So, it's been a while since I've done a journal, at least one that isn't horribly depressing. Luckily, this one shouldn't be. I haven't been writing a ton, as most of you can clearly see. It's mainly been to a lack of real ideas and drive. That being said, when I do sit down and force myself to start something, the words seem to come very easily. I've just been busy with other hobbies that I've started this year.

For Flesh and Fur, I have a handful of ideas to try out, though I'm not entirely sure how to incorporate any kind of smut that would flow well into the story.
Those ideas are as follows:

-Eric and Sammy do some urban exploration inside an old roller rink she used to go to as a child. Winter time, snow falling through a semi collapsed roof, checking out the old, vandalized, dilapidated building, bringing back plenty of memories of her childhood, until they get busted by the police.

-Eric takes up a photography class, leading to the two of them taking a mini roadtrip along the rural outskirts of her hometown, stopping so he can take pictures, sometimes having the feline posing for a few snapshots. Stopping at gas stations for snacks, finding a scuzzy dive bar to pull into for dinner, before heading back to her basement for some lewds.

-Sammy's extended family comes to visit for a reunion at a public park. Eric tags along, getting to watch her handle a pair of preteen twins that are constantly crawling all over her and dealing with their hijinks. This one would most likely be a smut-free story.

-Sammy is devasted by a bad cold, leading Eric to care for her, while enjoying some naughty rewards once she's feeling better.

So far, that's all I've had in my head for F&F. Feel free to comment on which sounds the most appealing or posting some ideas of your own!

Turning to Physical Education, I really have no idea where to continue with that series. It's very difficult finding new ways to work with the characters that isn't just the same thing every single chapter. I have also been struggling with the extreme femdom the lynx tends to perform. The main issues are juggling all of the characters, thinking of having Bryce eventually falling for one to take the heat off of Holt, but that doesn't seem like it would work. As much as I would like to have him have some lewds with Peyton and Daphne, I haven't really figured out how to do so without having him being unfaithful to either of them, which I do not think his character would do. The only idea I've had for that would be having Bryce suffering a bad accident during class, nearly drowning during swimming class, and develops a fear of water, which the big cat will have to help him through, possibly promising him a chance to do whatever he'd like with her as a way of dangling a carrot at the end of the stick. That being said, there will be a new Halloween chapter being written and released in October as a direct continuation of the AU story I did last year, as well as a new piece of artwork! Again, I'm open to suggestions as far as the main series is concerned. People seem to like it and I don't want to see it truly ending.

Finally, I have thought of starting a separate mini series too. One that wouldn't have a massive story focus and length, but rather smaller, more contained shorts heavily focused on smut. Ideas are still fresh and I have talked about them with a few people. Basically, some guy, most likely a human, is a "photographer" doing amateur paw smut with random, willing participants he finds. A large variety of ladies and personalities, some very shy, while others are quite aggressive and into it, a ton of species, ages, and such. So far, the one I've been thinking about doing would see him wandering around a parking lot outside of a heavy metal concert, stumbling across a towering hyena decked out in boots, piercings, well I'm sure you people have seen what yeens look like, so basically that. He's sure she could use some extra cash for beer and booze, on top of how much a ticket had ran her. The photo session and videoing in the back of her truck goes fairly well, until her group of friends who have been hunting for her show up. More yeens, a Doberman, and maybe some rodent ladies. Gets lewd far quicker than he expects.

Anyway, figured I should give an update, since I'm very radio silent these days. I still try to respond to any comment, even if those replies can be days, weeks, or even months late at times. Sorry about that! Well, I think that just about covers everything. I shall now return to digitizing stacks of obscure VHS media. Have a good day!

I wish I could post a journal that isn't about the piece of shit that I call my life. My mom was sent to the hospital a few days before Christmas. She gradually improved and got discharged on Christmas. The next few days, she seemed better. Last night I hear her crying and yelling, like she was having a nightmare. I go in and ask what's wrong. Her eyes are wide open, staring at me. She kept yelling and didn't seem to be awake. I turn on the light and she seems to be somewhat coherent. She's had episodes where she nods off and honestly looks like someone that's on heroin from what I've seen online. This usually happens cause she carries too much Co2 in her lungs and needs a sleep apnea machine to get rid of it. It happens often enough that me and my dad are aware of what to do. She's gone to the ER many times when it's clear that something is very wrong. Well, this was different enough that I knew something was very very wrong. I call my dad, he drives home. She was talking gibberish and kept making odd movements with her arms. She then seemed to be awake and coherent when we were talking to her about what the hell is happening. After speaking clearly for about 10 seconds, her entire body coils up and she starts having a very violent seizure, which has never happened to her before. My dad was a paramedic and firefighter for like 10 years, so he was able to do what he could. All the color left her face, she went limp, started gurgling and was barely breathing. I thought she was dead. He's screaming her name, I'm calling 911, who were somehow busy. My call goes through, they send out police and medics who came like 5 minutes later. She was prescribed narcan cause she's had bad reactions with the Co2 issue and the drugs she's prescribed. We didn't know what was happening at the moment, so he gave her the narcan. Police and medics come, she gradually comes to, sort of. When she finally starts to be conscious, she starts breathing like a dying fish and starts thrashing and screaming. I've never seen something so fucked up before. Even when she was put in the ambulance, I could still hear her screaming from inside the house. She goes to the ER, I'm at home, texting the few friends I could at the hour, my dad is calling me and sobbing. Turns out the narcan went into her lungs, so they had to suck it out somehow. Right now, she's in a medical coma and on a respirator to breathe for her and we have no new information. I don't know what to expect anymore. If I wasn't home, she'd be dead. I don't know if she's going to ever be the same again. I really don't know. I feel I'll be her caretaker 24/7. We don't know if we should be expecting brain damage. I can't take this anymore. There is no more joy in my life. Every single year is just more shit on top of shit and nothing improves. I'm done with it. I see no reason to want to continue living if this is all my life is. I'm sick of it all. Nothing good is going to happen.

Well, things have gotten a bit better with things. Had to spent 8 hours by myself moving things out of my room, ripping up carpeting, cleaning and restoring the hardwood floor in my bedroom. Body is killing me, but at least it's done. Plumber is coming soon to fix up the sewer. The strangest event is that movie is being filled in my city and I just on as a paid extra, so that's pretty neat. Woo, some progress!

Halloween is sadly becoming my most hated holiday, instead of my favorite. Seems every year something horrible happens and this one was no exception. There was a lot of rain the last few days and the house was starting to suffer from signs of a clogged sewer line. On Halloween, the rain finally came to end. Despite no more rain, the toilet and bathtub began to violently overflow without warning. Dirty sewage water was spilling all over the floor, while the bathtub slowly started to fill up. Shut off the water on the toilet, but nothing worked. Had to dam off the door jam with towels, but not before it seeped into the hallway and into my bedroom. I was in hysterics, couldn't stop the water. Went into the basement where the sump pump is and discovered that the floor drain was bumbling with more sewage. The worst part was the water now leaking from the upper floor, which led to parts of the ceiling falling off. I was soaking wet, hysterical, screaming, and basically having a breakdown. Had to frantically push water out of the garage, so it wouldn't spill into the rest of the house. Thank God for my brother who showed up to open up the sewer line, which drained all the overflowing water, before anymore damage could be done. Nothing of significant value seems to have been lost yet. We had a plumber come and he went over 70 feet with a drain snake in the sewer line, but couldn't find the blockage, so it may be in the main sewer line. He comes back on Tuesday, but I'm not holding my breath that this will be an easy solution. After drying the upper floor, I saw I had a spot of water in my bedroom. Used a shopvac and sucked it up, thought nothing of it. Then I noticed that a box in my closet was ruined by water and discovered the water had entered further than I thought. Shampooed and cleaned the carpet and used bacteria and odor eliminating spray, but I'm still smelling it. Probably going to have to replace all my carpeting and hope the floor itself isn't ruined as well. Homeowner's insurance should hopefully help out, but again, I'm not holding my breath since nothing ever goes my way. Starting to once again realize why I hate living and how being happy just seems to make the universe give me a reminder of how shit things really are. Can use the toilet and shower very conservatively, until we discover what's wrong with the sewer line and I'm stuck sleeping in a room that has a heavy odor of literal sewage. Haven't slept well and haven't eaten much. Haven't had much that wasn't cigarettes and tequila. Until things are cleared up with insurance and my bedroom resembles its former self, I don't have much desire to do anything but sleep. Getting sick and tired of this shit. The fact that I have to think twice about even smiling or laughing without thinking that can only lead to more hell is a bad one.

I've been getting more and more commission requests, so I've decided to set up a page of all the rules and terms I have to avoid anymore confusion.

YES: These are things I'm completely happy with doing!

Feet, shoeplay, footgear worship.
Vanilla sex.
Incest.
Mild bondage.
Sounding.
Watersports.
Exhibitionism.
Female domination.
Slice of life.
Musk/sweat with certain restrictions (see in the NO section).
Excessive cum.
Ageplay.
If I've written it and it wasn't in a commission, I'll probably have no issues with it.

MAYBE: These are things I'm reluctant to do, since I'm not very good at it. If there's a major focus on any of these, the story price will usually fall into the category of Complex Story.

BDSM.
Mild abuse.
Trampling.
Hypnosis.
Group sex/orgies.
Noncon.
Sci-fi/fantasy.
Canons and series that I'm not familiar with.
Excessive tickling.

NO: These will not be done. Period.

Dirty feet. Smelly and sweaty is perfectly fine, but not covered in filth.
Certain adjectives to describe smells. "Cheesy" and "vinegary" are prime examples that are simply revolting to me.
Underage. Every character MUST be 18+. This also includes the anime trope of "10 million year old vampire that looks 5 years old".
Vore.
Absorption.
Scat.
Macro/micro.
Hyper anything.
Basically any kind of nasty bodily function.
Lactation/breast feeding.
Diapers.
Anything involving pregnancy.
Food.
Weight gain.
Muscle gain.
Birthing/unbirthing.

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If you are commissioning me for any kind of mature content, then you MUST BE 18+!

For best communication, I'd heavily advise anyone interested to make a Discord account!

Please, please, PLEASE, have your notes ready for what you'd like to have done!

I will ONLY accept Paypal. No exceptions.

I'm used to writing half of the story, sending over updates, at which point you'd send me the first half of the payment for the work done so far.

The rest of the payment will be required, before the final product is sent.

After the final product is given, only minor amounts of changes or extras may be requested. I will not deconstruct a story and completely ruin the flow of it, after it's been finished.

Refunds will be completely determined on the amount of time spent and writing done. If a commission is done, NO REFUND. If it's what I'd consider to be a minuscule amount, took very little time, or there was nothing done at all, then I will grant a full refund. If I need to cancel the commission for any reason, a refund will be given. If you decide to cancel the commission, a refund will be given based on how much has been started. Any refund is done at my discretion. This is not to be greedy, but to protect myself from being scammed.

I only want to take public commissions as well, which I will then upload on my profile, crediting you as well. You can do the same, as long as I'm given credit and linked. After all, I'm relying on them to garner interest in future commissions and watchers too!

The speed at which a commission is done, is completely based on how busy my schedule is. I will give you an idea of how long it should take, after I accept the commission.

I have the right to accept or reject any commission.

Last note I'd like to add. If the commission involves my OCs or is a sequel to one of my stories, I still retain creative control and have the final say! If I feel that something in the story is completely unreasonable, something my characters wouldn't do, or it drastically effects the canon, then I will politely refuse. ALL of my OCs are property of my own!

Whew. Really hope this doesn't put anybody off or make me look like a spoiled diva! I've only taken a few commissions so far, and they've gone very smooth. I'd like to keep that streak going! Don't want this to seem like a giant rant, but I'd just like to get all the details out, so there won't be any confusion!

It's been an absolutely shit month. First, my mother is taken to the Emergency Room for a bladder infection and other things that only added to her issue. Then on the way down, we get a call that my grandfather is being taken to the hospital as well. She gets taken into Intensive Care and my grandfather goes into surgery to drain a massive amount of fluid that built up inside of him. Meanwhile, we had family visiting from across the state for Father's Day, expecting a fun weekend, but ended up staying an extra two weeks, while my grandfather was transferred into a hospice with liver and kidney failure. Luckily, my mother was discharged and has fully recovered. We visited my grandfather everyday, watching him grow worse and worse, until he could barley even talk or even react to any kind of stimulus. He wasn't able to eat or keep down any kind of liquid, so they could only heavily medicate him to ensure he wasn't in any pain. Stress and emotion led to my mother and aunt having a fight, which led to my aunt storming out for a day and causing a pretty bad emotional breakdown between me and her. After they make up the day after, my grandfather finally passed away. He died only a day before the anniversary of my grandmother's death. Now, everyone is still reeling from the news and shock. As we're trying to plan his funeral, we discover that someone, probably a nurse, stole his wedding band. It's been one emotional roller-coaster after another. As of right now, there is no desire to write or do anything, until this all passes. Being constantly trapped between family and their constant drama and insulting each other the second one's back is turned is becoming too much to bear. Lot of cigarettes smoked and plenty of binge drinking can only do so much. God willing, this whole ordeal will be put behind me on Monday, at least I feel that things are stable once more, which then leads to getting sucker punched by more drama and bullshit the second I feel like I've actually gained the ability to smile again. Life is shit.

Finally get to have some fun this year with this! New story has been uploaded for all the foot lovers to enjoy, so have fun!

Jeez, that took WAAAAY longer than I thought it would have. Apologies for taking so long to finish the next chapter. Either been distracted, busy with something else, dealing with a bunch of personal bullshit, or just plain not in the proper mood to write. Would rather have a story that is properly made instead of one that's rushed and unsatisfactory. After forcing myself to sit down and write tonight, I added the last scene and another 15 pages, bringing the total up to 67 pages. It takes a fair bit of time to produce a chapter, so I hope everyone can understand that there will be some time (or sadly months in this case) between them. All I need to do now is the usual chore of creating a description, tags, custom thumbnail, and editing the text file so it will properly upload to FA, as well as general proofreading and adding in some finishing details. Either way, it'll be uploaded on Friday, come Hell or high water, it'll be done. Currently 3:30 in the morning, so I'm heading to bed.

Began to type up a rough outline of the flow of events for the next entry that will take place at the mall. Curious if my watchers have any ideas for what will happen next! So far, I plan for them to visit the shoe store as mentioned in the previous chapter. I have a few more locations planned, but don't really want to spoil anything just yet. So, if anyone has any ideas as to how Sammy can tease Eric or vice versa, I'd love to hear some! One of the things I will NOT be adding is any type of sizeplay, such as micro/macro stuff. Do not care for it, sadly. Keeping in tone with the previous chapters, foot play will be the main focus, along with some more "normal" lewd activities.

Hello! I have recently set up a Ko-Fi account to anyone that wishes to donate if you'd like to give a few bucks to support my writings. Anything is appreciated!

https://ko-fi.com/coconaut66