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i haven't did a journal in a while huh.. oops

anyways. my life hasn't been ok enough to not really put it out to the world i guess. so i normally dont really do journals everyday

but I have updated some things in my account ( commission descriptions, my bio, ect ) and i hope you do like!!
if you want to get in contact with me, please consider contacting me on FB ( https://www.facebook.com/nate.razak.1/ ) or even Telegram! ( dark_wing2 )

you got some taxidermy, some bones? cool animal parts! come join my discord server!!

https://discord.gg/9WB5bq

i have been having a deal on my commissions on FB, might as well tell everyone here.

i have a small deal on commissions to where if you buy TWO of ANYTHING, you'll get a free icon of your choice!
they can be done kinda quick, depending on the pose you want, and how fast you reply.

just look at my commissions tab to see examples: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/dark-wing2/

~ not like anyone cared if they closed. but they are back open. im gonna try to draw more
~ also?? i met my man and im both sad and happy. sad that its over and it was so short, but i had so much when i was with him. hopefully, soon we'll see each other in person soon
~ i started to paint again? and honesty?? i fucking love it. and i wish i had more money to buy cheap paints
~ my ferret will sell most likely? he didn't really scream " BOYFRIEND" so, with real help of my man, he is now a gecko!! and FUCK he is so cute. hes gonna be small compared to Darky. but he is still bright, a cute pastel boi


idk what else is new, idk if anyone reads this. oh well

a couple depressing things has happened in the past like three days so uhh yep

~ Commissions have closed, i recently had a beware put on me for my poor service. and how shitty a person i am. and it REALLY hit me hard. im still upset about it from two days ago. i had to step back from my facebook and end up having my boyfriend take over. because i would probs make it worse. but yeah. because of that, legit everyone around me told me to take a break on drawing commissions. so uhhhh after two years they are closed
~ i'll probs make adopts to get my money now. so?? maybe look out for those? idfk
~ im trying to draw more, i swear, im trying to get better but its getting harder and harder.

okay, didnt mean to uploud it but hhh here we go, i got ike four hours of sleep. excuse me

~ the most exciting thing that's gonna happen in a couple of months. i am moving!! i'll be moving to Regina in with my boyfriend. and hopefully, i can leave people i dont like behind. and start a new chapter. With my boyfriend.
~ i stopped my babysitting job a while ago, didnt really get payed for the last couple days for it, so fun.
~ also, happy Pride Month! just a lil tip that i am asexual and non-binary. i am in a closed relationship with my boyfriend. thank you
~ i am making adopts and making YCHs in hope of selling and getting more money to save up for rent and shit with my boyfriend when i move in
~ i wanna draw more, but bitch is tired and want to spend time with my boyfriend all the time tbh

i think thats all for this month, if anything changes, i will let ya'll know i guess???

i didn't do last month, but that's okay??? i guess a lot happened soo hh

~ i went to Calgary Expo on Sunday, had some fun!! i'm drawing a cute lil " after con cuddles" with lil blue ferret boi and Darky! so look out for that
~ i started a babysitting job, but since i am not mentally capable of handling a toddler, i maybe stopping that. because i have been having mental breakdowns and been feeling like shit ever since i started it. that is also the reason i haven't been drawing so hhhh
~ i have made a new OC to match my boyfriends OC. and i love him so much??? so lets see how much i can draw him because of hhhh yeah.
~ also on that note i;ll probs be drawing the two OCs in place of Darky and Keibien?? because of my boyfriend is a furry. and i dont wanna force it too much on him.
~ since starting my babysitting job??? i gained back all my weight, so funnnnn


thats about it?? i guess, farewell bois!!

i almost missed this month but ITS OKAY!!!

~ i changed my prices for my commissions. they are now only in CAD because i am kinda sick of people seeing the cheaper price and i spend so much work on my art so uhhh there?
~ i have a YCH open??? please?? give mons for it
~ i will be selling someone of the old fursonas i dont use, so please be on the lookout for them
~ i am still very much in love with my man. and i am pushing commissions and everything i can to get the money to help him. and plus i wanna do something nice.
~ i have lost about 20lbs? but i keep gaining it back. so its kinda just there
~ i have been back on drawing so YAY!
~ i have gotten back on my furry account, so i will be posting stuff over there too (( https://www.facebook.com/darknesspup ))


okay i dont have much. so GO OFF I GUESS

a couple things have happened. so lets just made this kinda short, but long because i MISSED JANUARY. PLE A S E SL AP M E

~ one of the biggest things for me was that i got a boyfriend. he isnt a furry, but i have made him a fursona. a ferret with light blue fur and red hair. so you'll maybe see some art
~ i haven't been drawing because i have been busy. but IM TRYING I SWEAR
~ i have also been more and more of an adult and since my boyfriend has been making me a happier healthier person, and i am so happy
~ also i've been drawing more and more humans, im trying to stray away form furries soo uhh sorry
~also i have lost 10-17 lbs since the new year. im trying to tone up and look good for both myself and my boyfriend. since he lives a couple hours away from me
~also i;ve been trying to catch up on my Netflix. been watching Lucifer, The Ted Bundy tapes, been getting up on Gotham. its pretty damn good so far my bois

ahh this is nothing, but its all i have bois, enjoy

new years is two weeks away, and Christmas is in three or so days. what the fuck is happening anymore. so since someone thought it was a good idea to vacuum at 11:30 at night, i am now up for the rest of the day. so fuck me i guess??

~just think, Jake Paul's Suicide forest thing was this year, some with the tide-pod shit.
~ nothing has happened in my life. so this maybe is hectic and short. because it is like 2 in the morning
~ i haven't been working out, so I have been the same weight for two months. i want to work out, but i never do. so fuck me I guess??
~ i have been drawing more humans if you've seen. i want to draw some humans again. make OCs. because i get kind embarrassed if someone asks to see my art and its all furry shit. so uhh woo i guess?
~ i have been getting more commissions. so i'm happy about that. but it is a bit spotty. which i don't mind tbh
~ i have been binging RuPaul's Drag Race because Canada's Netflix put seasons 2-9 on it. so im happy tbh.

i think that is all i have to tell you about tbh. im tired heh
i'll maybe one around the new year for my new year resolutions. bai~

its November, that means having Chrismas getting shoved down our throats as soon October 31 ends. there isnt much that happened to me in the last month.. but uhh here

~ is still havent drawn the LAST DAMN DRAWING OF GORETOBER. im trYING OKAY!!
I have an idea sketched, i just need to draw it and such
~ I'm still super Gay for BNHA boys. and im thinking of getting more cosplay of some of them. but uhh please go give my cosplay a look # (( hhah shameless plug ))
~ legit nothing has been going on, i may make two this month because its been a long night

OHH BOY, not much happened since last month, but, here we go, boys,

~ i am so gay for everyone in the MHA/BNHA universe. they are all good and i love them. i wanna cosplay so many boys int here and hopefully, i do.
~ most of ya'll have seen that i have started Goretober like... 6 days late. but hey, they are gonna be daily hopefully untill the end of the month. I've been drawing/sketching them a couple days ahead so i dont get backed up. but that makes me wanna post all of them all at once... ahhh
~ kinda back on the first thing. there is no con for a while, but i wanna cosplay go much and get so many photos of my cosplay. so lets see if i can in like... 7 months. ( when is the next con i can maybe go too )
~ i also have been meaning to get in shape again. i weighed last night and im like 260lb, i need to start working out now. and plus i wanna be fit and look bomb in my cosplay for next year. plus,, big titty goth
~ i now have platform shoes. idk if you want to know that, but i have some and i am so happy i do, because fuck man, i love them and i will wear thing as much as i can.


i dont have anything else to report i guess? everything is been okay, my " seasonal Depression" lasted like... a week, but who knows if it comes back. fuck me if i does huh?

OKAY BAII

not a lot happened this month tbh. all but my Birthday is on Thursday and i dont really know how to feel turning 19 hahh

~ like i had said i am turning 19 on Thursday, so yay me i guess?
~ i just finished a convention, so thats always fun. i got like no photos of my cosplay this time, but thats okay. i will hopefully get some soon tho.
~ and due to that con finishing. it means that would be the last Con for a while. i will most likely go to only one next year. if you read my previous journal, you would know that Animethon sucked, and may not go to Animethon next year and they cut out the smaller Animethon for next year. and there isnt much i can go too, so i wont be able to go to any cons for a while. and i may or may not have PCD ( Post-Con Depression ) or that is mixed in my seasonal depression.
~ im sorry that i dont have much for art right now. i;ve got in an art block and on top of that i kinda got overwhelmed over all the drawings i owe for people.
~ I did get back into watching Anime. right now my big thing is My Hero Academia. and i am trying to get everyone around me into it. because hot damn its really good.
~ oof, sorry if this is long, but i am tired and kinda wanting to die thinking that i am getting one year older and that i know that this will be another year of me being sad.

this gross bitch out

I'm gonna see if i can do these updates every month. if not someone slap me.

~lately i haven't been depressed or anything, my feelings have been neutral. It's a weird feeling
~ i've been pumping out more art. because i took on like... 50 free drawings because i am STUPID
~ i have like... 15 WIPs of those free drawings?? so i gotta finish those.. uGHH KILL M E
~ Animethon was two weeks ago, and it wasn't really that good. i had a panic attack, i was paranoid, the places to take good photos was limited and so on. it just... sucked. they ONLY good thing about was i got to see my friend and they gave me a real cute pipe-cleaner pocket Nate!

there isnt much for me to update.. so?? THIS HOE OUT

Oops. its been 6 months since i updated my life on here soo. OOPS sorry about that. i was meant to do this earlier but i forgot haha.

~ me and my partner broke up like a month ago and i am still broken up about it. so no new art of Darky and Moss
~my Commissions are still open but they will be slow due to personal problems { plus i got a slight art block }
~ I missed Fur-Eh due to not getting a ride. but I will be at Animethon in August! i'll be posting who i am gonna be soon!!
~ I've been streaming on Twitch more! so maybe follow me for drawing streams!! https://www.twitch.tv/darknesswing2
~ i HAVE A KO-FI!!! If you give me a tip i'll doodle you something :3 https://ko-fi.com/F1F5FJ4O

OOF. cant think of what else to put and its getting late, so THANKS FOR READING PEEPS!!!

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