I'm back home from AC, working on getting things straightened out 'n ready to get back to the normal daily grind first thing in the morning. I wanted to make a quick journal post so I remember in the future when I have more time to sit and consider things.

This trip to AC made me realize that I've been inactive in the fandom for too long. I had / have my reasons for fading away when I did, but it appears that things have changed a bit so I think I'm finally willing to give it all a try once again.

It's a bit pointless to post this sentiment today when it'll be at least a few days before I actually have time to do or share anything, but again the goal is more so to give myself something to come back to and consider between now and then.

Hey, it only took, what, three years? Four? But now it's all finally been reuploaded.

So yeah, for anyone wondering, none of that flood was new content, it's all just the content that was dropped from tumblr back in 2018.

For those that enjoy my little accompaniments to my images, I went back through and added a little something to all of the pictures.

A little while ago I started working on refreshing / updating my "Balloon of Doom" series, with the idea that I would finally be finishing it off. Unfortunately I've once again lost interest in the project a bit before all the original pages were updated, let alone finishing off the comic completely.

With that, the comic starts here. Enjoy.

As of late I've been going through a bit of a furry reawakening, and it's made me think a lot, not just about furries, but about life as a whole, and the lessons learned from it. We learn things, not just math, science, history and such, but life lessons, and those things become the basic building blocks of who we are as people. We use these life lessons, these experiences, as the foundation for our character, giving ourselves little quirks, and setting how we view and fit in with the world around us.

But what if we're wrong?

It's something I can't stop thinking about, the simple idea that the base experiences that make us who we are, may be wrong, and more so, how to deal with it.

For example, I don't RP, or draw for friends, or really even be genuinely friendly and open with new people that just want to talk- this is all due to experiences that I'd had when I was younger. The part that I find interesting is that, to this day, well over a decade later, I still live by those rules, based on those experiences. Time has passed, the fandom has changed, I've grown a lot older, yet I, as an adult approaching his mid 30s, still live part of my life based on experiences I had in my teenage years. It sounds a bit silly, doesn't it?

This got me thinking about why the world seems to be a more magical and special place when we're younger. When you're young, you don't have these little experiences to draw from, everything is new and exciting. As you get older, the blanks get filled in, and you start searching for new things to experience, to try and rekindle that magical feeling of a world of infinite possibility. To tie this back to my original idea, what if, in actuality, those blanks that you thought you filled in, actually weren't? Like a little bubble on a test sheet filled in with pencil, there are gaps, and more importantly, maybe you filled in the wrong bubble entirely.

It's a thought that I've been tossing about for a little while now. On one hand, it would be easier to just assume I know who I am and what I'm about and keep on living as I do. On the other hand, however, there's a growing feeling inside me that I should go back and redo things. Instead of locking out and denying certain aspects of life based on flawed experiences of my youth, maybe I should be more open to it all, rewriting myself as time goes by.

Yeah. I think I want to experience that world of infinite possibility again.

Sorry if this is all a bit incoherent -.-;;
My mind is a little frazzled at the moment and it's been a hot minute since I'd really written anything, so I'm just sort of typing thoughts as they come up.

Sleep well ^^

I hope you all have perfect cups of coffee ^.^

Edit: Oh! And that you all had a good night of sleep! Somehow I genuinely forgot that was a part of the whole morning thing.