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I LIIIIIIIIVE
Posted 8 years agoHey guys. I know I've been gone for a while. I haven't updated anything since August and I've barely been keeping in contact here.
Just wanted you to know that I'm not dead. I fell into a fandom that was taking a lot of my time and then I got a new job where I'm working 12 hour shifts and sometimes up to 54 hours in a week. So it's been a bit of an adventure!
I'm gonna try to be more present here soon.
I haven't drawn in months and I'm probably stupidly rusty and not very good anymore. But at some point I really wanna get back to that. I've been having a lot of anxiety when it comes to even picking the tablet pen up.
Also a lot of money troubles hit because my car broke down. Literally had some break shoes break off completely and then my transmission went. (For those of you who don't know much about cars, Transmission is pretty much the most expensive kind of repair).
So there went $2,800 down the drain. @-@
On the bright side I have the absolute best roommate in the world and they helped me pay for things and now I'm paying them back. (Hence why I'm okay with working such crazy hours at work.) Also I had a super nice friend donate a little bit of money to us on Venmo and that helped a LOT. Car stuff can be so overwhelming.
But yeah. Wanted to give you guys that update.
TL;DR: I'm not dead. Just stupidly busy and exhausted.
Just wanted you to know that I'm not dead. I fell into a fandom that was taking a lot of my time and then I got a new job where I'm working 12 hour shifts and sometimes up to 54 hours in a week. So it's been a bit of an adventure!
I'm gonna try to be more present here soon.
I haven't drawn in months and I'm probably stupidly rusty and not very good anymore. But at some point I really wanna get back to that. I've been having a lot of anxiety when it comes to even picking the tablet pen up.
Also a lot of money troubles hit because my car broke down. Literally had some break shoes break off completely and then my transmission went. (For those of you who don't know much about cars, Transmission is pretty much the most expensive kind of repair).
So there went $2,800 down the drain. @-@
On the bright side I have the absolute best roommate in the world and they helped me pay for things and now I'm paying them back. (Hence why I'm okay with working such crazy hours at work.) Also I had a super nice friend donate a little bit of money to us on Venmo and that helped a LOT. Car stuff can be so overwhelming.
But yeah. Wanted to give you guys that update.
TL;DR: I'm not dead. Just stupidly busy and exhausted.
Back from Megaplex: RECAP
Posted 8 years agoSo this was an interesting con, to say the least.
Thursday:
We checked into the hotel. This was the first time we've ever gotten a hotel for Megaplex since we actually live relatively close. But it was totally worth it. The actual organization for pre-reg pick-up and non pre-reg was kind of chaotic, but we got it none the less. The roomie was trying to work on their fursuit half the night, but we still managed some decent sleep.
Friday:
So this is where things got weird. I got groped.
This is the very first and only time this has ever happened at Megaplex for me and boy did it throw me for an unpleasant loop. I'll start at the beginning of the day.
So the roomie still wanted to work on their fursuit and I wanted to go wandering around the con. Therefore, I went by myself. Also this was the first time I'd ever worn make up at this con. I'd gotten this super sweet purple shade that I thought looked cool on me and I was getting non-stop complements for it. Which made me really happy because I can't have my pink hair at work anymore.
Everything was cool at first. I was running into con friends, was getting some sweet con-swag and commissions, and then I saw someone I'd seen for the last 4 cons now. So I was excited. Hey, it's my friends who are always friendly and sometimes share booze! I ran over, started talking to them.. and the first thing he does is reach over and touch his finger to my lips.
"I LOVE these lips."
He proceeds to wrap his arm around me, and as he keeps talking.. he keeps reaching down to rub his hand against my ass. NEVER has he done this before. I don't know howto react so I kinda just... stand there and take it and try to play it of as though nothing is wrong. He keeps asking me where my 'other half' aka my roomie is, and when I tell him they're up in the room working on their fursuit...he assumes I'm alone there. But then it gets worse and he asks me twice if I want to come to his room for harder drinks and 'to go for a ride.'
Again I played it off and told him: "Nah, I'm good." After which he picks me up with one arm and I just kinda... laugh it off even though I was nervous as fuck.
He tries to introduce me to some of his friends and at this point I'm trying to get away from them. As I excuse myself, he leans down to kiss me. I awkwardly move my head and he winds up kissing my glasses... to which I nervously laugh and go "That was my glasses."
He apologizes and goes in for ANOTHER one. So I manage to turn my head and he catches my cheek instead.
I finally manage to get away, and I hide for a little while with an artist I got a commission from. He tries to convince me to go to con security..and I'm just so busy freaking out that I can't do anything but stand there with him and chat for a bit.
After that I decide to do some retail therapy and I head over to the Hyena Agenda booth to get t-shirts for my roomie and myself... and the guy comes back. He wraps his arms around me from behind and.. honestly I don't even remember what he said. I think he was asking me what I was buying. But the girl behind the booth thought we were dating I guess until he finally walked away and I admitted to her that I wasn't okay. She also tried to convince me to go to con security.
I was just so nervous and afraid of being out there alone at that point that I got my shirts, went back to my room, messaged another artist friend about the situation as well as telling my roomie about it, and after a stress nap, the roomie went downstairs with me to finally talk to Con security.
That was the most stressful day for me. But the con staff listened to me, promised I'd be left alone... and I did not see this guy at ALL for the rest of the con. Which was a relief. I kept seeing the girl he was with, but I didn't see him.
We spent half of the rest of the night in Karaoke and then I went to the 18+ Ladie's panel, which was a lot of fun.
Saturday:
Luckily not much happened today. We went shopping, kinda waddled around, hung out with some friends, and ended the day in Karaoke where I kinda sorta got a little smashed. Which made everyone sound better lol
Sunday:
We went shopping. I managed to network with one of the dealers so I may or may not be working with them next yer to give them a little bit of help. Which will be awesome. I also helped another dealer get his Con shirt since he hadn't been able to leave the booth basically the whole time he'd been at the con. (That was an adventure. They'd already closed down the con store so I had to track people down for it. Especially since I had cash so they didn't have to do anything more than take the $20 and hand me the shirt.)
We pretty much ended the day with the Puppeteering 101 panel, which was super fun and awesome. I wish more people had gone to that.
Hotel rating:
This hotel did NOT like us. It was pretty obvious from the way they treated some of us, as well as the fact that on one of the days, they had work going on IN the artist alley that pretty much chased a lot of people out of there.
They didn't know how to keep it cold enough for the fursuiters and really only have a couple of areas cool enough that they wouldn't pass out. (in fact, someone DID pass out in the fursuit picture)
It was also very awkward to have all of the day guests who weren't with our con wandering a round, shooting us all dirty looks, and hearing some of them making nasty comments at us. I didn't enjoy that at all.
AND THEN THERE WAS PARKING. Those who had BOUGHT rooms couldn't park half the time. Security claimed there was no overflow parking...and it was just overall super hectic.
The location also kinda sucked. You had to drive a ways in order to get to any of the food options around you. And honestly... the hotel food was not only expensive, but sucked hardcore. I was glad the roomie and I had been smart enough to bring sandwich stuff to live off of for the whole con.
(Even though I had some complaints about how the con itself was run last year, last years hotel was much better. The full buy-out was fantastic, and they kept it cool enough it in all of the rooms so that the suitors wouldn't die. They had enough parking for the guests staying in the hotel and they also had overflow parking right across the street.)
Con Management rating:
*deep breath*
Where do I begin?
While I am VERY grateful and happy about how they handled the groping situation (I mean hell, the guy even kept checking on me to make sure everything was alright and nothing else had happened), other things... kinda left much to be desired this year.
For example: The placement of the headless lounges. BOTH headless lounges, you had to walk outside to get to. While it was smart to have one next to the main hall (which was in the farthest building), the other one was in the building: The Tower. So the Suitors had to walk outside, through a restaurant or buy the pool, and crossover into the other building.
Also, the fact that we were spread out into three different buildings was... quite odd. This might not actually have been management's fault, but the overall placement of things was a bit strange.
I WILL Applaud them for corralling all of the baby furs in the farthest building for their panel, after some of the things I heard happened last year. Let's not let this turn into Rain Furrest. (AKA the con that was shut down primarily because of bad Babyfur behavior)
Here's to hoping that next years will be a little bit better.
Thursday:
We checked into the hotel. This was the first time we've ever gotten a hotel for Megaplex since we actually live relatively close. But it was totally worth it. The actual organization for pre-reg pick-up and non pre-reg was kind of chaotic, but we got it none the less. The roomie was trying to work on their fursuit half the night, but we still managed some decent sleep.
Friday:
So this is where things got weird. I got groped.
This is the very first and only time this has ever happened at Megaplex for me and boy did it throw me for an unpleasant loop. I'll start at the beginning of the day.
So the roomie still wanted to work on their fursuit and I wanted to go wandering around the con. Therefore, I went by myself. Also this was the first time I'd ever worn make up at this con. I'd gotten this super sweet purple shade that I thought looked cool on me and I was getting non-stop complements for it. Which made me really happy because I can't have my pink hair at work anymore.
Everything was cool at first. I was running into con friends, was getting some sweet con-swag and commissions, and then I saw someone I'd seen for the last 4 cons now. So I was excited. Hey, it's my friends who are always friendly and sometimes share booze! I ran over, started talking to them.. and the first thing he does is reach over and touch his finger to my lips.
"I LOVE these lips."
He proceeds to wrap his arm around me, and as he keeps talking.. he keeps reaching down to rub his hand against my ass. NEVER has he done this before. I don't know howto react so I kinda just... stand there and take it and try to play it of as though nothing is wrong. He keeps asking me where my 'other half' aka my roomie is, and when I tell him they're up in the room working on their fursuit...he assumes I'm alone there. But then it gets worse and he asks me twice if I want to come to his room for harder drinks and 'to go for a ride.'
Again I played it off and told him: "Nah, I'm good." After which he picks me up with one arm and I just kinda... laugh it off even though I was nervous as fuck.
He tries to introduce me to some of his friends and at this point I'm trying to get away from them. As I excuse myself, he leans down to kiss me. I awkwardly move my head and he winds up kissing my glasses... to which I nervously laugh and go "That was my glasses."
He apologizes and goes in for ANOTHER one. So I manage to turn my head and he catches my cheek instead.
I finally manage to get away, and I hide for a little while with an artist I got a commission from. He tries to convince me to go to con security..and I'm just so busy freaking out that I can't do anything but stand there with him and chat for a bit.
After that I decide to do some retail therapy and I head over to the Hyena Agenda booth to get t-shirts for my roomie and myself... and the guy comes back. He wraps his arms around me from behind and.. honestly I don't even remember what he said. I think he was asking me what I was buying. But the girl behind the booth thought we were dating I guess until he finally walked away and I admitted to her that I wasn't okay. She also tried to convince me to go to con security.
I was just so nervous and afraid of being out there alone at that point that I got my shirts, went back to my room, messaged another artist friend about the situation as well as telling my roomie about it, and after a stress nap, the roomie went downstairs with me to finally talk to Con security.
That was the most stressful day for me. But the con staff listened to me, promised I'd be left alone... and I did not see this guy at ALL for the rest of the con. Which was a relief. I kept seeing the girl he was with, but I didn't see him.
We spent half of the rest of the night in Karaoke and then I went to the 18+ Ladie's panel, which was a lot of fun.
Saturday:
Luckily not much happened today. We went shopping, kinda waddled around, hung out with some friends, and ended the day in Karaoke where I kinda sorta got a little smashed. Which made everyone sound better lol
Sunday:
We went shopping. I managed to network with one of the dealers so I may or may not be working with them next yer to give them a little bit of help. Which will be awesome. I also helped another dealer get his Con shirt since he hadn't been able to leave the booth basically the whole time he'd been at the con. (That was an adventure. They'd already closed down the con store so I had to track people down for it. Especially since I had cash so they didn't have to do anything more than take the $20 and hand me the shirt.)
We pretty much ended the day with the Puppeteering 101 panel, which was super fun and awesome. I wish more people had gone to that.
Hotel rating:
This hotel did NOT like us. It was pretty obvious from the way they treated some of us, as well as the fact that on one of the days, they had work going on IN the artist alley that pretty much chased a lot of people out of there.
They didn't know how to keep it cold enough for the fursuiters and really only have a couple of areas cool enough that they wouldn't pass out. (in fact, someone DID pass out in the fursuit picture)
It was also very awkward to have all of the day guests who weren't with our con wandering a round, shooting us all dirty looks, and hearing some of them making nasty comments at us. I didn't enjoy that at all.
AND THEN THERE WAS PARKING. Those who had BOUGHT rooms couldn't park half the time. Security claimed there was no overflow parking...and it was just overall super hectic.
The location also kinda sucked. You had to drive a ways in order to get to any of the food options around you. And honestly... the hotel food was not only expensive, but sucked hardcore. I was glad the roomie and I had been smart enough to bring sandwich stuff to live off of for the whole con.
(Even though I had some complaints about how the con itself was run last year, last years hotel was much better. The full buy-out was fantastic, and they kept it cool enough it in all of the rooms so that the suitors wouldn't die. They had enough parking for the guests staying in the hotel and they also had overflow parking right across the street.)
Con Management rating:
*deep breath*
Where do I begin?
While I am VERY grateful and happy about how they handled the groping situation (I mean hell, the guy even kept checking on me to make sure everything was alright and nothing else had happened), other things... kinda left much to be desired this year.
For example: The placement of the headless lounges. BOTH headless lounges, you had to walk outside to get to. While it was smart to have one next to the main hall (which was in the farthest building), the other one was in the building: The Tower. So the Suitors had to walk outside, through a restaurant or buy the pool, and crossover into the other building.
Also, the fact that we were spread out into three different buildings was... quite odd. This might not actually have been management's fault, but the overall placement of things was a bit strange.
I WILL Applaud them for corralling all of the baby furs in the farthest building for their panel, after some of the things I heard happened last year. Let's not let this turn into Rain Furrest. (AKA the con that was shut down primarily because of bad Babyfur behavior)
Here's to hoping that next years will be a little bit better.
@Megaplex
Posted 8 years agoSoooo I've gone missing for a good long while. I'm still alive, guys!
If any of you are at Megaplex, let me know! I'd love to say hi to you all.
If any of you are at Megaplex, let me know! I'd love to say hi to you all.
Another Update and a New Favorite Song!
Posted 8 years agoSo things have been slowly calming down. Sort of.
The roomie has managed one part time job to kinda fill in the space, was interviewed yesterday and offered another part time job. But the BIG thing is tomorrow they have an interview for a full time position. So everything is riding on that. We're hoping they can get THAT job and then everything will be hunky dory. But if not, the two part time jobs are really nice to fall back on.
We're still super short on money and with my Bankruptcy payments coming up, it kinda feels like things are getting more and more insane. But I know they will all even out soon. Hopefully ;w;
Also I decided to watch a silly movie a couple of days ago. It's called: Help! I'm a Fish
It's very odd, but the animation is nice and the music is enjoyable. I'm especially hooked on the opening song: Ocean Love
I wasn't really expecting to hear this kind of song in this movie, but I very much enjoyed it and I've been pretty much listening to it non-stop. It's super soothing~
The roomie has managed one part time job to kinda fill in the space, was interviewed yesterday and offered another part time job. But the BIG thing is tomorrow they have an interview for a full time position. So everything is riding on that. We're hoping they can get THAT job and then everything will be hunky dory. But if not, the two part time jobs are really nice to fall back on.
We're still super short on money and with my Bankruptcy payments coming up, it kinda feels like things are getting more and more insane. But I know they will all even out soon. Hopefully ;w;
Also I decided to watch a silly movie a couple of days ago. It's called: Help! I'm a Fish
It's very odd, but the animation is nice and the music is enjoyable. I'm especially hooked on the opening song: Ocean Love
I wasn't really expecting to hear this kind of song in this movie, but I very much enjoyed it and I've been pretty much listening to it non-stop. It's super soothing~
More updates
Posted 8 years agoThe roomie's job search continues.
Getting hired quickly is such a hard process. There's the possibility of a job at one location once they have their second interview on Monday, but apparently their hiring process takes a MONTH and we don't have that long.
Things are looking kinda grim and I'm not entirely sure what's coming up next. ;w;
Here's to hoping these gray skies clear up soon.
Getting hired quickly is such a hard process. There's the possibility of a job at one location once they have their second interview on Monday, but apparently their hiring process takes a MONTH and we don't have that long.
Things are looking kinda grim and I'm not entirely sure what's coming up next. ;w;
Here's to hoping these gray skies clear up soon.
To whomever Donated
Posted 8 years agoI just received just over $40 in a 'buy me a coffee' donation.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Words can't describe how much that means to me. I'm going to be putting it towards our electric bill this month.
You really helped brighten our day a little bit. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
❤❤❤
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Words can't describe how much that means to me. I'm going to be putting it towards our electric bill this month.
You really helped brighten our day a little bit. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
❤❤❤
I thought things were going well...Apparently not.
Posted 8 years agoSo on the verge of getting to file bankruptcy, I find out that it's going to cost more than I thought it would. But I figured, no big deal! $1,400 is no problem in comparison to how much debt I have!
And then life just slaps me in the face.
I can't find car insurance to save my life. Which I need for the Bankruptcy.
My poor roomie just lost their job, which means that BOTH of us now have basically nothing, since all of my funding has to go into the bankruptcy payments and also now to try and keep ups both afloat. AND our property owners just sighted us for a bunch of stuff wrong with the outside of our house and we have SEVEN DAYS to fix it. Which involves buying a bunch of stuff. Which means we have to use the roomie's credit card.
I was feeling so good about things before this. I thought things were finally starting to look up for once. But apparently it always crashes and I don't understand why.
I've been so stressed all day that I've actually been stuttering. That's not normal for me.
I'm just worried about us losing our home that we fought so hard to get in the first place...
And then life just slaps me in the face.
I can't find car insurance to save my life. Which I need for the Bankruptcy.
My poor roomie just lost their job, which means that BOTH of us now have basically nothing, since all of my funding has to go into the bankruptcy payments and also now to try and keep ups both afloat. AND our property owners just sighted us for a bunch of stuff wrong with the outside of our house and we have SEVEN DAYS to fix it. Which involves buying a bunch of stuff. Which means we have to use the roomie's credit card.
I was feeling so good about things before this. I thought things were finally starting to look up for once. But apparently it always crashes and I don't understand why.
I've been so stressed all day that I've actually been stuttering. That's not normal for me.
I'm just worried about us losing our home that we fought so hard to get in the first place...
Giving up, but not actually giving up
Posted 8 years agoSo there have been a lot of things I've been thinking about lately. I suppose I should categorize these.
Relationships
I suppose it's safe to say I've completely given up on this. Why? Because I'm ALWAYS the one on the side-lines waiting to be tagged in. And waiting forever. This realization hit me when I watched a stupid movie called 'Mummy, I'm a Zombie!' and one of the characters basically said EXACTLY what I was feeling. Someone once told me 'we have all our lives' but... no, we don't. You never know when something is going to happen to someone. And the fact that I was RIGHT THERE in front of this person and they just let me drift way without a second thought... well, it hurts.
There was more than that and more than one person and I finally realized (after a long time of watching these people fawn over others while I waited for just a scrap of attention) that... honestly I really shouldn't care.
It's stupid to sit around waiting for someone. So I wont anymore. There are other things I could be doing with my time. Things that make me WAY happier. I suppose that in a weird way this makes me kind of a loner. Bu you know what? Being alone and okay with it is better than being lonely and begging for attention.
Health
Super excited for this one. Like I mentioned before, I signed up fora couple of 5k runs coming up in a few months. Well, tonight my roomie and I decided to walk to see if we could manage a 5k in our current condition... and we accidentally walked 10k instead. AKA 6 miles. We did this in roughly 2 hours, and that was us just walking at our normal pace. I've been non-stop watching Disney Marathon videos, and people who do this all the time were averaging about an hour and a half or so JOGGING a 10k. So I feel like we did pretty damn good.
Debt
Oh man this is a big one for me. But I've got an appointment with someone on Monday to try and file for bankruptcy. Between my credit cards (one of which I paid off but is insisting that I still owe them money), my personal loan, and the stupid dentist loan (that I still owe despite the fact that all they've done is mess up my teeth), I've been drowning REALLY badly lately. So much so that the stress has been completely crushing me and keeping me from drawing, among other things.
Well, hopefully on Monday I'll know if I can get all of this just cleared out. Yeah, it'll ruin my credit, but it can't really get any worse than it already is right now. This will be a clean slate. No debt whatsoever. I'll finally be able to afford to LIVE and not have to beg people for gas money or for help when my bank account overdrafts. I seriously can't wait for this and have really high hopes.
Job
As I think I mentioned in my last journal, I quit the job that was giving me so much stress. I've nearly competed the transition into my new job. At this point it'll just take getting used to it. It's strange how it still doesn't feel real. I'm out of training, I'm doing my job, and I don't absolutely hate doing it. Yeah there are some awkward or weird moments, but what job DOESN'T have those? My last job made me feel like there was something wrong with me. The people at THIS job keep telling me how great I'm doing and how impressed they are with me.
I can't get over how good that feels and how relieved I am.
Overall this year really is starting to look up. One money things even out, I should be able to afford healthier food and the roomie and I will be able to start properly fixing our house up. It's all really exciting! So here's to hoping that things go well.
Just do me a favor and send all of your good vibes~~~~~~~~
(Just don't say 'Good Luck' because that's actually bad luck lol XD)
Relationships
I suppose it's safe to say I've completely given up on this. Why? Because I'm ALWAYS the one on the side-lines waiting to be tagged in. And waiting forever. This realization hit me when I watched a stupid movie called 'Mummy, I'm a Zombie!' and one of the characters basically said EXACTLY what I was feeling. Someone once told me 'we have all our lives' but... no, we don't. You never know when something is going to happen to someone. And the fact that I was RIGHT THERE in front of this person and they just let me drift way without a second thought... well, it hurts.
There was more than that and more than one person and I finally realized (after a long time of watching these people fawn over others while I waited for just a scrap of attention) that... honestly I really shouldn't care.
It's stupid to sit around waiting for someone. So I wont anymore. There are other things I could be doing with my time. Things that make me WAY happier. I suppose that in a weird way this makes me kind of a loner. Bu you know what? Being alone and okay with it is better than being lonely and begging for attention.
Health
Super excited for this one. Like I mentioned before, I signed up fora couple of 5k runs coming up in a few months. Well, tonight my roomie and I decided to walk to see if we could manage a 5k in our current condition... and we accidentally walked 10k instead. AKA 6 miles. We did this in roughly 2 hours, and that was us just walking at our normal pace. I've been non-stop watching Disney Marathon videos, and people who do this all the time were averaging about an hour and a half or so JOGGING a 10k. So I feel like we did pretty damn good.
Debt
Oh man this is a big one for me. But I've got an appointment with someone on Monday to try and file for bankruptcy. Between my credit cards (one of which I paid off but is insisting that I still owe them money), my personal loan, and the stupid dentist loan (that I still owe despite the fact that all they've done is mess up my teeth), I've been drowning REALLY badly lately. So much so that the stress has been completely crushing me and keeping me from drawing, among other things.
Well, hopefully on Monday I'll know if I can get all of this just cleared out. Yeah, it'll ruin my credit, but it can't really get any worse than it already is right now. This will be a clean slate. No debt whatsoever. I'll finally be able to afford to LIVE and not have to beg people for gas money or for help when my bank account overdrafts. I seriously can't wait for this and have really high hopes.
Job
As I think I mentioned in my last journal, I quit the job that was giving me so much stress. I've nearly competed the transition into my new job. At this point it'll just take getting used to it. It's strange how it still doesn't feel real. I'm out of training, I'm doing my job, and I don't absolutely hate doing it. Yeah there are some awkward or weird moments, but what job DOESN'T have those? My last job made me feel like there was something wrong with me. The people at THIS job keep telling me how great I'm doing and how impressed they are with me.
I can't get over how good that feels and how relieved I am.
Overall this year really is starting to look up. One money things even out, I should be able to afford healthier food and the roomie and I will be able to start properly fixing our house up. It's all really exciting! So here's to hoping that things go well.
Just do me a favor and send all of your good vibes~~~~~~~~
(Just don't say 'Good Luck' because that's actually bad luck lol XD)
Things are finally looking up
Posted 8 years agoSo I did have a blessing literally fall into my lap about a month ago. I was out trying to sell my Pure Romance products (note me if you're interested in PR) and somehow a girl misheard what I was saying and basically offered me a job. She called the manager out, they shoved an application at me and then they interviewed me on the spot. On top of that, they offered me full time and health benefits.
This came so out of left field, but it was all things I desperately needed.
Yesterday was my first day out of training all by myself. My managers and supervisors keep telling me how impressed with me they are and I have never felt so appreciated in my life. Usually I'm the hardest worker in my location and I wind up picking up everyone else's slack. But here I just come in, do my thing, and head home. It's amazing.
On one hand I'm trying to file for bankruptcy because my debt has finally gotten to be too much for me to handle. However I literally have nothing to lose other than the debt itself. If I can get that to go through, I have a GIANT weight off of me.
On top of that, I'm starting to sign up for a bunch of 5k runs so that I can start trying to get healthier. I hate normal ways of working out, but I could walk forever. So this works for me. And so many of them have fun themes!
So overall I feel like things are looking bright ahead. I can't wait to see what the universe has in store for me.
This came so out of left field, but it was all things I desperately needed.
Yesterday was my first day out of training all by myself. My managers and supervisors keep telling me how impressed with me they are and I have never felt so appreciated in my life. Usually I'm the hardest worker in my location and I wind up picking up everyone else's slack. But here I just come in, do my thing, and head home. It's amazing.
On one hand I'm trying to file for bankruptcy because my debt has finally gotten to be too much for me to handle. However I literally have nothing to lose other than the debt itself. If I can get that to go through, I have a GIANT weight off of me.
On top of that, I'm starting to sign up for a bunch of 5k runs so that I can start trying to get healthier. I hate normal ways of working out, but I could walk forever. So this works for me. And so many of them have fun themes!
So overall I feel like things are looking bright ahead. I can't wait to see what the universe has in store for me.
Deep thoughts
Posted 8 years agoI've had a lot of not so pleasant thoughts crowding my brainmeats for a while not and I figured it would probably just be better to vent them out somewhere. So Journals it is!
I've been having a weird sort of... early mid-life crisis. Recently people have been able to actually guess my age. Like, almost exactly on the dot. Most people wouldn't think of that as an issue. So why is it an issue for me? Because I'm turning 27 this year. I am 3 years away from hitting 30.
30 is the dead year for women. You're not longer able to be considered conventionally beautiful. If you're not at least in a relationship, you'll be looked at as unable to function in the 'normal' society. You're considered 'old'.
Men are lucky. Their dead year is 50. That's 20 more than a woman gets before she's essentially told she's worthless.
Mentally I still feel like I'm 21. But obviously, time can't be fixed as easily as thinking about it. I've actually gotten face serums to try and help me 'look young again'. One of which even has snake venom in it. I don't know when I became so desperate or so intensely worried about how I look, but it's happened and I'm having a hard time clawing my way out of it.
I'm nearly 30. I drive an old junked up little car. My new work uniform kinda makes me look like a lunch lady. My new hairstyle looks horrendous thanks to me having to dye it back to a natural color and style it differently. (Picture a brunette Severus Snape haircut on a round faced woman. Not flattering)
I've had to start a new job. And while I'm happy and excited for said job, at the same time I'm terrified because that's ANOTHER job jump I've made. I'm pretty sure 'normal' society would look down on me for that because I haven't been able to find the 'dream job' and just stick with it.
I'm also having a lot of friend troubles. I get REALLY tired of having to be the one to basically always initiate. I'm a Leo. I like people to come to me. That's just how I am. Yet I always find myself attracted to the kind of person that just can't be bothered with contacting me. Whether it's because they're too distracted by someone/something else, they don't remember me outside of work (old job) or they just never think to contact me... honestly it hurts. I get tired of it, and the time span in which I get tired of it is steadily growing shorter and shorter with each person.
I only have a single person that I can count on, which is my roommate. And even that worries me sometimes simply because I worry that I'm expecting too much out of them. I want to give them their time and space and not be a bother just because I can't seem to keep any other friends.
I kinda feel like I should just give up and let everyone drift away. Maybe I'm not really meant to have friends?
I know there are some people out there that are supposed to be loners, but I didn't think the universe would kick my ass so hard into thinking I needed to be one of them.
So here I sit, a nearly 27 year old with a brand new job, no more youth in my skin, a whole lot of debt I can't seem to get under control, and basically no one to reach out to. I can't draw. I can't seem to do anything but focus on stupid things. I just have no inspiration left.
I kinda feel like I'm in a hole, reaching out for someone who just isn't there. And the more time passes by, the deeper that hole gets.
At the very least, I'm glad to have my roommate here. I honestly don't know what I would do without them.
I've been having a weird sort of... early mid-life crisis. Recently people have been able to actually guess my age. Like, almost exactly on the dot. Most people wouldn't think of that as an issue. So why is it an issue for me? Because I'm turning 27 this year. I am 3 years away from hitting 30.
30 is the dead year for women. You're not longer able to be considered conventionally beautiful. If you're not at least in a relationship, you'll be looked at as unable to function in the 'normal' society. You're considered 'old'.
Men are lucky. Their dead year is 50. That's 20 more than a woman gets before she's essentially told she's worthless.
Mentally I still feel like I'm 21. But obviously, time can't be fixed as easily as thinking about it. I've actually gotten face serums to try and help me 'look young again'. One of which even has snake venom in it. I don't know when I became so desperate or so intensely worried about how I look, but it's happened and I'm having a hard time clawing my way out of it.
I'm nearly 30. I drive an old junked up little car. My new work uniform kinda makes me look like a lunch lady. My new hairstyle looks horrendous thanks to me having to dye it back to a natural color and style it differently. (Picture a brunette Severus Snape haircut on a round faced woman. Not flattering)
I've had to start a new job. And while I'm happy and excited for said job, at the same time I'm terrified because that's ANOTHER job jump I've made. I'm pretty sure 'normal' society would look down on me for that because I haven't been able to find the 'dream job' and just stick with it.
I'm also having a lot of friend troubles. I get REALLY tired of having to be the one to basically always initiate. I'm a Leo. I like people to come to me. That's just how I am. Yet I always find myself attracted to the kind of person that just can't be bothered with contacting me. Whether it's because they're too distracted by someone/something else, they don't remember me outside of work (old job) or they just never think to contact me... honestly it hurts. I get tired of it, and the time span in which I get tired of it is steadily growing shorter and shorter with each person.
I only have a single person that I can count on, which is my roommate. And even that worries me sometimes simply because I worry that I'm expecting too much out of them. I want to give them their time and space and not be a bother just because I can't seem to keep any other friends.
I kinda feel like I should just give up and let everyone drift away. Maybe I'm not really meant to have friends?
I know there are some people out there that are supposed to be loners, but I didn't think the universe would kick my ass so hard into thinking I needed to be one of them.
So here I sit, a nearly 27 year old with a brand new job, no more youth in my skin, a whole lot of debt I can't seem to get under control, and basically no one to reach out to. I can't draw. I can't seem to do anything but focus on stupid things. I just have no inspiration left.
I kinda feel like I'm in a hole, reaching out for someone who just isn't there. And the more time passes by, the deeper that hole gets.
At the very least, I'm glad to have my roommate here. I honestly don't know what I would do without them.
Intense Tooth Pain
Posted 8 years agoSo I'm sure some of you have wondering why drawing-wise I've been totally inactive lately. Truthfully, it's because I've been having a lot of trouble focusing.
Three months ago I went to the dentist because my tooth broke and I counted on them to fix it. Of course, the dentist found five cavities (one being inside the broken tooth) that needed to be fixed. One of which he said could become so extreme that it would become a root canal if we didn't fix it.
So I did the only thing I thought I could do. I took out a loan and I go the work done. Because I currently have no medical or dental insurance. He did the work, and then I started experiencing more pain than I'd had from the broken tooth. He told me that the fillings needed to be filed down because they were making my teeth too big and throwing of the ligaments and *insert dental speak here*. So I let him file them down.
Upon leaving, I was stupidly thirsty. So I bought a coke when we stopped at the grocery store. I was still completely numb at this point, but taking a single drink of that ice cold coke shocked me with intense tooth pain. It basically felt like the two teeth he'd done the fillings in suddenly had exposed nerves.
I called them, along with two other dentists to get second opinions and I was told by all of them that it would be sensitive for a little while and to give it some time. About 4 weeks at most. So then I had to wait a month. A whole month of grueling pain in which I could only chew on my left side. After that I got sick and then my mom came into town so obviously that threw my timing off a bit. She, I called them and scheduled an appointment, and guess what....
The Dentist that did all of my work was no longer working for them. The current dentist had her nurses take new exrays of just the right side and they wouldn't totally tell me what was going on. She just said that I had to come back another day (two fucking weeks later) and she would re-fill them.
So what else could I do? I made the appointment. That appointment was for today.
However some time last week, my left side started to hurt suddenly too. It was the same type of pain: intense sensitivity to both cold and hot, and pain upon pressure. It left me chewing with my front teeth until I got to go in today.
So not only did she take two hours to do these fillings, she suckered me into doing another one that I couldn't actually pay for and they didn't tell me till AFTER the fact that my dental loan wouldn't cover it. She also was complaining non stop the whole time about having 'missing hand pieces'. The nurses were switched out THREE times over the course of my time there. The first one was a complete nimrod and put the numbing gel on the WRONG tooth that needed to be numbed. Which means I got stabbed with the needle without being numbed first. She couldn't take exrays on her own like the other nurses could. The tool she was supposed to use she wound up tossing aside and she held the plate in place while she had another nurse push the button. It took her about 10 tries to do what another nurse had done in a single try for three different teeth.
I can't even put into words how unhappy this whole experience has made me. I seem to be getting better now, but I'm still pretty sore where they did the work and I want to give myself a few more days to recover.
On top of all of that, while my roomie was in the waiting room, they overheard talk from a government worker who was going there to get his teeth worked on and this dental office (Aspen Dental if anyone wants to know) COMPLETELY LOST HIS FILE. And his Daughter's file too. How do you completely lose two patient files like that?!
So yeah. Between the stress of all of this dental stuff, the pain, and me switching between jobs to get to a better one and get out of the complete shit job, I just haven't been able to focus on drawing at all. Everything hurts and all I can seem to do is completely zone out on stupid shows from years ago.
Here's to hoping that I'll finally be able to jump back into the fray again. I still owe a single commission that I basically permanently have up on my windows, and I hate that I've made this super patient person wait this long.
I haven't even managed to do something of my own personal characters as a warmup to get me going.
I just want things to go back to normal soon.
Three months ago I went to the dentist because my tooth broke and I counted on them to fix it. Of course, the dentist found five cavities (one being inside the broken tooth) that needed to be fixed. One of which he said could become so extreme that it would become a root canal if we didn't fix it.
So I did the only thing I thought I could do. I took out a loan and I go the work done. Because I currently have no medical or dental insurance. He did the work, and then I started experiencing more pain than I'd had from the broken tooth. He told me that the fillings needed to be filed down because they were making my teeth too big and throwing of the ligaments and *insert dental speak here*. So I let him file them down.
Upon leaving, I was stupidly thirsty. So I bought a coke when we stopped at the grocery store. I was still completely numb at this point, but taking a single drink of that ice cold coke shocked me with intense tooth pain. It basically felt like the two teeth he'd done the fillings in suddenly had exposed nerves.
I called them, along with two other dentists to get second opinions and I was told by all of them that it would be sensitive for a little while and to give it some time. About 4 weeks at most. So then I had to wait a month. A whole month of grueling pain in which I could only chew on my left side. After that I got sick and then my mom came into town so obviously that threw my timing off a bit. She, I called them and scheduled an appointment, and guess what....
The Dentist that did all of my work was no longer working for them. The current dentist had her nurses take new exrays of just the right side and they wouldn't totally tell me what was going on. She just said that I had to come back another day (two fucking weeks later) and she would re-fill them.
So what else could I do? I made the appointment. That appointment was for today.
However some time last week, my left side started to hurt suddenly too. It was the same type of pain: intense sensitivity to both cold and hot, and pain upon pressure. It left me chewing with my front teeth until I got to go in today.
So not only did she take two hours to do these fillings, she suckered me into doing another one that I couldn't actually pay for and they didn't tell me till AFTER the fact that my dental loan wouldn't cover it. She also was complaining non stop the whole time about having 'missing hand pieces'. The nurses were switched out THREE times over the course of my time there. The first one was a complete nimrod and put the numbing gel on the WRONG tooth that needed to be numbed. Which means I got stabbed with the needle without being numbed first. She couldn't take exrays on her own like the other nurses could. The tool she was supposed to use she wound up tossing aside and she held the plate in place while she had another nurse push the button. It took her about 10 tries to do what another nurse had done in a single try for three different teeth.
I can't even put into words how unhappy this whole experience has made me. I seem to be getting better now, but I'm still pretty sore where they did the work and I want to give myself a few more days to recover.
On top of all of that, while my roomie was in the waiting room, they overheard talk from a government worker who was going there to get his teeth worked on and this dental office (Aspen Dental if anyone wants to know) COMPLETELY LOST HIS FILE. And his Daughter's file too. How do you completely lose two patient files like that?!
So yeah. Between the stress of all of this dental stuff, the pain, and me switching between jobs to get to a better one and get out of the complete shit job, I just haven't been able to focus on drawing at all. Everything hurts and all I can seem to do is completely zone out on stupid shows from years ago.
Here's to hoping that I'll finally be able to jump back into the fray again. I still owe a single commission that I basically permanently have up on my windows, and I hate that I've made this super patient person wait this long.
I haven't even managed to do something of my own personal characters as a warmup to get me going.
I just want things to go back to normal soon.
Dream Boyfriend Meme
Posted 8 years agoRules:
1. Answer each category with the name of your dream boyfriend and why you like them so much. Make the description as long or short as you like it!
2. Try to stay away from characters that are underage. No younger than high school, please. (Of course I know some of these fictional crushes began IN high school and obviously, you grew and the character didn't.)
3. Add a link (or turn their names into a link with the code: [url= ] NAME [/ url] without the spaces) so we can see your bodacious babes.
4. The list is meant for only one in each category, but if you have 5 Disney boyfriends and no IRL boyfriends, then fill'er up!
5. Guilty pleasure? That's okay! This is for fun, and is a total non-judgement zone.
❤Disney Animation❤: Panchito - The guys' energy is just through the roof and I ADORE that. Yet out of the three Caballeros, he's the one that's the most like a gentleman. When his friends get a little too girl crazy, he's the first one to take a step back and go: Okay guys, we need to cool it. Overall he's just plain fun! He's so eager to share his culture and his homeland with his friends from region to region like a true tour guide. Plus I love the idea of him cooking for me all the time. And the [/url=https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.co.....an/anime[/url] versions of him aren't half bad looking either. ❤❤❤
❤Non-Disney Animation❤: [/url=https://nocternanovel.files.wordpre.....]Duckula[/url] - Mainly the reboot Duckula, honestly. Though I like the original version as well. This guy's got a lot of charisma and I can relate to the whole, wanting to be adore thing. Sometimes he's kinda like a big, dopey teenager stuck in an adult duck's body and that amuses the heck out of me. He's a jack of all trades and a master of none.
❤Literary/Book❤: Man I don't even know this character's name or what book he was from but I remember years ago when I was reading in like, middle school there was this otter character who was a pirate and MAN did I have the hugest crush on this character. I wanna say he was probably one of the Brian Jacques Redwall series.
❤Anime❤: Jaden/Judai Yuki - This is kind of a guilty pleasure for me and is as young of a character as I'll go. I was a teenager when this show came out, so really I was around the same age as the actual characters in the show at the time. Jaden's super chill and can-do attitude balance out my panic and GO!GO!GO!-ness, which was a big draw for me. I also always loved the fact that his response to everything was: Do I know what I'm doing? NOPE! BUT HERE WE GO ANYWAY! LOL
Again, super guilty pleasure here. While most people hated this show when it came out, I loved it. And I adored Jaden as the protagonist and maybe a little more than just that.
Ryou Bakura: ANOTHER GUILTY PLEASURE. LOOK AT HIS FLUFFY HAIR. ALSO HIS BRITISH ACCENT. THAT'S ALL I'M GONNA SAY.
❤IRL Celebrity❤: Eeeehhhhhh..... Jeff Goldbloom, Bruce Willis, Nathan Lane (don't care if he's gay, I adore him), Will Smith, and many many more men that are probably way too old for me. Lol whoops.
✧✦✧Now here comes the fun part! Talk about your absolute dream boyfriend here. Don't worry about being too realistic. Create your absolute fantasy here!✧✦✧
❤Dream Boyfriend❤: Oh man, I'd want him to be TALL. I like them tall. Like, 6'3-ish is the absolute perfect height for me. I honestly don't know if I'd prefer him to be a dark and handsome dog with a fluffy tail, or some sort of bird...Or a cat. (lol demon shape shifter? IDK) But dark colors would be amazing because it'd be great if he was primarily gothic themed or wore suits. ❤❤❤ I can see him being a successful businessman. That way I wouldn't have to work. I'd just work because I wanted to/to keep from being bored when he's not home. Despite him always wearing dark clothes and looking super tall and intimidating, I'd love it if he was a softie inside. Like a big'ol teddy bear. He'd treat me like actual royalty and would shower me with attention whenever I wanted. Likewise, if I wanted so space, he'd be more than happy to give it and do his own thing in the mean time. He wouldn't judge me for if I decide to wear pink and glitter one day, look like a hippie the next, and then look like a wife from the 80's or even 50's another day. In fact he'd have fun playing around with similar themes sometimes. Overall he'd be pretty dapper, just because he wants to be. But at home he'd dress down and be comfortable. I like skinny guys with a big of muscle, but also just a tiny bit of pudge around the middle. Just enough to make snuggling comfortable. He'd be stronger than he looked and while he'd be dominant in certain aspects of the relationship, emotionally I'd love him to primarily be the submissive; only taking the lead when he's trying to be romantic or when I need support. (or in bed lolol)
Also despite being more on the gothic side, he'd enjoy tropical vacations and theme parks, as well as nerding out about some of my own interests. Like Disney and other things. He'd be relatively chill most of the time, but have adorable bursts of energy, especially when he was excited about something.
Also also, Australian or British accent, yes please! Honestly I don't know which one I prefer more out of the two, but I adore them both. ❤❤❤ I do loooooove that thick Australian accent.
ALSO ALSO ALSO, he'd be good at cooking. ❤
✧✦✧Wanna make someone REALLY happy? Take their description of their Dream Boyfriend and try to draw him/them out! Whether it be a sketch, a doodle or a full blow image, go for it! Who knows, someone might just do the same thing for you.✧✦✧
Don't forget to say who you got this from and link back to it so other people can read everything and join in on the fun!
1. Answer each category with the name of your dream boyfriend and why you like them so much. Make the description as long or short as you like it!
2. Try to stay away from characters that are underage. No younger than high school, please. (Of course I know some of these fictional crushes began IN high school and obviously, you grew and the character didn't.)
3. Add a link (or turn their names into a link with the code: [url= ] NAME [/ url] without the spaces) so we can see your bodacious babes.
4. The list is meant for only one in each category, but if you have 5 Disney boyfriends and no IRL boyfriends, then fill'er up!
5. Guilty pleasure? That's okay! This is for fun, and is a total non-judgement zone.
❤Disney Animation❤: Panchito - The guys' energy is just through the roof and I ADORE that. Yet out of the three Caballeros, he's the one that's the most like a gentleman. When his friends get a little too girl crazy, he's the first one to take a step back and go: Okay guys, we need to cool it. Overall he's just plain fun! He's so eager to share his culture and his homeland with his friends from region to region like a true tour guide. Plus I love the idea of him cooking for me all the time. And the [/url=https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.co.....an/anime[/url] versions of him aren't half bad looking either. ❤❤❤
❤Non-Disney Animation❤: [/url=https://nocternanovel.files.wordpre.....]Duckula[/url] - Mainly the reboot Duckula, honestly. Though I like the original version as well. This guy's got a lot of charisma and I can relate to the whole, wanting to be adore thing. Sometimes he's kinda like a big, dopey teenager stuck in an adult duck's body and that amuses the heck out of me. He's a jack of all trades and a master of none.
❤Literary/Book❤: Man I don't even know this character's name or what book he was from but I remember years ago when I was reading in like, middle school there was this otter character who was a pirate and MAN did I have the hugest crush on this character. I wanna say he was probably one of the Brian Jacques Redwall series.
❤Anime❤: Jaden/Judai Yuki - This is kind of a guilty pleasure for me and is as young of a character as I'll go. I was a teenager when this show came out, so really I was around the same age as the actual characters in the show at the time. Jaden's super chill and can-do attitude balance out my panic and GO!GO!GO!-ness, which was a big draw for me. I also always loved the fact that his response to everything was: Do I know what I'm doing? NOPE! BUT HERE WE GO ANYWAY! LOL
Again, super guilty pleasure here. While most people hated this show when it came out, I loved it. And I adored Jaden as the protagonist and maybe a little more than just that.
Ryou Bakura: ANOTHER GUILTY PLEASURE. LOOK AT HIS FLUFFY HAIR. ALSO HIS BRITISH ACCENT. THAT'S ALL I'M GONNA SAY.
❤IRL Celebrity❤: Eeeehhhhhh..... Jeff Goldbloom, Bruce Willis, Nathan Lane (don't care if he's gay, I adore him), Will Smith, and many many more men that are probably way too old for me. Lol whoops.
✧✦✧Now here comes the fun part! Talk about your absolute dream boyfriend here. Don't worry about being too realistic. Create your absolute fantasy here!✧✦✧
❤Dream Boyfriend❤: Oh man, I'd want him to be TALL. I like them tall. Like, 6'3-ish is the absolute perfect height for me. I honestly don't know if I'd prefer him to be a dark and handsome dog with a fluffy tail, or some sort of bird...Or a cat. (lol demon shape shifter? IDK) But dark colors would be amazing because it'd be great if he was primarily gothic themed or wore suits. ❤❤❤ I can see him being a successful businessman. That way I wouldn't have to work. I'd just work because I wanted to/to keep from being bored when he's not home. Despite him always wearing dark clothes and looking super tall and intimidating, I'd love it if he was a softie inside. Like a big'ol teddy bear. He'd treat me like actual royalty and would shower me with attention whenever I wanted. Likewise, if I wanted so space, he'd be more than happy to give it and do his own thing in the mean time. He wouldn't judge me for if I decide to wear pink and glitter one day, look like a hippie the next, and then look like a wife from the 80's or even 50's another day. In fact he'd have fun playing around with similar themes sometimes. Overall he'd be pretty dapper, just because he wants to be. But at home he'd dress down and be comfortable. I like skinny guys with a big of muscle, but also just a tiny bit of pudge around the middle. Just enough to make snuggling comfortable. He'd be stronger than he looked and while he'd be dominant in certain aspects of the relationship, emotionally I'd love him to primarily be the submissive; only taking the lead when he's trying to be romantic or when I need support. (or in bed lolol)
Also despite being more on the gothic side, he'd enjoy tropical vacations and theme parks, as well as nerding out about some of my own interests. Like Disney and other things. He'd be relatively chill most of the time, but have adorable bursts of energy, especially when he was excited about something.
Also also, Australian or British accent, yes please! Honestly I don't know which one I prefer more out of the two, but I adore them both. ❤❤❤ I do loooooove that thick Australian accent.
ALSO ALSO ALSO, he'd be good at cooking. ❤
✧✦✧Wanna make someone REALLY happy? Take their description of their Dream Boyfriend and try to draw him/them out! Whether it be a sketch, a doodle or a full blow image, go for it! Who knows, someone might just do the same thing for you.✧✦✧
Don't forget to say who you got this from and link back to it so other people can read everything and join in on the fun!
This dark, dark mood
Posted 8 years agoYou ever been in that weird, dark mood where you just kinda want... nothing-ness?
It's not quite depression. It's not really anger. It's not even hopelessness. You know you have things to do, responsibilities and overall just things to finish. You know that things are about to get better once you can get over that scary hump of quitting your current job to move on to the next. The next job is completely set, but you're terrified of telling your current bosses about it. But even still, you're not actually feeling the fear.
You know you should bathe because you want to and you probably need to. You know that after you bathe, you should sleep because you have work tomorrow. And yet, you want to do neither. You want to just sit there and stare off into the void in hopes that somehow this will slow time down and make tomorrow fail to come.
It's not even a feeling of really wanting everything to end. It's just.. the feeling of wanting it to slow to a grinding halt and just... give you a minute to catch up. Like it all went so fast that your mind and your feelings somehow got left behind. But at the same time, it all came out of nowhere. Because just too hours ago you were feeling everything completely normally. Or at least, as 'normal' as you usually feel things.
I don't really know what this is or why I'm feeling this way. Honestly it's just.. it's weird and I don't really know how to deal with it. I feel like I can see the sunshine up ahead down the bright path I seem to be taking, but I can't make myself feel any of that sun's warmth.
Hopefully when I wake up in the morning, this hazy funk is gone and I can just bring myself to do the things I know I need to do.
It's not quite depression. It's not really anger. It's not even hopelessness. You know you have things to do, responsibilities and overall just things to finish. You know that things are about to get better once you can get over that scary hump of quitting your current job to move on to the next. The next job is completely set, but you're terrified of telling your current bosses about it. But even still, you're not actually feeling the fear.
You know you should bathe because you want to and you probably need to. You know that after you bathe, you should sleep because you have work tomorrow. And yet, you want to do neither. You want to just sit there and stare off into the void in hopes that somehow this will slow time down and make tomorrow fail to come.
It's not even a feeling of really wanting everything to end. It's just.. the feeling of wanting it to slow to a grinding halt and just... give you a minute to catch up. Like it all went so fast that your mind and your feelings somehow got left behind. But at the same time, it all came out of nowhere. Because just too hours ago you were feeling everything completely normally. Or at least, as 'normal' as you usually feel things.
I don't really know what this is or why I'm feeling this way. Honestly it's just.. it's weird and I don't really know how to deal with it. I feel like I can see the sunshine up ahead down the bright path I seem to be taking, but I can't make myself feel any of that sun's warmth.
Hopefully when I wake up in the morning, this hazy funk is gone and I can just bring myself to do the things I know I need to do.
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Posted 8 years agoHello everyone!
So my current job is just... Bleh. It's stressful, I work harder than most of the other people there yet I get singled out an awful lot. Therefore, I'm gonna try and make a break for something. I'm going to become a Pure Romance Consultant.
But to do that, I need your help. I've made a GoFundMe explaining the situation. Here is the link for it:
https://www.gofundme.com/pure-roman.....nt-starter-kit
https://www.gofundme.com/pure-roman.....nt-starter-kit
https://www.gofundme.com/pure-roman.....nt-starter-kit
If you could donate, I would be AMAZINGLY happy. Even if it's just a dollar. Every little bit counts. However if you can't donate, it would also be amazingly helpful if you could share this.
Post a journal. Tweet about it. Post it on your facebook. ANYTHING.
Thank you so much for your time. I really appreciate it. ❤
So my current job is just... Bleh. It's stressful, I work harder than most of the other people there yet I get singled out an awful lot. Therefore, I'm gonna try and make a break for something. I'm going to become a Pure Romance Consultant.
But to do that, I need your help. I've made a GoFundMe explaining the situation. Here is the link for it:
https://www.gofundme.com/pure-roman.....nt-starter-kit
https://www.gofundme.com/pure-roman.....nt-starter-kit
https://www.gofundme.com/pure-roman.....nt-starter-kit
If you could donate, I would be AMAZINGLY happy. Even if it's just a dollar. Every little bit counts. However if you can't donate, it would also be amazingly helpful if you could share this.
Post a journal. Tweet about it. Post it on your facebook. ANYTHING.
Thank you so much for your time. I really appreciate it. ❤
Friend in Abusive Situation / geting kicked out! Help!
Posted 8 years agoWell, she's a friend of my friend and I wanted to help spread the word.
Please click this link.
It will explain everything.
Please click this link.
It will explain everything.
Commissions are open~
Posted 8 years agoSo I really wanna start getting into more commission work to try and not only crack down on my debt, but give myself more spending money for fun things.
Also my mom is coming into town and I don't have my official payday till like, right before she leaves. SO, I'll try and make some money here so I can try and take her out to dinner at least once and be able to pay for my own food when we go to Disney together.
Interested in a commission?
My Prices are:
$10 for a bust
$15 for waist-up
$20 for a full-body
For a Single character image. You can choose between a simple color background, or transparent background.
Feel free to look through the examples: Here and Here
Send me a note with this form filled out:
Character name:
Reference sheet: (Flat colored is preferred so that I can directly pull colors from it. Multiple reference images will also be accepted.)
Gender:
Important details: (Does your character have a mark that isn't on your reference images? I need to know this)
Personality:
Commission type: (Bust, waist-up or full-body)
Paypal email: (So that I can request the money from you)
I also have two different types of YCHs available at the moment.
You can find the Rapunzel YCH HERE
And the wing-it Stardragon Tarot Card Deck YCH HERE
I look forward to hearing from all of you soon~ ouo
Also my mom is coming into town and I don't have my official payday till like, right before she leaves. SO, I'll try and make some money here so I can try and take her out to dinner at least once and be able to pay for my own food when we go to Disney together.
Interested in a commission?
My Prices are:
$10 for a bust
$15 for waist-up
$20 for a full-body
For a Single character image. You can choose between a simple color background, or transparent background.
Feel free to look through the examples: Here and Here
Send me a note with this form filled out:
Character name:
Reference sheet: (Flat colored is preferred so that I can directly pull colors from it. Multiple reference images will also be accepted.)
Gender:
Important details: (Does your character have a mark that isn't on your reference images? I need to know this)
Personality:
Commission type: (Bust, waist-up or full-body)
Paypal email: (So that I can request the money from you)
I also have two different types of YCHs available at the moment.
You can find the Rapunzel YCH HERE
And the wing-it Stardragon Tarot Card Deck YCH HERE
I look forward to hearing from all of you soon~ ouo
Lots of Commission Slots open
Posted 8 years agoHey guys! As you know in my last journal, I've got a looooot of money to try and make to try and clear out my debt.
My commissions are currently Open!
I'll get a nice commission sheet put together for you guys after this next week or so. I work a lot of days for once.
Also my Tarot Card readings for Donations are always open.
ALSO Also, if you guys own the closed species Stardragons, I have a ton of slots open for a new project I just started: The Stardragon Tarot Card Deck
Interested in seeing another kind of Tarot Card deck? Let me know down in the comments.
Thanks for reading, guys!
My commissions are currently Open!
I'll get a nice commission sheet put together for you guys after this next week or so. I work a lot of days for once.
Also my Tarot Card readings for Donations are always open.
ALSO Also, if you guys own the closed species Stardragons, I have a ton of slots open for a new project I just started: The Stardragon Tarot Card Deck
Interested in seeing another kind of Tarot Card deck? Let me know down in the comments.
Thanks for reading, guys!
Jo'Arca: The Painted Desert and the Keesog Tribe
Posted 8 years agoDeep within the Sicco Glutture of Jo'Arka is the Painted Desert. Most of it's Rocks are red and clay colored, and the terrain is more Rocky than the sand one would normally expect from a dessert, but it's conditions are just as harsh and sometimes cruel. During the day the terrain is it's usual reddish hues and most of the plant life almost appears to be dead. However at night the desert comes alive with all kinds of bio-luminescent life. All of the plants glow under the moonlight, and strange creatures come out from their burrows to feed. This strange change from day to night is what earned the area the name: The Painted Desert.
One would hardly expect an entire tribe of Dashers to be living in such conditions. However that's exactly where the Keesog tribe resides. (Note: Keesog translates to both Sun and Moon.) Though they live a great distance from the Shooter Capital, they are still close enough to become an easy target for slave trade and Gem raids. Therefore, over the years the tribe has become amazingly good at hiding.
During the day the tribe's scouts all seem to blend in with their surroundings. Most of the Daylight scouts have fur and horn colors much resembling the terrain around them. The scouts at night also blend in with their terrain, however because of the deserts brightly colored night-life, these Dashers are often bright almost neon colors. Do to the intense difference between the Daylight scouts and the Moonlight scouts, the Festival of Colors is celebrated once a year to remind all tribe members and even other Dashers who have come to celebrate with them that they are all of one people.
The tribe isn't huge, but it isn't small either. As such, they needed to make quite a lot of room for their growing community. The Keesog tribe has spent years burrowing careful tunnel systems in the strong rocky terrain of the desert. There are multiple areas with tunnels, but the main tunnel system is where most of them reside, along with their counsel of 5 elders and single prophet. Each elder oversees a particular job most of the tribe members uphold; Daylight scouts, Moonlight scouts, Tunneling, Food Gathering, and Warrior training. All members of the tribe are trained to fight in case of a Shooter invasion. Any member is much more willing to go down fighting than to be taken alive. Meanwhile, the Prophet upholds their own duties as well as maintaining overall emotional wellness in the community and Wedding Ceremonies.
Wedding Ceremony:
Female Dashers from this tribe do not actually wear their flower on them at all times. When a couple has decided to wed, both partners go on a journey. The lover who chooses to give their flower travels to find the perfect flower to put all of their love into. Usually the desired area is Starfruit Valley, for all of it's lovely tropical flowers. Along with the flower for their hair, they also gather other flowers to make into a special 'wedding night' outfit. Thought he flowers on said outfit will wilt in the morning, the act is meant to show steadfast love and dedication to their lover.
The over who chooses to make the box for the flower to be held in often journeys to the Crest falls or the surrounding mountain areas to gather up wood and supplies to make the beautifully adorned token of their love. Sometimes they will even find their way to the beach to gather up shells to decorate it with as well. Rather than making a special outfit to wear, the box bearer puts together a special dried-herb mix that will be burned as incense the night or their 'wedlock'. The incense is a special one for that couple and that couple alone that is used as a prayer to the gods. Different herbs mean different things. For example, some mixes pray for a healthy child and a long-lasting, love filled relationship. Other mixes merely ask for a love that lasts as long as the love the gods themselves hold for each other. Much like the flower adorned outfit, the mix is made to be burned over night an is reduced to ash by the next morning.
When the couple awakens the next morning, both the Ashes and the petals from the flower outfit are collected and sprinkled in the bottom of the box under the life-flower. Though the Dashers consider Raziel their primary patron, the flower petals represent Hylcinth, while the ashes represent Helgin. These are forever kept together as a symbol of the couple's love and a reminder that they will no longer journey alone on the path of life. From now on, their paths are intertwined.
One would hardly expect an entire tribe of Dashers to be living in such conditions. However that's exactly where the Keesog tribe resides. (Note: Keesog translates to both Sun and Moon.) Though they live a great distance from the Shooter Capital, they are still close enough to become an easy target for slave trade and Gem raids. Therefore, over the years the tribe has become amazingly good at hiding.
During the day the tribe's scouts all seem to blend in with their surroundings. Most of the Daylight scouts have fur and horn colors much resembling the terrain around them. The scouts at night also blend in with their terrain, however because of the deserts brightly colored night-life, these Dashers are often bright almost neon colors. Do to the intense difference between the Daylight scouts and the Moonlight scouts, the Festival of Colors is celebrated once a year to remind all tribe members and even other Dashers who have come to celebrate with them that they are all of one people.
The tribe isn't huge, but it isn't small either. As such, they needed to make quite a lot of room for their growing community. The Keesog tribe has spent years burrowing careful tunnel systems in the strong rocky terrain of the desert. There are multiple areas with tunnels, but the main tunnel system is where most of them reside, along with their counsel of 5 elders and single prophet. Each elder oversees a particular job most of the tribe members uphold; Daylight scouts, Moonlight scouts, Tunneling, Food Gathering, and Warrior training. All members of the tribe are trained to fight in case of a Shooter invasion. Any member is much more willing to go down fighting than to be taken alive. Meanwhile, the Prophet upholds their own duties as well as maintaining overall emotional wellness in the community and Wedding Ceremonies.
Wedding Ceremony:
Female Dashers from this tribe do not actually wear their flower on them at all times. When a couple has decided to wed, both partners go on a journey. The lover who chooses to give their flower travels to find the perfect flower to put all of their love into. Usually the desired area is Starfruit Valley, for all of it's lovely tropical flowers. Along with the flower for their hair, they also gather other flowers to make into a special 'wedding night' outfit. Thought he flowers on said outfit will wilt in the morning, the act is meant to show steadfast love and dedication to their lover.
The over who chooses to make the box for the flower to be held in often journeys to the Crest falls or the surrounding mountain areas to gather up wood and supplies to make the beautifully adorned token of their love. Sometimes they will even find their way to the beach to gather up shells to decorate it with as well. Rather than making a special outfit to wear, the box bearer puts together a special dried-herb mix that will be burned as incense the night or their 'wedlock'. The incense is a special one for that couple and that couple alone that is used as a prayer to the gods. Different herbs mean different things. For example, some mixes pray for a healthy child and a long-lasting, love filled relationship. Other mixes merely ask for a love that lasts as long as the love the gods themselves hold for each other. Much like the flower adorned outfit, the mix is made to be burned over night an is reduced to ash by the next morning.
When the couple awakens the next morning, both the Ashes and the petals from the flower outfit are collected and sprinkled in the bottom of the box under the life-flower. Though the Dashers consider Raziel their primary patron, the flower petals represent Hylcinth, while the ashes represent Helgin. These are forever kept together as a symbol of the couple's love and a reminder that they will no longer journey alone on the path of life. From now on, their paths are intertwined.
Emergency Dental funds needed
Posted 8 years agoSo I'm now $1311 in the hole. I'm already pretty in debt from my credit cards which I primarily use to buy food so this was kinda a big blow for me.
It all started with the student loans and then kinda spiraled out of control. At least the student loans are now gone but new things have taken their place.
So I bet you're wondering WHERE this new debt came from. I had to go to the dentist yesterday because last week a chunk of one of my teeth actually FELL OUT. So they filled that spot at least but (as doctors often do) found four other places that needed work. One of which was something so serious that had I continued to leave it, there was a possibility of an infection that could have killed me. SO, debt or death? I went with debt.
So now it comes down to how can you guys help me and what can I do for you in return?
My commissions are open, which you can view here.
Also I'm doing Tarot card readings for Donations. So if you're interested in doing that, please note me here. It's the easiest way for me to be in contact with you as well as to give you your reading.
OR if you just want to donate, I've got my "Buy me a cup of coffee?" link at the top of this journal. You can donate through that if you like or message me here to get my paypal if you'd like to donate a larger amount.
And if you guys would like proof of the medical bill as well as debt, here's the thing.
My primary focus is the dentist bill, but honestly if I could get help to pay off/down the two credit cards I've been using to survive as well, that would be SO much help and I would really appreciate it. I'm really trying to use this year to get my life back in order.
Thanks for taking the time to read, guys!
It all started with the student loans and then kinda spiraled out of control. At least the student loans are now gone but new things have taken their place.
So I bet you're wondering WHERE this new debt came from. I had to go to the dentist yesterday because last week a chunk of one of my teeth actually FELL OUT. So they filled that spot at least but (as doctors often do) found four other places that needed work. One of which was something so serious that had I continued to leave it, there was a possibility of an infection that could have killed me. SO, debt or death? I went with debt.
So now it comes down to how can you guys help me and what can I do for you in return?
My commissions are open, which you can view here.
Also I'm doing Tarot card readings for Donations. So if you're interested in doing that, please note me here. It's the easiest way for me to be in contact with you as well as to give you your reading.
OR if you just want to donate, I've got my "Buy me a cup of coffee?" link at the top of this journal. You can donate through that if you like or message me here to get my paypal if you'd like to donate a larger amount.
And if you guys would like proof of the medical bill as well as debt, here's the thing.
My primary focus is the dentist bill, but honestly if I could get help to pay off/down the two credit cards I've been using to survive as well, that would be SO much help and I would really appreciate it. I'm really trying to use this year to get my life back in order.
Thanks for taking the time to read, guys!
Stardragon Holidays (Festival of Colors)
Posted 8 years agoFestival of Colors - Usually within the first week of April
Far out in the Painted Desert, there lived a tribe of StarDashers that hid themselves well within their home. Two factions resided within the tribe; the Daylight Dashers and the Moonlight Dashers. The Daylight Dashers were usually muted colors, such as red, tans, browns and grays, which blended in with their desert durring the day hours. However when the sun went down, the desert soon came to light with all kinds of glowing plants and even glowing creatures. The Moonlight Dashers were bright, florescent colors, or dark as the night with bright markings. Their gems always glowed in the moonlight to help them blend in with their surroundings.
As time passed, the Daylight Dashers grew envious of the Moonlight Dasher's bright and beautiful colors, and grew sad with the knowledge that they would never be as 'beautiful'. Thus, the Tribe's leader came up with a brilliant solution. Pigment was taken from the glowing plants and made into dust which could be thrown at the Daylight Dashers to coat their fur as they ran through the dessert once the sun set for the evening. For the very first time, the Daylight Dashers took joy in prancing around under the moonlight, glowing brilliantly under it's lovely moonbeams. The Moonlight Dashers quickly joined in, and soon all of the tribe's people were completely covered in colorful dust.
On that day, the Tribe's leader declared it an annual holiday. All Dashers of the tribe would run through the desert together, laughing and playing in harmony. The dust covering their fur would remind them that under all of the colors, they were of one people and all important. After years passed, it soon became a tradition for even Dashers of other tribes to join in on the celebration.
In the morning, color from the night before would be left everywhere along the desert, making it literally painted. But it would not stay for long, for the April showers would quickly wash it all away. Only those lucky enough to know about when the celebration was held would get to see the beautiful array of pigment scattered about.
Far out in the Painted Desert, there lived a tribe of StarDashers that hid themselves well within their home. Two factions resided within the tribe; the Daylight Dashers and the Moonlight Dashers. The Daylight Dashers were usually muted colors, such as red, tans, browns and grays, which blended in with their desert durring the day hours. However when the sun went down, the desert soon came to light with all kinds of glowing plants and even glowing creatures. The Moonlight Dashers were bright, florescent colors, or dark as the night with bright markings. Their gems always glowed in the moonlight to help them blend in with their surroundings.
As time passed, the Daylight Dashers grew envious of the Moonlight Dasher's bright and beautiful colors, and grew sad with the knowledge that they would never be as 'beautiful'. Thus, the Tribe's leader came up with a brilliant solution. Pigment was taken from the glowing plants and made into dust which could be thrown at the Daylight Dashers to coat their fur as they ran through the dessert once the sun set for the evening. For the very first time, the Daylight Dashers took joy in prancing around under the moonlight, glowing brilliantly under it's lovely moonbeams. The Moonlight Dashers quickly joined in, and soon all of the tribe's people were completely covered in colorful dust.
On that day, the Tribe's leader declared it an annual holiday. All Dashers of the tribe would run through the desert together, laughing and playing in harmony. The dust covering their fur would remind them that under all of the colors, they were of one people and all important. After years passed, it soon became a tradition for even Dashers of other tribes to join in on the celebration.
In the morning, color from the night before would be left everywhere along the desert, making it literally painted. But it would not stay for long, for the April showers would quickly wash it all away. Only those lucky enough to know about when the celebration was held would get to see the beautiful array of pigment scattered about.
Updates~
Posted 8 years agoSo many new awesome things are already happening this year. I know I see a lot of people saying it's already started out bad for them, but this is when we all really need to make it good for ourselves. It'll happen.
So far this year, I've started my youtube channel, I've gotten my first tattoo, I'm about to have my first Eeeray, and things are really looking up.
Let's make this new year great!
So far this year, I've started my youtube channel, I've gotten my first tattoo, I'm about to have my first Eeeray, and things are really looking up.
Let's make this new year great!
Tomorrow's to do list:
Posted 8 years ago1. Clean bathroom. (More like organize honestly. I need to actually put the box of bathroom stuff AWAY and then just give everything a good wipe-down with a clorox wipe)
2. Sketch out New Years picture.
3. Do images for new Patreon and finish setting up the page.
4. Sign up for youtube and plan out banner and icon
Not necessarily in that order. But still.
2. Sketch out New Years picture.
3. Do images for new Patreon and finish setting up the page.
4. Sign up for youtube and plan out banner and icon
Not necessarily in that order. But still.
❤ Heartfelt Christmas Wishes ❤
Posted 8 years agoSo instead of sending out lots of messages, I figured I'd just collect all of my thoughts into just one journal. Makes it easier to make sure everything I wanted to say is all together.
So let me just start by saying Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! No matter what you celebrate, I hope today was good for everyone and continues to be good!
Corvyn Thank you for putting up with my crap year after year. I know I get moody, but I really do love being your roommate. It's fun being weird as f*ck with you and I appreciate everything you always try to do to help me.
stupidshepherd I have so so sooooooo much fun talking to you! Even though we both have a tendency to get busy, I always perk up when I see you upload something and adore any time I get to talk to you. Keep being awesome. ❤
konykon also known as Daddy Smurf, I'm really thankful that I met you this year. Even if we both get kinda busy sometimes, getting a message from you always makes me smile. I appreciate all of your understanding and the fact that we can always talk to each other like adults. It's really refreshing and kinda foreign to me at this point. So thank you for being patient with me and thank you for even allowing me the chance to get to know you in the first place. I can only hope that our bond continues to grow stronger.
ryarik YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY ENDLESS PATIENCE. I know that at least half of the time I talk to you, I'm a total negative Nelly and you have no idea how much I appreciate the fact that you put up with me. Being in your streams is always fun, even if I'm usually too busy to get to go into them lately. You are the absolute sweetest candyman around, and I really hope I also get to continue being part of your life. Being friends with you is an absolute joy.
hektious We don't get to talk much, but I hope you know how happy I am to send you random messages or get them from you. You're amazing. Never let anyone tell you otherwise. ❤
drredox You are so much fun to gush to about ducks. Like, seriously. Entire conversations about ducks. And also crows. You are a fantastic artist, an amazing writer, and I hope you know how much I absolutely adore any time I get to spend talking to you. Your pictures make me smile without fail. Your ideas are so much fun to think about! And overall I'm just super happy that I have someone I can always talk to about Ducks. (I almost debated writing an entire paragraph with the words Ducks, quack, caw and crows just to see if anyone else would notice, but then I thought better of it.)
And as for everyone else, I really hope that the rest of this year runs smoothly for you and that 2017 brings much better things than 2016 did. This had been a rough, rocky ride of a year and most people didn't seem to make it out unscathed. So let's continued to push through together and keep on trucking forward!
❤ Thanks for reading everyone! ❤
Christmas gifts that will be coming late:
Wishlists I still have to fulfill:
tinytailz List
Uluri List - 1 done but doing another. X3
kymah List
Nice list:
stupidshepherd
drredox
hektious
Naughty List:
ryarik
konykon
So let me just start by saying Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! No matter what you celebrate, I hope today was good for everyone and continues to be good!
Corvyn Thank you for putting up with my crap year after year. I know I get moody, but I really do love being your roommate. It's fun being weird as f*ck with you and I appreciate everything you always try to do to help me. 
stupidshepherd I have so so sooooooo much fun talking to you! Even though we both have a tendency to get busy, I always perk up when I see you upload something and adore any time I get to talk to you. Keep being awesome. ❤
konykon also known as Daddy Smurf, I'm really thankful that I met you this year. Even if we both get kinda busy sometimes, getting a message from you always makes me smile. I appreciate all of your understanding and the fact that we can always talk to each other like adults. It's really refreshing and kinda foreign to me at this point. So thank you for being patient with me and thank you for even allowing me the chance to get to know you in the first place. I can only hope that our bond continues to grow stronger. 
ryarik YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY ENDLESS PATIENCE. I know that at least half of the time I talk to you, I'm a total negative Nelly and you have no idea how much I appreciate the fact that you put up with me. Being in your streams is always fun, even if I'm usually too busy to get to go into them lately. You are the absolute sweetest candyman around, and I really hope I also get to continue being part of your life. Being friends with you is an absolute joy. 
hektious We don't get to talk much, but I hope you know how happy I am to send you random messages or get them from you. You're amazing. Never let anyone tell you otherwise. ❤
drredox You are so much fun to gush to about ducks. Like, seriously. Entire conversations about ducks. And also crows. You are a fantastic artist, an amazing writer, and I hope you know how much I absolutely adore any time I get to spend talking to you. Your pictures make me smile without fail. Your ideas are so much fun to think about! And overall I'm just super happy that I have someone I can always talk to about Ducks. (I almost debated writing an entire paragraph with the words Ducks, quack, caw and crows just to see if anyone else would notice, but then I thought better of it.)And as for everyone else, I really hope that the rest of this year runs smoothly for you and that 2017 brings much better things than 2016 did. This had been a rough, rocky ride of a year and most people didn't seem to make it out unscathed. So let's continued to push through together and keep on trucking forward!
❤ Thanks for reading everyone! ❤
✥✥✥Christmas gifts that will be coming late:
Wishlists I still have to fulfill:
tinytailz List
Uluri List - 1 done but doing another. X3
kymah ListNice list:
stupidshepherd drredox hektiousNaughty List:
ryarik konykon✥✥✥✧✦✧Holiday Wish List✧✦✧
Posted 9 years agoHey everyone! Feel free to copy and past this list into your own journals and then let THIS ACCOUNT know so that they can show everyone your wish.
Tis the season for giving, and I'm going to try and do as much as I can for other people.
If you want to send someone a physical gift of some sort, note them for their addresses and make sure you show them proof of the gift so they don't feel uncomfortable.
-Step 1-
Make a post in your journal containing your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple to really big. The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
If you wish for real-life things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where folks could get in touch with you.
-Step 2-
Surf around other lists to see who has posted their list. If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream for free--do it. You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special
-Step 3-
The List1. Art of my Fursona with your fursona or character doing something Holiday related! Whether it be baking cookies or snuggled up by the fireplace with some hot cocoa, I'd love to see what you come up with. Feel free to play with the outfits. (Ugly Christmas sweaters are always a plus!)
2. Art of any of these guys. Some of my babes have gone a long time without some attention. Okay.. a LOT of them have. But these guys in particular haven't had anything done of them in a long while. Feel free to throw your own character in there as well! Make it holiday themed or just regular if you'd like.
3. Amazon Gift cards. There's actually quite the large list of things my roomie and I need for our house to fix it up. Like window strips to keep any more wasps from getting in. *shudders* And portable heaters to keep us warm in the colder months. Go ahead and send them to my email address: cascadingclovers[at]yahoo.com (please keep in mind that this isn't the same email I use for paypal. =w= )
4. Petco gift card. Gotta spread the Holiday cheer to our pet bunny! Go ahead and send them to my email address: cascadingclovers[at]yahoo.com (please keep in mind that this isn't the same email I use for paypal. =w= )
5. Crafts! Are you more of a crafter? I'd love to see something involving my Fursona. Whether it be an ornament, a doll/plush, a sculpture, a charm, I'd love to see it! Feel free to do whatever you like clothing-wise or just keep her nekkid. It's all good.
6. Want an image of your fursona and mine but don't draw? Commission my roommate!
corvyn has cheap prices and it's like two presents in one! (Heck, keep them in mind if you want to get a gift for someone else too.)7. Giftcards from either Walmart or Wholefoods for food. Walmart is an option where I can get lots of food for cheap. But I'm also really hoping for Wholefoods so I can get some things that are legitimately healthy for once. Go ahead and send them to my email address: cascadingclovers[at]yahoo.com (please keep in mind that this isn't the same email I use for paypal. =w= )
8. Pokemon trainer art! I'd also love silly images of my Fursona with my Decidueye or Kommo-o. Nsfw images are okay for this one. Just please keep in mind that since Decidueye is an owl, he'd have a Cloaca. Not a peen.
9. Surprise me! If there's something you want to do for me that wasn't on this list, go for it! It's the thought that counts, and I'm happy just to have someone do something for me at all.
10. Fill out your own Christmas list! I want to try and make as many gifts for other people as I can this season to spread the Holiday cheer. Send them to
wishlist Or just send them to me! ouoNone of these are in any particular order, but we'll see what happens. Happy holidays everyone!
Users I'll be trying to fulfill wishes for:
alphasempaiwolviesyxx List - Finished!
coffaefox List - Finished! kymah List
kittenspurrgatory List - Finished! Uluri List - 1 done but doing another. X3
mcpippypants List - Finished! tinytailz List
zoeytheshepherd List - Sent~(This list is ever-growing. I'll take on as many as I can in my spare time.)
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