Stole this from  OrpheusMUSFRK

1.Do you sleep naked?
I will whenever possible. XP

2. Do you sleep with socks on?
Never.

3. Would you rather sleep alone or with someone else?
nothing is better than falling asleep with your love in your arms.

4. Do you enjoy drama?
Not even a little bit -_-

5. Are you a manly man?
hahaha... no. though I do know my way around an engine ^^

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
 silvermane and  spazotter

7. Small or large package?
pretty decently endowed *blushes*

8. Are you short?
6'2" I could channel cell reception XP

9. Do you like somebody?
I love  kaimitsuki

10.Does your Facebook password have to do with a girl?
neither a girl or a boy.

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
Eww yes, i hate hate hate dirty socks, it's like, one of my least favorite things ever.

12. Do you think you’re conceited?
No, I don't but sometimes i woprry that other people might see me that way. x.x

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
not usually, but if I'm still at Savers, I'm sure I will next year, or i have the excuse to dress up as a cowboy and go to a night club. *coughasslesschapscough*

14. Are you double jointed?
In my left thumb

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
arf... probably a car. I don't generally fall asleep unless I'm in a bed.

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
lol yes.

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
If there is, i haven't heard it.

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
Yes

19. How many girls will read this just because it says "Boy Confessions"?
I dunno.

[ ] I wear make up.
[x] I have cried in a movie theater.
[x] I can brush my teeth without opening my mouth.
[x] I get jealous.
[x] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[ ]JUDE LAW FAG
[x] I love to laugh.
[x] I like death/grind/black metal. (only some, i prefer Power Metal)
[ ] I like rap.
[x] I like techno.
[ ] I like country. (i don't like enough to check this one)
[x] I carry a purse.
[x] I'd be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[x] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] I own a boy band CD. (If BOYZ II MEN count)
[x] I get bored watching football.
[ ] I've never been called a spoiled brat.
[x] Girls are confusing.
[x] I've been called a bad influence
[ ] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.


Come on fellas, be truthful!

1. What color is your underwear?
I have like 40 pairs. name a color, i have them. XP

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired girls?
light or dark hair has nothing to do with whether or not i would be friends with someone.

3. Are you currently frustrated with a girl?
No. Should i be?

4. What's one thing a girl can do to make you like them?
Be friendly and outgoing and give me a chance to get to know them.

5. Do you have a best friend?
I have a couple friends who have earned that title.

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes.

7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
No.

8. Do you like your life?
In all honestly, i love my life. As much as i might botch and moan, i know that in the big picture, I really don't have anything to complain about.

10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a girlfriend from you?
Kinda sorta yeah.

11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
I have, It's not all that fun.

12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Pretty equal

14. Have you ever slapped anybody in the face?
yes.

15. What are your biggest fears?
Spiders. That I for some reason I won't be there if Kai needs me.

16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
more times than i wish to admit.

17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
 kaimitsuki is always on my mind and in my heart.

18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater?"
At this point, i am inclined to believe that phrase.

19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
Of course.

20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Nope. Too much effort.

21. Are you currently missing someone?
Missing him with every waking moment.


THIS GIRL OR THAT GIRL? PICK ONE:

Cowgirl or Gangster?
Cowgirl

Preppy or Punk?Punk.
little of both ^^

Face or Body?
Face

Good cook or take you out a lot?
Good Cook :)

Sweet or sexy?
Both

Armani or Abercrombie?
Armani hands down.

Contacts or glasses?
Whatever works. :)

Stolen from  wolftweak

Come on! It'll be fun!!!

You and I wake up in jail together. Using only 4 words, what would you say to me?
Note: If you comment, you must post this to your journal, so I may comment on yours as well..be a good sport and play along... 4 words is harder than you think

So today I'm 21 ^^ Went out with my family and had a bloody mary which was awesome, and a Mexican OCffee which was also delicious. I feel validate. :) Tomorrow I'll buy my first booze from a liquor store and then i'll ahev done it all. XP

Anywho, other than that, at midnight there will be only 41 days remaining until I see my darling wolf, :kaimitsukiconi: again when he graduates Basic Training on the 7th of April. For all who don't already know, he and I ahave finally officially gotten together. *huggles my sweet heart wolf* He's spectacular. I could go on and on about him and us, but i won't. XP Point being, I'm in love again. Maybe the potential has always eben there, i just didn't see it. Maybe i was in love this whole time but didn't know till i became single. I can't say because love really is blind and i really was in love with Anec. But the important thing is, I've found myself rising from the ashes of my heartbreak to fall in love again with someone who i think i should have been with this whole time. Kai is my life, and I stand by him.

In other news, classes are going well, Alt. Photo Processes is a blast, I've fallen in love with Cyanotypes and i have big plans for my final project which you'll all see here eventually. Comp Art one is frustrating, as Illustrator is the polar opposite of Photoshop >.< but it's proving useful and I think I'll master it by the end of the semester. Web 3 is going well also and hopefully by the end of the semester my personal website will be revamped and i'll have built a new site for my fursona as well. :)

On the note of photographs and fursonas, three of my prints from my Photo 1 final project will be appearing in my Comp. Art professors gallery show starting this Monday and running till the 28th of March. I'm quite proud to have been asked to participate in the show and wow, the pics look awesome. You can see the 72dpi versions here on FA: The one I'm most proud of http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5187234/ , and my other two, http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5272906 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5272882 all of which look so much better after spending some timein Photoshop with my professor. ^^ I'm astounded by how amazing these look. They look ten times better full sized IRL. ^^

So that's all the fun news for now ^^ This weekend should prove to be lots of fun and I'm counting the days until i can see my love again. <3

Stolen from someone... fuck if i remember who...

1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
- Furfirght!

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- I don't even remember what my newyears resolutions were last year. XP

3. How did you spend New Year's Eve?
- having a blast with  kaimitsuki partying it up at  ark-adustus and  gel's house.

4. What countries did you visit?
- None :(

5. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
- Money

6. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- June 12th

7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
- FurFright!

8. What was the best thing you bought?
- 2006 Subaru Impreza and 1987 Camaro Z28

9. Where did most of your money go?
- Gas

10. What song will always remind you of 2010?

- Any Rascal Flatts Song

11. What do you wish you'd done more of?
- Photography

12. What do you wish you'd done less of?
- Ehh i dunno

13. What was your favorite TV program?
- Battlestar Galactica and NCIS

14. What was the best book you read?
- The Wheel of Time series by Robert Jordan Boos 1-4

15. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- Armin Van Burin
- Dave Aude

16. What was your favorite film of this year?
- Tron Legacy

17. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
- I'm pretty sure i didnt do all that much. 20

18. Who was the best new person you met?
-  kaimitsuki

Lots of others too, but he gets the Honorable mention.

Was awesome. I went to see the movie with  elgrapadora today, and I was really impressed. Especially since I saw the original for the first time less than a week ago. hehe. There were so many references to the original in the sequel, so everyone should really watch it before you go see it, you'll get a lot more out of it. ^^

But anyway, I wanted to make the point that I think they did a really good job with following up the original movie. This wasn't one of those sequels where it's like, horribly bad compared to the original. And I admit that the original wasn't all THAT great, but come on, it was fun. ;)

All in all, it was totally worth seeing, I highly recommend it. And I'm saying that having paid $16.50 to see it in IMAX 3D. XP On that note... I dunno if the 3D did anything for it really, but I have to admit the overall quality of the IMAX theater was impressive. This is one of those movies where good picture quality really makes a difference, and the high res IMAX was a nice advantage.

Also, sexy lead roll in a skin tight body suit... murrrrrrr...

End Of Line.

P.S. Can i please point out the complete lack of kissing? There was no romantic kiss scene or any kiss scene at all for that matter in the whole movie! I was actually impressed. heh

So it's the third of January and I'm just getting around to writing my New Years journal. >.>

Spent the holiday with a bunch of awesome furs,  ark-adustus and  gel hosted a party at their place and I provided the booze XP The party rocked, I went with  kaimitsuki and  spazotter. We ended up leaving around 5am and getting home around 6 XP I was so tired but it was worth it, ^^

So now on to the 2010 recap. 2010 was a mixed bag for me... Broke up with  elgrapadora at the beginning of the year, but then I found  anecwolf at just the right time for me to fall madly in love again. However, six months later, he left me too. So I finished off the year recovering from a badly broken heart. On the other side of that, I started taking a low dose of Adderol to help me focus in school and work, and its made a profound difference. I passed all my classes last semester and I loved all of them. Web Design and Photo I the most.

Also, I have to give 2010 credit for all the friends I've made over this year. My furry friends have at least doubled since the begining of 2010. A special few being  kaimitsuki,  silvermane,  runtt,  manikwolf,  Orion_Laguna,  equin and  Jayvee

And of course, I went to my first con this year. Furfright 2010 was possibly the most fun I've ever had. Despite going to only two con sanctioned events, I had the time of my life with  anecwolf and all my friends. FF 2011 should be even better ^^ This time I'm gunna actually try to go to some con activities. X3

So, on to 2011! Within the first few hours of 2011, I've contracted some kind of throat infection and have missed two days of work. It seriously sicks and my doctor's office isn't open today which is annoying because it's Monday. I really need to see a doctor and the only other option is to go to out patient care at the hospital and that costs a shit load of money. So i'll wait with my pain till tomorrow >.<

But yeah, I have a lot to look forward to this year, even as I start it as last year ended, recovering from my crushing breakup. I'm looking forward to another good semester, including Alt. Photo Processing and Web III. I plan to spend more time with more friends and do my best to forgive and forget. None of these changes will happen overnight, but there's a lot of days in a year. :)

Happy New Year all, I hope everyone has a better year than last ^^

EDIT: Everyone watch this, it's funny! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VYZiViUGyXM

Merry Yiffmas.... i mean Christmas.... everyone! Here's hoping that you all have a fantastic holiday and New Years. Don't get too drunk and try not to spend too much at the after Christmas sales. XP *has $100 off of a $200 dollar purchase at Express*

So again, Merry Christmas, I hope Santa brings everyone what they wanted this year. XP And those who are on the naughty list, you'll be raped by a reindeer. *as if anyone would complain* X3 *hopes i get Rudolf*

FurFright 2010 was possibly the most epic time I've ever had. Despite the fact that I went to almost no con-related activities, I had so much fun, I met so many new people, and had some very yummy experiences. *winks*

Shouts to  gel,  ark-adustus,  lupislupine,  tagard,  jayvee,  lone_wolf_666,  Argus_Husky, and  dexraccoon!

Equin and Manik rocked the dance Saturday night, I think that they should just DJ the whole thing next time *laughs* I danced so hard and now my whole body hurts, but it was so worth it.

I got an awesome badge from Lonewolf, a surprise by my darling Anec, and also an epic badge from Gel, which I commissioned on my own. I'll be posting a scan of that one soon.

Next on the list is AC, and I've decided that I will have a fursuit before the con. I want one so bad, especially after trying on  Tagard's this weekend. ^^

The last thing I wanna say is this, thank you Anec, this weekend was so amazing and 99% of that was because of you. I never would have done this without you and I'm so grateful that you're here for me like you are. I love you, hun.

My mate,  anecwolf came up with this idea for kind of a mobile printing company for cons and artists. He's looking for artists' opinions and feedback onthe plan, so if you could take the time to read http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1792082/ and tell him what you think, we'd both really appreciate the feedback. :)

Where are you staying?
In the main hotel

Who will you be with?
 anecwolf Kai Mitsuki and Davin Cat.

Do you do trades?
i would if i could draw >.>

What suits will you have?
None :(

What is your gender?
Male..?

How old are you?
*wonders why this matters* 20

Can I touch you?
I'd rather you didn't...

Can I talk to you?
Talking is perfectly acceptable ^^

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
Please do XP

Can I give you lots of money?
Sure, i need to get to FC next!

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Snuggling is reserved for  anecwolf


How tall are you?
*again wonders why this matters*

You look pissed off out of suit can I come up to you?
I wouldn't advise it... Though i don't think i'll be upset if i can help it.

Are you nice?
Depends on who you are and what you're doing.

Are you cliquey?
no.

Can I stalk you?
If i givee permission, does that mean it's still stalking?

How long are you going?
till monday

Do you have an artist table?
Nope

Do you like parties?
Fuck yes.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
I'm sure you'll think of something.

It's been a long wile since I actually write something of personal importance here. XP The last we heard was when I'd just gotten together with my darling  anecwolf <3 Since then a lot has happened.

Anec and I are still fabulous ^^ we're closing in on the four month mark by this point. He's fantastic as always hehe <3

My Camaro caught fire after a bearing went, causing brake fluid to back up and spill over the headers. The damage was minimal, but the car has been decommissioned as my daily driver. That's all good though, because i didn't plan on driving it during the winter anyway. (that would be dangerous x.x) It also worked out nicely, because the event spurred my grandfather to, out of nowhere, finance my getting a new car. And by new I mean not pre 2000 XP I now drive a blue, 2006 Subaru Impreza 2.5i. It's the base model, but I love it to death. :) It's fast enough for me, it's a 5-speed, and has an all-wheel drive system that is fucking epic. I can't wait to play with it this winter. XP

So school's started and the semester has taken off in a much better direction than the last one ended on. This semester I'm taking Web Design and Dark Room Photography, which are my two favorite classes, as well as Abnormal Psych and Environmental Poly Sci which are both engaging and interesting. I foresee a GPA raising good semester.

You can see my Web projects here if you want :) http://classroom.uml.edu/art/webart.....w_C/index.html

FURFRIGHT IS COMMING!!!!!
FurFright will be my first ever con, i'm so excited and admitedly a little nervous. I don't know exactly what to expect. But i'll have my dalring wolf there with me to keep me out of too much trouble hehe. I'll be rooming with Anec and my friends Kai and Daven in one of the overflow hotels. I expect epic room parties and total awesomeness ^^

So that's the news as of now ;)

Look here!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:14223557

I'm getting one! :)

Every low is the base of another high, which means that every high is just the top of another downhill drop. I had the best two days i think i've ever had yesterday and today. I was taken out on a date, a real date, for the very first time last night. It was so perfect. He took me to dinner, then we went to the arcade on the pier in Portland, and then to the beach where we had the surprise pleasure of seeing a blood red moon rise from over the horizon. It was a magical night that just got better with every minute that passed. I've never felt more wanted or cared for and I'd honestly thought that guys like him may not exist in real life. Turns out they do and I was lucky enough to catch his eye. Now it's my turn to treat him, and take him out on a date that's just as special as the one he planned for me. He deserves everything from me that he offered last night and i plan to give him the best i can when he comes to Lowell.

Memories of mast night are the reason i'm still smiling right now. As i said, every low point in life is the base of another high, just as every high is the top of another valley. I came home a couple hours ago to find that someone had broken in through my window and stolen my laptop and Playstation 3. Honestly, it's really only the laptop i miss, there was so much on that. Good news is i backed up most of it onto my iMac a couple weeks ago, so i didn't lose all that much, just the computer itself. And they didn't take the iMac so i guess i'm glad about that too. That's where all my porn is anyway X3 I hate this city and i can't wait to move into my apartment downtown. It's just too bad that i couldn't have moved in a couple weeks sooner.

All in all, without low, bad times, we wouldn't have anything to compare the high, good times to and it would all just be bland and gray. My time with  anecwolf was filled with so much happiness that it makes this low spot look like just a bump in the road. I'm upset that my house was broken into, but I have proof that the world isn't all bad and i have so much hope for the future.

got this from http://www.furaffinity.net/user/purplefoxhood

1. Respond with something random about you.
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what animal you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Tell you my least favorite thing about you.
8. Challenge you to post this on your journal.

I feel like the rock and the hard place that i'm suck between are getting closer together every time i wake up. The semester is ending, i'm not doing well, i don'tknow how many classes i'll pass, i have a huge workload. Work is driving me nuts, i just can't handle retail, i hate it so much and fuck... I'm pushing through but the cost is my sanity. Zach's g0one. I sdtill don't know how t0o feel about that. I miss him... well i miss who i thought he was. I hate him for who he really is, and i just feel lost and alone. I'm broke as fuck, i just had to borrow money from my parents to keep my car insurance from getting canceled, i'm a month behind on rent, but the landlord hasn't come looking yet so that's not so bad. I'm getting shit pay for working so many hours and i feel like i'm just stagnating. I have no idea what classes to take nextr semester and i need to make an appointment to talk to sdmeone about that but i just can't seem to find the fucking time. Damn it. I wish with all my heart that i could just drop everything, get in my car, and race. Fuck school, fuck retail, justr teach me how to fix cars and give me one to drive and i'll be happy. Throw in a gearhead furry boyfriend and my life would be perfect.

Zach and i broke up today. Turns out he'd been leading me on for over a month about wanting to be with me for his own selfish reasons and now it's finally come out. I Have good friends, that's all i can say. He's broken me. He dragged my heart over broken glass for almost a week before some kind souls finally gave me the truth. In my anger I've stood myself up again, but the anger will fade and when it does I'll only be left with the loss of the first boy I've ever truly loved.

And to think that this boy would cut me so deep. He said he deeply cared about me. If that's the case then why did he do this to me? Why not just let me down easy? The only saving grace for me right now is the anger. As long as I'm angry, I won't cry.

God, i know it's going to suck. I just hope it's sucking for him just as bad.

[Verse 1:]
Is it strained, when I call you
Or do you think, that I might forget
Oh your love, is radiating
The farther away
I go
I go

[Verse 2:]
Do you count, on me now
And do you wait, up for me all night
I wish I could run, to you when you need me
You know I can't be far
For long
For long

[Chorus :]
Heart don't fail me now
Cause there is no time to waste
Don't shut me out, we shouldn't wait another day
I've searched for you, on my hearts high speed chase
Hear me out, may be the only chance to say
Hold me now
I've said it Every Other Way

[Bridge :]
These tears I've cried
More moments gone to waste
I've searched for you
I've said it Every Other Way

[Chorus :]
Heart don't fail me now
Cause there is no time to waste
Don't shut me out, we shouldn't wait another day
I've searched for you, on my hearts high speed chase
Hear me out, may be the only chance to say
Hold me now
I've said it Every Other Way

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYpln9v5PU4

Heart don't fail me now...

1 - Do you shower in the morning or evening?
Morning

2 - Do you use liquid or bar soap?
Blade Shower Gel

3 - Do you use shampoo and conditioner or just shampoo?
Always ALWAYS use conditioner.

4 - Do you brush your teeth in the shower?
Nope

5 - Do you shave in the shower?
Yes

6 - Do you sing in the shower?
I haven't in a long while, but i used to.

7 - Do you use a washcloth?
I have Generic Poof. :)

8 - Do you have a door or a curtain on your shower?
Curtain

9 - Have you ever taken a call in the shower?
I've texted in the shower... XD

10 - Have you ever showered in your swimsuit?
maybe/ I can't recall a time but i imagine it's something i must have done at least once.

11 - Have you ever showered with a member of the same sex?
Hehe yesh <3 <3 <3

12 - Have you ever showered with a member of the opposite sex?
I have indeed

13 - Do you share a bathroom with someone?
Myself, and my three roommates. We really don't run into problems though.

14 - Do you listen to the radio in the shower?
If i do bother to bring music, it's usually my laptop.

15 - Do you wear a shower cap?
why bother? I'm going to wash my hair every time anyway.

16 - Do you wash behind your ears?
in a sense.

17 - Describe your shower in three words.
Dark, full, warm.

18 - What one thing would you change about your shower?
I would buy a new showerhead. Which i'm planningon doing sometime this week actually. :)

19 - What would make your shower time better for you?
If  elgrapadora was with me every time I showered <3

20 - What celebrity would you like to shower with?
None...

21 - What celebrity would you NOT like to shower with?
All of them?

22 - What is the one thing you can't do without in your shower?
Water

23 - What is the oddest thing that has happened to you in the shower?
Surprise Buttsex XD

24 - What is the best thing that has happened to you in the shower?
Mmmm... Zachary <3

25 - When was the last time you showered?
Bout half an hour ago.

26 - When are you going to take a shower next?
Tomorrow morning after Spanish

I do. I love her. ^^ She gives me so many pretty lyrics to sig to my boyfriend lol this is just a filler journal, so everyone ignore it. XD

because i'm bored waiting around for the Verizon internet guy, i'm gunna take some time to update my journal with a cliche happy new year journal. So yeah., happy new year all! I get the pleasure of working till 10 tonight at CVS and then driving all the way back to Lowell. I'm excited. But it's ok because my darling boyfriend will be waiting for me and i'm so looking forward to our night together tonight.

So enjoy the last of 2009 and i hope you all have a great and not shitty 2010.

Every fur should see this movie. I just saw it last night with  elgrapadora and it was sooo amazing. It was adorable and funny and clever. ^^ I loved it.

there's just so much happening right now. I'm moving to Lowell, My mother went off the deep end... it doesn't stop. >.< Plus it's raining. I have some inner conflicts that are munching me in the stomach still and I'm trying really hard to let them go but they're being bitches and hanging on tight.

 elgrapadora He's the best thing that's ever happened to me. I'm just so very lucky that he's here for me now because he makes life so much brighter, even on this rainy day. I can't wait to move to Lowell, I'll be closer to him, closer to school, and away from home. No matter what happens with my mother, I will never let anything come between me and my darling fox.

I'm not sure why i decided to write this all down, it's kind of just nonsensical rambling, but ehh, it helped. I had a good night last night, even though it got a kind of late start. I even had a good morning today but now I'm home and the pressure's back on and i have to work in an hour.

I think a big thing right now with me is that the only thing I'm sure about is Zack. Everything else is up in the air and it's making me clingy as fuck. I hope I'm not going overboard. *shakes head* I gotta stop worrying.

So yeah, I'm moving to Lowell, my college town.I'm moving in with three friends from the Pride Alliance, two of them are a couple, all of them are girls. XD I'm soooo excited. the place is really nice, in a good part of town, and right on campus. I'll be cutting out three hours of commuting every day, i'll be closer to my boyfriend i'll be closer to a lot of my friends, and I'll be out of my house. XP I lovemy family but i miss being on my own like i was last year. and this time, no RA's or roommates. I have housemates, but we all get our own rooms. It's gunna be great. I can't wait to decorate the place.

so that's it. I'm officially on my own now. Woo!

"The Bird And The Worm"

If you're the bird
Whenever we pretend it's summer
Then I'm the worm
I know the part, it's such a bummer

But fair is fair
If my segments get seperated
I'll scream
And you'll be there

Close your eyes
(Close my eyes)
So I'd be caught and off of your shoulder
And feel the shine
(Feel the shine)
I'm hooked so toss me over
And cast a line
(Well I'll try)
I'll throw a party and greet my undersea friends
(It depends)
As they arrive
(If they arrive)

You and I left our troubles far behind
But I still have just one more question on my mind
For all my pals who live in the oceans and the seas
With friends like these well,
Who needs enemies?

If I'm your boy
Let's take a shortcut we remember
And we'll enjoy
Picking apples in late september like
We've done for years
Then we'll take a long walk
Through the cornfield
And I'll kiss you
Between the ears

If you're my girl
Swirl me around your room with feeling
And as we twirl
The glow in the dark stars on your ceiling
Will shine for us
As love sweeps over the room
Cuz we tend to make
Each other blush

You and I left our troubles far behind
But I still have just one more question on my mind
For all my pals who live in the oceans and the seas
With friends like these well,
Who needs an enemies?

You're the bird, I'm the worm
And it's plain to see
That we were meant to be

We were meant to be
We were meant to be
We were meant to be

oh Owl City, i love you so.

At the moment i don't think my avatar is a good representation of myself. Right now it's a representation of who i want to be and who i can be, but am not right now. I've seen so muh sadness and caused so much of it. I'm seeing some of these things piece themselves back together but much of it is still in tatters and still more gets added.

I find myself suffocated in this fandom, that which i came to reguard as one of the few places i could really be me. Sometimes the internet is just too in your face, TMI. right now i just don't want to see it. I need to fall back and collect myself. I need to reevaluate where i'm going and what i need to do to get there. I've dropped out of my forum RPs and will not be rejoining them, I'm sorry to all those who i'm more or less ditching. I hope you can work those stories without me. I just need to dissociate myself for a while. I'll still be around on IM so feel free to IM me, but i probably won't be posting much here or anywhere else for a while.

I'm done now.

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

[Chorus x2]

~Jordin Sparks