so in an attempt to keep myself active here.
does anyone have any character they'd like to see me draw? (of my own, since this is my personal account :'3)
you can see most of them here:
http://toyhou.se/Darkomi
i have another chunk on Charahub here:
https://charahub.com/user/Darkomi

just mainly posting this to get my old journals cleaned up x'D

Its been a while since i updated this account.
Thanks to new watchers firstly.
secondly, I've been in the process of getting the pieces to my new desktop computer, only have $400 left before I'm done with necessities :D
If anyone wants to help, pop over to my commission account
for everyone else, I've been wanting to do some personal art but idk where to start or what to draw?

Esp since I have more commissions than ever to work on right now x.x

But I have a gifty to draw for that should be done later today.

Going in in an hour to retake an assessment test for a job cause I was too slow when I did it last week. Wish me the best for that x.x

After that I should be free though.

Alsoi think its raining outside o.o awesome

XD
More upates later tonight, for now I shut up. X3 thanks for reading!

I need a new computer, I am so frustrated with my laop. Took me 10 minutes to save a file. FRUSTRATE. Anyway. Gonna work super hard tonight to finish thingsso I can open up and save for something better than this P.O.S

DARK OUTTY

aaa year older, and another year that all i want is that HDMI TV so I can play games/ do stuff on a TV without having to steal my fiance's TV to do so.
after all, she has work to do too. :T

srsly, that's all I want from my family/friends this year xD
and that's the only reason i haven't gotten it myself yet, cause people have made plans to try and get it already.
I HOPE.

we'll see though, i'm not crossing my fingers too much :T little bro told me he'd get it for me a year ago and i still don't have it.

|D either way!

I look forward to at least taking the day off to myself cause man is it gonna be niceee~

thats all, i was just reminded by a friends journal.

here's to hoping i get the TV, (since it's all I wanted for christmas too, lawl)

i can't get fancy pants matching icons with anymore cause she left.
;n;
guess i'll have to use em like crazy shit over on Weasyl instead.
-cray-

/never imagined i'd be upset about matching icons lol/

that sounds dirty.

bumping out the last journal though cause it makes me face palm when i see it haha.

i like my new phone.

also, trying to decide if i should bother uploading art people have done here... i normally keep my accounts free of art by others.... hhhmmm... |T

it's been a while since I've had a new journal up here.
I guess this is kinda like a vent journal though.

>_O and its a stupid feeling, I know it is, but I can't always drown it out.

I consider myself a pretty decent artist. I draw stuff that I really really like, sometimes.
Then i start to feel -really- good when a popular artist asks me for a commission, so i work extra, super hard to make it look nice.
part of it is cause i really want that exposure to other really awesome artists, it's kinda how i reach out? cause i'm so frikkin secluded to myself and -my- little group of friends.

And also because i can't commission those artists to draw my own character.
I can't afford that kind of exposure (even though i want their art super bad)

anyways, it gets me feeling paranoid, like, something i've done has offended these artists that amaze me, and you know? It probably has at some point?

waited SUPER long for a piece of art from me. I did finish it, but when i sent Dip the link i never got a fav, or a comment. It hurt, but i don't blame them.

I used to talk to Crystal too, but then I took on a commission for someone of a character that was, pretty obviously based on her character. I haven't heard from her since. I feel -terrible- but i don't know where to even start with the apology so i just sank back into my corner feeling like shit. And only hope that I can do better later. I really am Sorry for it, i just didn't realize what i had done was so stupid until after it was already done.

I screwed up so many times. I'm seriously scared to reach out more often.

I'm seriously intimidated. Like all of them talk to eachother and then I come up and i've just fucked up so much its like.... they know it.

I can normally push this feeling off, and i tell myself i'm being ridiculous. but fricking hell man...
I admit, I'm a little depressed, have been since last night. I saw an artist I like, who I honestly though, well maybe we're around the same level? posted a journal with a nifty idea to let people make their own design of her original species, but the rules were that she and you had to watch eachother.

When I saw they didn't watch me? I was a little surprised, yeah, and at first it was just like, "oh, well that's fine, they don't need to watch me." but then I let it sink in and i got really sad... My stuff just isn't her cup of tea, i'm sure, but I just feel like my art isn't that good, cause I'm dumb and IDK why that's what my train of thought does, but it did.

Then it got worse, and I worry about all the people I used to talk to, and wonder if someone's told them bad things, or i've actually done terrible things and I just..
ugh!

anyways.
I just wanted to vent a little. this actually happens fairly often, just not to this degree, and I don't know where else to vent cause i sure don't want to put this on my Darkomi account and sound like a whiny little attention whore.

so i'm gonna post it here where i have less watchers >->;

I know this train of thought is ridiculous, and I shouldn't be thinking this way. I can't help it sometimes.
Thanks for reading, if you did.

I made a Charahub account for my characters :D
they won't all fit but >->; may as well, y'know.
https://charahub.com/user/Darkomi
for those interested x3
it's still a work in progress, and it will be for a while, i have a lot of editting to do and a lot of background stuff to finish on my Anthro characters, since they're my least worked on in way of background and history. :B

anyone else have a Charahub account? i'm willing to watch back ;3 so just add me on there and i'll add you back!

I ended up playing with this picture I started for a LONG while back of his sona burning his tongue and my sona LAWLING at him.
AND OMIGAW I'M HAVING TOO MUCH FUNNNN 8D
it's been forever and a day since I've drawn Dark doing anything other than being an icon. :T
It's high time I got this started.

also, I just now started to debate streaming this but i'm not sure cause of reasons.
mostly reasons pertaining to me being a lazy butt and I am pretty sure Toxic is going to want to do some RP's when she gets off the phone with her mumsy.


HERE'S THE WIP FOR THOSE INTERESTED~

http://puu.sh/3tvZ4.jpg

x3 I love how the mouth turned out and them teeth and FFFFFweee~

(P.S. I am pulling an all nighter cause my sleep schedule sucks, so i'm kinda hurped up on sleep deprivation X3 and coffee.)

lets get this damn account started!
got my journal/profile set up, just need to start faving shit, watching artists i like, and posting my personal art.
GOD, PERSONAL ART, I MISSED THEE!

thanks for rewatching guys :D