So, college starts in a few weeks. I really don't want to go. haha, I'd rather just work all the time, and not have to spend all my money on an education.
My dog just jumped up on me haah, she doesn't like the though of me typing when i'm supposed to be petting her. She's a fairly small dog, but smart as hell. She does this thing where she acts like you don't really matter to her, until your sleeping, then she likes to wake you up, and clean off your face :p

Got me a new macbook pro :D thangs boss. Best purchase i've ever made haha, this baby can run all of cs5 at once. I've even managed to get gamecube, wii, n64, ps2 and ps1 emulators running on this bitch, and it natively uses my ps3 controller via bluetooth :D
Oh, and i'm doin the whole boyfriend thing pretty much forever at this point. He's actually texting me right now, maybe i'll head over to his place :)

so, yeah, get my level.

Well, I broke up with my boyfriend a few weeks ago, and quite honestly, i don't know why. he thinks it was because i liked another guy, but I can honestly say, that wasn't the case. We still hung out and stuff, so about a week ago i decided that i needed to be with him again. Little did I know however, he had plans to move on.

4 days and a few gallons worth of tears later, we aren't back together (here's hoping), but I'm glad we had this experience because I feel like, should things work out with us, I have a renewed sense of respect and love for him, and our relationship in general. I've come to the conclusion that I took him for granted and that was wrong of me. As of now though, we talk like never before lol, we have ACTUAL CONVERSATIONS :D not to mention we're actually doing social things, rather than lay in bed watching movies all the time.

As of right now, I'm laying in bed, waiting for the doctor's to open, and I have a pit in my stomach. I don't know how to explain the feeling, but I suspect this is how normal people, who have normal feelings, would feel after loosing a family member. It's like I have a Dementor living in my bedroom and i can't see it... I feel like all the happiness is drained from the world, and like there's no hope.

Fortunately, there just may be hope. We have a date tonight, which I've spent the past 2 sleepless nights planning out. I can't really say what i have planned quite yet, but It's 1.corny as hell, but also 2.Hopefully, just corny/ cute enough to get him to realize how much he means to me, and that i want a new, more exciting, happier relationship with him that can last for who knows how long.

As for his moving on plans, I really don't know where they stand, and maybe not knowing is why I'm so scared. I really hope, though, that he can see that I want to change, and that he can see it before he feels the need to actually move on.

lol, thx for listening FA, i really just needed to vent that, and in the case you see this babe,
Dillon,
I Love You
And I'd give anything for you to take me back.
<3

I figure it's about time a posted a new one of these lol

So as far as life is concerned, I'm great. I got back together with my boyfriend, and I'm as happy as ever. I'm also actually trying in school now so I don't have to worry about report card XD

As for my art life, I'm starving... I really want to get into writing, but I have absolutely no time for it. Which sucks because I have ideas for a book running through my mind all the time. Plus in shop I can't seem to think of anything to design, although I have a new posture coming soon, and I finally have a decent avatar idea :)
-ca1r0

Mike.... :/

ok so lately iv been way into video games (not that i wasnt before) but its getting a little unhealthy lmao

i bought a gameboy micro a month ago, just cuz i saw it and figured id nvr see one again lol

i also got hooked on kingdom hearts, im working on 1 and Birth by Sleep now, but i own them all and plan on beating every one

i also hacked just about every device i have to emulate some kind of old system, and as I type, i have final fantasy 7 and 9 loading to my iphone to be played next time i have a free moment that im not already playing kingdom hearts or doing homework... -_-

-broke up with my boyfriend
-spent every last minute with my best friend (who is straight!, dont get any ideas)

got action replay for DS last night
and a mod program for games like forza 3, NFS shift and sacred 2

if any1 wants like unlimited credits in forza or ANYTHING in pokemon HGSS msg me!1