Hey there.

I thank you for being patient with me up to this point. I'm so sorry things seem to be all over the place with me and my art. Honestly I don't think I can meet everyone's expectations so I'd like to refund those that paid me so long ago if I may.

If you could send me the transcript from your paypal I'll get back with a date I can repay you.

Again I apologize 100 times over for this.

Thanks for understanding..


~`T H E L I S T`~
1. XIIIs Xion (Paid!)
2. (Paid!)
3. (Paid!)
4. (Paid!)
5. (Paid!)
6. Glitter (Paid!)
7. Charella (Paid!)

Okay so I realize a lot of you have been waiting a while for my commissions.

I apologize it wasn't really fair of me to run off like that. I'd like to give those that just want their money back the opportunity to contact me and I'll work out a plan to pay back. Otherwise, if you are alright with me streaming every Friday night. I'll be busting them all out.

This will be starting the 16th at 9pm every Friday.

What happened?
Well... Too much. I don't feel comfortable sharing it but I'm back, stable and I don't see myself letting this happen again.

Again I hope you all can forgive me. <3

I really am not up for disclosing and honestly it's...

Well.. I need some time, a lot of time..

Leaving this up for 48 hrs before I put myself on hiatus..

I'm so sorry...

Hey guys! Commissions are paused until Monday! I've my first week of my new job I'm getting through plus! My birfday is this weekend. Yeeeeeee.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20309150/

Hey guys! I did say that I was taking more of these by the end of the week.

So HERE IT IS!

THe images above are what type of quality you will be getting! IT's first come first serve. This will be my last batch of commissions FOR THE YEAR so make sure you get in there!

~`R U L E S`~
-One character only per commission, you may have more than one slot though.
-Payment is due within 24 hours of claiming a spot unless we've worked something out prior.
-I will notify you when I'm streaming. Most times it's on the weekends.
-COMMISSIONS CAN TAKE UP TO 3 WEEKS FOR ME TO EVEN GET STARTED ON THEM. I do have 3 pieces in backlog.
-Slutty poses are fine!
-Any gender is good, no robots, dragons, or muscly individuals please.
-I need refs for clothes and character, or let me know if I have creative freedom on clothes etc.
-HIGH DETAIL CHARACTERS ARE SUBJECT TO A 10$ INCREASE. (Meaning overly complex wings, multiple animals in one, etc.)


~`O R D E R S H E E T`~

Please note me and I will give you my paypal.

Character Name:
Gender:
Expression for Pic:
Clothes:
Refs:
Special Notes(Specific piercings, tats, etc)

I'm taking 15 slots this time!!

1. Glitter
2. Charella
3. Zanfib Black
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.
11.
12.
13.
14.
15.

Okayokay

So...

Let's start with bad, everyone wants that shit out of the way. I am unemployed for 2 weeks until I start my new job. :| Well I guess that whathappens when you're talked down to for 3 months and finally someone snaps and calls you an asshole for not changing the toilet paper, and stupid for getting kicked out of private school in second grade.

GOOD NEWS EVERYONE!!
This now means I am full time freelance until my job starts. Which means.. I'M FINISHING MY COMMISSION LIST YAAAAAAY.

THERE'S EVEN BETTER NEWS!?
Yes! I will be re opening my 20$ thigh high commissions after this batch and getting them finished within the week so stay tuned for that journal and posting.

As always I will post when I am streaming I will most likely be streaming Mon-Fri 8am-4pm PST

I'm so excited to take a break and really focus on you guys. I'm so thankful all of you are so understanding. So.. My stream sesh will start on Wednesday 15th at 8 am. :3 I will notify respective parties. And don't worry those that have commissioned me I actually have a lot of your sketches down.

Again, any questions note me or list them here. c:

Hey everyone.

So yes I've gone dark for a month and honestly I really don't feel any better but I do feel like I have me ducks in a row a bit more.

So about my month long absence. I had a break down. 2 actually. I've been not really depressed but stressing about so much and I can't seem to figure out how to let go and turn off. After seeing a therapist and then a psychologist, I have crippling stress where it masks it's self as depression. I wasn't looking for a med to fix me just methods to cope and eventually work out of it. The only med they could give me would literally make it to where I become super apathetic and almost mind numb to everything around me and I wasn't about to do that. However they did find out that I do have a hormonal imbalance and that could be explaining a lot of things. My estrogen levels are huge which explains the near constant head aches, the rage and the lack of control of myself so I'm working on getting that stabilized.

The good news out of this? I've recently been hired at a job I've wanted literally for 3 years, and when I left the interview I felt I did terrible, like completely bombed it. Turns out I blew their mind and they wanted me immediately. So I start that on June 27th with a higher pay and less stress on my life. I'm super excited. Like. Beyond excited.

Now after these commissions are done and out I will no longer be taking anymore. My doctor believes having too much stress and strain of being pulled every which way and never having a down time to myself to socialize and relax is terrible for me at this time. So. That being said I will be closing commissions after these 13 I've to finish. I will definitely be on streaming on the weekends. During the week I'll do my best, no real guarantees. I will be starting work on these left over commissions the weekend after Memorial Day. So, June 4th.

I can't thank you guys enough for respecting my space.

Thanks abunch.

So...

...

God there really isn't a nice way to go about this.

I had a break down last night. Big enough to rock me to the core of feeling helpless, hopeless, and like I can do nothing about my life. I'm suffering from a mild depression from the stress in my life. It's a bit crippling with my debt, me life, even my job. Where it came from? I'm still not entirely sure it literally just surfaced this week, it might have come up occasionally during the past couple of weeks but not this bad. Not to the point of wailing on my boyfriends shoulder in the wee hours of the morning telling him what kind of a piece of shit I am.

It could just be from stress. I was also told it can be a side-effect from my ADHD being unmedicated for as long as I've been. It also could have been another ban threat from a commissioner, whatever started it I'm not sure. But I need some help.

So. With all this said I'm so sorry to my newest commissioners but I ask for your respect in my time away. I'm going to need a month to sort this out. I won't be back let alone online until the beginning of June. I'll try to keep you all up to date but what I'm getting from everyone is to not isolate myself as much as possible and force interactions to keep my mind from slipping into this feeling of helplessness.

I can't being to say how sorry I am, I can't even stop my self from weeping since yesterday. It's amazing I even got through my work day.

Again, I'd love your patience through this difficult time for me, no one can plan for this to happen.

Thank you all so much.. I'll be in touch.

Okay so..

As you all know I was suddenly MIA all weekend and not streaming. THat's because I was house sitting for my parents and it completely slipped my mind, so I was without my workstation for 4 days and I missed it, (I've been doing nothing but watch tutorials on YouTube since I got back TODAY)

So as I'm planning my weekend for streaming so many people decided to get in touch with me. People I literally haven't spoken to in months. So Friday night I'm spoken for and all day Saturday! :| (Jesus christ why now..) So, that being said I'll be streaming on Sunday.

I will be working on commissions yes but old ones. I have 3 I need to get done before I start the "20$" ones.

I do apologize for lack of updates and work and just general shit but honestly I'm finding juggling a full time Job, a social life, AND a relationship is getting to the point where I'm demanded away from my computer more than I'd like.

In short I may be closing commissions for good after this batch. (No I really mean it this time.) You might see me pop up and do things when I need money in a pinch but other than that I really don't see me making a career out of this. I mean I love art it really is awesome what I can create but.. it's literally just something I do as the time comes not because someone wants me to draw a wolf/dragon/unicorn with a dick on it's head (exaggeration) I'm a bit more of an inspirational artist.

Sorry that was a bit of a tangent...

GETTING BACK TO IT.

You'll see me streaming and working on Weekends. Every weekend unless I've been pulled away by the real life. I will do my best to update and please keep reading journals for updates.

Ilu all, keep it real.

PS.


.. I'M GONNA BE A BLFC!!! (Biggest Little Furry Con!) I will mainly be a by stander and just gawking at whatever's showcased and other artist but I'd love to meet any of you there! This isn't until MAy but that's actually pretty close right?

Hey friends!

So you know how I got commissions going again so I could pay shit?

Well I got a job the same week I opened those! YEE! -THrows confetti-

So I will be reduced to only working on the weekends, typically Saturdays cause I'm a lazy fuck on Sundays.

I should be starting around 3pm PST and I will post a submission and journal letting you guys know when I'm up and as a reminder~! As long as the submission is up, my stream is up. <3

THanks y'all~!

Okay so, I'm opening up 10 slots for 20$ Full color thigh up commissions, not a bad deal in my opinion~! ;D I will have a journal updated with slots as well as keep this submission open with an updated list. I'm doing this because I was surprisingly laid off like, last minute. I'm falling into another job but I need some funds to bridge the gap in the meantime. I will stream these when I can.

~`R U L E S`~
-One character only per commission, you may have more than one slot though.
-Payment is due within 24 hours of claiming a spot unless we've worked something out prior.
-I will notify you when I'm streaming. Most times it's on the weekends.
-COMMISSIONS CAN TAKE UP TO 3 WEEKS FOR ME TO EVEN GET STARTED ON THEM. I do have 3 pieces in backlog.
-Slutty poses are fine!
-Any gender is good, no robots, dragons, or muscly individuals please.
-I need refs for clothes and character, or let me know if I have creative freedom on clothes etc.
-HIGH DETAIL CHARACTERS ARE SUBJECT TO A 10$ INCREASE. (Meaning overly complex wings, multiple animals in one, etc.)


~`O R D E R S H E E T`~

Character Name:
Gender:
Expression for Pic:
Clothes:
Refs:
Special Notes(Specific piercings, tats, etc)


~`T H E L I S T`~
1. On Hold
2. On Hold
3. XIIIs Xion (Paid!)
4. (Paid!)
5. (Paid!)
6. (Paid!)
7. (Paid!)
8.
9.
10.

Any questions? Mention them here~!

Okay so I really didn't get to work on commissions this weekend. I don't know why I was being so unrealistic. I mean ity was my friends birthday, we had a party Saturday that went all the way until 7 am Sunday, then we actually had her REAL party at 12 noon and hung out with her until 3. So I went with no sleep for 24 hours and by the time we left her party I was down for the count.

So, to remedy this I will be working today and throughout the week to clear my Queue. They will be done in this order:

Ivy's Cheerleader.
Honey Badger.
Unigan.
Christmas Scene.
Kienna's piece.

To top it all off the rest of the evening yesterday I had to console my friend through a breakdown. I was happy to do it but it took a lot out of me. I'll talk to you guys tonight.

So I will be doing massive updates on commissions this weekend. To give you an idea here's what I have to do:

A punk badger
A Cheerleader
A Sexy long eared green dragon
A cute Christmas scene (Long overdue.)
And a punk/indy kitty.

I will be working on all of these all weekend at some
point. I will do my best to contact the parties involved. You guys have been so patient. I can't thank you enough. Please tune into my stream if you have time and let me know when your available PST and I will try and meet those times. :)

Hey! I'll be streaming at 5:30pm PST tonight! You'll hear me on call with a couple of my friends but I will be drawing my commissions that are owed to some amazing people. c:

Stay tuned!

Hey guys!

Wow, hectic holidays and honestly hectic life.

So with everything I've done over the past weeks I'd first like to thank you guys for being so patient with me and commission work. I've had a couple of you waiting for a couple months now and your patience is super amazing. Outstanding commissions will be finished before the month is out. After that I will be done taking pieces for a while. I need to focus on my life and honestly I'm trying to market myself so much that my boy friend and my friends hardly see me unplugged. I promised I would get out more this year and experience life. I need to be true to that.

So I have about.. 7 out right now. I will be streaming them all. c:

Anyway, I'll keep updating and keep everyone posted. Thanks so much.

Me and my boyfriend got so sick over the holiday. Like..

I have no voice and he is slowly dying of head congestion and barely breathing.

We both have temps at 100.

This is just the worst. It all started on Christmas too..

I DON'T WANT THIS GIFT TAKE IT BACK.

So.

-sigh.-

Another delay in commissions. I have a mother freaking out about so much and wants me to help her through all the holiday stuff like baking gifts etc. she also wants me to make a card and insisting I do it now. I'm working 10+ hours a day 6 days a week and somehow need to find time to help everyone be happy.

I dot know why I kee doing this to myself. Maybe I just suck at all this. I mean I'm so far in debt that I didn't even ask my parents for gifts. Just the money they wanted to spend on me as a gift so I could pay my shit off.

I don't expect your sympathy or empathy. Just that you all understand that while I have little free time I will do my best to get things done but please let me know if you can't wait until January for your art.

Thanks..

Hey everyone!!

Happy Thanksgiving! Wow this year has FLOWN by..

Anyway I have a 4 day weekend and honestly my job has been kicking my ass and I've only been there a month. Like. Wtf... But with that and family shit I'm most likely not going to be doing commission work, I'll try to get some time in for those two YCH's as well as a couple others but yeah, ARTISTS NEED BREAKS TOO. ilu all tho.

Thanks for being awesome~!

Yay! So fun stuff has happened. Needless to say we've moved all of our things in 3-4 days and honestly we're still tying things up. IT's been great to be out on our own again we really couldn't have picked better roommates. <3 They are so wonderful and our good friends too!

That being said we have a house warming party come Wednesday, and this weekend my boy friend wants to celebrate so, those YCH will be pushed to next week. I will update and as always let you guys know when I'm streaming, count on my always streaming Friday night, not this Friday but the next, and every Friday after. :)

As always thank you guys so much for your support with my ups and downs. You guys mean the world to me.
<3

going on now!

help me hash out some ideas.. c:

https://picarto.tv/CorkyArt
https://picarto.tv/CorkyArt

So. Let's back up a bit..

I started having a funky heart beat about 2 weeks ago. By funky I mean by what's called a 'skipped' beat. Heart beat increases and stabilizes usually around 100 bpm, then I have a 'skip' beat or delayed and a 'thump' in my chest, essentially in that moment of inactivity, once heart pumps again it pumped out a bit more blood than normal. Good news is it's nothing serious, bad news is, it's stress and anxiety driven. I'm sure it's about my latest obsession with my health or lack there of. I've become the product of my poor environment and made poor dietary choices. With moving that will change and I see my self being more active especially with this job of mine as well. Anyway, back on point.

Caffeine, sugar, and sodas are banned from my diet while I figure out if this might be a serious thing or not. While dealing with this news today I received a threat from a commissioner to ban me. Many of you know I never give dead lines because my life is hectic and my art is inspiration based. This is why I'm thinking I'm going to give up commissions just because of people like this. No one is ever truly understanding of my life, no one really cares. They just want my art, and I'd best give it to them in my free time, what little there is, and if any art comes out between then and now, I must be fucking off and negligent.

When I have an idea I put it down, and continue to work on it. That's the gist of it. If I don't get it down it's gone forever and I miss an opportunity at improvement and expression. To anyone else this may seem selfish and based on my experience on this website, I feel that's the majority. I can honestly say I've never felt welcomed, never felt like I was a part of a community, and never really belonged. To be honest I probably won't leave but my commissions will most likely stop.

I've started a new job, me and my boyfriend are moving in with some great friends of ours, my life is making a very important turn and all anyone can think about is, "Shut up and give me my art you sow."

This is why artists leave.

I've got a lot to think about and honestly, my heart is saying this isn't good for my health anymore. I'd like to take a moment to thank those few supporters though, truly you made me smile at my worst and made me press on when down. Can't thank you enough.

Thanks for listening...

Yes.

I will be on hiatus until December as I am moving and honestly between work and packing.. the hell am I going to find the time to draw. D:

So expect me around December. c:

Here's where I need your help. I will be reopening commissions at lower prices and just in time for the holidays I will be doing themed commissions and will be getting them out so fast, cause my new schedule I'll have a lot of free time. c:

But I want to know what kind of holiday commissions should I do? Icons? Romantic? Character and a holiday item? Give me ideas!! > u<

Like, seriously..

So, let's be honest. The job I'm now working is more physical than any job I've had in my entire career and while I'm impressed with the effects it's having on my body, the time I have to get commissions done is getting shorter and shorter. Out of the 5 commissions I have to do, 2 are only sketched. Between work, socializing, sleeping, and general care of my well being it's getting to be a bit too much.

After I finish these commissions I will be closing my doors for a while. Don't freak out I will be doing art later in due time but right now it's not my priority nor my main money maker. I don't have enough clients and I'm not confident enough to start a Patron like everyone else seems to be doing these days.

I've had several people say that I'm just not dedicated enough or that I just don't want to do it for a job.

Thing is, I do, so bad it hurts.

Here's the reality of it all. Me and my boyfriend have been with his mom for a year. We need to get out. In 6 months time we will be ready to move out. But in that time I need to earn at least 1200$ in savings plus 700$ for bills. And guess what? Art will not cover any of that. Plain and simple. So no, I'm not a weaker artist for realizing that I need to start living my life and that I can't find myself in a job from home that pays the bills.

So, Commission update. I'm going to try and get sketches down for the remaining commissions I have. This weekend is spoken for as it's my dad's birthday. Next weekend I will be streaming starting Friday night to bust out the rest of those stylized commissions, I've been trying to wait for commissioners to be available but they are pretty in active on here and I can't get a hold of them so I'm just going to bust them out, sorry.

Thanks guys always for your continued support. <3

Okay so those of you that got commissions from me a month ago are probably wondering where those are at. They are coming. I'm going to try and bust out two a weekend, if not starting this weekend, it will be next weekend. I got a job and literally it's killing me, the warehouse environment is completely new to me, my body is taking to it very slowly, but Tuesday I wanted to die..

Anyway at least I have income now. c:

I'll bust these out and we shall see about Halloween YCH's :D

Love you guys, thanks always for being so patient.

Hey guys! I have a friend that really could use the help, money and to get her name out there! Talia is amazing to work with and very reasonably priced on anything she does! I've seen her post out mostly adoptable but this one she's advertising now is really good!

So if you have the extra change and the love in your heart for this beauty please consider getting her!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17551845/

Thanks guys, and if you can't buy her spread the word! It would mean so much to us both.

<3