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Posted 12 years agoWho are you my mother?
I thought so! My mother would never be here reading my smut. Or at least I hope so!
Anyway those of you who know me know that my role at work has changed so I have been busier than normal and have had little time to do writing. I have been doing some private commissions (I totally do those and feel free to ask me about them!) which is why little stuff has been uploaded.
Well that AND my super secret project. Alas my old laptop was destroyed and with it something I had poured a month of effort into. Which put me into a real funk! Anyway I have bounced back and am now back at work creating something similar and yet somewhat different.
What is it I hear you ask? Well I've always had a deep love of video games. But my knowledge of programming is... sketchy and my artistic skill is missing so my only real ability is writing. Luckily there is one thing that it lends itself towards which is a game book.
Like fighting fantasy (http://www.fightingfantasygamebooks.com/) only with a few twists of my own. At the moment I am still planning my game book one but I have a partially finished choose your own adventure one I am going to share now, it gives you an idea of the kind of thing I am making.
I am putting this out here to kind of gauge interest and see if anyone is interested in this because as much as I love making it, it is a HUGE investment of time, far more than just writing a story would be.
So have a look and please leave me feedback, email it to me, send a courier pidgeon, put it on the clacks or reply here.
I have this up on dropbox, hopefully it'll work!
https://www.dropbox.com/s/xp9dqj0p1.....ta%20V0.5.html
Please feel free to spread it around!
I thought so! My mother would never be here reading my smut. Or at least I hope so!
Anyway those of you who know me know that my role at work has changed so I have been busier than normal and have had little time to do writing. I have been doing some private commissions (I totally do those and feel free to ask me about them!) which is why little stuff has been uploaded.
Well that AND my super secret project. Alas my old laptop was destroyed and with it something I had poured a month of effort into. Which put me into a real funk! Anyway I have bounced back and am now back at work creating something similar and yet somewhat different.
What is it I hear you ask? Well I've always had a deep love of video games. But my knowledge of programming is... sketchy and my artistic skill is missing so my only real ability is writing. Luckily there is one thing that it lends itself towards which is a game book.
Like fighting fantasy (http://www.fightingfantasygamebooks.com/) only with a few twists of my own. At the moment I am still planning my game book one but I have a partially finished choose your own adventure one I am going to share now, it gives you an idea of the kind of thing I am making.
I am putting this out here to kind of gauge interest and see if anyone is interested in this because as much as I love making it, it is a HUGE investment of time, far more than just writing a story would be.
So have a look and please leave me feedback, email it to me, send a courier pidgeon, put it on the clacks or reply here.
I have this up on dropbox, hopefully it'll work!
https://www.dropbox.com/s/xp9dqj0p1.....ta%20V0.5.html
Please feel free to spread it around!
Magazines
Posted 13 years agoOn the radio driving home today there was an article about the woman who revolutionised women's magazines, with Cosmo, in the 60's. That is pretty awesome! She had a magazine that used to be about household tips suddenly advocating the use of the pill, that women should have a career and be happy being single. t the time that was revolutionary. To me, today, the product of a fairly liberal family and schooling life it is difficult to think that at one point women were considered less than men. I know it's still not an equal playing field but at least they are on the same playing field.
This got me thinking though. There are lots of magazines out there that tell women how to be women. Some are filled with fashion tip, sex advice and so on. Others are filled with cleaning and cooking tips, how to make a budget stretch further. Others are pictures of celebrities eagerly trying to give the press just enough pictures so they remain popular without also disappearing from the public eye or having no private life at all. Womans day, cosmo, take 5.
Despite these magazines conveying very different beliefs about what a woman is or should be they do exist. Magazines purely about being a woman.
Do men have the same kinds of magazine? I know quite a few gay magazines, Blue and DNA, and there is a plethora of magazines about specialist interests from fishing to cars to computers that, while we say women are free to enjoy as much as men, have such a blokey tone it's hard to think of a woman in the context. Even Men's health is about health and fitness, even if the cover resembles Cosmo more and more only with muscle bound hunks instead of sexily made up women.
Is it then that men define themselves by their hobbies more than women? Or is it that we create ourselves in the shape of role models from TV, history and movies? Do we, in fact, not need to be told how to be men? No, that can't be it either as I know from experience in enjoying less than masculine hobbies that there is a very real understanding of what it is men do and what it is they don't (Dungeons and dragons is apparently not manly despite the fact we once beat up a dragon with the dead body of our comrade!).
Maybe as a gay, social outcast adolescent male with a somewhat absent father figure I was never shown "This is the magazine that tells you how to be a man." And maybe that's why I have arrived at the age of 28 somewhat confused about what it means to be a man?
While womens magazines argue about what a woman should be they do highlight the options. Men's magazines tend to just say "Here are some manly comics now go drink, laugh about boobs and then bitch about the woman you decided to share your life with."
Or maybe it's in the articles of Playboy? It's not like anyone ever reads that!
This got me thinking though. There are lots of magazines out there that tell women how to be women. Some are filled with fashion tip, sex advice and so on. Others are filled with cleaning and cooking tips, how to make a budget stretch further. Others are pictures of celebrities eagerly trying to give the press just enough pictures so they remain popular without also disappearing from the public eye or having no private life at all. Womans day, cosmo, take 5.
Despite these magazines conveying very different beliefs about what a woman is or should be they do exist. Magazines purely about being a woman.
Do men have the same kinds of magazine? I know quite a few gay magazines, Blue and DNA, and there is a plethora of magazines about specialist interests from fishing to cars to computers that, while we say women are free to enjoy as much as men, have such a blokey tone it's hard to think of a woman in the context. Even Men's health is about health and fitness, even if the cover resembles Cosmo more and more only with muscle bound hunks instead of sexily made up women.
Is it then that men define themselves by their hobbies more than women? Or is it that we create ourselves in the shape of role models from TV, history and movies? Do we, in fact, not need to be told how to be men? No, that can't be it either as I know from experience in enjoying less than masculine hobbies that there is a very real understanding of what it is men do and what it is they don't (Dungeons and dragons is apparently not manly despite the fact we once beat up a dragon with the dead body of our comrade!).
Maybe as a gay, social outcast adolescent male with a somewhat absent father figure I was never shown "This is the magazine that tells you how to be a man." And maybe that's why I have arrived at the age of 28 somewhat confused about what it means to be a man?
While womens magazines argue about what a woman should be they do highlight the options. Men's magazines tend to just say "Here are some manly comics now go drink, laugh about boobs and then bitch about the woman you decided to share your life with."
Or maybe it's in the articles of Playboy? It's not like anyone ever reads that!
Relationship Meme
Posted 13 years ago1. Who eats more?
Kind of a tie there.
2. Who said "I love you" first?
I did, just can't bottle that up.
3. Who is the morning person?
Him, but I am adjusting.
4. Who sings better?
Him
5. Who's older?
Me
6. Who's smarter?
Me, thugh he has a lot more common sense.
7. Whose temper is worse?
His
8. Who cries more?
Me
9. How did you meet?
A mobile phone dating ap called Growlr
10. Where are you both from?
I'm from Tasmania He's from Perth
11. Whose feet are bigger?
Mine
12. Whose hair is longer?
Mine, but his grows amazingly fast.
13. Who's better with the computer?
Me
14. Do they have pets? How about you?
His family had dogs, we don't have any pets now we are living together.
15. Do you plan on getting married?
Maybe? It's not legal yet and he doesn't see it as important.
16. Who's the most stubborn?
Him
17. Who is the first one to admit when they're wrong?
Him
18. Who asked who out?
I think I did, but it was a close thing.
19. Who's more sensitive?
Me
20. Who's taller?
Me, by like half an inch
21. Who has more friends?
Him
22. Who has more siblings?
Me
23. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
Him
Kind of a tie there.
2. Who said "I love you" first?
I did, just can't bottle that up.
3. Who is the morning person?
Him, but I am adjusting.
4. Who sings better?
Him
5. Who's older?
Me
6. Who's smarter?
Me, thugh he has a lot more common sense.
7. Whose temper is worse?
His
8. Who cries more?
Me
9. How did you meet?
A mobile phone dating ap called Growlr
10. Where are you both from?
I'm from Tasmania He's from Perth
11. Whose feet are bigger?
Mine
12. Whose hair is longer?
Mine, but his grows amazingly fast.
13. Who's better with the computer?
Me
14. Do they have pets? How about you?
His family had dogs, we don't have any pets now we are living together.
15. Do you plan on getting married?
Maybe? It's not legal yet and he doesn't see it as important.
16. Who's the most stubborn?
Him
17. Who is the first one to admit when they're wrong?
Him
18. Who asked who out?
I think I did, but it was a close thing.
19. Who's more sensitive?
Me
20. Who's taller?
Me, by like half an inch
21. Who has more friends?
Him
22. Who has more siblings?
Me
23. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
Him
It's like finding a treasure trove full of porn.
Posted 13 years agoSo this last week I was looking through my account here and on So Furry and discovered a lot of stories that I have written but haven't posted for one reason or another. So over the next few weeks I will slowly be posting up these stories and the occasion journal that has a story fragment or two in it.
Now some of them are quite old so I'm not too sure if they are really that good or not.
It would probably be a good exercise to go and look at my older stories and compare them to the stuff I am making now!
Now some of them are quite old so I'm not too sure if they are really that good or not.
It would probably be a good exercise to go and look at my older stories and compare them to the stuff I am making now!
Tales of my death...
Posted 13 years ago...have been somewhat exaggerated.
I am in fact not dead, nor have I quit the fandom in a huff, decided to quit writing, move to a different site or accept jesus as my own personal saviour.
I have in fact been bogged down by work I'm afraid, and what times I haven't been working I have been spending with my bf, which I won't apologise for. Oh and there may be some Mass Effect 3 in there somewhere too? Though since people are already bitching about the ending and I'm probably half way or a bit less through the game it shows you how little time I have had for it.
Now as for interactive friction, it is on hold at the moment although it is being put together as an actual choose your own adventure game. I grabbed some tips from some other CYOA games to give it a little more choice and consequence, although anything more would require me to learn how to code a more complicated game.
Anyway, my apologies for having been away, there will be smut again eventually, once work settles down a bit.
I am in fact not dead, nor have I quit the fandom in a huff, decided to quit writing, move to a different site or accept jesus as my own personal saviour.
I have in fact been bogged down by work I'm afraid, and what times I haven't been working I have been spending with my bf, which I won't apologise for. Oh and there may be some Mass Effect 3 in there somewhere too? Though since people are already bitching about the ending and I'm probably half way or a bit less through the game it shows you how little time I have had for it.
Now as for interactive friction, it is on hold at the moment although it is being put together as an actual choose your own adventure game. I grabbed some tips from some other CYOA games to give it a little more choice and consequence, although anything more would require me to learn how to code a more complicated game.
Anyway, my apologies for having been away, there will be smut again eventually, once work settles down a bit.
Australia Day jumps the shark - odd video
Posted 14 years agoSo this Thursday it's "Australia Day", or as some people seem to have taken to calling it "Invasion Day". To those of you not in the know it's a patriotic celebration on the day the First Fleet arrived and the British monarchy took control of the Eastern Seaboard.
It's a day off work here in Australia and there are usually fireworks and bbqs and people cranking Australian music and driving around with little Australian flags waving from the side of their cars ( http://www.perthnow.com.au/news/wes.....1bbd94060aa016 ). It's also a day a lot of us stop and listen to the top 100 songs voted in by people around Australia from the past year, which is pretty awesome even to a non musical person like me.
Anyway one odd thing about this holiday is a footballer named Sam Kekovich who apparently is famous. Not being into sports I couldn't tell you why or how or anything. What I do know is that since I was a young kid once a year he appears on our Television giving a stirring speach about what it means to be Australian (Other than living in Australia of course) and why that means we should eat lamb. It's an odd thing but it's become a tradition.
This year it's taken a rather odd turn...
http://www.youtube.com/lambaustraliaday
It would seem whatever marketing firm they use has decided "You know what's hip and down these days? Viral videos." which firstly shows that they still think hip and down are relevent and secondly kind of missed the point of viral videos.
So this video... I can't help but wonder what exactly was going through their heads really. It's not like the song was Australian to begin with, they threw in a rap for reasons I can't really recognize Mr Kekovich frankly can't hold a tune. It's trying to become viral but really just comes across as trying way to damn hard.
But hey here I am talking about it so I guess it's achieved it's purpose. Or has it? I don't feel especially tempted to go out and eat some lamb now (And i love my roast lamb).
It's a day off work here in Australia and there are usually fireworks and bbqs and people cranking Australian music and driving around with little Australian flags waving from the side of their cars ( http://www.perthnow.com.au/news/wes.....1bbd94060aa016 ). It's also a day a lot of us stop and listen to the top 100 songs voted in by people around Australia from the past year, which is pretty awesome even to a non musical person like me.
Anyway one odd thing about this holiday is a footballer named Sam Kekovich who apparently is famous. Not being into sports I couldn't tell you why or how or anything. What I do know is that since I was a young kid once a year he appears on our Television giving a stirring speach about what it means to be Australian (Other than living in Australia of course) and why that means we should eat lamb. It's an odd thing but it's become a tradition.
This year it's taken a rather odd turn...
http://www.youtube.com/lambaustraliaday
It would seem whatever marketing firm they use has decided "You know what's hip and down these days? Viral videos." which firstly shows that they still think hip and down are relevent and secondly kind of missed the point of viral videos.
So this video... I can't help but wonder what exactly was going through their heads really. It's not like the song was Australian to begin with, they threw in a rap for reasons I can't really recognize Mr Kekovich frankly can't hold a tune. It's trying to become viral but really just comes across as trying way to damn hard.
But hey here I am talking about it so I guess it's achieved it's purpose. Or has it? I don't feel especially tempted to go out and eat some lamb now (And i love my roast lamb).
Interactive Friction - A choose your own adventure.
Posted 14 years agoSo my little experiment of a choose your own adventure with you guys calling the shots is off to a pretty decent start. A big thank you to everyone who has said where they want the story to go and a thank you to those who have read it even if you didn't comment.
The long term strategy is all the choices you don't make will be made into an actually CYOA/game at a later date, so even if the story goes off on an angle you didn't anticipate you'll be able to relieve those choices by yourself!
So the first week of voting is almost up. I will be stopping reading the votes and posting the next section tomorrow at some point (Or the day after depending on time zones and such).
Anyway I did want to ask a few questions about the story.
1) Is a week too long, too short or just the right time between 'chapters'?
2) How long would you prefer the sections?
(Remember a longer section means less input from you guys!)
And PLEASE let as many people you know who might be interested in this project know about it. The more people making suggestions the more fun it'll be!
EDIT
The votes at the moment are...
Votes
A) Breakfast
9
B) Shower
8
C) Bed
1
D) Other
Slips and falls, wakes up in hospital.
Notices a bottle of odd fluid on the floor.
The long term strategy is all the choices you don't make will be made into an actually CYOA/game at a later date, so even if the story goes off on an angle you didn't anticipate you'll be able to relieve those choices by yourself!
So the first week of voting is almost up. I will be stopping reading the votes and posting the next section tomorrow at some point (Or the day after depending on time zones and such).
Anyway I did want to ask a few questions about the story.
1) Is a week too long, too short or just the right time between 'chapters'?
2) How long would you prefer the sections?
(Remember a longer section means less input from you guys!)
And PLEASE let as many people you know who might be interested in this project know about it. The more people making suggestions the more fun it'll be!
EDIT
The votes at the moment are...
Votes
A) Breakfast
9
B) Shower
8
C) Bed
1
D) Other
Slips and falls, wakes up in hospital.
Notices a bottle of odd fluid on the floor.
Birthday Coon
Posted 14 years agoIt's my birthday!
I'm turning 28!
Yeaaaah... that's about it really. Having a nice dinner or lunch with my boyfriend and then tomorrow a picnic at the movies under the stars with my friends an what family are here in Perth with me.
Also there was birthday sex.
Mmmmm....
I'm turning 28!
Yeaaaah... that's about it really. Having a nice dinner or lunch with my boyfriend and then tomorrow a picnic at the movies under the stars with my friends an what family are here in Perth with me.
Also there was birthday sex.
Mmmmm....
Happy New Year! Resolutions?
Posted 14 years agoGoodness gratious it's that time of the year again isn't it.
A bright fresh new year to completely mould how we want it.
Or you know, fuck it up beyond anything and everything we believe possible.
This year though I woke up cuddled up next to the man I love and thats a new experience for me, so I am cautiously optimistic about this year. I don't really talk about myself much on here I guess but I have never had much luck in the way of relationships. Complete losers, people who end up hurting me, people who end up becoming emotionally abussive... Not much luck at all. This guy is a very different kind of guy to the type I usually go for, he's younger than me for a start. But I DO love him, and for some odd reason he loves me back.
So here's wishing all of you out there even a measure of the happiness I have discovered.
Enough mushiness!
Resolutions!
1. Lose 40 Kilograms.
2. Be tidier around the house
3. Be better at communicating my needs and desires.
4. Put more effort into work
5. Write at least 12 short stories.
Should all be doable.
A bright fresh new year to completely mould how we want it.
Or you know, fuck it up beyond anything and everything we believe possible.
This year though I woke up cuddled up next to the man I love and thats a new experience for me, so I am cautiously optimistic about this year. I don't really talk about myself much on here I guess but I have never had much luck in the way of relationships. Complete losers, people who end up hurting me, people who end up becoming emotionally abussive... Not much luck at all. This guy is a very different kind of guy to the type I usually go for, he's younger than me for a start. But I DO love him, and for some odd reason he loves me back.
So here's wishing all of you out there even a measure of the happiness I have discovered.
Enough mushiness!
Resolutions!
1. Lose 40 Kilograms.
2. Be tidier around the house
3. Be better at communicating my needs and desires.
4. Put more effort into work
5. Write at least 12 short stories.
Should all be doable.
Smutty Comic Goodness
Posted 14 years agoHey you know that one guy 
hottapwater?
Aside from being awesome and doing amazingly hot sketchy stuff all the time he has somehow found time to do a comic.
And, surprising no one, it is amazingly hot.
Full on smutty gay orgy!
The story is, well ok, who cares about the story? Maple ends up at a sex party and smuttiness ensues, which is very well drawn. The panel layout is really good too, which is an odd thing to say about a smutty comic but there you have it. Also dicks, cum, oversized dicks, bukkake, bondage... Need I say more?
And it's $7 bucks.
That's.. a coffee and a muffin? I don't drink coffee so I don't really know...
It'd be cheap at twice the price though!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:23590497
(This has been an unpaid, unasked and possibly unwanted endorsement)
hottapwater?Aside from being awesome and doing amazingly hot sketchy stuff all the time he has somehow found time to do a comic.
And, surprising no one, it is amazingly hot.
Full on smutty gay orgy!
The story is, well ok, who cares about the story? Maple ends up at a sex party and smuttiness ensues, which is very well drawn. The panel layout is really good too, which is an odd thing to say about a smutty comic but there you have it. Also dicks, cum, oversized dicks, bukkake, bondage... Need I say more?
And it's $7 bucks.
That's.. a coffee and a muffin? I don't drink coffee so I don't really know...
It'd be cheap at twice the price though!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:23590497
(This has been an unpaid, unasked and possibly unwanted endorsement)
Werewolves fucking!
Posted 14 years agoHalloween is over but the sofurry contest isn't.
Join me as I finish off the submission am making, cutting it close!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....ZyOltw7IE/edit
Join me as I finish off the submission am making, cutting it close!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....ZyOltw7IE/edit
Interactive Friction
Posted 14 years agoTypo is intentional!
A while back (Before I started writing for real) I wrote this short chose your adventure story filled with hot orcy smut (Feel free to email me or PM me if you want a copy). It's not very good really, lots of typos and such, but I loved doing it. During my next holidays I am going to write another furry one.
HOWEVER right now I would like to wet my whistle with some interactive smut.
Each 'chapter' is a page or less so I can crank them out in no time.
So that's where you come in, all interactive like and in real time*
Here is what I need from you guys.
Main Character.
1. A) Submissive B) Dominant.
2. A) Big dick B) Normal Dick c) Small dick
3. Species. I prefer canines, bears and what not but suggest away.
4. Name: Name our brave hero!
5. Body Type:
6. Other: Suggest whatever the hell you want.
Setting
A) Modern day - School/college
B) Modern day - Business/work
C) Modern day - Party/club
D) Fantasy/historical
E) Science fiction (Double feature...)
Unless you guys make some really odd choices this will be an adult story filled with guys sucking cock, fucking ass and other activities that cause semen to ejaculate from the glans of the penis. Also please don't suggest yourself as the character, feel free to suggest the same body type and species of course but I don't want to be checking with you about how you would react and so forth.
Cross Posting this on FA, SoFurry and InkBunny because I want lots of people to join in :)
So you don't need to comment everywhere, just pick your favourite smut-site and tell me what you want.
*May not actually be in real time.
A while back (Before I started writing for real) I wrote this short chose your adventure story filled with hot orcy smut (Feel free to email me or PM me if you want a copy). It's not very good really, lots of typos and such, but I loved doing it. During my next holidays I am going to write another furry one.
HOWEVER right now I would like to wet my whistle with some interactive smut.
Each 'chapter' is a page or less so I can crank them out in no time.
So that's where you come in, all interactive like and in real time*
Here is what I need from you guys.
Main Character.
1. A) Submissive B) Dominant.
2. A) Big dick B) Normal Dick c) Small dick
3. Species. I prefer canines, bears and what not but suggest away.
4. Name: Name our brave hero!
5. Body Type:
6. Other: Suggest whatever the hell you want.
Setting
A) Modern day - School/college
B) Modern day - Business/work
C) Modern day - Party/club
D) Fantasy/historical
E) Science fiction (Double feature...)
Unless you guys make some really odd choices this will be an adult story filled with guys sucking cock, fucking ass and other activities that cause semen to ejaculate from the glans of the penis. Also please don't suggest yourself as the character, feel free to suggest the same body type and species of course but I don't want to be checking with you about how you would react and so forth.
Cross Posting this on FA, SoFurry and InkBunny because I want lots of people to join in :)
So you don't need to comment everywhere, just pick your favourite smut-site and tell me what you want.
*May not actually be in real time.
Artist/Writer Identification
Posted 14 years ago- What sort of artist would you most identify yourself as? -
Smut Provider...
Writer
- What would be your secondary identity? -
Peter Parker...
No that's taken.
Um, critic?
- What forms of art do you dabble in, but don't excel at? (Keep in mind, this could change!) -
I'm not sure if it counts as art but I make d&d campaigns and run them....
- How would you describe your 'style'? -
SMUTTY!
Generally it's masturbation fuel, very sense driven and set in more or less the real world. Anthromorphic of course. I favour a third person POV but there is a lot to be said for a first person, you can really get into their minds. Oh yeah, my stuff is character driven, not plot driven.
- What medium do you favor most? -
English!
I tend to use google docs though.
- What are your favorite subject matters? -
Role reversal, contrast, size difference, love and sex as separate equals, bear cocks, wolfs.
- What are your least favorite subject matters? -
Unnecessary sequels, Vanilla romance,
- List your Artistic Strengths -
Conveying sexiness, metaphor, hyperbole, thumbnail character development, dark humour. Dialogue
- List your Artistic Weaknesses -
Plot development, short, snappy sentences, run on sentences.
- Which of the above weaknesses would you most like to see improve? -
Plot development.
- Adult Content. . . yes/no? -
Every time i make a word cloud of my stories several different words for cock comes up so yes.
My stories are filled with thick, throbbing and usually dripping penises.
Ready.
Waiting.
- Adult Subject Matter you favor? -
Gay male.
In particular bearish or chubbish guys with thick uncut cocks, or nerdy guys or.. well usually anything but stereotypical twinks (Not that i have anything against them, but two twinks doesn't do it for me, gotta be a twink and a bear or something...)
- Schooling/Training received in the arts? -
High School english, I do have two degrees but they aren't in writing.
Also I read.
A lot.
Mainly fantasy and previously sci-fi. Nowadays though I lean towards graphic novels or stuff that is right on the edge of genre fiction. The more self aware the text is the better.
- Schooling/Training you'd still like to have? -
Alchemy, spell casting, summoning...
Oh wait, real stuff? I guess i'd like to learn another language.
I don't know if formal writing training would suit me...
- Would you consider yourself prolific, or a 'quality over quantity' sort of artist? -
I write smut, I am proud of that smut and I consider it good smut. I think I've written no small amount in the year and a bit I've been writing but I'm not hugely active.
- Would you considering yourself a Fine Artist, or a Commercial Artist? -
I have been paid for some of my stuff, though not yet published.
I'm definitely not a literary writer and honestly don't like books that are in general (exceptions are of course there but still)
- Where would you like to be in five years? -
England or Melbourne maybe.
Writing on the side only though. While in the long run I would love to work on a book that won't be for a while. I still have so much to learn!
Plus I don't know if I could put together a book of smut.
Maybe a perversion of fairy tales...
Smut Provider...
Writer
- What would be your secondary identity? -
Peter Parker...
No that's taken.
Um, critic?
- What forms of art do you dabble in, but don't excel at? (Keep in mind, this could change!) -
I'm not sure if it counts as art but I make d&d campaigns and run them....
- How would you describe your 'style'? -
SMUTTY!
Generally it's masturbation fuel, very sense driven and set in more or less the real world. Anthromorphic of course. I favour a third person POV but there is a lot to be said for a first person, you can really get into their minds. Oh yeah, my stuff is character driven, not plot driven.
- What medium do you favor most? -
English!
I tend to use google docs though.
- What are your favorite subject matters? -
Role reversal, contrast, size difference, love and sex as separate equals, bear cocks, wolfs.
- What are your least favorite subject matters? -
Unnecessary sequels, Vanilla romance,
- List your Artistic Strengths -
Conveying sexiness, metaphor, hyperbole, thumbnail character development, dark humour. Dialogue
- List your Artistic Weaknesses -
Plot development, short, snappy sentences, run on sentences.
- Which of the above weaknesses would you most like to see improve? -
Plot development.
- Adult Content. . . yes/no? -
Every time i make a word cloud of my stories several different words for cock comes up so yes.
My stories are filled with thick, throbbing and usually dripping penises.
Ready.
Waiting.
- Adult Subject Matter you favor? -
Gay male.
In particular bearish or chubbish guys with thick uncut cocks, or nerdy guys or.. well usually anything but stereotypical twinks (Not that i have anything against them, but two twinks doesn't do it for me, gotta be a twink and a bear or something...)
- Schooling/Training received in the arts? -
High School english, I do have two degrees but they aren't in writing.
Also I read.
A lot.
Mainly fantasy and previously sci-fi. Nowadays though I lean towards graphic novels or stuff that is right on the edge of genre fiction. The more self aware the text is the better.
- Schooling/Training you'd still like to have? -
Alchemy, spell casting, summoning...
Oh wait, real stuff? I guess i'd like to learn another language.
I don't know if formal writing training would suit me...
- Would you consider yourself prolific, or a 'quality over quantity' sort of artist? -
I write smut, I am proud of that smut and I consider it good smut. I think I've written no small amount in the year and a bit I've been writing but I'm not hugely active.
- Would you considering yourself a Fine Artist, or a Commercial Artist? -
I have been paid for some of my stuff, though not yet published.
I'm definitely not a literary writer and honestly don't like books that are in general (exceptions are of course there but still)
- Where would you like to be in five years? -
England or Melbourne maybe.
Writing on the side only though. While in the long run I would love to work on a book that won't be for a while. I still have so much to learn!
Plus I don't know if I could put together a book of smut.
Maybe a perversion of fairy tales...
What do you find SEXAY?
Posted 14 years agoSo the amazing 
toonces did this and then added everything u to give an idea of what his audience finds hot. Or maybe he did it for other nefarious purposes!
We are on to you Mr Driving cat!
Regardless since I copy anything and steal anything (Raccoon remember) I thought I'd ask you guys what you think is hot!
[x] = Hot
[ ] = Not
Straight Guys [ ]
Flamboyant Guys [ ]
Bears [ ]
Chubs [ ]
Twinks [ ]
Girly Bois [ ]
Jocks [ ]
Bros [ ]
Nerds [ ]
Clubbers/Scenesters [ ]
Tall Fellas [ ]
Short Fellas [ ]
Dominant Fellas [ ]
Subby Fellas [ ]
Professors [ ]
Policepersons [ ]
Firepersons [ ]
Doctors [ ]
Businesspersons [ ]
Soldiers [ ]
Older Guys [ ]
Barely Legal Guys [ ]
Prey Species [ ]
Predator Species [ ]
Guys With Big Wangs [ ]
Guys With Little Pecker [ ]
Guys With Skin (Uncircumcised)[ ]
Cut guys (Circumcised) [ ]
I'm a furry so I like sheaths [ ]
HOT, OTHER: ___________________
toonces did this and then added everything u to give an idea of what his audience finds hot. Or maybe he did it for other nefarious purposes!We are on to you Mr Driving cat!
Regardless since I copy anything and steal anything (Raccoon remember) I thought I'd ask you guys what you think is hot!
[x] = Hot
[ ] = Not
Straight Guys [ ]
Flamboyant Guys [ ]
Bears [ ]
Chubs [ ]
Twinks [ ]
Girly Bois [ ]
Jocks [ ]
Bros [ ]
Nerds [ ]
Clubbers/Scenesters [ ]
Tall Fellas [ ]
Short Fellas [ ]
Dominant Fellas [ ]
Subby Fellas [ ]
Professors [ ]
Policepersons [ ]
Firepersons [ ]
Doctors [ ]
Businesspersons [ ]
Soldiers [ ]
Older Guys [ ]
Barely Legal Guys [ ]
Prey Species [ ]
Predator Species [ ]
Guys With Big Wangs [ ]
Guys With Little Pecker [ ]
Guys With Skin (Uncircumcised)[ ]
Cut guys (Circumcised) [ ]
I'm a furry so I like sheaths [ ]
HOT, OTHER: ___________________
Surprise! I'm a huge geek so... Video Game Meme
Posted 14 years ago z1) What was your FIRST video game console?
The Atari XE Game system
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Atari_XEGS.jpg
2) Name a few games you played on said console.
Oh god... Missle commander, pitfall harry two, archon and Druid.
3) Excluding handhelds, how many VG consoles do you own presently?
Three, PS2 and 3 and the Xbox 360 (On loan to a frend)
4) Were you a Street Fighter nut? Any character in particular?
Nope, though when i did play I liked Sakura or Ryu.
5) Do you think Capcom is a FUCKING awesome company?
I used to, but these days they just don't seem to care about their audience any more. Especially with the megaman legends 3 being cancelled and a death of the breath of fire franchise.
6) Here's the scenario.. You had some friends over and you all ate MCDONALDS After the meal you all decide to play some video games. As your friend reaches for a controller you notice his/her hands are very "greasy." Are you the type that would insist they wash their hands before pawing the controller, or is it no big deal?
Wash their hands, most of my friends are good like that though.
7) What's your favorite RPG/Action RPG? I will allow a second and third fave if you insist.
Shadow Hearts:covenent
Persona 3 or 4
FFX
8) Do you prefer 2D games or 3D games?
No real preference, you can make good games out of either.
9) Are you an SNK fan?
No.
9) Are you good at DDR?
Nope.
10) Who wants to kick that dog's ass from Duck Hunt?
Damn snickering hound!
11) Have you skipped out on important events in life because of video games?
No.
12) Do you listen to video game music?
Yes.
13) Have you ever cosplayed a VG character?
No, but i'd like to.
14) Have you ever been in an arcade playing a fighting game, KICKING ASS, and then some 6 year old asian kid comes in and OWNS YOU??
Well he was ten and i was 14 but yeah.
15) Name three games you would love to see remakes of if it was done properly.
Indiana Jones and the Fate of Atlantis.
FF6 in full 3d.
Deus Ex
16) Mario or Sonic?
neither.
17) When a movie shows up in the theaters, let's use Spider-man as an example, are you likely to buy the GAME version?
I am more likely to actively avoid it!
18) What is your LEAST favorite genre of video games? (ex. fighting, sports, shooters, etc.)
Sports.
19) Is there a game out there that you feel was unique and didn't get enough love?
Earthbound, especially since Mother 3 never got an American release. I know they are very popular in their niches but they just should have been more popular overall.
20) Have you ever verbally abused a game because you couldn't beat one of the levels and/or bosses?
Oh god yes, but not to the point of throwing controllers.
21) Do you own any VG apparel?
Nope.
22) What are your thoughts on the live-action Super Mario Bros movie?
I only saw it as a kid and though it was awful. Gotta rewatch it as an adult.
23) On that note, what did you think about the live-action Street Fighter
Which one? Then again i haven't seen any of them.
24) Who's hottest out of the KOF chicks?
I wouldn't have a clue.
25) Do you say "old-school" a lot when you're having a VG conversation with others?
Not enough that's common but enough that i can't say no.
26) Have you ever lent someone a game and they returned it to you damaged?
Nope.
27) Do you own any imported games?
Most of my DS games are imported.
28) Are you ready for this meme to be over, or could you keep going?
Yeah, wrap it up. Also, I hate stupid meta questions like this, it's pointless.
29) In this scenario, let's pretend you're going to get a video game tattoo! What would you get and where? (This can be simple or elaborate.)
Not sure what to be honest, no one thing about gaming has really stood out as permanent. Maybe the fall-out guy. It'd be on my upper arm either way.
30) Have you ever cried after you beat a game? If so why?
Not from finishing it, no. I have cried at events that happened in it.
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The Atari XE Game system
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Atari_XEGS.jpg
2) Name a few games you played on said console.
Oh god... Missle commander, pitfall harry two, archon and Druid.
3) Excluding handhelds, how many VG consoles do you own presently?
Three, PS2 and 3 and the Xbox 360 (On loan to a frend)
4) Were you a Street Fighter nut? Any character in particular?
Nope, though when i did play I liked Sakura or Ryu.
5) Do you think Capcom is a FUCKING awesome company?
I used to, but these days they just don't seem to care about their audience any more. Especially with the megaman legends 3 being cancelled and a death of the breath of fire franchise.
6) Here's the scenario.. You had some friends over and you all ate MCDONALDS After the meal you all decide to play some video games. As your friend reaches for a controller you notice his/her hands are very "greasy." Are you the type that would insist they wash their hands before pawing the controller, or is it no big deal?
Wash their hands, most of my friends are good like that though.
7) What's your favorite RPG/Action RPG? I will allow a second and third fave if you insist.
Shadow Hearts:covenent
Persona 3 or 4
FFX
8) Do you prefer 2D games or 3D games?
No real preference, you can make good games out of either.
9) Are you an SNK fan?
No.
9) Are you good at DDR?
Nope.
10) Who wants to kick that dog's ass from Duck Hunt?
Damn snickering hound!
11) Have you skipped out on important events in life because of video games?
No.
12) Do you listen to video game music?
Yes.
13) Have you ever cosplayed a VG character?
No, but i'd like to.
14) Have you ever been in an arcade playing a fighting game, KICKING ASS, and then some 6 year old asian kid comes in and OWNS YOU??
Well he was ten and i was 14 but yeah.
15) Name three games you would love to see remakes of if it was done properly.
Indiana Jones and the Fate of Atlantis.
FF6 in full 3d.
Deus Ex
16) Mario or Sonic?
neither.
17) When a movie shows up in the theaters, let's use Spider-man as an example, are you likely to buy the GAME version?
I am more likely to actively avoid it!
18) What is your LEAST favorite genre of video games? (ex. fighting, sports, shooters, etc.)
Sports.
19) Is there a game out there that you feel was unique and didn't get enough love?
Earthbound, especially since Mother 3 never got an American release. I know they are very popular in their niches but they just should have been more popular overall.
20) Have you ever verbally abused a game because you couldn't beat one of the levels and/or bosses?
Oh god yes, but not to the point of throwing controllers.
21) Do you own any VG apparel?
Nope.
22) What are your thoughts on the live-action Super Mario Bros movie?
I only saw it as a kid and though it was awful. Gotta rewatch it as an adult.
23) On that note, what did you think about the live-action Street Fighter
Which one? Then again i haven't seen any of them.
24) Who's hottest out of the KOF chicks?
I wouldn't have a clue.
25) Do you say "old-school" a lot when you're having a VG conversation with others?
Not enough that's common but enough that i can't say no.
26) Have you ever lent someone a game and they returned it to you damaged?
Nope.
27) Do you own any imported games?
Most of my DS games are imported.
28) Are you ready for this meme to be over, or could you keep going?
Yeah, wrap it up. Also, I hate stupid meta questions like this, it's pointless.
29) In this scenario, let's pretend you're going to get a video game tattoo! What would you get and where? (This can be simple or elaborate.)
Not sure what to be honest, no one thing about gaming has really stood out as permanent. Maybe the fall-out guy. It'd be on my upper arm either way.
30) Have you ever cried after you beat a game? If so why?
Not from finishing it, no. I have cried at events that happened in it.
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Fang
Posted 14 years agoSo I just finished and submitted a story I cobbled together for Fang.
The theme was "Best Enemy" and I think I did some interesting things with it.
It's about Secret Agent Spy Agent Paw and his ongoing fight against the vilanous forces of Winter's Wrath, an ongoing battle across continents and decades and... well thats all I can say really :)
If it doesn't get published I'll have to do something else with it...
The theme was "Best Enemy" and I think I did some interesting things with it.
It's about Secret Agent Spy Agent Paw and his ongoing fight against the vilanous forces of Winter's Wrath, an ongoing battle across continents and decades and... well thats all I can say really :)
If it doesn't get published I'll have to do something else with it...
Do you like big sexy bears?
Posted 14 years agoBig sex bears with long, uncut throbbing cocks? Pre oozing from the end, low hanging balls ready to just pump their seed into an unsuspecting frat bears ass leaving him moaning and questioning just how straight he is?
If you're like me then the answer to the above is "Yes. Hell Yes. Fuck yes, quit teasing me already!"
So you should get Atomicboyx's amazingly hot bear comic. The guys are just... sex on leg, the scenarios are hot as hell and, well, BEARS!
PLUS!
It's only ten bucks for both comics and the portfolio of bears to go with it.
I paid way more than that for it and still don't feel ripped off.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2833248/
(Chances are following me your into big chunkily muscley bears with uncut dongs, if not I will be honest and say the comics not your cup of tea!)
If you're like me then the answer to the above is "Yes. Hell Yes. Fuck yes, quit teasing me already!"
So you should get Atomicboyx's amazingly hot bear comic. The guys are just... sex on leg, the scenarios are hot as hell and, well, BEARS!
PLUS!
It's only ten bucks for both comics and the portfolio of bears to go with it.
I paid way more than that for it and still don't feel ripped off.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2833248/
(Chances are following me your into big chunkily muscley bears with uncut dongs, if not I will be honest and say the comics not your cup of tea!)
Back to the drawing board....
Posted 14 years agoLong story short, the story I submitted for Heat this year was declined :/
Ask me stuff, anything and everything that comes to mind.
Posted 14 years agoWell since we're all just stuck here twiddling our thumbs while we wait for FA to come out of silent running I thought (Along with a whole bunch of other people) That I would let people ask me whatever they wanted.
Streaming and what not
Posted 14 years agoSo with my last story wrote it while using the google docs talking thing and while it was cool to see people coming in while I was laying down all those faptastic words you love no one even said hello :(
So would anyone actually be interested in me setting up a proper livestream and streaming my writing through there? Or is writing just so dull (or just so awkward given the content) that no one is interested?
Oh, the story I wrote while streaming is called "Need" and is in my gallery. If you were one of those people who say it half done or even fully done and liked it please remember to +fave it. +faving is like giving your author a nice big hug.
REMEMBER!
If you fapped to it, you +fave it!
So would anyone actually be interested in me setting up a proper livestream and streaming my writing through there? Or is writing just so dull (or just so awkward given the content) that no one is interested?
Oh, the story I wrote while streaming is called "Need" and is in my gallery. If you were one of those people who say it half done or even fully done and liked it please remember to +fave it. +faving is like giving your author a nice big hug.
REMEMBER!
If you fapped to it, you +fave it!
Frat House Blues
Posted 14 years agoSo if you are following me there is a chance that something in the following may appeal to you...
- Bears
- Straight(HA!) men turned gay
- Uncut cocks
- "Comfy" bodies (Chubby without being actually fat)
- Hot, sweaty, masculine sex.
So if the things above DO appeal to you and you have anywhere between $5-$25 to spare you should pick up the Frat House Blues from :atomicboyx: because, well it's hot. Trust me!
And why am I saying this?
he hypno cock told me to!
ALL GLORY TO THE HYPNOCOCK!
- Bears
- Straight(HA!) men turned gay
- Uncut cocks
- "Comfy" bodies (Chubby without being actually fat)
- Hot, sweaty, masculine sex.
So if the things above DO appeal to you and you have anywhere between $5-$25 to spare you should pick up the Frat House Blues from :atomicboyx: because, well it's hot. Trust me!
And why am I saying this?
he hypno cock told me to!
ALL GLORY TO THE HYPNOCOCK!
Let's talk about sex, baby.
Posted 14 years agoLet's talk about you and me!
Let's talk about all the good things and the bad things there can be.
Let's talk about penetrative sex.
In the world of porn sex is all about the penetration. The vast majority of what you see has one guy penetrating his partner either anally or vaginally (I love that word!). In stories, comics and other story telling mediums everything is this build up to the point where they actually fuck.
So I'm just curious to know. Who thinks good sex has to contain penetrative sex?
Let's talk about all the good things and the bad things there can be.
Let's talk about penetrative sex.
In the world of porn sex is all about the penetration. The vast majority of what you see has one guy penetrating his partner either anally or vaginally (I love that word!). In stories, comics and other story telling mediums everything is this build up to the point where they actually fuck.
So I'm just curious to know. Who thinks good sex has to contain penetrative sex?
Free porn
Posted 14 years agoWant some free porn?
Of course you do! Handsome chap like you.
So how do you get it?
Just leave a comment here of what species/ character you want and a basic idea.
Like "Wolf having a blow job" or "Koala watching his best friend paw off".
The better the idea the more likely it is I'll pick yours.
Hang on, hang on. The catch?
Well it's going to be a short and nasty style story like "Fathers Day"
A sketch kind of thing.
Of course you do! Handsome chap like you.
So how do you get it?
Just leave a comment here of what species/ character you want and a basic idea.
Like "Wolf having a blow job" or "Koala watching his best friend paw off".
The better the idea the more likely it is I'll pick yours.
Hang on, hang on. The catch?
Well it's going to be a short and nasty style story like "Fathers Day"
A sketch kind of thing.
Fathers day
Posted 14 years agoThis is just a short story for fathers day, not worth adding to my gallery and nothing to do with me in real life.
Also I should point ot it's Fathers day in Australia :P
My current man used to be married, never had kids though. His wife passed away due to complications in child birth and the kids never made it either. This was over ten years ago now since then he's dated other women, dated dudes, dated me and decided of the three he liked me the best.
I don't exactly know how it happened but fathers day ended up as a little ritual for us. While he's still asleep I slip out of bed and cook him breakfast, something simple, eggs, bacon, fried tomatoes, toast. Once that's done I shower and then put on panties and a bra. No other day of the year will I cross dress, no other day of the year does he want me to cross dress. If he wanted a woman we'd invite a woman to share our bed. Just on this one day though...
I dab my wrists, my neck, my groin and my tail with perfume. Her perfume, the scent his wife always used to wear. Then with the breakfast tray, a stuffed bra and panties I enter the room.
He's never once been asleep since the very first time I did it. He's never once, not even that first time, eat the breakfast and yet the one time we did it without the breakfast it just wasn't the same.
The moment i'm in the room he's on me, grabbing the tray and tearing it away, dropping it to the floor as he pins me against the wall. He bites my neck with a passion I get jealous of sometimes when our love making becomes routine and formulaic. Despite the fact I know exactly how this morning will go it never feels routine.
His hands grip me by the waist as he continues to hungrily work away at my shoulder and neck, his huffing and panting just adding to the pleasure. He's already nude, his thick wolf cock stabbing my leg then rubbing against the panties leaving a trail of his sticky pre seed over my thigh and then the thin fabric of the womens underwear that turns him on so.
I play the part of his 'wife' well. I shiver, gasp, moan and grind back against him. I assure you it requires no acting on my behalf and as happy as I am being a man, as much as I will enjoy pressing him down on all fours and burying myself between his slightly too ample ass cheeks tonight, right now for the next hour I will regret not being born a woman.
His muzzle descends as I knew it would and it nestles between the cups of my stuffed bra. His paws caress the satiny fabric and we both know they are fake. Neither of us care. I arch my body as though they were mine and he growls and humps against my leg, his cock grinding along my inner thing and prodding my balls at the top of every thrust.
Then he pulls away and pulls me with him. I don't resist even though I could and then seconds later he presses me over the bed, my knees inches from the floor and my feet scrabbling to try and hold myself up.
He doesn't even pause, he just presses apart my legs and then slaps my ass with his cock. I bark out and moan and grind against the bed and he just keeps slapping. I feel his impressive dick getting thicker, longer, and i know that his knot is forming. Then he grinds it along my crack, against the flimsy material of the woman's undies and the warmth of my ass. I can feel it, every last inch.
My husband isn't huge, I'm bigger than he is. He has enough to make me gasp though, enough to make me wince if he doesn't spent time spreading me open, and this morning he wouldn't do anything like that. I feel his breath along my neck as he undoes the bra and hurls it away. His fingers cross my chest and squeeze my pecs, tease my nipples, it doesn't do anything for me physically but i moan and whimper all the same because thats what she would have done.
Then his paws are gone and his weight is off me. I look back but he won't make eye contact. His eyes are fixed on my rump as he eases down the fabric. My dick springs free and grinds against the bed but he ignores it. I look at his dick and wince a little. It never gets that big by itself normally, never that hard. Usually he can fuck me for a good five minutes before his knot forms but every fathers day it forms before he even gets in.
The first time we made love I was on top, i was slow, gentle, loving. Afterwards he told me no man had ever actually made love to him before, they'd just fucked him. Then he repayed the favour. This morning would be nothing like that night.
He spread my cheeks wide and then using only his hips he ground the tip against me. The only lube is his pre and despite the fact he's oozing like a hose it's painful. I wince and whimper and he strokes along my back soothingly. He whispers his ex-wifes name as he eases in, as he pushes inch after inch in.
Finally I feel the bulge of his knot. He never usually ties with me because, well, in his words "Knots are for women, they're built for it.". I was born knotless myself so I've never had to hold back, i admire the fact he does normally.
I scream out a little, it unmanly but it does really hurt. He jiggles his dick left and right, trying to ease it into me and then almost like an accident it slips in. I bit down on the sheets as he gives this deep guttural grunt. Truth be told if he wanted to if he'd make that noise any other time, i'd let him tie me whenever, but no it's only this morning.
He doesn't ever last long. A minute maybe. His body thrusting fast, hard, his paws roaming my back and his voice drawling out all those little dirty things you say. My ears burn as he calls his wife a whore, a slut, that she likes his dick. All those things apply to me too of course but it's not me he's talking too.
His knot swells and I feel the heat of his jizz flow through me despite knowing better. He howls and grinds himself against me and i squeeze down around him until he collapses ontop of me. A moment later he starts snoring. And that's our fathers day, not very typical but my husband loves it.
Also I should point ot it's Fathers day in Australia :P
My current man used to be married, never had kids though. His wife passed away due to complications in child birth and the kids never made it either. This was over ten years ago now since then he's dated other women, dated dudes, dated me and decided of the three he liked me the best.
I don't exactly know how it happened but fathers day ended up as a little ritual for us. While he's still asleep I slip out of bed and cook him breakfast, something simple, eggs, bacon, fried tomatoes, toast. Once that's done I shower and then put on panties and a bra. No other day of the year will I cross dress, no other day of the year does he want me to cross dress. If he wanted a woman we'd invite a woman to share our bed. Just on this one day though...
I dab my wrists, my neck, my groin and my tail with perfume. Her perfume, the scent his wife always used to wear. Then with the breakfast tray, a stuffed bra and panties I enter the room.
He's never once been asleep since the very first time I did it. He's never once, not even that first time, eat the breakfast and yet the one time we did it without the breakfast it just wasn't the same.
The moment i'm in the room he's on me, grabbing the tray and tearing it away, dropping it to the floor as he pins me against the wall. He bites my neck with a passion I get jealous of sometimes when our love making becomes routine and formulaic. Despite the fact I know exactly how this morning will go it never feels routine.
His hands grip me by the waist as he continues to hungrily work away at my shoulder and neck, his huffing and panting just adding to the pleasure. He's already nude, his thick wolf cock stabbing my leg then rubbing against the panties leaving a trail of his sticky pre seed over my thigh and then the thin fabric of the womens underwear that turns him on so.
I play the part of his 'wife' well. I shiver, gasp, moan and grind back against him. I assure you it requires no acting on my behalf and as happy as I am being a man, as much as I will enjoy pressing him down on all fours and burying myself between his slightly too ample ass cheeks tonight, right now for the next hour I will regret not being born a woman.
His muzzle descends as I knew it would and it nestles between the cups of my stuffed bra. His paws caress the satiny fabric and we both know they are fake. Neither of us care. I arch my body as though they were mine and he growls and humps against my leg, his cock grinding along my inner thing and prodding my balls at the top of every thrust.
Then he pulls away and pulls me with him. I don't resist even though I could and then seconds later he presses me over the bed, my knees inches from the floor and my feet scrabbling to try and hold myself up.
He doesn't even pause, he just presses apart my legs and then slaps my ass with his cock. I bark out and moan and grind against the bed and he just keeps slapping. I feel his impressive dick getting thicker, longer, and i know that his knot is forming. Then he grinds it along my crack, against the flimsy material of the woman's undies and the warmth of my ass. I can feel it, every last inch.
My husband isn't huge, I'm bigger than he is. He has enough to make me gasp though, enough to make me wince if he doesn't spent time spreading me open, and this morning he wouldn't do anything like that. I feel his breath along my neck as he undoes the bra and hurls it away. His fingers cross my chest and squeeze my pecs, tease my nipples, it doesn't do anything for me physically but i moan and whimper all the same because thats what she would have done.
Then his paws are gone and his weight is off me. I look back but he won't make eye contact. His eyes are fixed on my rump as he eases down the fabric. My dick springs free and grinds against the bed but he ignores it. I look at his dick and wince a little. It never gets that big by itself normally, never that hard. Usually he can fuck me for a good five minutes before his knot forms but every fathers day it forms before he even gets in.
The first time we made love I was on top, i was slow, gentle, loving. Afterwards he told me no man had ever actually made love to him before, they'd just fucked him. Then he repayed the favour. This morning would be nothing like that night.
He spread my cheeks wide and then using only his hips he ground the tip against me. The only lube is his pre and despite the fact he's oozing like a hose it's painful. I wince and whimper and he strokes along my back soothingly. He whispers his ex-wifes name as he eases in, as he pushes inch after inch in.
Finally I feel the bulge of his knot. He never usually ties with me because, well, in his words "Knots are for women, they're built for it.". I was born knotless myself so I've never had to hold back, i admire the fact he does normally.
I scream out a little, it unmanly but it does really hurt. He jiggles his dick left and right, trying to ease it into me and then almost like an accident it slips in. I bit down on the sheets as he gives this deep guttural grunt. Truth be told if he wanted to if he'd make that noise any other time, i'd let him tie me whenever, but no it's only this morning.
He doesn't ever last long. A minute maybe. His body thrusting fast, hard, his paws roaming my back and his voice drawling out all those little dirty things you say. My ears burn as he calls his wife a whore, a slut, that she likes his dick. All those things apply to me too of course but it's not me he's talking too.
His knot swells and I feel the heat of his jizz flow through me despite knowing better. He howls and grinds himself against me and i squeeze down around him until he collapses ontop of me. A moment later he starts snoring. And that's our fathers day, not very typical but my husband loves it.
Reflections
Posted 14 years agoJust be forewarned this is kinda long, very self indulgent and probably not very interesting unless you know me personally or want to know me personally.
Appart from spelling mistakes I didn’t use the backspace key while writing this, I had something to get out and I got it out, very VERY flow of thoughts.
I need to put this down into words as something theraputic or I’ll burst. I’m an introvert, I’m well aware of the fact I keep my feelings locked up inside of me. Usually that’s fine, I can deal with that, I like, I enjoy, pondering about myself. I guess that sounds a bit egotistical but I also liking pondering other people.
Anyway, lately I’ve been feeling.. Sore, disconnected. I’ve been depressed before, I know what it’s like and this is different. I think because there time there was a definite trigger, something that made me go along this path.
So I was dating someone. Is that the right term for someone you have an online relationship with? It lasted over two years by my reckoning but then the start date was always a bit blurry and the end date the same.
Anyway he was wonderful, sweet, loving, kind, wickedly sinful where it counted. I loved him, i still love him and as trite as it sounds a part of me always will. Anyway I ended up moving, not to be with him but back to a place more like home than Port Hedland had even been, Perth. And where I moved to had no Internet for ages and things got.. strained. And he got asked out by someone close to him. As in physical close.
How was I supposed to stop him from being happy like that? So I told him he could if he wanted to and he did and.. and they;re together now happily. And I was the guy on the side or the other guy or.. I don’t know, sometimes I felt like nothing had changed and other times...
Then locally I met this nice guy called Daniel. We chatted a bit, got along great and one of us asked the other out, I forget if he asked or if I asked but that’s how it went. He was cute but not my usual type. skinny, geeky, glasses wearing, skinny little guy. We got along really well, ended up kissing at the end of the date, both us wanted to go back to my place but both of us also wanted to wait so we did.
Anyway things went slowly, almost painfully slowly. The next date was just an outing in the city, ended in a kiss. The one after that was another outing. All during this he was applying for jobs on the otherside of the country and then he got one.
But we decided to keep going, see where things would go. I asked him out for dinner, a movie and then back to my place for the obvious. Now for those of you who don’t know me thats kind of a big deal. I’ve had casual sex before, it’s not big thing (Hur hur) but it’s not something I really enjoy, just a kind of release. Where as being intimate with someone whom I think is special is a pretty big deal for me.
I don’t talk about it much but my relationship history has not been a standard one, when it has existed it’s been complicated or with people who were, frankly, emotionally abusive. Never physically, I’m smart enough that I wouldn’t have stuck out those, but emotional abuse is somehow harder to pick up on, even if everyone around you can see it.
I was ready though, I liked this guy. It was a big deal. In additional to being all emotionally retarded (In the terms of stunted here, so you know the real term) i’m also very sensitive about my looks, more so my size. *coughs* both sizes to be delicate about it. I worked through that though, got my room nice and set up, fresh sheets, dim light bulb, less romantically but practically lube and condoms.
We see Transformers 3, it’s all kinds of awfully awesome. The movie finishes and he seems all awkward. I thought it was because of him coming back to my place, it was going to be his first relationship as well you see. Instead he says we should go get food. And on the way there he saws we should talk about our where our relationship is going.
And I shit you not it starts to rain. Could things get any more stereotypical than that?
Of course at this point It all clicks together, why he’d been so awkward, why he hadn’t held my hand in the movies. Part of me expected it, I won’t lie. He had a couple of months until he left and worked nights, was flying over to Canberra for interviews all the time, he had very little time to try and form this relationship with me, especially one that would need to last long distance or see me relocate.
And he was so fucking nice about it. He bought me dinner and said it was the least he could do, kept saying what a nice guy i was, how awful he felt about having to do this, how i was better than being dicked around like this. Which is of course some kind of tragic joke since until him no one had shown the slightest romantic interest in me in real life in years. Seven years to be exact and that.. that ended up being more of a construct of my own mind than anything real and meaningful as well.
And so I’ve kept it all kind of trapped in because well. I’m the funny guy, the happy, peaceful relaxed guy who you go to to vent or when your worried or upset or if you need advice. I’m not used to being the one who needs help or needs to vent.
Besides what do I say? “Oh hey this guy who i saw like 4 times over a couple of weeks shot me down in the best way possible?” But it’s not just that, it’s like the shock of both relationships have kind of amplified each other, that emotional intimacy of the long distance relationship which had been there for me for so long was gone and suddenly so to was this new unfamiliar local relationship.
It’s hard for me to be as open as that and I wish it wasn’t, i really do. But i feel awkward and self conscious sharing my personal feelings like that, like someones going to laugh or say something stupid like “It’ll get better” “plenty more fish in the sea”. I know this, of course I do, it doesn’t mean I feel that way or believe it yet.
So now.. now.. Now sometimes seeing a loving couple together gets me depressed or, worse, makes me angry, jealous. Other times i’m completely fine. Sometimes I can’t continue to read a book because I know where it’s going and I know i’m not strong enough to deal with that, not yet anyway. Other times I can read it and appreciate it fr what it is, without projecting my own fucked-upedness into the novel.
And I’m lost. I don’t know where I am, I don’t know where I need to go, don’t know where I want to go either really. I don’t have a point to tell me where I am or to guide me, and that’s crushing me, dragging me down. So i just keep going, day in, day out, not caring in the slightest about what happens to me. Well no, that melodramatic, I eat, bathe, sleep (although not as much, I don’t want to dream any more) I function as far as the world is concerned anyway.
I’m damaged, soul hurt, and I have no real idea how long it will last for, how long until i’m willing or even, well, ABLE to connect with someone in any intimate way again. Which is annoying because some people just seem to move on so quickly, like it never really bothered them at all, while even such a minor bond as the one I formed has ended up cutting so fucking deep.
So i’ll probably just grin and take it because I can, always have and always will. And, in time, i’ll heal and then, knowing my life and how things work out for me, i’ll meet someone who’ll wind up being a loser or who’ll cheat on me or dump me for someone else or move away or emotionally abuse me, because that’d life. Isn’t it a fucking miracle?
Appart from spelling mistakes I didn’t use the backspace key while writing this, I had something to get out and I got it out, very VERY flow of thoughts.
I need to put this down into words as something theraputic or I’ll burst. I’m an introvert, I’m well aware of the fact I keep my feelings locked up inside of me. Usually that’s fine, I can deal with that, I like, I enjoy, pondering about myself. I guess that sounds a bit egotistical but I also liking pondering other people.
Anyway, lately I’ve been feeling.. Sore, disconnected. I’ve been depressed before, I know what it’s like and this is different. I think because there time there was a definite trigger, something that made me go along this path.
So I was dating someone. Is that the right term for someone you have an online relationship with? It lasted over two years by my reckoning but then the start date was always a bit blurry and the end date the same.
Anyway he was wonderful, sweet, loving, kind, wickedly sinful where it counted. I loved him, i still love him and as trite as it sounds a part of me always will. Anyway I ended up moving, not to be with him but back to a place more like home than Port Hedland had even been, Perth. And where I moved to had no Internet for ages and things got.. strained. And he got asked out by someone close to him. As in physical close.
How was I supposed to stop him from being happy like that? So I told him he could if he wanted to and he did and.. and they;re together now happily. And I was the guy on the side or the other guy or.. I don’t know, sometimes I felt like nothing had changed and other times...
Then locally I met this nice guy called Daniel. We chatted a bit, got along great and one of us asked the other out, I forget if he asked or if I asked but that’s how it went. He was cute but not my usual type. skinny, geeky, glasses wearing, skinny little guy. We got along really well, ended up kissing at the end of the date, both us wanted to go back to my place but both of us also wanted to wait so we did.
Anyway things went slowly, almost painfully slowly. The next date was just an outing in the city, ended in a kiss. The one after that was another outing. All during this he was applying for jobs on the otherside of the country and then he got one.
But we decided to keep going, see where things would go. I asked him out for dinner, a movie and then back to my place for the obvious. Now for those of you who don’t know me thats kind of a big deal. I’ve had casual sex before, it’s not big thing (Hur hur) but it’s not something I really enjoy, just a kind of release. Where as being intimate with someone whom I think is special is a pretty big deal for me.
I don’t talk about it much but my relationship history has not been a standard one, when it has existed it’s been complicated or with people who were, frankly, emotionally abusive. Never physically, I’m smart enough that I wouldn’t have stuck out those, but emotional abuse is somehow harder to pick up on, even if everyone around you can see it.
I was ready though, I liked this guy. It was a big deal. In additional to being all emotionally retarded (In the terms of stunted here, so you know the real term) i’m also very sensitive about my looks, more so my size. *coughs* both sizes to be delicate about it. I worked through that though, got my room nice and set up, fresh sheets, dim light bulb, less romantically but practically lube and condoms.
We see Transformers 3, it’s all kinds of awfully awesome. The movie finishes and he seems all awkward. I thought it was because of him coming back to my place, it was going to be his first relationship as well you see. Instead he says we should go get food. And on the way there he saws we should talk about our where our relationship is going.
And I shit you not it starts to rain. Could things get any more stereotypical than that?
Of course at this point It all clicks together, why he’d been so awkward, why he hadn’t held my hand in the movies. Part of me expected it, I won’t lie. He had a couple of months until he left and worked nights, was flying over to Canberra for interviews all the time, he had very little time to try and form this relationship with me, especially one that would need to last long distance or see me relocate.
And he was so fucking nice about it. He bought me dinner and said it was the least he could do, kept saying what a nice guy i was, how awful he felt about having to do this, how i was better than being dicked around like this. Which is of course some kind of tragic joke since until him no one had shown the slightest romantic interest in me in real life in years. Seven years to be exact and that.. that ended up being more of a construct of my own mind than anything real and meaningful as well.
And so I’ve kept it all kind of trapped in because well. I’m the funny guy, the happy, peaceful relaxed guy who you go to to vent or when your worried or upset or if you need advice. I’m not used to being the one who needs help or needs to vent.
Besides what do I say? “Oh hey this guy who i saw like 4 times over a couple of weeks shot me down in the best way possible?” But it’s not just that, it’s like the shock of both relationships have kind of amplified each other, that emotional intimacy of the long distance relationship which had been there for me for so long was gone and suddenly so to was this new unfamiliar local relationship.
It’s hard for me to be as open as that and I wish it wasn’t, i really do. But i feel awkward and self conscious sharing my personal feelings like that, like someones going to laugh or say something stupid like “It’ll get better” “plenty more fish in the sea”. I know this, of course I do, it doesn’t mean I feel that way or believe it yet.
So now.. now.. Now sometimes seeing a loving couple together gets me depressed or, worse, makes me angry, jealous. Other times i’m completely fine. Sometimes I can’t continue to read a book because I know where it’s going and I know i’m not strong enough to deal with that, not yet anyway. Other times I can read it and appreciate it fr what it is, without projecting my own fucked-upedness into the novel.
And I’m lost. I don’t know where I am, I don’t know where I need to go, don’t know where I want to go either really. I don’t have a point to tell me where I am or to guide me, and that’s crushing me, dragging me down. So i just keep going, day in, day out, not caring in the slightest about what happens to me. Well no, that melodramatic, I eat, bathe, sleep (although not as much, I don’t want to dream any more) I function as far as the world is concerned anyway.
I’m damaged, soul hurt, and I have no real idea how long it will last for, how long until i’m willing or even, well, ABLE to connect with someone in any intimate way again. Which is annoying because some people just seem to move on so quickly, like it never really bothered them at all, while even such a minor bond as the one I formed has ended up cutting so fucking deep.
So i’ll probably just grin and take it because I can, always have and always will. And, in time, i’ll heal and then, knowing my life and how things work out for me, i’ll meet someone who’ll wind up being a loser or who’ll cheat on me or dump me for someone else or move away or emotionally abuse me, because that’d life. Isn’t it a fucking miracle?
