I always find this difficult to do, worst still I dislike having to do it in the first place, but after much delegation and contemplating, I'm left with little choice.
I envy everyone around me who has a significant other, mate or otherwise close companion they can be with in a loving relationship.

There, I said it, now let me explain it.
I look around the fandom, through cons and on this gallery webpage and see so many people in couples, mated or otherwise and I can't help but feel at a loss for myself. I have lived 25 years and not once have I met the perfect match for me.
Don't get me wrong, I've made a lot of friends, I've made some wonderful acquaintances, and most of all I've met some awesome companions who I can call family, but not one I can call my 'true' love. At a time there were, I did love someone and I gave them so much, but I had been left by them, losing communication on both parts and ceasing anything else. Another time one I thought I loved actually cared for another and I was abandoned. Through my life since I was 13, I've been left by many for others and those I have tried to peruse have never bothered a second glance to me. I even blame myself for missing the chances I was given to get close to people i really held emotional feelings for and wonder why I was so weak and why I didn't express myself at that point at time. I don't blame them for anything, they live happy lives and I'm glad for them, it is myself I am mad at for failing to take the hints and jump at the chances.

Perhaps its odd, for someone like me to say this, well I guess I can blame the wedding I had been attending over the weekend for my eldest Cousin's wedding, and during the whole time I was wondering where I would be when I'm his age (29, pretty young tbh for marriage, but a good age none-the-less). It got me thinking that I've never once made much progress with my own love-life, and no matter the people I meet, I never really find someone available, or a person who can be someone I can say "I love you." with more merit than anyone I'd have said it to. This isn't to say I don't love the friends I cherish dear;  mikemurdock is one of the few friends I hold close to my heart as both a brother and as my close companion; he's been there for me and even to this day he is still there for me, but that is all I can see him as, a brother, a close friend, and someone I'd most definitely do my best to help out.
Sexually? We've tried, but I feel I cannot do it, not with a person I hold more as family than anything else (Rping aside mind you, we still have our fun flings.)

That being said, I've asked for guidance, many say "put yourself out" or "join those online dating sites." which I have, but also have held little success for. Sometimes I even wonder if I'm destined to be alone, or that if I shall ever find someone to 'complete' me. Perhaps I don't know, but its not like I'm trying, even a little bit, to meet someone; I just have terrible luck and terrible 'pick-up' skills. I know that many good friends of mine have told me I will find someone, but can I really do that with the luck I've had? Even just wanting to talk to girls (and guys) i find myself at a total loss and even more so when its someone I find cute or attractive and want to get to know.

So I say this, to all you out in the fandom, what can I do, where should I look, and what the hell do people mean y "putting yourself out there"? Because I'm going to be honest, it feels that my whole life keeps wanting me not to be with someone, but I can't accept that I am unable to find the right person for me.

Greetings and salutations fuz butts, hope everybody's doing alright on this wonderful summer afternoon. I'm going to be very honest things have been up and down.
The biggest thing that's happened so far is the fact that I've been getting over a cold. I find it odd someone like me getting sick but considering its only been lasting a week I don't really have much to complain about aside from a bothersome cough.

General News;
Things have been okay, cold aside, been working steady hours, making good money, still need time to organize all my fiances before the month is done, pay the bills and plan some trips to cons down the road. I've been talking with  MikeMurdock about him moving up here for a month to help find a job, already my folks are okay with the idea, but their cautious, if not willing to allow him some time to stay. I've been helping him get a job with the security firm I work with and hope we can find a stable place for him to work here. The overall goal is for him and I to possivbly move into our own place if we both land steady job shifts.

I also recently got a Tablet, man, keep forgetting how tough buying electronics can be. Between the Samsung Tab and the google Nexus, I with the the latter being a more powerful build and doing a lot more for me without the back-side camera (tbh, too big to handle as a camera imop.) The tablet has uits puropose as a mid-ground between my laptop and my smart phone and its ability to be a power house of information and operation, well, it allows me to leave my laptop at home for short times out to write and just relax.

A few other token goodies have comne my way, but I won't spill the beans on thoise just yet, im plannong on using them to their full potential and hope that when I finally get mnyself sorted, i can do a lot more wqith them and even help my career down the line. Sufffice to say,. its not allbad,. but it still could ve better.

Writing News:
Stuck behind mostly MLP fiction,. I know, nt the best use of time abnd skuill,. but the unverise is interesting to write in and I do enjoy it when I get my groove on. Im hoping to have at least the next story done by the end of the summer so I can focus on my own peice from September till December and actually publish something when its finished.

Drawibng news:
Nothing.... I keep looking at my sketch books and crying at how good I was doing and whty I can't seem to just want to draw. Its been hindering me with so much, the inability to just want to draw and write and do shit, why, oh why am I such a lazy tard?

I might need to think long and hard why, this is vwry srious if I ever want to go anywere, I need to be more assertive and determined.

Pretty much that sums everything up, ups and downs, but things still do well. I got work tonght so ill try to get something done in my long list of things to do.

Chaio for now alll yeah peeps.

-Creep

Well, not exactly merry, but things have been doing rather well with little negative consequence these past few weeks.

First and foremost, let me give a shout out to all you guys and gals who've been watching me for this long, I appreciate all your support and interest in my work/commissions I get and hope you continue to watch and follow the antics I create.

I'm actually quite glad with the event's that happened this month, recently, my work shift has done a complete change-up and I now have a full-time position where I work. Though its not the best shift in the world, being Friday till Monday nights, its a rather sweet shift to manage and with little worry about having to keep super focused compared to the day shifts.

The only big drawback of this was the gap it left in our coverage net and that I had to resign from going to AC this year because there is no one available to cover the time off I requested for the con. I was quiet peeved about it, especially considering I was going to be driving down there with a friend and seeing a bunch of real close buddies there, notably  MikeMurdock and  Footman who i was planning on spending extra time with. I also feel bad because this was the first time I was going to be rooming with an old friend of mine  TygerStKuan who had always eluded rooming with me, so you can figure FATE had something to do with it...

She's a cruel mistress that one.

Suffice to say, I'm bummed, but on the bright side, its now a full-time shift and I'm working a steady income job, I'll be getting my new car next week and plan on visiting a bunch of my Canadian furry friends and more during my time stuck back in Toronto. Besides, I still have FanEx and MidWestFF to look forward to and then FE and AC next year when I might have a lot more income to work with.

Cheers m8's and until next time.
Keep creepin!

-Silver

I'm sure many of you will notice I write these a day after the fact, perhaps because its hard for me to get on it when I get home after the con, never the less, its time to post my second, and sadly final, day at the con.

I had taken my scooter to the con this time around so my mobility freedom than before, and I was extremely fortunate to find an outline near the main enterance of the hotel to charge up at.
So, after a breif run-in with a few peeps outside, I made my way in and sought out the dealers den to get my commissions sorted. Notably, I got a peice done by  Strype of Cermina in her Exo-Armour which I will be posting after I get home from work as well as two commissions from  gNAW and for the first time ever  maxblackrabbit I gave them both similar concepts of a commission, but with two sets of different characters, my Ninja and Samurai gals as well as y two dragon dames. Should be quite the pictures when I get those back.

I did go to a few panels, my fav was the Writers craft panel. I got some good advice on writing and had the fortune of setting my name down for a potential writers group, I hope to comes into play.

Later on, I met with  Kiaa and a few of her friends, we sat and watched the parade and were sitting in another panel before she got pulled away by her roomates, not my place to say why but it was considered an emergency by the roomie who text-ed her.

I was then sorta swept up for dinner with Kiaa's friends (minus Kiaa), and was able to meet a few who I look forward to seeing again next year, notably  nilwing who was a wonderful gal to talk with, and her friend  jupiter_fox and her mate  JimmyB383 who we knocked off some pretty cool conversations about cars and occupations.
I hope to keep in touch with all three of them.

Above all, the con was a huge success, and despite the boredom in the end (not much for dances) I was quite glad to have gone, next year, I hope to be able to room in a hotel next time, and already  nilwing had been discussing that possibility as well as my notion to actually book all three days off next year.

So, overall, I loved it! I look forward to see old faces and new next year!

KUDOS!

Well, ladies and gentlfurs, the first day of my FE experience has come and gone, and I must say, I'm really blown away by the size difference compared to some of the past con's I've been to.

Having only be to AC and even at MWFF, the size of FE is rather small, but there is a mystical beauty about its smaller size. Fur one thing, its much easier to meet new people and continue to meet the same people throughout the con as the venue is smaller than some of the larger con's I've been to. Its also a tad homier considering there seems to be so much packed into a smaller space (taking up one hotel floor rather than a whole convention center). I also have ti say that finding peeps closer to me was a partial success as I've recently run into two furs that live close to where I am, which makes me squeal with glee.

I even got a commission done there too (partially help break a 20 I had on me for bus fare) and I must say it was quiet well done (will post it after I get more tomorrow).

Right off the bat I had made a new friend too,  xXxSheilaxXx who I've also been drawing a picture for, was very kind enough to invite me over for a quick sit-down in his room before I took my leave.

Anyway, Saturday is going to be crazy and I really hope to have a bang of a time when I go.

Well, with only three days left, I'm looking forward to going to FE for the first time this year. I think its cool that Toronto has its own share of cons, and thought most of them are a tad outta the way, is a very good thing that this one isn't that hard to get to(half an hour away from my house.)

I was dumfounded when I first heard about FE, I was at Mid West Fur Fest when I ran into a few Toronto furs. We got talking about cons and they mentioned Furnal Equinox, I had heard the name, but I didn't think it had been going on for almost three years.
"There is a con in Toronto?" I asked, they said yes, telling me it was the same place were Anime North is often held.
I quickly jumped at the chance to go to a fur con in my own city and was more than happy to pre-reg with gusto.

However, I have come to a problem; I always prefer going to new cons with a few people I may have met or know in the area, it helps me become familiar with things to see as well as the comfort of traveling with a group. Never the less, that hasn't stopped me from wanting to go and enjoy myself at the con and who knows, maybe I'll run into some local furs that can chill with me during and after the con has come and gone.

Suffice to say, I'm excited like a little boy on Christmas morning, and the biggest present under the tree is for me :3.

Well, its been awhile since I said anything on here, so let me just start by saying things have been doing very well for me this past month. As of late, I've been given three months worth of full-time to cover for one of my co-workers that had to return home due to a serious illness in his family; my condolences and hopes that they will have time to mend what has been lost.
My shifts take me now Sundays Till Tuesday from 6pm till 6am and Wednesday from 6pm till midnight. Its a good shift, I much lie the hours and the time frame cause it gives me my Thursday, Friday and Saturday to do what I want.

Speaking of things that to do, has anyone read my My Little Pony Fanfic? I recently finished the first installment of it and posted it on FimFic, an Anon in Equestria sorta thing which brings a rather different twist to the MLP world, filled with political deception, Royal misunderstanding, and serious adventure a sole human and his anthropomorphic Drakess companion have to deal with. I really am glad how it came out and hope that the second installment I'm currently doing has as much smoothness to its creation as the first one (and hopefully in less than 6 months to finish).
For those interested, here's a link: http://www.fimfiction.net/story/578.....mind-of-matter
THAT WORD COUNT!

Everything else aside, been commissioning some artists I've been really interested in. Recently, a piece I had commissioned by  jaeh has been coming out beautiful, and seeing the finish product only last night, i do hope to get it posted here as soon as his payment clears and he makes the few final touches to wrap it all nice and neat.
I also want to give a shout out to  alexspastic oddly enough, he's the first artist I ever meet to actually put forward some really solid tips and tricks to help improve your artistic talent, much props go out to you and I also plan to have him commission a scene from the story, hopefully it will be a blast for him to do.

With all that said, I have to bid you all a good afternoon, for the moment I'm busy getting ready to go to work in a few hours and I'd like to make sure I have everything ready )even though its a half shift tonight, its still 6 hours to deal with.)
So without further ado, I bid you all well.
And if I don't see you; good evening, good night, and good morning to you all!

From myself and all my companions, we wish you all a safe and merry Christmas and happy New Year!

12/21/12

That date was said to be the end of the world.

Guess what.

it wasn't.

So, for all those Apoc preparers, its time to dump the HAZMAT and Radioactive gear, come out of your bunkers, and go back to living a normal life.

Hopefully many of you didn't quit your job or something stupid like that, considering it was all a load of hogwash since the start.

Whatever the case, its now a new Celestial year, and had the Mayans been around a bit longer, maybe they would of made another calendar for THIS celestial year, who knows, maybe sometime soon Aliens will come down and be like "yo guys, your ancestors told us to come back at this time to help you un-fuck yourselves, lets get to it!"

Wouldn't that be awesome.

That lack of communication and being a prick tend to be common things for us.

Not saying that everyone is, but its an unusal 'observation' I've run into quiet often during my travels and can never seem to understand. Before I continue mind you, this isn't caused by anyone I've met here or known elsewere in fandom, more by sheer luck of run-ins at cons and just general cencus when I'm among furs.

I know we're all busy with life, we have school work to finish, jobs to tend to, even family and communities to help prosper, but the unusal thing is, at least for me, is we don't seem to be very open to others or tend to engage furs we have't met before.
Let me put it to you like this, every time i've gone to a con or fur meet, i tend to be one of the few furs just standing outside of the crowd and looking in like an observer. I know I'm a wallflower but i still try to embark in conversation with people to get comfy with those around me. The fact is, when such conversations happen, it seems to almost feel like pulling teeth.

Let me give a general example. I started a conversation with someone once and began asking how they were doing. They said they were alright and then didn't say anything else. I'm like 'okay' and then ask 'so what do you do?' Most often I get a few resoponses and try to focus on asking open ended questions about them, their career or just general interest with whatever is going on at the time. The sad fact is that more often then naught, the conversation goes only one way and very rarely turns back to me to get the person to know me. I don't get it most times considering I always show general interest in other people's work or pleasure, just to broaden my own views on things. Perhaps someone can help me figure that out, maybe its my approch, or perhaps people tend not to want to talk or maybe I don't look good or maybe their just no interest?

Now, I don't want to sound selfish, this is all for the benefit of improiving my own social capabilites and more often then naught i follow through with it, but sometimes, its just general prickyness of the other party that is to blame. Recently I was with a friend in a IM Chat, and he was talking with someone we had both met at a con. Instantly when i came inh, the guy started grilling me for making a little comment that, to him, was stupid, and that because I said hi to someone while he was talking that I was a very rude person. Of course, I took offense to that, and after apologizing, proceeded to rip him a new on with how stupid he was; it didn't help he 'assumed' I was trying to use him as a reference guide because he was dressed as a soldier when, in all honesty, i could care less. The fact he did was just uncool considering I knew more about that shhit and even pulled up wiki articles on the subject we debated.
But I degress, he wasn't a 'bad guy', just someone who had obviosuly been through shit with other people far to often to be open to someone who may be different; we call that stereotyping.

I've had my share of people doing this, people I thought were cool or just wanted to get to know and would happily show some kindess to, but at the end of the day, many don't tend to return it, and i'm often left alone and with the feeling of being uncared for. Is something I'm doing wrong? AM I a bad person in some way? DO I look ugly? I ask these questions so much but hardly get an answer. I'm honestly hoping someone can come to me and give me a swift slap in the face and tell me i'm thinking crooked and that i shouldn't be bothered by it, but it happens so much, what can I do?

Welp, its the second morning after and finally I can sit down and get some stuff sorted out.

Ladies and gents, I am pleased to say that this years MFF had been not only my first, but one of the best small-scale cons I've ever been to. I really did enjoy it, and though I missed out a few of the panels I wanted to attend, the sheer fact I was there with two of my best friends made it all the sweeter. But it wasn't just MFF that brought me to Chicago, apparently I had found that my grandfather on my dad's side has quiet a few family over yonder, so I took the liberty of arriving several days before the con to check out what the city had to offer.

Chicago is amazing, I really find the city to not only be beautiful, but clean and very easy to get around. I spent time checking out stores, seeing museums, walking around the parks and eating SO MUCH food there. There wasn't really anything bad to be had aside from the forgetting a hat at my grandfathers cousin place, and losing a sweater I had bought there too at the Con was a bit dermining, but nothing major to make the trip seem bad.

I won't go into much detail, I took a ton of pictures which I may post to my facebook soon enough.

I also want to give a super shout out too all the artists and peeps I met at MFF and that I plan to update my contacts as soon as I can gather the notes I took of your info XD.

Welp, its the evening after the registration day, me and my two buds here got ourselves registered and spent the evening at Gameworkz to celebrate our first Mid West Cocon together.  mikemurdock and I got ourselves sorted for the con. My bud Mack, not sure what his FA name is here, got set for his first con too and we both hope that he's going to have a wonderful time here.

That said, I got a few ideas what I want to see at the con, a few panels I want to check out, but most importantly, the artists in artist-alley I want to commission for some ideas and comics, who knows!

I know  brianblackberry will be there, and from early talks with him I passed the notion of wanting to commission him, so I look forward to taking that opportunity to meet and pass some ideas for him to work with that fit with his style of work.

For now, its 1am and I need sleep, until the next time kiddies
PEACE!!

*Yawn* So what day is it today... Friday, GAWD so close to the BIG DAY for me,
Oh, whats that? Big Day? Ah, well let me explain to you my pretties.

I'm prepping to go to Chicago fro the week of the 10th till the 19th for a few reasons, one of them being Mid West Fur Fest (MWFF) that I'm going with  mikemurdock as well as to see a few other friends of mine and just meet some new people at a new, smaller con I've never been to, give me a chance to mingle with the crowd and see what new connections I can start.

Personal Unrest...ahh you noticed that. I'm not going to rant about it, but people have found a very interesting way of show some rather unsettling intentions. I say this because a VERY good friend, I won't give names, doesn't consider someone close to her a 'friend' anymore.
I'm going to keep this brief, when you show kindness to someone, be it as simple as saying hello or helping them with a project, you should return that kindness.
I had given her time, my patience, my support, and even my love to a point before I realized I was wasting my time.
She had never bothered to return anything more than saying "oh you mean a lot to me." which is nice, but after being told that several times, it gets old, considering she was going to draw me some pictures which never seen the light of day.

So there you have it, some rather uneasy situations that, fortunately, have been resolved by her saying she was 'done' with me, but tbh I'm not mad about it, more confused and rather annoyed than anything but hey, that's life!

ALSO
I commissioned  footman to do a pick for me. From personal experience, and knowing him as a good friend, he's talented, his stuff is cool, and his prices are cheap!
Check him out!

Well, after  mikemurdock pointed this out to me:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3971015/

I just HAD to submit my own kind.
Cermina.

I can totally picture her in a fighting game, now I just need to gather some reff pictures of her from Second Life and post them there.

(PLEASE NOTE: Some names of people I met won't be placed here as I cannot find you on FA or have not taken down your info during AC, if you know who you are then let me say that I was glad to have met you and spent time with you.)

Anthrocon has yet again came and went, for my third year in a row I have enjoyed the shenanigans of the furry fandom at its largest gathering in North America (I don't say world cause I think there's one in the UK that's bigger, but that's just off the top of my head) and having gone through the motions of a con and loving the experience like before, I can safely say this convention has now officially ended, though I have yet to fully get myself sorted back at home, I can say that I'm quite happy to have went even though prior thoughts were of uncertainty and uneasiness.

Let's get down to business, this has been my third year going to Ac, and each time I go I learn something new about the community. The fandom, despite the negative connotation presented to it through the media and the interwebs, is actually one of the kindness communities anyone can be part of; people, most anyway, are generally kind-heated and helpful, despite the drama that still resides deep within the social history of the group. To touch a bit on the history for those who don't know, Anthrocon is partly a study, set up by several universities, to understand how a fandom such as this is formed, followed and developed through the ages. its quite daunting to imagine how old AC is, having started around the late 1998 (known as Albania Anthrocon) and going on into its 14th year with a record breaking 5000+ attendies (20% of those (1044) as fursuiters) and still climbing.

Apart from the history and fantastical numbers of attendees, tis not the subject 0f this journal, but rather a note on how my experience at the con was. It begins on Wednesday morning; catching a 6am bus to leave from Downtown Toronto heading toi Buffalo, then Eerie, then finally Pittsburgh itself in the span of 12 hours. it wasn't a bad trip, working a 12 hour shift on a common basis is a good way of getting your body and mind use to the strain of sitting around doing nothing for such a period of time. Aside from the reading and the laptop use (drawing is out of the question with the bumps) the trip eventually ended with us arriving in Pittsburg around 5:20pm (1720). After a brief shuffling off the bus and getting the dub-step down pat, I met up with my good friend and best bro  MikeMurdock who had been waiting for me all day. I felt touch, especially since I couldn't really return his texts back to him during the trip as my Canadian phone would overcharge me for texting (.75 cents a text) and tro be met by a good friend is always comforting when you're in an alien city.

We made our way to the Omni from the bus terminal, a quick hop-skip-&-jump from the station, past the Westin towards a rather nice, almost "ritzy" hotel just a few blocks from the David Lawrence Convention Center (DLCC). It was very lavishing in design, perhaps dating back pre-modern design hotels such as the Double Tree or Westin, whatever the case, it was fancy. Mike and I simply plopped ourselves in the lobby, without a room to place our things, the hotel was kind enough o let us keep our gear locked in a secured room until our room-owners arrived later in the evening, so that left us several hours to do what we pleased.

Since it was Wednsday and the con was a day away from starting, we decided to just kick back and relax while we waited for our roomies, suffice to say, not much happen on Wednesday, so lets move on to Thursday.

I want to put a deep thanks out to  Dumarsi for letting me chill in his room for the night. Had a blast and look forward to seeing you in the future. You guys in the room were all awesome and hope we can meet up in cons to come.

Anyway, Thursday, registered bright and early, got my stuff sorted and above all met up with some wonderful peeps.  TygerStKuan above all as we FINALLY were able to meet face to face. She's as sweet as ever and was quite happy to see her. I also was introduced to our room-boss Mike and I were staying with  jetillian and her mate  RewRanslynn both these peeps were Awesome Possoms and I was quite happy to have met them through Tyger.

The rest of the day was quite fantastic, once registration was done there isn't much else aside from a few mixers and meet ups. I went about the Zoo, chilled with friends, and just enjoyed the calm before the storm.


FRIDAY
Du du du DUH DUH!

Opening Ceremonies at 10am, that was something quite fantastic. I was quite impressed with what was in store for AC this year, being considered a giant leap in the size of attendees, as stated before, it was quite fantastic to experience such an undertaking, especially with all the fun to be had thereafter. Once ceremonies were done, its off to the Artist Alley and Dealers Den for the first slew of Commissions, was great to see  gNAW again as well, always nice to hear he's doing fine. I took the time thereafter to go and check on a few meetups, especially the Ontario fur meets as well as running into a few new faces of some good acquaintances; above all,  Izixs a wonderful individual who goes by the name Dr. Ixizs. He and I shared some interesting tidbits of info during the afternoon and evening of the Con and partook in one of my personal fave panels "Publishing your work for Business' (Or something like that) it was very interesting, one of the panels I really enjoyed and took a lot out of.
With that said, not much else happened Friday, mostly chilled in the room and watched anime.

Saturday
Day 02

Saturday is probably the busiest day of the Con, being the center of attention and all that. I can't really recall doing much on Saturday, checking out a few more places, enjoying time with friends, seeing stuff in the Dealers Den and Artist Alley, above all however was the Parade was awesome as always and seeing some more individuals I was hoping to see, such as  TigerBlack and  FlyingFire.

Again, not much else...I think because this con left me with quite a wide plate of food but little bit I could really bite into. Perhaps I need to rethink and plan my trip for next year a bit better.

Sunday
Last day!

Sunday, Sunday SUNDAY!| the final day of the con. Looking back, it was the quietest day of the con; sparse people in the AA and DD, most furs had partied the night away last night so they all slept in till 3, aside from a few closing notions and the closing ceremonies in the afternoon, the con wound down pretty smoothly and getting a chance to meet and say chao to a bunch of good friends always is a plus.

For all the people I met and spent time with I'm happy to have been given the opportunity to meet and greet all of you, spending time with you was fun and look forward to meeting you again at AC 2013!

Uhhh what?

Fur's and Furrettes, have you ever felt pressured to know things rather than just wait for them to happen? Honestly, growing up in a business oriented family its hard to just sit and wait for things; I like deadlines, or at least dates I know stuff's going to happen.

I've successfully completed my Teach English as a Second Language course (TESL) and now am waiting on my certificate to come in the mail. A certificate allows me only to teach ABROAD so, as stated in my last Journal, my trip to Korea won't be so scary with this in my pocket. It's been a long month, but honestly, it was well worth it. For some, especially my parents, they've asked "why not get the diploma? It allows you to teach here in Canada?" and I usually respond "because if I want to teach, I want to teach English as a FIRST language."

This brings me to my second point; Teachers Collage. I plan to apply to teachers collage in the coming month and, with luck, get in around sometime next year. I don't want to take it in Toronto since its so difficult to get in, and plan to try Winnipeg out, I've also had a chance to meet a few furries from there, most notably  Furgeta as he was pretty boss when I met him, gave me a few tips on drawing which I continue to do (Sadly I have no scanner so I can't post anything.)

Furthermore, since my Korea trip slowly seems less and less likely to happen (as sad as it is) I've been preparing for my AnthroCon 2012 trip with a few key notes from the mistakes of last year.
1: try and go with a bunch of furs via Bus again.
2: Double Tree - probably the best deal for that place and also the most furs I know tend to accumulate there.
3: No Warhammer stuff, I lost my prized model last year, won't make the same mistake again.

As usual, I'm hoping to stay with  mikemurdock again, and hopefully, we can spend the con with our good friend  TygerStKuan, surprisingly, she was there last year and Mike and I had NO idea she was.

Anyway, thats all from the wolfs mouth at this point.
Stay frosty!

Well, things have finally calmed down enough for me to write something, that or this cold I've been struck with has made me clear my head...and tear my eyes. (damn sniffles...) Its not fun being sick, especially when you're trying to sleep with a stuffed nose and you have a roll of TP at your disposal, oh geeze so much littler...

Onto sunnier pastures however, things have been looking up as of late, for those who don't know I've started work on the weekends part-time, it pays well and though its an 11 hour and eight hour shift on Saturday and Sunday, it does its best to keep me occupied and with some spending money in my pocket. I've also been preparing to go to Korea to teach English, special thanks to a good buddy I went to school with whose already over there, putting my name forward with the group he's working with. I should be hearing about it this coming week so its quite an awesome experience to be excited about.

Drawing wise its been well, despite the many attempts I've failed to, I've been drawing constantly, at least one sketch a day on whatever paper is at my disposal; blank or lined. The problem is I no longer have a scanner, my Printer/Scanner having long since borked and me without any way of posting my good work on here, more-so then my OC stuff, which is still nice, but not as good as my old pencil and paper stuff.

I've been working with miniatures as well now, with the loss of Natalia almost a year ago, I've been quite distraught about rebuilding figures like her.
I crumbled last week, built three of them.
Well, two actually, the third was one I found working on sometime ago, and decided to bring them back into play. Got some special rules which aren't too "out-of-the-park" for players who wish to go against these specialized Servator's.

I really want to start getting involved into the community, meeting people, OC'ing with whoever and just general shenanigans with my fellow fur. I hope some of the people who watch me and I watch in return will be able to spend some time in the future to do a bit of drawing and stuff.

Later Dayz

I really never left.

But I think I need to explain my situation to those of you who I knew and had good relations with, many of you I feel bad for leaving out in the cold, but my life had turned upside-down and inside out several times in the past few months...well, now almost a year...and it's just been too much for me to handle.

I don't want to sound like those drama llamas people tell me about, so I will make this brief; I've been searching for work with an unstable mind; my creativity is, at the moment, dormant within my brain and all my passion and desires to draw and write are asleep with it...not in that kind of way. The only method I have to regain that is to just find work and get myself stabilized.

I will slowly get myself back in order, though for those who tend to chat with me on IM services, I must offer you try me for Skype, which I use far more frequently and love their "no-limit" text posts compare to Yahoo or MSN. Feel free to message me or what not and I will pass you the address as quick as possible.

In other news, I am going to Las Vegas for a week with my father on a business trip, it should be a cool experience and I'm looking forward to checking out whatever I may find along the strip. I will be bringing a Eee PC (netbook) with me to take notes, but I have taken time to install a few things like Skype and Open Canvas on it just to see how it would preform. Perhaps being in a new place will get those creative juices going.


That's really all I got right now, some errands to be done since we are leaving tonight.
Peace out!

Ahhh AC, one of the prime Con's I look forward to attending.

I do have some interesting things to say about this year, though not as epic as last year, it did have a good amount of enjoyable notions to look forward to.

As per last year, I drove down with a few friends to Pittsburgh from Toronto on Wednesday, an 8 hour car ride that got us down there around 7pm. Once we were there, we had a hotel booked outside the city so it gave us a chance to rest and relax and just enjoy the prospect of BEING in Pittsburgh from Toronto.

Thursday came and I met up with one of my best friends  MikeMurdock who we had to collect from the airport in the morning before we would check into the Marriott Hotel, a 5 min walk from the con hall which wasn't such a bad thing. Once myself, Mike, and my two buds Zatuichi and Lune, friends from SL, had settled in the room, we ventured down to get some breakfast and get register. We stopped at the old stomping grounds of Au Bon Pain; a classly little dairy breakfast/brunch/lunch place that I went to last year. Mike and I were the only two who went as Zatuichi and Lune had woken up later than us. After Breakfast, we all went to the David Lawrence Convention Center or as noted by the staff "the DLCC". Having pre-reg, I didn't need to wait in line for long, and was quite excited to see another good friend of mine down there,  xhushx. As always, Hush was dressed to impress. I remeber her always wearing a green outfit, bit seeing her in such a lovely red dress was too much to pass up; serious eye-candy.

I met a few other peeps, the most notable were fellow Canadians such as  Horsieboy and  vallhund as well as a bunch of others I didn't get a chance to properly meet. All were from Manitoba, so it was a start on my quest to find some Torontonians.

After that, I ran into a few collage engineers, got into a lecture on Diesel engines, and made off with a bottle of water to quench the humidity that was killing me.

The last person I ran into was  booboobunnygirl though I did not speak much to her, she was an interesting individual I found very interesting despite her interest to keep much about her hidden under some pretty cool sunglasses. Whatever the case was, she was something interesting to speak of, and would be interested to know more about her.

Friday
Or, as I called it, Day of Fur.
I didn't attend opening Cems that morning, I didn't feel up to it after chilling with a bunch of SL friends the evening prior. Missing breakfast I waddled down to the con hall and got some commissions set, once done, I meandered around and met someone I am quite grateful to have run into:  shroompicker or Garnac as his SL name goes. He was a wonderful individual and am glad to have helped him wheel about the con; not easy with carpet.

Okay, let me just say I was responsible for Running a Warhammer 40,000 game that I had spent nearly two weeks organizing in my head...only to have no one show. People came by and were surprise, citing they "should have brought" but I mean, really, if it says on the outline, why not?
It irked me, the only person who did plaid the game way to srsly, and it turned me off the mood.

I did meet a few more artist, especially running into  FlyingFire now, for those who remember what I said before how I wasn't too happy with her because she never got back to me on my commission (she did eventually), well I have to say I was taken back by how wonderful she was as a person, and I had spent a good few months speaking with her and getting to know her; despite being timid, she is very comforting and was quite thrilled to see her. We spent a good deal of time talking about things and she even gave me a tip to making the water I drink more relax. This may sound odd, but for those who heard of the movie "What the &*%$ do we know", it states that the water inside our body shifts and change depending on our mood and makes is think differently, wicked eh?

Saturday
Saturday...sheesh, a lot on my mind this day, events prior had made me a bit edgy, but I was excited none-the-less to be about so many furs and fursuiters.

Missed breakfast and decided to wander the dealers den and artist alley yet again. Got some MLP commissions done for myself and a friend as well as run into some Ottawa furs, whoo! Aside from that, more commissions done, things were pretty cool and I got to catch up a bit with gNAW, who was hella-busy unfortunately and Max Black Rabbit. I plan to get both those guys next year with commissions, so here's hoping!

I did however have one interesting event with Garnac on the evening of Saturday; Furoticon.
Furoticon is a fantasy base "trading-card" game where you control a harem of furs to do your bidding in "sexual" battles against other harmes. Simply put, making your opponent orgasm is the name of the game. I was a bit skeptical, but after picking up a few cards (was only 20 bucks to be put into the draft) and getting a decent deck, I began my game.

I had a female and otherkin (anything not male, female, or herm) deck, an odd combination, but they did quiet well, my two best cards were a demon fox named Iso, and the every so popular and quite powerful Zig Zag. In total, I had 8 furs, 1 treat, and a bunch of lands or "Havens" as they are called. The games are interesting, despite their erotic nature, it holds the same regard as magic the gathering. I had fun, winning two out of three battles, though like always, I messed up on my prize, not exactly picking the "wrong" deck, but probably missing out on a better stable expansion for the deck I had.


Sunday


Slow day.. everything wound down, got some art show viewing with Garnac again, and enjoyed the time I share with many friends that evening. As I said before, the con came and went way too fast, and felt that they should make it a bit longer next year.

I did get two more artists to do some commissions of Cermina,  mai and  dmk who are both exceptional dragon-drawers, so should be fun to see the results.

Special Thanks to many awesome artists and friends I met at the con and spent a wonderful time with. Sadly I don't have much to report on this year. The con seemed to go by relatively quick and I missed out on a few things I wanted to see. However, not all was lost, and I did enjoy a wonderful weekend with close friends, good food, and tons of fur!

There was one casualty however from the Con. One of my Warhammer 40K miniatures went missing. She was a custom built figure I had spent a week working on, and was shocked to find her missing during the final day of the con. I posted a Lost and Found Notice, but so far, no luck.

Please, if anyone who went to AC had a chance to spot her, please IM me, she may not be worth much, but she has a lot of sentimental value and I dare not wish to have to replace her.

By the way, here is the link:
http://www.anthrocon.org/node/7075/.....nature-natalia

Anyway, with that aside, AC 11 is official finished, the mistakes learn will be used for AC 12, so here's hoping for quick progression till then!

WHy do we leave only to return?
Odd question, but it gives a guess to why.

I plan to put a rest to FA for awhile, if you want to check up on my works, check my DA instead. For now, I will "vacation" this account, so for now, later days!

-Creep

My DA:http://creepfrombehind.deviantart.com/

2010...

Man, itsa already come and gone as we step into the year of double one, a binary coders dream number from what I have read.

*ahem* Anyway, 2010 in Review, with your host, CreepfromBehind.

*cheesy intro music*

Well, welcome one and all to the New Years in Review, yes I know this is a bit late, but I have been a bit tied up for the past few weeks traveling out of country. For those who don't know, I went to Chilie with my family to spend two weeks in an eco camp, in other words, no internet for that period and that meant nothing in regards to much else either.

I did however have a wonderful time, despite a cold I picked up, everything about the trip was spectacular. Chilie is a wonderful place; slightly cold being close to the Andes, but overall it has a good deal of culture.
We began our trip in the captial, Santiago, no not Don fromn GoW, but the city. Its a rather "westernized" city since many American and European banks and companies set themselves up there, from IBM to Scotibank. Despite that, its still a city lush with South American styles, despite also being overlly romantic with couples in every square inch of greenery parks.

Anyway, moving on. We only spent a day there before heading south to Patagonia, the Chilien side, though many would say its part of Argentia; its actually a rather contested area between the two. According to our guide, the park we staid at was on the dividing line between Chilie and Argentina. The large glaciers which we saw were in "disputed" waters, and once they fully receede in like 200 years or so, there might be a fight for the borderline of the two countries.
Despite that notion however, the rest of the trip was awesome, painful for being a extreme hike heavy experience, but glorious for the sights, sounds, wildelife and companionship of fellow campers.

After a good week hiking and ventuing about the park, we took our trip back to Santiago for our second and last week of our vacation. My family and I spent three out of the five days relaxing and walking about Santiago, shopping, exploring, the like, and then two days we went to another city, Vala...something...its a port city we wandered about for the day, not much else to say. The second being a day of adventure wine tours, yes, you read that right; adventure wine tours.

Adventure wine tours aparently is offered by various Winery locations in the regions around Santiago, this was my highlight of the trip. We started by touring two wineries, both recently built and though not producing at the moment due to the cold weather, capable of giving a gudided tour of the facilities. The adventure part came in with the second winery, which its land had a zip-line coruse. Man...that was epic shit.

Through the coruse of the trip I wrote, mostly towards my science fiction peice I plan to get published by the end of this year (with luck in also getting some other side things done too.)
I also got some work on a comic idea, and I plan to have that made up, the problem is, I am looking for an artist(s) who may be interested in partaking in this assignment (yes, I will pay, they are commissions after-all)

The explain it in breif...well...
Spy Girls, Swords, and plenty of sex and sexual fights.

There is more to it, but hopefully those carefully chosen words would help perk a few interests.

Thats 2010, as for 2011, who knows!
I want to get tabs on some old friends, follow up on some old...outstanding commissions I bought from people who have yet to contact me, and hopefully get some ref works done of key characters for future works.

Anyway, my cold is acting up, better go put the kettle on.
Laterz
-Creep

SilverCreep for those who remember me from the Con. It came and went, and boy did it ever come! Anthro Con 2010 was the most amazing experience I had ever had for a con. Great people, great events, great laughs, food and even some quite amazing people to meet.

Going to AC and seeing all my SL friends really was fantastic, it gave me a chance to meet them in person, much better than simply trying to guess who is behind the avatar, and my perception of them was blow out of the water. All of them were great people, cool to spend time with and fun to be around.

Guys like  mikemurdockfor one, who was one of the highlights to see there, as well as all my Ordo friends from days past, Sera, Firefox, Tandem, Zrazor, Hoku, a few names to cast into the mix of great people who I enjoyed the company of.

There were also a good deal of artists I met and was pleased to do so during my time there, many on here and who I have begun to search and watch as well as remind about the commissions. Look forward to see what those guys have up their sleeves.

For now, I plan to just relax and unpack at home, I will be working on Anthrocon 2010 audio recording I had in mind, and an outline is already set up. I'll post it on here when its done.

That's all for now
Peace!

Well, for those who know, Anthro Con is coming...*insert Jaws theme here*
June 24-28, four days of pure furry.

I'm actually quite relived about it, a few friends and me were trying to plan on setting up a room, turns out we had a bit of a miss-communication and a shaky turnabout. Suffice to say, we did get things in order, and a room has been established with a few friends, making it 5 people in a 4 person room (meh, seen crowdyer)

The biggest thing i look forward to is spending time with my close friend  MikeMurdock it will be a real treat to see him and spend some good time with him. I have other friends i want to spend time with but Mike here...mike is the main reason im going and spending a nice couple of days with him will be a real treat.

I have been told to be careful. people worry about issues arising by others, I tell them that if they have problems, they should take them elsewere, AC is meant for fun, anyone who goes to cause trouble is a sick puppy.

Anyway, I hope that a few friends on here will be going too, you know who you are, and it will be a great honor to meet you down there

Later days
-Creep

Yeah, i finally noticed that while I've been updating my Deviant Art page with a lot of my more recent sketch work, i have yet to send any pieces to this account. Why? Probably because i don't think what I've been doing is worth putting here just yet, most of it is practice anyway.

Still, i do plan to post a few things soon enough, maybe some light drawings or a sketch or two, mostly trying to keep to the theme of character designs and a possible comic bit. Your still more than welcome to check my DA Page: http://creepfrombehind.deviantart.com/

In other news, in terms of what may be so "serious" for anyone who has seen Julia & Julie, when Julie began doing a blog about cooking from Julia's cookbook, i decided to do something a long those lines, but rather than cooking, i decided to write short stories. Each week i must post a short story, doesn't matter how long, not what the theme is, as long as i can write something with a beginning, middle and end, and then post it.

I much appreciate the support and you never know what story or other sorta writing bit may be posted there. Already the series that has started (a 3-4 part series i think) will be including a few characters of some close friends, some here, some on DA.

Still, interested or not, at least take a moment to check it out here: http://creepfrombehind.blogspot.com.....om-behind.html

Enjoy...onward to 2010!

Well, i hope everyone has some big plans for the holidays, i sure know i am and i really look forward to them. From December 23 (today) till January 7th, my family and I will be going down to Peru to spend the winter break, and out of those 15 days, 8 of them will be in the Amazon and Inka mountain trails.

Its quite exciting, but at the same time, I'm nervous as hell; its a place no one has been to before, and its completely out of the ordinary.

Despite that, i hope to have a grand time, get a lotta photos and do some drawing in my sketchbook too. Ill try to keep tabs on what goes on here and elsewhere, but the only "computer" im taking is my Ipod touch, so don't expect much

I hope everyone else has a great winter break, and if you don't hear from me again, good afternoon, good evening and goodnight.