It was a wild day today I finally got to see "It"after a long time in production for close to 7 years, I was not disappointed it delivered and in my opinion is one of the best adaptation of a stephen king book ever. Got to see it with my love and it was great, although part of me still feels bad about things that happened with family and me being the person I am, I worry sometimes that everyone will just hate me,

My brothers are special to me, they keep me going and make me smile and support me when I need it, when I need a good kick in the ass or when I need a shoulder to cry on they know who they are and I wanna say without you guys I'd be a mess and completely lost, I'd like to also thank the love of my life for being here and keeping our love alive close to five years together and theres no one I rather do this with and all the people who thought our relationship would never last can screw off, my fur family is my world and if anyone messes with it the fury of the wolf and heart of the lion will not be scared to go after, I love you guys and you know who you are.

Days like these i just wish i could just scream and just disappear with the fact people keep throwing things in my face about stuff i trusted them with only to be reminded what kinda piece of crap humanity can be at times and people i used to trust a flash of memories of some old good times flash and how things were different.

At times i question myself if i belong in this community,
I love this community but the way things are at times they can be hectic some days i feel empowered by the amount of awesome people there are that im proud to call my clan and my kin. And then i have days where i just wanna hide and just not talk at all and cry myself cause of the amout of hurt all around us, its constant battle dealing with depression and i guess these are my thoughts and every single time i can bring a smile and change a persons day and impact their life then i have completed my job, i love you all and i know it may seem hopeless but never give up and keep on pushing.

Having a weekend to relax with my mate has been amazing
i wish we could have more time to travel around to other places we have never been to
this summer will be fun going to meet some furs and getting to know more places
trying to also relaunch my YouTube channel. it has been a very weird winter as my father had to go through
a work related injury. i also wanna say that i love all my friends and family who have been here and who made my birthday feel special and making me feel like a very loved fur you know who you guys are and a special thank you to my hubby for being here with me through it all and i know we will make it through any storm that may wanna challenge us.

Things are going much smoother really excited that my mate will be here soon and we will be getting our first place finally was able to get my paws on my xbox one works been a pain but will get better soln i hope with the new raise in july everything turns out fine thats all i have for now till the next update guys

if you guys dont like me then dont keep me on here
im tired of disappointing people and tired of being made to feel bad by others.

=Days Of Destruction=

well look at the damage being done

when a person doesn't realize that their

the cause for all the pain inside

locked away in the prosperity of darkness on the

broken road to nowhere

where one tries to find themselves again

Break on this silence

you bury deep inside

forsake yourself upon

these broken dreams

hope that never was

shadow these projections

Find the real

you hide behind these walls

wake upon and bring forth

the side that never was

your silence says it all

wake up and bring forth the peace

that will soon come about

never giving in not looking back

your vengenful eyes come alive

the pain will soon fade away

is this but a dream ???

A Verse of silence echoes in these streets of Violence

Unforgiven Dues Bring Back Memories Of Pain

These Days Are Not Like They Used where a very

Common Way of life was Normal Instead We Lead

Uncommon Territory Waiting For Something To

Save Us These Days Are Not as lightly Lit As They

used to be Nor Are They As Dark As Our Biggest Fears

Instead where In The Crossroads Of What Might Be

A Prison In Its Own Right You Might Ask Yourselves How

You ended in a calamity Of Grey Shades Where Hell Meets Heaven

-Sammy Vocina- 2/10/12