was napping then my mom threw a big hissy fit, like get the fuck over it mom, i am NOT a morning person honestly i cannot be awake at 7 in he goddamned morning , i cannot be up at that hour and you expect me to stay up for fucks sake the only time igot an okay nap was when i went back to my room for like 30 -40 mins? an i was drooling cause y'know thats a hard sleep even if its only for that long and like its not even like i stay up late christ i literally stay up like 2-3 hours later then they do an seven hours ofsleep is NOT enough i need at least eight, and mostly ten if i can get that the cats can sleep ALL day if they want to and they dont get woken up.....jesus im just so done with my mom i think

i honestly thought the damned thing died on me for good but i can still manipulate the wire to connect which it hurts but art is sometimes painful right? right so nowi get to muck with the wire till it connects n still havent heard from wacom so if i dont hear back i may just take it in somewhere an ask them what would be possible for it if its fixable at all so i go back to messing with it! this jus made my day

my mom is being hella weird like she gets me up at 7 - i dont getout of bed till 30 mins later- it seems to me she had feeding the cats thing under control, so i sit on the couch an watch a little bit of tv - which is like 10-15 mins before i start nodding off again i went to sleep at like 12:45 this moring i dont understand how the fuck i can still be tired,even though i was woken up from a rather interesting and erotic dream it was rather nice actually dammit.....well i try to go back to sleep after i help my mom with morning chores - i hate chores i hate that word in general!- my mom is lke you betternot be goin back to sleep il get the squirt bottle..... WTF who in the hell does or says that kind of shit?!so i wait for my mom to go lay out - she spends ike an hour sun bathing- so i sit in my room and nod off for a few minutes which turns out to be thirty cause i hear the glass sliding door open so i sit up ;like okay gotta act like i aint asleep i hear it close an i fall back over an go back to sleep another thirty minutes pass an i wake up again cause she is in the house so i try my best to not pass out, then i get a bath an after im like okay gonna nap for awhile - cause my door can be locked an it feels nice to nap after a hot bath an easier to cool off- and the first fuckin thing that comes out of my moms mouth is 'are you dressed?' ajfkdhgajdfgakl holy fuck of course i wasnt dressed woman! i like to cool off and dry off before i put clothes on so they arent sticking to me ....cause clothes sticking is uncomfortable as fuck ..... unless it was intentional but anyway so i give her some bs answer an i take a nap for like idk probably twenty mins? an then i got up, oh howi wanted to sleep for an hour or two then she sends me out shopping, which i perked up cause i was hungry and i really had a craving for coffee cake i have them now an im munchin on them cause yummy so im mellowed out but still could nap if i felt like it i jus hope im not disturbed......yikes....parents are just SO weird.......

kept muckin about with the wire on my tablet......i think it has officially died.......i really do...and i dont have the money to go buy a new one either, i think it would be easier to replacethe damned USB cable in it since everything else still works....il have to go places and see what they say.... even though i need to hang out a friend of mine who wouldnt mind coming with me an doin that.... SINCE my parents dont know that the tablet wasnt originally mine! xD hell they dont even know i have it..... i think il go looking for a usb cable that we wont miss an use it.....hellwe have been needing to recylce our old usb cable mouse - the fuckin thing loves to double click on stuff- an i already got a new mouse to replace it! -sigh- so much for arting today.....this makes me sad and with wacom ive already tried asking them if they could fix it i got NO response.......sssssoooooooooooo i think it really is in my hands at this point........i also think il keep fuckin with the wire till it reads again, an look up places that can fix this for me or something.....-sigh- an i really wanna draw digitally!!! :C


EDIT: ......no wonder no response email thing was incorrect - facepalms- dammit i hope i hear from them soon! ugh i feel like an idiot now

after my kitties getting sick cause of salmonella poisoning.....its hard to figure out what kitty food we can give them an its pretty much gambling with their health to see what will and wont work an what they will an wont eat......imjus bluh bout it @_@ its just already a big deal an yeah



i feel like taking both my girls - my cats of course- putting them in my room on my bed an i just snuggle and sleep with them since i was doing that earlier but i got bitched at cause i was back in bed, not my fault im dead tired from being up at 7 i like to nap for a couple of hours an for once my cat was on my bed a /not/ trying to bite my feet or hands...... parents just dont get it sometimes.... oh well

too many factors play into what i had with the maddening itch and god awful burning senesation, of course letting my head heal an not washing it yesterday probably helped,
it still could of been the hair stuff the stylist used plus combined with the water in my home, the chemicals have been updated ..... its making my whole body itch now which.....is not good, but what can you do when water treament plants put chlorine an other nasty shit in there which is bound to make someone have an allergic reaction... i just managed to soothe the itch on my head with a different conditioner its like i become allergic to my favorite one then have to switch for awhile..... oh welll i at least think i have it figured out to whats causing the problem an that i think ive fixed it only time will tell....

and dammit my hair is still really too short for my liking! :I

so in an attempt to ignore this shit im playing OFF and im streaming game play .... i have no clue if it will be laggy for anyone this game watch at your own risk aka if you havent played it yet ......... then dont click link https://join.me/860-149-057


i would draw but tablet is well.... bein wonky an a mouse no thanks il leave it for another day! :/

so apparently after getting my haircut it itched like mad......of course i washed it out an shit but now it fucking burns i couldnt use the hot water to wash my hair out a second time - cause i had hair stuff in it- i had to use cold water cause it didnt burn my head..... but then washing out the stuff made it burn an rinsing it out ws better then it just it hurts im wanting to cry it hurts and its causin a headache i just i dont EVEN know i dont want to lay down cause i dont know how its gonna affect my head i just i dont knw...... itching like mad is usual....but this burning thing is new and i really dont like it ;_; i keep seaching and seaching and fucking searching and i cant find anythin as to why this is happeningitsfuckingannoying and it buuuuuurrrrrrrnnnnnssssss i dont know what to do about it -scratching when it itches dont help cause it makes it worse...... i just ugh bluh bluh bluh fuck...............

yeah i know that profile ID i have its like cute as hell but its a mop of hair an i was needing a haircut for a long time i was overdue for one actually but didnt really have money till now to go do it an its cut shorter than i originally wanted...... but it will grow out an be the length i need it atwhich is whatever hate the fact everytime i get it cut short it itches like mad for a week idky that even happens but its alright il get used to it.... hapened last time too but like i said w/e

got new headset since my other one was like falling apart like being held together by tape an the audio plug not working too well xD then mymouse... i took the one from my old desktop - er rather my parents desktop- issue was the friggin double clicking it did by itself.....so i bought i a new one... an i have to get batteries for the thing...since only one was found aaaannnnddddddd it takes two of them xD oh well im pretty happy i got what i needed/wanted i had an agenda an i got what i needed :U

you know what to do to see new icons guys

basically stuffs since it is OFF fanart - i dont know who has seen what but if you dont want spoilers sorry to say but i suggest you dont watch me doodle unless you dont care then go ahead~-
https://join.me/372-419-421




my tablet decided to work for me :3

oh slight warning tablet is faulty an might have technical difficulties for a minute or two!

the artwork in the game i jus wanna digitally draw it but i did say i wouldnt spoil it so no uploading it yet... .........ugh....oh well drawings will sit in my notebook for a little while besides theres so much to fuckin draw :U xD nya~

i like playing off its really fun and interesting :P

EDIT: bahahhaha i love this game >w< an i beat it im still gonna play through again since one: drawing purposes, Two: i missed things and Three: well just for the hell of it!

i finally figured out how to downloadthe freakin thing an im playing it, so far i like it :U iwonder what interesting things il runinto an the music in this game is just awsome!!

napping earlier was like sleeping but having computer next to me kept waking me up like i was afraid to fall asleep an i kick it off or something i wonder if thats a thing that can happen, im still shit tired but better mood cause sleeping a little an its the afternoon i just am not a morning person never really havebeen unless i get up at 5 or 6 7 its like NOPE you slept past the waking up mark go back to bed n dont want up till noon or so......

on another note reading a fanfic, they updated an its legit cliffhanger!!! lsdkfsdgjadkf its at a goodspot too! :U
its entertainingits been awhile since they did anything cept the spoilers on tumblr dude! it keeps you hooked....xD

god damned insomnia took over and waiting on a certain someone didnt fucking help me either i know i passed out from exhaustion i dont know when idid but i did......getin up at 7 in the morningis fuckin ridiculous as well just because my mom is bitching bout shit........ justfuck...

an to top it all off still job hunting because the driving at night thing would not be good i would be falling asleep at the place an dealing with rush hour traffic in the morning no fucking way an my dad said he would help but he hasnt done that an they both dont want me really doing this an i sorta dont want to either....im just annoyed as fuck an il probably nap since fucking tired x_x an i am not a morning person wait till noon my time il be in a better mood once i sleep..... im in one of those inbetween moods which is tired as all fuck and pissy and discontent

im awake andi fuckin hate it curse my insomnia ........its slightly pissing me off an im worrying bout othershit again i dont even know what to do.....

cleaning holy hell, finally finished the cleaning i hate doing it x3 im tired but dont wanna sleep ouo

apparently i got a missed call....its from my area code but thing is i dont know who it would be....even though i might be able to guess an if my suspicion is correct i am just so done with that person i dont have friends that lie and steal from me..... fuck no.


i woulddraw......but i dont know if my tablet is gonna even work for me -usually leavingit alonehelps to make it work- x3 i really want a new one...maybe il ask for one when my birthday comes around idk itsstill up in the air which is okay

today was better jus everything was bettertoday x3

-random note.....- ihad no clue ladybugs could bite....one fuckin bit me earlier :T it was amusing nonetheless but still who knew xD

im supposed to be starting a job soon, but now im really not sure about it its not like i dont want to work its just how ami supposed to adapt when im falling asleep at ten or eleven at night? I think i will just wait until after i help my mom clean then call the person back an see what has to be done from there....

now that i am relaxing, im sleepy but im filthy xD an gonna get dirty again tomorrow but not as bad


on a lighter note i found out i weigh 126 i weigh less than my mom which is funny
i could actually weigh less and still be healthy......oh if only i hadnt lost my pool key......still dont know where the damned thing went

its one of those moods, you dont know why your in it but you just sorta are an like boredom has set in and tablet isnt working but drawing is the furthest thing from your mind. I don't know how to feel bout things right now, it usually never fun figuring of how not to go a little crazy i just i dont know

i never know things, but when i do know them i point them out.


'I think I'll disappear, leave my head in the air for a chance to feel
So far, far away from here, I know I can't stay too long
Ooh, I don't belong here'

small snippet of lyrics from a song i really like an yeah...

my parents are home :U i know what your thinkin, ew no you shouldnt be happy they are home, welp i am happy cause im not havin to take care of sick kitties by myself now! xD

i got tons o' neat stuff tho well not tons but a couple things!


if my tablet would work i would stream - mostly jus doodling.....i suck at drawing-

even though i have things to do i honestly dont want to but am gonna hafto since...... i dont like being yelled at, and on top of all that i dont feel good.... i wish my tablet would fuckin work an let me draw.....i know traditional media isnt bad but once you go digital you sorta dont go back xD jk i know people who use all sorts of media to art with :3

eh so literally fixing this thing up - go figure- im still figuring this site out..... uhm i know uploading one thing was eh im not sure really of what i want to submit - although you may find more writings are posted than actual drawings......aaaannnnndddddd im going to bed im jus passing out