sorry for not being very vocal these past couple of weeks. haven't been really feeling like myself. could be that I'm getting use to the new way I'm eating now (I eat 1600 or less calories a day and drink nothing but water to get some weight loss) so I think my body is getting use to not getting what it wants and there's an impending wedding for my sister coming up, so I've been helping with that by putting my artistic efforts towards making paper mache birds. 32 to be exact. x_x;

so yeah, art drive has been pretty shitty but I think I got a little bit back today, so we'll see where inking starts on all these commissions I got.

Also going to work on finishing up DigiXXX pledges. just...things have been iffy for the past month anyway because I've been over here at my sisters apartment instead of home which is 7 hours away. x0x;

anyway, just trying to keep yall up to date!

had to do a bit of shopping lately helping my sister with her wedding. need a bit of extra cash in my pocket. xAx;

so two slots are open, and I'll be posting a special new discount commission deal later today since my FNAF one didn't pan out.

Ok so most of yall know I'm saving up for a Gaming desktop, but I wonder, will this computer also be able to run programs like Sai, Photoshop and other things for my art needs?

I'm wondering this just in case my laptop dies out (it's only 2 years old so far but going to be 3 in the summer, still works amazingly though) but I'm hoping that the ASUS I'm planning on getting will be able to work just as well with art programs as my laptop does. Or should I just stick with laptops for my art needs and have two computers, one for gaming and one for arting? :O

questions questions QUESTIONS. <:V

*SHRUGS* saw some advertising here on FA for SixthLeafClover (i think that's what they were, I have them bookmarked though) and their pricing for printing commissions are pretty damn nice. Sooooo I could offer them at an extra little cost and have it straight up shipped to you customers. :V just a thought, might be Patreon specific though if I get that far or decide even for regular commissions for you people that have always wanted a print of your commission but had no special printer.

Also I'm getting some double colors in my hair tomorrow so anyone who watches my YT, expect some pinks and greens in my next Let's Play.

just kind of blabbing my thoughts here. no worries, I'll get back to commission work. <:V

Just drop a note to me or go buy a copy from Rabbit Valley and help them get some revenue. :3

RV link here https://www.rabbitvalley.com/item_9.....__DIGIXXX.html

or ask me.

Digital copies are $15

Physical are $25

Both together are $30

A Notice for buyers outside of the USA, please understand that you will need to pay extra for shipping and also accept the possibility that your copy might be taken away by customs for anti-porn reasons if they find out it's porn. I of course will be listing the package as simply a "magazine" and nothing more than that on the customs form.

I'm really trying to get these last few copies sold, there's 45 pages of smut in the book that I worked really hard on and I hope you can enjoy them! <:D

feel free to tell your digimon loving friends if they don't watch me and don't see my advertising pics of it. <:3

just a heads up, I might not be able to do any work these next couple of days because I got new lenses in my glasses and my eye dr upped the power of my prescription pretty good to where I feel like I'm in a fishbowl right now. x_x; damn this double astigmatism.

yeah, that's it basically.

any of you watching here and not on Offbeatr, I officially have three of you left to make pictures for! :D I did at least 50+ pictures on DigiXXX extras alone, and many were not posted here or on any of my galleries due to the wishes of the pledgers. but do know that I've been working my ass down the the bone on finishing off business with DigiXXX and that those of you left WILL be done extremely soon. <3

I'm practically gonna cry you guys, this DigiXXX stuff has stressed me but also pushed me to work hard and get a schedule to work on art. But mostly stress because you guys waited forever for pictures. I just thought people would buy copies of the book, not pledge so much for pictures! @A@ and got hellish discounts out of it too, but I digress, I started this stuff and now I'm about to finish it. <3333 after this I can concentrate solely on commissions and my en devour to do a Let's Play channel more often once I get my Xbox controller in from Amazon. <D

thanks for watching if you did. :3

come and watch some NSFW! :3 https://furstre.am/stream/GlacierK

my first Let's Play is officially up, and it had a bunch of downs due to game crashes, but ups due to people being helpful with audio and tips. 8U feel free to watch though, I won't do this with all of my videos, but this is my first and I hope at least one person enjoys it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VqISyyO9RTA

Thanks for all the advice in the last journal, I'll try out a few things to help my story. :D

anywho, so I want to make a sort of intro for my YouTube videos, but I need uncopywritten music. Do any of yall know where most YouTubers get their intro or outro music? I have no programs nor the knowledge to make my own music.

and with the art going into it, I already have a few doodles, but I need to know how to make a good little animation in Flash for such a thing like a person sliding into the screen or even tumbling into the screen like they do on GameGrumps vids. I have Flash CS6 installing right now, but anyone have links to good tutorials, that would be appreciated. :>

kind of reaching out, I really want to do my "Dreamscape" comic, and I know where to start and I'm studying a lot of facial structures for different characters and even trying to look up space or air ships for other such things, but comic making...not a strong suite. mainly because I get into it, then I go "bah, I don't know where the story is going" and throw it out. But i really don't want to do that to this comic.

so my question is, if any of you know, is it better to write it out like in Word or to dive right in and just draw it as I go? I feel writing it would be more beneficial, but I don't know exactly.

thanks for watching people, I'll post the picture asap. :3

details here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6427780/

stream link here https://furstre.am/stream/GlacierK

EDIT: give me a few minutes, gotta update my driver because suddenly my tablet decides "NO PEN PRESSURE FOR YOU"

T-minus a few minutes. :D https://furstre.am/stream/GlacierK let me know if the link doesn't work.

basically streaming a promo image of my Patreon comic idea. No my Patreon isn't set up and won't be until I get a few more promo images to up more interest. here's the summary of the story.

Dreamscape: Euphoria to Nightmare

The Dreamscape, found through extensive scientific research, is in the deep subconscious of the human mind. When tapped into, a person has the ability to create beings from their greatest, or even darkest, imagination. One must have a physical item in order to make their creature, but the deeper in to the Dreamscape you go, the more danger lies ahead.

The world is unfortunately in a post apocalyptic state thanks to a copy of the Dreamscape data leaking out to the public by vigilante hackers against the unfair class system. Fights between the classes broke out, crime became rampant, but worst of all people began dying from their own dreams. People's own bodies began disintegrating the more they used their new found power. A Revolution of sorts happened, but at a horrid cost to the lower classes life. The Upper class, that 1%, had the money and power to buy off scientists for remedies to protect against the "Nightmare Plague". They also built a flying city to house themselves, keep themselves away from the so called "vermin" left to rot on Earths soil.

The 1%'s leader, Richard Pilato, had the most money and therefore was free to do as he pleased, even go as far as to use people from the ground as experiments to further The Dreamscape data. Someone broke into his vaults of his human research, releasing his most precious being.

And that is where our story begins, with a young lady named Arcadia.

hope yall watch and my story sounds a teeny bit interesting. it's bumped around in my head for a few years now.

Like the title says, commissions are open! I finished the ones that have been paid and I'm under the impression that the last batch that hasn't paid cannot at the moment, so I'm reopening a full and open batch since I only have one last commissioner from that part.

Prices and rules be here, please ask any questions if those walls of text don't answer them for you. :3 http://www.furaffinity.net/commissi...../darthglacier/

a rule of thumb right now, I need you to have Paypal and money to pay as soon or within a week of when we agreed upon of content for your picture. I am not going to hold slots for months on end for you, I'm sorry. For the commissioners of the last batch, feel free to reapply for a slot but do not keep me waiting for months on a payment. if you cannot pay for your picture asap, contact me when you DO so I don't have these slots filling space with no profit.

Please view below on what slots have or have not been filled. :)

so I'm juggling a lot of things right now (my day's aren't full, it's just my brain gets full, I'm actually not extremely busy outside of work) but outside of figuring the fuck out of FRAPS for my YouTube Let's Play channel, I AM working on commissions and such, mostly got some more DigiXXX pledges done. I'll try to get a few inks done today since I'm redownloading FRAPs and about to throw everything out a window, but I'm not giving up on the Let's Play.

Back to the main reason of this journal though, I'm HOPING with everyone's cooperation that I can get one commission done every single day. Hell, I might even set up stream commissions that will get done within the few hours. Now I know all of you either have jobs or responsibilities and can't possibly answer my emails for picture approvals asap, but at the very least if I can't COLOR a picture into finished mode daily, I'll at least try to ink or sketch 2-3 pictures daily. What brought this on? Well I'm sick of ending up with you guys waiting for-fucking-ever for this paid content and I also got challenged by my therapist to finish a picture daily so I don't feel so useless and unproductive.

now about the Patreon, still trying to work towards that thought. I don't know if I even mentioned it on here, but I'm thinking about running a comic idea I've wanted to do for a while. It won't be porn, it's going to be a big adventure story, but I need to work on a few pages as advertisement and make sure I can at least push out one page a week. :V I think if I manage this "finish a picture daily" challenge I've put on myself then I can surely make room for one comic page a week. I'd just have to figure out extras for high pledges. Idk, I'll try putting up a sample of my idea sooner or later, probably later since there's a few commissioners here patiently waiting for the next stage of their pics.

anywho, thanks for reading and thanks for patience everyone!

ok guys so I'm trying my damnest to record my first Let's Play for the past 2 hours but I can't seem to get the settings right. now there seems to be a slight echo to my mic and when the game starts (like FNAF) my mic will get quiet during play so I can't hear the commentary I do very well in the test runs.

Anyone know how to make the mic sound better but keep gameplay sound smooth? I use Open Broadcaster Software as it's been the simplest to get around. I tried FRAPs but I couldn't figure out how to even record with the fucking thing. XAX;

Also, I'm planning on playing Five Nights At Treasure Island (the disney PhotoNegative Mickey version that's been buzzing around lately) so I don't think there's an in game way to edit the volume besides the Windows Mixer, and yes, I've fiddled with the Mixer and still haven't had very great results.

Just basic info, I have Windows 8.1, using OBS to record both game video, webcam video and all audio and my headset is a Plantonics RIG. before the game begins my mic sounds fine, but when game sound starts it's as if I barely even have my mic volume on at all.

If yall can help me please do! I really wanted to do a Let's Play today but I want my settings to be good BEFORE any real recording begins and I end up with a fucked up volumed video that I'd have to redo. I REALLY would hate to record shittily and end up not being able to edit it very well afterwards and then redo everything. Honestly, having to redo a game that is FNAF-like for recording wouldn't be as genuinely emotional as the first time around, so I want to do this right the first time.

help is appreciated, thank yooooou!

soooo I really want to get back into gaming and even possibly do a Let's Play Youtube account, but that second part is only a maybe.

so I ask you, my fellow nerds and I'm sure a few good techies, what's the best type of laptop for gaming? Alienware? Cybertron? and no I cannot build my own since I am not smart enough nor do I have any nearby friends who can do so. In fact, I have 0 friends in this town so it's a no go on paying someone to build. :V

I use to have a friend who swore by Alienware, but idk if there's better out there. I plan on saving up via commissions once I finish up my DigiXXX pledges (i only have about 25 pictures to go so I'm excited!) but I need to know how much I need to save and for what type of computer. I also need to save up for antivirus protection like McAfee and such, they have worked like a charm for me on this laptop I use for art and such.

anyway, basic question, what laptop is good for gaming?

Trigger warning for suicide mentions and depressive things. <:V

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soooo I tried to kill myself the other day. :V I was in the bathroom for over an hour until my family realized i wasn't in there taking crap. they got me to admit I was contemplating on slicing my wrists or the bends of my elbows since I have huge veins there and I'd die within minutes if I cut there. Just....Christmas hit me harder than I expected this year. :x

so yeah, I'm feeling better by now, but that night I finally caved in and said I'd see a therapist if we could find one here. my mom got recommendations from her friends and miraculously the lady had an opening today. so I went in at 4 and her office was in her backyard. I took Scottie with me as some support since he's my Service Dog and wouldn't you know it, the lady had 2 little dogs of her own in there! And she was very nice to me, so immediately I felt relief that we could connect at least for a love of doggies, she even gave my little Scottie a rawhide candy cane! Me, her and all three dogs just chilled in her livingroom therapy area. <3 she's in her 60's if I remember right, and she had this attitude that reminded me a lot of...well, myself. <:D like, if I grow to be her age, I will be this woman, that's how similar we are! It was great!

But the best thing about her is that she was calling me out on times where I'd downplay my emotions or tellings of my past. my past therapists wouldn't do that, they'd pussyfoot around with me on my issues and nothing helped. But Rhonda, the lady now, called me out. She called me out and got down to the point, but she also told me to tell her to back off if my feelings were getting too much. I just like her a lot because no therapist MADE me do things to delve deeper into my issues. they were just softspoken and kind, but it's not what I needed. they also had barely gotten their therapy degrees, Rhonda has had 20+ years of psychology experience! :D she took me on immediately and was more than happy to help me. She even supports my choice to get a hysterectomy if I were to go back and make that choice next year or so!!!!!

It's just...I never had a therapist like this. one that was taking no shit and gets to the point but lets me talk and is so nice to me all at the same time. ;A; I even got some tears out on the first appointment. I honestly was going to wait until California to get a therapist because I didn't think Texas would have any good therapists, that they'd all be closed minded. But this lady is totally nontraditional! She's not even Christian like me, and you guys that's fucking RARE in small town Texas.

but I'm happy with how things turned out. really relieved, I was worried she'd just be another softspoken boring non helpful therapist, but I really think Rhonda is going to change me, make me better, and help me in ways I didn't think possible. <:D

so good day was good day.

so pain is coming back with a force. :c dr has me on dieretics and they don't seem to be doing very much whatsoever and my hydro hardly does a thing for pain anymore, but I'm popping 6 a day. so until we can figure anything out to help my pain, work will still be at a slow crawl. D:> I'm so sorry everyone, but your work WILL get done, it's just if I sit for a while then the buildup in my abdomen will cause immense pain from both it's normal douchebaggery and my sitting position. :C

I'll try to get work done this week though, sketches at the very least. Hope yall had a better holiday feel than I did and if I don't make a journal for it, happy new year. :>

yeaaaah as most of you know if you're early followers, I had a tumor about 5 years ago near xmas that nearly killed me, so winter and Christmas are a pretty hard time for me. You can tell me merry Christmas and such or even post as many Santa hats and Rudolph noses, just....I'd rather not celebrate it. many wonder why I don't do much for christmas, and the main reasons are 1) it triggers my PTSD from my tumor and 2) I'm not even a christian anymore so the holiday is meaningless to me.

I had to go to my sisters house with my family and her marriage family, so today was pretty damn hard even though I was there with my dog and only for 1 1/2 hours. So right now I'm alone and....I feel good about it. I really wish I didn't have to spend Christmas celebrating when all i do is feel triggered and miserable. My family knows the holiday and season are not good for my mental health, they try to make it easy for me by saying "it's ok if you don't stay long" but I wish I didn't have to do any of the festivities period. I absolutely hate Christmas and there's honestly nothing that will ever change that for the rest of my life. I feel horrid because of my PCD that fucks up my body, PTSD is fucking up my head so I hurt mentally and physically right now, just waiting for my pain killers to kick in.

Don't get me wrong, I won't ruin the holiday for everyone else by saying "BAH I HATE CHRISTMAS STOP CELEBRATING IT" but when I live alone and there will be a day where I'm unable to go home for Christmas, I swear I'll be the happiest person of the season because not celebrating this holiday would be wonderful for my health.

Idk why I'm even writing this journal....I guess I need to get the whole thing off my chest since I've never really spelled it out for anyone.

I just want every holiday to be Halloween to be honest. :V

If you missed out on my picture ad about it, here's a journal. :3

I still have a good number of Physical copies of DigiXXX that I need to sell! Rabbit Valley also has copies of the book if you miss out with me! :D

Link to Rabbit Valley DigiXXX https://www.rabbitvalley.com/item_9.....__DIGIXXX.html

Digital Copies are $15

Physical Copies are $25

Both versions are $30

Please note me if you're interested! :D the book contains 45 pages of lovely Digimon smut!

A Notice for buyers outside of the USA, please understand that you will need to pay extra for shipping and also accept the possibility that your copy might be taken away by customs for anti-porn reasons if they find out it's porn. I of course will be listing the package as simply a "magazine" and nothing more than that on the customs form.

yeaaah I know it's super popular in the community so it might even be "faddy" but the more I look into drawing it, the more it intrigues me.

Hell, I'm even contemplating on trying out for that Swallowtail Productions magazine that's been showing up in ads here on FA. http://swallowtailproductions.bigca.....igest-volume-2

not really "into" vore so to speak, like it doesn't excite me sexually like it does others, but it really intrigues me. :V I dunnno, what's everyone else's thoughts? i know a lot of folks wish I did vore, well now you're reading it. I want more vore commissions. Might even do a YCH vore auction with my Beast. :U

anyhoo, that's basically it for this journal. *lies down in pain* stupid PCD.

well I've given up on avoiding 8.1. I made restore points, I even went into my computer and put in codes to keep updates from forcing, but nothing. I was forced to update again last night, and when I went to system restore, Windows 8.1 had the motherfucking BALLS to DELETE EVERY SINGLE RESTORE POINT I MADE.

so I've given up on trying to avoid 8.1, I'm just accepting that it's making my art programs act weird, and until Microsoft stops being a bunch of douchecanoes and fix their fucked up update, I'll just have to deal with everything. :/

my pain is doing better at least, i got put on hydrocodone again because oxycontin wasn't doing shit. Dr said she'll get me in contact with a pain specialist by January so until then she decided to be a total Angel from the tops of Heaven and give me 120 hydrocodone pills so I can be held over on pain until the new year. <33333

otherwise, working on the last customers on DigiXXX, i'll be getting updates to you commissioners in the next few days, and things are doing better now that I have SOMETHING to dull my pain.

Hope everyone is doing well, stay safe everyone!