I don't really use FA anymore, but a few people I know mainly use this. Anyway, on Saturday (02/06/2018) I had to put my dog down. She was approximately 14 years old, give or take a few months. She had cancer that started out as a lump on her belly. It soon started to spread to various spots on her belly. She wasn't in any pain. It was only a few months ago that we received word from out vet, saying that the cancer had spread to her spleen, but still wasn't a huge worry. She went to the vet sometime last month for a checkup. The vet was worried about a potential blockage in her bladder. We didn't hear back from the vet, so we naturally assumed it wasn't anything serious. Last Friday (01/06/2018), she ate her breakfast, like she normally would. I took her outside later in the afternoon so she could do her business. I went back inside and did a few bits and pieces before I went back out to pick her up and take her back into my room so she could rest. I assumed she had done her business. Later that evening, she had tried to do her business, but not matter how hard she tried, nothing was coming out. I was providing light for her so she could somewhat see, since that she was mostly blind and deaf. I was a bit worried, so I told my mum what happened. This isn't the first time my dog had done something like this, so we put it down to her being constipated. She didn't eat her dinner. Just before she goes to bed, she usually has a Schmacko. She didn't want it. She would rarely never want it. It was her favourite thing to eat.

During Friday evening, I could hear strange noises. I figured it was my mum throwing up, since she had a gastro bug and had been throwing up for the good part of two days. I kept hearing the strange noises every now and then throughout the night. I went to bed about 6:00am-6:30am. I was woken up by my mum only a few hours later, saying that she was taking the dog to the vet, because she had been howling in pain all night. My mum had said that the dog was probably going to be put down. My mum brought my dog into my room (She slept in my mums room) and placed her on my bed. I could tell that she wasn't comfortable and in was in a tremendous amount of pain, as she tried howling but could only make the tiniest little squeak. I picked her up and gave her a bit of a cuddle, whispering, "Not like this." I carried her down to the car, placed her in the passenger seat, still whispering, "Not like this." as I closed the car door. I started to close the garage door as my mum drove out of the driveway. I broke down into tears once I had closed the garage roll-a-door.

Seconds felt like minutes. Minutes felt like hours. About an hour and a half later, I heard her car pull into the driveway, promptly followed by the sound of the garage door opening. Once she had parked the car and closed up, she walked up the stairs and into the kitchen. I was refilling a water bottle at the time and noticed my mum putting my dogs blanket on the back of a kitchen chair. My immediate thought was, "Oh, she must be staying at the vet for a little bit. Hopefully they can figure out what is wrong with her.", at least until I saw my mum put the collar and leash on the kitchen table. That's when it hit me. That is when I realised that she was gone. Forever. My mum told me that the vet had done an X-Ray on my dog and found that her bladder and her intestines were completely blocked, which would explain the noises I had been hearing the night before. The vet tried a few things to help coax things along, but to no avail. He told my mum that he could use a very fine needle to pierce my dogs bladder, but she would have to come in every few days to empty out her bladder. I spent half of yesterday crying. To the point where my eyes were red and sore. I'm fairly certain that my mum was in the same situation as I was.

It's only been a day since my dog had been put down, but it honestly feels like an eternity. I've caught myself leaving the back door, leading into the backyard, and the door leading into the garage open for her. Only to realise that she isn't here. I also went to my sisters place today for lunch. When my mum and I got home, I found myself looking into my mums bedroom window, since that is where my dog would stay when we weren't home. She would stand on a bedside table and look out the window. I was expecting to see her, but no. She wasn't there. As I type this, I have tears streaming down my face. It's hard to accept that she is gone, but that is really all I can do.

What else can I say? It sucks. It really fucking sucks. I miss her.

I'm still alive after all these years! I don't really use FA all that much, even if I'm still signed in. I mostly use it for when people send me links to pictures on here, and to check out art and stuff. Other than that, not much has been happening lately. I've lost a lot of people I genuinely considered friends. I've fallen out of contact with many of them and have tried to get back in contact with them, only to be ignored. Um, what else... Oh, I've had multiple fall outs with different people. One most recently saw me post something incredibly idiotic on Twitter, only for the person to go a little bit too far and block me on Facebook (That's rich snobs for you!) despite having apologised and having admit what I did was wrong. I'm still unemployed (Yay...), I'm mostly grumpy these days, but that shouldn't come as a surprise, considering how things in the world are now.

Oh, I went to RTX Sydney last weekend and met Griffon Ramsey, Burnie Burns and Ashley Jenkins as well as having photos taken with them. They all seemed to be very nice! I also managed to get a few photos of Michael Jones, Lindsay Jones and Jack Pattillo as well. I missed out on getting some photos with Jeremy Dooly and Ryan Haywood, but oh well, there is always next year!



Other than all that, I'm doing pretty well. I'm relatively healthy, I have all this free time and do pretty much nothing with it except look for work and play games. Not much else, to be completely honest. Also, if anyone does want to get in contact with me, just shoot me a note and I'll give you either my Facebook, Xbox Live, Telegram, Twitter or Snapchat. I tend to check those daily.

Beware of Nativebearfur AKA Teddy B. Ronso. He'll steal your own creations and sell them off as his own and also make you look like you're the one that stole from him. If you've had dealings with him, stop contact with him by any means necessary and DO NOT believe anything he says. He's a lying, thief and a scum bag.

Spread this message around, especially to musicians, since that's who he's mainly stealing from.

It's amazing how these two people can hold a grudge against one person for ages and not just let it go. Just get the fuck over it. If you have to gang up on one person just to be drama llama's and to just get more attention brought onto yourself, then you're a fucking idiot. Seriously, if the person you're ganging up on can actually brush it off as if it's nothing, then you should be able to as well!

I'm not dead... Or at least I don't think I am. Someone check for me!
Anyway, I would usually be more active on FA but I get caught up in things in the real world. :P I'll try and be more active in the coming weeks!

Now, to sort through 111409 submissions and 5815 journals. That's gonna be fun!

I dunno. I just felt like changing my journal. Nothing really important to say, so yeah. :P

I think this is the luckiest guy on Earth!

http://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/commen.....o_penises_ama/

As of today (18th) I'm 20 years old. I feel somewhat old. Anyway, happy birthday to me! :P

It'll be my 20th birthday this Friday. I'm not sure if I should be excited or not. Is there anything to get excited about?

I have a burning passion to slap the living daylights out of people that I know and also do drugs. It just gets to the point where it's like, "What the fuck happened to the old you? What happened to the person that I once knew? What's the point in doing drugs? It ruins your life." I can understand if it's medicinal but if it's for "recreational use" then that's fucked. Doing drugs isn't fun. Trying it once or twice in your life is ok, but constantly wanting drugs and making references to drugs in almost everything you say? Is that not enough to make you think, "Oh wow, my life is now highly influenced by drugs, perhaps I should stop?"

Another thing is with people that smoke Weed, Marijuana, Pot, Dope, whatever you want to call it, is that they all say, "Oh, it's harmless, it does nothing but relax you." Ahem, short term effects: Hallucinations, hunger, relaxation, sadness/anger/happiness/pity etc. Long term effects: BRAIN DAMAGE, RAPID HEART BEAT (Which can lead to HEART ATTACKS), DEPRESSION, LACK OF PHYSICAL CO-ORDINATION, DISORIENTATION and Marijuana also contains 50-70% more CANCER-CAUSING SUBSTANCES. The list is endless!

You smoke Marijuana but on top of that, you also smoke normal Cigarettes. Welp, now you're just DOUBLING or even TRIPLING the likely hood of getting CANCER and various other diseases. Hell, I think you may even be doing other drugs as well. If you are, you're just killing yourself, yet you want to stay young and look young for as long as you can and be healthy. Well, all of these life choices you're making are making your life span shorter, making you look a hell of a lot older, killing your organs, making you a lot more idiotic and along with the constant drinking and your young age, you're doing a lot more HARM to your body now than you ever will.


So, if the people that this is being aimed at, is/has read this. Take my advice, your friends advice (Not the ones that do drugs) and your families advice.



Stop doing drugs. Stop constantly drinking. Stop constantly smoking. Stop making bad choices in life. I can tell you to stop, but not force you or even stop you from doing these things. As the saying goes, "You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink."


I love you dearly, as a friend. I know that the past 7-8 or so months have been absolutely hell for you, but if you continue down this road, it'll only get worse and nobody wants it to get worse.

Well I feel like recording myself singing some songs. Doesn't anyone have any suggestions or requests? I've got a fairly deep voice when it comes to singing, so don't expect me to do anything that involves high notes. x3

I went to the Dentist the other day for a checkup, scale and clean and they said that I don't need any more fillings and that my teeth are looking better than ever! But, the women that was in charge of the checkup, scale and cleaning of my teeth said that my wisdom teeth have plenty of space to fit inside my mouth along with the other teeth, but then the main Dentist-boss-guy, said that I'd need to have them taken out. I don't really know who to listen to, but I guess I'll have to wait and see! Other than that, everything else to good and I want need to see them for another 6 months. ^.=.^

Is there anyone else that's having a problem with Skype and MSN contacts showing offline even though you KNOW that they're appearing online? Supposedly this has been going on for over a year and the people at Skype still haven't fixed it. Don't bother trying to give me suggestions, because I've tried everything to fix it. From uninstalling/reinstalling to deleting every Skype file off the laptop and reinstalling it, nothing has worked. It's just sooooooo fucking aggravating. >:/

Seriously, I just read a bloggie thing and it's making me really think about buying an Xbox One. Here is the link, if you're interested:

http://rangerkimmy.tumblr.com/post/.....a-consumer-and

Prepare yourself for all the journals about the XboxOne and how that the PS4 is better than the XboxOne and how that the PC is the best out of all the consoles/systems. Let me make this plain and simple.
The PC is NOT the best and neither is the Xbox, PlayStation or any other console/system. So stop jumping to the conclusion that the PC is the 'Master' console/system and that it rules over everything else!

There is especially one person on Twitter that I REALLY want to smack across the head for being just a twit.

Seriously, I have no idea who this guy is and he's supposedly the by product of two furries having sex and he supposedly hates furries. I've also read a few things about him and he doesn't seem like a nice guy. Can anyone tell me anything else about him?

So there will be a few things that'll be changed in the coming weeks and months. They'll be some rather noticeable changes. I'm not going to spoil anything, because I want to keep people wonder what'll be changed! x3

No, I'm not talking about art or anything. I'm talking about song requests. I'm pretty bored and I figured if I can get some songs requested, I can sing them and post them up on FA. Unless it's a song I don't know too well or it's too high pitched for me. I'll accept any genre and almost any artist.

Request away!!! ^.=.^

I need help with beating that old prick in the Homestead at Fanorona. It's like he knows exactly what I'm going to do even before I know what I'm going to do. I've been trying for the past 2 god damn hours and he just won't fucking lose! None of the guides online have helped, in fact, they aren't helpful at all! I only want to beat him once. If anyone has actually beaten him and had a specific strategy, then share it with me! Because I've had enough of that old bastard! >:c

Yep, nothing been happening. I do, however, have an interview with some job agency on Thursday. So, hopefully, they can help me found a job.

Oh and I hope everyone has a great Easter! I also want all of your chocolate! >:3

Yeah, so I just finished watching it and I'm not sure if I liked that last episode or not. I mean, I liked the last episode, but I'm not entirely sure if I agree with what they did. I thought they would've saved something like that for the VERY last episode of MLP: FiM.

Anyway, what did you guy's think about the last episode of the 3rd season of MLP: FiM?

P.S. There is going to be a 4th season, but there isn't a confirmed date and if there is, then I haven't heard/read/seen it. x3

Seriously, what the hell is it? I've seen a few video's on Youtube and it's stupid as hell. It's like they're having a seizure or something. It's not even dancing!

People these days are just a tad stupid...well, a lot stupider compared to about 6-7 years ago. x3

So according to some strange people, if you game and use the internet constantly, you will be classed as someone with a mental disorder and/or a mental illness. The fuck?

http://aww.ninemsn.com.au/article.aspx?id=8596576

The custom Halo 4 matches will be starting on the 4th and will finish on the 7th of January. The matches will start as soon as I sign on, which will most likely be around 13:00 (GMT+10 Sydney.) It's 3-4 days long, so that it gives people from other countries a chance to play if they've missed a day.

Share and spread this message around! I see you then!

I'm postponing the custom Halo 4 game. I'll post up another journal in the next few days with info about when it'll be etc etc.