Please aid if you can! If you can't afford to buy anything, just spreading word will help tons too!!

And again, taking to my old account since it has literally 1010 more watchers than my current. /sigh

I don't know what else to do to reach out to people anymore.


Here's the journal link: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8584990/ !




Thanks in advance!
*PS. If any of you out there haven't yet, come switch over to dominoms - that's where Im located now!



-Ali

Too many people left, and my creativity dropped.

I have a job now anyway, so I don't have time to draw anymore, as is.


Im sorry everyone... I deleted everything.

Please don't ask me for old art... I don't have the files anymore.


maybe someday i'll return on a new account though.
it'd be nice to have a clean slate.

But for now... goodbye, FA.


Goodbye my friends. I'll miss you dearly.


- Ali

Hi everyone!

I am back from my trip to Florida (and yes, I am safe - I've been back for about a week now).
If anyone has been following the updates on my free art "auction" (I guess you'd call it that), you might be aware the deadline to enter for said free art, was on June 10th.

Im sorry to anybody who didn't get a chance to enter. I tried to extend the deadline as much as I could to give everyone interested a lengthy chance to apply. Some designs I was sent were really nice, but unfortunately, there were also some designs that just didn't not quite fit the bill for what I was looking to draw.... so with that being said, I've been spending the last few days flipping back and forth between designs and deciding which ones I was going to draw (finally, I know). Anyway, I believe I've made my final decisions!

Thank you for participating, everyone!

I may re-open slots in the future, so keep your eyes peeled!! :>

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+SLOTS:

1. Kara - hiddenwolf (ref: http://i18.photobucket.com/albums/b.....ie_kararef.jpg )
2. Julliette - jamiesaur (ref: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13030489/ )
3. Yuki - angelfonds (ref: http://sta.sh/0xmnxsgpced )



-Ali

*UPDATE: As if things couldn't get any worse... my mom just told me that the vet discovered he had a brain tumor...

Apparently after he went blind, he continued to seize, and couldn't hold his balance anymore. She told me that he wouldn't eat, that he wouldn't walk... and when he did walk, he always ended up falling from the ledge of my railing on the second floor of my house. Twice, he came down and didn't catch himself... he just slammed into the floor. Probably furthering the injury of the tumor... and then he started to smash his face into things. Intentionally. My mom told me he started smashing his face into the corners of walls, and that when she tried to feed him Friday morning, he fell over face-first into his food twice in a row, unable to control his balance enough to sit down...

If I were in his position, I'd have probably wanted to just give up too... he was always strong, and he fought this battle for months before succumbing to it... even when he lost his teeth... his vision... his stability... he kept pushing on. I don't get it... maybe if my mom had waited for me to come home that night (I was literally only 2 minutes away from catching a bus), he would've been able to "see" me one last time, so that he could rest more peacefully... and maybe I would've been too. We always sat by each other whenever we had problems. When I was upset, he used to sit next to me and paw at my face to get me to stop crying. And when he was hurt from his tooth surgery, I was the only one who soothed him enough so he could eat... he wouldn't eat for my parents at all. In those final moments, we really could've used each other for comfort one last time...

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I haven't been online in a while, mostly due to drastic attempts at catching myself back up with three weeks missed of school work... but on top of this, my cat got really sick and... it's been really hard...

Long story short, He was diagnosed with diabetes about a year ago, maybe half a year ago... cant remember... all I know is, he's struggled with balancing his blood sugar levels for a long time, and it's been a really tough battle for all of us.

In January, the vet found a bad infection in his mouth that was screwing with his levels, and he had to have surgery to remove his teeth... it would be the only way to get rid of the infection... but then he was hurting so much, he wasn't eating... I had to come home to feed him via syringe until the pain went away...

Then the vet thought he had hyperthyroidism on top of the diabetes, so she prescribed him some pills to take with his insulin... she said stabilizing this would also help to stabilize his blood sugar levels... but it didn't...

Last weekend, I came home again briefly, to take care of him. I noticed he wasn't moving much. He spent the whole night sleeping on my bed next to me, and when I called him upstairs for food, he didn't budge. I tried to pick him up and put him on the floor, thinking maybe his legs were hurting him, and he just... sat there and started crying... I didn't know what was wrong. He started walking again after I nudged him a little with my foot, but then he just stopped and didn't try again... I had to carry him upstairs and put him on the kitchen table myself, but even then he didn't eat... he didn't even look at the food... he just sat there, staring ahead....

We ended up taking him to the vet last Sunday because it turned out he had a diabetic shock, and was very weak from it... his blood sugar level was very low that morning, and I offered him food hoping it would make him feel better... he was fine at the vet's office, but... sometime after that, he apparently went blind, and couldn't make his way around anymore... he was terrified...

Thursday night, I contemplated going home to see him, thinking to comfort him again, but I ultimately decided not to go home because I knew I would have some peace to relax on Friday night for once, and I wanted to take advantage of that... but this past Friday, my mom called me as I was heading home from school, telling me that he was seizing or maybe having a stroke, and he had peed himself, and he wasn't able to walk at all... she went to rush him into the vet's office again, and they said he had blood clots that were causing him to seize... and that putting him down was our only option...


So... Im pretty hurt right now... my head is spinning, and I can't stop crying...

I've had this cat for 11 years. He was essentially a birthday gift to myself, that I got when I turned 9...

I loved him with all my heart, and Im so devastated that this had to happen this way...
I miss him so much...







-Ali

Yesterday, I had to put down my dog that I've owned since I was 10...

She was still pretty young, and should've lived for at least a few more years...

But Wednesday, the vet found a massive tumor in her spleen, and they couldn't remove it because her blood doesn't clot how it should... two days later, I had to watch her die...


really don't know how to feel right now...
the house is so empty and quiet without her...




- Ali

UPDATE: I've replaced the link to the article with a newer revised link.

This one features a short video, for those who don't feel like reading about it.


http://www.delawareonline.com/artic.....ckley-shooting



See where the caution tape is?


To the left is the house where the shooting took place.

And directly next to them, is my house.


I have already spoken to many officers, and two detectives.


They spent the night parked outside my house, to patrol the area.

At least 4 police vehicles arrived, 4 detective vans, and 2 canine units.

There was even a helicopter flying overhead, every now and then.


Im pretty safe so don't worry about me!





-Ali

Umm.
I might not be on much for a while.

I just lost a good friend of both mine and my boyfriend's (and basically his entire family)

She got into a horrible car accident last night, at around 11pm, and died immediately
The other driver lost control of his car, while speeding, and slammed into her, sending her car flipping over the rail, and into the median...

I just found out from my boyfriend, not even 3 hours ago...


damn, this just feels so surreal
we JUST spent new years with her, playing apples to apples, and having a good time
that was only three nights ago... and she spent the night with us, too...

like, I can still hear her voice in the back of my head... her laughter...

there'll be no more road trips... no more just spending time with her, out late...

she was the ONLY ONE of my bf's friends that liked me enough to fight for me
she wanted us to be together, because she knew we made each other happy
she was an artist just like me
on the inside, her personality was very similar to mine

and I knew she actually liked me


but now she's gone....



I apologize if I have flipped out on you recently,
but I am really just not in a good place right now.

I wasn't as connected to her as my bf, but I still feel like crying...

my mom just pulled up images of the wreck, and both cars were completely mangled...


eh.
Now, all that's left, is to attend her funeral, whenever that will be...


this has already been a great start to the new year.




-Ali