I am now OLD. Fear me =|

Have a fever of 102, brains tired... am sick, Some customer at work coughed on me I think.. or something, i dunno... Anyway, I feel aweful :C

Health wise i'm feeling like shit all the time, can't sleep, can't breathe when I try to sleep :c I have to take a long shower. Always fricken stuffed up, it's my yearly head cold every single year... Always towards Fall and whatnot. This time it started around when I nearly suffocated, had my throat close up for 30-20 seconds and went to the hospital thinking I was going to suffocate... Now since then, I have gotten maybe... 3-4 hours a sleep daily? It's very hard to sleep... I'm on anti-biotics. And It's hard to think... Or see. :c

I hate being sick e..e I want to not be sick. And yes, I'm posting this at... like 5-am :x Mostly just very tired and having trouble with my thoughts, So I might as well post this stream of consciousness. Not that it matters anyway...

Anywho, I want to do art again, or stream again... But I've been so sick/depressed as of late, it's hard to concentrate on any project. Frustrating stuff yeah? Anyway, I'll be fine. Just have to keep on some kind of path, maybe Get something done with my comic. I need to re-write it. But I'm not the best writer, at least when I'm trying to figure out where I want to go with a story... Too scatterbrained to concentrate all of my thoughts on one thing, I'll wind up doing another thing and never finishing it :x Stupid ADHD... I can't even concentrate on this Journal either. I feel like my mind is a tube of toothpaste with many holes in it, being squeezed under a press. I'm all directions at once at all times...

Wheee.

Emotional brainless writing at 5am, mayhaps I shouldn't be up so late and thats why I feel this way.

Anywho ~ Been around... 6-8 years so far? Not sure why my brain wants to keep hanging onto this.

Guess I feel like venting, Not sure what to do with all this bottled emotions that I keep buried, anywho... It's why I've been fucking MANIC for the past few years... I can't stop thinking about it.
It's going to drive me up a fucking wall... I haven't found my boyfriend in... that long soooo Guess It's just me? I dunno... Kinda sucks when you're removed from their friends list and forgotten... Then Blocked.
No actual reasons.. No confirmation...

Still hurts thinking about it when you actually loved someone ~ Which is hard for me to do, since I rarely love anyone. e.e I love my friends but thats a different kind of thing.

Maybe I'm just not Emotionally Mature or something... Maybe this is just a psychotic break? Who knows, I'm just all over the place and cant think or concentrate on anything, I cant Fucking motivate myself because The one who motivated me, who kept my brain all together, dropped me like a piece of fucking trash without a thought or a goodbye...

I won't say who, so... Yeah, just leave it there. I just fixate on things, and if its bothering me, IT will keep bothering me, until I die or something, with my health? Sure why not.

Blood clots, oh blood clots, i get too many of those. Have a Stent in my liver, take blood thinners... Get older... Can't walk very well.

This all happens after I've been ghosted too... sooo... yeah, Not saying its all connected... Or it's just in my head, but... A broken heart is a broken heart.

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Er Just Charbold :v Am King. No touch >:C

https://picarto.tv/charbold 18+ NSFW butts

https://picarto.tv/charbold

If anyones interested, I draw butts :v and stuff!~

Expect things! And Stuff!
I will be able to draw a bit better, since its a graphical tablet and I can actually see what im doing :v
I lost my link to what it is xD So I'll just stream after work on friday when it gets here :v

Aaaaaaaa!

Yap yap yap yap yap yap!

Am got work today on my birthday :> bleh. But its okay ~

Just BLEH
>:C

Will be getting a New pc from a fremd :> then I will be able to do all the arts again and all that ~ also, going to be looking into getting some kinda trade for training and a better job. :> I need that monies ~

Will be back nov. 2022 dun worry. Also just an update. Almost died again from blood clots. Had 3 major surgeries, got a stint in my liver and caught covid at the hospital. Oh and lost a ton of blood and can barely breathe. The covid was mild. Have massive hematoma on my liver. Was in the hospital for 2 weeks and a covid hotel for 7 days. Also 2 of my dogs had to be put down while i was gone :c and well at least i can eat again and no longer have a tube sticking out of my jugular e.e was like having a broom handle sticking out of my neck. Also the cath went under my lung and i could only get 1/6th of a breath. Thankfully the clots are gone and i can eat again. X..x anywho. I wont post much here until next november.
Be safe.

-curls up in a koball and waits patiently to atac!-

THE KOBOLD KING DEMANDS IT!!! >:U
RAWR!

I must draw some myself of course, But :O it would be nice to see more of them <3
Then again, More krogans, sanghieli, gungans, Burmecians, Trandoshans, Gorn, sargorn, Master tigress. and other variety of thingies would be nice too
But! For the most part >:C
I just like seeing those :U rawr fun stuff. *chews on FA and leaves many toothmarks* :U *Chew chew chew*

I hate anxiety, it's dirty, its tiny, and it gets everywhere!
But no I hate being a very anxious fellow.

I have anxiety attacks every night, and barely get any sleep ~ Fun times.

Anywho! I should finish more art I havent finished, it was part of my plan recently.

Also don't mind me, I'm very scatterbrained as of late, just tired... lack of sleep will kill the mind, lack of sleep will damage your memory, lack of sleep will be the end of me.
I have been struggling to remember stuff, simple stuff... Not the complex.. Just simple things, like... Places and times... I need to get more sleep :<

I will be drawing more unique species now and again, I REALLY want to work on my comic races and whatnot and have that be my focus, but I keep drawing fan-art stuff xP because Obsessions, like Freya and rocket, and Fratley, and all that kinda stuff, I was on a starwars kick for a little bit, and back to Halo, then to Mass effect, and then to Deadspace :>

Deadspace kinda inspired me a little bit, my comic may be a bit darker xD But... I had an engineer as a Main character who worked on ships, Never played Deadspace until recently, and had my character for a long time before I knew about Isaac clarke xP Ah well, But yeah, fun stuff anyway!

Rambling over, time to sleeps.

Just a few issues with it, being one dropdown menu not fitting on mobile.
The Lexus ad that follows me EVERY page at the bottom of my screen that takes up 10% of my "phone" screen D: phones aint big.
I mean, the increase in word size is nice, but Itend to read tiny text anyway xP ~ Helps me fit more in a tiny screen like this thingy

I like the look and the shiney search thingymajiggy. o.o

But yeah ~ The Lexus ad is annoying, Every single page xP over and over Lexus.

I need to practice anatomy and my comic stuff and work on my expressions, ive been slacking, also stupid printer is being shit, so I cant scan nothing.

I will post when I have the chance, but I want to draw more stuff related to my comics universe so I dont forget em xD

My Kaldrin boyo needs attention. :v

Im gonna be updating all of my posted art with it!

Will be slow, going to take a few days since the scanner is a lil slow,

Dun mind me, Im just a lazy kobold who just has been extremely tired as of late, not sure why, could be depression, could be my meds, could be any number of things.

Also! My best friend got me a soldering kit :D i can fix my gba now, or even modify it mayhaps, fun stuff :V only issue with the gba is a missing resistor by where the stripped screw was, i dun gotta worry about the screw no more, i tossed it, it only held down one side of the board, but wasnt as vital as the resistor which ima just bridge, since it was tiny tiny, i think i can bridge it with a dot of solder and it may or may not repair it.

More randomness is random!

I will try and draw more temeraire :P and perhaps more stuff, just havent felt very motivated!

Keeps telling me my account and password is invalid after changing passwords e.e and all that, and email... fucks sake

my art no longer shows up in my search :C its weird and bothering me

They declined my art for being "A photo of traditional art" I have no worthwhile scanner, I have one but it comes in all grainy and I cant get a good scan out of it. e.e

Just ask please.

I also has chat but gotta ask me for invite, However! I do voting now and then and People can influence me to doodle one of the picks! Also um, I draw the top 3 results generally, if theres 3 results xP

:V The kobold king has spoke ! :U