Gonna stream and work on some things.

Just gonna check my stuff and set it up!

1: Sinboy.

2: Haichii

3: Yote.

4: Pinkphile or Pinkaphile

5: Switch to  digidork

6: Switch to  heyjude.

7: StarChild.

8:SuperShota

9:SurrealStrawberry

9:StrawberryBoi.

10:StrawberryPrince

11:StrawberrySinner

12:StarlightStrawberry

13: LunarStrawberries

14: Uglyboi.

15: MoonLitStrawberries

16: TealYote.

17: ColorfulCoyote

Four actually lol.
Fiance's dad had a bunch extra and was like fawk it

Buuuut idk when I'm going to start on my art because I am running on three hours of sleep which is making me sick to my stomach and I had a crying fit because of it being so bad.

But either today or tomorrow expect art!

I got like two or three art trades and a raffle prize to do!

Now then, for the announcement!

I will be steaming almost every single time I draw! Unless I'm just not feeling it haha

Buuuuut I will be setting up two streams a week for sure!

They will be Friday and Saturday! (Unless something comes up, such as my fiance being home and wanting to spend time with him)
They will be freebie streams! Mostly at least.

Also one other little thing.
:^) I'm going to start animating motherfuckers. Wish me luck!
(If you don't know, Animation is my all time dream in life. I want to just animate forever.)

But I look forward to getting more serious about my art!

I fell hard back into Homestuck

please come retrieve me out of the trash can I call home


I'm gonna work on my shit cosplays bruh

Make them more ya know

Not closet cosplays

For two characters
Most the pony though
PLEASE FUCKING NAME THE PONY


Cherry Vanilla Soda Roo
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/19605072/
(Please not Nilla, there is a popular Soda pup suiter based on the same soda named that)


And my self insert MLP character
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/19100784/
Their talent is creative thinking but I'm almost considering making him a blank flank for now.
Maybe making him into animation? (Idk I feel like I'm a creative thinker sometimes but sometimes don't because my depression but I don't wanna have an art pony like EVERYONE ELSE)
They're basically me so shy, anxious, nervous, depressed, but also loyal, caring, excitable, ect
Maybe find a name that isn't based on the Cutie Mark? But you can idk. Halp

So my fiance's friend comes over and that's cool, he's nice.
But he asked if his girlfriend can come so we we're like sure.

Well found out later, it was the chick my ex cheated on me with
Her name is my Deadname (For those that don't know, I'm trans, deadname means the name I was born with and no longer go by)
Oh and she came straight in, walked past the at least 3 or 4 surface she could have used, and set her water cup directly ON TO MY FUCKING ALTAR
You know, where I worship.
That's like some bitch walking into your church and placing a cup on the thing preachers stand behind

Then when we got up I saw she ate 5+ of my little chip bags
I have these because I get sick to my stomach very often and will eat a little bag so I have something on my stomach until I can actually stomach real food.
I now have like 4 left

I want to beat her ass

Strawberry in it.
I really want one to do with Strawberries because I loooove strawberry flavored stuff.
And I have an oc based on it.

>>This journal will be updated as I think of them. If you really wanna help me check back, if not that's fine <3 <<


1: Sinboy.

2: Haichii

3: Yote.

4: Pinkphile or Pinkaphile

5: Switch to  digidork

6: Switch to  heyjude.

7: StarChild.

8:SuperShota

9:SurrealStrawberry

9:StrawberryBoi.

10:StrawberryPrince

11:StrawberrySinner

12:StrawberryStarlight

What should I animate?
Preferably of Jude but whatever

I'm going to try out my first animation he sometime soon (Tomorrow or so) but I'm lacking ideas.
Suggestions?

I feel bad about not contacting the winner of the raffle?
But like I do them not only to give back to my watchers
But because it helps me get out there so I can be my dream of living off my art?
And I find it saddening that they don't care enough after the raffle to even check on it
But I also feel bad I Haven't done it???

What should I do?

Form:

User:
Art for: (You're self/lover/friend/ect)
Commission type:
Deadline: (Note anything under a week has a charge of 3 USD)

If I changed users again lol

I figure it's gonna happen

Because I've been having a hard time finding a user that I think fits me?

Idk

I got suspended for talking about my problems.
Like I could understand if I was being bullied on here.
But it was me cracking under the stress of being a young adult.

So basically I was suspended for venting

Idk I find it super dumb but not like I can do anything about it

Just wont be venting when I'm really feeling terrible here anymore.

:/

Cried it out
Got some hugs from  eulesangnlug
Took a nice bubble bath and read Harry Potter

I'm going to start taking small steps to help my depression.
I'm going to start with trying to change over a decade of bullying that caused me to hate myself.
It'll be slow and hard but I've got to try.


Now then
thank you, thank you, THANK YOU all for just commenting on my journal.
I felt like no one cared that I was going through so much.
I felt like I was just left to rot by myself.

But just seeing a few people cared helped me out a lot.

Thank you guys <3 <3 <3

Hopefully this one wont get canceled!


Alright Halloween is in March now guys!
I want a creepy sona.
One that is super creepy and I can do gore with.

It can be
Demon
Incubus
Hybirds
Monster
Ect

Has to be male
Can be on a base if you want

Just watch some horror movies, read some creepy pastas and get some inspiration!


End Date: TBA
Prize: Star badge


I will NOT contact the winner first. They must contact me.

*digs bigger hole for myself*
Soon as I'm almost done with mine...

Anyway, I got a drawing I want done. So who wants to art trade with me?

If you joke, or are cool with jokes about suicide I wont tolerate you.
It's not funny
no I'm not oversensitive
It's pathetic

when you attempt to draw and your four years of trying you ass off to learn goes straight out the window and you might as well gave a mentally challenged baboon a pen and told it to draw for you

I will not start until messaged first.
I will not contact the winner either.

This is to ensure people are watching me.

Raffles are to of course give back to my followers
But to also get my name out there more so I can make a living.

Make sense?

The winner is  pikminchick

Please contact me with a ref sheet for your badge!

I do not start raffle prizes until I am messaged.

I don't start yours until I receive mine. Just due to past problems. Unless you're a close friend I know, I usually wont start until you send me the finished project.

I have little motivation when it comes to drawing anyway, so I don't want to waste it on a scammer.

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Get a car and your DL or don't come over omg

Come join http://www.hexrpg.com/
Say I sent you and friend me! Same user as my FA

Hope you guys liked my characters though :D