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 Canis03

markwolf89

just throwing it out there, just tell me who you are and ill accept.

IT'S ABOUT FUCKEN TIME! HOLY-SHIT!

okay that's all... for now

It's a strange title i know. I want to just put this out there because this is one of those nights where depression hits hard and out of nowhere. I just came from a baseball game (Dodger won, for the record) and I had fun, it was a good time with my family, as i come home I remembered that I have to go out the following day with friends to just hang out and job hunt.

So the first thing I think of, is death. how, fucken weird. I don't know why or what exactly made me think of that, but i felt scared, nervous and depressed. So I'm typing this, trying to relax (it's working), listening to Coldplay - Ghost Stories. Coincidence? I THINK NOT! heh...

So that happen, and if i were to think about it, i would conclude a few things... and ramble (sorry).

1. I don't make myself happy, I do give a fuck what a selective few think about me, more so friends that I hang out with. Why? I don't know. I try not to care but every time one of the two only friends text me, i get very anxious. Why? To go further, I get negativity about the way I view things such as my hobby, "career?", "no I don't want to be this EDM mega star that does gigs at festivals such as EDC" but they keep implying that shit... Or the choices I make such as how picky I am at job hunting and my view's on that. Just shit like that and I'm always in the wrong. I'm not trying to be right either just, this is how I am and why! Sucks cause it's always a two vs one deal. I get that I fucked up in life but It's not going to be like that forever... I need new friends. It's always such a burden to deal with them, and they're not bad people but they care way to much about my life. Seems bad that I'm saying this but it's true, for those who keep implying and pressuring about a job, school, every time we meet, talk only annoys me, and make me want to distance you.

2. ...Maybe I'm afraid of change and change means moving forward, closer to the day you die. I don't view life like this always in particular but it just comes down to being scared of change and sometimes miss the past. Don't get me wrong its not like I'm trying to avoid it but it is scary to some, possibly many, including me. Just have to DO IT! DON'T LET YOUR DREAMS BE DREAMS! YEST-okay enough of that.

So yeah... I'm slowly trying to avoid the friends I have, to be honest I never felt like I was part of their circle. I don't talk often, I just sit and listen and hold back a-lot of what to say. Sure it can be unhealthy, just tired of being so wrong all the time. Or hide who I am, they don't know that im Bi, not like that matter much, unless i say so.... oh boy. haha, well they know that I'm a furry but that's all they know. I could show them all the drawn out porn but nah, hell will break loose there too ;D Plus holy shit, do they engage in Anime. One in particular keeps trying to get me to watch anime. I just don't like it for my own reasons. Sorry bud. I even feel so bad when he tells me plots of anime's he watches or watched and I have to pretend to be slightly interested. IDK.

If you're reading this I love you, and probably wondering, so how/why are they your friends in the first place? Come to find out I was such a loner, sad sack of shit, one of them felt bad for me and friend-ed me. So yeah, we hit it off well and now, I'm becoming very annoyed.

Sigh. I feel slightly better now, but hell, not going to get much sleep and I'm going to feel like shit.

Might as well fake a smile, eventually it will become real. :/
:)

Is it considered cheating if i use the pen tool in Photoshop for "inking"/line-art? Or does it not matter and is generally acceptable?

I have a tablet but for fuck sake, i cant draw a smooth curvy or even straight line even if my life depended on it. I'm far better at traditional than digital.

A reminder:

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/canis03/

please, if you want to hear full tracks instead of the shorter and idealistic versions, follow my second account. I cant stress this enough. most of what i put on this account is various art that i commission, random crap, snippets of tracks i make or ideas that i pitch that could be mixed better.

Plus! I heard that there will be folders added to FA, so most likely when that happens (in 20+ years), I'll be making a full switch and eventually disable this account, move my commissioned art as well to the second and soon to be primary account.


Thoughts about FA:

Since I'm on the topic of FA improvements, I'm very impatient for the site to have nice new features, more MB to upload for better music quality (sorry), A nicer looking UI, not great but its okay so far so I'm not complaining much about it. Most important, folders. I really wish these were added sooner, folders at minimum. It's going to happen eventually, just waiting...

Personal:

I think I should pay less attention on FA. It hurts my creativity. heh, let me explain.

When i make a track, i subconsciously expect faves and comments, that's not good at all. So when i check and see nothing, it hurts my confidence. I wonder and think to myself "am i not good enough?!", "is the mix poor?", "what did i do wrong?!" etc. then i cry myself to sleep then i tell myself, "fuck music, i need a break".

Trying to find my own style and sound, just playing what i feel and is on my mind, and fast... yeah fast, i have a idea or just a feeling to put into musical tones, with a meaning that only I will understand, you, on the other-hand, its ear porn to enjoy, huehuehue. So FAST, yeah, I need to put it down in FL Studio before i lose the idea or feeling, and just go with it. think less and just create. Getting technical will be later.

And I think I'm doing a decent job, and care less of what people say, unless the criticism is involved in mixing than style. So yeah! That is all. If something doesnt make sense tell me, I havent slept for... 24+ hours?

I like to know, and are most likely available to work with for this track

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17161144/

Thanks!

So I have a problem and this is not a rant of all the sub genres in electronic music. But its a problem that i face of myself. I've come to realize that I make more than just Trance music and I've been wanting to make dramatic switches from 140-138 to a 120-125 bpm styles. uplifting trance, house music, dance to synthwave, minimal, and chillstep.

so yeah. if i ever, one day, want to preform. Its going to be such a up and down experience. And as much as i want to stick to one genre i just cant. I'm pretty much like, 'fuck it' at this point. I like a lot of electronic music and want to produce, just whatever i want. and I know , i can. but surely there will be people thinking. wtf is this? I WANT 140 BPM TRANCE DAMMIT... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ sorry mate. so yeah it bugs me too.

lol, but does anyone give a shit? do you care? would you be put off if i suddenly done a 90 degree turn and make some other type of electronic music? for instance if i put out a album, its probably going to be such a diverse set of tracks... gaaaah!

This year... This year is... Hectic, and beautiful. Personally and nationally. When this darkness fades away I'll explain. For now, all I want to say is... Hello

I'ts been some time, and i spent time on this EP. I'm proud of all the months I spent refining and crafting my work and only to become better and peruse new goals and pass the limits of what some that tell me are impossible.

I'm glad to announce that this EP, 'Can The Ancients Hear Us' is released.

If you like what i make here, please support me by purchasing this EP, and sharing it in the community we're in.
I want to make the best music i can for others to enjoy. And I'll be real with you. It's not cheap but I still believe in myself.

This is not the cheesy furry music that some put out there, oh no. It's something greater, well that's what i believe. haha

So, purchase this album, and I really hope you enjoy it.
https://canis03.bandcamp.com/album/.....nts-hear-us-ep

If money is a issue then you can hear the whole album on my YouTube page instead of bandcamp
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4iVAF7odETM

alright, lets hope for the best. Take care

Just made a second account today.

feel free to follow here >  Canis_03

If you're wondering why, its because my username is fucken stupid plus a cool icon made by  LilithVeritas :D

But don't worry, I will still be active here.



Next, Since i moved on from the label, I've been cranking out hours to make a EP. called 'Can The Ancients Hear Us?' that will contain 6 tracks. I'm very excited to show you guys what is in the works but it's better to wait till the EP is out once completed.

So... That's all the news n stuff I got for you guys. Take care

A little bit of news, and I'm just going to be upfront. I left the label I was in. Not going to explain my reasons in detail, but to clear the air, I wanted to leave, just wasn't working out for me.

Next, I have created a separate and personal Bandcamp for myself, not by the label so that is where I'm going to sell my music.

https://canis03.bandcamp.com/

I'ts only one track but its something to get me started on bandcamp and is also in fur.dance radio. http://fur.dance:8000/stream (<im sure this works)

Cause honestly, i gotta start making some money with my music. sounds cold but after spending quite a bit on my "bedroom studio" (i chuckle every time) I just wonder if I will actually make a living as a artist :/ i gotta make my money back and grow, hopefully, someday i can make a living doing what i love! and whats crazy! is that my family doubts me, its... 'fake support' is what i call it but more people say "you cant, its out of reach" than the people who say "i bet you can". I'm talking about people who I come across in my life than here or online in general.

And I'm still doing this! keep improving and still have this gut feeling that its fucken possible. Just keep going and be a little patient. I worry a lot but remain optimistic. So, yeah.

http://www.reactiongifs.com/wp-cont.....gry-dwight.gif

And not give a flying fuck about the content.

How fucken aggressive do I have to be for some users to get the memo. Cut that shit out, its annoying!

You're waisting your time if you're expecting a watch back.

I couldn't ever understand why people consider them as milestones, it's not like page views hold a higher value than watches, right? Or am I not understanding something.

If you do and want to check out my town, or just want to friend me, here is my info.

Friend code: 5343 - 9155 - 0503

Dream Address (Lascaux): 4800 - 5275 - 4819

I understand that the UI is till being developed and issues are being worked on (hopefully). The site looks up to date and I like what I'm seeing, but one thing that bugs me and kinda scares me a little is the home page. Since I'm guessing about half or most of the users are using the new UI, the home page doesn't have the same layout that separates the writers, musicians, and artist. Just want to bring this to attention, other than that. So far, so good.

no? well then, follow me here just in case Furaffinity goes to shit

https://www.weasyl.com/~canis

Considering how typical FA is, typical.

http://www.reactiongifs.com/r/2011/.....HISGONBGUD.gif


Edit: Don't get me wrong. I enjoy Internet drama, but won't be the asshole to fan the flames. Overall I get what's going on and why.

...And eventually success

Have a nice night ;)

Well, its like a compilation of my own tracks. Some you heard already, also recent. And some that I'm keeping stored for the right time. Give me a few weeks... 2 weeks? 4 weeks? who knows but soon.

I haven't mentioned this, but I should have long before, that my EP 'Lonely Nights' is out on my bandcamp.

http://caniswolfmusic.bandcamp.com/

If you want to purchase that EP or albums, singles, that would be so awesome.
You can name your price, so in a way its like a donation if you like to support me. It will definitely help improve the way I produce music. Even if I'm improving little by little, whatever i get will help boost the quality and a fresh improved style over time on my music. In case you are wondering what I would buy. I'd save up to buy a hardware synth or two, hardware effects like compression, EQ, new PC. A lot... Of stuff :/

Over all! I'm happy to have support. From the comments, faves. Subs, likes. All from you. There are times where i feel like I'm going nowhere with this and just want to give up. So when reading the comments. looking at the number of faves is amazing. My not be a ton of people but it doesn't matter. What matters is that my music is worth someones time and enjoyed, hopefully what you hear makes you happy! That feels good. Thank you so much.

:)

the sound of my current emotion's. All fucked up... kinda


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJ4q1wOwJrk

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/156...../#cid:92372398

Made by  pythos_cheetah who did one phenomenal job

See if you can find me ;)