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http://www.furaffinity.net/user/nyhm/

Nine inch Nyhms!

Awhile back, about a year ago i made an account for Nyhm, in the purpose of moving to it. This identity I use now just is not its simply just me appease all those I was found for and giving them what they. Now that I've grown up I'd rather make me happy and associate with an identity thats actually my own, and thats Nyhm.

I've been reluctant to move though, just mainly out of the fact of just how popular my art has become, it makes me so confused, happy but yet... Its just so weird, almost uncomforting really. I'm not a person who likes to stand out or be the center of attention all. Its just weird to me, how many people like my scribblings, its like surreal. I mean there reasons are probably far and few between, but they do appreciate it none the less.

But I digress. I want to make a new account so i can be more active. I want to draw more and interact more with this community. I can only do that by moving forward.

So that means, Crevan, has to die. I'm sad, but it must be done. He did have alot of character for a generic fox, but thats just not me.

During the course of this journal i have there in decided to move to Nyhm. I love you all, your favorites, your watching, and most of all your comments. I hope you'll move on with me, and in truth, my art, its only up from here, and it will not disappoint.

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/nyhm/

I'm very tired, and i feel very calm and relieved now so I'm heading to bed, good night. <3



You're the only one who can hold your head up high,
Shake your fist at the gates saying,
"I've come home now!"...

Fetch me the spirit, the son, and the father,
Tell them that their pillar of faith has ascended...

It's time now!...

My time now!...

Give me my...

Give me my wings!"...

...

I'm pretty much all better with everything, I'm feeling happy, starting to draw again, although for some reason I've been kinda recluse and keeping to myself. But what ever makes me happy. So hopefully I'll have some art and I'm doing alittle comic to learn how to do them, and when i post it I'd like some constructive criticism on it so I know I'm doing it right. hopefully I'll be able to get the soft wear for my scanner working alittle better, its been acting weird and get all my new stuff scanned. <3

So I passed out at work like a month ago at work. turns out I have another stomach ulcer. I've had them before, i just can't handle stress it seems. they haven't been bad though, like only the size of tiny bbs. My newest one is about as big as a nickle and I've been taking pain meds and eating shit food. Was going in for my overnite then operation the next day tonight. My insurance dude came in and was barking at all the idiot tards in the shitty hospital place. So now I dun have to get opperated and I'm going somewhere else to get another exam. Apparently soem insurance companies actually care. :o

Finishing up a commission. second one I've done, working, and fucking around in sl, modded a few new avs, I should take pics of them for you guys, but regardless I am alive. so weeeee! wiggle wiggle.

So hot right now my sweaty hand is smudging my line work while I draw.... FFFFFfffffffffff.... I guess I'm going to have to wait until latter to draw, I suppose in the meanwhile I could just scan existing art I haven't for some reason yet. :/

I've been just doodling alot and aimlessly futzing around on sl. I'm kinda tired of it, so want to see what you guys would like to see form me art-wise? What kinda drawings, characters, ect? And be honest, personally I've been doodling up clothing ideas sense I haven't really drawn them in a long time, but what do you guys wanna see form me? Also I've been wondering why do "you" personally watch me? I mean there are way better artists who do alot more crazy stuff then me, I mean I've never even taken a real art class or anything, everything I know and do is all self taught and just talent, no real skill, so what ever, back to topic, wahtcha want?

So my current place of employment I just quit today because I got a much better position with equal pay and actual benefits, and its working with clothes and such, at a place called Pac Sun, which makes me happy because its in cali and I could transfer to it and live back home and maybe do something with my life.

So yay. Also I've decided just to say fuck you to this labtop and get my pc fixed which is actually cheaper then getting the cd drive and a reformat on this labtop. But i o have to say without this pile I would have pretty bored and lonely so thank you to Dar and Thomas for fixing it up and giving it to me.

And! I promise to stop being lazy and scan some arts, also I would like to do some trades, I'm already doing one with a friend from Da and was wanting to maybe do 2 more, so what ever. I'll most likely base my want to trade on the person's "Murr'sona", so what ever, lollipops and gumdrops, and make sure to wear your sunday-pants or its back to the salt mines. <3

I have looked everywhere, and I've posted on a few other forums and thought I would post here.

Mashota ujda730 dvd/cdrw

for a Toshiba satellite 5105-s901

Also most of the downloads were some program called driver detective, some shady windows program that looks bs and like spyware.

So any help will be appreciated, in fact I'll do a simple sketch for anyone who can get me a function and actual download for it.

Its my birfday today. :V

I'm feeling alot better seance yesterday, thanks you guys, I'll actually post stuff today and doodle some more. <3

got a whole bunch of art to upload, going to do it all today. Some of it is original stuff, trades, and contest shit, so there you go.

A few things mixed together in my head last night and now that excited, happy want to draw attitude I had is now very dead. Just one thing someone kinda made everything fall down into place, I know they weren't meaning it the way I took it, but because of it I've had to look back on all the art I've done and I just kinda feel empty now. Back to that lonely stomachache and burning hallow chest feeling, just back to how I always feel, back to nothing. If I'm not drawing faggot fucking "yiffy" girly boys no one seems to care about my art, so thats what I draw, despite wanting to draw other things. I mean I do like porn and girly boys but thats not even a fraction of the things I enjoy in art, and I know I shouldn't be persuaded by the sheep, but its nice to hear and see that something I make is appreciated. I don't have much irl, I don't even have friends, seems all i have is the internet. But back to topic, I want to draw what I want with out things pressuring me to draw something else and I really don't see that happening so I'm just going to take a break from all this, and maybe if I'm able to, I'll come back.

So...

was doing something on sl and it crashes, all weird though, not like how it usaully does. Just turns off completely in a split second with an error message 2mins latter saying sl had to be closed. Get back on and my friends is completely missing. So! I've been manually refriending everyone and it would help alot if any of you are friends and could resend me a friend invite? :V

I have drawn two sergals, one named killy, the other zouichi. these are the protagonists from mangas I like, both of which are created and drawn by the same artist. If you can name the Artist and both mangas you can get free arts form me.

I want to make a new cute girlyboi char. I want him to be something different, preferably a mammal, and just something thats not seen alot, something that would be cute/neat or what ever. Any ideas?

New arts is a comings, and its totallys not dildos. Everyone i promised a pic, its done and your gunna get it, oh boy are you getting it. More gay porn, and more innerself expressive shit no one cares about too, and also a new char witch I will be trying to make into an av in sl. So enjoy or what ever, penis penis penis penis!

I'm going to be scanning my doodles tonight after I do some more, so new arts from me soon I suppose thats a "yay" for people who care about it.

On another note this doodles have alot in them that alot of you may not like and I'm probably going to get some unwatching and such. But my art is me, my expression of my self and I'm kinda tired of just doing what other people want. Just tired of wearing that happy-faced mask and being all giggly, gay, and bouncy. I'm just a self loathing, manic, psychotic sociopath who hates everything and just wants to be a normal person instead of some hollow monster who self mutilates himself and tortures himself to fill that need in my empty aching chest... I just Don't care anymore I'm done hiding.

Theres going to be alot of blood, gore, rape, anger, sorrow, and everything else that comes with being what I am in my art. Maybe if I express it through my art it might help me to be, I dunno something rather then nothing.

"You have to be a person before you can be a bad person."
My Uncle.

Going to be uploading doodles soon. :3

I want to draw, i really do... but I've been finding it very difficult, I just have no real drive and it feels like my creativity has yet to come back. I've tried drawing others things, gift art and stuff, tried doing trades but I just... I dunno... What can I do?

Also I've been having other problems, such as not sleeping, feeling detached, apathetic, but also little things, everything makes me angry... I just dunno, my life constantly changes, thigns get good go my way for awhile then it all falls apart and I struggle forever and thne it gets good again, like a really shitty roller coaster ride.

I removed my other journal because it was to personal. I'm just going to say there will be new art soon, enjoy.

[X] public speaking
[x] staying single forever (meh. :V)
[x] Rejection
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[x] that Scary guy... D:
[x] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] the ocean
[ ] failure
[x] success
[ ] thunder/lightning (I actually find it quite calming.)
[ ] frogs/toads
[x] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[x] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom (I don't like parental figures.)
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death (I really could care less.)
[x] heaven (I just don't like the idea of it.)
[x] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns (I actually think they're really funny.)
[ ] dolls
[x] large crowds of people (eve if they're my freinds I sjut can't handle it, especially if I'm the center of attention..)
[ ] men
[x] women (I really don't know why)
[x] having great responsibilities (they make me nervous because I don't want to screw everything up. I feel the same.)
[x] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[x] throwing up
[x] falling in love (its never worked out.)
[ ] super secret

Final Total: 28

If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of __ out of 75 common fears.

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.

Taken from  Krats :3

A relationship has just ended for me, one that I wish could have endured. So I might not be posting art alot or at all, jsut wanted to give the heads up.

My computer no longer works, at all. Its over six years old now, I guess it was going to happen. Took it to get fixed by the same person who repaired it before, told me there was nothing that could be done for it. So if your my one of my friends or one of the emo kids who drive me crazy on a daily bases you probably will not be seeing me for a long time, nor art for that matter... Just wanted to tell everyone. *hugs and nuzzles.* hope to see you guys again soon.

-Todd

Thanks to everyone, and especially those who wished me a happy birth day. :3 I had a good easy day and got some cool gifts. A really awesome pic from my best friend, some music from another, and a tablet from my mate. I've never used a tablet before, but its very awesome, I love it so much, just need to learn to use it better. :P

Its my birth day today. :3 I'm another year older and still feel exactly the same, my life is improving and I've managed to keep my best friends as well as beginning to make new friends. So I'm feeling pretty happy. :3