So I forgot about a very important piece to my diseases. I wasn't supposed to live past the age of 25. Which I was reminded of that from my older brother and then again from my mom. I totally forgot about that "expiration date". I'm 28 years old now. 3 years past the year I was supposed to die. Every moment after 25 years old, I'm Bi**h slapping Death in the face. XD Hahaha!

As the title implies, my dog, Duke, was put down today on my birthday. My mom and step dad had to bring him to the emergency vet early early this morning. The vet told my mom and step dad that our dog had cancer and it was spreading. And basically, we couldn't save him. He would only get worse throughout the months until there would be none of his mind left. We had him put down in our house so he wouldn't be scared.

On a side note, I'll be getting an Xbox One soon. Maybe this weekend, maybe next week. Either way, I'm getting one. I hope I can play together with my brothers and cousins someday. :3

I recently bought Borderlands 2 for PC on Steam! I'm looking for gamers who would like to play with me on this game. I recommend getting the "Game of the Year" edition of the game. It gives plenty of DLC and comes with a free Grenade Mod that is super awesome in my opinion! It's kinda like fireworks with a huge blast radius. Be careful not to kill yourself with it. XD I got to level 30 thanks to a friend I made on this game. I really want to play with some furry friends. Send me a message if you want to join me in this game. :3 (The reason why I didn't get the 3rd game, "Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel", is because I didn't care for it much. Kinda lame to me really)

Merry Christmas everyone! :D Hope you all had fun on Christmas! I got some nice clothes this year. I'm supposed to get a new computer in January or February. Then I should be able to host games or something. I want to have my own World of Warcraft private server. Fun times. :P Though I'm not sure how to host a WoW server. XD Gonna have to do some research. Any games you guys recommend me getting for PC? I already have Skyrim and Fable: The Lost Chapters. Oh also Terraria. :3 I want to find a free online game to play with other furries. :3

Again, Merry Christmas to all! Hope you all had a very merry Christmas! ^^ *hands out chocolate chip cookies, freshly baked out of the oven*

Just letting some people know about my birthday. This journal is a bit late because I don't think many people will read it since I'm not an artist. lol

I wouldn't mind a birthday gift of art. Hehe! Entirely up to you.

Well I'm gonna livestream some world of warcraft stuff. :P Hope you guys like it and also, I might do some MapleStory too if you want. :3 Let me know if you want to see something in particular. :P
P.S.
This is all done in private servers. ;3

Livestream: http://www.livestream.com/dragolfys.....aming?t=698339

Hope it works alright.

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1. Hmm... I'm gay.
2. I have quite the list of medical "issues".
3. I like science and chemistry.
4. I play games all day, every day.
5. I hate taking my medicine. XP
6. I love teddy bears. (have 2 on my bed)
7. I'm super, extremely shy in public.
8. I learned that keeping quiet is better than speaking at all.
9. I didn't speak until I was 5 years old.
10. While growing up, I learned that you can't trust anyone.


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This is so cool! Being able to type on my 3DS and post on FA! ^_^ I cannot use all the keys obviously, but still able to type, look at pics, and read. ^^ Yay!
This journal is to test if I can post still. If not, then the Internet Browser is pretty much useless. Spell check is epic. XD

It works!! :D Wooh! Hehehe!

I got the Nintendo 3DS for my 21st birthday and It's so freakin' awesome! It can take 3D pictures and has so many different features to make the pictures look really crazy awesome. Each Nintendo 3DS comes with "AR Cards" which come to life to play different games and take pictures of 3D figures. I love fighting the different dragons in the AR Games. You must have a small table to move around in order to play properly though. I have some of those foldable dinner tables. Also, I got Rayman 3D to play. So far it's pretty good. Some parts seem really annoying and near impossible. :S What sucks most is that there's no Help Guides for Rayman 3D because it's still new. Can't use the internet browser yet since it's not ready. They're going to do an online software update soon. Probably in June. I can't wait to get The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time 3D. ^^ It's gonna be so cool! Hehe!

My 3DS friend code is: 3737 - 9596 - 3607

I'm in one of those moods. I have them often, but never post up on here my feelings, mostly because not a lot of people watching me would respond or I feel like I'm trying to get attention and I don't like to irritate others. I suppose I used to be the type of guy who would give and give extra and now I'm feeling like I gave too much and never really got anything in return.
Got stabbed in the heart when I heard my cousin died. That was November 13, 2007 and I still feel like her funeral was yesterday or more likely a week. I've actually been feeling like trash for many years now.
I'm starting to think it was because her and my aunt (who died when I was still very young, but with my memories like they are, I still remember her too) seems so very much alike. They didn't care what happened to them as long as it wasn't too severe that it would effect their families.
My cousin left behind twins and my aunt (her mother of course) has to take care of them. I feel even worse when I think the way I do when my aunt is the one who lost her daughter. Much worse than loosing a cousin, but she was more like a sister to me.
We did so much when we were little kids. She died when she was 21 I believe.
A bit of good does come from this suffering, I never forget her or my aunt. Their memories aren't only with me but with all of us. And we are one BIG family too. We're all close, cousins, 2nd cousins, aunts uncles, mothers, fathers, brothers and sisters. Even some "back in the old days" old friends.
Now that I'm typing this up, I'm also remembering the times when I used to be the victim almost all the time. I started to express my feelings (From being bullied) to my friends, or should I say ON my friends. I didn't really give them black eyes or anything terrible like that, but I did some horrible things.. At the time I thought I was trying to toughen them up so they wouldn't go through what I was going through. It was a bit late for that and that was only an excuse.
My mother's wedding is coming up soon. July 17th. Yes parents divorced after my cousin's death, but we all knew it was over long before then. My step-dad cheated on my mom. Not going into details with that.
Sorta speaking of which. Sometimes I say something stupid and everyone gets on me for being ignorant or stupid. Not like I fucking knew what they were feeling!!!
I said we were a close family, right? Heh... "were"... Nowa days I spend most of my time in my room looking at porn and happy pictures to keep my mind as blank as possible. Sometimes taking an extra pill to keep me thinking of happy things.
But of course my "selfish" self wanted more. Not "fake" happiness, but I crave for the real thing. Straight down to it, "Love".
Tried online dating, but either didn't work out or lost my password to my email address.
Being alone sucks, yes. But being alone, a lying virgin (saying I had sex when really I didn't. Rape maybe, but not the real thing) and a selfish prick is easily 10x worse. 19 years and still a virgin. "Don't worry we've heard of other guys who were virgins till like 25." Oh yeah, that supposed to make me feel better? Most likely those guys were just as pathetic as me or maybe even better than me or just chose not to have sex.
There might be some comments soon (most likely one or two, five at the most) saying I'm a pussy or loser or something else.
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When I don't take my medicine I usually stay to myself in public (School etc.), not speaking when I don't need to, keeping my distance from others and having a blank look on my face to show I don't care what people are saying or talking about.
You know everyone has a fear or two (if not then they are a mental case), well I got tons of fears (also a mental case). I've always been afraid of things. Trying new things, people. Yadda yadda. So many reasons to be afraid of people. "If you fear almost everyone how are you going to find someone special?" Please don't ask that or anything near it. I know this already and my response, "I know, I suppose I won't find someone then."
(Just updated title and added "Feeling emotional") Another thing, emo isn't always emotional. From the beginning it was a type of lifestyle. Creepy, weird-ass shit and yet artistic. Ok done with that...
I try to listen to some new music to calm me down when I get this way. Usually listen to emo/gothic, metal, heavy metal, and stuff like that. Anything to keep my head clear. Trying to convince myself that I haven't crossed the line yet. Still here and not losing my grip on reality (as they say). I swear someone could just put a picture of an anthro/furry on a fishing pole and move it to my window I'd think for a second that it was real. Yes, sad I know. Pathetic too. But why not ask yourselves before you post, "What could of happened to him in his life that made him start thinking this way?"
Yes many many reasons for certain end results. Rape = becoming gay. Although I've always felt different from other guys, "I just thought I was more sensitive" is what I told myself after the rape happened. "Did I enjoy that? Do I want that to happen again?" A year later or so, "Maybe, but not like that again."
Hmm... coulda sworn this woulda been shorter. Seems like I could write a book about my life. Excitement at the beginning, then slowly turning boring and dull.

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