Ugh can't believe my bd is coming up again soon n it falls on labor day this yr ><. Still feeling meh about it as never gets to celebrate it really on the actually day.... Wishing could travel n hang w fuzzies :( need furry fix badly.

wow. we have reached the 11111 submissions total (well those that i have on watch list anyway).

i hope everyone has had a good holiday with friends and loved ones :) *Snugs all *

a contest krispup is hosting http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5259913/

merf.. sighs been depressed with work hrs and attempt to take a evening class, and been feeling really disillusioned with writing attempts lately despite still trying to work on a open submission call that's due nov 1. working on trying to get formally reinstated as a student as well for next term, as got really lucky w being able to get into this class this term (told them didn't know how things worked w employee taking class thing).

Been getting faves n likes for what had been doing... so guess doing something right...... and still have other stories attempting to work on not done with yet...

ugh so hard to try to write several stories at once, specially while fighting depression and working 2 jobs/etc even tho don't know why doing so..... would like to finally be published in something at long last; will try to submit something for heat 11 and open submission to a open call for monster anthology and trying to do a novel to hopefully be published by itself......... still feel like not very good despite all the likes been getting on both my fa acnt and my sofurry one. Am glad people seem to like what been writing. Hope can be good enough to do that at long last.

my bd today... kinda depressing as always during labor day weekend and can't do much/feels like no one reallly cares/etc... always have to celebrate it belatedly.

i have a few crushes on here

1) :(
2) :((

1) creampie
2) frottage

3) incest stories

and a few more obivously

1) scat/etc
2) heavy bondage
3) slave/master things
4) chocking/etc type things

1) family of course
2) bun q
3) jasper
4) current roommate
5) those who have passed on

1) wish now never met a certain now ex-friend/roommate
2) wish could've been able to save $ when was younger and didn't have job
3) wish hadn't sold some now worth a lot toys when was younger
4) wish wasn't so shy with others still
5) wish hadn't been so shy all through school years and not really make friends
6) can't think of anything for this one. kinda hard

1) will i ever get out of this financial hell?
2) will i finally be able to move to where others will hpefully actually let us hang out/do things with and not be bullies like here?
3) will i ever find a mate?
4) can i ever find a higher paying job elsewhere?
5) Do people really like my writings despite having all the faves have on fa and sofurry?
6) Would anyone notice if i were to die/go away?
7) can i ever get to attend another con other than trying for fc?

1) Be honest
2) hugs
3) be respectful
4) Don't say something and then turn around and say something else behind back to others
4) cuddles
5) good wine and food and friends to be with
6) naked cuddles
7) like me for me
8) good slow yiff as not used to being with others still

1) am friendly once gets to know me
2) hard worker
3) love writing furry pronz
4) like watching cartoons/anime
5) like reading fantasy/sci fi
6) love dr who
7) likes yu gi oh/magic gathering card games
8) was born 3 months premature
9) had open heart surgery when was baby and am in medical books for it

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

day one:

1) wished lived closer to be with
2) hope you really like me
3) Hope my writings are as good as everyone keeps liking them
4) Does anyone care?
5) am i likeable?
6) am i a good enough person ?
7) this is really hard to do.
8) who loves dr who?
9) who loves star trek?
10) who loves being a furry and having fun at conventions?

so if any interested i have some stories i've got exclusively on my sofurry acnt here, if any want to read. some stories i do cross post on here and there tho. https://dbj-rab.sofurry.com/stories

whaaa con over n back home already n having to face reality of working again :p despite shitty begining had, did have relatively fun time while there, despite some other set backs. lot of the panels went to for first time were interesting. hope to go again next year and hopefully get more commissions as could only afford the badge one n one by diana simpson this yr.

gods what a crappy start to the con. friend whom was going to room w said hotel lost his reservation :( >< so was upvtil 3am scrambling for floor emergency crash space n still hauling luggage around til another friend who can room w gets here later today... n my tain doesnt leave til mon after 8.. hope rest of vacation will get better when gets room space n can finally go around in suit later/etc.

whooo *bounces as packs up and gets ready to leave for fc via train tomorrow after 5pm. sooooo can't wait

Use x's or word answers for each.

WOULD YOU

[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] miss me if we went out then broke up?
[_] dance with me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] tap me on the a**?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me to death?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] caress my body?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] say yes if i asked you out?
[_] let me wear your pants?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?

DO YOU...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle with me?
[_] want to hook up with me?

ARE WE...
[_] acquaintances?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?

AM I...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] lovable?
[_] adorable?
[_] compassionate?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?

HAVE YOU EVER...
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hookin' up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished i were there?
[_] grabbed me?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?

ARE YOU...
[_] happy you know me?
[_] mad at me?
[_] thinkin' bout me?
[_] going to repost this in your journal so that i will return the favor

Everyone has at least one person on FurAffinity who would LOVE to kiss you. So.. repost this to find out who would want to kiss you and WHERE they would like to kiss you? Even if your taken do this! *please?*

1- Cheek
2- Neck
3- Lips
4- Make-Out :)♥♥
5- Naughty Places
6- Skip The Kisses, Straight To Bed
7- Other_____________

i've decided to try to do a few story commissions on here to hopefully help pay towards a few bills. they'd be $10 each for 2-5 pages, and can cover most ranges of interest with few exceptions of certain types (bm, vore/etc). i've not done comissions on here before so not sure how'd work. payment would have to be via paypal. I believe i have a few of my stories on here to peruse. thanks for reading and hope this gets some results.......

sighs my bd next week.... n we're still trying to find a place to move to by 31st >< and one source of $ waiting for stuck in red tape >< sighs... hate still going through garnishment/loans ><