I dunno, I realize I haven't posted anything in a while. I'm not dead, I'm just lazy and I don't check FA that often.

Uh.. some good news, I was able to pay off my car loan 3 years early. Some not so great news (depending on opinion), I took a count as to cons and whatnot, and it turns out I'm only doing 3 cons; for those interested; Texas Furry Fiesta, PAX East, and Furpocalypse. Other than that, not much else to share, just working and being bored :x

Probably just gonna keep sticking to twitter or telegram for a bit. Feel free to reach out on either, both are arek_darkwolf -shrug-

That's all :x

I didn't realize how great the weekend was until I was in the plane, leaving Chicago, and the PCD hit very hard.

Before the good stuff, i wanted to explain why I've been very negative the past couple of years in regards to cons. 2014 in its entirety was terrible for me, at the few cons I attended. I made quite a few posts about giving up cons and whatnot, which I'm sure was annoying to anyone who read. That's not the case anymore.

2015 started out on a good note with TFF (aside from getting stuck in Texas an extra day due to ice >.>). Met some new friends there, who convinced me into going to AC. AC went well, and Furpocalypse this year was better then the last, so when asked about MFF, I figured I'd give it one more go.

Mff went very well, aside from an upset stomach for most of the weekend, I can't think of any moments where I wasn't enjoying my time at the con. With that in mind, I plan to try going to repeat my 2015 con attendance in 2016. (Will be posted on my page)

A huge thanks to everyone that I crossed paths with over the weekend, as it would not have been possible without you.

Lastly a special thanks to my roommates who put up with me and my negativity all year.

Since I'm lazy and currently too tired to do a huge copy paste:

I'll be in the main hotel

Best contact is twitter or telegram (same handle for both, arek_darkwolf)

Uh.. yep, that's about it. Feel free to reach out if you wanna meet up/hang out.

I'll be there. Staying in the main hotel, I'll probably be in or near the video game room as I'm still watching over that stuff. If I'm not, I'll be around somewhere.

If you see me, feel free to say hi. Wanna get in touch? Use twitter or telegram @ Arek_Darkwolf.

It's been a while since I've done one of these, feel free to ask stuff you want to know.

Figured I'd hop on the bandwagon for Telegram as it seems like a neat idea, and I see more and more people using it. You can find me by searching Arek_Darkwolf

This is going to be relatively short, as I'm pretty boring and don't do much at cons (panel wise), but here's a brief summary of stuff

AC went well, I don't have many pictures since I was fursuiting most of the time, so if any pictures of me are spotted, please let me know. There were a few things here and there that could have gone better, but overall it was decent. Ended up spending most of my time down by the water front to hang out, talk to people, and kill time/relax. I may consider going again next year depending on various situations.

That's all really, thanks for reading.

Q: Where are you staying?
A: Westin

Q: When will you be arriving and leaving?
A: Wednesday-Monday

Q: Who will you be rooming with?
A:  Zenyu_Worg,  masterkennyG and a few others who's FAs I don't know

Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
A: Probably roaming either in and out of suit.

Q: What/where will you be eating?
A: Things at places.

Q: Will you be drinking?
A: I might be

Q: What is your gender?
A: Male

Q: How tall are you?
A: 5'3

Q: If I approach you, will you chat with me?
A: Most likely

Q: If I see you, how should I get your attention?
A: Saying hello works.

Q: Do you own a fursuit?
A: Yep

Q: How can I find you?
A: Whether in or out of suit, I'll have my phone on me so, twitter Arek_Darkwolf

Q: Can I take your picture?
A: In suit, sure, out of suit, ask first.

So I'm 22 now. Yay? Eh.. not really.

So I know I said I was done with meets and cons and whatnot, however I also said that depending on how TFF went, would impact future decisions. Since TFF was mostly ok, and the friends I met there are bugging me constantly to go and room with them at AC, I might end up going. I'm still not competely decided, just decided to mention it now in case I do go.

Still pretty done with furmeets though, since anytime I give them a chance, it's a disaster.

So, I realize I haven't posted here in a while, although I didn't go anywhere. I just forget to upload things, or post. Oops.

Anyway, I've recently started streaming PC games (Killing Floor 2, CS:GO, GTA V and other stuff) which can be found here: http://www.twitch.tv/arek_darkwolf

I generally stream Mon-Thursday from 8PM-10PM EST and at random other times when I'm not busy.

Streaming also lead me to getting a better webcam, since the one I had was many years old, and very poor quality. Might use it a bit more for skype, or fursuit omegle at some point, if that's even still a thing? :x

Thanks for reading. I have a few other pics to post, but I'm gonna space those out over a few days, as I sort through which ones I want to post.

Sooooo Im gonna be at PAX (since its not a furcon :p ) and I guess I'll be suiting at some point. Keep an eye out if you're there.

The only downside is I don't have a cosplay to go with my suit :c

Uh where to begin... started out a bit.. bad to say the least, one of the most annoying things was probably that I was denied to be served alcohol, because the package store never saw a Connecticut license before, so even though I'm 21 and whatnot, they refused to sell to me.

Thursday was pretty slow. Met up with a couple new people ( masterkennyg and others whos FA I don't know at this moment), which was probably the best part, since those people are basically who I was around most of the con.

Friday night was good. Small-ish party where I got myself inebriated enough to be in an incredibly good mood. Also met  TigerSammich and  mlw either this day, or Saturday.

Saturday, there was quite a bit of drama between my roommates, starting with one, then later in the might moved to the other. Trying to make sure I was there for the both of them (at least later in the day cause of previously made dinner plans) I missed out on a couple of the DJs I wanted to hear =/

Sunday was fine, aside from it being cold. I feel like it was a sign that I should stop going to cons and meets, cause whenever I do, the weather is crappy. IT SNOWED IN TEXAS FOR EXAMPLE.... anyway... a lot of people left early from either the weather, or just cause it was Sunday, so things got really slow.

Monday I woke up to a cancelled flight thanks to SNOW/ICE IN TEXAS (I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH ABOUT HOW ANNOYING THAT IS).... We managed a room at a hotel down the street from the airport and rebooked to this morning at 9am (WHICH ALMOST GOT CANCELED) and just had a relaxing night before hectic travel..

So that was about it (summed up of course). The con wasn't awful, but it wasn't exactly great either mainly due to non-con related issues (some of which I left out of this post). I'm still kinda done with cons and meets, at least for some time. Kinda hard to justify spending money on going to places you rarely enjoy.

Aaaanyway, I'll probably be uploading anymore pictures tomorrow or over the weekend... or some point in time.

If anyone going would like to meet up or something, the best way to reach me is twitter ( Arek_Darkwolf ) or here I guess. I don't usually check FA much though and I'm not going to post my number here. I usually also have steam or Skype open in my phone, those links are on my profile. Lastly, you'll probably spot me roaming alone as that happens a lot.

Anyway, whoever else is going, have fun. Here's to hoping my last con goes well.

So yeh, it's Tuesday. Have something you wanna ask? Go for it.

Well, Texas Furry Fiesta is coming up soon, only a couple weeks actually. Hopefully I see some people I know or meet people (by some miracle...), since my original plans of who I'd meet up with ended up not working out.

With that being said, I've also been taking a look at my life, my friends, and other situations. I've come to the conclusion that after TFF, I don't plan on going to any more cons, or meets, aside from Furpocalypse and possibly Maltese fur con(due to being on staff). I've given meets and cons over 2 years now, however with my anxiety, it makes it very difficult for me to meet people, which makes it hard to enjoy cons, and meets.

So yeah, I'll probably be even less active here as well, since I won't have much to really post, aside from random fursuit pictures that I might take once in a great while. It was fun while it lasted I suppose, and unless TFF goes really well, I don't see things really changing for me.

Thanks for reading~

It's tuesday again. Ask away if you have anything.

Been sick/dizzy otherwise I would have posted this earlier. Feel free to ask stuff.

Probably shoulda posted this earlier, but eh.. better late than never? Ask away, if you choose to do so of course.

Merry Christmas everyone, hope you all have a nice night and day tomorrow with friends and or family

For those of you who know me, rather for a short or long period of time, I'm sure you're aware that I'm depressed, as I make it pretty obvious. If you didn't know, well here's some new knowledge about me. This is NOT a cry for help, or a plea for attention, nor am I fishing for compliments or any of that, I just feel like writing this to explain why I am the way I am, and why I think the way I do and is a bit of a way to vent. I also feel this is a way to clear any worry that some may have for me. Before I start, I want to thank all of those people who stuck by me all this time, check in on me to see how I am, and put up with me whenever I'm in the darkest of places, I greatly appreciate it.. even when it seems like I don't..

To start, if you speak to me on occasion, and you ask me how things are, or how I'm feeling, there's a good chance I've replied with 'bad' or 'Depressed as usual'. I apologize if this seems annoying to any of you who talk to me, however, I would rather make it clear as to what I'm feeling, so that if for some reason I snap at you, it doesn't seem so.. 'random'. I also feel like I'm lying if I turn around to say 'I'm fine, you?' or something of the sorts, and lying is not something I enjoy doing. If I do lash out at you during a conversation, I apologize, and I don't mean it, however while already being in a very awful mood, sometimes its the simple things that just get to me.

I've been depressed for a long time now, at least 5+ years, however the reasons behind it have changed. It used to be bullying from school due to being short and skinny. School lead to a few short 'relationships' (literally a month or less, nothing to really be considered a real relationship) where by the end of those 'relationships', I felt worse than going into them based on how I was treated and I'm sure I can find a couple people who can agree that poorly may even be an underrated description for some of them. This ended up leading me to self esteem issues, as I felt like I wasn't good enough for anyone and that I was a terrible person who deserved to be treated poorly.

Self esteem is still my issue today, however I do -not- believe I deserve to be treated like dirt, I do however, feel as though I'm not good at most things that I enjoy, or anything that has real meaning (Like being decent with video games, or computers). I am working on resolving this, however getting mad at me for thinking the way I do, does -not- help. I'm starting to finally accept that I'm decent at my job, and that when I try to be, I can be a decent human being. I still hold many self loathing thoughts that I'm fighting to get through and even though I hear from many people that my thoughts and opinions of myself are wrong, it does not alter my opinion, although it does help me feel somewhat better. I'm also upset due to relationships, or rather the lack there of, but again, this is something I am actively working on..

Onto the topic that most people accompany with depression, and the one that people fear, is suicide. I want everyone who reads this to know that I will -NEVER- take action on any though I may have in regards to self harm of any kind. I'm not going to lie and say I never have thoughts like 'people would be better off without me', because I've had moments like those, as I'm sure most people who suffer from depression have. I deeply appreciate any worry that people have for me, and how they will be sure to show that they care for me and don't want to see anything happen. I will guarantee you that it won't. I have managed to fight through depression to a few points where I felt true happiness. I didn't care what negative thoughts were trying to run through my mind. I was happy to be alive and go about my day. Then the storm returned, things got dark again, but I still think of how it was to feel that happiness. The thought of that happiness, the amazing way it felt, as well as my friends and family being around me, are what keep me going. They are why whenever any self harm thought even tries to enter my mind, it gets shut out because I realize that it is not an answer, not a solution, and in no way is it worth doing.

So there you go.. a deep view into the dark parts of my head. If you read this, I thank and appreciate you for taking the time to do so. Please know that typing this up is a much easier way for me to explain everything, rather than talking face to face. Again, I want to thank each and every person who has stuck by me thus far, as I appreciate it to no end.

I'll be there, I guess.

So,

Both tournaments I had hosted for the video game room went without issue, in fact, all the time I've spent there went by with no issue. I hope whoever was there (Who ever stopped in the room as well) enjoyed it.

Things took a turn for the worse on Saturday, and well, I'm home now instead of Monday due to mood and whatnot. Anyway, again, I hope anyone who attended had enjoyed the con.

Providing I'm still director again next year (not sure why I wouldn't be), things should be better since I should be able to get a better handle on things equipment wise.

So...Yep.

So yeah.. I'll be there. I'm sure I'll see quite a few people, as my plans originally were, I'll be staffing the video game room. I plan to have a smash bros melee and Mario kart 64 tournament one on Friday and one on Saturday I just hope I have all the equipment needed hah. Guess we'll find out.

So if you wanna meet up/hang out, I'll probably be there. If I'm not, I'll be wandering around in or out of suit. If you wanna contact me to meet up, best way is Twitter (@Arek_Darkwolf) or here. I don't check here toooooo often so, sorry if I miss ya.

Since it's Tuesday and I'm on vacation and bored, feel free to ask stuff.