Please read the whole journal!

First of all, if you were part of the last list I did back awhile ago, I won't be able to draw ya. I want to give some others a chance.


Second, I want these commissions to be part of a scene. Doesn't have to be anything in particular, but I'm mainly trying to focus on backgrounds. So basically I want the background to be a focus in the picture. If that makes any sense :\

a max of 2 characters in a picture as well.


and only 4 slots open


*hugs*
Slot 1:  orangetabby106
Slot 2  babykitty_sierra
slot 3:  jimox1985
Slot 4 betowolf

well another year older now the big 2 4. (-2)+4 ;) hehe



nothing too exciting bout 24 :\

I will be updating this as I go


1.  shibayoshifuru onesie pic COMPLETED

2. sesamebun footed sleeper pic COMPLETED

3.  gus-the-hedgehog romper pic COMPLETED

4.  marcofox overalls pic COMPLETED

5.  s_kuma training pants pic COMPLETED


Please be patient I will be working on these when I get a chance *hugs*

1.  cubbruin COMPLETED

2.  chazor COMPLETED

3.  tigeris_tiger COMPLETED

4.  jeffy COMPLETED

5.  gus-the-hedgehog COMPLETED

I will update the status on these as fast as I can and will work on them when I get a chance.


Cody :)

Haven't done this in a looong time. I really wanna keep improving and wanna do some pics for other cubbies hehe ^^


There are only 5 spots open

just leave a comment to this journal saying u want one and then ill send one back saying ur on the list ^^

send me a note later with the pic details ^^




and....... GO! hehe ^^

just wanted everyones opinion. i have been feeling more comfortable with my art. I have never done a commission and I am just wondering how you guys feel about my art and please BE HONEST. I wanna know what you guys like and dislike about it.


I'm not starting commissions now or anything but I want some honest feedback. I was thinking of doing $5 commssions and wanted to knows if this seems reasonable and if there is interest out there.


Please let me know


Thanks

Cody :)

It's been 5 years now but I am finally done (I hope) I ve been in school for 5 years and finally gonna get my associate's degree in business administration: organizational leadership. Reason why it took so long is because I changed my major and degree a few times so a lot of the credits didn't transfer :\ I am also working full-time and was only able to take one class at a time. Any who I'm glad it's finally over. just waiting for the final grade now.

I do hope to draw again soon, but I've been having trouble getting in art mood or cubby mood. Padding up hasn't been doing it, watching cub movies, wearing my jammies, but I don't know just lately been having trouble. On vacation at the moment and gonna be going back to work on Monday unfortunately. Not really looking forward to that.

Thanks for reading and wish you all the best,

Cody

Well it's jus me n Tessie nows (my new kitten)

I have to admit this is A LOT harder than I thought. I'm only 20 minutes away from my parents, but this is still very hard. My mom was crying as we left my old driveway, but I sit here pretty tearful as I type this. I have been sheltered my whole life (23years) up until now. The longest I have ever spent away from home was 2 weeks so this is a pain and a type of excitement I've never felt before.

I know it will get easier as time goes on but this is pretty scary. I am so glad I have my kitty which was a house warming gift from my bro and his fiance. I named her "Tessie" after the red sox song ^^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6EIN3EeE78 She loves to snuggle and is sleeping in my lap as I type this. She is only 8 weeks old and I will post pics of her later. I know she gonna keep me company and I'm gonna do my best to take care of her and I love her so much already.

I really wish I had tomorrow off cause there still a lot to do around the apartment and just to get used to this independence stuff.

I will be drawing more soon I'm sure. I will be getting that art urge back with the silence around me.


Thanks for reading,


Cody

Havent posted a journal in awhile n figure I should.

Gonna be moving out on my own soon and getting my own bear cave hehe. I move out in 3 weeks and am feeling both excited and scared. Haven't been away from home for more than 2 weeks at a time ever in my life so this is going to be an experience. I feel comfortable enough at my job and financially that I'm ready to make the move, but I need to grow up in a sense and face life now no matter how scary it may be. I have been completely sheltered for 23 years now and it's time.

Haven't been doing any art for awhile. Just haven't been in the mood and have a lot of personal stuff going on in my life at the moment and hope to start once I'm in the mood again.

Other than that I haven't really been up to a whole lot just living one day at a time.


Thanks for reading and gives bolf hugs ^^.


Cody

FWA was an absolute blast. I had so much fun and I really feel I came out of my "shell" it was so cool to meet and hangout with other furs ^^ the fursuiters were aboslutely adorable and i would love to get one some day ^^

This was my first con ever and I was nervous at first, but it was so much fun. There were so many babyfurs that I met too and it was so cool to hang out with them ^^

The events were a blast. I especially liked the "are you a wearwolf game" tha was fun ^^ I gots a few commissions too ^^

While at FWA i really felt my puppy side come out. I am keeping my colors the same but i have a wide tail "kinda like a bunny's" and have rounded wolf ears, so its a bear/ wolf hybrid "bolf" <---- tavi came up with tha hehe ^^ and here's the link to a commission i got of my new fursona
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5439808

It was really tough leaving the con especially saying goodbye everyone. Sooooo much fun, it's just a shame it was so short, but until next time... "Arwoooo!!" ^^

I here at FWA wif my bro  greypupbw and my mate  KaGe13 hehe lil nervous its my first con, but if you here feel free to say hi n hug ^^

As of today, KaGe and I have been together for one year ^^

I have been trying to think of things all day of what to write about our one year anniversary, but all I have to say is...... I love you KaGe. The past year has truly been the best of my life. For as long as I have known you, you have been my go to person. I quickly felt some kind of a bond with you well before we were mates. I can talk to you about anything and nobody else has EVER made me feel that way.

I know we've had our tough times and I know we tend to butt heads on occasion, but those times are gonna happen, it's part of any healthy relationship. We have both learned how very very difficult long distance relationships can be as well.


I can't even begin to tell you how much you have changed my life, but all I can say is, I was never the kind of person to jump on a plane the next day just to see some one smile until I met you <3


There are so many things that I love about you, but what I love most is how you make me feel honeybear. I love how my heart feels when I see your name show up online, I love how my heart feels when I rest my head in your chest, I love how my heart feels standing right beside you (even as an arm rest) and I really love how my heart feels when your hand is in mine when we sleep side by side.


I love you so much KaGe,

Happy Anniversary <3 ^^

meh. Thats all i gotta say about that.


It was pretty good but not what i thought :\


hehe that is all.

ummmmmmm


ummmmmm

ummmmm
*blushes*


thas me

i finally admittin it




*runs and hides*

Barrowed from  tavimunk

STUFFS ABOUT YOU --

*Name: Cody Bear
*Nicknames: Cody, and teddybear ^^
*Zodiac Sign: whos that?
*Eye Color: Blue
*Hair color: Brown
*Height: 5' 9"
*Weight: 190
*Someone you look like: My mom says Matt Damon


*Right or Left Handed: Left
*Right or Left Footed: Right
*Sexual Orientation: Bi, but mostly gay
*Piercings/Tattoos:None
*How many siblings: 2
*Pets: 2
*Could you make a dollar in change right now?: yes

FAVORITE…
*Kind of pants: Feety pajamas ^^
*Number: 51
*Color: green
*Animal: bear
*Drink: Vanilla coke zero, and CHOCOLATE MILK!!!!
*Sports: Baseball, Tennis, and golf
*Juice: Pineapple Oranger Banana
*Cartoon Character: Kodah, Peter Griffin, and any of the carebears
*Scent: baby powder, coffee, and febreeze!!! *puts face on carpet* mmmmmm
*Time of the Day: in the morning when the grass is still wet ^^
*Car: Subaru wrx Sti, Noble M12, Nissan GT-R, 83' Stang, Lotus Esprit, ummm ummm, Porsches GT3 RS, *breathes deep*, Ferrari F40, Lamborghini Gallardo, Chevy Camaro SS '10, Aston Martin DBR9, Pagani Zonda F roadster, Noble M600...... *faints*

HAVE YOU EVER…?
*Bungee Jumped?: nope
*Sky Dived?: no
*Made yourself throw-up?: yes ummmm I was bored and put my finger on the back of my tongue...... oops
*Gone skinny dipping?: in my bathtub XD
*Eaten a dog?: NO!!!
*Ever liked somebody that you didn’t have a chance with?: no
*Been in a mosh-pit?: Yes
*Been on radio/television?: No
*Been in a porno?: no
*Been high?: no
*Been drunk?: Yes
*Been on a plane?: yes, lots n lots of times
*Came close to dying?: Yes..... a few times.
*Been in a sauna?: yes
*Been in a hot-tub?: yes
*Swam in the ocean?: yes
*Fallen asleep in school?: yes.... a lot...
*Run away?: for an hour when i was 8...
*Run-away from home?: no
*Fell off your chair?: every day XD
*Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call?: yes, does computer count too?
*Saved MSN/AIM conversations?: no
*Saved e-mails?: yes

DO YOU…?
*Like to eat?: nah........ ARE YOU KIDDING!!?? YEEESSSSS!!!
*Like talking on the phone? yes
*Care if different foods touch together on your plate?: not at all
*Get motion sick?: rarely
*Eat healthy?: i eat whats in front of me regardless of the nutritional value
*Have an addiction to anything?: yes (coffee)
*Call people names often?: only a few people ;)
*Dream in color?: yes and very weird dreams 0.0
*Have a strange/bad habit?: yes i begin to say something and halfway through i forget what im talking about.
*Get turned on easily? no
*Like your school/job?: yes and yes
*Like filling out stupidly-long surveys like this one?: some

WHAT IS/WHAT ARE…?
*Your good luck charm: the necklace my honeybear gave me ^^ i kiss it every time i start my day <3
*Your theme song: On My Way from Brother Bear
*The last thing you played with: XBOX 360
*The last thing you ate: pudding ^^
*Items sitting next to you: cell phone, controller, teddy bear, coke, and my laptop
*The color of your underwear: blue
*Your greatest fear(s): frogs, snakes, death, loneliness, speaking in public, waking up in a cold sweat.
*A strange food you eat: cottage cheese.......... WHAT!!??? i think its weird :P
*A strange drink you like: mushed up oreos and milk with choco syrup mmmmm
*The last thing to sleep in your bed: my doggy
*Under your bed: my notebook, clothes, probably my remote (cant find it) and ummmmm more stuff
*Your funniest memory: getting the wind knocked outta me when I gave KaGe a surprise visit ^^
*The time you usually go to bed: between 11:30pm-12:30PM usually

EVER HAD…
*Chicken pox: yes
*Stitches: 12 and 2 staples
*Surgery: nope
*A broken bone: yes, cheek bone
*Love at first sight: well, fell in love with KaGe, but when we first met in person, it sealed the deal when i melted where i stood <3

THIS OR THAT…
*Scary or Funny Movies: funny
*Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
*Root Beer or Dr.Pepper: root bear
*Skiing or Snowboarding: neither. hate em both
*Summer or Winter: definitely summer

RANDOM!!!
*Dogs or Cats: dogs
*Favorite Flower: todaisies XD Bruce Almighty hehe
*Have you ever fired a gun?: does a beebee gun count?
*Do you prefer travel by plane or car?: definitely car
*How many pillows do you sleep with?: 4
*Obsessive Compulsive?: not really, but i have routines ^^
*Diseases?: nope
*Disorders?: none
*Good Driver?: well IIIII think so :P nnnnffff
*Good Singer?: XDDDD *reads the question again* XDDD ummm hehe noo
*Do you own a lava-lamp?: i did til it fell over XD
*Do you prefer your toilet paper over-and-out or back-and-under: tilts head* huh? umm i don't notice this
*How many kids do you want?: idk not sure
*What will you name them?
*Bothered that some questions have “:”s and others have “?”s?: damnit now it does that u pointed it out!!!
*Ever been in a fight with your pet? yes i lost..... thas where 4 of my stitches came from :\
*What book are you reading now? none
*Interesting turn-on or fetish: diapers, cubbing out, and a certain sissy bear ;)
*First thing you notice visually about someone of the opposite gender: the way they dress.
*Foods that you LOVE: Lasagna, Burgers, coooookies, prime rib, ummm a lot of stuff
*That you HATE: scallops, mushrooms, asparagus.

Your idea of a traffic jam is 10 cars waiting to pass a tractor on the highway.
(Happens all the time in my townXD)

Vacation means going up north to Pittsburg for the weekend.

You measure distance in hours.
(yup yup)
You know several people that have hit deer more than once.
(my friend hit 3 deer in 2 days)
You often switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day and back again.
(Every single Day, heat in the morning and ac in the afternoon then heat at night XD)
You use a down comforter in the summer.

You drive at 65 mph through 2 feet of snow during a raging blizzard, without flinching.
(No Fear AWD Baby !! ^^)
You see people wearing hunting clothes at social events or church.
(reminds me of my night classes)
You install security lights on your house and garage and leave both unlocked.

You think of the major food groups as venison, cider, fish, and berries.

You carry jumper cables in your car and your mom knows how to use them.

There are 7 empty cars running in the parking lot at the Market at any given time.
(it amazes me how true this is)

Your Grammie's birthday party was in the town hall and the whole town showed up.

You design your kids Halloween costume to fit over their snowsuit.
no but my aunt did for my cousin XD)
Driving is better in winter because all the potholes are filled with snow.
(YES!!!!)
You know at least one person who has hit a moose.(My uncle)

You know all four seasons: almost winter, winter, still winter, and road construction. (and maybe a 5th -- mud!)
(OMG SOOOOO true)
(Or -- tourist, foliage, skiing and mud)

It takes you 3 hours to go to the store for milk even when you're in a hurry because you have to stop and talk to everyone in town.
(no but i work at a store and the same people are in the store for hours on end!!!)
Your uncle mows the town common.

You buy your Christmas presents at the feed and grain store.

You've pulled over to let a flock of wild turkeys (or pheasants) cross the road.
(and ducks and geese)

You define summer as three months of bad sledding.

Snow tires come standard on all your cars and trucks.
(mine did) ^^

You can't go barefoot until the snow is gone from the top of Mt. Moosilauke.

You refer to the Red sox as "we".
(hehe red sox nation)
You can identify a Massachusetts accent.
(everyone i work with)
You keep your potatoes and onions "down cella", and your canned goods on shelves in the "cella-way".

You know what cow-tipping is.
(doesn't work XD)

"Down South" to you means Boston.

You consider Manchester exotic.
(Manchvegas baby!!)

You can actually pronounce "Kancamagus" and know what it is.

You know what a bubbler is.
(slurp slurp ahhhh)

Your neighbor throws a party to celebrate his new machine shed.

You can recognize someone from Massachusetts from their driving.
(MASSHOLES!!!)
You drink soda and refer to your dad or grandpa as "Pop".


You ride your ski-doo to meet your friends at a restaurant for dinner, and that's how they get there too!

You can actually pronounce and spell "Winnipesauke".
(It's where people from Mass go to spend their money)
You know where Contoocook is, and how to pronounce it.

You can visit Berlin, New London, Bethlehem, Lisbon, Lebanon and Dublin all in one afternoon.

You only know three spices: salt, pepper, and ketchup.

You're proud of the only NH President, though he's not remembered for much.
(who was that again XD jk)
You've visited the homestead of Franklin Pierce, because he's the only President from New Hampshire.


You've seen mosquitoes with landing lights.

You visit a dunkin donuts more than once on any given car ride
(OMG Guilty!!!!)
The local paper covers major headlines on one page, but requires four pages for local sports.
(high school sports get the most pages)

At least twice a year, your kitchen doubles as a meat processing plant.

Your snow blower gets stuck on the roof.

You think the start of deer season is a national holiday.

you can score over a 90 in candlepin
(worst game ever XD)

You find 0 degrees a little chilly.
(come on 0 is nothing right?)
You actually understand these jokes, and you just cut, pasted, and forwarded them to all your New Hampshire friends!

As of today May 29th it will be  KaGe13 and I's 6 month anniversary
It's really been an amazing 6 months easily the best 6 months of my life. What I would like to do is break down the highlights of each month ^^


Month 1 (nov29-dec29)

Late Nov 29, 2009 KaGe had opened up to me. I had no idea how he felt about me until I could tell he was very nervous about something. He eventually told me what was on his mind and to my surprise it was him having similar feelings I had for him ^^

The first month has been our toughest month so far. KaGe opened up to his parents about himself and me and a visit we had planned for eachother, but things really did not go well. Not gonna get into specifics, but we were not able to talk for a good portion of our first month together. It was very very hard, but we stayed strong ^^

Month 2 (dec29-Jan29)

Once we were able to talk again this is really the month we really started to get to know one another. We spent many many nights on Skype together really getting comfortable with eachother and this is where our love really flourished ^^ Plus on Jan 28th we sent eachother brithday gifts for eachother. As twins ^^ we were both born on Jan 28th ^^ for real! hehe

Month 3 (Jan29-Feb29)

This month again we were gowing closer each day and like i mentioned earlier we had planned a trip. This trip was supposed to be on valentines weekend but it was cancelled. We planned for another trip at the beggining of March and this month was really a bunch of anticipating for our upcoming trip <3

Month 4 (Feb29-Mar29)

On March 4, 2010 at approximately 6:00PM it was the most significant moment of my life.  tavimunk and  ozziekitskunk let me stay at their apartment for the weekend. At that time I met my mate ^^ in real person. Got to nuzzle my nose deep into his chest for the first time. It was so amazing(cries as he types this) The few days we spent together were simply amazing. We bonded so well on every aspect. I have never felt so comfortable being around someone. We connected so well on every level especially on an emotional level. This month was the the month that I truly knew how much we loved each other and really felt our relationship hit another level <3.

Month 5 (Mar29-Apr29)

This month i did the dumbest, most stupid, impulse, but necessary thing of my entire life. Barely a month after i flew down to Georgia from NH I had to return. KaGe did not know about it, only me and everyone besides KaGe hehe ^^ KaGe had really been feeling down this month. I knew he was struggling and I wanted to help so bad. I needed to show him how special he was. Well on Monday April 5th i found out I had the weekend off (10t-11th) This is very rare in my work schedule and i kept thinking to myself "do it do it" I knew he needed me so i talked with  tavimunk and  ozziekitskunk and came up with a plan.

I purchase the last second tickets and flew down to Georgie once again in barely 5 weeks from last time. I knocked on the door at their appartment and Tavi pretend i was security and told KaGe the door was for him. My heart was pounding as KaGe opened the door and dropped his keys and mighta wet a little too hehe ^^ but he pretty much tackled me as he hugged me so hard. At that moment after all the doubts I had about coming down again i knew i made the right choice. We needed that weekend and it was another great weekend ^^

Month 6 (Apr29-May29)

This past month in all honesty has been a blur. We been keeping in contact mainly thru FA atm cause he back home from school. We both been really busy and staying strong. sending some love notes back and forth *blushes* hehe.

I apologize for the big journal but i had to do something special ^^

I love you so much KaGe and i really truly feel like its been so much longer than 6 months. You make me so happy and give my life so much meaning. I am so proud of who you are and proud to be mates with such a great person. *hugs n licks* I am so proud of us cause i know long distance relationships aren't easy and i think we doin a great job ^^

Thanks to all of our friends and bros supporting us. we love you guys so much *hugs all*


Codybear ^^

helloos,

my mate  KaGe13 is currently home for the summer and things are not going well at all. He is going through absolute hell. His parents are still unaccepting of his sexual orientation and believe that he will be going to hell if he chooses to live his life like this. *sniffles* He is doing his absolute best and I f***** hate not being able to do anything. I love him more than anything and I know I haven't spent much time with him in person but it just felt so right. The moments I have spent with him were the absolute best moments of my entire life. We are about to hit our 6 month mark in our relationship, but it feels like I've known him forever. The love I feel for him is a feeling I never knew was inside me. He is everything to me. I cant spend one freakn second without thinking or worrying about him. He is, and no exaggeration, my world.

The reason why i posted this journal was to please ask of you if you could pray for him. Also just give him support and send him a shout on his page. I know a lot of you care about him lots.


I'm sorry for all the emotion but its coming straight from my heart.


I love you so much KaGe and hang in there. We are all rooting for you!! <3



Codybear

One of my best friends is in the hospital at the moment and he's in very critical condition. He had a brain aneurism and the doctors do not know what caused it. He is 21 and the kind of aneurism he got is not something normally seen in someone this young.

His girlfriend called me this morning to let me know that he is in the hospital in intensive care. He was just watching TV and got a massive headache all of a sudden and his family rushed him to the ER.

He has been my friend for 13 years and I cant believe this has happened to him. He already had one surgery where they had to go up through an artery in his leg to his brain and this surgery did not go well. His girlfriend just texted me and they are going through his skull and directly to his brain tomorrow morning at 7.

I know you don't know him, but please please pray for him tonight. I know he needs all the help he can get.

Thanks,

Codybear

It was only last weekend when I decided to go back down to GA to see my mate  KaGe13 and  Tavimunk  ozziekitskunk

I'm not gonna go into reasons why I went down, but I followed my heart. I knew how crazy it was, I know how stupid it was, but I knew that my honey bear needed me this weekend and it was something that I had to do.

I talked with my parents about my decision. They thought I was crazy, they didnt think I should go, but they understood why I was going. I planned with Ozzie n Tavi to get KaGe to visit with them this weekend and I would visit them too and plan a big surprise for KaGe. I flew out Friday night after i gotta outta work and got into Atlanta about midnight. I drove down to Ozzie n Tavi's and got there around 2am and knocked at the door. Tavi answered and pretended I was security and I was there to talk to KaGe about his car. As I heard him coming my heart began racing and I was almost crying as he answered the door dropping his keys and his jaw on the floor. We hugged so hard and it was so special <3

The four of us had a really fun time all weekend. We all went to go see How to Train Your Dragon in 3D. An AWESOME!! movie btw ^^ we went out to dinner at Moe's very yummy ^^ KaGe and I went out for breakfast at Waffle House which was also very yummy ^^

All in all it was an amazing weekend got hang out with some of my bestest friends and my mate <3

I'm really feeling the two of us growing closer and closer each day. My love for him is getting stronger and deeper. Its so hard being thousands of miles away from him again and I know its gonna be a hard and tough road ahead, but I know in my heart that one day everything's gonna be ok.

Today was a day I will never forget at work. I am a manager trainee at a grocery store and it was a normal day. When all of a sudden they paged all managers to the front end.

I got over there and there was a woman on the ground. she was maybe 30 or 40 and her kids were in the carriage and they were maybe 2 and 5. There was a nurses aid that was fortunately shopping and she tended to the woman immediately as the store manager called an ambulance and the assistant store manager waited outside to direct the EMTs to the woman. I was clearing the area to make sure the woman had room.

It was so sad seeing her kids crying as their mom was laying on the ground lifeless and her face with no color. I tried talking to the kids and telling them everything was gonna be ok. The EMT's came and got her on oxygen right away and she did not have a pulse. They were not getting any response whatsoever from the woman. The Police came and took the kids as the ambulance took the woman to the hospital.

I couldn't stop thinking about it all day and seeing the look on her kids faces. It was so sad. I could barely hold myself together at work for the rest of the day. I've never witnessed something so horrific. I have no idea if the woman made it and I probably won't find out, but the way things were looking, I don't think she did

1. Who eats more?
Definitely Kage. He ate 2 chicken sandwiches before i could eat half of mine. However we eat ice cream equally fast :D but he's always hungry hehe

2. Who said “I love you” first?
We not sure but we think Kage did even though we both felt it the same <3

3. Who is the morning person?
*Blushes* ummm since Kage has to tell me to go to bed every night hehe. He's definitely the morning person

4. Who sings better?
since I don't know the words to many songs it would be pretty painful to hear me. Besides I like it when Kage sings <3

5. Who’s older?
Me by exactly one year. We have the same Bday ^^

6. Who’s smarter?
Kage is definitely smarter with school. we both pretty street smart too.

7. Whose temper is worse?
at work I can get pretty heated. Kage can get frustrated with golf, but it doesn't matter cause besides those things we very calm and all is well when we with each other ^^

8. Who does the laundry?
Kage does I don't even know how to *blushes*

9. Who does the dishes?
I do I do

10. Who sleeps on what side of the bed?
I sleep on the right and face left <3. He sleeps on the left and faces right <3

11. Whose feet are bigger?
Kage. He's a 15 and I'm an 11 1/2.

12. Whose hair is longer?
We both have pretty short fuzzy bear hair ^^

13. Who’s better with the computer?
I pretend to be ^^

14. Do you have pets?
I have a dog (Copper) and a cat (Dustin) he has a dog (Maggie)

15. Who pays the bills?
We pay our own bills ^^

16. Who cooks dinner?
I cook ^^ I made my honey bear French toast and I cook all the time at home ^^

17. Who drives when you are together?
He does. he'd be pretty cramped in my car. ^^

18. Who pays when you go out to dinner?
I do ^^

19. Who's the most stubborn?
We both pretty stubborn. I won't go to sleep a lot of the time. and he doesn't think he's cute hehe a lil help. isn't he so CUUUUTTEEE^^

20. Who is the first one to admit when they're wrong?
I admit it pretty quickly

21. Whose family do you see more?
He's such a sweetheart. He talked to my mom, my big bro, my bros fiance, and my dog ^^ and they all like him a lot.

22. Who named your pet?
I did actually. My dog Copper. He's a coon hound and I thought of Fox and the Hound

23. Who kissed who first?
Umm... *blushes* ummmmmm I couldn't hold it in any longer it was me *blushes*

24. Who asked who out?
he asked me out. He was very nervous and expressed his feelings for me and I had been feeling the same about him for a long time. It was an amazing night for the both of us <3 <3

25. What did you do on your first date?
We went to Chick Fil a and he stole one of my fries :( hehe its okie i still love him :D ill get him back ^^

26. Who's more sensitive?
*blushes* thas me I cry a lot. Although we both cried so much when he had to leave for his tournament. That was a really hard night after such an awesome weekend together.

27. Who's taller.
*grabs a ladder* ME!!! :D hehe jk hes 6'6.5" and I 5'9" Im up to his chest so i can nuzzle ^^

28. Who has more friends?
He does he's very popular ^^

29. Who has more siblings?
I do. I have 2 bros and he has one sister

30. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
Hehe well since he a cute sissy cub I wear the pants. (over my diaper of course ;) )

First of all. I need to thank munk n skunk  ozziekitskunk  tavimunk sooooo much for letting me stay with them this weekend.

I flew all the way from NH to Georgia. The trip was an adventure in itself because of the fact that my pilot flying from Manchester to detroit took ill. They had announced the flight was delayed for 3 hours or cancelled. This meant I'd be missing my connecting flight from detroit to Atlanta thus missing my honey bear  kage13 But halfn hour later they paged my name to the service desk and they transferred me to another airline and I was on my way.

I spent the first day and a half with my honeybear and getting to see his friends and school and stuff. Saturday I got to see him play golf and OMG eeeep. hehe he can fit living crap outta the ball. He went over the trees on a dog leg a few times ^^

I got to spend 2 awesome nights with my honey bear. It was the single greatest feeling in the world having his warm body next to me. Being able to actually snuggle with him and feeling his heart beating against mine is something that I had been wanting to experience for the longest time.

I dont even wanna really get into when we had to go our separate ways at the end, but lets just say it was hardest thing the both of us have ever had to do.

I love you so much honey bear and I loved every single second we spent with eachother. You are such an amazing person and I can't wait until we get to do this again honey bear. Thank you so much for introducing me to your friends and a part of your life. I hope they liked me. *kisses n hugs* I love you <3<3 and *hugs munk n skunk*. You guys are the best for lettn me stay here. it means so much to me

my bro  binki showed me this meme XD its awesome!!

1.) Put your media player of choice on shuffle.
2.) List the first fifteen songs that come up (skipping titles like "Fugue in D Minor") and add "in my pants" to the end.
3.) Bold the ones that actually made you laugh out loud.


1. Beat it in my pants
2.Rise today in my panys
3.Hole in my soul in my pants
4.My Jekyll doesnt hid in my pants
5.Bend and break in my pants
6.Perry mason in my pants
7.Dirty diana in my pants
8.shakin in my pants
9.all screwed up in my pants
10.watch the world in my pants
11.Truth in my pants
12.Rooster in my pants
13.rock your heart out in my pants
14.drum solo in my pants
15.under pressure in my pants

XD too funny hehe

I just wanted to let everyone know my twin bro, and mate  kage13 will probably be away for awhile, I have no idea how long. I'm not going into details as to why, but he's going through a lot of emotional pain right now.


I know a lot of you are good friends with  kage13 and he really needs your help.

Please leave some words of comfort in this journal for kage. I know its gonna mean A LOT to him knowing we are all pulling for him. *hugs* all

I love you honey bear. you are an amazing person. You make me so happy, each and every day. You're so strong. Stronger than I could ever hope to be. You're gonna be ok. *nuzzles* I'm praying for you every night praying for everything to be ok. I hope somehow some way you were able to smile for at least a little bit this holiday. I love you so much, I always will.


*Hugs you all and wishes you all a very merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.*