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Doodles from me without money! (Closed)
Posted 10 years agoSo for a short time still you can get some doodles from me if you have unused Club Nintendo pins (a code on a red and white sheet in some Wii, WiiU,DS,3DS games) I want at least 2-4 of them for a doodle (only gonna do one doodle per person cause I still need to make money with commissions x3
I need to enter codes BEFORE the end of this month when the Club Nintendo program will be discontinued :<
So there is that, there is also a way to get a sketch from me!:
If you have an Xbox One and have Final Fantasy Type-0 HD preordered then you will get a code to the demo for Final Fantasy XV
I am interested in the demo code (after much thought and looking at YouTube videos I don't think I want Type-0 at least not at full price) so yeah it is worth me doing a sketch for ^^
Thanks for reading and hope to hear from some of you ^^
Ok I have to be done with these, it's killing my arms too much (and to be honest it would be easier if I just took commissions to make money and buy the games, so yeah I was getting screwed sort of xD)
Hope everyone liked the art they managed to get from me ^^!Thanks :D
I need to get some nintendo coins!
Posted 10 years agoHeya folks,
I would like to get some more Nintendo coins before Clubnintendo goes away, so if anyone has Nintendo codes that come with certain Nintendo games I could trade arts for.
Now depending how many codes are offer to me I could do different levels of art, just post below and let me know how many codes you have, I will offer like a doodle or sketch or what not, and if you agree note me the codes, I'll plug em in and as long as the codes aint used I will draw ya something ^^
Thanks for reading ^^
I would like to get some more Nintendo coins before Clubnintendo goes away, so if anyone has Nintendo codes that come with certain Nintendo games I could trade arts for.
Now depending how many codes are offer to me I could do different levels of art, just post below and let me know how many codes you have, I will offer like a doodle or sketch or what not, and if you agree note me the codes, I'll plug em in and as long as the codes aint used I will draw ya something ^^
Thanks for reading ^^
I'm doing better, sorry about the last journals
Posted 10 years agoHey again folks, as you may have guessed I have gotten better enough to do and post art, well there was a big reason for that.
Some one, a person that I did not know and who did not really know me sent me a huge sum of money based on my rant journal... I did not believe it, they were very iadament that I keep the money and use it even after I told them not too and kept poking them with notes after he sent it (I really hope the note was not annoying, it just floored me >>;)
Not gonna say who or how much. but it was in the short term a life saver in a way.
I went out and got me and my brother food, got an external drive for my self (I don't trust internal hard drives since all four of the ones that came with my Alienware died all at once if I remember right) and put a small amount on a game for my brother, also bought a bit of food for my buddy
wrathofzod since he was pretty broke.
I may get some comments about the above part, but my best friend and brother are important and wanted to spend a lil on them, also the external was a want and Bestbuy had one cheap that was even cheaper after all the gift cards, certificates and trading in a game. I did not have to even post this, but I like telling the truth >>;
Anyway, all of that was nice but what I was able to do before any of that happened was I went to Walmart because I needed things badly. I got a new belt,was nice to get one since the one I had was very old, also needed underware badly (god damn holes appear out of no where! even my socks D:) also finally got more shirts (more black ones with pockets for my phone x3) and finally what I wanted was a coat (the coat I have is like 10lbs and hurts a lot of the times when I try to put it on, it was given to me so I was thankful I had one) they did not have any... but I was able to get this light jacket thing that was perfect to put on if I start to freeze while working on art at my desk.
That part was... and it may sound silly, emotional for me, I don't money fast enough to be able to afford things like that along with other stuff I pay for and to get that stuff, gonna be nice not too feel poor wearing shirts that are like 10+ years old (some of them)
I want to draw them something, so note me back friend with a character in mind, I will do it because I want to and will enjoy drawing it, don't think of it as a pay back in anyway, just a kind gesture from a mostly broken man you helped up in one of my really bad low times *hugs*
Other things
I think I finally know what I want to do with my prices, it's gonna be double numbers for each thing, so Doodle $11, Sketch $22, Toned $33 Inked $44 and Colored $66 plus extras and what ever, the prices are effective immediately, I wish I did not have to raise prices, but it really feels like it is killing me to do art anymore and I still need to take commissions... in which I won't be taking any for awhile (well maybe a few here and there) while I have that sum of cash in my paypal I am gonna take a vacation so I can heal fully mentally... also my entire body hurts... the commissions I did this morning was really tough, but I wanted a clear mind and well I was inspired ^^
One last thing before I stop filling this journal with so many words, wanted to clarify something from my rant in the last journal, I don't think the people I really love and cherish will just up and abandon me if I stop being an artist, I was ether very unclear or people just took it wrong, what I wanted to convey was that a lot of people would not even know I exists if I was not an artist, so there would not be all these people trying to be my friend, get my Skype or be my BFF or what ever if it was not for the bit of fame I have.
Thought it was clear because it was pretty much a rant about fame, sorry about that ^^;;
Well that is it for me, I am doing better like I said, but I have moments of staring at screens and feeling like I want to cry, but I am improving, will be around if anyone wants to talk to me, might even stream or what not just to draw for my self, but not for awhile till I stop hurting ^^;;
Thanks for reading and being there for me, it means a lot to know that you guys are there *hugs* <3
Some one, a person that I did not know and who did not really know me sent me a huge sum of money based on my rant journal... I did not believe it, they were very iadament that I keep the money and use it even after I told them not too and kept poking them with notes after he sent it (I really hope the note was not annoying, it just floored me >>;)
Not gonna say who or how much. but it was in the short term a life saver in a way.
I went out and got me and my brother food, got an external drive for my self (I don't trust internal hard drives since all four of the ones that came with my Alienware died all at once if I remember right) and put a small amount on a game for my brother, also bought a bit of food for my buddy
wrathofzod since he was pretty broke.I may get some comments about the above part, but my best friend and brother are important and wanted to spend a lil on them, also the external was a want and Bestbuy had one cheap that was even cheaper after all the gift cards, certificates and trading in a game. I did not have to even post this, but I like telling the truth >>;
Anyway, all of that was nice but what I was able to do before any of that happened was I went to Walmart because I needed things badly. I got a new belt,was nice to get one since the one I had was very old, also needed underware badly (god damn holes appear out of no where! even my socks D:) also finally got more shirts (more black ones with pockets for my phone x3) and finally what I wanted was a coat (the coat I have is like 10lbs and hurts a lot of the times when I try to put it on, it was given to me so I was thankful I had one) they did not have any... but I was able to get this light jacket thing that was perfect to put on if I start to freeze while working on art at my desk.
That part was... and it may sound silly, emotional for me, I don't money fast enough to be able to afford things like that along with other stuff I pay for and to get that stuff, gonna be nice not too feel poor wearing shirts that are like 10+ years old (some of them)
I want to draw them something, so note me back friend with a character in mind, I will do it because I want to and will enjoy drawing it, don't think of it as a pay back in anyway, just a kind gesture from a mostly broken man you helped up in one of my really bad low times *hugs*
Other things
I think I finally know what I want to do with my prices, it's gonna be double numbers for each thing, so Doodle $11, Sketch $22, Toned $33 Inked $44 and Colored $66 plus extras and what ever, the prices are effective immediately, I wish I did not have to raise prices, but it really feels like it is killing me to do art anymore and I still need to take commissions... in which I won't be taking any for awhile (well maybe a few here and there) while I have that sum of cash in my paypal I am gonna take a vacation so I can heal fully mentally... also my entire body hurts... the commissions I did this morning was really tough, but I wanted a clear mind and well I was inspired ^^
One last thing before I stop filling this journal with so many words, wanted to clarify something from my rant in the last journal, I don't think the people I really love and cherish will just up and abandon me if I stop being an artist, I was ether very unclear or people just took it wrong, what I wanted to convey was that a lot of people would not even know I exists if I was not an artist, so there would not be all these people trying to be my friend, get my Skype or be my BFF or what ever if it was not for the bit of fame I have.
Thought it was clear because it was pretty much a rant about fame, sorry about that ^^;;
Well that is it for me, I am doing better like I said, but I have moments of staring at screens and feeling like I want to cry, but I am improving, will be around if anyone wants to talk to me, might even stream or what not just to draw for my self, but not for awhile till I stop hurting ^^;;
Thanks for reading and being there for me, it means a lot to know that you guys are there *hugs* <3
Still feeling blah, gonna rant a lil...
Posted 10 years agoI have no ranted in awhile, not a big one anyway, but I will get to the at the end so you can just ignore it if you want and at least read up on stuff going on if you like.
I estimated in my last journal that I would try to stream yesterday or today...which tonight did not happen because my doctors appointment was an eye appointment, so what do they do when they want to look at the back of my eyes? they dilate them... and that is where my dumb ass forgot, so no stream today ether, though I am still feeling ho-hum and not really wanting to do art, might stream Friday anyway because I am in need of money (it runs out too quick which brings me to my next order of business)
I feel I am gonna have to raise prices, I cannot continue on with how much I am making indefinitely of course, but I was rather hoping I would not have to raise them this year or next for that matter, but I have to, I am too sick, getting slower and slower at art to the point where I cannot rely on my speed anymore cause it's just not really there anymore and the government is still not helping and when I finally get my hearing I am still thinking they will turn me down because they are busy shelling out money to worthless people faking crap and don't want to spend more money (that was a mini rant, sorry but still...) so I hope I don't put anyone off, I am still thinking about prices and etc. but next time I take commissions they will be higher, sorry .__.;
This is the rant part, turn away if you don't want to read it!
I am not like quite a few artists here or elsewhere, I am not a famous artist (one that is is widely known just about everywhere and not confined to some little art pages) and yet I am still getting stabbed in the face with fame. I look at my Skype list and think "I wonder how many people would even want to know me if I was not an artist, why do I have so many people on my list that I barely know" then on the darker side of fame that people do not really fathom is when people use you up and throw you away or you make friends with some one that you are too scared to speak up to or about because of fear of losing people that I care about because they are friends with them.
I have too many people in all those categories and it scares me, I have times where I am holding my head in my hands and feeling like I can't breathe because of this sometimes and it is not fair to me, I am just a man, I am not the sum total of the lines I draw on the screen, I'm not a door mat of any kind.
I let the fact that I am lonely on a constant basis take over my good sense and add people I am unsure of onto Skype, beyond that I will stream even if I am super sick, extremely depressed and worse of all when my arms and shoulders ache so bad that I will stream anyway just so I can talk to ANYONE, those are all far worse to me then just needing money I feel.
So as much as much as I love a lot of people I can't add everyone to Skype, in fact I am planing on taking people off, it is useless for me to try and convince people that they did nothing wrong because they will feel bad, so all I can say is sorry., to all those who would seek help from me, I can't, I am sorry. and to the ones I really am close to I wish I could help, but I have to take care of my self and my brother in what ever way I can, also I don't have extra money laying around, I just have what I make from commissions so I want to be able to buy games which helps in those times when I am alone (though does not replace people, at least I can try to distract my self)
I think I have done well in another matter, I have tried very hard to keep up with commissions and to not ask for donations outright, but my commissions are slipping now that I am not doing too great again so now people are waiting on me when I can barely be awake most of the time and when I am I have been staring at Netflix for hours on end... and even though it is really hypocritical of me, I want help... I want help sooo bad that I fight my self all the time to ask for money from anyone, but right now I wish I could get some... kinda wish I did not buy this new keyboard, but it lights up and is easier on my hands for typing... sometimes I wish that that silver lining will appear for me, people say that since I have helped so many I will get helped back because of karma, but I only get bad luck so I dunno.
Anyhoo that is all I have, sorry about the length, and sorry if a lot of that was just jumbled bits of my mind in word form, but I needed to get stuff off of my chest, I think I will just avoid streaming this week, don't want to stream while I am depressed... thanks for reading and hope you guys can understand.
I estimated in my last journal that I would try to stream yesterday or today...which tonight did not happen because my doctors appointment was an eye appointment, so what do they do when they want to look at the back of my eyes? they dilate them... and that is where my dumb ass forgot, so no stream today ether, though I am still feeling ho-hum and not really wanting to do art, might stream Friday anyway because I am in need of money (it runs out too quick which brings me to my next order of business)
I feel I am gonna have to raise prices, I cannot continue on with how much I am making indefinitely of course, but I was rather hoping I would not have to raise them this year or next for that matter, but I have to, I am too sick, getting slower and slower at art to the point where I cannot rely on my speed anymore cause it's just not really there anymore and the government is still not helping and when I finally get my hearing I am still thinking they will turn me down because they are busy shelling out money to worthless people faking crap and don't want to spend more money (that was a mini rant, sorry but still...) so I hope I don't put anyone off, I am still thinking about prices and etc. but next time I take commissions they will be higher, sorry .__.;
This is the rant part, turn away if you don't want to read it!
I am not like quite a few artists here or elsewhere, I am not a famous artist (one that is is widely known just about everywhere and not confined to some little art pages) and yet I am still getting stabbed in the face with fame. I look at my Skype list and think "I wonder how many people would even want to know me if I was not an artist, why do I have so many people on my list that I barely know" then on the darker side of fame that people do not really fathom is when people use you up and throw you away or you make friends with some one that you are too scared to speak up to or about because of fear of losing people that I care about because they are friends with them.
I have too many people in all those categories and it scares me, I have times where I am holding my head in my hands and feeling like I can't breathe because of this sometimes and it is not fair to me, I am just a man, I am not the sum total of the lines I draw on the screen, I'm not a door mat of any kind.
I let the fact that I am lonely on a constant basis take over my good sense and add people I am unsure of onto Skype, beyond that I will stream even if I am super sick, extremely depressed and worse of all when my arms and shoulders ache so bad that I will stream anyway just so I can talk to ANYONE, those are all far worse to me then just needing money I feel.
So as much as much as I love a lot of people I can't add everyone to Skype, in fact I am planing on taking people off, it is useless for me to try and convince people that they did nothing wrong because they will feel bad, so all I can say is sorry., to all those who would seek help from me, I can't, I am sorry. and to the ones I really am close to I wish I could help, but I have to take care of my self and my brother in what ever way I can, also I don't have extra money laying around, I just have what I make from commissions so I want to be able to buy games which helps in those times when I am alone (though does not replace people, at least I can try to distract my self)
I think I have done well in another matter, I have tried very hard to keep up with commissions and to not ask for donations outright, but my commissions are slipping now that I am not doing too great again so now people are waiting on me when I can barely be awake most of the time and when I am I have been staring at Netflix for hours on end... and even though it is really hypocritical of me, I want help... I want help sooo bad that I fight my self all the time to ask for money from anyone, but right now I wish I could get some... kinda wish I did not buy this new keyboard, but it lights up and is easier on my hands for typing... sometimes I wish that that silver lining will appear for me, people say that since I have helped so many I will get helped back because of karma, but I only get bad luck so I dunno.
Anyhoo that is all I have, sorry about the length, and sorry if a lot of that was just jumbled bits of my mind in word form, but I needed to get stuff off of my chest, I think I will just avoid streaming this week, don't want to stream while I am depressed... thanks for reading and hope you guys can understand.
Feeling bleh...
Posted 10 years agoSaturday my body decided to have me sleep ALL DAY, woke up a few times at least to eat, today I feel just meh and drawing was a chore (I did manage to get one commission done though...) gonna take a few more days off to hopefully to feel better?
I dunno, I might be getting burnt out on commissions, in any case I think I just need to just not have to worry about even thinking "I need to get to work"
On a side note it was a con weekend, so I am missing very important people that went to it very badly which probably effected my mood badly, I hope you guys (you know who you are) had a great time and I am looking forward to you all being back ;__; <3
Thanks for reading, may try to get back to work at least by Wed, maybe Thurs? what ever the case may take care of your self and have a good night *hugs*
I dunno, I might be getting burnt out on commissions, in any case I think I just need to just not have to worry about even thinking "I need to get to work"
On a side note it was a con weekend, so I am missing very important people that went to it very badly which probably effected my mood badly, I hope you guys (you know who you are) had a great time and I am looking forward to you all being back ;__; <3
Thanks for reading, may try to get back to work at least by Wed, maybe Thurs? what ever the case may take care of your self and have a good night *hugs*
Kinda done being sick, trying to rally back X__x
Posted 11 years agoHey guys, I am kind of back?
I say kinda because I am still a bit raspy in the voice and not %100 from when I got sick last week.
For those that do not know I got very sick and stayed very sick till Saturday when I was able to actually sleep and not sit in a chair all the time (really too much TMI for me to go into details here)
It started off slow like a cold, at first, was talking to some friends on Skype after a short stream and I just started feeling bleh, went to bed and boom felt like I was dying for 4-5 day or something X__x
Want to apologize to the people who have commissioned me, will be trying to get back into the swing of things, possibly tonight in a stream see
firefly8083 streams Mon,Wed and Fri so I am gonna hop on and dual stream with her to see if I can do art yet, besides my scribbles you should check out her stream tonight whether I am doing art or not ^^
So other then the delay in art for commissioners the break has not hurt much, still have plenty of money (did not eat much) only thing that really got impacted was my PT appointments on Wed and Fri and my Retina follow up on Wed (which I got those rescheduled already)
One final thing, it's about Skype, I understand that people may really want to talk to me on Skype, but I just don't want to invite EVERYONE to it, just people I feel like I can be really close to. To that end I have removed people from my Skype and might remove more in the future, I am not very interesting to talk to really, I just talk about the things I do in streams, you all can chat to me there ^^
That is it, thought I would type less but I am not good at being short and to the point xD, hope you guys faired better then I did in the last week, whether I draw or not I hope to see you in firefly8083's stream (she is my sis, she is AWESOME) *hugs* ^^
I say kinda because I am still a bit raspy in the voice and not %100 from when I got sick last week.
For those that do not know I got very sick and stayed very sick till Saturday when I was able to actually sleep and not sit in a chair all the time (really too much TMI for me to go into details here)
It started off slow like a cold, at first, was talking to some friends on Skype after a short stream and I just started feeling bleh, went to bed and boom felt like I was dying for 4-5 day or something X__x
Want to apologize to the people who have commissioned me, will be trying to get back into the swing of things, possibly tonight in a stream see
firefly8083 streams Mon,Wed and Fri so I am gonna hop on and dual stream with her to see if I can do art yet, besides my scribbles you should check out her stream tonight whether I am doing art or not ^^So other then the delay in art for commissioners the break has not hurt much, still have plenty of money (did not eat much) only thing that really got impacted was my PT appointments on Wed and Fri and my Retina follow up on Wed (which I got those rescheduled already)
One final thing, it's about Skype, I understand that people may really want to talk to me on Skype, but I just don't want to invite EVERYONE to it, just people I feel like I can be really close to. To that end I have removed people from my Skype and might remove more in the future, I am not very interesting to talk to really, I just talk about the things I do in streams, you all can chat to me there ^^
That is it, thought I would type less but I am not good at being short and to the point xD, hope you guys faired better then I did in the last week, whether I draw or not I hope to see you in
firefly8083's stream (she is my sis, she is AWESOME) *hugs* ^^I'm sick -_-
Posted 11 years agoMy brother got sick last Thursday he said, and since I am around him more because of the Physical Therapy (every Wednesday and Friday) I am pretty sure I caught it from him.
My arms are spazzing pretty bad and I have pain in my forehead and feel light headed, so I am gonna cancel my streams this week (unless I feel better)
Gonna still work on my commissions best I can, the one I am working on is a detailed mech image so that is gonna eat up a lot of time.
Sorry about this, I will be on Skype and poking at my new PC... feels like I am paying for getting something awesome, can I just have awesome without having something bad happen after? D:
Anyhoo, love you guys, gonna miss talking to ya on streams, I hope this won't last long *hugs* <3
My arms are spazzing pretty bad and I have pain in my forehead and feel light headed, so I am gonna cancel my streams this week (unless I feel better)
Gonna still work on my commissions best I can, the one I am working on is a detailed mech image so that is gonna eat up a lot of time.
Sorry about this, I will be on Skype and poking at my new PC... feels like I am paying for getting something awesome, can I just have awesome without having something bad happen after? D:
Anyhoo, love you guys, gonna miss talking to ya on streams, I hope this won't last long *hugs* <3
New computer!... Bad news and good news...
Posted 11 years agoSaturday was kind of a really horrible day but something came out of it for me though.
It started sometime after I had woken up, after my mistress
yoon went for a nap.
My brother came into my room and wanted to use my computer, I wondered why? he thought the hard drive in his laptop died, so I went to go check it and it seems like the LCD screen died on him (It's an old Dell XPS laptop, like 5 years old) so that left him without a computer, so I told him he could use my desktop.
Turns out he wanted to use my desktop to see if his paycheck went through so he could take me to Best buy to get me a computer... I hoped onto Best Buy's site and started to look for a computer for him but he insisted on getting me one, so I went and found the one I had found before:
http://www.bestbuy.com/site/asus-de.....;skuId=8448199
Except yesterday, of all days the computer was even more discounted by $20 more. tired to call a few times but it is hard as hell to get some one on the phone there so we went up hoping it would be there (website said it was, but had issues with things not being there before >>;)
Anyhoo after a bit up there I got my new computer and we left the store, I was even carrying the computer box because the thing was that damn light o.o
Anyhoo things start going down hill after that, he wanted some Burger King (to which I told him I would get him $10 of food, he did after all get me a computer...) but there was an issue, when we turned into the parking lot there was a car stopped blocking us, turns out an employee was on the ladder trying to change the sign and fell, he was laying in the grass and there were people there trying to help and calling 911, my brother had to leave the area, it made him really upset, I hope the guy is ok and wish him the best...
So after that we ended up at Wendy's and home to where I was copying files and prepping my Alienware to be moved into my brothers room, took time but that at least went smooth (I hope the desktop keeps working for him) then it was time to setup my new computer, this is where most of yesterday night sucked pretty bad...
I had to restore the computer to factory default because windows did not want to start, which is ALL my fault because I was not use to Windows 8 and had not realized that installing new video drivers before all the windows 8 updates had finished (I had no idea that it was going on ether >.<) after quite a long time, a ton of forgotten passwords and fiddling with Windows 8 till I got really familiar with it I can say I am happy! only hardware issue I had was that my TB Z22 was not compatible with Windows 8, but thanks to
AxelRod21 he found out that my PX22 headset on my laptop works (pretty much the same headset but newer with a blue coloring instead of red, which is fine fits in with the other blue things going on on my setup xD) so a switcharoo happened and now all is dandy :3
Windows 8 seems rather nice, I like the Xbox game store, I like how easy it is to find something in the start menu, whether I want to launch it, or delete it right there just with a right click, Windows 8 gets frond apon a lot, but I like it :P
So here I am this afternoon, tried out some games to see what a proper computer can do, it's nice... still prefer my Xbox One, but at least I have my PC if there are games that I want to play on it.
I am very happy to finally have this, but also very sad for my brother because his laptop died, he is gonna get a new one (ASUS) when he can file his tax return. I feel, I dunno, like crying, he thought of me first when it came to a new computer, but people make me aware that he does not do a whole lot for me since I have a lot of trouble doing things, he just probably does not understand what is the thing that should be done for a person in my condition, heck I don't know, but yesterday shows he cares a lot in his own way ;;
Anyhoo, gonna end this huge journal with some pics! first one is really old and my setup has changed quite a bit from it even when the Alienware was still in place:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/k701tmoxa.....29-12.jpg?dl=0
And this was an image I took last night sometime:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/eop14dmmb.....50.12.jpg?dl=0
The tower is tiny as hell, stays really cool too... AND I HAVE SPACE!
Well that is it, I am trying to get comfortable with my new setup so I can stream Monday and get to work on commissions (it's a bit rough but I will get use to it in time x3)
Thanks for reading (if you did) *hugs* take care ^^
It started sometime after I had woken up, after my mistress
yoon went for a nap.My brother came into my room and wanted to use my computer, I wondered why? he thought the hard drive in his laptop died, so I went to go check it and it seems like the LCD screen died on him (It's an old Dell XPS laptop, like 5 years old) so that left him without a computer, so I told him he could use my desktop.
Turns out he wanted to use my desktop to see if his paycheck went through so he could take me to Best buy to get me a computer... I hoped onto Best Buy's site and started to look for a computer for him but he insisted on getting me one, so I went and found the one I had found before:
http://www.bestbuy.com/site/asus-de.....;skuId=8448199
Except yesterday, of all days the computer was even more discounted by $20 more. tired to call a few times but it is hard as hell to get some one on the phone there so we went up hoping it would be there (website said it was, but had issues with things not being there before >>;)
Anyhoo after a bit up there I got my new computer and we left the store, I was even carrying the computer box because the thing was that damn light o.o
Anyhoo things start going down hill after that, he wanted some Burger King (to which I told him I would get him $10 of food, he did after all get me a computer...) but there was an issue, when we turned into the parking lot there was a car stopped blocking us, turns out an employee was on the ladder trying to change the sign and fell, he was laying in the grass and there were people there trying to help and calling 911, my brother had to leave the area, it made him really upset, I hope the guy is ok and wish him the best...
So after that we ended up at Wendy's and home to where I was copying files and prepping my Alienware to be moved into my brothers room, took time but that at least went smooth (I hope the desktop keeps working for him) then it was time to setup my new computer, this is where most of yesterday night sucked pretty bad...
I had to restore the computer to factory default because windows did not want to start, which is ALL my fault because I was not use to Windows 8 and had not realized that installing new video drivers before all the windows 8 updates had finished (I had no idea that it was going on ether >.<) after quite a long time, a ton of forgotten passwords and fiddling with Windows 8 till I got really familiar with it I can say I am happy! only hardware issue I had was that my TB Z22 was not compatible with Windows 8, but thanks to
AxelRod21 he found out that my PX22 headset on my laptop works (pretty much the same headset but newer with a blue coloring instead of red, which is fine fits in with the other blue things going on on my setup xD) so a switcharoo happened and now all is dandy :3Windows 8 seems rather nice, I like the Xbox game store, I like how easy it is to find something in the start menu, whether I want to launch it, or delete it right there just with a right click, Windows 8 gets frond apon a lot, but I like it :P
So here I am this afternoon, tried out some games to see what a proper computer can do, it's nice... still prefer my Xbox One, but at least I have my PC if there are games that I want to play on it.
I am very happy to finally have this, but also very sad for my brother because his laptop died, he is gonna get a new one (ASUS) when he can file his tax return. I feel, I dunno, like crying, he thought of me first when it came to a new computer, but people make me aware that he does not do a whole lot for me since I have a lot of trouble doing things, he just probably does not understand what is the thing that should be done for a person in my condition, heck I don't know, but yesterday shows he cares a lot in his own way ;;
Anyhoo, gonna end this huge journal with some pics! first one is really old and my setup has changed quite a bit from it even when the Alienware was still in place:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/k701tmoxa.....29-12.jpg?dl=0
And this was an image I took last night sometime:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/eop14dmmb.....50.12.jpg?dl=0
The tower is tiny as hell, stays really cool too... AND I HAVE SPACE!
Well that is it, I am trying to get comfortable with my new setup so I can stream Monday and get to work on commissions (it's a bit rough but I will get use to it in time x3)
Thanks for reading (if you did) *hugs* take care ^^
Thanks for the responses everyone, but...
Posted 11 years agoWant to thank everyone that wanted to help through commissions, but I won't be able to get a computer by piling up on commissions, I need that monies for food among other things (tylenol, baby aspirin, clothes and games) so if this thing dies I will ether try to art on my laptop (worse for me cause of where it is and that thing has been acting funny for awhile and the battery is dead) or just be done with art for the time being (will give me time to get through my backlog of games at least ._.;)
Some of you might not know, but my shoulders are in terrible shape and doing a lot of art is really bad for me (heck my PT starts tomorrow at 9:30am at UC medical)
So unless I get a thousand bucks as a gift a new computer will not happen... will talk to my brother once I get a chance (he has a full time job and a part time job ._.) and see if he still want to get my a PC with his tax returns, would rather him get one for him self though since his Desktop got fried
I will think about trying to build my own, but I don't trust my self cause I have not built one in forever and don't want to fry anything >>
Anyhoo that is it, what ever happens down the road it was nice to be able to associate with you guys, a pleasure not everyone gets to have *hugs* ;u; <3
Some of you might not know, but my shoulders are in terrible shape and doing a lot of art is really bad for me (heck my PT starts tomorrow at 9:30am at UC medical)
So unless I get a thousand bucks as a gift a new computer will not happen... will talk to my brother once I get a chance (he has a full time job and a part time job ._.) and see if he still want to get my a PC with his tax returns, would rather him get one for him self though since his Desktop got fried
I will think about trying to build my own, but I don't trust my self cause I have not built one in forever and don't want to fry anything >>
Anyhoo that is it, what ever happens down the road it was nice to be able to associate with you guys, a pleasure not everyone gets to have *hugs* ;u; <3
Computer seems to be on it's last legs ._.
Posted 11 years agoMy work computer (Desktop) decided to not be able to see my windows hard drive, so I decided to open it up and try a different SATA connection and it worked, for now.
I have had an issue in the past with this stupid POS computer where it decided to kill all 4 of the hard drives connected to it, so I am pretty sure it will happen again sadly, so I need a new computer...
Lack of money says "NO" but I might be able to get one when my brother gets his tax return, but his Desktop died last year so I think I would rather him get a new Desktop for him self, though he has a laptop of his own... it is even older than mine and is more likely to die before my laptop.
I have a laptop, but it has issues of it's own (along with a dead battery) so I dunno how I will be handling commissions in the future (if I can even to) so I will try to get what I owe done (if I have any commissions left I will finish them on there)
If my desktop dies I guess this is a warning that I may be done doing commissions (which is odd considering I figured it would be my body giving up first) I suppose I could do them on my laptop, but it is difficult to work on there.
So that is it, unless a something amazing happens and I get the money for a new desktop I dunno what else to do (maybe if SS decides to help me)
That is it, Desktop works for now so on to a stream I guess ^^;
I have had an issue in the past with this stupid POS computer where it decided to kill all 4 of the hard drives connected to it, so I am pretty sure it will happen again sadly, so I need a new computer...
Lack of money says "NO" but I might be able to get one when my brother gets his tax return, but his Desktop died last year so I think I would rather him get a new Desktop for him self, though he has a laptop of his own... it is even older than mine and is more likely to die before my laptop.
I have a laptop, but it has issues of it's own (along with a dead battery) so I dunno how I will be handling commissions in the future (if I can even to) so I will try to get what I owe done (if I have any commissions left I will finish them on there)
If my desktop dies I guess this is a warning that I may be done doing commissions (which is odd considering I figured it would be my body giving up first) I suppose I could do them on my laptop, but it is difficult to work on there.
So that is it, unless a something amazing happens and I get the money for a new desktop I dunno what else to do (maybe if SS decides to help me)
That is it, Desktop works for now so on to a stream I guess ^^;
Stream delay
Posted 11 years agoHanging out with a buddy today, so either I will do a late stream or a stream tomorrow.
Sorry about that, he asked if he wanted to hang out out of nowhere x3
Catcha you guys later ^^
Sorry about that, he asked if he wanted to hang out out of nowhere x3
Catcha you guys later ^^
$5 Chibi sketches from Yoon!
Posted 11 years agoMy Ferret yoon is offering $5 chibi sketches in her stream today! she is gonna be streaming a long time today so hop in and grab one ^^
https://www.picarto.tv/live/channel.....php?watch=yoon
yoon is offering $5 chibi sketches in her stream today! she is gonna be streaming a long time today so hop in and grab one ^^https://www.picarto.tv/live/channel.....php?watch=yoon
Long and agonizing tale of my weekend...
Posted 11 years agoOk posting up a journal finally, spent Sunday awake! unlike Friday and Saturday where I slept pretty much all day and did not even eat on Friday at all...
Anyhoo my poor mousy
cheska poked my master (and awesome artist go look!) yoon about how I was doing, I was so happy to not be in as much pain, being able to stay awake and play Halo on my Xbox One that I neglected to leave an update and to let people know what happened, it was pretty horrible for me, might not want to read >>;
Not totally sure what happened to me, Thursday I was coming home from the hospital (ironic >x<) where they gave me the bad news that my Kidney function is down to %40, so now I am scared and gonna actively reduce my salt intake since I have been stupid and have not done a damn thing about that, I want to live, even if my days are always filled with pain and know that I lost sight in my right eye because I am an idiot , I still have many games to play and so many people I love...
Oops went off on a tangent, sorry... anyhoo I was not a happy guy after that, stopped at a place called Rally's to get some burgers (yeah I know, there are somethings I can eat that are low enough on salt and sugar and what not that I can eat them) I ate and did what ever (it's a blur now) all I remember is I think I was not feeling well and decided I would go get some water (maybe to help me clean out my body of salt) .. I remember the water tasted like soap, did not think much about it so I got more water and fell asleep.
Thursday turns into Friday, which my alarm goes off and I wake up for my meds, check blood and inject my insulin... I guess I get them taken care of.. I can't remember too well which is odd for me, I remember my stomach hurting horribly, never felt that ever before and decided to take my 3DS and head into the rest room, sat down and...I was dizzy,felt like I was gonna pass out at any moment and for the first time in like over 10 years or so I felt like I needed to puke, so I pull out the Krogers bag that was lining the garbage can and there I went, felt like I was gonna pass out repeatedly... I puked like 3 times? when I felt like I was done I reached over and put the bucket in the bathtub and sat there for a long while.
After what felt like an eternity I decided to get up, or try to, my legs were like jelly, it was all hazy... so I decided to get on the floor and crawl to the bathtub because I wanted to clean the bucket so my brother did not have to, the shower head was put up and I think I might have cried a little... got up and tried to clean the bucket best I could but left the bucket in the bathtub just in case I did not do a good job or something.
I made my way slowly to my bed and crawled in and just slept nearly all of Friday which felt like hell, I would wake up every few hours with the sound of my heart beating pretty loudly, managed to make sure to take my meds and check my blood and do my insulin that day.
Saturday I slept most of it, did get up a few times for my medical stuff, hopped into my Master's stream ( yoon) and tried to talk to her and Cherry, did eat once that day, sadly I had a slight issue in bed so me being still weak and sick had to wash my sheets and stuff, all while freezing like god damn hell waiting for everything to finish washing and drying all the way through, putting everything back on the Temperpedic mattress was a nightmare too, getting the zip on under sheet back on required lifting from me who was already weak as sin and was sick on top of it, I managed to do it, it took over a half an hour and missed the end of yoon's stream and a large portion of 
memokkeen's stream too.
OKAY, THAT WAS A LOT! HOW AM I DOING NOW?
Well my stomach hurts, my legs and well everything hurts more then normal, I am more steady at walking, my voice is raspy and I am getting tired of trying to sip my drink and having pain every time I do X__x but I am ok-ish now... considering my Christmas is ruined, FA is being wonky and a lot of you guys are gonna be trying to enjoy your holidays I am gonna call this week a bust, gonna try not to think of what happened in the weekend that passed, enjoy my games.
If anyone is around on Christmas I would not mind some company on Skype (if I have you added) I am gonna be alone because my brother will be at work (yay more frozen for the holidays)
I want to do a few things in closing, first off I want to say I am sorry to my commissioners cause they are gonna be in for quite a wait I guess (next Monday I should be able to start up again?) next is the people I worried, I am alive and hope to stay that way >.>; and one more sorry for jumping around in mood in the journal, I was happy when I started and then got sad when I was trying to recall things and now I am fine again I think ^^;
I want to thank you guys for your concern and appreciate those of you who read through all of that (must of been really hard...)
Love you guys a lot, I wish you all that you desire this Christmas and please, please take care of your self, you guys deserve the best for making me have a good reason to live *hugs* <3
Anyhoo my poor mousy
cheska poked my master (and awesome artist go look!) yoon about how I was doing, I was so happy to not be in as much pain, being able to stay awake and play Halo on my Xbox One that I neglected to leave an update and to let people know what happened, it was pretty horrible for me, might not want to read >>;Not totally sure what happened to me, Thursday I was coming home from the hospital (ironic >x<) where they gave me the bad news that my Kidney function is down to %40, so now I am scared and gonna actively reduce my salt intake since I have been stupid and have not done a damn thing about that, I want to live, even if my days are always filled with pain and know that I lost sight in my right eye because I am an idiot , I still have many games to play and so many people I love...
Oops went off on a tangent, sorry... anyhoo I was not a happy guy after that, stopped at a place called Rally's to get some burgers (yeah I know, there are somethings I can eat that are low enough on salt and sugar and what not that I can eat them) I ate and did what ever (it's a blur now) all I remember is I think I was not feeling well and decided I would go get some water (maybe to help me clean out my body of salt) .. I remember the water tasted like soap, did not think much about it so I got more water and fell asleep.
Thursday turns into Friday, which my alarm goes off and I wake up for my meds, check blood and inject my insulin... I guess I get them taken care of.. I can't remember too well which is odd for me, I remember my stomach hurting horribly, never felt that ever before and decided to take my 3DS and head into the rest room, sat down and...I was dizzy,felt like I was gonna pass out at any moment and for the first time in like over 10 years or so I felt like I needed to puke, so I pull out the Krogers bag that was lining the garbage can and there I went, felt like I was gonna pass out repeatedly... I puked like 3 times? when I felt like I was done I reached over and put the bucket in the bathtub and sat there for a long while.
After what felt like an eternity I decided to get up, or try to, my legs were like jelly, it was all hazy... so I decided to get on the floor and crawl to the bathtub because I wanted to clean the bucket so my brother did not have to, the shower head was put up and I think I might have cried a little... got up and tried to clean the bucket best I could but left the bucket in the bathtub just in case I did not do a good job or something.
I made my way slowly to my bed and crawled in and just slept nearly all of Friday which felt like hell, I would wake up every few hours with the sound of my heart beating pretty loudly, managed to make sure to take my meds and check my blood and do my insulin that day.
Saturday I slept most of it, did get up a few times for my medical stuff, hopped into my Master's stream (
yoon) and tried to talk to her and Cherry, did eat once that day, sadly I had a slight issue in bed so me being still weak and sick had to wash my sheets and stuff, all while freezing like god damn hell waiting for everything to finish washing and drying all the way through, putting everything back on the Temperpedic mattress was a nightmare too, getting the zip on under sheet back on required lifting from me who was already weak as sin and was sick on top of it, I managed to do it, it took over a half an hour and missed the end of yoon's stream and a large portion of 
memokkeen's stream too.OKAY, THAT WAS A LOT! HOW AM I DOING NOW?
Well my stomach hurts, my legs and well everything hurts more then normal, I am more steady at walking, my voice is raspy and I am getting tired of trying to sip my drink and having pain every time I do X__x but I am ok-ish now... considering my Christmas is ruined, FA is being wonky and a lot of you guys are gonna be trying to enjoy your holidays I am gonna call this week a bust, gonna try not to think of what happened in the weekend that passed, enjoy my games.
If anyone is around on Christmas I would not mind some company on Skype (if I have you added) I am gonna be alone because my brother will be at work (yay more frozen for the holidays)
I want to do a few things in closing, first off I want to say I am sorry to my commissioners cause they are gonna be in for quite a wait I guess (next Monday I should be able to start up again?) next is the people I worried, I am alive and hope to stay that way >.>; and one more sorry for jumping around in mood in the journal, I was happy when I started and then got sad when I was trying to recall things and now I am fine again I think ^^;
I want to thank you guys for your concern and appreciate those of you who read through all of that (must of been really hard...)
Love you guys a lot, I wish you all that you desire this Christmas and please, please take care of your self, you guys deserve the best for making me have a good reason to live *hugs* <3
Was lethargic, now I am sick or something
Posted 11 years agoWas uncontrollably cold yesterday, had bad news at the hospital and then this morning I did something I have not done in over 10 years I think, I puked.
Was in the bathroom for like an hour and a half, been shaking, my head is pounding my stomach hurts.
I'm gonna go away for awhile, if some one needs me I can be texted or call or something, sorry.
Was in the bathroom for like an hour and a half, been shaking, my head is pounding my stomach hurts.
I'm gonna go away for awhile, if some one needs me I can be texted or call or something, sorry.
Delays in art
Posted 11 years agoWell I am been lethargic last few days, it's really cold so it is hard to move over to my work PC and do anything.
Also I have let my hair grow too long so I shaved my head and my face so now I am even more cold and stuff '~'
So I am gonna try to stream on Friday and one of the weekends (tomorrow I have a doctors appointment and not sure if I will be in the mood to stream, but I might!)
I have been trying to stream at a bit of time after 5pm, so I do not stream before 6pm I probably won't be, also gonna try to game stream late after my art streams if people are interested ^^
Anyhoo that is it, nothing is really wrong with me other then just massively tired, sorry fro the delay in art will try to spring back X__x
Thanks for reading ^^
Also I have let my hair grow too long so I shaved my head and my face so now I am even more cold and stuff '~'
So I am gonna try to stream on Friday and one of the weekends (tomorrow I have a doctors appointment and not sure if I will be in the mood to stream, but I might!)
I have been trying to stream at a bit of time after 5pm, so I do not stream before 6pm I probably won't be, also gonna try to game stream late after my art streams if people are interested ^^
Anyhoo that is it, nothing is really wrong with me other then just massively tired, sorry fro the delay in art will try to spring back X__x
Thanks for reading ^^
Taking commissions
Posted 11 years agoIf you are wondering, my last journal was deleted because I am sort of worthless as a human being and don't deserve to be asking for gifts, at least I can draw so if you want a commission I am opening up for them, here is the copy of a portion of the last journal about my commission:
"Here is my price guide:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12823417/
I am also taking face meme chibi's (you can see examples that I have posted already) for $15 (they are inked and flat colored
So what ya gotta do is post a character in the comments section belowso I can see if I can handle it ^^
The note should include refs of your character and a good color guide (if you want a color commission) my paypal is damnevildog[at]gmail.com
My usual info for commissions, donations would also be appreciated because I want to raise $70 to get my master yoon a gift ^^"
"Here is my price guide:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12823417/
I am also taking face meme chibi's (you can see examples that I have posted already) for $15 (they are inked and flat colored
So what ya gotta do is post a character in the comments section belowso I can see if I can handle it ^^
The note should include refs of your character and a good color guide (if you want a color commission) my paypal is damnevildog[at]gmail.com
My usual info for commissions, donations would also be appreciated because I want to raise $70 to get my master
yoon a gift ^^"Awesome weekend!
Posted 11 years agoMy master yoon just left just a little while ago... I feel so alone right now, I miss her already ;-;
She got here at like 4:10am my time early Saturday morning and I got a few hugs in before she she had to lay down and sleep (at this point she drove like 5ish hours AFTER just getting off work)
We watched a lot movies and animes on Netflix and had a lot of nice food (First place we went to was Kanutos, the food is amazing! they piled up your plate with tons of yummy rice and veggies along with the types of meat you wanted, the salad we got before was sooo good... so was the soup but it caused me tummy problems xD)
One thing I wanted was snuggle her more since I never got to do that much first time she was here, and I did! I'm her pet and just wanted to be a small white dog for real for once and just curl up on her lap <3
Gonna miss her really bad, she is the sweetest person ever, she was trying to take care of me the whole time she was here, she has a big heart and just makes you feel important no matter how messed up you are,or as broken as I feel.
Well that is all I wanted to say, the journal would have been longer since I wanted to talk about the movies and all the stuff we nomed on, but I have barley had much sleep over the last few days and am gonna relax till it is time for my meds then crash... which also means I won't stream today (people might have gathered that from my last journal) might try to stream at night, or not ^^;
Thanks guys for reading! make sure to check out yoon's art out and commissioner her maybe? love you guys, take care! *hugs* ^^
yoon just left just a little while ago... I feel so alone right now, I miss her already ;-;She got here at like 4:10am my time early Saturday morning and I got a few hugs in before she she had to lay down and sleep (at this point she drove like 5ish hours AFTER just getting off work)
We watched a lot movies and animes on Netflix and had a lot of nice food (First place we went to was Kanutos, the food is amazing! they piled up your plate with tons of yummy rice and veggies along with the types of meat you wanted, the salad we got before was sooo good... so was the soup but it caused me tummy problems xD)
One thing I wanted was snuggle her more since I never got to do that much first time she was here, and I did! I'm her pet and just wanted to be a small white dog for real for once and just curl up on her lap <3
Gonna miss her really bad, she is the sweetest person ever, she was trying to take care of me the whole time she was here, she has a big heart and just makes you feel important no matter how messed up you are,or as broken as I feel.
Well that is all I wanted to say, the journal would have been longer since I wanted to talk about the movies and all the stuff we nomed on, but I have barley had much sleep over the last few days and am gonna relax till it is time for my meds then crash... which also means I won't stream today (people might have gathered that from my last journal) might try to stream at night, or not ^^;
Thanks guys for reading! make sure to check out
yoon's art out and commissioner her maybe? love you guys, take care! *hugs* ^^Taking a break today, also... OTHER THINGS x3
Posted 11 years agoGonna take today off, I am really tired and feel a bit worn down.
Also I am getting sick of pills:
https://dl-web.dropbox.com/get/Came.....YVQTb0MouJw64w
I had to prep my three doses a day for the next week and it was annoying this morning because I was so tired x_x
Anyhoo, good news! yoon is gonna come visit me (if things goes ok) this saterday and will be here till monday :D
Hope we will have fun, she is visiting one last time before she moves to Oklahoma, so if I am sorta scares the week end and Monday that is why :P
That is all, sorry again about the no stream, I just am sleepy as hell and streaming would just put me to sleep x3;;
Love you guys, thanks for reading!
Also I am getting sick of pills:
https://dl-web.dropbox.com/get/Came.....YVQTb0MouJw64w
I had to prep my three doses a day for the next week and it was annoying this morning because I was so tired x_x
Anyhoo, good news!
yoon is gonna come visit me (if things goes ok) this saterday and will be here till monday :DHope we will have fun, she is visiting one last time before she moves to Oklahoma, so if I am sorta scares the week end and Monday that is why :P
That is all, sorry again about the no stream, I just am sleepy as hell and streaming would just put me to sleep x3;;
Love you guys, thanks for reading!
Still taking commissions! :3
Posted 11 years agoHey everyone! I am gonna open up for like 5-ish commissions
Here is my price guide:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12823417/
I am also taking face meme chibi's (you can see examples that I have posted already) for $15 (they are inked and flat colored
So what ya gotta do is post a character in the comments section below so I can see if I can handle it ^^
The note should include refs of your character and a good color guide (if you want a color commission) my paypal is damnevildog[at]gmail.com
I have one commission I still owe, so after that I am free, so if you want some art please gimme a poke! :D
Thank you for reading and much appreciate any commissions!
Here is my price guide:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12823417/
I am also taking face meme chibi's (you can see examples that I have posted already) for $15 (they are inked and flat colored
So what ya gotta do is post a character in the comments section below so I can see if I can handle it ^^
The note should include refs of your character and a good color guide (if you want a color commission) my paypal is damnevildog[at]gmail.com
I have one commission I still owe, so after that I am free, so if you want some art please gimme a poke! :D
Thank you for reading and much appreciate any commissions!
Taking commissions
Posted 11 years agoHey everyone! I am gonna open up for like 5-ish commissions
Here is my price guide:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12823417/
I am also taking face meme chibi's (you can see examples that I have posted already) for $15 (they are inked and flat colored
So what ya gotta do is post a character in the comments section belowso I can see if I can handle it ^^
The note should include refs of your character and a good color guide (if you want a color commission) my paypal is damnevildog[at]gmail.com
Thank you for reading and much appreciate any commissions!
Here is my price guide:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12823417/
I am also taking face meme chibi's (you can see examples that I have posted already) for $15 (they are inked and flat colored
So what ya gotta do is post a character in the comments section belowso I can see if I can handle it ^^
The note should include refs of your character and a good color guide (if you want a color commission) my paypal is damnevildog[at]gmail.com
Thank you for reading and much appreciate any commissions!
Taking off of art today!
Posted 11 years agoTaking off of art today because my vision is, well no other way I can think of to say it is "dirty" also have a little dark-ish spot which is making it hard to concentrate on things.
So yeah gonna chill tonight, hope tomorrow will be cool and I can get my last commission done, if it is still like this gonna at least try to finish that up and then call my eye doctor (already don't have my right eye, don't want to lose my left one xD;;)
Hope you guys can understand and hope to see you tomorrow around my normal stream time!
Thanks for reading *hugs* :D
So yeah gonna chill tonight, hope tomorrow will be cool and I can get my last commission done, if it is still like this gonna at least try to finish that up and then call my eye doctor (already don't have my right eye, don't want to lose my left one xD;;)
Hope you guys can understand and hope to see you tomorrow around my normal stream time!
Thanks for reading *hugs* :D
Not sure if sick or not, but I did have a flu shot
Posted 11 years agoNot sure if I am sick or not, but I did have a flu shot on Wednesday.
I think the flu shot is all that is causing me issues, but yeah I woke up bad yesterday and today I have a headache that won't go away, so I will be working on commissions still but not streaming.
Do not have a lot of people who watch them anyway, but those that this effects I am sorry, hope I will be feeling better soon to stream ^^;
That is it I think for my status, do have a question though!
I need a component to VGA adapter (because I want to hook up my PS2 and Xbox to a PC monitor) looked around and found several things, but I want something cheap and that will work for sure!
Thanks for reading, keep your self healthy and have a good holiday season ^^
Till next time! <3
I think the flu shot is all that is causing me issues, but yeah I woke up bad yesterday and today I have a headache that won't go away, so I will be working on commissions still but not streaming.
Do not have a lot of people who watch them anyway, but those that this effects I am sorry, hope I will be feeling better soon to stream ^^;
That is it I think for my status, do have a question though!
I need a component to VGA adapter (because I want to hook up my PS2 and Xbox to a PC monitor) looked around and found several things, but I want something cheap and that will work for sure!
Thanks for reading, keep your self healthy and have a good holiday season ^^
Till next time! <3
Might not stream today and... VIDEO GAMES!
Posted 11 years agoMight not stream today because I kept forgetting I had a doctor's appointment today >.<
If I do end up streaming it will be mid afternoon sometime, sorry about that =\
In other news, I want to thank everyone who decided to commission me for the last few weeks and thank them for being patient with this broken old dog ^^;
Because of all this I was able to pick up all four games last night I wanted to get and just about have enough for the three games I am getting next week!
This means a lot to me because all I do anymore is draw and play games, due to my issues physically this is my life.
Trying to get my games at Best Buy was a pain though... first two games were easy to snag (Assassin's Creed: Unity and Halo: Master Chief Collection) but the other two was like pulling teeth. Assassin's Creed: Rouge rang up fine but when I tried to redeem a $5 coupon for it the code kept coming up as "invalid" he kept trying, even had me log into my account while I was there... took me like a half hour for them to figure out what to do... finally LEGO Batman 3 for some reason kept ringing up $4 over, thankfully that did not take as long, but in total I was there over an hour... did not help that my brother disappeared some where in the store and was sitting in some corner or something >.<
The Best Buy guys were real nice, even gave me a chair to sit on so I did not stand there in pain for the hour I was there ^^;;
Next week I am getting Dragon Age: Inquisition, Far Cry 4 and Grand Theft Auto V
That is it, if I decide to stream it will be sometime after 5pm EST if not I hope to see you tomorrow in a stream if nothing else crops up ^^
If I do end up streaming it will be mid afternoon sometime, sorry about that =\
In other news, I want to thank everyone who decided to commission me for the last few weeks and thank them for being patient with this broken old dog ^^;
Because of all this I was able to pick up all four games last night I wanted to get and just about have enough for the three games I am getting next week!
This means a lot to me because all I do anymore is draw and play games, due to my issues physically this is my life.
Trying to get my games at Best Buy was a pain though... first two games were easy to snag (Assassin's Creed: Unity and Halo: Master Chief Collection) but the other two was like pulling teeth. Assassin's Creed: Rouge rang up fine but when I tried to redeem a $5 coupon for it the code kept coming up as "invalid" he kept trying, even had me log into my account while I was there... took me like a half hour for them to figure out what to do... finally LEGO Batman 3 for some reason kept ringing up $4 over, thankfully that did not take as long, but in total I was there over an hour... did not help that my brother disappeared some where in the store and was sitting in some corner or something >.<
The Best Buy guys were real nice, even gave me a chair to sit on so I did not stand there in pain for the hour I was there ^^;;
Next week I am getting Dragon Age: Inquisition, Far Cry 4 and Grand Theft Auto V
That is it, if I decide to stream it will be sometime after 5pm EST if not I hope to see you tomorrow in a stream if nothing else crops up ^^
One more journal then I am moving on with my life
Posted 11 years agoScrew it, after hearing things about certian friends I have taken them off my Skype, I am not gonna deal with no childish school yard drama garbage bull shit.
I have enough going on in my life with my medical junk, I don't need some junior high school dramas where the friends I made are now in a separate click talking bad about me.
After all the things I have tried to do for my friends this is what I get, I guess I don't need to wonder why some artists become withdrawn... and I am not even good? the hell?
I try so hard, so hard to make sure I don't step on other peoples feelings and yet what do I get? I get this, maybe I deserve it, I use to be a pretty worthless guy, guess I am still paying for it.
For those who hate me I will probably dead within a few years and you will be rid of me, for everyone else I appreciate the ones who give me genuine respect and care, I won't be adding anyone else to my messengers for a long, long time if at all.
Thanks for reading, will be trying to get my arts done here soon, just had to get this out of the way *hugs* ^^
I have enough going on in my life with my medical junk, I don't need some junior high school dramas where the friends I made are now in a separate click talking bad about me.
After all the things I have tried to do for my friends this is what I get, I guess I don't need to wonder why some artists become withdrawn... and I am not even good? the hell?
I try so hard, so hard to make sure I don't step on other peoples feelings and yet what do I get? I get this, maybe I deserve it, I use to be a pretty worthless guy, guess I am still paying for it.
For those who hate me I will probably dead within a few years and you will be rid of me, for everyone else I appreciate the ones who give me genuine respect and care, I won't be adding anyone else to my messengers for a long, long time if at all.
Thanks for reading, will be trying to get my arts done here soon, just had to get this out of the way *hugs* ^^
I'm better today, thank you
Posted 11 years agoWell after crying a lot, sleeping, spending time with my best friend today and then reading everything people posted in my previous journal (on FA and DA) I am gonna take what most people have said, forget these people I have been upset about.
This is not an easy thing to do, I love my friends, the people I invite into my life are not just "them people on the net" they are in my heart, I love them so much it's hard to describe.... it is also hard to describe when they just throw me away like I am useless unless I am streaming and making them happy.
No one is getting booted off of my Skype, I just won't be doing art for certain people anymore, won't be giving anyone I don't feel close to nick-names and etc. if I see a "?" by your name then I know to remove ya and that is fine, cause that means you don't care, good luck to you in life, don't let the internet hit you on the ass on the way out and etc.
So that is that, aside from my left shoulder hurting like hell (after an MRI scan they found something in there and I need PT also gonna make an appointment to see a mental health doctor to try to fix what has been done to me by my situation and my old friends) I am doing quite well, thank you for all the comments and advise, I really appreciate it (a lot of people offered an ear on Skype, but I am not willing as of right now to add anymore people cause I feel really used right now)
Anyhoo that is it, you guys take care of your selves and hope you have a good holiday ^^ *hugs and cuddles* <3
This is not an easy thing to do, I love my friends, the people I invite into my life are not just "them people on the net" they are in my heart, I love them so much it's hard to describe.... it is also hard to describe when they just throw me away like I am useless unless I am streaming and making them happy.
No one is getting booted off of my Skype, I just won't be doing art for certain people anymore, won't be giving anyone I don't feel close to nick-names and etc. if I see a "?" by your name then I know to remove ya and that is fine, cause that means you don't care, good luck to you in life, don't let the internet hit you on the ass on the way out and etc.
So that is that, aside from my left shoulder hurting like hell (after an MRI scan they found something in there and I need PT also gonna make an appointment to see a mental health doctor to try to fix what has been done to me by my situation and my old friends) I am doing quite well, thank you for all the comments and advise, I really appreciate it (a lot of people offered an ear on Skype, but I am not willing as of right now to add anymore people cause I feel really used right now)
Anyhoo that is it, you guys take care of your selves and hope you have a good holiday ^^ *hugs and cuddles* <3
