hello watchers, well i'm still in this deep black hole, there are some moments in my life where i'm a bit happier than normal but 23 hours and 50 minutes a day i'm depressiv -.- i try to change things in my life and have contact to furs who live near my home but thats verry hard, well later or tomorrow i check my comments and notes and i hope this time in my life will end soon................. thats all for today

still busy and depressiv -.- thats all

well i need some time for myself to thinck about things and such <.< i could be offline for a few days or a week

well who of you "like" them, love to read books/comics with Zombies, Watch the Movies or play the games?? well i love this theme x3

Well last night i came back from EF, and sadly the most time i just stand around and was to shy to talk to people but luckily there were a few with whom I could talk^^ maybe i make a journal later where i tell everything from my EF-time and upload some bad Quality mobile phone photos x3

program loads.................... x3

well i have summer holidays for 6 weeks nao^^ but my only plans are going to EF and hope that i can visit a verry cute guy <3

stolen from  RelaxingDragon1

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
-always closet

2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
-hehe nope

3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
-tucked in

4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
-nope

5: Do you like to use post-it notes?
-hehe sometimes when i have anwe password, i write it down and learn it x3

6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
-i dun know from where i can cut out cupons

7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
-onle a few bees

8: Do you have freckles?
-whats "freckles" x3

9: Do you always smile for pictures?
-nope, i look ugly when i smile

10: What is your biggest pet peeve?
-well when my parents shout at me without any reasons -.-

11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
-sometimes on stares

14: Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
-sometimes *blush*

15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?
-yush, theyre so yummy ^^

16: How many people have you slept with this week?
-no one, i dind't slept with a person since months -.-

17: What size is your bed?
-it's verry big, king size XD

18: What is your Song of the week?
-smashing pumpkins: Bullet with butterfly wings

19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
-hehe yush it is^^

20: Do you still watch cartoons?
-yup and i love them

21: Whats your least favorite movie?
-hell

22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
-deep in the woods

23: What do you drink with dinner?
-water or coke

24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
-dip sauce

25: What is your favorite food?
-fast food

26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
-every zombiemovie in the world

28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
-nope

29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
-never

30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
-hmmm 4 or 5 years ago

31: Can you change the oil on a car?
-yush....... i have to do it again soon

32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
-not yet, i dun have enough money for this so i don't drive so fast

33: Ever ran out of gas?
-nope

34: Favorite kind of sandwich?
-egg and bacon

35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?
-cereals

36: What is your usual bedtime?
-10pm-12pm

37: Are you lazy?
-sometimes

38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
- as a soldier x3

39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?
-dun know, i'm to lazy to lock in the internet x3

40: How many languages can you speak?
german,english,spain and russian = 4

41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
-nope^^

42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
- defenetly legos

43: Are you stubborn?
- sometimes yes

44: Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
-Letterman

45: Ever watch soap operas?
-i had to when i was a kid -.-

46: Are you afraid of heights?
-nö

47: Do you sing in the car?
-hehe yush, i often do but only when i'm alone in the car

48: Do you sing in the shower?
-nope

49: Do you dance in the car?
-hehe i dun know how i should dance in the car x3

50: Ever used a gun?
-airsoft guns and some small caliber guns on the range

51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
-well some monhths ago because my driver license

52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?
-cheesy XD

53: Is Christmas stressful?
-oh yes, it's hard to find a good present for everyone

54: Ever eat a pierogi?
-i dun think so

55: Favorite type of fruit pie?
-apple

56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
-RAF X3

57: Do you believe in ghosts?
-oh yes theyre real

58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
-i sometimes have one

59: Take a vitamin daily?
-nope

60: Wear slippers?
-sometimes

61: Wear a bath robe?
-nope

62: What do you wear to bed?
-boxershorts or diapers

63: First concert?
- huh?

64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
-we dun have them in europe.......... so my answer is: EDEKA.

65: Nike or Adidas?
-adidas

66: Cheetos Or Fritos?
-none of them

67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
-peanuts

68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
-nope

69: Ever take dance lessons?
-my mom wanted that i do but NEVER!!!!!!!

70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
-nope

71: Can you curl your tongue?
-yes i can lick my nose with my tongue x3

72: Ever won a spelling bee?
-never was on one

73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
- i often cry but thats not because i'm happy

74: Own any record albums?
-only CD's

75: Own a record player?
-nope

76: Regularly burn incense?
-nunu

77: Ever been in love?
-i'm still in love

78: Who would you like to see in concert?
-elvis x3

79: What was the last concert you saw?
-........

80: Hot tea or cold tea?
-hot one

81: Tea or coffee?
-Tea

82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?
-gummy bears

83: Can you swim well?
-yush

84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
.yush i can

85: Are you patient?
-not really

86: DJ or band, at a wedding?
-Band

87: Ever won a contest?
-yush^^

88: Ever have plastic surgery?
-nope

89: Which are better black or green olives?
-i hate both of them

90: Can you knit or crochet?
-nothing

91: Best room for a fireplace?
-the woods in summer

92: Do you want to get married?
-yush

93: If married, how long have you been married?
-i wasn't married

95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
-when i was little i done this

96: Do you have kids?
-yush, 12...........hehe nope and i'm happy for this, because i'm just 18

97: Do you want kids?
-on the one hand it would be nice, but on the other hand: i'm gay x3

98: What's your favorite color
-winde red

99: Do you miss anyone right now?
-oh yes, i miss one special cute guy verry much and i hope i can see him this weekend -.-

hello guys and girls, how do you all doing? i hope good, well i come back online on FA soon :) and then i have to check so many messages, sry that i dun reply to many of your notes and comments -.- i hope i didn't made you angry y.y

well this morning i stand up, go down for breakfast and first i saw my stepfather, start to shout at me why i close the door so loud...........wtf i didn't open or close a door today -.- and my mother was next to him and said nothing, he shout verry often at me without any reason, sometimes i'm to scared to go out of my room <.<

why do so many call me a Loser and a Idiot? do they know me, no but they say it <.<

but since a few days i feel something, i don't life anymore, i only exist and my will to live died and out there is nobody i can call a "verry close friend".

this morning i stand up but fall down because i'm so weak from crying and such

i hate myself so how can somobdy elses love me?

well i love someone but do he still loves me? i wanna have a sign..............

cried the last 2 hours and i dun know why, i know i'm sick <.<

i want to visit it so bad, and live there for a while maybe X.X

well not much has changed, i still suck at school, i still hate my body and i still cry every night. everytime i try to change something it get worse <.<

I hope something in my life changes soon........................................

hi watchers, i have to be offline from FA for a few time because i have to handle some RL problems <-< sry guys

Stolen from  furry_raving

Where are you staying?
in the main Hotel

What day are you getting there?
dun know yet Wednesday or Tuesday

Who will you be with?
hmmm dun know, many furs XD

What suit(s) will you have?
dun have one (sadly)

Can I dance with you?
yush but i can't dance x3

What is your gender?
male

How old are you?
18

How tall are you?
1.79m

Are you mated? in a relationship?
sadly not

Can I touch you?
only a hug ^^

Can I talk to you?
yush ya can

Can I hug you?
only if i can hug ya too XP

Can I take photos of you/with you?
hehe sure^^

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
yup, but only drinks without alcohol

Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
no and no

Can I give you lots of money?
hehe always XD

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
hug yes snuggle.......... maybe ^^

Can we hang out?
sures^^

Are you nice?
yup

Where will you be most of the time during the con?
dun know, where the fun is XP

Other cons you may go to?
not yet

Who are you rooming with?
 sascrypte and  furry_raving

Attending any events?
hmmm maybe the walks and the partys^^

How can I find you at the con?
hmmm dun know, maybe a badge or something like this x3

so my PC is back but i have to install my messengers again and have to get my passworts back so this will take some hours <.<

well i thinck i have to check these messages in some days x3 i wanna have my PC back <.<

I'm not friendly enough to the people or what? or why does everybody in my RL treat my like shit? why they laugh about me and say that i'm ugly and should come out of my room....... i'm doing EVERYTHING against these shitty pimples and do training against my overweight, but my tummy gets bigger and my pimples gets more <.< i see so many people out there, act likie assholes and have more friends than me and look better

hey guys, i just want to say that i miss you all so much <.< i hope i have my computer back soon that i don't just have 2 or 3 minutes to check my messages a day

well i still dun have a computer, i'm still terrible at school and this weekend i just layed in my bed and learned, read comics and wait till monday <.< and i'm verryworried because a person i love

hiya watchers, today my mother talked with me, that she's planning to move to the USA because here in germany everything is shitty and if i would come with her if she do this O.O

sooooooo i still dun have my computer back so i still can't come online to chatt, miss you all >.<

i get a email today, that steam want to verryify my e-mail address, thats the 2nd time i got such a e-mail the last weeks, i deleted it and dun opend it because i dun wanna have a virus on the PC of my mother but i have one question in my head: did some asshole used my e-mail address to make a steam account??