FIX YOUR FUCKING SITE NEER

I JUST WANT TO NUKE THE 8000 JOURNALS ABOUT HOW SHIT THE SITE IS REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

/contributes to the problem

I didn't want the long ass rant journal obviously aimed at like 5 people on my front page.

In other news I started playing ESO on PS4. It's a lot less shitty than the PC version.

If you play on the EU megaserver hmu, I've got a busty argonian maid/paladin in a chainmail bikini we can both drool over and maybe I'll eventually learn to tank dungeons.

I may or may not write lizard lesbian fanfiction in the near future. No promises.

This journal is about the three page long pissing contest about cub porn from earlier that got bawwleeted. If that's not shit that's relevant to your interest there's no need to read this...
_{I already typed half of it when the journal got deleted and I didn't want to waste the effort, so I'm posting it anyway.}

I'm not sure what the prerequisite number of times I have to say 'nigger-faggot' until people stop accusing me of being a 'Social Justice Warrior' (as if the term meant anything) just so they can discard my arguments without actually understanding them. I've not, and never have been, an advocate of censorship especially on the basis of political correctness. I am a massively politically incorrect cunt. I'm also not a glue sniffing retard and know the difference between having my right to free speech suppressed and willfully complying with international law and widely held social mores.

'Crash, you can't ban something because you don't like it, that's facism!'
You're absolutely right Mr. Strawman! The problem with cub porn isn't just 'stop liking what I don't like' though. It's child pornography, and everywhere in the western world it's illegal.

'Crash, cub porn is 2D tho. It's not even real!'
And this is why most people, myself included, generally don't get offended by the existence of cub porn. It's a fantasy. However, the law may or may not agree. Though, to my knowledge, there's never been a case SPECIFICALLY about cub porn, in the US, Canada, the UK, and New Zealand there is a legal precedent for convicting people of possession of child pornography over drawn images of under aged characters. Loli and shota CAN get you V& and put on a sex offender registry. Until a court rules that 2D anthros aren't the same as 2D anime girls, it's the only legal precedent we have for drawn, underage porn.

This isn't a case of saying 'I am personally offended by 2D CP so it should be banned' this is an actual law. It doesn't matter if you or I or anyone else feels like it is or isn't. If you'd like to take a gander at the American law that specifically states that 2D CP is still CP here it is;
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/PROTECT_Act_of_2003
"Prohibits drawings, sculptures, and pictures of such drawings and sculptures depicting minors in actions or situations that meet the Miller test of being obscene, OR are engaged in sex acts that are deemed to meet the same obscene condition."

While I'm not sure about the laws in other countries, amateur-tier googling produced 6 cases in 4 countries where loli hentai was ruled as child pornography. There may be more, I didn't dig that deep. There was no examples or titles provided (for obvious reasons) so I can only speculate about how graphic the content was in order to qualify as 'obscene' (or whether or not any of the loli hentai may have been kemono, which would obviously be relevant to the interests of cub fans). The defendants in at least two of the cases confessed, meaning that it's not sure if the court would have found them guilty (though I suspect they would have if a lawyer counciled them to confess).

So the TL;DR it doesn't matter if it's 2D it's still legally classified as child pornography.

'Well, X is also illegal/amoral in Y, why not ban it too?'

This is an extremely childish viewpoint imo. If you don't understand that child pornography is obviously a special case, you're honestly lacking in global awareness (and if you're going to say 'but it's not child porn!' I refer you back to the former argument). While the point is valid that watersports and scat are banned in the UK and bestiality is illegal most places, these do not have as extensive laws defining and regulating them or they don't apply everywhere. Child pornography is thoroughly defined and illegal in every country in the western world. Compare that to the fact bestiality isn't even a felony in every state.

Let's look at a specific example. Porn depicting a huge variety of fetishes, including some many here would probably be considered vanilla, is 'banned' in the UK. This ban has been in place for a while and pertained to videos that were sold in sex shops only. In 2014 it was amended to included streaming and on-demand video. No where in either of these laws is drawn and/or rendered or written pornography brought up (that I can find, being honest I didn't sit here reading UK law all night). 50 Shades of Grey sold pretty damn well in the UK, which has plenty of 'obscene' material in it, so I think my assumption is justified.

You can look at the UK porn 'ban' here if you wanna pick that apart;
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Audio.....gulations_2014

As far as I can surmise, there's nothing in this law that prevents a private citizen from view or owning obscene pornography in the UK. The law bars sites and retailers from distributing it, not private citizens. And once again, from what I can tell this only applies to video pornography with real-life actors. If someone from the UK who's dealt with the law first hand would like to correct me they're welcome to. My understanding is that you can jack off to piss and face sitting all you want, John's Sex Shack just can't sell it to you.

Bestiality in the US is often the same. It is illegal to create or distribute, but not illegal to view or posses in many states. It's even a misdemeanor or completely legal in some states;
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zooph....._United_States
(yeah, that number of gray states blew my mind too)

Even where both are illegal, the provisions and resources allocated to catch and convict child pornographers (and consumers) vastly outweigh the ones for prosecuting of zoophiles in terms of both legal and social priority. The whole comparison brings to mind a quote from one of my favorite comedians, Dave Attell;

'People always come up to me after a show and ask stuff like, (exasperated) "Hey, bro! You wanna smoke some pot?". I mean, I know it's illegal, but it's not that fucking illegal. If you're gonna say it like that, make it something a little more illegal, like "Hey, bro! You wanna eat a bald eagle? C'mon, there's only like eight of them left! Tastes just like freedom!"'

While fucking your dog is illegal and amoral it's just not as illegal as fucking a kid. That's all there is to it.

'But Crash, murder is illegal EVERYWHERE just like CP, why don't we ban snuff?'

An interesting point, but one I don't think holds water. For one, even when it comes to real-actor video pornography involving snuff it's almost exclusively fake (I've spent too much time on 4chan to feel comfortable saying it's all fake). While video child pornography is almost exclusively real (hard to fake being a fucking child, though it gets more gray if you're including teenagers, for arguments sake I'm not because that's its own tin of worms). It's often stylized, or let's be honest and realize it gets sold to us as blockbuster halloween thriller movies rather than actual pornography.

There's similar arguments to be made about it as CP. You can argue that it normalizes dangerous thoughts for unhealthy individuals who need help/therapy or de-stigmatises something that society abhors with very good reason. But, as a society we're just sorta.... okay with violence. This is especially true of America where blood and gore is seen as less inappropriate than a non-sexualized boob. Can't say fuck on TV or show a nude model in the papers, but you can have a billboard of a skeleton holding someone's intestines hanging over a highway to advertise the shitty haunted house you built over an abandoned trailer park (yes, there is something like this where I live).

From a legal standpoint, it's not illegal to posses or distribute images of a crime. If images of these things were banned it would impact more than just pornography but many types of media from action movies to cop dramas. Law and Order: SVU, for being the shitty rapemongering show it is, relies on being able to show you uncomfortable images to get its views. It's not technically pornography, but they're going to show you close ups of crying women on a mattress and spell it out for you she was not having a good ol' consensual time. A comedy like Friday couldn't be made if images depicting illegal acts couldn't be produced or distributed. Both of these very different media you can at least make the argument have 'artistic merit' and so would generally get a pass on obscenity laws that would otherwise muddle them in legal nonsense. No court anywhere, however, I believe would ever allow anything that could be interpreted as child pornography to claim 'artistic merit'. Being that it is purely pornographic, for one, makes it very different from other illegal acts which are not inherently sexual.

The closest comparison to be made is not murder so much as rape. Rape is illegal everywhere and very sexual, but images depicting it still aren't illegal. As to why that is, I couldn't say. While, like snuff, I think we can assume most rape porn is fake or staged (most, certainly not all). Rape-play between consenting adults is a thing, and dabbling with taboos about control/domination is something many people are into, even otherwise vanilla ones. The prevalence of 'rape-lite' types of fetishes and fantasies would lead me to conclude that most people just aren't as disgusted by it. I can guess the real difference is because while rape is illegal, it's possible to produce rape-like porn with consenting adults, while a child is never fit to consent, period. I don't have a truly concrete answer for that point though, just guesses. I have to fall back on my previous point point about bestiality and reiterate that when it comes to CP 'its just different'.

'But Crash, that's not FAIR!'

It's not about what's 'fair' though. Just because you don't like a law doesn't make it not the law. Frankly I don't think it's fair that, in your selfishness, you would put your community at risk and inconvenience your peers over niche fetish pornography. Because that's what throwing a hissy fit over cub porn is, shitting on the community.

Foregoing all legal grounds and whether you or I personally agree, the vast majority of people are uncomfortable with cub porn for a wide variety of reasons both legitimate and not. Most find it morally objectionable and that's fine for them. Many could not legally access a site that proudly proclaimed 'we host child pornography' in their countries, so demanding that a site does so is denying whole sections of the community a chance to even use the site. And finally CP is an absolute anathema to a healthy business. Whether you or I or anyone else in the community does or does not object to cub porn, anything that can be interpreted as CP will be absolutely toxic to any project that wants mass appeal. Businesses don't want to be known for associating with kiddie diddlers or puppy fuckers. Artists, especially clean ones, won't want the reputation of producing content for a site that also hosts CP. No site that is not specifically catering to that niche audience is going to want to deal with the backlash that supporting it would cost.

Hosting cub will polarize the community every time it's brought up because that's how social mores work. When you divide a community you smother it before it has a chance to grow or develop. The number of people who will opt to NOT be a part of a community for not breaking the social standard is going to be insignificant versus the damage going against the grain would do. You can cry 'conformist sheeple' all you want, but that's how human society works.


FINAL TL;DR stop bitching about websites not hosting your pedo-porn. You are objectively, factually, legally, and socially wrong.

*comes back 10 minutes later*

You people are fuckin' silly.

I'm not even going to bother making an 'alt' there, I refuse to entertain places that support pedo garbage, lol.

I haven't logged in in a while now. I heard about the attack and realized I needed to reset my password if I wanted to keep quietly looking at porn, so I figure I might as well say I'm alive.

I say 'I'm gonna do stuff' then I resub to WoW and 3 months of my life just kind of evaporates. It just kinda happens some times. I'm done tho, till August at least. Moon Guard is a desolate shithole.

I'm not going to promise to do/make/write things this time because every time I do I lie and then go play video games instead.

Therapy junk is going well. I'm functioning at least. Mostly. Hopefully with proper, nonabusive use of my medications I can actually become some kinda productive author who gets shit done on deadline. Hahaha, it's nice to dream.

Any rate, again, If I owe you money/work or you owe me money/work and I haven't contacted you please contact me!
I am trying to get my commission financials from 2015 squared away.

That out of the way, I am going to try to be a bit less of a recluse, as I have learned that it is not good for my health. I'm kind of hard to reach at times, and a lot of this is due to the fact I keep a separate 'Furry/NSFW' accounts for a lot of things, and often they don't get checked as much. I'm trying to merge as many of them as I can and telling the friends that are STILL hung up on their high horse about "I need to hate anything furry because the internet said so" to take a big slurp of my cloaca.

I started using Twitter again to touch base with people on a more daily, informal basis. Supposedly this is good for me even though I'm pretty sure prior frequent twitter usage gave me cancer. My new account is: @CrushYiffKill
^{It's a private account, so you will need to send me a follow request to see the inane shit I tweet about, like image macros of parrots and how much women suck.}

The other majors ways of contacting me are on Telegram, where I am @HereticalAvian
This is linked to my actual phone number now, so I'll always get these messages if I have my phone handy!

The most reliable way to get me will always be my email: CrashleytheBurd@gmail.com
Messages sent here redirect to my main account, which I check once a day at least, so there's always that.

I am phasing out using skype, I've uninstalled it on my PC and while I can't uninstall it from my laptop for some reason I rarely use it at all. If you really urgently need to contact me and use skype for some reason, try to get my attention elsewhere because I only log into it when prompted to!

In the next week or so I'll upload missing commissions and a couple other little things, then attempt to get on a schedule of producing content on a regular basis. I'm pumped and looking forward to this being a better 2016!

Everything's gonna be daijoubu~

It's the time I count up all my extraneous expenses from the previous year, yay.

If I owe you money, or you ow me work, now's the time I generally start pestering people about it one way or the other. So if I owe you money or you owe me money, now's a good time to get back to me about it. I try to keep good, clean records, but sometimes shit gets lost in the mix. So, there you go.

I'll probably be open and willing to take some writing stuff soon. I'm in therapy n junk so my head might be in a better (albeit less creative) place when I'm done. Woooo.

I haven't been around due to medical complications again. Not quite as bad as to cause the 4 month hiatus I went through last time but I don't really feel like working on anything now, and probably won't any time soon. If you need to contact me for any reason, I suggest emailing me: crashleytheburd[at]gmail.com

I can't guarantee I'll check back here a lot till I start feeling better.

I'm outta town where there's no internet, and my MFF situation is kinda up in the air, so I'm not really getting my daily allotment of furry degeneracy. Instead I've been working on some ideas for things to work on when I get back home and not typing on my sibling's iphone.

I got a small pool of suggestions for stuff to do but you know, random assfucks on 8ch don't make up the bulk of people reading my shit (as far as I know because anonymous) so I figured I'd ask what people are most interested in and try to produce more content that people like, instead of randomly throwing darts at a board papered with fetishes to see what projects I work on next.

So what do you like to read about and/or fap to?
-More Breeding Stuff
-More Hypnosis Stuff
-More Pokemon Stuff
-More Non-Con Stuff
-Transformation
-Vore
-Digimans
-Other fandom pandering crap
-Dank Memes
-Some weird fetish that makes me uncomfortable
-Not Porn
-???
-Profit

Leave suggestions or whatever. I'm gonna probably do some Pokemon Mystery Dungeon themed crap since I've been playing it obsessively over the week. So keep an eye out for that I guess.

It was pretty awkward when I found myself defending my 'pro-rape' stance at the dinner table so I went to the guest room to play Super Mystery Dungeon for the rest of the evening.

I love my family and Pokemon about evenly, so it was a win-win day for me.

I hate the cold almost as much as I hate the sun and holidays. My main deterrent against seasonal depression is, like any sad nerd, video games. If anyone's got suggestions or favorite games they wanna throw out I will probably ignore them because everyone else's opinion but mine is wrong, but still you might as well while you're here. I'm not looking for multiplayer games to play with other people, I just want nice long single player time sinks I can brood over while wrapped up in a warm burrito of grump.

I just picked up Persona 4 today after throwing Persona 3 down in a violent rage that nearly broke my controller yesterday. I never played the Persona series before, and with 5 coming out soon it seemed as good of a time as any to get around to it. I'll also probably play through Ni no Kuni: Wrath of the White Witch while I still have it on loan from my ex because it is the greatest RPG of all space-time.

If those don't keep me busy until January I set a goal for myself to reach level 50,000 in Rune Factory 4 because I am insane.
_{At least it will give me time to catch up on my animes.}

I've never been one to get really into National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo). I officially tried it out two different years, but found I couldn't maintain focus on one subject for an entire month. I've taken a few unofficial shots at the challenge but would often end up tiring of something after about a novella's length and switching, then trying to make up all the lost time and then keep going with the new idea, only to burn out on the whole thing.

I was thinking this year maybe I'd do something like an Iron Artist, only like, stories instead, totaling up to the 50k words people are encouraged to write over the course of November. Some sorta 'pay what you want' commissions ~1k words or something to that extent. I know IA is typically 100 slots, but if I had to write 100k words in 30 days I would probably explode.

I don't have any formal plans really. If you're interested you can contact me. I'll probably keep writing either way, hate to get rusty.

Halloween holds the record for being 'the only major holiday celebrated in the US that doesn't have some sort of deep, personal trauma associated with it that prevents me from enjoying it'. I was going to go out and do things and celebrate before the heavy seasonal depression sets in and I become an incorrigible grump.

And I spent the whole day in the hospital.

This is my own personal 9/11.

While sperging to a friend of mine about animation (a subject which he's pretty apathetic to because he never watched cartoons as a child and thus is an empty, soulless husk of a man) he pasted a link in our chat. I figured it was something related to the subject for once and it was... Never Gonna Give You Up by Rick Astley.

Normally I'd say it isn't funny or it's a beating a horse that's not just dead, but decayed, buried, and a garden is flourishing on the spot where it dropped. But honestly it has been so long since I've heard hide or hair of the song I admit it got a chuckle out of me. For the first time in very many years I found the Rickroll funny again. I mean, not fall out of my seat laughing hilarious, but a sincere 'heh'.

It reminds me that the other day I saw someone talking about bringing the Caramelledansen back. That's something I haven't heard from since 2009? Those aren't even the only examples I can think of people recently digging up old internet jokes.

It makes me think about how the internet is speeding everything up. 6 years is far, FAR away from being 'retro' and yet the notion of reviving something that feels so dated seems quaint and even nostalgic. Maybe it's just because I was still a teenager when those things were popular, and so they hold a special significance?

When does something become retro? How old does something have to be before you can wax nostalgic about it? Is the digital age, with it's ruthless progression, speeding up this process? Trends explode over night and fade in just as little time. Something can be 'the hip meme' at midnight tonight and be on t-shirts sold in chain stores the next day.

Makes you think about the size and scope of your world and how being connected changes things. The world is strange.

I just know I love my dank memes.

Oh yeah, I mention that now and then.

While I've got time to myself I'm teaching myself a bit of programming so I am a lot less expendable as 'the lass that writes things and shits on design docs'. My first solo project is a visual novel/dating game with lotsa spoopy monsters and stuff. I was considering stuffing in a few furry characters, assuming all goes well. While I'd be a stickler for preserving the style and tone of the game (i.e. no sparkledogs) I was thinking I might auction off a few spots. Not setting anything in stone for now, I'm still working on framework, but once I've got a decent chunk of the game written out we'll see what comes of it.

\o/

Furry drama is the best spectator sport.

You can cry to the administration all you want about your hurt feels, it doesn't make you right.

Spoop'd you didn't I?

Spooky New Icon by  yosha

16 hours play. Straight.

I hate flowers and skeletons.

Wow, I was getting ready to give an artist my money when I noticed their profile said they were a misandrist.

Like, dude, this community is at least 90% turbo gay men, how do you even exist here?

Writing is the only job I have, and it's not very good to me. Articles, short stories, RPG books, there's not a huge demand and I'm not paid handsomely for my contributions. Now I'm pretty lucky I can afford medication and groceries and have a bit of spending money doing something I love doing, but I do live pretty close to the razor's edge.

I don't know what the demand is around here, what the pricing scheme is, how profitable it is, but wordcraft is the only talent I have, and I'd love to sell it to you lovely people on the side. As silly and nonsensical as I am about virtually everything else my writing is one thing I take deadly seriously. Like I said, it's my life.

I'm experienced as a writer of fantasy and sci-fi stories, often with animal-like characters, so there's nothing new for me there. I don't really write a ton of erotica, but I'm hardly a blushing virgin. I also have pretty good turn around time as long as I am given a very clear concept. It can take as little as 2-3 hours to do a ~2700 word piece such as this as long as I have very clear and detailed instructions.

Pricing wise I usually go by a rule of thumb as 1 cent/1 word. This is usually because I write fairly brief articles where I average about $5 an hour. Basically every 100 words is a dollar. I'm also pretty lenient on rounding down so as not to have odd prices like $6.42. I think that seems fair, but of course I'm biased.

Do I expect I'll be able to make furry porn a highly profitable venture for me? Not by any means. But even a couple bucks a week could make things a little more comfortable. So if anyone has any kinda thoughts or insights for me, that would be grand. I generally take criticism well (especially because I am a terrible editor so it's legit fine to red letter my typos guy). I don't particularly have a plan of attack at the moment, just sorta practicing with ideas n such.

Sorry if this journal seems a bit incoherent. I just wrote about 50k words in a few hours and I am tired, lol

Apparently I ended up on renowned repository of furry porn, e621. Which would explain why I woke up this morning and suddenly had 10 new watchers.

Today marks the day I begin my accent to popufur status. Soon I will be queen bitch of all the birdfurs.

(please don't take me seriously, also hi new people)

If so can someone put me on it? The feelings of every thin skinned vagina on the internet are not really my prerogative and I have too many important people to make fun of to devote time to insulting all of them.

I had a few commissions I had paid for that came in after I was hospitalized. I just sorta forgot to upload them, so, uh, late night upload spam. Sorry.

This is something I only found out about relatively recently, even though I guess it's been around awhile. Considering that I mostly disowned skype some time ago, it's rad to have a functioning alternative. Especially one that doesn't forward my conversations about shagging swans to the government.

If you feel the desire to talk to me, check @ hereticalavian. You'll know you found me when you see the swag Terokk avatar.

I've been in and out of hospitals, relocated, and then in and out of more hospitals. At least I'm feeling better and only in huge debt and not massively all encompassing debt. All in all, it wasn't as bad as I figured, but throw in a handful a birthdays, a couple funerals, and more than one 'I'm just going to get in my car and drive till I run out of gas and then sleep in my car on the side of the road because I don't know what I'm doing with my life and also the tow truck number' episodes I've barely had a beat to myself for two months.

I'll try to not just up and vanish for no reason again...
No promises tho.