I know I don't write many of these (in fact last one was back in 2023) but i've been going through a lot lately and need some sort of cathartic release;
it boils down to this basically, feeling like my soul and heart are being torn asunder as an individual whom i care for deeply, and probably always will. does not return the feelings (we were never in an actual relationship aside from friends), I have accepted this and wish them no ill will, however the result of knowing them for so long and developing the connection that I feel to them has been tearing me up inside as I try to let them go, to the point where things I have said to them have come out wrong, and done unintentional harm, im hurting a lot as I try to move past this, because It feels like im ripping out a part of me, a part of me I can't live without, even though I know it's better for me to move past, but I keep falling back, not wanting to lose them, I know it's likely irrational but I still can't seem to break down the walls of the past and build anew, I want to but the pain of doing so seems too much to bare, I need help I need an outlet, and friends who understand this, these are the times I wish I could find fellow furs close to me that are open to such feelings and be able to build a partnership, a relationship with them, but I seem to be getting too old, and all those paths are closing up, I hate being alone, and want to move into the future, and experience true companionship.

Anyone planning on going? Been on the fence about going and would be my first con so could use some people to guide Me around ^.^'

 Araivis-Edelveys Has hit the 8K +Watchers mark, and to celebrate she is holding a raffle, head on over to her page, give a watch (for the amazing art) and pop into the raffle!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50724086

BE sure to check out  Allet_Weiss who is holding a raffle for a one character for reaching 750 watchers! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46085351/

Streaming the new star wars game.
https://www.twitch.tv/chktarrowsong

After that wonderful Commission I just posted https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38155308/ I felt the need to give this shoutout as the artist is currently open for commisions so by all means go get one yourself! Or just give them lots of love for their wonderful art!  AikoHigu

https://www.twitch.tv/chktarrowsong
got anything better to do under quarantine?

Now that the game is on steam, figured id give it a shot, come check it out =D
https://www.twitch.tv/chktarrowsong

as the title says
https://www.twitch.tv/chktarrowsong