It's so hard to type and think of my fish @.@ especially when there right in front of me. I know my Nitrate and Ammonia levels are below .50ppm so I know that keeps my tank safe and my plant make sure that these levers don't got toxic.

Yes I added salt for them I don't know what Salt does exactly but apparently it's good for a tank sick or not. THe Salt I have is made for fish tanks. "Doc Wellfish's Aquarium Salt or Freshwater fish"

I also go a 30% around there water change once a week.

My Bottom feeder is breathing heave but according to what I have read he might be fighting sickness. He also spazes out and I found him upside down for a little bit

My Female Fancy guppy is spazing but seems to be fine.

My male Fancy Guppy is being a flashy pimp and still showing off his tail but he hans't been chasing my female guppy at all. Yes I know 2 females to 1 male >.> but she died yesterday. My male guppy seems healthy for the most part then : /

If my tank happens to crash I will probably clean it and let it cycle for a few weeks again. Let the Bacteria build up.

Man Fish were so easy a few years ago. I wonder what happened...

... Sex and taking a dump... Male guppy have some dignity XD

1/6/09

Bottom feeder died over night I think my tank is crashing : (

1/8/09
Well my tank seems to be getting better. I hope my female guppy lives because she is going to be having her Fry by the end of the month. I mean I'm all pro choice and stuff but I don't want to have to buy more fish >.>

Yes I have been working really hard to keep my tank from crashing. >.<

1/11/09
My Tank has crashed and only one has survived. At this point I am like WTF and ask my friend Cody what the hell is happening seeing my water is 100% fine according to my water testing kit.

So yea Thanks to Cody I learned who my tank was crashing. I have confirmed that my water if perfectly safe several times to the point I had to but new test strips XD

Apparently it's a thing called Finrot or 'Body Fungus' I didn't know that this was actually serious seeing I have been out of the fishy business for about 5 years. (moved to CO and have to give my tank to my brother; I thought it would be to stressful to move the fish)

I forget they made Medicine for fish. >.<;;;;

So I went to Petco and was lucky to get this amazing worker who was like Super Fish man for something to the point it was creepy o.O he knew a lot about fish... like he lost me at the last 2 min. speech that was like 20 min. and that was just on Fancy Guppies. Creepy but amazing o.o;;; to bad I couldn't take him home for like a week to work on my tank >.<

He even knew my tank problem just by 'me fish are dieing for no reason' and knew it was the fungus... that was really awesome >.< b I get nervous when talking to workers so I tend to studded at the beginning. So the Finrot thing.... yeah I hit stupid land and forgot out it when I was talking.

Well at least I know how to take care of a Fancy Guppy and what to look for in a healthy guppy. I am very happy : )

and while there was only one survive in my tank this morning... *sniff* my blue tailed female... you know how hard it is to find a Blue or Purple tailed guppy >.< she died this morning T.T I am sorry to all my fish that died (which is like 3) Hopefully I can get this problem fixed quickly. At least my Male Guppy is showing signs of improvement now... he will actually eat now ^.^

Man Fish aren't easy to take care of. A cat is like Child's play compared to fish care >.<

1/21/09
Well petco makes me sad. a lot of there guppy's have ick : ( I just finished clearing my tank of that stupid fungus thing so I have been trying to go to petco everyday so when they get fresh guppy's in stock I can find a clean one.

My male guppy is still alive >.< b I am going to name him Pip because it's like pimp XD Pim soungs like a girl Pi yeah that woulds like pee along with PP. He survived the fungus outbreak he disservices a name : )

1/23/09

Well I think my fishy update will be coming to an end and info on my fish will be added here or just new entry. I got 2 females they are going to get treated for ick for 3-5 days just in case they have it They are showing some symptoms but they are doing well. Just a little popeye from the looks of it. Petco is getting some sick guppies they should really flush out there tanks >.< o well

Pip my male guppy is like Meow chicka meow meow. Hes really got his bling going like 3 minutes when I but the bag in so the females could adjust to the water. I mean all his spots came back and he like just like a horny retard. He is really showing off when he saw the lady's XD I mean really "Pip you can make it through a plastic bag" Silly fish >.>

Females well I might get a picture of them but I am not sure.
Female 1: Blue/Clear tail with black spots.
Female 2: Rainbow fin and is black for the back half is its body.

I saw this other pretty female with a clack tail and like these blue/purple spots but I didn't get her

My Pip is a yellow male with black spots. he looks like a Cheetah >.< b

1/29/09
My female guppy had her fry today. I think it happened during school because it looks like she is done having them. I managed to save 3 or 4 of them. I smacked on when trying to net it out but it seems ok : 0 There are a few free in the tank and 3 or 4 in the breeders net. Mom seems to be hungry : ( I'm going to try my best to keep those who were stupid and didn't go in the breeders net alive but there on there own. It's cruel but I don't want over population in my tank. It's only a 5 gallon and the big 55 gallon tank isn't ready yet. my small tank is a testing for when I set up the big one. I am also breeding my guppies so that I don't have to buy more fish.

well it looks like mom is eatting her fry now.

Well I was invited to the Art honer Society. That was interesting I guess. Over all I am not very excited; I thought I was in trouble at first XD I always think that I will get in trouble when I get a piece of paper at school XD

I also get come pictures of my Bunny Pencil Holder I made for a friend and the Chi I make which I will upload when I get home. Unless I can get it uploaded in Computer Graphic

O and apparently I might get banned from DA because I disagree with the anti Art Theft peeps. I'm so excited. So the person banned my from her page. Just another person encouraging Censorship. So she said I was harassing her I told her I was giving my opinion. I'm sad to see people want to destroy Free Speech.

It's easy to win a debate when there in no one to debate against. Look at VenomFangX; he promoted Censorship to avoid criticisms of others.

So by banning me she clearly stated that she doesn't want people to think freely. Everyone should think like her. O well sure I don't know her but the face she banned me and now is reporting me for Free Speech only proves that she is jut like VenomFangX when it comes to Censorship.

Look at the Church they said the Sun revolved around the earth. We now know the earth revolved the sun. People were burns when they brought up the idea. If you do not aloud people to think and make a point then you lose your rights.

I made the point that everyone steals but the Artist don't want to be stolen from but will gladly steal from others. That idea is clearly being censored by her and many others. It's disgusting.

Of course her other excuse was that my actions was to create drama and becomes popular. Whatever, I don't really care. I guess debate is drama but Free Speech is drama. O well I'll see what happens. If I am banned for this, for someone promoting Censorship and trying to dis mane Free Speech and taking it has Harassment when I will be sure to let Thunderf00t and the others know. Just because the idea doesn't agree with yours doesn't make it Harassment.

Her actions of Censorship is only to manipulate the minds of others. By dismissing the thoughts of others that don't agree with her's. I'll laugh when she tried to come at me with a DMCA XD O that would be loads of fun.

I fight to protect free speech and people should be aloud to have there opinion and make it. heard. Western Thought! Look at the Religious stamps those get debates and people don't go banning each other for disagreeing. Yet Art Theft seems to be worthy of Censorship.

It seems Anti Art Theft is one of the many things promoting Censorship.

No matter if I am banned from DA you will find me at FA. were Censorship and free speech isn't abused!