I have been making zines all year in preparation for a zine festival and I want to share them around on the corners of the internet where I share my art. About half of the ones I've made so far are poetry zines, but there's also one about plants and one about my summer this year, and a little tiny one I made as a place to collect fruit stickers that I'm not really sure how to upload. I'm slowly putting them up on itch.io, trying to space out my uploads to keep interest up. You can see what I have up so far by clicking on my linktree here:

http://linktr.ee/thresholdquestions

I have plans to make other stuff, but the next couple months are probably going to be really busy for me, so it might be a while before I get some new stuff out. I also want to record and upload some of the music I've made for my DND group somewhere, so maybe I'll do that? Who knows? I'm making lots of stuff, it's just not particularly furry stuff lol.

Fuck it, I'm a teacher. The whole reason my account went dark so fast is that I got a teaching position and had to upend my life in order to chase it. They are also very strict with us saying that you can absolutely get fired if your private life becomes public knowledge in a way that could embarrass the school and I every so often cold sweat nightmare myself about all the art I've made over the years surfacing somehow and getting my ass fired. But also, when I initially made this account I had just figured out that I'm some flavor of queer and moved far from home with a girlfriend that didn't work out.
I clawed my way out of that situation then moved back closer to home to a SHITTY teaching position that nearly killed me, then scrambled to get to my current place. I like where I work now, but my boss is bad at discipline and that makes my job unnecessarily stressful.
I'm worried about the state of education and how the US is trying to legislate queer people out of existence. I feel like I'm constantly walking on eggshells. I can't be out at work, so I'm just roaming around visibly not-conservative waiting for the other shoe to drop.
This account is like, nobody knows this one. Not even my best irl friends know about my secret horny furry art account, (they know I drew art for furries, but I don't think they've ever seen my art like this) and because of what I do for work, I get really paranoid about somebody somehow finding this account and tying it to me and ruining my life. This makes it really hard for me to crosspost anything, because of the fear™️ that it will get tied back to me, partially because when I was in high school a classmate stalked me online and found ALL of my social media accounts then showed up somewhere I had said I would be, despite me not saying a specific place.

But, I miss this place. Y'all are the nicest people on the internet hands-down. You seem to genuinely want to see the little drawings I draw, despite them not really being the beautiful polished things the rest of the internet has become. So, I guess what I'm saying is, I want to come back. I'm experimenting with posting just whatever the hell I've made lately, and might post some old art from the intervening years even though it's not furry mostly. There were some sketches you guys might be interested in. I've made a lot of music and drawn stuff for a dnd campaign I'm in, and I think you guys might be interested in seeing that. It's just sad to me to see my artistic record on the internet has disappeared, that the relationships we worked to foster I let dry up.

I'm also just curious, how do people interact now? Are chat rooms still a thing? Are irl meetups a thing outside of the big cons? (Would I even be brave enough to try?)

I'm not really drawing as much anymore, but I do draw my little DND character sometimes. Mostly I've been making physical objects lately, so I haven't had much I felt like I could show. My job is one that people would get in a twist if they know I made spicy content on the internet, which makes it kind of hard to do, but I've continued to make things since I kind of abandoned this account.

I'm okay, well even, if a little bit lonely. I thought maybe I'd try to use this place again to talk to people. This is the most gay-friendly part of the internet and the part that doesn't care what my weird kinks are, ha ha. Maybe I'll post some about the things I'm making, just to keep the account going. Who knows, maybe y'all will find it interesting? Maybe I'll bring old clicketyclack back, it was fun to be her.

Anyway, I guess I just wanted y'all to know I'm okay, and alive and what have you.

So, that super hard job? It kept being super difficult and my contract didn't get renewed, so now I've got about two months to figure it out before the $$$ runs dry. I'm really upset because I tried really hard to make it work, but my boss didn't really give me what I needed to succeed and then blamed me when things didn't go well because I had to improvise. I may open commissions again to sort of supplement my income but, yeah. I have a pretty specialized skillset but this past year went so badly that I don't know if I want to keep doing what I do and for the past week since I've found out I've been looking around, but the fear of failing again has made it hard to complete the applications.

I might just try to do some personal art, who's to say. I feel like I haven't had time to create anything good in years, and I miss it. I miss keeping up with everyone and that type of connection. These types of sites will always build closer friendships than the Tumblr types because of the long form communication you can keep up.

Just so you guys know, I got a new job back near my home town that pays a lot better than my old one, but the adjustment has been really difficult and I have had zero downtime. However, I think I might be able to buy a house soon??? I just wanted you guys to know I'm okay and everything since you've all been so good to support me and kind to me. I probably won't have time for anything art related at least for a couple months, maybe more, just the nature of the beast. I am still out here though and going strong.

So, I know I keep saying I'm going to come back and do commissions, but this time I really might? My real life gig slacks off in the summer and I travel (or I have the past two years since getting this gig, but it hasn't left me as much time for art.

I left my home and moved pretty far from where I originally lived two years ago, figured out I was bisexual, had a girlfriend, lost a girlfriend, continued to live with said gf for like seven months after, it was a whole thing. I spent that summer just trying to come down off that horrible stockholm-syndrome-esque roller-coaster and find somewhere to live. I've had to get that straightened out a second time down here and it's looking like I'll have to settle it again for a third time in October. I'm on the fence about trying to go back to my hometown because it's pretty much an everybody knows everybody situation and it's only a matter of time before somebody gets wind that I gasp shock horror date ladies and my little career I've set up comes crashing down, but, where I'm living now I don't know many people and while the people I do know are lovely, they are busy and don't answer my texts quickly and I'm by myself a lot. I miss my family and I would be able to live without roommates if I moved back. But, if I keep living here, I can be myself without fear. Truthfully though, even though I am good at my job (ha ha braggity brag or whatever) nobody has really been interested except where I'm working now, and I'm afraid I'll be stuck here with my not-great pay and horrible long commute.

Anyway, I've been toying with the idea of doing streaming commissions, but I do traditional art, so I was wondering if anybody would want to just chat with me basically while I draw. I can't figure out how to work this out camera-wise. It'd be really cool if I could suspend one over my shoulder.... idk, I could use a little extra income and I have the time when I'm not visiting my family, I just think I've probably squandered what little base of people I had that would have been interested. I haven't stopped drawing in the intervening time, I've been working on landscapes and watercolor. I think it'd be pretty cool to offer watercolor commissions. Anyway, over the next couple weeks I might start streaming at night. I just need to draw up a snappy little streaming image and hope people will be interested. :D

What I'd like to know from you is this:
-When would you be most likely to tune in for a streaming session? (Please say what time zone you're in)
-What kind of format would you be interested in: I draw alongside a clock calculating my wages and when we hit that limit I'm done, I start drawing a pose and you decide you want it and you paypal me?
-Some other third thing? (I don't sit in on many streams, so I'm not sure how the kids are doing it these days.)

So, I'm off for the summer, meaning that I've got a little time for art again. My goals are to work on cartoony styles and landscapes this summer. I'm wondering whether I should focus on print-style artworks or on commission works. It'd be nice to have some artworks that I could sell multiple times instead of putting hours and hours into a piece I can only sell once. If you sell prints, how did you break into it? I'd really like to make t-shirts and things but I'm not confident that anybody would want what I've got, probably because I've never sold anything like that.

Anyway, I'm thinking if you want commissions what I'd like to do is do it on an hourly rate of maybe $10/hr, that way I'm not screwing myself over on the amount I charge and you can know how much time I'm spending on your thing and make a decision on how detailed you want it. I'd really like to do more tf artwork this summer. In any case, I'll probably think about this more and put up more detailed info next week.

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Anyway, I'm alive out here and doing fairly well. I've been playing Overwatch so I really want to do a lot of Overwatch fanart, ha ha.

So, basically I'm still out here. I haven't drawn anything since my job started basically, but I'll be back. I finally managed to get a job in my field, but I'm a newbie which means I have a lot more to do in some ways so I haven't had a lot of free time. I basically just wanted to put if out there that I'm still kicking, and doing well.

(Commission info below)
Okay, so, I moved. I got a job in the next state over and really I'm going to be living pretty comfortably (already am, honestly, but also owing more and more money to my sweet gf) but right now I don't have a job. So, I'm going stir-crazy and everybody I've applied to so far is wise enough to realize I won't be able to work with them but for about a month so nobody wants to hire me.)So I'm ramping up my commissions again and I'm going to hit the digital pavement and drum up some business while I sit here. If I could earn a little income so I could start paying my girlfriend back for rent and what-have-you that'd be fantastic. And hell, maybe get some stuff for my new job. So I've got what you want, so buy something, please!



COMMISSION INFO
I'm offering 1 hour pencil and pen or digital sketches of single characters in one of my girlfriend poses (preferably female or breast-having characters, most of these poses are for showing off the goods ;)) or a tf vignette
* Anything I can get accomplished in an hour. (The more complicated your request, the less will get finished, so simple poses only for tf vignettes)
* If you saw the finished product and wanted me to color it, I could do that for an additional fee (about five bucks probably) and it'd just be a simple coloring job.
*I am going to try to update this with a lot of different and interesting poses and put them all in one place, right now it's these poses: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17179539/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16750577/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16599294/ (that final one is a pencil sketch but what I'm offering would look like the middle drawing)

*TF sketches will be simple pose, waist-up, I will focus my efforts to make the drawing turn out as nice as possible in an hour, but the more complicated your idea the less I will be able to get accomplished

*If you order at least two physical drawings (pen and pencil sketches) I will mail you the originals if you pay shipping. You will receive a 600 dpi scan of the drawing when it is completed and I will upload a lower res scan as well. (Basically, anything 600 dpi and below I can give you. If you want something specific let me know)

*If you want me to draw something I'm not offering right now, pm me and we can discuss details. (Particularly if you want porn, I can do that, but know that I'm doing simple poses and single characters right now)

Slots:
1.  ealadubh (Digital TF Vignette 100%)
2.  ealadubh (Digital TF Vignette 100%)
3.  ealadubh (Digital TF Vignette 100%)
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Hey, also, if you like stuff with art printed on it, I have a Society6 here: https://society6.com/kmirandak
and a redbubble here: http://www.redbubble.com/people/roughkiss

They have slightly different stuff on the different sites, partially because of what each site offers and partially because I'm still learning how to use their systems.

Alright so as I previously mentioned, it looks like I'm getting ready to move. I need all the extra income I can get. I'm offering 1 hour pencil and pen sketches of single character Transformation vignettes or waist-up style sketches.

* Anything I can get accomplished in an hour. (Which is a lot, I'll be uploading one I was working on shortly for you to look at.)

* If you saw the finished product and wanted me to color it, I could do that for an additional fee (about five bucks probably) and it'd just be a simple coloring job.

*Simple poses only on the waist-up sketches.

*TF sketches will be simple pose, may not be full body, I will focus my efforts to make the drawing turn out as nice as possible in an hour, so if you'd rather have less of the body but a more detailed sketch, let me know. I can give you a nicer drawing from the waist up in an hour than I can of a full figure.

*These are physical drawings. If you order at least two I will mail you the original if you pay shipping. You will receive a 600 dpi scan of the drawing when it is completed and I will upload a lower res scan as well. (Basically, anything 600 dpi and below I can give you. If you want something specific let me know)

*If you want me to draw something I'm not offering right now, pm me and we can discuss details. (Particularly if you want porn, I can do that, but know that I'm doing simple poses and single characters right now)

Slots:
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So, I don't know this is just a feelings dump because I need to put it somewhere and maybe get some advice or something because I don't really know what to do and I don't want to put it up on my blog because my problem is ridiculous and I'm complaining about something that shouldn't be a complaint but I need help.

So, my girlfriend is awesome. She has a degree in web design and all newly minted. We've been seriously considering moving to a city about an hour from where I live now or really any big city in the neighboring states that's not too far north or south of us so we can have a fresh start. I've been saying for a while now that you know, my job will be the hard part, we can get you a job anywhere...but I didn't realize how true it was.

I have been filling out applications and going to job fairs and stuff for months. MONTHS. and I haven't had so much as a single call. She filled out one application, got a call immediately for an interview, has gone for the interview, they loved her. They said she's got a second interview with them and she's talking with one of the guys today to discuss salary (and early guesses on our part of what her salary would be are triple what I could expect and that's just IF I got a teaching position.)

I just.

I am so frustrated and upset I can't even function. It doesn't help that I'm sitting squarely between jobs right now (beating my head against the wall about not one but two jobs! Fantastic!) so I've just been sitting at home trying to keep from thinking about it, trying to keep grinding it out. I don't want to be upset about this. I want to be fanatically excited, because everything is coming up roses, it really is, but I'm not. I am super fucking stressed out. I feel like I have worked so so so hard to make this work (and I'm going on two years of trying to get a damn teaching position) and she fills out one application. One. and it works out.

I mean it super works out. If this is half as good as it sounds she could easily support three people, let alone me. But I don't want that. I don't want to be somebody's housewife, I don't want to be a burden, I want to earn my own way. Even just sitting here this week knowing I've got something lined up (with her help I might add) as a job soon has made me miserable. If I'm not earning my place I feel worthless. If I'm not actively achieving my goals I feel like garbage. And if my feelings spill out of me like this (like I've allowed them to because I have talked to her about all of this, I have really tried not to just bottle all of this bullshit) and I ruin somebody else's good mood, then what? I feel like it should be all about her right now, I should be able to make over her and give her that positive attention, but it's all about me and trying to keep me from having a straight up breakdown over it.

I just don't know what to do. This wizard that's offering her a job asked her to send along my cv and he'd pass it around though honestly right now I'm in such a bitter place and I've had that kind of offer before that I don't expect anything. I just wish I could stop being me for a little bit, that I could just be a third party in all this and look at it objectively because I'm beating myself bloody over something that is nobody's fault. I feel like I must have fucked up somehow, I haven't tried hard enough. I should have called. That's the only thing I haven't really done. I just. I hate myself right now. I hate how I feel and I hate how I'm making everybody else feel and I hate all of it. I hate being discouraged and feeling like I should give up. How long are you expected to fight when you're getting literally nothing back? I can't keep doing this. I need a miracle. I need some poor bastard to get so desperate that they'll hire me.

I just need it all to stop.

Updated commission system:
I now work on all commissions by the hour. (Reason explained below) So, $10 hr on everything I do. (If you were quoted a lower price in the past, that will stand, but I think I've only quoted on person) So, that means that if you want me to do something for you I'm going to give you a rough estimate of what I think it will cost. If you want something cheaper expect a significantly less amount of time to be put into it.


Dude, so this last commission I had I finished today. My girlfriend takes leatherwork commissions on her etsy. (They're awesome, I've been trying to get her to post them over here too so I can show her off, but c'est la vie) Anyway, she got a couple of commissions recently and she is going to make more on one of those commissions than I've made the entire time I've taken commissions on my art. I was jealous and frustrated because she is absolutely making what she should on her work, and here I was, sitting here busting my ass to make 35 bucks and Paypal was gonna take a cut. :/

It took me two hours to ink and color this piece: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16265006/ (I timed myself, and this is with no breaks, just flat-out work) and I'm pretty sure I spent at least two hours on it today before I got to that point. Actually, I started around 11:30 and didn't finish until six. Even assuming that I wasted an hour and a half in there it's six hours just today.

To put that into perspective for you, inking and coloring is the part that takes me the least amount of time. It was already to this point (here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16157883/ ) before I even started working on it today. My low estimate for how long it took me to get to that point is three hours, but I would say it's probably closer to five. So overall it took me anywhere from 11-15 hours to do this piece (not counting thumbnail sketches) for $35. This is anywhere from $3.18-2.33 an hour. Holy crap. I hadn't realized until today how badly I was cheating myself, and this is with an updated price scale that was about $10 more per item. :/ Given my updated pricing this piece would have cost $110-150.

So, I don't know where that leaves me. I highly doubt anyone will pay that much for what I'm selling when there are plenty of other people out there willing to do artwork for far less than minimum wage. At one point a year or two ago I was doing timed sketches to make myself faster, and I can draw faster, but the detail falls to the wayside. I don't really know what to do here. As is, I'm trying to get a job and maybe move states, I don't have time to work for $2.33 an hour when I could be filling out job applications. That's absurd. I mean, yeah, I do this to give myself an excuse to draw fun stuff, but today was a wake-up call. I can't keep doing this to myself.

Alright, so I think I may finally be over some of my hang-ups with porn artwork. In celebration, here are three slots for either/both TF or solo act porn.

Hey all, this is just a reminder that I'm still taking commissions as well as a shout-out to those on my commission list. I have messaged both of you recently and I'm a little concerned that FA has eaten my messages. If you see this please pm or email me!

This is the current price offering: TF Comic (1 Page): $50 pencil, $55 inked, $60 full-color Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12328689/
Single Character TF or Solo act (one character) single image: $35 full-color figure with simple (ex. single-color or similar) background. If you don't see what you want on this list, please message me or email me.
Slots:
1.  liimlsan (status: advanced sketch phase,almost to inking)
2.  Triard (status: Reserved slot)
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If interested, message me here or email me at grandiosemuffin[at]yahoo.com Email would be preferable so that your message won't get lost.

Terms of Service: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3075775/

P.S. I am a traditional artist. If you commission me I can mail you the original piece for an additional shipping fee.
P.S.S. I accept all payment via Paypal at this time. If you have some other way to pay digitally, message me and we'll work it out.

Alright, so I think I may finally be over some of my hang-ups with porn artwork. In celebration, here are three slots for either/both TF or solo act porn.


TF Comic (1 Page): $50 pencil, $55 inked, $60 full-color Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12328689/
Single Character TF or Solo act (one character) single image: $35 full-color figure with simple (ex. single-color or similar) background

Slots:
1.  liimlsan (status: sketch phase)
2.  Triard (status: Reserved slot)
3.
4.
5.

If interested, message me here or email me at grandiosemuffin[at]yahoo.com Email would be preferable so that your message won't get lost.

Terms of Service: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3075775/

P.S. I am a traditional artist. If you commission me I can mail you the original piece for an additional shipping fee.
P.S.S. I accept all payment via Paypal at this time. If you have some other way to pay digitally, message me and we'll work it out.

Dude, it's been forever since I updated my page! I am garbage! Anyway, let me give you guys a quick rundown of what's up with me and what I plan to achieve over the next little bit.

So, yeah, I've been gone a couple months, I still don't have that career I'm chasing, but I did get a job in my field that pays reasonably well. It's only part-time, 25 hours a week, and no benefits though so I need to either get another part time job or move on. I'm considering trying to hit commissions on here really hard in an effort to keep from having to have another retail job. I really really don't want to have to do that again. The big news is, I moved out finally! I've been pretty pumped about it (it's only been a couple of weeks if that) but today I guess the reality of having to get another job hit home and I've been a little down. It's not that I don't want to work, I just worked really hard to get a degree so I could do something a bit more rewarding than getting screamed at by thieves and idiot customers.

My last week at my old job a woman screamed at me in the middle of the store because I called her out after having seen her put an item in her bag. =_= I'm not eager to go back to that life. However, my current job is such that I won't really be getting paid at all in the month of December and I won't have a job to speak of during the summer so I have to do something. I just don't know what to do. I want to keep pursuing my dream but I'm getting discouraged. Everybody else that works my same part-time job has the same qualifications I do essentially but since it's specialized we're all screwed. It's a saturated market and my skill set is very specialized. 0_0

So, what that means for you guys is that I'm going to be opening commissions again (not that they were technically closed or anything) but I'm probably going to be revamping the system to have less options. Right now it's too open-ended and intimidating. I'm also probably going to be doing pinups and guro as those are two things I can draw that might bring in more business. I don't know. I'm at a crossroads and just as I'm writing this I'm feeling a little sad. Things have improved but they've sort of just stayed the same.

Hey, any of you broskis got Weasyl? I think I'm going to focus my efforts there from now on. (We'll see, eh?) I'd really like to have a good place to post my humans and cosplay and what-have-you and I don't really want to post that here. No offense to you guys, you're great, but I'm trying to get a job with a degree that would probably be scandalized at this website, so you know, can't be posting my mug over here. Anyway, if you have a weasyl account, please follow me so I can follow you back. I'm having trouble getting my bearings over there. It's such a huge pain to transfer that much artwork. I'm trying to re-upload a bunch of stuff from my old deviantart gallery as well since I'm going to use that account as a less specialized space and I haven't made a lot of progress. I'll probably still cross-post all my furry crap here but I'll be focusing on that gallery, especially since the website has more robust tagging features more in line with what deviantart has without all the crappiness of deviantart.

Also! I have a project in the works tentatively titled Discard Parlor that's going to be a webcomic. I'll probably only post that on Weasyl and if I can actually keep it up I may get some web space and make a website.

Also, still plugging away at cosplay and badges and whatnot, if you want one, hit me up. I'm offering them for ten bucks online and delivery at Animazement. (Or, you know, plus shipping if you aren't going to AZ)

Oh, yeah, my Weasyl is kmirandak or: https://www.weasyl.com/~kmirandak

Okay, I'm seriously tired of seeing my griping on the front page of my blog, so here's a better blog.

So, I'm going to AZ next month and I'm trying to get all of my crap in order for that. I'm a cosplayer and that has been my main focus. I'm not sure how many more cons I'll be able to attend so I'm trying to make sure that my costumes count this year.

With that in mind, I wanted to offer something at my booth that I could do once I was already at the con, and I thought, badges! I'm already going to be sitting there, I might as well be drawing! If you happen to be part of the anime con-going crowd and want a badge from your's truly to make you identifiable at the con, you can find me once I'm there or hit me up now and I can make it in advance and deliver it at the con. :3

They will look like this:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13108957/
(More examples coming)

I'm still trying to decide how much I should charge to make them worth my effort.

Also, should I just have the badge plastic piece or should I also buy badge snaps? They will cost more if I do that....

So, hello again party people. I want to talk to you dudes about what's going on with me right now, standing at the end of the year.

I don't know if I've mentioned this to you guys (especially since I tend to present myself as a pretty fractured personage on the internet, I don't give anybody all the pieces) but I think that this year is going to be the year that I make one of my dreams come true in a big way. I have wanted to visit Japan since I was probably 13 years old and for many years I've kicked around the very lofty dream of teaching English in Japan. I think, I think I'm really going to try to do it. I don't want to look back on my life and regret not trying. I'm either going to go to Japan or Korea. I may go to Korea because their setup is much more friendly to people who don't live in Korea already. They provide housing with other English teachers and some of my bills would be paid, wouldn't have to worry about a Visa, etc.

So, my goal for 2014 is to save up a bunch of money and ship myself off to Korea/Japan right as the school year starts here, so that when I come back I will be able to get a job here. There are a few conventions I want to go to and I really want to buy this big expensive doll I've wanted forever, but other than that I'm going to try to really save all my freaking money. I'm going to have a booth at Animazement with my friend if we can get approved, so I need to get my dead butt in gear and make about a million keychains tomorrow to show off so we can get approved. (Hopefully that'll help fund the convention for me and I can not feel too guilty about it.

I haven't told my parents I'm planning to do this. I don't really know how they would react. My mom was really upset when I mentioned that I might move to Raleigh, (six hours away or so?) so I don't know what she'd do if I told her I might move halfway around the world. I'm a little scared she'd try to emotionally sabotage me, so I don't want to mention it until necessary.

So yeah, you guys probably won't see overmuch of me around here. I really hope to throw myself headlong into this whole earn-as-much-money-as-possible-while-still-seemingly-searching-for-a-domestic-job thing. I'm scared but also pretty excited. I had really hoped I could find a friend to go with me, but I don't think that's going to happen and that's maybe for the best. I've grown so much as a person this year. I had my first serious relationship, I got a degree, and I got a promotion at work that makes me second-in-command of a store. I'm finally becoming a responsible adult-person.

So, things I need to do in order to get my life on track:
1. Get a passport.
2. Decide which country
3. Earn boatloads of money and not spend it.
4. Learn as much as possible of the language in question.
5. Get hired to teach English somewhere.
6. Get a Visa. (If I go to Korea that's taken care of)
7. Survive living here until I can move out without wimping out.
8. Continue to learn teaching techniques and everything I can about teaching English as a Second Language.
9. Find out all I can about daily life in my chosen country.
10. Learn how to cook various basic dishes.
11. Try to figure out if it would be feasible to have a pet when I move out.

TL;DR, I won't be around much due to lofty goals for next year. I'm still taking commissions but the wait times will probably be hella long. Message me if interested and we can work something out.

If anybody is wondering what happened to me, I've been trying to frantically prepare for AWA as well as deal with real life and whatnot....which hasn't left much time for art unfortunately. -_- Somewhere in the hub-bub I've lost my inking pens. Double ugh. I know they're somewhere in my house but I've torn the place apart and can't find them.

So basically, I have a convention this weekend and I'm a totally responsible adult.

If you see a Twilight Sparkle in a home-made sweatshirt, that's me. :) Feel free to speak, I would be beyond stoked to meet somebody that actually voluntarily looks at my artwork.

Akwin is doing an artist survey regarding commission prices. I think that this is really interesting and would like to see the results. So, if you're an artist or commissioner check out here journal here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4956681/

So, I'm hearing back tomorrow/possibly Friday/possibly early next week about whether I got a position in a city about two hours from me. If I get it, obviously I'm going to have to move. If I have to move, it is definitely going to affect my artings. I will likely have to get my stuff moved out quickly and start I doubt I'd ever stop, but we're talking full-time position in the field I got a degree for, so it's going to be intense. It would also be me moving away from my parents and living on my own, so, it's a big fliipping deal. If you have a pending commission from me, please be patient. This is exactly the sort of reason I don't take money up-front, so that if something happens you don't start to get antsy. :) I'm chipping away at it slowly, but I've been justifiably (imo) distracted from my art.

If you have any questions/concern/advice/ramblings of a maniac you'd like to send my way, I'd love to have them. It's all happening so fast! It's like insta-actually have a life!

So, I've been thinking I want to do commissions again and I think part of my problem before was that I was trying too hard. So this is the deal:

Tell me how much you're willing to pay.

Tell me what you want.

Sketch or digital Sketch

That's it. Specifics below.

PAYMENT METHOD: Paypal I'm not really comfortable taking anything else, because Paypal protects both you and I and gives us a little paperwork. I would totally trade a tail or something for art, but I really doubt that's going to happen.

Willing to Pay: I'm cool to draw you stuff on the cheap, but you are going to get what you pay for. The more you pay, the more time I will spend on your drawing. I would like to focus on quick sketch commissions but if you're feeling like tossing your earnings my way I will treat you well. ;)

What you want: Okay, so I'm willing to try to draw whatever you want within reason. If you ask me for a dragontaur with a werewolf rider flying over a mountain while eagles wheel and fight in the background and also the werewolf is playing a guitar sword I probably won't get there. If you want me to draw something really elaborate for five bucks I am going to have to decline. I just can't spend hours on something to get paid five bucks, that's like paying to white-wash a fence.

I'd really like to do some TF work if somebody wants it.

Bottom Line is this: I want to draw stuff. I want to draw stuff fast and you could get some awesome stuff for a pretty good price.*

*If you think my stuff is awesome that is.

Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/10834185/ (If you want color, add a couple bucks, please. These markers are expensive...)

Do you think anybody would be interested? They would just be sketches, pay what you want with a minimum of five dollars or something? I want to work out of the country and I really need to save up as much money as possible. I thought this might be a good way. If I did it it would probably be on a "hey I'm streaming if interested, pop-in" basis. I'm not really sure what a good format would be.

The art produced would probably be similar to these:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/7345045/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/7344807/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/7344778/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/7344506/

Hell, I'll probably just open streaming in a little bit just to see who wanders in. You never know, it could be great.

I just graduated college people. 0_0 That's where I've been the past however long. I now have a Bachelor's degree, which is craziness. I can't believe school is over. But obviously, I haven't had the time to do much arting. I should go back through my sketchbooks and see if there's anything worth uploading... Or finish that watercolor commission from an eon ago. I am a terrible artist. -_-

I mean shit, I denied it for a long time, but what the hell, I love this crap. I just hate that if I mention it at all to irl people it's always wrinkled noses and disdain. Ha! As if you don't do weird stuff in your own free time. I like the fantasy worlds I can build with cute little animal people being cute or cater to my dark side with werewolves and gore. It just appeals to me in too many ways for me to not love it. Plus, I'm a TF fan and there's literally no other fandom that would actually like to see that kind of art on a regular basis but furs. Whatever, furries are chill. I've never been a part of a nicer fandom. I'm sorry I've been neglecting my account. Real life has been really crazy lately.

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Ah ha ha, as if this was some sort of announcement to you guys. ATTENTION! This girl who has joined a furry art website two years ago and semi-actively kept up her account is in fact, a furry. No one is surprised.

Actually, I'm neck-deep in the final leg of my training for my chosen profession. It's sort of like an internship. I work 40+ hours a week at that and don't get paid, then I work a crappy retail job for an additional 12-23 hours a week. It's rough; but I'm making it out alright. Some of you know what I'm training to do, and those that do I'd like to ask that you don't spread it around. I don't consider my hobbies to be uncouth or something to be ashamed of, but my line of work is going to be pretty public and not everybody needs to know what I do in my spare time. (if you're curious, whoever even keeps up with me after a hiatus of this length, you can shoot me a pm, but it's not really that interesting)

Well, as it happens I've managed to get a sort-of boyfriend; sort of because he lives on the other side of the world from me currently and we only get the chance to speak on Skype. It's bizarre. I went to school with this guy all through grade school but we only connected recently when he was back in town briefly. I started talking to him because I was curious as to the sort of life he leads now and whether he was as weird as I remembered (thankfully yes!) and it went from there.

I wish I had my own apartment, which is currently still unfeasible, and probably won't be feasible until I get hired on somewhere, but I really wanted to get out of my parent's house by the end of the year. I feel like everything is in limbo right now and anything could happen. Hell, I might even travel out of the country to go see my beau, but that's not likely. I just wonder if for all of my bravado, all my talk of change and trying to inspire others to go for their dreams in the face of fear I can do it myself. I'm just panicking at the thought of maybe even letting the poor guy kiss me when he comes in. @_@ Could I let my tiny little world open up enough to do something risky and frivolous and grand like travel with him? Could I let myself go and be free? Would I ever let myself get over it if I don't take a chance here?

I haven't had much time for art lately, which is a complete shame, but I thought I'd upload some old sketches for anybody still watching just to let you know that I love you still out here on the other end of the internet. Thank you so much for reading if you did, and for checking up on your humble sketchbeast as she tries to move up in the world.