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Still struggling, Sorry >.<
Posted 10 years agoAs the title states I am still struggling at the moment, I don't feel like my self, they took me off of 4 different medicines and added a new one... so I have been feeling really disconnected...
That means that I have a hard time drawing cause I feel weird like all the time, they may end up putting me back on a few of them if things turn out ok in my blood tests, but I am not sure yet.
So art will be slow (was gonna try to stream today... ended up just sleeping all day instead X_x) gonna try to stream this week if I can, but I am not sure, last stream I had I had a mini break down cause I can not draw the way I use to.
Gonna be doing a few things here and there to try to gain balance in art again, so please do not be upset if I am not doing your commission yet, I don't want to give you crap art for money ._.;
That is all I wanted to say, not sure how long I will be messed up... unless I just stay like this then I will try to adapt, thanks for reading <3
That means that I have a hard time drawing cause I feel weird like all the time, they may end up putting me back on a few of them if things turn out ok in my blood tests, but I am not sure yet.
So art will be slow (was gonna try to stream today... ended up just sleeping all day instead X_x) gonna try to stream this week if I can, but I am not sure, last stream I had I had a mini break down cause I can not draw the way I use to.
Gonna be doing a few things here and there to try to gain balance in art again, so please do not be upset if I am not doing your commission yet, I don't want to give you crap art for money ._.;
That is all I wanted to say, not sure how long I will be messed up... unless I just stay like this then I will try to adapt, thanks for reading <3
In need of Windows 8.1 or 10
Posted 10 years agoNow I am trying to get my self back to normal... or trying to I am in need of getting ether Windows 8.1 or somehow getting Windows 10
I want to say that I don't care if you do not like these OSs, I do, I want them and they have features I want, so I don't want to downgrade to Win 7 or get Linux or what ever.
I am willing to do some art for a legit copy of Windows 8.1 or Windows 10
Since Windows 8.1 is older I would do a sketch to an ink image for.
For Windows 10 I would do a full colored image for.
That is it, I want a "legit" product key for ether of those, first come first serve, art will be done after I finish my commissions that are in que AND I make sure the key works fully and no issues pop up (I have been here on FA for many years and I am a man of my word)
I do have two computers, so I would need two keys of course, so I'd being doing art accordingly like I have outlined in my price guide.
Thanks for reading and hope I can make a deal with some one ^^
I want to say that I don't care if you do not like these OSs, I do, I want them and they have features I want, so I don't want to downgrade to Win 7 or get Linux or what ever.
I am willing to do some art for a legit copy of Windows 8.1 or Windows 10
Since Windows 8.1 is older I would do a sketch to an ink image for.
For Windows 10 I would do a full colored image for.
That is it, I want a "legit" product key for ether of those, first come first serve, art will be done after I finish my commissions that are in que AND I make sure the key works fully and no issues pop up (I have been here on FA for many years and I am a man of my word)
I do have two computers, so I would need two keys of course, so I'd being doing art accordingly like I have outlined in my price guide.
Thanks for reading and hope I can make a deal with some one ^^
Life update (and what happened last few days)
Posted 10 years agoEverything started on Friday (well before that, but we will get to that)
Friday - I go into my appoint with my doctor, I for once did not have to wait long at all to see her, talked about the fact that I am gonna go on dialysis really soon it seems and she wanted me to get labs done, so I go get blood drawn and go home.
Not very painful, much less pain then normal... nope.
I get home and ate and started playing Fallout 3 again (to prepare for when Fallout 4 will be out later this year) I get a phone call from my doctor, turns out my Creatinine levels we really bad all of a sudden and she wanted me to go to the hospital and stay, I did not want to be she insisted, so I had my brother drop me off at the hospital and I go in.
After waiting forever for some one to bring a wheelchair for me and take me to my room (which had another person in it.. yay) I finally spoke to a nurse... then a doctor, then more doctors... they wanted to monitor me through the day cause they wanted to change my meds around.
So I was asked a few times if I needed anything, I asked for water cause I had not had anything to drink for awhile... I asked five times, since the first time I asked it was OVER 5hours before I got a stupid little cup of water, which after I find out later that I was being dehydrated by all the meds I was taking and later in the night I was hooked up to an IV to get fluids in me... thats nice...
So I talked to
firefly8083 on Skype through my tablet (she was really worried about me and texted me right away) and she helped me calm down, I eventually got tired and wanted to rest (she was tired too so it was for the best) but that is when the hell of a night happened, I was worn out and yet they kept coming in to take my vitals... just when I was able to fall asleep (the beds were horrid, I hurt so much laying there, also had one flimsy pillow that did not do anything for me ether) not just once, but every 4 hours, had no food and barley any water...
The guy next to me... a very quiet man, was not a bother at all.. but his IV machine kept going off... he would call to get it reset... and it would take forever for anyone to come down to reset it, I can't handle beepings, phone rings and chimes well (I have all my Skype sounds muted because of that... I also get mad at the microwave...)
So I was getting really anxious and felt like I was having a panic attack, and my phone kept going off cause my best friend Zod was texting me.. he was gonna come and visit... but it seemed like he was not gonna stay long at all from what he made it seemed... and that finally broke me, I needed to be around him so I didn't flake out, so I asked to see the doctor cause I was done, I wanted out... she came in and tried to calm me down, I tried to explain why everything was setting me off, she offered me a Prozac... I did not want it because it turns out the two new pills they started me on cause my kidneys to get worse.
So she finally relented and went to get a waver for me to sign so I could go... and for the Nth time that day I was asked AGAIN if I felt like hurting my self or committing suicide, for fuck sakes I have told there people time and again that I was not like that and that I was only upset when ever I have to go to the hospital and the whole time I was in that damn room, I signed the waver and they told me I have to come back on Monday, gave me two Metro passes and a thing to call to see about getting a ride up... except I had no idea when I needed to go and I called Sunday and it was too late cause I needed to give them 48hours... and the nearest bus stop was a 2 hour walk away from my home... WHEN I COULD WALK BETTER, so screw that I am just gonna go on my brothers next day off.
I left with a new prescription to help keep my blood presure down and instructions to not take FOUR meds they prescribed me before and to drink lots of water.. also I am taking way less pain meds so that might suck really bad, but it is needed.
I asked for the nurse to come and take the IV out of me cause I had signed the waver and wanted to go, she came in (after waiting like 20-30 mins)she put on gloves and walked over to me... then walked away, said she needed to process my papers or something then she was gone for 45mins or some crap, but then Zod had shown up with his wife and kids (who went down stairs since they did not want to bother the man, Zod stayed and we chatted) nurse came back finally with the paperwork... a NEW waver sheet... I told her I signed that like an hour and a half ago... sigh... anyhoo a bit of levity, she asked if Zod was my brother (cause we do look a like) and I told him "Hey she is making fun of your weight" >u>
Things just got better, I decided to walk out instead of waiting for a wheelchair, we all jokes and chatted in the car and was talking to Zod's wife (her name is Leigh she is awesome same as Zod) we talked about the hospital that was closer to me and how much better it was, so I am gonna switch to that hospital when I can, we got to Zod's house and dropped off the wife and kids and he comes back out and is really to drive me back home, but not before he hands me $100 for my birthday, which was really nice of him, his family wanted food so we headed over to Wendys but not before I hit a close by Gamestop to get me a few games.
After that we hung out, ate, I threw away a ton of pills and we watched videos and I tried out the games I got, the night ended with a hug from my best friend and that is how Saturday went.
Being afraid of my birthday so far I decided to sleep most of Sunday (made sure to take my meds and drink plenty of water) I did talk to firefly8083 (my sis <3) and that was it.
And that is what happend, probably forgot stuff, but the journal is long enough as it is... gonna do like I said and try to go to the closer hospital from now on, it was bloody dangerous I feel the way things went at UC (due to being understaffed I bet) and I am very angry about the whole thing.
Thanks for reading, and all the art gifts, money gifts and just an absolute ton of happy birthdays on here and on Skype, it was much appreciated <3
Friday - I go into my appoint with my doctor, I for once did not have to wait long at all to see her, talked about the fact that I am gonna go on dialysis really soon it seems and she wanted me to get labs done, so I go get blood drawn and go home.
Not very painful, much less pain then normal... nope.
I get home and ate and started playing Fallout 3 again (to prepare for when Fallout 4 will be out later this year) I get a phone call from my doctor, turns out my Creatinine levels we really bad all of a sudden and she wanted me to go to the hospital and stay, I did not want to be she insisted, so I had my brother drop me off at the hospital and I go in.
After waiting forever for some one to bring a wheelchair for me and take me to my room (which had another person in it.. yay) I finally spoke to a nurse... then a doctor, then more doctors... they wanted to monitor me through the day cause they wanted to change my meds around.
So I was asked a few times if I needed anything, I asked for water cause I had not had anything to drink for awhile... I asked five times, since the first time I asked it was OVER 5hours before I got a stupid little cup of water, which after I find out later that I was being dehydrated by all the meds I was taking and later in the night I was hooked up to an IV to get fluids in me... thats nice...
So I talked to
firefly8083 on Skype through my tablet (she was really worried about me and texted me right away) and she helped me calm down, I eventually got tired and wanted to rest (she was tired too so it was for the best) but that is when the hell of a night happened, I was worn out and yet they kept coming in to take my vitals... just when I was able to fall asleep (the beds were horrid, I hurt so much laying there, also had one flimsy pillow that did not do anything for me ether) not just once, but every 4 hours, had no food and barley any water...The guy next to me... a very quiet man, was not a bother at all.. but his IV machine kept going off... he would call to get it reset... and it would take forever for anyone to come down to reset it, I can't handle beepings, phone rings and chimes well (I have all my Skype sounds muted because of that... I also get mad at the microwave...)
So I was getting really anxious and felt like I was having a panic attack, and my phone kept going off cause my best friend Zod was texting me.. he was gonna come and visit... but it seemed like he was not gonna stay long at all from what he made it seemed... and that finally broke me, I needed to be around him so I didn't flake out, so I asked to see the doctor cause I was done, I wanted out... she came in and tried to calm me down, I tried to explain why everything was setting me off, she offered me a Prozac... I did not want it because it turns out the two new pills they started me on cause my kidneys to get worse.
So she finally relented and went to get a waver for me to sign so I could go... and for the Nth time that day I was asked AGAIN if I felt like hurting my self or committing suicide, for fuck sakes I have told there people time and again that I was not like that and that I was only upset when ever I have to go to the hospital and the whole time I was in that damn room, I signed the waver and they told me I have to come back on Monday, gave me two Metro passes and a thing to call to see about getting a ride up... except I had no idea when I needed to go and I called Sunday and it was too late cause I needed to give them 48hours... and the nearest bus stop was a 2 hour walk away from my home... WHEN I COULD WALK BETTER, so screw that I am just gonna go on my brothers next day off.
I left with a new prescription to help keep my blood presure down and instructions to not take FOUR meds they prescribed me before and to drink lots of water.. also I am taking way less pain meds so that might suck really bad, but it is needed.
I asked for the nurse to come and take the IV out of me cause I had signed the waver and wanted to go, she came in (after waiting like 20-30 mins)she put on gloves and walked over to me... then walked away, said she needed to process my papers or something then she was gone for 45mins or some crap, but then Zod had shown up with his wife and kids (who went down stairs since they did not want to bother the man, Zod stayed and we chatted) nurse came back finally with the paperwork... a NEW waver sheet... I told her I signed that like an hour and a half ago... sigh... anyhoo a bit of levity, she asked if Zod was my brother (cause we do look a like) and I told him "Hey she is making fun of your weight" >u>
Things just got better, I decided to walk out instead of waiting for a wheelchair, we all jokes and chatted in the car and was talking to Zod's wife (her name is Leigh she is awesome same as Zod) we talked about the hospital that was closer to me and how much better it was, so I am gonna switch to that hospital when I can, we got to Zod's house and dropped off the wife and kids and he comes back out and is really to drive me back home, but not before he hands me $100 for my birthday, which was really nice of him, his family wanted food so we headed over to Wendys but not before I hit a close by Gamestop to get me a few games.
After that we hung out, ate, I threw away a ton of pills and we watched videos and I tried out the games I got, the night ended with a hug from my best friend and that is how Saturday went.
Being afraid of my birthday so far I decided to sleep most of Sunday (made sure to take my meds and drink plenty of water) I did talk to
firefly8083 (my sis <3) and that was it.And that is what happend, probably forgot stuff, but the journal is long enough as it is... gonna do like I said and try to go to the closer hospital from now on, it was bloody dangerous I feel the way things went at UC (due to being understaffed I bet) and I am very angry about the whole thing.
Thanks for reading, and all the art gifts, money gifts and just an absolute ton of happy birthdays on here and on Skype, it was much appreciated <3
And my luck continues...
Posted 10 years agoMy doctor called (I had an appointment today) and said my kidneys are doing much much worse... so she wants me to go back to the hospital to stay there for two days, that is right I am gonna be hospitalized for the next two days, so I will be spending my birthday at the hospital.
The call back is to let me know if a bed is available for me...
I'm too depressed to care about art any time soon, sorry I will try to get back to it at some point....
The call back is to let me know if a bed is available for me...
I'm too depressed to care about art any time soon, sorry I will try to get back to it at some point....
Happy birthday!F***Windows 10 problems
Posted 10 years agoNight before last, I had gotten Windows 10 installed on my laptop with no issues, loved it, installed my usual stuffs and decided that I wanted to get it installed and ready to go on my desktop so I could stream yesterday morning... well things went to hell (since I did not stream yesterday norning that is a given)
I started the install on my desktop, it was chugging away till it hit %40 and then... black screen, nothing worked, so I put in my USB drive with Windows 10 on it and flatten the computer... everything seemed to go ok, except I don't have it activated and I have no key... also my Windows 8 that came with my desktop had no disc... or a key ether.
I call up Microsoft and explain my situation to THREE different people, first two were just like "SOOLDUDE, buy Windows 10 or enjoy no OS, it's your fault" last person said it was an issue on their end and it should go away in 1-2days, and if it does not then I am to call back, so my desktop is working for now, but who knows how long before it gets locked out or something.
Anyhoo, what ever... I go to my laptop cause I want to watch
daemon-wolf stream and boom... Windows 10 locks up and does not want to boot or when it does it freezes and crashes after awhile.... so I give up after awhile and decided to try and stream, failed horribbly, not because I had issues with my desktop, but I kept passing out.
Took a nap and am now reinstalling Windows 7 on my laptop (I bought that so I have a CD and key... wth do computer makers do this? (EVERY SYSTEM SHOULD AT LEAST HAVE A KEY) and gonna try to upgrade to Windows 10 again... this is only a few hours before I have to go to my doctors appointment which is at 9:30am
Just a horrible amount of luck, just as well I guess, something always happens near my birthday (Aug 2nd... on a Sunday? really?) yup no cake, parties, gifts or what ever, just agonoy making me wish I was not born... and I still have 4 commissions to get done or I am gonna be broke again really soon... thanks a lot life, I would rather a Surface pro 3 or a PS4 or just a game or something, you can keep that other S*** to your self.
Anyhoo, that is it, bitching in a journal again I know (all from the comfort of my Andriod tablet no less) but this is important for peole who are waiting on art.
Thanks for reading and hope your having a better week then me.
I started the install on my desktop, it was chugging away till it hit %40 and then... black screen, nothing worked, so I put in my USB drive with Windows 10 on it and flatten the computer... everything seemed to go ok, except I don't have it activated and I have no key... also my Windows 8 that came with my desktop had no disc... or a key ether.
I call up Microsoft and explain my situation to THREE different people, first two were just like "SOOLDUDE, buy Windows 10 or enjoy no OS, it's your fault" last person said it was an issue on their end and it should go away in 1-2days, and if it does not then I am to call back, so my desktop is working for now, but who knows how long before it gets locked out or something.
Anyhoo, what ever... I go to my laptop cause I want to watch
daemon-wolf stream and boom... Windows 10 locks up and does not want to boot or when it does it freezes and crashes after awhile.... so I give up after awhile and decided to try and stream, failed horribbly, not because I had issues with my desktop, but I kept passing out.Took a nap and am now reinstalling Windows 7 on my laptop (I bought that so I have a CD and key... wth do computer makers do this? (EVERY SYSTEM SHOULD AT LEAST HAVE A KEY) and gonna try to upgrade to Windows 10 again... this is only a few hours before I have to go to my doctors appointment which is at 9:30am
Just a horrible amount of luck, just as well I guess, something always happens near my birthday (Aug 2nd... on a Sunday? really?) yup no cake, parties, gifts or what ever, just agonoy making me wish I was not born... and I still have 4 commissions to get done or I am gonna be broke again really soon... thanks a lot life, I would rather a Surface pro 3 or a PS4 or just a game or something, you can keep that other S*** to your self.
Anyhoo, that is it, bitching in a journal again I know (all from the comfort of my Andriod tablet no less) but this is important for peole who are waiting on art.
Thanks for reading and hope your having a better week then me.
Girl Confessions meme
Posted 10 years agoI'm not a girl...
Journal over :B
Journal over :B
About the last journal
Posted 10 years agoPlease visit this link:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6912824/
Things might be bad for use artists and people who commissioned art that went there and posted a complaint, there is more in the link... might have to change some passwords now... damn it -__-
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6912824/
Things might be bad for use artists and people who commissioned art that went there and posted a complaint, there is more in the link... might have to change some passwords now... damn it -__-
Art being used without my permission
Posted 10 years agohttp://wallpart.com/poster/furrtrax.....0#comment_4234
This site has a commission I did for
driana some time back, and she did not put it up there nor did I.
You may want to see if any of your art is there also, and if you could complain to the site so they will take it down that would be great.
This should not have happened, it is driana's commission, if anything she deserves to get any money made from it.... I hate people >.>
Thanks for reading
UPDATE: The drawing in question has been taken down, still pass this a long to your fave artists and look your selves to see if there is art that should not be there.
Thanks for everyone who reported through this journal, you guys are awesome *hugs* <3
This site has a commission I did for
driana some time back, and she did not put it up there nor did I.You may want to see if any of your art is there also, and if you could complain to the site so they will take it down that would be great.
This should not have happened, it is
driana's commission, if anything she deserves to get any money made from it.... I hate people >.>Thanks for reading
UPDATE: The drawing in question has been taken down, still pass this a long to your fave artists and look your selves to see if there is art that should not be there.
Thanks for everyone who reported through this journal, you guys are awesome *hugs* <3
Damn it all to hell, QUIBIDS IS A SCAM!
Posted 10 years agoSo, today I thought I was having an ok day even though I have been too tired to draw (could not draw yesterday ether, just dragging tired)
Got some food and Diet coke, also stopped by Gamestop with my $15 off coupon to get Ratcher and Clank collection and Red Dead on Xbox 360 after I took a game in...
I came home and was looking around Gamefqs and stumbled apon a sute called Quibids, decided (hey why not, what harm could it be for me to check it out with a few free bids and maybe a few paid ones.... THAT IS NOT WHAT FUCKING HAPPENED.
I was sitting there watching some auctions and boom, email saying I sent them $60... the god damn hell???? I got in contact with support, all I kept getting is "you agreed to pay that much, sorry we can send you back $20 in unused bids"
So now I am pissed, I am no longer doing well with cash, one commission to do and I can barley stay awake to play games lately...
Things I did was check online, other people have the same issue as me, there are tons of angry people on the web and I will link Paypal these angry people when I go to dispute the charge tomorrow.
Also my preorder for Gear of War: Ultimate at Best Buy was canceled for no reason.... have to wait till next week when my gift certificates get refunded to reorder it, guy was helpful at least cause he said he was gonna send me some compensation cause of this issue.
That is it from the nearly broke dog who got scammed, wanted to warn you guys about Quibids.com, it's a scam... DO NOT TRUST IT! what a damn horrible day.
PS please pass this info along to others, thanks for reading.
Got some food and Diet coke, also stopped by Gamestop with my $15 off coupon to get Ratcher and Clank collection and Red Dead on Xbox 360 after I took a game in...
I came home and was looking around Gamefqs and stumbled apon a sute called Quibids, decided (hey why not, what harm could it be for me to check it out with a few free bids and maybe a few paid ones.... THAT IS NOT WHAT FUCKING HAPPENED.
I was sitting there watching some auctions and boom, email saying I sent them $60... the god damn hell???? I got in contact with support, all I kept getting is "you agreed to pay that much, sorry we can send you back $20 in unused bids"
So now I am pissed, I am no longer doing well with cash, one commission to do and I can barley stay awake to play games lately...
Things I did was check online, other people have the same issue as me, there are tons of angry people on the web and I will link Paypal these angry people when I go to dispute the charge tomorrow.
Also my preorder for Gear of War: Ultimate at Best Buy was canceled for no reason.... have to wait till next week when my gift certificates get refunded to reorder it, guy was helpful at least cause he said he was gonna send me some compensation cause of this issue.
That is it from the nearly broke dog who got scammed, wanted to warn you guys about Quibids.com, it's a scam... DO NOT TRUST IT! what a damn horrible day.
PS please pass this info along to others, thanks for reading.
Spotlight on ... commissioners!
Posted 10 years agoWell you see people all the time post journals pointing out people who do really good art and stuff of various types.... I have not seen any journals about people who commission, so here is one by me!
Please note I am humble about every commission I get cause you guys have far better options, but I wanted to single out 3 people for this journal because they have been patient with me and all my set backs due to health, here they are in alphabetical order:
B34R_Po3r1o Have know him for quite awhile now, he has been supportive and when he is in stream he tried to break up the silence by chatting with me, it means a lot... I still feel guilty about my health issues getting in the way with some art I owe him, but he has never wanted me to feel that way, if you have him as a commissioner you would be very lucky indeed.
ComputerFreak This guy I have known less, but he has commissioned so much art from me, he is kind, warm and also patient with me, had some weeks of gaps in waiting for art but he just waited and was very kind with his words about my works. his eagerness to get my art makes me feel more confident about my work!
Driana I have fell in love with this mousy, she is a dear friend now and it is all because she, like the person before, bought so much art in such a short time and loves my work that makes me feel like I can feel proud of my art. like the others she is very patient about how long things take me sometimes and she very understanding with everything.
And that is it for now, if you have any of these people commissioning you you should know how lucky you are, great commissioners is not an easy thing to find.
Treat any commissioners well, they are not walking "$" signs, they are people, people who could very well just go and get art from some one else if you treat them bad, thank you three so much... and sorry if the journal is a little wonky... I'm tired x3
Thanks for reading ^^
Please note I am humble about every commission I get cause you guys have far better options, but I wanted to single out 3 people for this journal because they have been patient with me and all my set backs due to health, here they are in alphabetical order:
B34R_Po3r1o Have know him for quite awhile now, he has been supportive and when he is in stream he tried to break up the silence by chatting with me, it means a lot... I still feel guilty about my health issues getting in the way with some art I owe him, but he has never wanted me to feel that way, if you have him as a commissioner you would be very lucky indeed.
ComputerFreak This guy I have known less, but he has commissioned so much art from me, he is kind, warm and also patient with me, had some weeks of gaps in waiting for art but he just waited and was very kind with his words about my works. his eagerness to get my art makes me feel more confident about my work! Driana I have fell in love with this mousy, she is a dear friend now and it is all because she, like the person before, bought so much art in such a short time and loves my work that makes me feel like I can feel proud of my art. like the others she is very patient about how long things take me sometimes and she very understanding with everything.And that is it for now, if you have any of these people commissioning you you should know how lucky you are, great commissioners is not an easy thing to find.
Treat any commissioners well, they are not walking "$" signs, they are people, people who could very well just go and get art from some one else if you treat them bad, thank you three so much... and sorry if the journal is a little wonky... I'm tired x3
Thanks for reading ^^
Taking some commissions!
Posted 10 years agoMost of the info you need to know about my commissions are here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15951444/
Just need to post below with your character to see if I can handle it, if I think I can I will let you know so you can note me.
Want to add that I have been taking $70 simple refsheets so i am open for those too (extra for extra details)
Also doing funny meme images and icons if you like, please let me know what you would like.
Also if you are interested in comic book style commissions like this:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16711275/
They are only $5 more (because of the details)
Thanks for reading and thanks if anyone commissions me, it means a lot *hugs*
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15951444/
Just need to post below with your character to see if I can handle it, if I think I can I will let you know so you can note me.
Want to add that I have been taking $70 simple refsheets so i am open for those too (extra for extra details)
Also doing funny meme images and icons if you like, please let me know what you would like.
Also if you are interested in comic book style commissions like this:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16711275/
They are only $5 more (because of the details)
Thanks for reading and thanks if anyone commissions me, it means a lot *hugs*
Terrible day, important info that pertains to me....
Posted 10 years agoI was stuck at the hospital for 8 hours today, I spent most of the day at the cafeteria where I had some chicken wraps and a pretzel bread sandwich which all contained things that are rapidly destroying me it seems (Tomatoes, Avocados, Chicken, Roast Beef, the damn thing the food was wrapped/contained it) had no idea till after my second appointment (which was 3pm with my first being 8am) also has a small cut of carrot cake and some cookies.... and diet Coke... which is bad for me because it contains phosphorous.
My kidneys are getting worse and worse, I could be on dialyses in like a year or so, if I don't do it I might die.
I could see about getting surgery to remove the fat off of me so they can do a kidney transplant, unsure.
Saw a different doctor today, told him about my pains like I have told the other doctors who have seen me, he diagnosed my extreme leg pains as being from diabetic neuropathy AND SOMETHING NEW.... Osteoarthritis, now that SOME ONE diagnosed that, maybe people will finally understand why it hurts so damn much to move instead of feeding me "if you walk you will do better" yeah I would, but you don't understand how much it hurts.
Anyway... so that is it for me eating out, buying pizza, I need to get on Weight Watchers or something so they can put together meals for me that are safe, but I will have to wait to see if SS will approve me, cause I won't be able to handle the cost on my own, maybe I could at the expense of not buying video games anymore (which I might as well be dead if I can't enjoy the most important fucking thing in my life) which would not last long anyway cause I dunno how long I will be able to draw anyway.
That is it, sorry this is a terrible journal, but at least you are not dealing with this, just reading about it (at least I hope none of you are going through this...)
Anyhoo that is it... other then my headset broke while I was at the hospital, so I had to get a new one... well my brother did since I could not afford it (neither could my brother really, but he knows that I use it for streams) so there is that.
Thanks for reading, I hope everyone is in good health, just go get checkups, you never know what is killing you till it's too late *hugs*
My kidneys are getting worse and worse, I could be on dialyses in like a year or so, if I don't do it I might die.
I could see about getting surgery to remove the fat off of me so they can do a kidney transplant, unsure.
Saw a different doctor today, told him about my pains like I have told the other doctors who have seen me, he diagnosed my extreme leg pains as being from diabetic neuropathy AND SOMETHING NEW.... Osteoarthritis, now that SOME ONE diagnosed that, maybe people will finally understand why it hurts so damn much to move instead of feeding me "if you walk you will do better" yeah I would, but you don't understand how much it hurts.
Anyway... so that is it for me eating out, buying pizza, I need to get on Weight Watchers or something so they can put together meals for me that are safe, but I will have to wait to see if SS will approve me, cause I won't be able to handle the cost on my own, maybe I could at the expense of not buying video games anymore (which I might as well be dead if I can't enjoy the most important fucking thing in my life) which would not last long anyway cause I dunno how long I will be able to draw anyway.
That is it, sorry this is a terrible journal, but at least you are not dealing with this, just reading about it (at least I hope none of you are going through this...)
Anyhoo that is it... other then my headset broke while I was at the hospital, so I had to get a new one... well my brother did since I could not afford it (neither could my brother really, but he knows that I use it for streams) so there is that.
Thanks for reading, I hope everyone is in good health, just go get checkups, you never know what is killing you till it's too late *hugs*
Commissions
Posted 10 years agoMost of the info you need to know about my commissions are here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15951444/
Just need to post below with your character to see if I can handle it, if I think I can I will let you know so you can note me.
Want to add that I have been taking $70 simple refsheets so i am open for those too (extra for extra details)
Also doing funny meme images and icons if you like, please let me know what you would like.
Also if you are interested in comic book style commissions like this:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16711275/
They are only $5 more (because of the details)
Thanks for reading and thanks if anyone commissions me, it means a lot *hugs*
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15951444/
Just need to post below with your character to see if I can handle it, if I think I can I will let you know so you can note me.
Want to add that I have been taking $70 simple refsheets so i am open for those too (extra for extra details)
Also doing funny meme images and icons if you like, please let me know what you would like.
Also if you are interested in comic book style commissions like this:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16711275/
They are only $5 more (because of the details)
Thanks for reading and thanks if anyone commissions me, it means a lot *hugs*
Gonna take a break from streaming, commissions open
Posted 10 years agoFirst off want to thank people for the comments in the last journal, I did read them, I know you all are trying to help and I love you for it, but I can't help the way I feel about my self.
Secondly, I am gonna take a break from streaming, I am gonna be honest, I am scared of people right now, more like scared to hurt people or something, but still gonna work on art, just wont be as quick since it is hard to keep to art without a stream to keep me focus.
Which leads to of course, opening up for commissions:
This is probably fine since maybe some people want art but don't want to get them in stream, I have only two commissions to tackle, one is half way done and the other is a two character color commission, do have a doctors appointment tomorrow so I am gonna guess I will start on them at least by Friday (will work through the weekend) will post a journal for them after this one.
Lastly I want to reiterate again what I spend money on, because I have NEVER lied about it.
When I get commission money I spend it on three things and three things only: Food and drink, I buy cheap 10 for 10 frozen meals and buy fast food for my self and my brother since he pays all the bills in the house which I think for a bit of food for him is ok since he has to work two jobs to take care of my worthless butt. second is Netflix, it's like $9 a month, not much, but it is there. Lastly I buy video games, some people might think it is stupid or worthless, but imagine if you do not go out much at all, just one friend that live close that you might be able to see twice a month... and when I am not doing art I have TV and games, it's all I have as recreation, that is it... when people donate to me usually it is when I am at a dead end and can't afford food, when people tip or just send me money out of the blue I do use it for games, if that makes me horrible then I am sorry, I really am, and that is why I am not worth donating to, there are more worthy people out there.
Now that is out of the way I want to thank you all again for being on my side despite my unstable emotions and frequent break downs and more thanks to the people who commented in the last journal again, in short your words did not fall on def ears, but it's hard to believe them ya know? and remember, what ever twisted freak I am, I don't want to lie, there are things I feel uncomfortable revealing about my self, I have talked about some of it, but not all, not everyone wants to talk about EVERYTHING.
Thanks for reading and if you want a commission please post in the next joural *hugs*
Secondly, I am gonna take a break from streaming, I am gonna be honest, I am scared of people right now, more like scared to hurt people or something, but still gonna work on art, just wont be as quick since it is hard to keep to art without a stream to keep me focus.
Which leads to of course, opening up for commissions:
This is probably fine since maybe some people want art but don't want to get them in stream, I have only two commissions to tackle, one is half way done and the other is a two character color commission, do have a doctors appointment tomorrow so I am gonna guess I will start on them at least by Friday (will work through the weekend) will post a journal for them after this one.
Lastly I want to reiterate again what I spend money on, because I have NEVER lied about it.
When I get commission money I spend it on three things and three things only: Food and drink, I buy cheap 10 for 10 frozen meals and buy fast food for my self and my brother since he pays all the bills in the house which I think for a bit of food for him is ok since he has to work two jobs to take care of my worthless butt. second is Netflix, it's like $9 a month, not much, but it is there. Lastly I buy video games, some people might think it is stupid or worthless, but imagine if you do not go out much at all, just one friend that live close that you might be able to see twice a month... and when I am not doing art I have TV and games, it's all I have as recreation, that is it... when people donate to me usually it is when I am at a dead end and can't afford food, when people tip or just send me money out of the blue I do use it for games, if that makes me horrible then I am sorry, I really am, and that is why I am not worth donating to, there are more worthy people out there.
Now that is out of the way I want to thank you all again for being on my side despite my unstable emotions and frequent break downs and more thanks to the people who commented in the last journal again, in short your words did not fall on def ears, but it's hard to believe them ya know? and remember, what ever twisted freak I am, I don't want to lie, there are things I feel uncomfortable revealing about my self, I have talked about some of it, but not all, not everyone wants to talk about EVERYTHING.
Thanks for reading and if you want a commission please post in the next joural *hugs*
I'm not as great as people think
Posted 10 years agothis journal is probably not needed, it's one where people will really to my side and tell me the things I think are not true, but I feel the need to say it because what I feel is true.
I just had an issue with some one who felt like I did not appreciate them enough, did not add them to my front page as a "best friend"
Want to say first off that I will not click fully with some one enough to be their best friend, but if I give you my Skype and you are still on it then that means I do care for you a lot, it may not seem like it, but I do in my own way and I am terrible at showing it. so in short, I can't be best friends with everyone I meet life doesn't work like that, I don't work like that.
The person I had an issue with brought up all the thing they did for me when I tried to explain that the people in my front page did more, this is why I don't want help, I feel guilty when people do things for me, I started to break down and accept things because I am falling apart, breaking at every seem, my mental state is getting worse and I can't go and talk to doctors because my brother works two jobs and can't take me to places I need to go or do anything for me really so I am suffering quite a bit because of that.
So please just save your money, I am not worth it, I will try to keep working on art till I break fully and then I dunno, it will be hard on my brother, maybe SS will see fit to help me...
Anyway, all of that being said, I want to conclude with that I am not a great guy, you don't have to try and cheer me up and telling me that it is not true, it is, I am not half as awesome people think I am. I am just an asshole trying not to be, I do my best to be friendly and caring, a lot of the times in streams when I am being happy and cutting up with jokes I am just putting on a show because I am super lonely and crying on the inside...
Today I was crying on the outside because I was not a good enough friend to someone and we are done, I tried to take some time away from the stream and come back, but my cat knew I was crying and came to see what was wrong, so I fell apart so I am sorry commissions are lagging because of it, I will do my best to ether stream tomorrow or Thursday.
As scatter brained as that was I need to say it, don't need to try to make me feel better, just know that I am just a really flawed human when is trying their best, but I will never be a good friend, I dunno how to treat people the way they want to be... but I try in my own way...
Thanks for reading.
I just had an issue with some one who felt like I did not appreciate them enough, did not add them to my front page as a "best friend"
Want to say first off that I will not click fully with some one enough to be their best friend, but if I give you my Skype and you are still on it then that means I do care for you a lot, it may not seem like it, but I do in my own way and I am terrible at showing it. so in short, I can't be best friends with everyone I meet life doesn't work like that, I don't work like that.
The person I had an issue with brought up all the thing they did for me when I tried to explain that the people in my front page did more, this is why I don't want help, I feel guilty when people do things for me, I started to break down and accept things because I am falling apart, breaking at every seem, my mental state is getting worse and I can't go and talk to doctors because my brother works two jobs and can't take me to places I need to go or do anything for me really so I am suffering quite a bit because of that.
So please just save your money, I am not worth it, I will try to keep working on art till I break fully and then I dunno, it will be hard on my brother, maybe SS will see fit to help me...
Anyway, all of that being said, I want to conclude with that I am not a great guy, you don't have to try and cheer me up and telling me that it is not true, it is, I am not half as awesome people think I am. I am just an asshole trying not to be, I do my best to be friendly and caring, a lot of the times in streams when I am being happy and cutting up with jokes I am just putting on a show because I am super lonely and crying on the inside...
Today I was crying on the outside because I was not a good enough friend to someone and we are done, I tried to take some time away from the stream and come back, but my cat knew I was crying and came to see what was wrong, so I fell apart so I am sorry commissions are lagging because of it, I will do my best to ether stream tomorrow or Thursday.
As scatter brained as that was I need to say it, don't need to try to make me feel better, just know that I am just a really flawed human when is trying their best, but I will never be a good friend, I dunno how to treat people the way they want to be... but I try in my own way...
Thanks for reading.
End of AIM
Posted 10 years agoWindows 8 does not seem to like AIM, course like anyone who knows a little bit of computer stuff I could get past that, but I kinda hate AIM..
So as of now, I am not gonna log on to it anymore after tonight, friends of mine there if you want me I am on Skype, please consider ether using it or using a program that supports connecting to Skype, missed talking to some of my friends on there ;~;
My Skype is not hard to learn, just search me up and add me, thank ya! ^^
So as of now, I am not gonna log on to it anymore after tonight, friends of mine there if you want me I am on Skype, please consider ether using it or using a program that supports connecting to Skype, missed talking to some of my friends on there ;~;
My Skype is not hard to learn, just search me up and add me, thank ya! ^^
Update on our AC
Posted 10 years agoWell my brother gets home at stupid time:am (he works two jobs and crap, his second job is overnight at Steak n' Shake) and he goes to fill up the water again for the AC or what ever so he could sleep (the house was as bad as I made it seem in the last journal =x=)
I asked when the AC guys would get here and he told me today sometime after 9:30am, I was happy, but I decided I was gonna wait up, well 6:30am hit and I shut off my Xbox One (playing Witcher 3 THE NEW SKYRIM!) and passed out, I kept waking up and checking my phone, got two calls about my CPAP mask thingy (in about a week and a half I will get the thing and if I don't I need to call) and they finally call around 1pin-ish and said they would be over in an hour.
He shows up and sees the cracked water pipe, says that needed to be fixed but it is too hot in the house for that to be the problem so he goes out and checks the AC unit... WELL the wires in it burnt out, so not only did we need a new water pump thing the wires needed to be replaced out there, grand total? $600 something dollars, my brother was not happy.. useless as I am I at least got us Taco Bell...
So yeah, house finally feels great but I am bloody tired, might stream way later tonight or in the afternoon tomorrow, not sure if I will at all, but I need to keep caught up with commissions and my monies X_x
Anyhoo that is it from me, thanks for the kind words in the last journal, love you guys *hugs*
I asked when the AC guys would get here and he told me today sometime after 9:30am, I was happy, but I decided I was gonna wait up, well 6:30am hit and I shut off my Xbox One (playing Witcher 3 THE NEW SKYRIM!) and passed out, I kept waking up and checking my phone, got two calls about my CPAP mask thingy (in about a week and a half I will get the thing and if I don't I need to call) and they finally call around 1pin-ish and said they would be over in an hour.
He shows up and sees the cracked water pipe, says that needed to be fixed but it is too hot in the house for that to be the problem so he goes out and checks the AC unit... WELL the wires in it burnt out, so not only did we need a new water pump thing the wires needed to be replaced out there, grand total? $600 something dollars, my brother was not happy.. useless as I am I at least got us Taco Bell...
So yeah, house finally feels great but I am bloody tired, might stream way later tonight or in the afternoon tomorrow, not sure if I will at all, but I need to keep caught up with commissions and my monies X_x
Anyhoo that is it from me, thanks for the kind words in the last journal, love you guys *hugs*
Cruddy ass week I tell ya...
Posted 10 years agoHad stuff that went on the end of last week that spilled over to this week...
I also am in a decent amount of pain (more then normal) after trying to walk to my closest Krogers, it is a 5min drive... took me two hours and I even collapsed next to a tree right before I had to walk up a small incline to my street (it was controlled, I did not get hurt, but my legs were given out) so because I did that my legs hurts massively and so did my back?? (I did not have a lot that I got at Krogers ono;)
Welp, I feel like crap also, am I sick? nope not this time, AC is broken (the water pipe or something broke and is leaking so i told my brother not to bother having it on cause it isn't cooling jack) so that bloody sucks, room feels like a sauna =x=
Went to UC sleep center today (I stopped doing appointment updates cause I did not feel like people really wanted to read a lot of that TMI stuff) and i was not looking forward to it till I got there finally (I was a dumb ass and made us late, but only by 5mins cause I thought we were going to the wrong building xD) they asked me why I have not been using my CPAP, the mask feels to enclosing (I am claustrophobic) they fitted me with a new thingy that is just something that goes on my nose, omg I think i will sleep great with it! excet I have to wait for them to order one for me, dang I was looking forward to using it tonight xD
Anyhoo, I can't think of anything else, streaming seems to be out cause I can't focus on doing art, inking things is something I can do I guess (if anyone wants me to ink things they are $20, for the people I owe art to right now you can have something I done for ya inked for free!)
So unless we get a cold front or the damn AC gets fixed I am gonna just chill this week, sorry :<
Love you guys *hugs*
I also am in a decent amount of pain (more then normal) after trying to walk to my closest Krogers, it is a 5min drive... took me two hours and I even collapsed next to a tree right before I had to walk up a small incline to my street (it was controlled, I did not get hurt, but my legs were given out) so because I did that my legs hurts massively and so did my back?? (I did not have a lot that I got at Krogers ono;)
Welp, I feel like crap also, am I sick? nope not this time, AC is broken (the water pipe or something broke and is leaking so i told my brother not to bother having it on cause it isn't cooling jack) so that bloody sucks, room feels like a sauna =x=
Went to UC sleep center today (I stopped doing appointment updates cause I did not feel like people really wanted to read a lot of that TMI stuff) and i was not looking forward to it till I got there finally (I was a dumb ass and made us late, but only by 5mins cause I thought we were going to the wrong building xD) they asked me why I have not been using my CPAP, the mask feels to enclosing (I am claustrophobic) they fitted me with a new thingy that is just something that goes on my nose, omg I think i will sleep great with it! excet I have to wait for them to order one for me, dang I was looking forward to using it tonight xD
Anyhoo, I can't think of anything else, streaming seems to be out cause I can't focus on doing art, inking things is something I can do I guess (if anyone wants me to ink things they are $20, for the people I owe art to right now you can have something I done for ya inked for free!)
So unless we get a cold front or the damn AC gets fixed I am gonna just chill this week, sorry :<
Love you guys *hugs*
A song
Posted 10 years agoI need to share this song/video:
https://youtu.be/cl2D7J_FL_U
The message in it pertains to me in a big way, but not the way one would think of at the get go.
I feel I am reaching the end of my life, it's a sad thought, but I think it is true, this song signifies something important, not that I am done with love and will never be in love again, but it means to me that I have found one person in my entire life who was there for me, read up on my issues and made me feel like a king.
All I want to do is keep her at my side even if she loves another, all I meant to convey was to stay the course the other night.
Life is a bumpy road that starts at point A and ends at point B, the path to B is hard, very hard I know, my path was horrible. seeings as I feel like I am at point B and won't really go further I just want her to be there with me on her way to point B many long years from now.
Even if I can't have her near, I will never love anyone else.
That is all I wanted to try and say for now, thank you for reading and if she is reading this please, please just hang in there, you are young and the path might be long, but you will get there... I want only the best for you.
https://youtu.be/cl2D7J_FL_U
The message in it pertains to me in a big way, but not the way one would think of at the get go.
I feel I am reaching the end of my life, it's a sad thought, but I think it is true, this song signifies something important, not that I am done with love and will never be in love again, but it means to me that I have found one person in my entire life who was there for me, read up on my issues and made me feel like a king.
All I want to do is keep her at my side even if she loves another, all I meant to convey was to stay the course the other night.
Life is a bumpy road that starts at point A and ends at point B, the path to B is hard, very hard I know, my path was horrible. seeings as I feel like I am at point B and won't really go further I just want her to be there with me on her way to point B many long years from now.
Even if I can't have her near, I will never love anyone else.
That is all I wanted to try and say for now, thank you for reading and if she is reading this please, please just hang in there, you are young and the path might be long, but you will get there... I want only the best for you.
Doing better, also found a cat!
Posted 10 years agoWell as most of you know ether by my streams or just the fact I am putting art out once again I am past my depression stint (it was pretty bad caused by really bad body issues and pains) so yeah doing better ^^
Through that week Max (cat) decided to start living in my room, he would sleep in my bed with me, wake me up through the two days (I think?) where all I did was sleep so I could use the restroom and take meds and eat... one day I looked at him and asked for a hug... took him a little time, but he crawled up on my tummy and let me hold him like a hug.
So now he spend pretty much all day in my room just ether sleeping or cuddling or wanting cuddles from me <3 so the cat I use to have is now back, he still runs off when my brother gets home from work to be with him. but that is good, my brother needs that because of how much he works, Max has become a very loving pet, still dumb and annoying at times, but I am happy to have him love me again ^^
Also with my art, I seem to be changing quite a bit and have been for the last few months, I had some streams to try and build up money on the weekend (I don't like streaming then but I needed monies) and ended up doing art that I never thought I could, I am not sure where I will be going with my art, but for once I feel like a real artist, not sure if that feeling will stick, but at least once in my life I have done things that I feel super proud of.
Some thank yous are what I want to end with. people who have watched me, commented on my work and keep me company during my streams are first, you maybe fans of my work, but to me you are giving me so much more, I am a very sad lonely man a lot of the times and the interactions with some of you help out a lot! also my friends and my adopted families, you do all of that plus you show affection to me which I would not otherwise would have, I wish I could chat with you guys more, but you all have things to do, just remember the dog is here and is always ready to talk if you want <3
Thanks for reading *hugs* ^^
Through that week Max (cat) decided to start living in my room, he would sleep in my bed with me, wake me up through the two days (I think?) where all I did was sleep so I could use the restroom and take meds and eat... one day I looked at him and asked for a hug... took him a little time, but he crawled up on my tummy and let me hold him like a hug.
So now he spend pretty much all day in my room just ether sleeping or cuddling or wanting cuddles from me <3 so the cat I use to have is now back, he still runs off when my brother gets home from work to be with him. but that is good, my brother needs that because of how much he works, Max has become a very loving pet, still dumb and annoying at times, but I am happy to have him love me again ^^
Also with my art, I seem to be changing quite a bit and have been for the last few months, I had some streams to try and build up money on the weekend (I don't like streaming then but I needed monies) and ended up doing art that I never thought I could, I am not sure where I will be going with my art, but for once I feel like a real artist, not sure if that feeling will stick, but at least once in my life I have done things that I feel super proud of.
Some thank yous are what I want to end with. people who have watched me, commented on my work and keep me company during my streams are first, you maybe fans of my work, but to me you are giving me so much more, I am a very sad lonely man a lot of the times and the interactions with some of you help out a lot! also my friends and my adopted families, you do all of that plus you show affection to me which I would not otherwise would have, I wish I could chat with you guys more, but you all have things to do, just remember the dog is here and is always ready to talk if you want <3
Thanks for reading *hugs* ^^
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Posted 10 years agoI don't want to die, for all the things I have done, for all the things I am, I may not deserve to, but I want to stick around, thi ngs are so hard now though...
I'll be around later or somthing when I can mange to, too much art to do, hope you guys are well.
I'll be around later or somthing when I can mange to, too much art to do, hope you guys are well.
Been awhile since I posted a journal, so here!
Posted 10 years agoFirst off I am in pain and feeling really tired and off so I am gonna hold off art today, might try to do a stream on the weekend some time but I might just wait till next week to art again.
Reason why I am in pain is just from too much walking yesterday, besides my doctor appointment I had to get food, we stopped at a place called Chedders (tasted amazing and was pretty cheap for the amount of food you get!) and I grabbed a Super Slim PS3 cause I want to play more PS3 games without the hoover sound and blaring heat heat from my BC 60GB PS3 >>;
On a lighter note I am really surprised how many people have been watching me lately on the two art sites I post to (FA and DA)
I would say I am humbled, but that feels like a fake word so I am gonna say honored, even more so for the people who are really into my art and commission me a lot.
I would not have been able to have that great meal and the PS3 if it was not for you guys... You are getting commissions because it is something you want, but I don't feel that a lot of artists express well what that means to them, I try in my streams, but it never feels enough, so just know that I would be no where right now, rotting in my little corner in Ohio sponging off of my brother since I can't work, on the net, in the streams with the commissions I have a life and many friends (close and anyone who talks with me).
In short, there are far better artists out there, but the fact that people want my art means I get to LIVE, so thank you so much, you will probably never really know how much you help me, just know that I am grateful <3
Thanks for reading, and again sorry for no art least for a tiny bit, gonna get comfy if I can and play something, give me a poke if you have me on Skype ^^
Reason why I am in pain is just from too much walking yesterday, besides my doctor appointment I had to get food, we stopped at a place called Chedders (tasted amazing and was pretty cheap for the amount of food you get!) and I grabbed a Super Slim PS3 cause I want to play more PS3 games without the hoover sound and blaring heat heat from my BC 60GB PS3 >>;
On a lighter note I am really surprised how many people have been watching me lately on the two art sites I post to (FA and DA)
I would say I am humbled, but that feels like a fake word so I am gonna say honored, even more so for the people who are really into my art and commission me a lot.
I would not have been able to have that great meal and the PS3 if it was not for you guys... You are getting commissions because it is something you want, but I don't feel that a lot of artists express well what that means to them, I try in my streams, but it never feels enough, so just know that I would be no where right now, rotting in my little corner in Ohio sponging off of my brother since I can't work, on the net, in the streams with the commissions I have a life and many friends (close and anyone who talks with me).
In short, there are far better artists out there, but the fact that people want my art means I get to LIVE, so thank you so much, you will probably never really know how much you help me, just know that I am grateful <3
Thanks for reading, and again sorry for no art least for a tiny bit, gonna get comfy if I can and play something, give me a poke if you have me on Skype ^^
Sorry for being so quiet >.<
Posted 10 years agoI'm still around and stuff, wanted to post a journal to let people know how I am ^^;;
I owe art and I need to get to it for sure, but ever since the last stream I had where my head started to hurt a lot I have been scared to draw, some say weather, eye strain and Migraines, I don't know what it is, but the fear is still there.
Gonna try to get back to work on what I owe next week maybe, I am super low on money and am gonna have to get back to art whether I want to or not =\
That is about it, I'm still around and stuff if you want to poke me on Skype (those that have it) I'm always to nervous to poke anyone first so if you want to chat I am there.
Thanks for reading *hugs* <3
I owe art and I need to get to it for sure, but ever since the last stream I had where my head started to hurt a lot I have been scared to draw, some say weather, eye strain and Migraines, I don't know what it is, but the fear is still there.
Gonna try to get back to work on what I owe next week maybe, I am super low on money and am gonna have to get back to art whether I want to or not =\
That is about it, I'm still around and stuff if you want to poke me on Skype (those that have it) I'm always to nervous to poke anyone first so if you want to chat I am there.
Thanks for reading *hugs* <3
Streaming less often =c
Posted 10 years agoStill going through eyestrain or sinus issues or what ever, so I will be streaming sporadically and very seldom, but I am gonna try really hard to get commissions done as fast as I can (I only have two, so not too bad ^^;)
Also Clubnintendo is gonna die here soon, just need a few more coins, 30 more to get new Super Mario bros. 2 or 130 to get Paper Mario. Both games are... eh... but there is not much else to get, so yeah... if some one has a Wii (maybe WiiU) console pin code or 3DS (not new 3DS) those are worth a lot of coins will offer a sketch for a code for system codes (once I get my commissions done. just send me a note and if the code works I will let you know) some game codes could work too, but if I have the game then it wont >>
That is it, thanks for reading ^^
That is it, thanks for reading ^^
Plaguing issues that is making things hard =\
Posted 10 years agoOk I have been having issues the last month or so, I have been having horrible head pains centralized right between my eyebrows, it comes and goes, but when it happens it keeps me from working -_-
I had to stop streaming earlier because of it, gaming just made it worse. so that is the reason I have been going quite for days on end, sorry about that, did not want to post a journal till now cause I had hoped it would go away after awhile, but looking at white screens (just yping this is hard)
Anyhoo that is all, I will still be sporadic with the streams, but I will do my best to get arts done.
Thanks for reading ^^;;
I had to stop streaming earlier because of it, gaming just made it worse. so that is the reason I have been going quite for days on end, sorry about that, did not want to post a journal till now cause I had hoped it would go away after awhile, but looking at white screens (just yping this is hard)
Anyhoo that is all, I will still be sporadic with the streams, but I will do my best to get arts done.
Thanks for reading ^^;;
