To my friends and watchers.
Posted 5 years agoHello all hope your all keeping safe during these troubling times were living in, this message is both a update and rally call to anyone who wants to hang out :3 so lets begin.
So the day before Christmas eve of last year i fell down my brother's apartment stair case (which are made of cement blocks on a metal frame) i do not remember what caused me to trip and slip but i fell the full flight and split the back of my skull open and was to the person who thankfully was walking there dog that night said i was laying unconscious in a pool of blood in front of blood covered stairs the woman who found me called 911 and even fallowed me to the hospital which im glad she did as i was not carrying my phone or wallet at the time of my fall so my options to get home were limited to none, When i woke up in the hospital i was hooked up to a blood bag and morphine tube i was informed by the doctor who was working on me that i had suffered a major cranial fracture and lost three pints of blood from my head alone and had to have 40 plus stitches to close the surface skin now this was a while ago now and i have made a near full recovery but this was yet another near death experience to add to a ever growing list, Fallowing that a few weeks later my fiancee of 3 years and girlfriend of 10 plus years broke off our engagement sighting issues in her life that made it hard to juggle me life and family so i agreed to break off the engagement for now which left me in a state of dismay but i've gotten over it we still talk and all that even if its only a few minutes a day, i recently was put up for a promotion within my store at little ceasers which as of writing this has been put on hold due to covid, i have been doodling at work trying to find the will to start drawing again but with my current medicine and lack of "inspiration" i have no drive to do so nor the time in the day or night to sit and draw a well done picture for one to two hours so to my watchers who expect art from me soon i'm sorry i am trying but i'm failing i miss doing requests and gifts for the people i love and admire so just keep bearing with me, i got a VR headset last year and a new pc this year after saving up a while to refit my old 16 year old computer meaning i can now start to do streaming for my gaming and finally become a twitch streamer like some of my friends.
now to rally! if anyone wants to hang out and game with me i have a discord set up and still working on it heres a list of games i'm currently playing on a daily basis send me a note if you'd like to get my info:
Mechwarrior 5 and mechwarrior online: As a member of the DSX unit im always on training and building better mechs so hit me up if your game to play some stompy bois
7 days to die: Currently based on the grindhouse servers i hop on 7 days to just unwind and blast zombies
Overwatch: trying to reach the pro level and maybe one day join my local pro team the houston outlaws
Conan exiles: recently got the game after wanting it for a while and would love to have some peeps to play with
Arma 3: because i like army games and role playing i often spend a few hours on here on the infantry side of things
Dead island: More zombie mayhem!
Monster hunter world: Mainly got it to play with my brother and his friends but as of late i have a long way to go to catch up to them lol
have a nice days to anyone who read this ^_^ hugs and kisses
So the day before Christmas eve of last year i fell down my brother's apartment stair case (which are made of cement blocks on a metal frame) i do not remember what caused me to trip and slip but i fell the full flight and split the back of my skull open and was to the person who thankfully was walking there dog that night said i was laying unconscious in a pool of blood in front of blood covered stairs the woman who found me called 911 and even fallowed me to the hospital which im glad she did as i was not carrying my phone or wallet at the time of my fall so my options to get home were limited to none, When i woke up in the hospital i was hooked up to a blood bag and morphine tube i was informed by the doctor who was working on me that i had suffered a major cranial fracture and lost three pints of blood from my head alone and had to have 40 plus stitches to close the surface skin now this was a while ago now and i have made a near full recovery but this was yet another near death experience to add to a ever growing list, Fallowing that a few weeks later my fiancee of 3 years and girlfriend of 10 plus years broke off our engagement sighting issues in her life that made it hard to juggle me life and family so i agreed to break off the engagement for now which left me in a state of dismay but i've gotten over it we still talk and all that even if its only a few minutes a day, i recently was put up for a promotion within my store at little ceasers which as of writing this has been put on hold due to covid, i have been doodling at work trying to find the will to start drawing again but with my current medicine and lack of "inspiration" i have no drive to do so nor the time in the day or night to sit and draw a well done picture for one to two hours so to my watchers who expect art from me soon i'm sorry i am trying but i'm failing i miss doing requests and gifts for the people i love and admire so just keep bearing with me, i got a VR headset last year and a new pc this year after saving up a while to refit my old 16 year old computer meaning i can now start to do streaming for my gaming and finally become a twitch streamer like some of my friends.
now to rally! if anyone wants to hang out and game with me i have a discord set up and still working on it heres a list of games i'm currently playing on a daily basis send me a note if you'd like to get my info:
Mechwarrior 5 and mechwarrior online: As a member of the DSX unit im always on training and building better mechs so hit me up if your game to play some stompy bois
7 days to die: Currently based on the grindhouse servers i hop on 7 days to just unwind and blast zombies
Overwatch: trying to reach the pro level and maybe one day join my local pro team the houston outlaws
Conan exiles: recently got the game after wanting it for a while and would love to have some peeps to play with
Arma 3: because i like army games and role playing i often spend a few hours on here on the infantry side of things
Dead island: More zombie mayhem!
Monster hunter world: Mainly got it to play with my brother and his friends but as of late i have a long way to go to catch up to them lol
have a nice days to anyone who read this ^_^ hugs and kisses
Back from jail
Posted 7 years agoSo i was arrested in 2017 and now im finally back but not quite back to drawing yet still getting my legs back but to my friends and family im back
Pick-A-pose: YCH made EZ
Posted 9 years agoStepping back into drawing after making a wider decision on how i do my work and my stance working on FA, If your reading this your probably here from one of the many YCH I've been/will/am posting.
All YCH's are merely rough draft your finished product will be like most of my last recent works(see my page), All customers get the manga/anime treatment, Diaper related art Is done clean if you want it any other way add 5$ to your total depending on type your looking for. Ref Are needed and some details may apply.
All art and poses can be HUMAN OR FURRY.
Simple enough see the bottom of the fallowing link for paying (ignore the names having issue with paypal) http://the-foxy-bakery.tumblr.com/
Line art: color of choice, your character done using picked pose.
Colored Art: Your character done in color to the selected pose, applied detail info.
Pathfinder & D&D print size: for use with http://charactersheets.minotaur.cc/
flat prices quick turn over:
Line art: 10$
Colored: 15$
Badges: 5$
All YCH's are merely rough draft your finished product will be like most of my last recent works(see my page), All customers get the manga/anime treatment, Diaper related art Is done clean if you want it any other way add 5$ to your total depending on type your looking for. Ref Are needed and some details may apply.
All art and poses can be HUMAN OR FURRY.
Simple enough see the bottom of the fallowing link for paying (ignore the names having issue with paypal) http://the-foxy-bakery.tumblr.com/
Line art: color of choice, your character done using picked pose.
Colored Art: Your character done in color to the selected pose, applied detail info.
Pathfinder & D&D print size: for use with http://charactersheets.minotaur.cc/
flat prices quick turn over:
Line art: 10$
Colored: 15$
Badges: 5$
Fed up just flat out fed up.
Posted 11 years agoHello everyone hope reading this won't put anyone out of place but due to recent alterations in my life i feel i should update my base of watchers, I am making a important decision that has been debated by a small few and as of writing this i am retiring from putting art on FA, To the two request holders i currently have i will get them done when i'm able.
Without to much detail life is shit, With detail this has been coming in fairness I'll be posting my art to a friends Fur tumbler as a filler artist in the future, This is not the only reason but its the one i feel i should post here, I'm not leaving FA just not gonna be a artist anymore but i will be writing and yes art will fallow with my story's only because i do that kinda shit, But i won't be putting anymore blood and tears into art that just gets drowned in cocks and trannys.
I'm only gonna linger on FA because i have met some few friends and artists who i truly wish to see and watch grow.
*hangs up his tablet and places his pen between his ear* Ladies and gents have nice day see you in them fancy word books.
Without to much detail life is shit, With detail this has been coming in fairness I'll be posting my art to a friends Fur tumbler as a filler artist in the future, This is not the only reason but its the one i feel i should post here, I'm not leaving FA just not gonna be a artist anymore but i will be writing and yes art will fallow with my story's only because i do that kinda shit, But i won't be putting anymore blood and tears into art that just gets drowned in cocks and trannys.
I'm only gonna linger on FA because i have met some few friends and artists who i truly wish to see and watch grow.
*hangs up his tablet and places his pen between his ear* Ladies and gents have nice day see you in them fancy word books.
So a rawr and a woot
Posted 11 years agohello all just my massage of return ill be back to muh normal high jinks now, got a bit of fluid build up in my wrist but thats going away, shoulders finally resetting into the non hurting spot or the bone chips got stuck again either way not as much pain as before and i can slowly get off the pain killers lol.
but anywhozzle if your reading this im stepping out to enjoy the rest of the lovely day (not a gray and stormy day but nice all the same)
try and have a good day and evening everyone, A slighty better CFF.
but anywhozzle if your reading this im stepping out to enjoy the rest of the lovely day (not a gray and stormy day but nice all the same)
try and have a good day and evening everyone, A slighty better CFF.
the good, the bad. the totally screwed. (CFF update)
Posted 11 years agosooooOOOOoo....im back kinda i got the tablet working after a few weeks of fiddling with the new comps parts and drivers so thats the good news art will start showing up again.
now the bad news i currently have my right arm (my good arm mind you guys) in a sling because at this time i have no idea how my arm came to get this bad so be heading to doctor today and get a xray or something.
having not slept in peace for a week is killing me compounded with the fact my arm is basically out of it socket by half a inch im starting to unravel what lil sanity i have left.
again though tablets fixed now i just need to fix myself again... be safe everyone.
fyi hard to type shit out with your bad paw...
now the bad news i currently have my right arm (my good arm mind you guys) in a sling because at this time i have no idea how my arm came to get this bad so be heading to doctor today and get a xray or something.
having not slept in peace for a week is killing me compounded with the fact my arm is basically out of it socket by half a inch im starting to unravel what lil sanity i have left.
again though tablets fixed now i just need to fix myself again... be safe everyone.
fyi hard to type shit out with your bad paw...
decommissioned. *crys*
Posted 11 years agoas of right now im shut down due to my new comps fucking shit sucking OS im being forced to stop drawing due to my tablets unresponsiveness to the comp.
If anyone of you out there knows a artist who uses a wacom bamboo and they have windows 7 plaese tell them to contact me im losing my fucking mind! *crys in the corner clutching his tablet*
If anyone of you out there knows a artist who uses a wacom bamboo and they have windows 7 plaese tell them to contact me im losing my fucking mind! *crys in the corner clutching his tablet*
to the requesters and watchers
Posted 11 years agohad my second tooth pull and will be out for a few days to a week or so, please be patient with me as i try and regroup from the teeth jack hammer....
be safe everyone ill see you soons
be safe everyone ill see you soons
Fundraiser: Sigma's ate (Well four)
Posted 11 years agoHey everyone Starting my fundraiser in hopes of getting tooth extracting money so i don't have to take out loans that i can't pay off, please Send this out to your friends telling to them tell there friends and so fourth because its not gonna matter about this last one if my whole lower jaw throbs every second with stinging horrid agony.
[my tos: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5584316/ ]
Anyways this will be a auction for 2 - 3 days or till the max is met on the pieces.
Tied, Diapered, Cribbed: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14014891/ (light bondage, diapers): currently at 15$ (omg!)
bathing hottie: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14014977/ (sunbathing pose, large breasts, diaper, non-diaper): still at starting bid
you've got a friend...in chains: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14015068/ (suspended baodnage, chains, diaper, non-diaper): still at starting bid
what you can expect of my paws,
Examples for work:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12916484/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12956795/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13092383/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13102646/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13084669/
I'm hoping to at lest pull a little something together anything helps literally so if you guys would share this so i can maybe cover more lands and eyes? don't have to just asking for help.
[my tos: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5584316/ ]
Anyways this will be a auction for 2 - 3 days or till the max is met on the pieces.
Tied, Diapered, Cribbed: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14014891/ (light bondage, diapers): currently at 15$ (omg!)
bathing hottie: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14014977/ (sunbathing pose, large breasts, diaper, non-diaper): still at starting bid
you've got a friend...in chains: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14015068/ (suspended baodnage, chains, diaper, non-diaper): still at starting bid
what you can expect of my paws,
Examples for work:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12916484/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12956795/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13092383/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13102646/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13084669/
I'm hoping to at lest pull a little something together anything helps literally so if you guys would share this so i can maybe cover more lands and eyes? don't have to just asking for help.
Fundriser female YCH's
Posted 11 years agoSo my recent tooth pull is passing but just as soon as its getting better my other is now flaring up to my horror, I'm currently (like normal) tapped for funds to get my next one taken out so i thought i'd try and do three adult-ish female YCH's auctions to maybe get a bit of backing for the next 230$ extraction and i wanted you guys who watch me to do me a favor once i get my YCH pieces to put up and made into a real journal with more info and blah to ask around your friends and see if there in the market for something.
the fallowing are the three YCH im thinking of doing:
Tied, Diapered, Cribed. (light bondage, diapers) [finished]
bathing hotie (sunbathing pose, large breasts, diaper, non-diaper)
you'v got a friend...in chains (suspended baodnage, chains, diaper, non-diaper)
so yah trying to get a little help so i can get back to eating like a fox again :< so when yall see my "YCH now open!" kinda sent out a few flyers ^^;;
please and thank you friends & watchers
the fallowing are the three YCH im thinking of doing:
Tied, Diapered, Cribed. (light bondage, diapers) [finished]
bathing hotie (sunbathing pose, large breasts, diaper, non-diaper)
you'v got a friend...in chains (suspended baodnage, chains, diaper, non-diaper)
so yah trying to get a little help so i can get back to eating like a fox again :< so when yall see my "YCH now open!" kinda sent out a few flyers ^^;;
please and thank you friends & watchers
Welp its times like theses...
Posted 11 years agoi say let them go...so not sure if anyone noticed but i'v been gone and pop on rarely at this time to upload say my old music to at lest show im still alive, well still healing a deep tissue bruise in my hand so really been a feat to draw right and having a request not finished some of my watchers seem to have just up and vanished o.o but im not mad sad or glad just wow i'm sure i know the real reason and its not to shocking if im right its just a real kick to the fuzzys if its true.
But to you the watchers reading i hope you stay and enjoy viewing me as i progress onward and know that i value everyone who has given me there viewership, Thats all for now please have a lovely morning/afternoon/evening/night from CFF.
But to you the watchers reading i hope you stay and enjoy viewing me as i progress onward and know that i value everyone who has given me there viewership, Thats all for now please have a lovely morning/afternoon/evening/night from CFF.
update (getting well8
Posted 11 years agohands are better just now getting over a bad teeth mishap and am going to work on the stuff i have on hold guys plz bear with with me
Was up for good fun (first date and first of '14 japan fest)
Posted 11 years agoGot to go on my first date in nearly 8 some odd years(its really more i just cant remember when my loneliness started anymore" and it did go well not great but well enough to say the girl i fancy does not think im crazy as i seem and did get the ok for date two if i can not act "funny" which is madness i was only acting funny because i haven't been one on one with a woman so long its hard to just remember how to act normal.
Watched the cosplay drag show(was sub par in my mind but i couldnt bitch i was late for sign ups) drank a shit ton of sake beer danced like a dink but then it happened....i finely got to bust out my break-dance moves ^~^ i had the white and black boys with TOOONS of girls around going OOOO! the song flicked to daft punk's get lucky and after about 2 guys breakin i thought screw them i'm ninja flipping this party jumped right in a busted it konoha style i spun so fast my cosplay kunai went flying out of my hip bag xD
got to see mr.bunny and his tiny little brother the Herman park rabbit along with being complimented on my konoha flak vest ^~^ i'm looking foreword to tomorrow if i can walk....
Love your lil fluffywuzzle Kit, RAWR!.
Watched the cosplay drag show(was sub par in my mind but i couldnt bitch i was late for sign ups) drank a shit ton of sake beer danced like a dink but then it happened....i finely got to bust out my break-dance moves ^~^ i had the white and black boys with TOOONS of girls around going OOOO! the song flicked to daft punk's get lucky and after about 2 guys breakin i thought screw them i'm ninja flipping this party jumped right in a busted it konoha style i spun so fast my cosplay kunai went flying out of my hip bag xD
got to see mr.bunny and his tiny little brother the Herman park rabbit along with being complimented on my konoha flak vest ^~^ i'm looking foreword to tomorrow if i can walk....
Love your lil fluffywuzzle Kit, RAWR!.
The current Projects! go ninjas go ninjas go!
Posted 11 years agoHEEEEEEEEEEY! hey everyone just thought i make a journal entry on my current projects and my thoughts and feeling about them.
Shinobi sentinel: As of today the story process has started and i have some pictures done mostly dealing with me and Scottishraptor's characters going from friends to rivals for the bad reasons to friends and rivals for the betterment of there skills and techniques, Im really really happy about everyone who agreed to join in and give me a paw even if it is just having the Fursona's transposed into a naruto world i mean i had this large dread that no one would be willing to let there sona be used but i was wrong very very wrong and i love you all very much for it *crinkles under his ninja clothes*.
thank you raptor (many hugs and kisses)
thank you luna (a big huge hug!!)
thank you Obito (*respectful bow to his fellow anbu*)
thank you kimmy (massive cuddles to this Canadian sweet heart)
More range of species to draw: I honesty feel bad about not having a wider range of animals to draw and i know its normal to start with what were good at but its still a tender area to a artist like me who wants to be able to draw everyone he meets ^~^;;; i'v been working on dragons and cats and have had a little bit of success with dragons even tho your standard dragon has a larger scale of detail then a fox and a fox has a higher level then a cat, I'm staying positive ^~^
Commissions requests and trade: im doing it yes im doing commissions for badge and tag art only right now i dont wonna get to over my head so please ^~^ if you would like a new badge you can print out and stick into your common id badge holders, i will do requests and trades to idea and projects that are not beyond me and praying im not bombarded by requests and hoping that a few other artist may want to try a trade.
as i near the 100 watcher marker i wanna hear from you guys before hand what should my 100 watcher picture be? cute? serious? diapers no diapers? im opening the floor for the picture you will all drive me to make ^~^
Best wishes to everyone whos watching and reading ^~^ i love you much and thank you for your time and attention because without you guys there's really no reason to draw for fun when there's no one to enjoy it with you *hugs everyone who he's met so far*
Shinobi sentinel: As of today the story process has started and i have some pictures done mostly dealing with me and Scottishraptor's characters going from friends to rivals for the bad reasons to friends and rivals for the betterment of there skills and techniques, Im really really happy about everyone who agreed to join in and give me a paw even if it is just having the Fursona's transposed into a naruto world i mean i had this large dread that no one would be willing to let there sona be used but i was wrong very very wrong and i love you all very much for it *crinkles under his ninja clothes*.
thank you raptor (many hugs and kisses)
thank you luna (a big huge hug!!)
thank you Obito (*respectful bow to his fellow anbu*)
thank you kimmy (massive cuddles to this Canadian sweet heart)
More range of species to draw: I honesty feel bad about not having a wider range of animals to draw and i know its normal to start with what were good at but its still a tender area to a artist like me who wants to be able to draw everyone he meets ^~^;;; i'v been working on dragons and cats and have had a little bit of success with dragons even tho your standard dragon has a larger scale of detail then a fox and a fox has a higher level then a cat, I'm staying positive ^~^
Commissions requests and trade: im doing it yes im doing commissions for badge and tag art only right now i dont wonna get to over my head so please ^~^ if you would like a new badge you can print out and stick into your common id badge holders, i will do requests and trades to idea and projects that are not beyond me and praying im not bombarded by requests and hoping that a few other artist may want to try a trade.
as i near the 100 watcher marker i wanna hear from you guys before hand what should my 100 watcher picture be? cute? serious? diapers no diapers? im opening the floor for the picture you will all drive me to make ^~^
Best wishes to everyone whos watching and reading ^~^ i love you much and thank you for your time and attention because without you guys there's really no reason to draw for fun when there's no one to enjoy it with you *hugs everyone who he's met so far*
CFFox's TOS for commissions
Posted 11 years agoSimple rules and agreements. Will be updated as it develops
I reserve the right to place any and all commissions i do on my page.
When commissioning you well get update snaps of your piece if the time to draw it has taken longer then expected, You will receive a brief preview of your piece before you pay to insure quality and error control.
Finished pieces will be placed on a safe photobucket page for pick up.
first and foremost I'm a rather TV 14 person for my art but i have a far reaching limit (maybe not that far but far enough lol).
I have limits to what i will and wont do i cant really think of them all so if i say no to your piece you want just pick/think of something else and just deal with it but the bare bones are:
Wont do:
Anything having anything to do with watersports
Messy diapers
vore
vomiting and its subgroup
rape and its subgroups
anything with herms, male gays(in a PG context i would be happy to draw two dudes together), dumb freak show drawings(they know who they are...), Anything having to do this she-male boy-girl shit(pick a organ and stick with it).
The Strange, anything that i find wrong (again i cant recall ALL the things i dislike drawing )
Will do.
Sex
diapers
wet diapers
lesbians
babyfurs
gore (battle gore, story related art violence)
death (death of evil never death of cute or innocent things)
ponys (maaay look a bit wonky)
light bondage
What i can't do (i dont have the techniques to produce)
real muscles
inflating
birds
most feral anatomy (dogs and foxes are really my domain)
Payment:
all payments through paypal at this time.
The No Time wasted claws:
Be aware that if you do not like how your picture came out and wont pay the piece will be stripped back down to line art and the main character features will be removed and the ladder will be stored for another piece as stock body (as it stands heads tails and color define most normal furs unless drawn say with mech paws or robo chicken feet etc etc, those parts would be removed as well) drawing puts a bit of strain on my brain and for someone to commission and not want something is time theft so that is why this claw stands.
I reserve the right to place any and all commissions i do on my page.
When commissioning you well get update snaps of your piece if the time to draw it has taken longer then expected, You will receive a brief preview of your piece before you pay to insure quality and error control.
Finished pieces will be placed on a safe photobucket page for pick up.
first and foremost I'm a rather TV 14 person for my art but i have a far reaching limit (maybe not that far but far enough lol).
I have limits to what i will and wont do i cant really think of them all so if i say no to your piece you want just pick/think of something else and just deal with it but the bare bones are:
Wont do:
Anything having anything to do with watersports
Messy diapers
vore
vomiting and its subgroup
rape and its subgroups
anything with herms, male gays(in a PG context i would be happy to draw two dudes together), dumb freak show drawings(they know who they are...), Anything having to do this she-male boy-girl shit(pick a organ and stick with it).
The Strange, anything that i find wrong (again i cant recall ALL the things i dislike drawing )
Will do.
Sex
diapers
wet diapers
lesbians
babyfurs
gore (battle gore, story related art violence)
death (death of evil never death of cute or innocent things)
ponys (maaay look a bit wonky)
light bondage
What i can't do (i dont have the techniques to produce)
real muscles
inflating
birds
most feral anatomy (dogs and foxes are really my domain)
Payment:
all payments through paypal at this time.
The No Time wasted claws:
Be aware that if you do not like how your picture came out and wont pay the piece will be stripped back down to line art and the main character features will be removed and the ladder will be stored for another piece as stock body (as it stands heads tails and color define most normal furs unless drawn say with mech paws or robo chicken feet etc etc, those parts would be removed as well) drawing puts a bit of strain on my brain and for someone to commission and not want something is time theft so that is why this claw stands.
Two days of artistic blunting. one burning question...
Posted 11 years agowell the past two day i have sat down and really practiced and devoted hours to working annnnd i do think im getting better just i dont think my artist type fits just yet, what do you all think? keep Anthro Artist or switch back the manga artist?
welps....
off to be in secondlife then to the massive death of braincells we call arma 2
welps....
off to be in secondlife then to the massive death of braincells we call arma 2
retro monday is moon walkin to the past
Posted 12 years agotomorrow im gonna be doing a upload every few hours from a newly uncovered cd of old scans of mine and i wanted to share my paper works with the few who enjoy my tablet art ^^ see you guys and gals monday
head through walls and sore paws.
Posted 12 years agobeen a long time since my last update and sadly i have scrap a LOT of projects due to mental issues and a bit of depression have to wait to do day labor till the heat gos down. but as of late because and i know this silly but I've hit a wall i feel in the back of my mind I've done it i proved to myself i can draw and have a standard but that's crap cause i know i can only get better.
this journal comes in the wake of a failed drug trial i did two days ago in which i ate three quarter of the highest dose of adderall you can have and i was quite literally felt great my ADHD was honed to a fine point but at the same time i felt like i was decaying or as i put it to my mother "I can feel all my fluids moving but there are places just not moving" now take those feelings and add two day of no sleep no naps near no food or signal to eat anything then pour some rage on top and you have one highly erratic Fox and in my state of mind i got so upset that *don't really wanna go into what set me off* without any warning i Slammed my head face first into the wall *with all the force i could deliver with my head and remember i have neck problems peeps* put a hole into it and then stormed to my little home and started rapidly punching my door which has a steel inner and outer cover and dented it!
Now i felt bad today and still do but something odd has been at work because i was asking and remarking to a few friends that i could not get a job with a face tattoo well oddly enough when i woke up this morning and looked into the mirror i saw cuts from the wall headbutt and marveled that it looks almost like the tattoo i was talking about in past tense and as of right now i have a slightly shattered knuckles *well enough to type in 79 second intervals*, two curved cut marks above my left eye that ARE going to scar over and one bad goddamn headache but i kinda now have the markings I've always wanted over one eye so wooo i guess.
As of my art.....well ladies and gentlemen as of tomorrow i will try to place something on my submissions be it another short story or a little doodle but its been hard to draw its not a block it more like my happy sparks been over shadowed by the depression i mean i had the feeling the urge to draw but every time i tried i just couldn't understand why all my pieces looked or were totally awful to the eyes and this was coming from the urge to draw somehow i feel that putting my art here was a mistake i mean i haven't gotten a single real criticism to help me its like am i good enough that no one sees faults with my work? or is it that i'm so under the radar that no one really sees my work unless it night time and everyone who is still awake and bored see a piece of mine that wasn't knocked off front page by fucked up freaky porn images and makes a nice comment about it. This is in no way a diss to FA i love this site and have before i ever got a real account i kinda just buzzed around it but it's like hmm...why the fuck should i even try?
So we come to the end of this entry with a heart felt thank you to two lovely furs who really helped push me even if they don't realize it but fillrethefox and falconfox. Thank you very very very much thank you to fillrethefox who remarked at my foxy fio drawing and a huge thank you to falconfox for his shock at the gift i made for him, if i could hug them both in real life i would in a heart beat.
So in closing i am not fine i am having a inner conflict that is toppling what some bit of sanity i still have left i feel usless because i can't go work with the agency i use to get day jobs till the colder winter mouths and i wanna just walk out my home one morning with my tactical vest katana and Winchester 22 and kill every moving human being in a five mile zone.
May your days fallow in peaceful joy gods only know what may happen. good night Ladies and gents.
Signed in awful paw pain, The CFF Kit.
this journal comes in the wake of a failed drug trial i did two days ago in which i ate three quarter of the highest dose of adderall you can have and i was quite literally felt great my ADHD was honed to a fine point but at the same time i felt like i was decaying or as i put it to my mother "I can feel all my fluids moving but there are places just not moving" now take those feelings and add two day of no sleep no naps near no food or signal to eat anything then pour some rage on top and you have one highly erratic Fox and in my state of mind i got so upset that *don't really wanna go into what set me off* without any warning i Slammed my head face first into the wall *with all the force i could deliver with my head and remember i have neck problems peeps* put a hole into it and then stormed to my little home and started rapidly punching my door which has a steel inner and outer cover and dented it!
Now i felt bad today and still do but something odd has been at work because i was asking and remarking to a few friends that i could not get a job with a face tattoo well oddly enough when i woke up this morning and looked into the mirror i saw cuts from the wall headbutt and marveled that it looks almost like the tattoo i was talking about in past tense and as of right now i have a slightly shattered knuckles *well enough to type in 79 second intervals*, two curved cut marks above my left eye that ARE going to scar over and one bad goddamn headache but i kinda now have the markings I've always wanted over one eye so wooo i guess.
As of my art.....well ladies and gentlemen as of tomorrow i will try to place something on my submissions be it another short story or a little doodle but its been hard to draw its not a block it more like my happy sparks been over shadowed by the depression i mean i had the feeling the urge to draw but every time i tried i just couldn't understand why all my pieces looked or were totally awful to the eyes and this was coming from the urge to draw somehow i feel that putting my art here was a mistake i mean i haven't gotten a single real criticism to help me its like am i good enough that no one sees faults with my work? or is it that i'm so under the radar that no one really sees my work unless it night time and everyone who is still awake and bored see a piece of mine that wasn't knocked off front page by fucked up freaky porn images and makes a nice comment about it. This is in no way a diss to FA i love this site and have before i ever got a real account i kinda just buzzed around it but it's like hmm...why the fuck should i even try?
So we come to the end of this entry with a heart felt thank you to two lovely furs who really helped push me even if they don't realize it but fillrethefox and falconfox. Thank you very very very much thank you to fillrethefox who remarked at my foxy fio drawing and a huge thank you to falconfox for his shock at the gift i made for him, if i could hug them both in real life i would in a heart beat.
So in closing i am not fine i am having a inner conflict that is toppling what some bit of sanity i still have left i feel usless because i can't go work with the agency i use to get day jobs till the colder winter mouths and i wanna just walk out my home one morning with my tactical vest katana and Winchester 22 and kill every moving human being in a five mile zone.
May your days fallow in peaceful joy gods only know what may happen. good night Ladies and gents.
Signed in awful paw pain, The CFF Kit.
CFF's Super awesome update!(Art project & personal comments)
Posted 13 years agoGreetings! close friends and watchers alike it's me again coming at ya with kick ass news! Recently my secondlife sister gave me something before my weekend trip to my friends house and what she gave my was basically my artistic freedom back so now I'm back at full force and on this coming Tuesday i intend to unveil my latest project (or projects :3) until then I'll be in my Den of Eccentricity for the night and the morn of the future.
Recently figured out that even though my car related injures and knee damage keeps me in pain i can still run in fast short bursts that give me the feeling of basically gliding over terrain but of course if i trip i take very hard spills at high speed or if i fail to listen to my brain and body i just end up putting myself down hard however i feel that if my were in danger i can escape despite my lack of bodily health. Note: two car wracks have left me in between healthy and disabled which...sucks major ass...
The gayest thing I've said in the new year and i want friends and family to make note of this, Context: Was discussing dinner plans stating i needed something soft cause of my busted teeth and fangs and i suggested hamburgers or anything with a meat course but then came this and I'm quoted lol "Where ever there's meat to eat I'll be there!" the minute it came out i twisted my own context straight into the gutter.
Also i now have my net back at my home so now i can finely update my profile the right way and put who and what i am lol.
Kit's very personal comments.
Killing the human within: Some may not know this so I'll let everyone know now, I Hate my human body dislike it to the point that i no longer consider myself a member of the human race or mankind(been that way since my what some would call "awakening"), i never wanted this but i have to live with the actions of past lives (yes that's part of my belief system) and so i have since nearly given up showers to let my musk surround me and eat food that doesn't need a fork i eat my steaks with my hands (in private) as wall as howling at the moon when the sky permits it and that is the small things that i do haha. The mass majority of mankind can kiss my hairy ass but that small pocket of humans who are not morons and understand persons like me have proven that they can be trusted however that's rare to find in this day an age.
Recently figured out that even though my car related injures and knee damage keeps me in pain i can still run in fast short bursts that give me the feeling of basically gliding over terrain but of course if i trip i take very hard spills at high speed or if i fail to listen to my brain and body i just end up putting myself down hard however i feel that if my were in danger i can escape despite my lack of bodily health. Note: two car wracks have left me in between healthy and disabled which...sucks major ass...
The gayest thing I've said in the new year and i want friends and family to make note of this, Context: Was discussing dinner plans stating i needed something soft cause of my busted teeth and fangs and i suggested hamburgers or anything with a meat course but then came this and I'm quoted lol "Where ever there's meat to eat I'll be there!" the minute it came out i twisted my own context straight into the gutter.
Also i now have my net back at my home so now i can finely update my profile the right way and put who and what i am lol.
Kit's very personal comments.
Killing the human within: Some may not know this so I'll let everyone know now, I Hate my human body dislike it to the point that i no longer consider myself a member of the human race or mankind(been that way since my what some would call "awakening"), i never wanted this but i have to live with the actions of past lives (yes that's part of my belief system) and so i have since nearly given up showers to let my musk surround me and eat food that doesn't need a fork i eat my steaks with my hands (in private) as wall as howling at the moon when the sky permits it and that is the small things that i do haha. The mass majority of mankind can kiss my hairy ass but that small pocket of humans who are not morons and understand persons like me have proven that they can be trusted however that's rare to find in this day an age.
Midnight...
Posted 13 years agoWell lady and gentlemen the clocks strikes the hour the moon is right in the night sky i must away to my sword rites may those who i love and my 18 watchers be safe and merry! for this is the solstice be wild and free like the snow! merry solstice all this has been the best solstice i'v had in a long long time :3 :# <3 <3 <3 <3
Current Status
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Well been a bit of a up rooting been going on recently moving back into my old house of a while dealing with a bit of artist's block and wrist locking (onset of carpal tunnel i think...) so been moving more towards my writing which is harder for me cause i can't write lol,
Well I'll be here a bit more in the coming future but its back to the ooze i was spawned from....for now....*melts off camera*
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Well been a bit of a up rooting been going on recently moving back into my old house of a while dealing with a bit of artist's block and wrist locking (onset of carpal tunnel i think...) so been moving more towards my writing which is harder for me cause i can't write lol,
Well I'll be here a bit more in the coming future but its back to the ooze i was spawned from....for now....*melts off camera*
Fate in motion
Posted 13 years agoWell It's been a very progressive week recently got not only a paying filming gig but future work as well, My art continues to improve and my self esteem is getting higher everyday i see others favorite my pictures even if it's just one or two it still means someone likes it and i'm on the right track.
get to go away to see friends this weekend it's gonna be awesome, other news.... Got a a lot of ideas in my mind right now i would reeeeally like to find someone who can work flash......proving dang near inpossable.
Better things are coming for this lil'old fox ^~^
get to go away to see friends this weekend it's gonna be awesome, other news.... Got a a lot of ideas in my mind right now i would reeeeally like to find someone who can work flash......proving dang near inpossable.
Better things are coming for this lil'old fox ^~^
Saw it in a dream.
Posted 13 years agoRecently been under the thumb of evil and sorrow but i had a dream interpreted and it's meaning was great Was standing in the courtyard of a apartment complex and theres a supernova about to blow and the second it did the stars in the night sky all flashed a eery pale green and so today got out something new! \o/ Self esteem returning and new stuffs roll'in out! hoot! ^~^ paws up!
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