I mean, for a few years now, they've steadily been moving further and further to the hard-left. From defending a domestic terrorist organization (Antifa; no, seriously, they are legit an actual terrorist organization, as listed by the FBI), to hyperfocusing on the alt-right to the point of obsession and thus giving the racist losers who don't even number in the six digits far more cultural prominence than their opinions' weight deserves, to articles that blatantly display racist and sexist opinions that they NEVER retract, to trying to hire fucking Gazi Kodo, AKA Black Hitler, to write for them, the Huffington Post has become an absolute rag. I don't know why anyone would want to write for them or be associated with them. They're right up there with Fox, Breitbart, CNN, and the fucking Daily Stormer in terms of journalistic and intellectual integrity.

I was going to go into a long rant about HuffPo's garbage-tier journalism and blogs, and I started diving into articles and blog posts to provide examples. Unfortunately, it became a TVTropes affair where I would read one article, and the titles of the next articles on the list at the bottom of the page would lead me to click on them to add them to the list, I'd begin reading them, and...well, long story short, I found myself with more content to bitch about than I actually cared to bitch about.

And anyone who knows me knows I loves me some bitchin'. So that says a lot.

A shame. I used to trust them and felt their journalism was top-notch, but nowadays it's just staffed and blogged on and edited by the most close-minded, arrogantly moralizing self-righteous smug anti-liberal pro-Marxist people in the US. In one paragraph they will bemoan how unfair American society is to minorities and women, right? The very next, they will be advocating for quotas for those people...as if faceless bureaucratic corporations give two shits about someone's race or gender when hiring them, as if they will not be motivated to hire people best suited to the role and thus provide higher productivity and profits. No, no, what we need is quotas, because apparently, in their eyes, minorities and women just aren't capable of cutting it when competing for positions against DA CIZ WYTE MAILS. They need handicaps and artificial incentivization in order to compete, because I guess white guys are just too damn superior?

That's all I can take away from their bullshit opinion pieces and editorials and blog posts: They think women and minorities are just plain inferior and cannot compete against white guys. The fuck else am I supposed to take from that?? They cry about racism and sexism, and then they fucking perpetuate racist and sexist bullshit. And what's more is that they don't even seem to get it! They don't even realize it. They think they're being generous and "progressive" and "forward-thinking" but all they're doing is being condescending towards pretty much damn-near everyone, and this is even more evident by how blatantly they hyperfocus on race and gender when it comes to like 75% of their articles.

Don't be like Huffington Post, kids. Don't assume that just because someone doesn't have your same genitalia or skin tone that they're not capable of competing on your level or even above your level, no matter what the mass media morons tell you. Ever.

True story.

No, seriously. Nuclear weapons are the most peaceful invention humans have ever devised.

Arguing for the absolute removal of nuclear weapons is the most naive, idiotic thing you can ever do. Unless you want global war. Then...no, you're still an idiot.

Quick! Silence discourse! That's the only way we can address the problems of the world!

kek

Be proud of being a snitch. :D

When this man was elected, the first thing I thought was "I'm never going to be able to stop laughing at the shit-show that will come from this."

I was wrong, I have been able to stop laughing...but only because sometimes I have to look away from the spectacle and deal with things in my life. But otherwise, this is just...this is fucking hilarious. Everyone involved in this catastrofuck is providing me with such mirth and joy...

Thank you, Trump, and you too, regressives, for all the lulz and keks you have given me. Thank you, thank you, a thousand times, thank you.

Things Trump has done so far that benefit the USA:
- Thawed relations with Russia
- Nixed ACA
- Nixed TPP

Things Trump has done so far that fuck the USA up the ass without lube:
- Everything else

I will be doing a gamestream today with  tierafoxglove and  vdrake, with whatever audiences coming from wherever. I will be playing SOMA, a horror-suspense game made by the same people who made the award-winning horror-game Amnesia series, for 2-3 hours, and for dessert, I will be gracing everyone with a live viewing of me trying a tbsp. of Moruga Scorpion Pepper sauce...the second hotter chili pepper in the world, rating at over 2,000,000 SHU. SOMA will begin at 7:00 PM CST, and is up right now if you wanna just come BS with me until then. Come watch and listen to me suffer for your pleasure!
https://www.twitch.tv/creedofheresy

Someone wants to kill large numbers of people and guns aren't available?

It's not too difficult to understand The Anarchist's Cookbook.

Just saying.

I could build an explosive with materials I could obtain by going to the grocery store for about $150, a bomb that would fuck up far more people than an assault rifle would, and would do a lot more collateral damage, too. I'm not saying something on the scale of Timothy McVeigh, but I AM talking about something with a fair bit more BOOM than a grenade. And if I REALLY wanted to do some damage, for the average price of a shotgun, I could create a body count on the equivalent scale of a light machine-gun.

You really think taking away guns will stop people from killing people in large numbers? Oh you poor naive idealistic peeps, reality will hit you hard if it ever comes to the point where you think you've finally won...

Why does nobody ever talk about maybe addressing, I don't know, the underlying causes of this kind of thing? Why don't we ever talk about how maybe, just maybe, the reason for these massacres is because our society is fucking dysfunctional as all shit? Every problem has its source, and given how often these shootings take place, I have to assume, and rather safely I think, that it's a problem with our society. I mean, look at gun ownership in Canada. Look at the number of shootings they deal with. Not. Fucking. Many. Look at Sweden. 32 guns per 100 people. In the US, it's 113 per 100 people. But here's the thing, 3.5 people per 100,000 in the US are killed in firearm-related homicides yearly. In Sweden, it's 0.19(!!!) per 100,000.

Look at that ratio. 3.5 to 1 for ownership between the US and Sweden, but 18.5 to 1 in gun-related homicides. That's a 525% difference.

Guns are not the (only) problem.

Our fucked-up psychotic society is the problem. Sensible gun control will help mitigate it. But it's not going to be nearly enough. And banning firearms outright will actually do more harm than good, particularly in regards to the economy.

Maybe it's time we focused our efforts on the root of the weed instead of obsessing over the stem.

And you don't want to know what I could do with some aluminum, rust, charcoal, fertilizer, and sulfur.

But I'll tell you anyway.

Thermite. I could make thermite. A very large amount of it. And I could do it by going around scraping the rust off of cars and ironworkings common all over any cityscape and buying a bunch of aluminum foil. And with some sulfur powder, charcoal, potassium nitrite, and some patience and dedication, I'd have black powder within a very short amount of time.

Combine them with some scrap metal, and I could VERY easily make a fragmentation-incendiary bomb. You think guns are bad? Wait til you smell human flesh cooking...

Thankfully, I am not a sociopath. I would never do this. But if I was? I could. Easily.

Society needs to be fixed. That's the point I'm trying to make here, really. It's dysfunctional, it's neurotic, and it stigmatizes mental illnesses while being far more insane than anyone in a psyche ward is.

I want off. @_@

So, Undertale came out back in September. People are bitching now about how the Undertale fanbase has gotten so huge and so active despite there having been so many other games that came out at the same time that don't command nearly so much participation, and are wondering why people who played those games aren't nearly so enthused about them as they are about Undertale.


Because those games didn't have engaging storylines or characters.


The strengths of MLP and Undertale is that they have characters that are relateable, likable, and well-written. People are drawn to stories. Some of the best games that we remember strongly are ones that have excellent writing and characters that we can connect with. Emphasis on "connect." If you can connect with something on an emotional level, you're going to like it more. Can you honestly say those other games were something you could personally connect with?

People whining about fanbases are, well, whiners. They're people who feel like they aren't being allowed into the clique so they get butthurt over it and whine about it and say they don't get it without ever actually TRYING TO SEE WHY PEOPLE GET THAT WAY ABOUT SOMETHING. People who whine about fanbases are twice as obnoxious as the most annoying fans of any fanbase, because at least the people in those fanbases have reasons to be obnoxious; they're obsessed with something because they have an extremely strong emotional attachment to those things, whereas whiners are just whiners. "Waaaah I don't get it so everyone else must be annoying waaaah." <- That's what it sounds like. I'm not a fan of MLP by any stretch. Frankly, I think the show and characters are grating and shallow...but at the same time, I have to confess, they're well-written and do have established personalities and traits that others can clearly become attached to (and obviously have). So I don't baaaawwwwwwwww about the fandom. What are they actually doing that's so obnoxious? Leaving comments on youtube videos? Drawing pictures? "OH NO, HOW FUCKING ANNOYING, I CAN'T AVOID THAT, IT'D TAKE TOO MUCH EFFORT FOR ME TO CONTINUE MOVING MY EYES ELSEWHERE ACROSS THE SCREEN!!"

The fanbases don't ruin ANYTHING and if your perception of a creative work is REALLY spoiled by people you are NOT being forced to interact with (seriously, seeing fanart on the front page of Deviantart or whatever is or seeing comments by them on threads in places like Youtube or whatever is NOT you being forced to interact with them), you're not looking at the creative work itself for what it is; you're looking for reasons to bitch about people themselves; you're looking for an excuse to try to be edgy; you are being more annoying than the fanbases you think so annoying yourself.

So, shut up, sit down, enjoy the creative labors of others, quit judging other people who like it, and if they really do bother you that much, you need to get some REAL fucking problems going in your life to worry about, seriously.

Okay so I have four stories that are coming out here fairly soon, one for  tierafoxglove, two for  vdrake, one for myself but involving a couple of Tiera's characters.

For Drake, a threesome with Elegy/Yuina/Drake in a bar after closing hours, and one with Drake and my character Tiche.
For Tiera, a fic with my character Logan and his girlfriend/fiancee/wife (depending on which point of the actual overarching canon you look at) Rhiannon, with him going down on her extensively. (If you've looked in my gallery, you know these two from the artwork Tiera did in OC years back for me that I posted here)
For myself, a foursome with Elegy and Logan with Tiera's characters Rhiannon and Nighten in a four-way that may or may not become part of a larger mini-series involving an orgy...because it's been a while since I did one of those.

There's also a couple others, one involving  lei-lani's lovely h'otter and another involving  rukaisho's succubus [literally], Malice.

And a few involving just my characters.

There's also some stuff detailing different aspects of the world of Grayscale. Given the fact that, for now, the actual official work on Grayscale is still on a hiatus [but now a temporary one, as opposed to the indefinite one it's been on for over five years now], but I'm writing smutshorts for funzies and gifties, most of the info's just gonna be about the different relationships, sexual characteristics, physical characteristics, and other stuff pertaining to things of that nature.

Stay tuned~

Medications are finally starting to bring some semblance of clarity. Actually writing at stuff and brainstorming out ideas again, and they're sticking around, too, which is a pleasant change of pace from the norm.

Gonna be posting up some stuff here soon.

Seriously, why on earth has this become such a huge thing, and when did it start?? Not that I'm complaining or criticizing or anything, but I'm just perplexed by it, is all.

My second most favorite "holiday" is here, and while I won't be doing anything particularly special, I will treat any who are interested in hearing me scream like a eunuch to, well, me screaming like a eunuch. How? FNAF4 of course, but there'll be other little treats coming up. I didn't get to do the month of games thing I originally planned on doing, and my head's still not altogether in the game now, either. But at least I can do this.

TTTT; Ta-ta til then!

Stolen from  yattamutt
Reading through these, I realize just how bizarre my life really is...
A – age: 27
B – biggest fear: Friends and loved ones dying.
C – current time: 8:27 PM CST
D – drink you last had/are having: Cherry Coke
E – easiest person to talk to:  tierafoxglove /  vdrake
F – favorite song: Changes all the time, but right now? Orgy's "Wide Awake and Dead"
G – ghosts, are they real: No.
H – heritage: 1/8th Anglo-Saxxon, 1/8th Native American Mohican, 1/4 Slavic, 1/2 Scandinavian.
I – in love with: No one.
J – jealous of: No one.
K – killed someone?: Yes. ...Unfortunately.
L – last time you cried?: The 21st
M – middle name: Enigma.
N – number of siblings: Two elder brothers.
O – one wish: To feel again.
P – person who you last called: My weed dealer.
Q – question you’re always asked: "Is that really your name?" is tied with "How long did it take for your hair to grow out that long?"
R – reason to smile: Uh...
S – song last sang: Theory of a Deadman - I Hate My Life
T – time you woke: Woke: 2 PM Got out of bed: 4:30 PM
U – underwear color: Don't wear any.
V – vacation destination: Cedar Point
W – worst habit: Forgetfulness
X – x-rays you’ve had: Three. Teeth, arm, torso, different times.
Y – your favorite food: If it comes from the sea.
Z – zodiac sign: Astrological: Aquarius Chinese: Dragon

In memory of Gabriel Medina
Nov. 2nd 1989 - Oct. 21st 2007
You were always there for me.
I wish you had let me know just how much you needed someone to be there for you.

More than usual.

The gamestream thing is still being delayed...which sucks because I really wanted to do it but I can't hold my interest on anything for very long right now. I am almost perpetually stoned all day every day. But that's not why I can't hold my interest.

I started taking Wellbutrin, 150mg, on the 2nd. Last time I was on Wellbutrin, I had an emotional/psychotic breakdown that left me catatonic and non-functioning for days afterwards during the titration period. It's right about that time again for me, too. You might think this is a really stupid idea, taking a med that once made me feel suicidal, and it certainly might seem so, but things are a little different different nowadays. I'm taking other medications as well that are starting to even me out, at least somewhat, and I have enough stuff to stone me out of awareness of my brain chemistry when it gets really bad.

I also upped my lithium. Taking 1200mg now instead of 900.

So, 200mg of lamotrigine, 150mg buproprion (Wellbutrin), 1200mg lithium carbonate, 30mg adderall a day.

But, still...not much improvement. Some. Not enough. And I'm feeling depressed, and not because of the meds or even my psychiatric issues. Well, because of the latter, yes, but they aren't the direct cause of it. I've been addressing this for two years and a few months more now, and I'm barely improving at all. Every plan I make to do something falls apart. Every effort I make despite giving it my all is too lackluster.

When I'm not stoned, I feel blank. Empty. Void. Dead, staring through living eyes. I didn't even know weed helped with it until a couple years back. Sometimes those feelings go away for a few days on their own and I feel like I am me again. A few days. And then, for another six months on up to a year, I feel like this until the next brief few days of relief from it.

I want that to be me all the time: I want to be me all the time. Not this absolute emotional fucking void that I've become.

What little energy I have in me every day I spend on just getting out of bed over the course of two hours, if not longer. This has cost me jobs in the past, and will continue to do so. Meanwhile, I have no fucking money. I have no car, because it got repossessed. I have no license, because of a couple tickets I haven't been able to pay off meant its suspension. Which means I can't renew my cab permit until they're paid off. Every time I've gotten money together to pay them off, another emergency has always happened along that's required me to spend it on something entirely different just to keep my life from slipping further down this slope of rotting human shit. First the banks threatening to sue for the $1500 in overage charges [$250 of which was my own doing, at the end of the other $1250 being racked up by someone who somehow managed to copy the magnet stripe on my card and used a fake one to buy a bunch of shit against my completely-empty bank account. When I alerted Guaranty Bank of the issue ((THEIR issue, because they're the ones who are supposed to handle the security of their accounts, including card fraud!)), they basically told me I was fucked and to fork over the money or pay overage charges. I told them to fuck off and maxed out the card the rest of the way out of spite, and of course they came looking for the $1500 eventually. I gave them $500 to ward them off a lawsuit], then the repossession which required me to pay a certain amount to prevent loan default appearing on my credit history, since both of those things would cripple me permanently and I would never again get out of the lovely system of economic slavery we have going on here. "What's that? You're poor, broke, and getting fucked over at every turn by circumstances beyond your control? GET A JOB, MOOCHER, PULL YOURSELF UP BY YOUR BOOTSTRAPS." Lol.

So. No money. No job. No license. No car. No income. I thought I had an opportunity to have a small but steady source of income going here, but the person that that was going to come from has since gone silent and I don't know why. I'm having to smoke up perpetually just to keep myself from puking my guts up, having an emotional breakdown, and having a splitting super-migraine all at once, which means my blood is filled to burst with THC, which means I'm not going to be passing any piss tests. And that stuff isn't going to last much longer. A few days at most. But the THC won't clear for at least two weeks. I'm not going to be anywhere near stabilized off titration when my dabs run out...

...The fuck am I supposed to do?

Okay, after that little delay in getting this going, the gamestreams are gonna resume tomorrow. Saturday's gonna be a day-long catch-up thing as well.

Had a few rough days, spent the entire time stoned literally out of my mind so I wasn't very functional. Added another med to the list and upped my lithium, so...yeah. Figured there wasn't much point in doing a livestream if I was going to be spending most of the time blanking out.

I apologize for nothing happening last night, and I might have to continue the delay out through tonight as well; blame my medications. Why? Well...

I started a new medication and upped the dosage of my lithium yesterday, and the side effects hit pretty hard. In particular, the new medication, bupropion (better known as Wellbutrin), is one I had before but as a part of an entirely different medication combo...and last time, I had a full-blown emotional breakdown, one that lasted nearly two days straight, and had nearly driven me to suicide. I managed to fight off the urge to do so, but the breakdown was one of the most intense and overwhelming I've ever felt in my entire life. I have been smoking up on dabs to overcome the side effects, but when I let myself come down a bit, I felt the first wisps of that despair and anguish that had preceded the breakdown last time. If I can get past the first few days, I'll be in the clear on this, but as it is, I'm so stoned that I'm not sure I'm going to be functional. This might extend throughout tonight into tomorrow, but if so, I'll make up for lost time by starting the show much earlier and carrying it on longer until we clear I Have No Mouth and start into Amnesia.

Not a great start, I know, skimping on the schedule right at the beginning, but this is unavoidable. I just need to clear past the initial stuff.

As of tonight, the Gamescream Halloween Countdown begins. The schedule is as follows:

Oct 2-3 I have no mouth and I must scream
Oct 4 Amnesia dark descent
Oct 5 They breath / Organ Trail
Oct 6 Kholat
Oct 7 Dementium II
Oct 8 One night at flumpty's
Oct 9-10 SOMA
Oct 11 Darkwood
Oct 12 Slender: Arrival
Oct 13 Layers of Fear
Oct 14 Long Dark
Oct 15 Neverending Nightmare
Oct 16-17 Among the Sleep
Oct 18 Metro 2033
Oct 19 FEAR 2
Oct 20 Savage Lands
Oct 21 Amnesia machine for pigs
Oct 22 Alice Madness Returns
Oct 23-24 Evil Within
Oct 25 Call of Cthulhu
Oct 26 7 Days
Oct 27 Lone Survivor
Oct 28 Five nights at Freddy's 1
Oct 29 Five nights at Freddy's 2
Oct 30 Five nights at Freddy's 3
Oct 31 Five nights at Freddy's 4 + DLC

The actual time itself the show will be at is yet to be determined, and I'll figure that out when I'm not blasted off my ass on dabs... Likely 9pm, but likely later on the weekends.

Link: http://wwww.livestream.com/creedofheresy

Oh boy...

I would just like to say. For anyone reading this, anyone who is going to be taking part in this: I love you. I fucking despise you in a way, but I love you, too. Why? Because unlike most people, I'm not going to pretend like I'm not doing this for the attention. I am! I really am! And so does pretty much anyone else who attempts to do these silly little LP shows and the like, because we want attention because we want to see if we can entertain, to see if we are worth other peoples' time.

I want to have fun with this. I want to have fun, and I want other people to have fun with it at least as much as I do. This is an experiment. An introvert, trying to entertain an audience.

By subjecting himself to 31 days of the best (and maybe worst) the horror genre has to offer on Steam on public stream that will be recorded and edited for later viewing.

Comedy comes best when it comes at the suffering of another.

I'm gonna be suffering a lot.

See, when I play a game, or watch a movie, or read a book, I push myself into the subject entirely. I try my hardest to immerse myself to an extent that can cause problems for my well-being.

Lookin' at you, Nightmare Fredbear.

You fucking dick.

Fuck you.

Anyway. Stay tuned if you're interested. I'll be putting together the list and schedule, but that particularly daunting task can be helped via requests. Games that get requests will end up being done first.

EXCEPT the FNAF series. Those are special events taking place on the weekends, one for each weekend, and culminating with the DLC on Halloween, unless Scott Cawthon decides to not release it.

October is next month, and as we all know, and as many of us eagerly gleegasm over, Halloween comes with it. I'm a fan of horror games and movies, which is primarily why the main segment of the show [and the biggest draw] is GameScream. Last year when this thing was still in its concept stages, the plan was to do a stream every single night of October with a new horror game every night. Halloween shall crescendo with FNAF4's Halloween DLC and me shitting my pants and howling my hatred of Fredbear for an hour or two before I, crying like a bitch, tap out.

As for the rest of this month, I will be playing some more serious games. I will attack FNAF4 again at some point this month but I wanna do some other stuff, too. I am going to segment the shows into different categories; GameScream will take place on Saturdays, Friday will likely feature more story-centric games, and Sundays will often just be mindless violence games. This won't become an actual show until I am confident I can keep the depression at bay enough to keep it from preventing me from doing work on the show. This fucking depression, man. It's held me back from every idea I've had in the last five years. Hell, it's held me back from a LOT. Oh, I forgot to mention; the lithium seems to be starting to have an effect in suppressing the depression; it's like being able to take a breath of fresh air. I can actually feel something. I can actually want things. I can actually DO things.

I ACTUALLY WROTE STUFF. Fucking hell that took forever to do, too. I'll make a submission for stuff I am working on or plan on working on, if anyone is actually interested in seeing what I'll be coming out with in the semi-near future.

If you have a request for something, post it in the comments of the submission, I'll take it into consideration and if it interests me enough to get my lumbering psyche up and walking.

Let's hope this improvement remains and continues.

So, lithium causes me intense, acute nausea and stomach pains, drowsiness, and fatigue, along with short, stabbing, highly-localized headaches. Stuff I was warned would be the case. I doubt it's a toxicity concern, but if it is, well, I'll find out in a week with my next blood test, so what may come will come. In the meantime, though, I have found that an adequate amount of weed will mask over the headaches and nausea and pain, albeit at the tradeoff of the drowsiness being even more exacerbated, but I'll just say this: If it comes between nausea and being sleepy, I'll take being sleepy any day.

Meanwhile, fuck you guys, I wanna roleplay. D8<

New medication I am on, started a few days ago. The idea of taking lithium, of all things, sounds absurd. My first thought when it was mentioned to me by a friend of mine a year ago as a medication she took was "...The stuff they put in batteries??" So ever since, the idea of taking lithium has always come with the mental image of eating rechargeable batteries. Not disparagingly, it's just the first thing that popped into my head when it was described.

So now I am devouring small rechargeable batteries. XD

900mgs of the stuff a night. I have to watch my sodium and water intake like a hawk from this day onwards, so that's gonna be a bit of a permanent change to my life. Going to have to take monthly blood tests to make sure my lithium levels don't reach toxicity, and to make sure that my thyroid is working properly, since those are the risks of taking this stuff, among other things. This stuff affects the ability of the kidneys to retain water, so that's why I have to drink so much water; if I don't, I'll dehydrate rapidly. It also can have an affect on thyroid hormones, which can lead to either hyperthyroidism or hypothyroidism...or even thyroid failure, so that's gotta be monitored. The toxicity build-up can cause brain, kidney, heart, and liver damage.

Not going to lie, I'm pretty nervous.