I'm going to do another driving session today, almost done with these...
As far as life solutions goes... still stalled it seems... cant figure out what I want to do for a career, and there's no jobs in the region still...
That being said... I still dont have the means to replace either of my two broken computers...

...

I never realised how lonely I get when I'm cut off like this... even though I dont talk to many...

...I'll be lucky if I can have access to my parents PC this coming 21st... would be nice to talk to someone on my birthday...

Well, that lasted long, now my backup computer doesnt work anymore.

*sighs...* I wonder why I bother trying to find solutions to problems some times c.c;

While im still jobless, and down a laptop, I did managed to get my old XP system connected to the internet finally.

Not perfect, but at least I can stay in contact with everyone I know.

My laptop just died, GPU fried i assume, since im broke, i cant afford to replace my laptop, I do have my old Computer i could set up, but there isnt any cables that go downstairs for the internet, so pointless.

So, eh.. no idea when ill be around again, considering i cant seem to find a job.

Ill probably check my emails/coments but.. that will be about it.

So untill i get something to actually go right for me for a change, see you... uh... whenever i guess.

Happy christmas also.

Talk about feeling useless... something ive gotten used to feeling ever since high school.

I find myself owing money to income taxes due to a mistake that was made, and i had been given too much money as a refund. Now that the mistake got resolved, i need to pay back the amount they overpaid me.

The problem?

I am STILL jobless with zero income, so while i wait for a job, my payment is on hold indefinetly, acquiring interest daily.

ive been searching for jobs (including temporary ones) only to find jobs im unable to apply for, for various reasons:
-requires x years of experience minimum to even be considered.
-requires own transportation (i only have a begginers liscence, and own no vehicle)
-the only jobs i can apply for, i have no means to get there even if i traveled with my father, since the hours are just too different.
OR id have to go back to a call center, wich would make me quiting my previous call center job pointless.
-zero local jobs in this town

all other jobs require education from college/university wich requires money to go to (wich i dont have any), oh, did i also mention i seem to be incapable to determine what i actually want to take at college?

Geez... why dont the world just stands on its head for all i know. As its stands, i have zero means of moving forward in my life. Makes me wonder if thats how life should be, as it sure has felt this way since the last half of high school.

Sorry for wasting your time with my venting.

Got issues with my router, wireless aint working anymore, so untill the replacement router arrives, i wont be around during that time, as my folks dont want me on this computer much...


So untill then, be well everyone c.c

Ok, after getting a lemon, finally got the issue resolved!

He needs the money to get study supplies, and could use commissions!

Since i cant afford commissions, i figured i can at least advertise for him!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2737982/

Ever felt like when you try to do something, and really put the effort in it, just to be yelled at for not even trying?

Well... i sure as heck do...

Just had an argument with my folks regarding jobs, and the fact im still jobless, despite me looking for one.


I mean... its like they though i didnt look for a job at all... that i just... did nothing while my money waisted away.

I dont normally talk back at my folks about anything.... but i was so frustrated, (dunno how i held back saying things that shouldnt be said) i told them in their face that i put a serious effort, only to get nothing, if anyone needed to be frustrated about it, should have been me, not them.

since that argument, i recalled how my life has been since high shcool... and i can think of many instances like such up until today.

i mean, there was times i was happy, got to meet a good friend from Norway, got to go on vacations outside of my province on my own.

Its the things that are important to have a life that really... confound me, wether its education, keeping a job, or looking for a job... i give it my all, just to get nothing out of it.

I just hope i can get out of this problem i seem to have, before it does something i really wont like...

Anyway... sorry for the rant there.... i just needed to vent before i exploded.




Be well everyone.

*Edit*

Managed to get my laptop working again finally, took longer to upate it than fixing it heh c.c





I would have made a journal in DA, but i cant seem to get on that at the moment, so this will have to do...

My laptop decided to stop responding since this morning, Windows Explorer continuesly stops responding when i do NOTHING.


Gonna see if i can fix this (had no luck with it so far c.c). at worse if i cant do anything at all, might have to go format it.

So for the time being, i wont be online much, since this computer aint mine.


Here's hoping what ill try in the next few hours will work c.c


Ill keeep you all posted if things come up/is fixed