FA+
Shop
Disclaimer about AI Art
General | Posted 6 days agoSo, very recently, I was DM’d by a kind person who informed me that one of my characters, Iseldrllyr, was on a website called Civitai which is some sort of ai-art generator website thing? Or a sort of ai model maker… thing? I have no idea, honestly. This kind person provided a link to the thief who had generated several pieces of ai art that was clearly trained off of Isel’s design. As well as a few art pieces of mine, from what I can see. Like, it’s damned near one to one, with both Isel’s feral design and the near-exact image in her anthro reference one. Apparently, they’re also claiming this design came from themselves which… yeah, I know. What bullshit lol.
Initially I was (and I still kinda am) pretty pissed about it. I know my disclaimers say it pretty much already, and I know those who use AI art to begin with have no care for such disclaimers anyway, but nonetheless… let me make this clear: I do not and will not, ever, support AI art. I do not approve of my characters, designs, commissioned art- anything of mine being used for AI art or AI training.
If I find that this has been breached, I will contact the artist of the piece in question and/or the designer and work with them posthaste to take action of some sort to get it removed. And if greater action can be taken, please rest assured I will take it.
If you’re a follower of mine who enjoys AI art, doesn’t see the harm of it, indulges in it, or etc- please, kindly, unfollow me.
Honestly, it’s incredibly jarring to see, and kinda feels like a spit in the face considering the sheer amount of money I’ve poured into commissions for my characters as well as the time I’ve taken in either designing them with the artist or getting their lore crafted. Literally thousands + many hours. I can only imagine how artist who actually do the drawing part feel. It’s terrible. And I hate how easily accessible it is nowadays for these thieves to just steal, make some gross slop out of it, and dare to charge for something that was never theirs.
This journal is somewhat of a vent journal admittedly, but I did want to make my stance on ai very clear as well, since I don’t think I really have it spelled out anywhere in bright red that says ‘do not’, which… apparently we need to do nowadays.
Initially I was (and I still kinda am) pretty pissed about it. I know my disclaimers say it pretty much already, and I know those who use AI art to begin with have no care for such disclaimers anyway, but nonetheless… let me make this clear: I do not and will not, ever, support AI art. I do not approve of my characters, designs, commissioned art- anything of mine being used for AI art or AI training.
If I find that this has been breached, I will contact the artist of the piece in question and/or the designer and work with them posthaste to take action of some sort to get it removed. And if greater action can be taken, please rest assured I will take it.
If you’re a follower of mine who enjoys AI art, doesn’t see the harm of it, indulges in it, or etc- please, kindly, unfollow me.
Honestly, it’s incredibly jarring to see, and kinda feels like a spit in the face considering the sheer amount of money I’ve poured into commissions for my characters as well as the time I’ve taken in either designing them with the artist or getting their lore crafted. Literally thousands + many hours. I can only imagine how artist who actually do the drawing part feel. It’s terrible. And I hate how easily accessible it is nowadays for these thieves to just steal, make some gross slop out of it, and dare to charge for something that was never theirs.
This journal is somewhat of a vent journal admittedly, but I did want to make my stance on ai very clear as well, since I don’t think I really have it spelled out anywhere in bright red that says ‘do not’, which… apparently we need to do nowadays.
Trivia of the Rare & Elusive Dest
General | Posted 2 months ago╭━━━━━━━━━━━━╮
GET TO KNOW DEST
some fun & random trivia questions
answered by your local dest
━━━━━
What's your favorite game genre? Favorite game(s)?
As a certified ‘pro-gamer’, it’s only natural that I have a few favorite games of my own, right? In actuality lol, I’m horrible at completing games due to my typical busyness and… idk, adhd I guess lmao. Nonetheless, though! I tend to heavily enjoy RPG games— or, specifically, JRPGs. I also heavily enjoy ‘Cozy’ games as well! Anything that has an interesting story will typically have my attention. I’m not a fan of shooters or the like, but, I don’t mind watching someone play them whilst I munch on snacks.
Now, regarding my actual favorite games! For your monster-raising RPGS, Digimon absolutely has my heart. However, Pokemon is ofc a childhood favorite. Typical JRPGS, Kingdom Hearts has been beloved since I was young. I also adore the 'Tales of' series, with Tales of Vesperia being among my top three favorite games. Okami is absolutely 'up there' in my favs, SUCH an amazing experience. The Persona Series is heavily beloved, with my favorite being P3 (I played P3P). Absolutely LOVE the Dark Souls franchise/Elden Ring. Though I haven't played it for myself (I plan to!), I watched a playthrough of and heavily enjoyed Red Dead 2. And despite being terrible at it, I absolutely adore the Monster Hunter Franchise. Regarding Cozy Games, my favorite has to be among Rune Factory 4, Fields of Mistria, and Animal Crossing!
And special shout-out to Path of Titan! I've been indulging in more games of these types, and I'm always happy to find more faces to play with.
▾▾▾
Is there a place in the world you'd like to visit? 
This question always kinda stumps me because I’m such a homebody lol. To me, the best vacation is one where I can stay home and proceed to do absolutely nothing but sleep for several hours lol. I know I'd absolutely love to visit all over Japan one day, though! I'd also love to go to Barbados, though, since a side of my family is from there.
▾▾▾
What is your favorite music genre?
I'm going to be one of 'those' people and say... Genuinely, I love all types of music lol. Well, aside from MAYBE country music. I tend to enjoy, I suppose, 'soft' metal, as well as Jrock. However, in all truth, my favorite genre is soundtrack and OST music! Possibly because I write a lot, but when a song has lyrics, I can't focus lol. I also have a very peculiar ear when it comes to music/soundtracks themselves, and just... they often scratch my brain in ways song with lyrics often can't. This is probably another reason why I love JRPG/RPGS so much because their soundtracks are ALWAYS full of bangers.
▾▾▾
What is your favorite anime?
So if it weren't clear lol, I adore anime! I haven't had much time to indulge in it like I used to, but I still really do love it. I enjoy anime of all type tbh. But I suppose my 'roots' lie in Shonen anime. I THINK my first anime was Inuyasha? What quickly followed was Dragon Ball Z, Naruto, and Bleach! My favorite anime (and manga) honestly has to be Jujutsu Kaisen. Despite it being a hot topic of 'is Gege a good writer', the way he writes heavily appeals to me and the way I personally write and develop characters. As such, I absolutely adore his story and how he crafts it. I also heavily enjoyed Wolf's Rain, Mob Psycho, Attack on Titan, Your Name (technically it's an anime movie, but it is AMAZING. Heavily recommend), and... many others lol.
▾▾▾
What is your favorite animal?
Like most, wolves for a long time were my favorite lol. Very unique, I know. As I got older, though, I started to really love tigers. Not sure why, but they quickly rose to become my 'number 1'. Polar Bears became a close second, with lions ranking third. Lions, Tigers, and Bears... Oh my! Wolves are still very dear to my heart, though!
▾▾▾
What is your favorite color?
Blue! Sorta kinda-ish. Blue is definitely my favorite, I think. But my pseudo-favorite is probably Gold... Especially when paired with black. You present me with a gold/black color scheme, and I will fold 100% of the time. I think baby blue is technically my fav, but idk because I kinda gaslit myself into loving it via... it was my older sister's favorite, and as an annoying younger sister, of COURSE I have to copy her favorite color lol. Yellow and pink are honorary mentions purely because, as a kid, they were my fav flavored starbursts, so ofc they were my fav colors, too.
▾▾▾
What is your favorite season?
Hmmm... Summer used to be because I'm an August baby. But... Honestly, too hot LOL. Winter took the place for a bit, but as I've gotten older, I really don't like the cold even if I despise being hot, too. Spring is nice but... too many bees (lol we'll get into this soon...). And my allergies make pollen my number one enemy. So I guess... Fall? It's very pretty with all the colors, and it's usually a nice in between of warm and chill.
▾▾▾
What is your dumbest phobia?
Probably my weird fear of bees LOL. I couldn't tell you why, honestly, but bees terrify me. They're cute and fat, I know. I love them in some weird way, but I will 100% walk the other direction. Because why tf are you so LOUD... and stop zipping around in my face! Once, there were a bunch of bees buzzing around my door when I got home from school as a kid, and I'd rather stand out in the scorching heat than try to unlock the door and go home lol. And I did until the neighbor came to my rescue!
▾▾▾
Do you have a dream job?
Kinda hard because I def feel like I'm in that stage of life where like... man, I have no idea LOL. For the longest time, I wanted to be a veterinarian. And I was fixated on that... until I actually started to work with animals and worked at a vet. Yeah... nooo, I'm good. I do think I may want to work with animals still, but more so in a Biology field, doing research and studying? Otherwise, medical stuff DOES interest me. I heavily enjoy genetics, and so, I did ponder something like a geneticist or doing research of prevention, understanding, and curing of genetic diseases. But truthfully? No idea.
▾▾▾
Do you have any pets? And are there any pets you want to own one day?
I do! My two 'childhood' dogs are two small babies named Bella and Shadow. Bella is a weird... thing. A jack-russell mix who is... again, very weird lol. Love her to pieces, though. Shadow is my slightly grumpy but incredibly affectionate Shih-tzu/poodle mix (we named him 'Shadow' because he will follow you like a Shadow. Also because when I was younger, I loved Sonic. Shadow has a fluffy white patch on his chest akin to, you guessed it, Shadow the Hedgehog).
As far as future pets... I'd love to own a snake one day! Maybe a ball python? But I've never owned a reptile before lol, so it'd be a big learning curve. I'd also love to maybe have a cat one day, too! Otherwise, my dream dog is a Doberman! My sort of 'niche knowledge' is I know a LOT about dogs, including ethical breeding, dog breeds themselves, sports, and etc. I'm very invested in the 'Dog World' lol, and I'm excited to one day enter it myself when I'm able to comfortably afford and take care of a Doberman (they are a... VERY expensive breed folks).
▾▾▾
What's a surprising hobby of yours?
Fish keeping! While I don't currently own any fish, I do have a 75-gallon aquarium that I am... slowly trying to get back into building (I tried to do something and it didn't work out LOL). Before this, though, I did keep a 50-gallon tank and a small betta tank. My betta was honestly the only fish I cried over when he got sick and died. Had him for about 3-ish years, randomly got him from some dumb college event. Little did I know he would plunge me into the world of fish keeping lol. Named him 'Sasuke' via my sister's behest, and the little dude had the most amazing personality ever. Still hurts to this day to think about it, tbh. He was my baby boy!
▾▾▾
Are there any genres you don't like?
Honestly, I kinda... don't like Sci-Fi? I definitely prefer pure fantasy of all sorts. It's probably why I could never get into Star Wars/Star Trek. Now, some movies/shows in this genre are interesting to me (I do love alien/alien-creatures and interactions with them that aren't purely 'evil, must kill' + new world exploration). But gosh, when it starts to get really techy or with laser guns or galaxy confederations, I kinda zone out lol.
▾▾▾
I want to message/talk with/befriend you! Can I?
Of course! While I'm shy, I genuinely do enjoy meeting new people. I will preface that I am busy, and so, I am not a fast replier, especially during the weekdays when I work. Additionally, I do not do well with small talk. But I do love goofing off and befriending people if we click. I do not give my Discord/telegram at 'first meet', but after we've talked to each other for a while, I'll probably offer it myself.
▾▾▾
||
How'd you come up with your screen name?
Oh boy, this is a bit embarrassing lol. So, 'Destinesia' was... honestly, just a VERY random thing when I first joined FA years ago. I wanted a pretty word to be my screen name, and the definition seemed to fit my scatterbrained mind pretty well, so... alas, there we are. Now, the nickname I go by and my online alias I've had for a LONG time is 'Silvy'. That comes from over a decade ago, when I first got into online stuff via... Warrior Cats lol. My screenname on the official boards was 'Silvermoon190'. Friends called me 'Silvy' for short, and it just sort of stuck and became something dear to me.
▾▾▾
How'd you start writing?
As mentioned, Warrior Cats Official 'Forums' is how I first started roleplaying. A long, long time ago. Prior to that, I think maybe slightly on Quizilla? That's where I wrote some stories/fanfiction! From there, after honing my skills a bit lol, I began to roleplay on jcink/probard websites for whatever caught my interest. This is really what shaped my 'path' as a roleplayer and helped me improve my writing skills and character developing/making skills immensely.
▾▾▾
Do you have a sona?
I do not! While I do have 'faces' of my account (Yara initially, and currently Iseldrllyr), none of my characters are considered sona's. They are not representations of me whatsoever. I look at them all as 'characters', and that's pretty much it. I did ponder around getting a dumb, lazy cat-dragon thing designed that embodies some traits of myself that I could use to get art with friends as well but... eh. Eh. I don't think even that would be a Sona in the truest sense of the word.
▾▾▾
Why do you like roleplaying?
Truthfully? I was super surprised to see how many people on FA don't like roleplaying! Perhaps it's because I came from roleplay communities, and that's how I really got 'started' on the internet via writing with others. As such, my brain always sort of defaults to it. This is especially true when I create characters (I think to myself, 'how could someone theoretically 'jump' into their story and interact with this character'), which comes with its own detriments when character creating, admittedly.
Nonetheless! I think, regarding FA and its distaste for roleplaying, may be because of the many poor experiences to be had with people trying to randomly ERP with others? That's, likely, given roleplay a somewhat 'bad name' in this community, too, maybe? I'm not sure. For me though, roleplaying is about exploring characters and lore— crafting unique stories that can be shared between each other. I'm incredibly picky with writing because, to me, it's something I want to make sure I always enjoy and becomes something both important to me and long-lasting. It also, IMO, gives you something to 'do' with characters and all those ideas up in your noggin! But this may be because I don't particularly enjoy writing stories for myself, as ironic as it is LOL.
▾▾▾
How did you come up with your character's designs?
Through blood, sweat, and tears lol. Designing is such a... process I have a love/hate with. Really, a massive part of it is finding the 'right' artist to work with, and this can just come down to personal experience/preference. Also, knowing what you like and don't like is extremely important. I always try to be incredibly detailed, too, such as giving artists lore tidbits, inspiration, aesthetics, and image references. Of course, you have to know the difference between inspiration and copying. For example, giving an artist an image of Yara and telling them you like her transparent wings and want to do something similar, vs going 'copy this wing shape, color, and transparency exactly'. I like to also develop the character a bit with their concepts/lore before I start designing, since these play important factors in how they'll be designed. Lastly, organization is a big factor, too! I literally will organize everything I give the artist in detailed sections about each important 'area' (Face, Horns, Wings, Overall body, Color Scheme, etc), because I personally like to work bit by bit rather than multiple areas at once. While I'm happy to give a few tips, I don't really enjoy offering design help unless we're good friends because it's... honestly an exhausting process for me + our tastes could be wildly different!
▾▾▾
Why dragons?
Honestly... No idea LOL. I've just always liked dragons, I guess? I really can't tell you 'why dragons' and instead just go 'yes... dragons.'
▾▾▾
What got you into the FA community?
I had no idea wtf FA was several years back. I just randomly started developing an interest in art and actually owning characters/commissions, especially as I began to have more income to work with. I eventually ended up here after I won a bid on Yara's OG adopt design. I really was NOT super active on FA back in the day and often disappeared for months at a time lol. I've sense became regularly normal with uploading and taking my own characters/lore more seriously! As well as trying to interact with the community more and more! ▾▾▾
How do you come up with your lore?
Again, through blood, sweat, and tears lol. In truth, a lot of it starts as concepts, tropes, or inspiration from things I've seen/watched/read in the past, and then begins the process of 'cooking' in my brain, where it develops and flourishes. Many sticky notes are sacrificed during this time, as I write and jot down notes and sudden ideas to eventually fine-tune into something that I am satisfied with. It is a VERY long process, as I'm very particular and picky about my lore and development of my characters. For example, I hate it if two characters seem too similar to one another, even in personality lol.
▾▾▾
Update time + thank you for the watches!
General | Posted 2 months agoSo! It’s funny this happened to sort of coincide altogether, but I’m happy it did!
I first wanted to say- I’ve made it to 1,500 watchers! That is… a huge amount and honestly not something I thought I’d ever really reach lmao- but! Nonetheless, I’m incredibly grateful for those who take an interest in my stuff. Be it the lore readers or just the pretty dragon enjoyers. ❤️
I absolutely plan on hosting a raffle in the coming months to commemorate it! I think, this time around, it’ll be a simple ‘I’ll buy us some art together of your choice’ sort of raffle, maybe? So, look forward to that! Again, though, I really do appreciate everyone. <3
Secondly! A while back, when I revamped my profile, I mentioned a few things were a work in progress. One of those was a sort of ‘FAQ’ about myself that I wanted to do purely for fun and just for others to get a chance to know me a bit more! And I’m happy to announce that it’s finally done, and you’ll probably see it posted very shortly after this journal! I went a little overboard with it, and it ended up longer than I expected lmao- the yapper in me strikes again. Nonetheless, though, I hope y'all enjoy! It was super fun to do, admittedly so... I highkey recommend it to others! Plus I'm nosey lmao so like... lemme snoop on your fun little trivia >:I
I first wanted to say- I’ve made it to 1,500 watchers! That is… a huge amount and honestly not something I thought I’d ever really reach lmao- but! Nonetheless, I’m incredibly grateful for those who take an interest in my stuff. Be it the lore readers or just the pretty dragon enjoyers. ❤️
I absolutely plan on hosting a raffle in the coming months to commemorate it! I think, this time around, it’ll be a simple ‘I’ll buy us some art together of your choice’ sort of raffle, maybe? So, look forward to that! Again, though, I really do appreciate everyone. <3
Secondly! A while back, when I revamped my profile, I mentioned a few things were a work in progress. One of those was a sort of ‘FAQ’ about myself that I wanted to do purely for fun and just for others to get a chance to know me a bit more! And I’m happy to announce that it’s finally done, and you’ll probably see it posted very shortly after this journal! I went a little overboard with it, and it ended up longer than I expected lmao- the yapper in me strikes again. Nonetheless, though, I hope y'all enjoy! It was super fun to do, admittedly so... I highkey recommend it to others! Plus I'm nosey lmao so like... lemme snoop on your fun little trivia >:I
New profile update, who dis?
General | Posted 4 months agoSo... Finally, finally it's here! Welcome to my new (and hopefully improved) looking profile! There's technically (also) a new icon that'll eventually be coming but Dest is impatiant and so Dest has decided... the time is now! It took soooo long to figure out how tf I wanted to go about organizing everything. And despite how basic the formatting looks lmao, it did take me an incredibly long time to figure out something I liked. Yes, yes, I'm aware the spacing looks a bit... weird on mobile. Unfortunately, FA's coding system being bbcode leaves much to be desired and with very few things you can do. And I wanted things to look somewhat aligned, so... here we are. I think it looks not too bad, though? ...Please tell me it looks decent, at the very least LOL. I spent days agonizing over this thing!
But no fr, I just wanted to finally take my profile a bit more seriously and a bit more of 'my' space. It's become something important to me, and so... like all things, I want it to look pretty!
I decided I wanted to, also, make a sort of featured journal that functions as a 'table of contents' for my profile since I wanted to have a lot of little links with more info. I'm really proud of how that one turned out! A few of those links are still a wip, namely the 'Get to know Dest' one which I wanted to eventually do as a fun little FAQ about moi. Why? ...Why not! Idk if anyone is really gonna WANT to read it lmao buuut still, seemed like something fun to do and might invite some more people to reach out to talk!
Last but certainly not least, and what I'm more excited for... LORE! Now, this is why everything took so long. I wanted to finally sit down and fully type up the lore + some for a chunk of my characters. This... took SO MUCH EFFORT OMG. When I tell you I STRUGGLED sometimes with trying to figure out things lmao. I made so many sticky notes with ideas, then further fleshed out concepts to loose skeleton plots, and then from those, fully typed things out. It was a slow, agonizing process filled with plenty of frustration and plenty more creative breaks. Hence why, I think, it took about 6 or more months? And there's still a handful of characters I have left to do! Which I'll get to slowly but surely, buuut definitely not rushing myself this time lmao. My poor brain needs a break.
But on a serious note, I'm incredibly happy and proud of how everything turned out. I reread everything a ton of times and not to toot my own horn, but there were def sometimes where I patted myself on the back lol. Of these things is the official creation of my first real 'setting' that I pretty fully fleshed out. It may not be the most creative, but I'm incredibly happy with how I decided to go about it!
Getting my lore typed out + finally revamping my profile has been such a major goal on my list for 2025, so I'm really happy I finally managed to get everything done. I've yapped enough, I think, but I seriously hope everything is enjoyable/pretty. ❤️
P.S It's very possible I will play around with colors still so... don't be alarmed if it suddenly changes a week from now lol. We love ✨indecisiveness✨. For example, the main text was originally black but I second guessed last minute it'd be too hard to read (even though it looks the best imo).
P.S.S idk if we have any DBZ abridged fans here, but I quite literally was Cell going 'It's fine, it doesn't bother me, it doesn't bother me' with every little thing lmao. Spoiler alert, it does bother me very much 😭
But no fr, I just wanted to finally take my profile a bit more seriously and a bit more of 'my' space. It's become something important to me, and so... like all things, I want it to look pretty!
I decided I wanted to, also, make a sort of featured journal that functions as a 'table of contents' for my profile since I wanted to have a lot of little links with more info. I'm really proud of how that one turned out! A few of those links are still a wip, namely the 'Get to know Dest' one which I wanted to eventually do as a fun little FAQ about moi. Why? ...Why not! Idk if anyone is really gonna WANT to read it lmao buuut still, seemed like something fun to do and might invite some more people to reach out to talk!
Last but certainly not least, and what I'm more excited for... LORE! Now, this is why everything took so long. I wanted to finally sit down and fully type up the lore + some for a chunk of my characters. This... took SO MUCH EFFORT OMG. When I tell you I STRUGGLED sometimes with trying to figure out things lmao. I made so many sticky notes with ideas, then further fleshed out concepts to loose skeleton plots, and then from those, fully typed things out. It was a slow, agonizing process filled with plenty of frustration and plenty more creative breaks. Hence why, I think, it took about 6 or more months? And there's still a handful of characters I have left to do! Which I'll get to slowly but surely, buuut definitely not rushing myself this time lmao. My poor brain needs a break.
But on a serious note, I'm incredibly happy and proud of how everything turned out. I reread everything a ton of times and not to toot my own horn, but there were def sometimes where I patted myself on the back lol. Of these things is the official creation of my first real 'setting' that I pretty fully fleshed out. It may not be the most creative, but I'm incredibly happy with how I decided to go about it!
Getting my lore typed out + finally revamping my profile has been such a major goal on my list for 2025, so I'm really happy I finally managed to get everything done. I've yapped enough, I think, but I seriously hope everything is enjoyable/pretty. ❤️
P.S It's very possible I will play around with colors still so... don't be alarmed if it suddenly changes a week from now lol. We love ✨indecisiveness✨. For example, the main text was originally black but I second guessed last minute it'd be too hard to read (even though it looks the best imo).
P.S.S idk if we have any DBZ abridged fans here, but I quite literally was Cell going 'It's fine, it doesn't bother me, it doesn't bother me' with every little thing lmao. Spoiler alert, it does bother me very much 😭
Dest's Table of Contents
General | Posted 4 months ago╭━━━━━━━━━━━━╮
IMPORTANT LINKS
► custom tags to block
► want (sfw) art together?
► want (nsfw) art together?
► character lore
━━━━━
CHECK THIS OUT?
▾▾▾
→ latest dest journal ᵗʰᵉ ˡᵃᵗᵉˢᵗ ᵘᵖᵈᵃᵗᵉ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ʸᵒᵘʳˢ ᵗʳᵘˡʸ
→ character sales for Kiri & Lacrima ᶜʰᵃʳᵃᶜᵗᵉʳˢ ⁱ'ᵐ ᵖᵃʳᵗⁱⁿᵍ ʷⁱᵗʰ
→ get to know dest
━━━━━
THE DRAGON'S HOARD 
good beans are collected here. you are cherished <3
the dragon's hoard is always happy for more treasure c;
New Year Reflections & Wishes
General | Posted 4 months agoGoodness, it's hard to believe a year has passed already... But, here we are! Firstly, Happy New Year, everyone! I have quite a bit of rambling and yapping I wanted to do— reflections, if you will. I apologize in advance for the length...
As a spoiler, it starts off a bit depressing, buuut it does get better! The main point I would like to make now, though, is that: We made it! We did it! There's another year to endure, but this one has to be better, so hang in there!
Now to dive right into it... Truthfully, this year has been a year where I’ve personally felt like I’ve lost more than I’ve gained. 2025 is, without a doubt, one of the worst years I’ve endured in a while. To try to put it into perspective a bit: each time it felt like I climbed a mountain of some stress/difficulty, there was a new and taller mountain waiting for me behind it. Especially towards the latter half of this year, I was in an incredibly bad place of mind. There was just so much going on, and everything seemed to hit at once in what felt like an endless downward spiral. And much to my utter frustration and feelings of hopelessness, various areas of my health also flared up like an undesired cherry on top.
I’ve never felt so purely out of control of my own mental state/mood and my own body. I just felt so down and exhausted all the time that it was, honestly, a bit scary! And it's never felt more lonely watching the world spin on while you're paralyzed in these terrible feelings. Though I (like many others) do suffer from depression and its usual cohorts, I’ve always prided myself on being able to push past (or even ignore) it and still function. Unfortunately, you can only lie to yourself so much. And sometimes it just doesn't work. For a long while, I battled with this heavily and tried to force myself to ignore it, but spoiler alert: yeaaah… no LOL.
Please don't ignore your brain or how you feel. And I've, also, learned a hard lesson that it's okay to not be okay. It's okay to have periods where you break down a little and aren't always on 'go'. While you can't stay there forever, it's okay, and it'll be okay. Not now, but eventually. I've learned that Depression doesn't have to be loud and all-consuming. It can be quiet. Smaller. Yet, just as hurtful and debilitating. You can have some good moments that briefly make you forget, and then it hits again, and damn, does it hurt lol. As to not ramble on longer than this probably already is, though: Depression truly sucks lmao. But it's not eternal. And that's something I've been telling myself over and over.
There are still some things going on in my mind— I'm not 100% feeling like myself even still, and I don't know when I will be. I still feel perpetually exhausted. But I won't rush it. I'll take my small victories and run with them!
I do want to thank the friends who checked in on me during these times, too, or who kept me in their thoughts. I really underestimated how much it helps, tbh. Knowing that someone cares. Knowing that you’re not alone. Knowing that people do notice when you're gone. Knowing that there's still a 'place' for you when you're able to come back. They're all reminders that you matter, even if you don't recognize it at that moment. And a nice feeling of normalcy when you feel everything but 'normal'. So, going into 2026? Please remember to check in on your friends! I'm sure they'll appreciate it more than they'll be able to say.
2025 was filled with moments of discovering little bits and pieces about myself as well, even the uncomfortable ones. Of those, I've finally managed to stop 'running' away from and openly acknowledge my orientation as someone who is in the a-spec. It’s something I’ve internally denied for a while. But, honestly? It’s been a bit freeing acknowledging it finally, rather than always denying it out of some sense of feeling I shouldn’t be/couldn’t be, or that there was just something wrong with me. 'Too damaged' or 'It's my fault', when there's no problem or fault to be had. It's just who I am. It puts a lot of things into perspective. And truthfully? It makes me a bit happier, maybe even a bit freer. Maybe I’ll eventually do an outreach journal post, since I’d love to talk with others of the asexual/aromantic community!
Onto more positive notes! I'm immensely grateful to the friends I've made and maintained over this year, especially when I sooooorta went AWOL for a bit andstill kinda do lmao. I'm trying to get better at juggling friendships in balance with my life. Admittedly, though, busyness mixed with an often low social battery after work makes for a jarring combination lmao. Nonetheless! You special people who have patience for me and still find enjoyment in speaking with me? Truly, you are the best, and I appreciate you immensely. ❤️ I have to say, I've improved on the social aspect since 2024 though, because my god, I was GONE more often than not LOL. Like, forget about a once every few-day replies, it'd be a solid month before people heard from me sometimes lmfao. So small victory for Dest!
I'm incredibly grateful for those who also support my account here on FA/the artwork I commission, and take an interest in my characters! They're all very important to me, and I geninuely do put a lot of effort into their stories. Thus, it makes me incredibly happy when others take a genuine interest in the ideas or lore I try to portray through their art pieces. I'm honestly shocked at how many followers this account has grown to over the past few years, and I absolutely plan to throw a raffle sometime in 2026 just as a 'thank you'!
There are still so many things I feel the need to say, but this is long and slightly personal enough lmao. Oh! As a small aside, I'll be doing a total sort of 'profile' revamp in the coming days just to give this old, dusty place a slightly new look and some more organization. Alongside some other kinda neat things I've been working on for what feels like forever (and was a big personal goal I wanted to accomplish)!
Speaking of goals... There are some for 2026, but I honestly want to think on it a bit more. It feels a bit bad to see others with these amazing goals, and I feel like I'm a bit 'stuck' in life right now, but... everyone gets to where they need to be at their own pace. Perhaps working on building my own ambition rather than just maintaining compliance with where I currently am is something I can do! Nonetheless, yes... all the thinking, all the thoughts!
To sort of finally wrap this up! I wholly welcome 2026, and I'm hopeful it'll be better than this year has been. Despite some grim thoughts that follow me into this new year, I'm still grateful to see it nonetheless and even more so that I could do it alongside some of the amazing people I have the privilege to call my friends. 2025 may not have been our/my year, but we're not done here yet! So, let's make this New Year a great one!
As a spoiler, it starts off a bit depressing, buuut it does get better! The main point I would like to make now, though, is that: We made it! We did it! There's another year to endure, but this one has to be better, so hang in there!
Reflections about the big bad 'D'
Now to dive right into it... Truthfully, this year has been a year where I’ve personally felt like I’ve lost more than I’ve gained. 2025 is, without a doubt, one of the worst years I’ve endured in a while. To try to put it into perspective a bit: each time it felt like I climbed a mountain of some stress/difficulty, there was a new and taller mountain waiting for me behind it. Especially towards the latter half of this year, I was in an incredibly bad place of mind. There was just so much going on, and everything seemed to hit at once in what felt like an endless downward spiral. And much to my utter frustration and feelings of hopelessness, various areas of my health also flared up like an undesired cherry on top.
I’ve never felt so purely out of control of my own mental state/mood and my own body. I just felt so down and exhausted all the time that it was, honestly, a bit scary! And it's never felt more lonely watching the world spin on while you're paralyzed in these terrible feelings. Though I (like many others) do suffer from depression and its usual cohorts, I’ve always prided myself on being able to push past (or even ignore) it and still function. Unfortunately, you can only lie to yourself so much. And sometimes it just doesn't work. For a long while, I battled with this heavily and tried to force myself to ignore it, but spoiler alert: yeaaah… no LOL.
Please don't ignore your brain or how you feel. And I've, also, learned a hard lesson that it's okay to not be okay. It's okay to have periods where you break down a little and aren't always on 'go'. While you can't stay there forever, it's okay, and it'll be okay. Not now, but eventually. I've learned that Depression doesn't have to be loud and all-consuming. It can be quiet. Smaller. Yet, just as hurtful and debilitating. You can have some good moments that briefly make you forget, and then it hits again, and damn, does it hurt lol. As to not ramble on longer than this probably already is, though: Depression truly sucks lmao. But it's not eternal. And that's something I've been telling myself over and over.
There are still some things going on in my mind— I'm not 100% feeling like myself even still, and I don't know when I will be. I still feel perpetually exhausted. But I won't rush it. I'll take my small victories and run with them!
I do want to thank the friends who checked in on me during these times, too, or who kept me in their thoughts. I really underestimated how much it helps, tbh. Knowing that someone cares. Knowing that you’re not alone. Knowing that people do notice when you're gone. Knowing that there's still a 'place' for you when you're able to come back. They're all reminders that you matter, even if you don't recognize it at that moment. And a nice feeling of normalcy when you feel everything but 'normal'. So, going into 2026? Please remember to check in on your friends! I'm sure they'll appreciate it more than they'll be able to say.
Self Discoveries
2025 was filled with moments of discovering little bits and pieces about myself as well, even the uncomfortable ones. Of those, I've finally managed to stop 'running' away from and openly acknowledge my orientation as someone who is in the a-spec. It’s something I’ve internally denied for a while. But, honestly? It’s been a bit freeing acknowledging it finally, rather than always denying it out of some sense of feeling I shouldn’t be/couldn’t be, or that there was just something wrong with me. 'Too damaged' or 'It's my fault', when there's no problem or fault to be had. It's just who I am. It puts a lot of things into perspective. And truthfully? It makes me a bit happier, maybe even a bit freer. Maybe I’ll eventually do an outreach journal post, since I’d love to talk with others of the asexual/aromantic community!
The Good Stuff Finally
Onto more positive notes! I'm immensely grateful to the friends I've made and maintained over this year, especially when I sooooorta went AWOL for a bit and
I'm incredibly grateful for those who also support my account here on FA/the artwork I commission, and take an interest in my characters! They're all very important to me, and I geninuely do put a lot of effort into their stories. Thus, it makes me incredibly happy when others take a genuine interest in the ideas or lore I try to portray through their art pieces. I'm honestly shocked at how many followers this account has grown to over the past few years, and I absolutely plan to throw a raffle sometime in 2026 just as a 'thank you'!
Future Thingy and Final Notes
There are still so many things I feel the need to say, but this is long and slightly personal enough lmao. Oh! As a small aside, I'll be doing a total sort of 'profile' revamp in the coming days just to give this old, dusty place a slightly new look and some more organization. Alongside some other kinda neat things I've been working on for what feels like forever (and was a big personal goal I wanted to accomplish)!
Speaking of goals... There are some for 2026, but I honestly want to think on it a bit more. It feels a bit bad to see others with these amazing goals, and I feel like I'm a bit 'stuck' in life right now, but... everyone gets to where they need to be at their own pace. Perhaps working on building my own ambition rather than just maintaining compliance with where I currently am is something I can do! Nonetheless, yes... all the thinking, all the thoughts!
To sort of finally wrap this up! I wholly welcome 2026, and I'm hopeful it'll be better than this year has been. Despite some grim thoughts that follow me into this new year, I'm still grateful to see it nonetheless and even more so that I could do it alongside some of the amazing people I have the privilege to call my friends. 2025 may not have been our/my year, but we're not done here yet! So, let's make this New Year a great one!
Want (sfw) art together? Check this out!
General | Posted 6 months agoInterested in getting some cool art together? Absolutely, I'm game! Feel free to send me a message letting me know your interest! Please be sure to let me know which character has piqued your interest. I have a ton and I'm indecisive lol.
I tend to love getting lore-related art when it comes to my characters, so I'm always happy to try to include others in some of the ideas I have is possible! If reading my character's lore gave you a cool art idea with your own? Definitely let me know! Currently, this section is a little barebones and just lists which characters are currently not open for art. To reiterate, this journal entry is a wip! I'm slowly but surely working on something a tad more detail that lists some themes, artistic elements, and etc that I'd be happy to get with each character. If just to help with trying to decide the big question of 'whomst'.
While I'm more than happy to work with an idea you may have, I'm also happy to think up one together as well! Likewise, for possible artist to commission, I do have my own personal favs but I'm plenty fine with checking out any artist's you may already have in mind, too!
Let's commission something we'll both love together! c:
Currently not open for art
Fable, The Blind Seer, Tomoe-No-Mikoto, Tsillah (Inquires are open, but slight redesign pending, sooo technically 'closed')
I tend to love getting lore-related art when it comes to my characters, so I'm always happy to try to include others in some of the ideas I have is possible! If reading my character's lore gave you a cool art idea with your own? Definitely let me know! Currently, this section is a little barebones and just lists which characters are currently not open for art. To reiterate, this journal entry is a wip! I'm slowly but surely working on something a tad more detail that lists some themes, artistic elements, and etc that I'd be happy to get with each character. If just to help with trying to decide the big question of 'whomst'.
While I'm more than happy to work with an idea you may have, I'm also happy to think up one together as well! Likewise, for possible artist to commission, I do have my own personal favs but I'm plenty fine with checking out any artist's you may already have in mind, too!
Let's commission something we'll both love together! c:
Currently not open for art
Fable, The Blind Seer, Tomoe-No-Mikoto, Tsillah (Inquires are open, but slight redesign pending, sooo technically 'closed')
Leveling up yet again
General | Posted 8 months agoHuh... I don't think I've ever officially made one of these, nor really made mention of my birthday aside from a few friends in passing LOL. It just sort of stopped being important to me for a few years since my mind wasn't in the best of places. But, I've started to rediscover my love of it (mostly because other people make it special) and making mention of it again that... yes, even I had a day in which I was born lol. And that day happens to be today!
I feel so old, I'm ngl lmao— I'm expecting midlife crisis number 4 to pop up annnny day now atp. But! I will say, though this year thus far has definitely had its ups and downs, in my personal life, it's been an overall better one. I've reconnected with some old friends, I've gotten closer to other friends, and I've made some amazing new friends— all people in my life who I cherish immensely. I'm so excited to see where the future takes us!
Health-wise, definitely some ups and downs, but I've been making and meeting small 'goals' in some areas that I'm also really proud about. It's been incredibly tough, but I refuse to give in! I'm hoping when I turn 27 next year, I can look back at this journal and reflect on (hopefully) how much better I am than last year.
I'll save all the sentimental reflection yap for New Year's lmao, BUT long story short, I'm incredibly grateful to be here and to have met all these amazing people who I'm so incredibly happy to call my friends. Ya'll are the best. <3
Thank you all, as always, for the support and good wishes!
Oh! I'll make a more official journal post on it in the coming weeks alongside some other updates to my profile (because we are due for a makeover here lmao), but gosh 1.2k followers? Ya'll are amazing! Thank you so much. ❤️
I do plan on doing another raffle at some point to show my appreciation! I wanted to do one for my birthday, but... saving money (or at least trying to lmao) is important, kids lol. So maybe for this New Year's, I'll host another raffle then!
I feel so old, I'm ngl lmao— I'm expecting midlife crisis number 4 to pop up annnny day now atp. But! I will say, though this year thus far has definitely had its ups and downs, in my personal life, it's been an overall better one. I've reconnected with some old friends, I've gotten closer to other friends, and I've made some amazing new friends— all people in my life who I cherish immensely. I'm so excited to see where the future takes us!
Health-wise, definitely some ups and downs, but I've been making and meeting small 'goals' in some areas that I'm also really proud about. It's been incredibly tough, but I refuse to give in! I'm hoping when I turn 27 next year, I can look back at this journal and reflect on (hopefully) how much better I am than last year.
I'll save all the sentimental reflection yap for New Year's lmao, BUT long story short, I'm incredibly grateful to be here and to have met all these amazing people who I'm so incredibly happy to call my friends. Ya'll are the best. <3
Thank you all, as always, for the support and good wishes!
Oh! I'll make a more official journal post on it in the coming weeks alongside some other updates to my profile (because we are due for a makeover here lmao), but gosh 1.2k followers? Ya'll are amazing! Thank you so much. ❤️
I do plan on doing another raffle at some point to show my appreciation! I wanted to do one for my birthday, but... saving money (or at least trying to lmao) is important, kids lol. So maybe for this New Year's, I'll host another raffle then!
Custom Tags
General | Posted a year agoHello hello, I hope you all have been well!
Soo, in light of tag-blocking now (finally) being a thing, I've been trying to decide how I'd like to organize my account. I've been playing around with the idea of having two separate accounts; one for Anthro/Human stuff and another for mydragons feral things. I know some people don't want to interact with one thing or the other, and vice versa. Additionally, as an enjoyer of occasionally darker art, I also sometimes worry about jumpscaring people since the Mature tag is very... broad lol. Unfortunately, I am incredibly lazy and too busy to even think about managing two accounts, in hindsight. Big emphasis on the lazy part there lol. However, with tag-blocking now being a thing, I had a very big-brain idea: Custom Tags!
I'll be adding custom tags to each of my uploads from henceforth to help categorize my art a bit better. Hopefully this will help watchers be able to interact with/see what they want to and not be bothered with what they don't. Due to how much of a 'wip' the blocked tags feature is with FA, this may change in the future, but... As of right now, I think it's a pretty good and simplistic idea! It does require a smidge of work on your guys' end to add the blocked tags to your list, so I do apologize for that. Thankfully, I don't really plan on using too many at all!
Custom Tag Guidelines, Destinesia Style
DestFeral: Any and all feral-related artwork will be listed under this tag.
DestAnthro: Any and all anthro-related artwork will be listed under this tag.
DestHuman: Any and all human-related artwork will be listed under this tag.
DestDark: Any artwork that features potentially dark topics (death, murder, etc) or what I feel is a bit more blood than usual will be listed under this tag. This does NOT include Guro because I don't like guro lol. As of right now, this is strictly a SFW tag, but just with darker or more depressing subjects being the main focus of the art piece.
And there we go! I may end up editing this list or adding more as needed. If I do, I'll let ya'll know. Thanks for bearing with me!
Soo, in light of tag-blocking now (finally) being a thing, I've been trying to decide how I'd like to organize my account. I've been playing around with the idea of having two separate accounts; one for Anthro/Human stuff and another for my
I'll be adding custom tags to each of my uploads from henceforth to help categorize my art a bit better. Hopefully this will help watchers be able to interact with/see what they want to and not be bothered with what they don't. Due to how much of a 'wip' the blocked tags feature is with FA, this may change in the future, but... As of right now, I think it's a pretty good and simplistic idea! It does require a smidge of work on your guys' end to add the blocked tags to your list, so I do apologize for that. Thankfully, I don't really plan on using too many at all!
Custom Tag Guidelines, Destinesia Style
DestFeral: Any and all feral-related artwork will be listed under this tag.
DestAnthro: Any and all anthro-related artwork will be listed under this tag.
DestHuman: Any and all human-related artwork will be listed under this tag.
DestDark: Any artwork that features potentially dark topics (death, murder, etc) or what I feel is a bit more blood than usual will be listed under this tag. This does NOT include Guro because I don't like guro lol. As of right now, this is strictly a SFW tag, but just with darker or more depressing subjects being the main focus of the art piece.
And there we go! I may end up editing this list or adding more as needed. If I do, I'll let ya'll know. Thanks for bearing with me!
Happy new year & welcome 2025!
General | Posted a year agoI'm honestly not really sure what to put here, but... Happy New Year! I hope 2025 is a wonderful year for everyone, filled with happiness, good health, and dream/goal achievement! It's a bit scary starting 'over' again and going into a new year filled with so many unknown possibilities. But, it's the perfect time for fresh starts, new chances, new hobbies, and new experiences!
For me, I'm honestly happy to say goodbye to 2024. As a handful of you know, I've been battling nasty sickness of the chronic sort for the last few months of 2024. Going into early 2025, I have some big tests and treatments that'll be started that I'm honestly a bit nervous for. But, I'm hopeful that'll help me in the long run, and I want to try to remain positive about the outcome of them. <3
As highkey terrible as 2024 was towards the latter half, I'm extremely appreciative of the good things that happened too, though. Among them was meeting quite a bunch of you guys and making some new friends. <3 I'm really grateful for you guys, even more so for those who show me endless patience as I've been AWOL quite a few times dealing with aaallll the things. Admittedly, I ask for a biiiiit more patience with these upcoming months with everything that'll be going on too, aha...
Of course, I'm also extremely grateful for the friendships I've maintained as well— friends who I've known for a while and who I cherish all the same. Thank you for putting up with me lol. Please continue to do so, hehe.
Simply put; you guys are amazing and I'm really happy you're here and going into 2025 with me. <3
And as 2025 passes, I'm really excited for the new people I'll meet here, too! I hope to be a bit more confident with seeking some of you out and not as shy when actually conversing, too. I also want to be more proactive about favoriting and leaving comments, especially for my mutuals. I'm sooo bad about it but desperately want to share the love/give some words of praise for some beautiful art! Personal goals I'll work on, for sure.
All in all, hopefully this year, you'll see more of me around!
For me, I'm honestly happy to say goodbye to 2024. As a handful of you know, I've been battling nasty sickness of the chronic sort for the last few months of 2024. Going into early 2025, I have some big tests and treatments that'll be started that I'm honestly a bit nervous for. But, I'm hopeful that'll help me in the long run, and I want to try to remain positive about the outcome of them. <3
As highkey terrible as 2024 was towards the latter half, I'm extremely appreciative of the good things that happened too, though. Among them was meeting quite a bunch of you guys and making some new friends. <3 I'm really grateful for you guys, even more so for those who show me endless patience as I've been AWOL quite a few times dealing with aaallll the things. Admittedly, I ask for a biiiiit more patience with these upcoming months with everything that'll be going on too, aha...
Of course, I'm also extremely grateful for the friendships I've maintained as well— friends who I've known for a while and who I cherish all the same. Thank you for putting up with me lol. Please continue to do so, hehe.
Simply put; you guys are amazing and I'm really happy you're here and going into 2025 with me. <3
And as 2025 passes, I'm really excited for the new people I'll meet here, too! I hope to be a bit more confident with seeking some of you out and not as shy when actually conversing, too. I also want to be more proactive about favoriting and leaving comments, especially for my mutuals. I'm sooo bad about it but desperately want to share the love/give some words of praise for some beautiful art! Personal goals I'll work on, for sure.
All in all, hopefully this year, you'll see more of me around!
