Most important rule....never kill.

To kill means they wont feel pain, to kill means they won't fear, to kill means they won't cry...to kill means funs over.

No, keep them alive as long as possible. Keep them in agony, make them think of their past life, make them wish for freedom, make them regret ever meeting you, make them beg for death but never give it to them.
But don't just torture them, treat them nicely, dress their wounds, feed them, bathe them, watch tv with them, make them feel like family. This will only make them fear you more. Feed on that fear, make their dreams of you a living nightmare, show them that monsters truly exist.

Then....let them go, set them free, smile and say good bye to them as they stumble out completely devoid of any rational you robbed from them. You may be gone, but their memories is what will keep you in their nightmares, in a sense...you will never leave them. You will haunt them in their sleep, rob them of their humanity...and in turn you destroy the human being........all without taking a single life.

This website is starting to bore me.

Posting a sneak peek type deal of my story to out disgust Cupcakes because I'm the jealous type, I always incorporate gore into things I like and someone beat me to it, now it's famous and everyone makes referances to the story and describe how horrible it is and spawned numerous fanart and spinoff stories.
But my original story will have them retching on the floor......and have them begging for more.

I got accepted to Texas A&M Galveston an will be heading off around mid August, all that hard work has finally paid off.....now for even more harder work and more money to get my BS (bullshit lol) in Marine Biology.


Who's still reading these anyway? Sometimes It's like talking to yourself, and it feels redundant and unnecessary, but I guess since I'm one step closer to my dream I just have to tell somebody just so that I feel that what I'm doing is worthwhile, maybe with some freetime I'll submit more stories like my previous ones, had some ideas.
Well see you in the funny papers.

I FUKIN LOVE MY LITTLE PONY FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC!!!

Yes I too have fallen for it, honestly it has to be the best reboot of the series ever, not to mention Lauren Faust written and produced it, so there was brilliant writing behind it.
Yes it has elements targeted for younger audiences but it just has that charm and whatnot to attract ALOT of sad grown men.....like me.

So yeah, I like it......want to make a big deal of it asshole?

I need to rid myself of emotional attachments and emotions in general.
Not needless to say but just try to supress them or just keep them under control, the chemicals in my brain have been somewhat out of place, it's not so much that they are out of control but they produce too much of one thing.
If I get upset I REALLY get upset, if I get angry or sad or happy I REALLY get angry or sad or ect. I never express what I need to and I think the feedback is getting to me, the only time I was able to was to my friend who was drunk and it was sortof hollow.
I really don't want to use any drugs, but I need to get this under control.
No therapy or and nutjob stuff like that, I just need to stay focust on the stress of school, I think that will be enough to destroy my emotions, I just need to forsake my attachments, including my human and non-human ones.

is my friend's 21st birthday, i've known him going on 8 years and is the only other friend I have left, now if you excuse me we're going to go get shitfaced, i.e piss drunk.

The ocean is my life, it rules me and flows through my being.
It is where all life began, and where life ends.
It can sustain life, and take it away.
The sea can be cruel and unforgiving, ruthless and heartless.
Yet she is the most beautiful thing in the world.

She is my life, I am nothing without her.

The ocean is where I belong, and where I'll stay.
Her children will claim my soul, it's mine to give.
The endless blue ocean is my life.

I have no life without the sea.

I'm ashamed at myself, and my life.

I honestly don't know if I'll be able to make it to the College I want, or if I'll ever become a Marine Biologist or study sharks.

21 years of my life may have been wasted, I could always keep trying but with parents who strive for perfection and dislike second tries I don't know if I'll be able too.

To be honest I blame being a furry.......it really fucked my life over, I have only 2 friends, one of them died, I have zero social life and have an unpleasent personality that leaves me an outcast to the known populous.
What do I have left......nothing, nothing but these fucking cartoons.

This is what it means to be a furry, removing yourself from society and the gene pool, removing the physical body and escaping to a fictional reality inside the mind, until you're nothing.

Now I've definalty found something that offended me.

http://www.bestgore.com/murder/ngat.....-beaten-death/

In my quest to desensitize myself to graphic violence and gore, I have been somewhat successful, everything from real snuff videos to high definition gore pictures from shitty third world countries, even coming in contact with a dead body in real life. I dominated everything with a morid fascination and nerves unhinged.
Until I came across something, something that offended my slightly, it was more than just the gore part but rather the morel destruction of humanity as a whole, if you ever need justification to hate this world and everyone living in it this will deliver.
This was the first time in a long time I've been offended, now I have become a stronger person.

In the wake of the new year I'll spend it going to my last semester at community college and hopefully will be off to Galveston TX in the fall.
There I'll be attending MOAR school to get my degree in Marine Biology/Marintime Science.

In case anybody cared of course.

Ordered the DVD set all the way from Canada eh.

Anyway, I've always loved the book series, but turning it into a cartoon was a definate must have, too bad on Youtube they have the series in everyother language but ENGLISH, so I took it upon myself to get the DVD set and bask in it's glory, again if you don't know who Geronimo is you deserve nothing less than a full frontal lobotimy.

What I'm most shocked is that there is bairly to no 34 pictures, what the fuck, not even Paheal has any pictures, how can I enjoy a furry cartoon without any visual rapage, I praticaly had to imagine my own stuff.

I thought furries ruin everything, I guess not and for that I'm ashamed.

http://www.geronimo-stilton.com/

If I remember a dream it's because I felt or saw something I couldn't forget, like this one I had last nigh for instance

I couldn't remember how it started exactly, but it was always dusk borderlining on night, a disease was spreading around the earth, turning people into yellow eyed savage monsters.

I was by myself as always, surviving and shooting anything that came near me, until I got an anonymous tip that the death of patient 0 would cure the world.

I was led to an abandoned Hospital, I was attacked as monster people came pouring out the entrance, after bairly surviving the attack I went inside, in my dream I heard nothing but screaming and images of grotesque mishapen humans in bondage obviously of past tortures.

I remember trying to turn on a flashlight but even then it was still to dark to see, the inside was decayed and dusty, noises came from everywhere and no place inside was safe.

Finally I came across a room in the bottom floor, it said "Patient 0" on the door, I went inside but saw nothing but a wicker basket and a white cloth covering it. But I heard noises and saw movement coming from inside, I removed the cloth to discover.........a baby was inside.

I was shocked, the baby was deformed and growling at me, I raised my knife but before I killed it te baby looked like a normal human, starring at me with a sad look, I lowered my knife and he attacked me.....

.......I woke up.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Az4P.....eature=related

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Unit_731


You just may be amazed.

.....what it's like having to drive around in a car with no working windows or A/C in 100 degree weather for 2 and a half hours?

I was actually put in the hospital for 5 hours.

Me! In the freaking hospital! A person born and raised in the heat got heat exhaustion.

That's like an Inuit getting frostbite.

It's typical that Denmark and New Zealand ranked #1 on most happiest countries, and the US ranking #16 or lower but above Africa and the Middle East.

There are alot of economist ranking happiness with income and the ability of people's needs being met. Even though America is the wealthiest country, suprisingly we are not the happiest.

I believe it's on a personal level rather than an economic/job level, though 50% of happiness comes from personal wealth and providing one's self with luxury convieniences, the American Dream right?

I myself am satisfied but not really happy at my current standing, mainly because I'm still in development, I don't think I'll b happy until a few more years with a good degree, a good paying job and a stable future.

They say ignorance is bliss, does happiness comes from not paying attention to the world, the war, the oil spill?

What do you think makes Happiness?

Too many needles....

Too much blood lose....

Too many rules....

$2800 down the drain :(

Due to the economy being in the shithole and making finding a job nearly impossible since they never put out, I'm going to be a guinea pig at a research corporation PPD in Austin, they pay very handsomly.

So here's the deal, should I go on with it or continue with job searching until I get lucky?

Does anyone remember CatDog?

I sure as hell do, I've been remembering alot of shit lately, mostly how cartoons like that made me who I am today, that angst ridden show made my little 9 year old head think up of some crazy episode ideas, thus birthed my furry muse.

Then came Angry Beavers, then not long after that Courage, by then I was completely furry, I just didn't know the word for it yet.

So I guess I could say it all started with CatDog and letting that show fill me with ideas.

How about you?

The best video game I ever played, would defenitly make a great western film.

The ending was the best, go buy it now, right now.

is a fat coach.


You know this to be true.

It's 2:30 am and I cannot sleep, I just saw a movie and most of the content related to me.

I've been a Nihilist ever since I found out about it, being exposed to the media and the mindless garbage at a very young and impressionable age changed me. I'm the very product of tv at a young age.

Seeing the grim reality of life and the fantasy life from television made me wish I could live there, it also may be the reason for my furry sexuality, as seeing anthromorphic animals in a society being so perfect and wonderful, it made me yearn for that existance instead of this.

To tell the truth, I think the turning point of losing my faith in humanity happend 9/11, I was young then but learning about who and why made me realize that if that mindset continued then nothing will ever change.

Still can't sleep, and my mind is still racing, thinking how rediculious life has gotten since it began, hasn't knowledge made things complicated enough? Why build an economy, why build a country, why build religion, why create science?

I always wanted to believe in a God, something to look forward to in an afterlife. Because I'd much rather be there than here. But is there really one, and if so why did he allow us to exist for so long, you'd think with an infestation this big he'd exterminate it.

It's funny, when I was 13 I vowed to find the meaning of life, and when I was 18 I found out what it was, then I felt so stupid because it was so obvious. The truest meaning is to pass on your genes, that's it, once you do that your existance is useless.

Happiness is only something you make to get over the fact you may never complete this task or you already did, but then again all feelings are chemicals generated in your brain and can be completely manipulated, so do we ever really feel them? Do we really feel love, fear, anger, sadness and happiness?

Don't even listen to this bullshit rant, it will probably depress you or something.


Goodnight.

I belong by the ocean, not in the city. I wish I could go back to Galveston.

The sound of the waves crashing against the shore relaxes me, it makes me think of everything I gained as well as lost.

Listen to this band as their music sets the mood to explore the briney deep.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=le6u35KmcE0

Love this kind of music or not, you cannot deny that it makes you long for the sea.

Was born March 15, 2010 9:30 PM at Southwest General Hospital to Rebecca Mayo & Chris Diaz Sr.

A little premature but he's doing well.