Chipping Away Bit by Bit for Owed Work
Posted 11 months agoI am slowly contacting people of super old owed work. I am still doing my best, I still have a list.
If you want to check whether I have owed any work to you, DM or reply to this tweet, I'll check PayPal receipts and we can discuss. There is just a lot going like stroke recovery, almost-cancer but benign, family loss and I am trying to slowly pave through what I owe.
If you want to check whether I have owed any work to you, DM or reply to this tweet, I'll check PayPal receipts and we can discuss. There is just a lot going like stroke recovery, almost-cancer but benign, family loss and I am trying to slowly pave through what I owe.
Hellish 2023 + Climbing Back Up
Posted a year agoHello everyone;
It's been a while that I have touched this account honestly and it's been a rough year. For those who are out of the loop; I had a stroke around early-ish 2023 and had to go through physiotherapy. I don't wish to really talk about it much as it sort of ruined my drawing endurance and it has made it difficult for me to draw however, I am trying my best. Around September 2023, I had a cancer scare and had to flush out a bunch of benign objects from my bladder which are not kidney stones as mentioned from my doctor. Had to go through some treatment until April 2024 and it's cleared out of any weird stuff in my system.
Thus, here I am, back and I have been contacting peeps that I've owed pieces to; slowly and trying my best. I have a job now so commissions will not be open until I clear the load. I just am weaker... and it gets difficult to draw for too long and I still want to keep up my end of the bargain. It's been a rough shit year honestly, healthwise... I thought I was going to die and it's difficult trying to live knowing that my body has almost just stop functioning; the right half of it.
I really want to apologize for taking so stupidly long with all of this. I know I owe a bunch and you wish for some sort of resolution; feel free to DM me through FA. I have been working on the YCHes bit by bit; and other commissions such as Fit to Fat etc. I still want to finish them; especially now that I am stable.
Additionally, for now, all the art that is being uploaded is old artwork that I have not posted in this gallery and will be posted by a friend. Work has kept me busy and I will only be focusing on drawing to clear the old dusty queue.
Thanks again everyone for bearing with me. I am horrible at this definitely and I just want to make amends.
It's been a while that I have touched this account honestly and it's been a rough year. For those who are out of the loop; I had a stroke around early-ish 2023 and had to go through physiotherapy. I don't wish to really talk about it much as it sort of ruined my drawing endurance and it has made it difficult for me to draw however, I am trying my best. Around September 2023, I had a cancer scare and had to flush out a bunch of benign objects from my bladder which are not kidney stones as mentioned from my doctor. Had to go through some treatment until April 2024 and it's cleared out of any weird stuff in my system.
Thus, here I am, back and I have been contacting peeps that I've owed pieces to; slowly and trying my best. I have a job now so commissions will not be open until I clear the load. I just am weaker... and it gets difficult to draw for too long and I still want to keep up my end of the bargain. It's been a rough shit year honestly, healthwise... I thought I was going to die and it's difficult trying to live knowing that my body has almost just stop functioning; the right half of it.
I really want to apologize for taking so stupidly long with all of this. I know I owe a bunch and you wish for some sort of resolution; feel free to DM me through FA. I have been working on the YCHes bit by bit; and other commissions such as Fit to Fat etc. I still want to finish them; especially now that I am stable.
Additionally, for now, all the art that is being uploaded is old artwork that I have not posted in this gallery and will be posted by a friend. Work has kept me busy and I will only be focusing on drawing to clear the old dusty queue.
Thanks again everyone for bearing with me. I am horrible at this definitely and I just want to make amends.
Mass Upload to FA Incoming
Posted 2 years agoHello everyone!
I have been drawing a bunch and contacting people personally when I can about owed commissions. There will be a bunch of uploads coming in tonight and maybe tomorrow. I am working my way to clear as many owed commissions as I can. Please do share your contacts via DMs so I can contact you about stuff I owe. I will post a better update journal soon.
I have been drawing a bunch and contacting people personally when I can about owed commissions. There will be a bunch of uploads coming in tonight and maybe tomorrow. I am working my way to clear as many owed commissions as I can. Please do share your contacts via DMs so I can contact you about stuff I owe. I will post a better update journal soon.
Improving Myself + Fixing Everything
Posted 3 years agoHello everyone.
I have been thinking about this a lot. Talked to a bunch of my friends and even commissioners too and the schedule I have been putting out is just super unrealistic. With it being unrealistic, it has been stressing me the fuck out.
The best way to go about this is to go in batches again without a targetted deadline per se but more to me finishing a batch before moving to the next one.
People have been asking me why my commissions list is so much smaller compared to last time. Firstly, it is due to the shift of Trello which caused me to lose my old account that has all the information in it. The ones affected are the ABCs of Inflation because I had no form submission for that and I collated everything into Trello.
I went through all of my old FA journals even from the previous accounts just to double check and managed to find only the names but not really the information. Here are the names below and I will be contacting them in due time after my exams are done by this Friday:
BodBloat
Amarokwlf
AFATWOLF
Bashade
DragomanHero
WinterDog
IndigoRho
Draco122
LizardGuy
rockmaster2027
ZackBarzahd
TheAutumnMarten
Crosso
Ellegarden
TheBrokenCask
Drakeo1liveson
Randsom
Furlover1
I will also contact these people below because these are also the people I owe the longest by far and I want to integrate them to my current schedule first. I will mix around with current commissioners who have bought something from me since 2021.
NotReggie
Jerrett16
DarkPiggie
HP1741A
Synsath
I just want to deeply apologize for all of this, for the wait, for my lies and empty promises. I was very naive ever since I started doing commissions. At the moment, all I want to do is clear everything. Clear all what I have owed and restarted with a clean slate. At the same time, yes, I will be focusing on my day job and other endeavours as well so that I can at least gain the buffer income in case any wants a refund.
I also understand many may have blocked me for it. If anyone has any contact to those who may have blocked me, I'd like to ask for a pardon and provide a refund for them. It is the best I can do for not living up to their expectations, after that, we do not need to communicate further. I just wish to at least pay back the things I owe either by fulfilling what is paid or provide a refund for it.
As for refunds, I have to manage and calculate when I have the money for it as well and set a date to send the refunds over. It may not be today or within the week but I will provide a refund at a set date.
I really want to apologize for all this crap I have done. I am more mature now definitely and will find ways to make peace with people I have angered and for the stuff I owed.
My plans right now is to finish at least the top above first and the current commissions with the best ability I can. Once I have contacted and finish the above, I will proceed with the next batch.
Current Batch Focus:
Blob Icons
Feb - May 2022 Commissions
Above list of names
Other Administrative Stuff
If you want a refund and I have owed you artwork before 2020, we can discuss through DMs BUT it won't be instant, I have to check my calendar for certain dates I will get paid or when I can get the cash. It is to the point that I may only be able to provide refunds for one person per month as I am also... struggling with my health.
I am not good physically and mentally but the only way I can better myself and at least have a good conscience is by doing this.
As for those who is able to bear with me and wait, I thank you for your patience. I won't be taking any more commissions unless I really need it for emergencies. Emergencies being health and medication or in a state where I might be homeless or have literally no access to food or my basic needs. I will also ONLY take commissions if donations don't cut it to be honest. This is the most desperate situation I have to be in.
Thank you to everyone who have been supporting me since 2016 or even earlier especially to those who have waited for this long to get my shit together. I just want to make this right. It has been eating me inside and caused me a lot of stress.
I have been thinking about this a lot. Talked to a bunch of my friends and even commissioners too and the schedule I have been putting out is just super unrealistic. With it being unrealistic, it has been stressing me the fuck out.
The best way to go about this is to go in batches again without a targetted deadline per se but more to me finishing a batch before moving to the next one.
People have been asking me why my commissions list is so much smaller compared to last time. Firstly, it is due to the shift of Trello which caused me to lose my old account that has all the information in it. The ones affected are the ABCs of Inflation because I had no form submission for that and I collated everything into Trello.
I went through all of my old FA journals even from the previous accounts just to double check and managed to find only the names but not really the information. Here are the names below and I will be contacting them in due time after my exams are done by this Friday:
BodBloat
Amarokwlf
AFATWOLF
Bashade
DragomanHero
WinterDog
IndigoRho
Draco122
LizardGuy
rockmaster2027
ZackBarzahd
TheAutumnMarten
Crosso
Ellegarden
TheBrokenCask
Drakeo1liveson
Randsom
Furlover1
I will also contact these people below because these are also the people I owe the longest by far and I want to integrate them to my current schedule first. I will mix around with current commissioners who have bought something from me since 2021.
NotReggie
Jerrett16
DarkPiggie
HP1741A
Synsath
I just want to deeply apologize for all of this, for the wait, for my lies and empty promises. I was very naive ever since I started doing commissions. At the moment, all I want to do is clear everything. Clear all what I have owed and restarted with a clean slate. At the same time, yes, I will be focusing on my day job and other endeavours as well so that I can at least gain the buffer income in case any wants a refund.
I also understand many may have blocked me for it. If anyone has any contact to those who may have blocked me, I'd like to ask for a pardon and provide a refund for them. It is the best I can do for not living up to their expectations, after that, we do not need to communicate further. I just wish to at least pay back the things I owe either by fulfilling what is paid or provide a refund for it.
As for refunds, I have to manage and calculate when I have the money for it as well and set a date to send the refunds over. It may not be today or within the week but I will provide a refund at a set date.
I really want to apologize for all this crap I have done. I am more mature now definitely and will find ways to make peace with people I have angered and for the stuff I owed.
My plans right now is to finish at least the top above first and the current commissions with the best ability I can. Once I have contacted and finish the above, I will proceed with the next batch.
Current Batch Focus:
Blob Icons
Feb - May 2022 Commissions
Above list of names
Other Administrative Stuff
If you want a refund and I have owed you artwork before 2020, we can discuss through DMs BUT it won't be instant, I have to check my calendar for certain dates I will get paid or when I can get the cash. It is to the point that I may only be able to provide refunds for one person per month as I am also... struggling with my health.
I am not good physically and mentally but the only way I can better myself and at least have a good conscience is by doing this.
As for those who is able to bear with me and wait, I thank you for your patience. I won't be taking any more commissions unless I really need it for emergencies. Emergencies being health and medication or in a state where I might be homeless or have literally no access to food or my basic needs. I will also ONLY take commissions if donations don't cut it to be honest. This is the most desperate situation I have to be in.
Thank you to everyone who have been supporting me since 2016 or even earlier especially to those who have waited for this long to get my shit together. I just want to make this right. It has been eating me inside and caused me a lot of stress.
Birthday? BIrthday! 3rd April
Posted 3 years agoI've revolved around the Sun 30 times!
Keeping to the Schedule
Posted 3 years agoHello everyone! Hope everyone is doing well. This has been a very rough month and I am really struggling but I am doing my best for now.
Strict Scheduling
To really keep things in check, I will do up a schedule on ONE condition. Please don't request to be done faster once I have the schedule up. I really don't like pushing others down or to the back when I've already set them up for the week.
As for now, I will create a schedule for April which includes new commissions, YCHes and the old work. So, please keep your eyes open for it. I have not done any for May yet, so if you I really have owed you art for a long time (I have and keep a list, yes) and you want it done at least by end of May, please comment below, I'll slot you in.
No more April slots, left with end of May (3 more slots as of now) before it spills over to June
Money Troubles (Sacked in February)
I am trying my best to clear as much as I can while also trying to keep myself well fed and able to afford bills so I do apologize if you keep seeing new commission offers pop up. Work has been rough to me last month, I got sacked, so I need new commissions to help support myself for school bills, medical and what not. I got a new job in March, so I will be covered for April at least. I really do need help; if you can help, you can either donate to my Ko-Fi below:
https://ko-fi.com/werebearista
Also, if you're also interested in commissions; please comment below too. Keep in mind, they will be done end April or Early May.
Thanks everyone for understanding and listening.
Strict Scheduling
To really keep things in check, I will do up a schedule on ONE condition. Please don't request to be done faster once I have the schedule up. I really don't like pushing others down or to the back when I've already set them up for the week.
As for now, I will create a schedule for April which includes new commissions, YCHes and the old work. So, please keep your eyes open for it. I have not done any for May yet, so if you I really have owed you art for a long time (I have and keep a list, yes) and you want it done at least by end of May, please comment below, I'll slot you in.
No more April slots, left with end of May (3 more slots as of now) before it spills over to June
Money Troubles (Sacked in February)
I am trying my best to clear as much as I can while also trying to keep myself well fed and able to afford bills so I do apologize if you keep seeing new commission offers pop up. Work has been rough to me last month, I got sacked, so I need new commissions to help support myself for school bills, medical and what not. I got a new job in March, so I will be covered for April at least. I really do need help; if you can help, you can either donate to my Ko-Fi below:
https://ko-fi.com/werebearista
Also, if you're also interested in commissions; please comment below too. Keep in mind, they will be done end April or Early May.
Thanks everyone for understanding and listening.
Need help for Diabetic Meds + Food Expenses
Posted 3 years agoI was fired on February due to being Covid (+) and was only given 5 days of pay. I can't cover all of it with just commissions as I still need to work full time.
I really need some help getting diabetic medication and supply myself with food for 3 weeks.
Every bit helps. Please do spread the word if possible.
https://ko-fi.com/werebearista
I really need some help getting diabetic medication and supply myself with food for 3 weeks.
Every bit helps. Please do spread the word if possible.
https://ko-fi.com/werebearista
Small Tiny Hiatus to Get Away from The World
Posted 3 years agoI am going to rest today or for a couple of days. As for the freebie group sketch, give me some time to sort and clan it because I know some wants to have it colored so I need to separate those.
If you wish to get the bust colored and inked, it'll be 20USD and do DM me
If you want to reach me; you can contact me on my Discord Group: https://discord.gg/BgEYsgwK (Link expires in 24 hours of posting this journal)
If you wish to get the bust colored and inked, it'll be 20USD and do DM me
If you want to reach me; you can contact me on my Discord Group: https://discord.gg/BgEYsgwK (Link expires in 24 hours of posting this journal)
Downtime
Posted 3 years agoHello everyone.
Just a small update. I will be on hiatus to recover from being admitted to the hospital from Sunday till Wednesday. I might need time up till the weekend of next Tuesday. I hope everyone is having a good January!
Just a small update. I will be on hiatus to recover from being admitted to the hospital from Sunday till Wednesday. I might need time up till the weekend of next Tuesday. I hope everyone is having a good January!
Week Hiatus - Exams
Posted 4 years agoHello everyone.
Just a short update that this week will be a hiatus because I have exams to study for. I will be back during the weekend. Expect no progress to happen during the week.
Thanks everyone for the support~
Just a short update that this week will be a hiatus because I have exams to study for. I will be back during the weekend. Expect no progress to happen during the week.
Thanks everyone for the support~
Need Help for Rest of November
Posted 4 years agoHello everyone! I hope everyone's year end plans are slowly being prepared smoothly for Christmas and Thanksgiving, and your holidays are enjoyable.
I need some help because I was paid half my usual pay last month due to only attending training. Once November is over, I will be paid the full amount for my pay check.
At the moment, I am really low on funds, amounting to only $20 left for the rest of the month. I can't take any more commissions as project work and exams are coming in soon plus it has been an extremely stressful month.
If so, I'd like to ask for help by donating to my Ko-Fi so that I can last at least to my next pay check.
Here is my Ko-Fi link: https://ko-fi.com/sgbearista
Any amount is appreciated. If you are unable to donate, you may spread the word.
Thanks everyone for the support so far up to this point.
I need some help because I was paid half my usual pay last month due to only attending training. Once November is over, I will be paid the full amount for my pay check.
At the moment, I am really low on funds, amounting to only $20 left for the rest of the month. I can't take any more commissions as project work and exams are coming in soon plus it has been an extremely stressful month.
If so, I'd like to ask for help by donating to my Ko-Fi so that I can last at least to my next pay check.
Here is my Ko-Fi link: https://ko-fi.com/sgbearista
Any amount is appreciated. If you are unable to donate, you may spread the word.
Thanks everyone for the support so far up to this point.
Weekly Schedule 13/09 - 19/09
Posted 4 years agoA schedule for me to keep track for this week.
MON: Deersperado - Shading (The Works, 2SQ, 1C) + TrinityLight - Rough Sketch (Cel-Shade, 1C)
TUES: ImpossibleGame-R (Sketch, 1C) + Sethem - YCH - Inking/Flats (Flats, 1C) + Khatoblepas (Sketch, 1C)
WED: TrinityLight - Edits + Inking/Flats (Cel-Shade, 1C)
THURS: Patreon Monthly (Flats, 1C) + Wilgeon - Inking (Flats, 2C)
FRI: TrinityLight - Cel-Shade (Cel-Shade, 1C) + PorkerPigs - YCH (Flats, 1C)
SAT: Kieron59 - YCH - Sketch (Flats, 1C) + ConaWolf - Sketch (Inks, 2C)
SUN: Dragonexer - Flats/Cel-Shade (Cel-Shade, 2C) + Hippocake - Ink/Flats (Flats, 1C + Props) + Kieron59 - YCH - Sketch (Flats, 1C)
All the above are based on if nothing bad happens on a good week. I'll try my best to clear all these week by week with how much time I have. Thanks for all the support and understanding.
MON: Deersperado - Shading (The Works, 2SQ, 1C) + TrinityLight - Rough Sketch (Cel-Shade, 1C)
TUES: ImpossibleGame-R (Sketch, 1C) + Sethem - YCH - Inking/Flats (Flats, 1C) + Khatoblepas (Sketch, 1C)
WED: TrinityLight - Edits + Inking/Flats (Cel-Shade, 1C)
THURS: Patreon Monthly (Flats, 1C) + Wilgeon - Inking (Flats, 2C)
FRI: TrinityLight - Cel-Shade (Cel-Shade, 1C) + PorkerPigs - YCH (Flats, 1C)
SAT: Kieron59 - YCH - Sketch (Flats, 1C) + ConaWolf - Sketch (Inks, 2C)
SUN: Dragonexer - Flats/Cel-Shade (Cel-Shade, 2C) + Hippocake - Ink/Flats (Flats, 1C + Props) + Kieron59 - YCH - Sketch (Flats, 1C)
All the above are based on if nothing bad happens on a good week. I'll try my best to clear all these week by week with how much time I have. Thanks for all the support and understanding.
Small Update + New Better Day Job!~
Posted 4 years agoHello everyone!
I do want to apologize that for the last couple of weeks, I have been on and off for weekdays not producing much sketches, streams or art. The reason being that I was busy trying to get another job that would at least pay me better than what I am given now. It was quite an anxious couple of weeks because honestly working here has been quite... stressful, exhausting and really not worth how much I am paid. I essentially working at about 4 roles but only paid for 1. Work is also draining when I am always on call for customers 24/7 and sometimes I get emails or calls at like 11pm to 1am at night. It is really why I decided to just leave the company because I am pretty much done.
Fortunately, I am able to find a new job that starts on 22nd September which gives me a pay increment of 30% and that is honestly amazing. The only downside to that job is that the first two months, I will only be given a training allowance of 1500SGD which is a big downgrade like about a third of usual pay just gone, so I will be doing my best to push myself through commissions for the next two months. Once I finish the first two months of training, I will be paid at a normal rate with the 30% increment. Therefore, it will still be a rough two months up until next year.
For those wondering, I will be hired as a BIM/CAD Modeller and will be partake in bigger construction projects and my current prospect is to become a BIM Coordinator, learning and upgrading myself with new drafting and project management technology.
With the anxiety over and having secured a new better job, I am definitely going to go back to art from tonight.
Thank you everyone for BEARing with me. I love you all <3
I do want to apologize that for the last couple of weeks, I have been on and off for weekdays not producing much sketches, streams or art. The reason being that I was busy trying to get another job that would at least pay me better than what I am given now. It was quite an anxious couple of weeks because honestly working here has been quite... stressful, exhausting and really not worth how much I am paid. I essentially working at about 4 roles but only paid for 1. Work is also draining when I am always on call for customers 24/7 and sometimes I get emails or calls at like 11pm to 1am at night. It is really why I decided to just leave the company because I am pretty much done.
Fortunately, I am able to find a new job that starts on 22nd September which gives me a pay increment of 30% and that is honestly amazing. The only downside to that job is that the first two months, I will only be given a training allowance of 1500SGD which is a big downgrade like about a third of usual pay just gone, so I will be doing my best to push myself through commissions for the next two months. Once I finish the first two months of training, I will be paid at a normal rate with the 30% increment. Therefore, it will still be a rough two months up until next year.
For those wondering, I will be hired as a BIM/CAD Modeller and will be partake in bigger construction projects and my current prospect is to become a BIM Coordinator, learning and upgrading myself with new drafting and project management technology.
With the anxiety over and having secured a new better job, I am definitely going to go back to art from tonight.
Thank you everyone for BEARing with me. I love you all <3
Financial Help to Last the Week
Posted 4 years agoHello everyone,
I hope everyone is doing fine this August. Half the year has passed by quickly and we're almost into the third quarter. I know I keep doing this but I really need your help to help last the week with food and medical bills.
My heel has been swollen for like a week now and walking around has been very difficult and painful. I went to the doctor several days ago and they suspected it was gout because due to how fat I am. However, even after taking the gout medication, the pain has never subsided meaning it is definitely something else other than gout. I want to get my heel checked again but I am low on funds even for food.
Therefore, I will be opening for commissions for about 2 - 4 slots depending on the category chosen. If you are interested, please comment below or note me for the details.
In the meantime, I will also be working on overdue commissions as well so don't worry about that.
I hope anyone can help in the meantime to last a week. I am sorry for always asking for help.
I hope everyone is doing fine this August. Half the year has passed by quickly and we're almost into the third quarter. I know I keep doing this but I really need your help to help last the week with food and medical bills.
My heel has been swollen for like a week now and walking around has been very difficult and painful. I went to the doctor several days ago and they suspected it was gout because due to how fat I am. However, even after taking the gout medication, the pain has never subsided meaning it is definitely something else other than gout. I want to get my heel checked again but I am low on funds even for food.
Therefore, I will be opening for commissions for about 2 - 4 slots depending on the category chosen. If you are interested, please comment below or note me for the details.
In the meantime, I will also be working on overdue commissions as well so don't worry about that.
I hope anyone can help in the meantime to last a week. I am sorry for always asking for help.
August Update (Art Changes & Revamp)
Posted 4 years agoHello everyone,
I hope everyone is staying safe during this horrible virus and getting vaccinated. I am already on my first dose and waiting for my 2nd one on 21st August. Putting that aside, I'd like to make a small announcement that I will be revamping and updating my lists, prices and schedule for doing art. I have been meaning to do so but the past few months were horrible emotionally when it comes to art and I've decided to take it upon me and reorganize as much as I can. I will be listing them in order below.
Change of Prices
Just a heads up that I will be increasing the prices by about 10%. What I want to highlight is the ADDITIONAL CHARACTERS. I always feel like I am undercutting when working on 2nd characters because the posing and interaction with the main character is always very very difficult to do to make it look acceptable. It takes more work to do so therefore, I have increased the price for additional characters much higher than the initial price to accomodate that. I hope everyone understands my reason to do so.
The new prices are below:
COMMISSION PRICES
Sketches - 45USD (Additional Character - 38USD)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31349825/
Inks - 60USD (Additional Character - 52USD)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25589394/
Flat Colors - 70USD; (Additional Character - 56USD)
Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32555266/
Cel Shade - 95USD; (Additional Character - 75USD)
Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16126404/
The Works - 140USD; (Additional Character - 120USD)
Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20637121/
Updated Commissions List
I have further updated the commissions list to show the queue I currently have an idea with that will go alongisde my current schedule smoothly. It's still being organized to furnish old commissions as well so, do stay tuned for it. If you don't see your name on the list, you can always check with me and I'll gladly put you on queue but on the next available date. I don't wish to switch around queue placements anymore but I will definitely get to yours in due time. I do apologize if it has taken this long for me to do this proper, I have been extremely busy with work, school and mental well-being as of late which I will explain below. This is going to be a push but it might as well darn be because this has taken too long and I seriously want to get it cleared while sustaining some side income.
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet.....l3g/edit#gid=0
Art Schedule
For those in the know, I have been not only working longer hours but also have night classes 3 times per week which makes time for drawing... rough, especially with the energy I have left at the end of the day. So, I have devised a schedule, you can refer to it below:
Art Working Hours
10.00pm - 1.00am (GMT+8) on every Monday - Friday (Focusing on pushing out sketches/flat colors)
3pm - 12mn (GMT+8) on every Saturday - Sunday (Focusing on inks/shades)
Conclusion
I hope everyone understands the reasons I have made for the overhaul and update. I sat down for a day yesterday thinking about how to move on forward to make my work ethics better when it comes to art and also consulted a few fellow friends and artists about it. Thank you for always supporting me no matter what!
I hope everyone is staying safe during this horrible virus and getting vaccinated. I am already on my first dose and waiting for my 2nd one on 21st August. Putting that aside, I'd like to make a small announcement that I will be revamping and updating my lists, prices and schedule for doing art. I have been meaning to do so but the past few months were horrible emotionally when it comes to art and I've decided to take it upon me and reorganize as much as I can. I will be listing them in order below.
Change of Prices
Just a heads up that I will be increasing the prices by about 10%. What I want to highlight is the ADDITIONAL CHARACTERS. I always feel like I am undercutting when working on 2nd characters because the posing and interaction with the main character is always very very difficult to do to make it look acceptable. It takes more work to do so therefore, I have increased the price for additional characters much higher than the initial price to accomodate that. I hope everyone understands my reason to do so.
The new prices are below:
COMMISSION PRICES
Sketches - 45USD (Additional Character - 38USD)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31349825/
Inks - 60USD (Additional Character - 52USD)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25589394/
Flat Colors - 70USD; (Additional Character - 56USD)
Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32555266/
Cel Shade - 95USD; (Additional Character - 75USD)
Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16126404/
The Works - 140USD; (Additional Character - 120USD)
Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20637121/
Updated Commissions List
I have further updated the commissions list to show the queue I currently have an idea with that will go alongisde my current schedule smoothly. It's still being organized to furnish old commissions as well so, do stay tuned for it. If you don't see your name on the list, you can always check with me and I'll gladly put you on queue but on the next available date. I don't wish to switch around queue placements anymore but I will definitely get to yours in due time. I do apologize if it has taken this long for me to do this proper, I have been extremely busy with work, school and mental well-being as of late which I will explain below. This is going to be a push but it might as well darn be because this has taken too long and I seriously want to get it cleared while sustaining some side income.
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet.....l3g/edit#gid=0
Art Schedule
For those in the know, I have been not only working longer hours but also have night classes 3 times per week which makes time for drawing... rough, especially with the energy I have left at the end of the day. So, I have devised a schedule, you can refer to it below:
Art Working Hours
10.00pm - 1.00am (GMT+8) on every Monday - Friday (Focusing on pushing out sketches/flat colors)
3pm - 12mn (GMT+8) on every Saturday - Sunday (Focusing on inks/shades)
Conclusion
I hope everyone understands the reasons I have made for the overhaul and update. I sat down for a day yesterday thinking about how to move on forward to make my work ethics better when it comes to art and also consulted a few fellow friends and artists about it. Thank you for always supporting me no matter what!
Need Help! Massive Paycut for May...
Posted 4 years agoI hate to do this again but I really need help with some funds for May because I will be getting a massive paycut for using up my medical leave days at work. It will be a massive blow to my income and I need help to cover for my food expenses and medical bills. I hope people can help out as I really need help from this badly. Please do spread the word if you can.
Tweet: https://twitter.com/dralffeine/stat.....016441345?s=20
Ko-Fi Link: https://ko-fi.com/sgbearista
I really need help and every little bit helps x-x
Tweet: https://twitter.com/dralffeine/stat.....016441345?s=20
Ko-Fi Link: https://ko-fi.com/sgbearista
I really need help and every little bit helps x-x
Voicing Out: Missed Opportunities
Posted 4 years agoI think about the past a lot and it usually involves with some several achievements I have made that satisfies me. It makes me wonder why can't I do them now? I won competitions when I was in Primary School. I am super active with the furry community. I was doing almost everything I want back then and I enjoyed it. What's stopping me from getting those achievements again? I don't know what affected me so much but after the COVID lockdown I had in Singapore, all I wanted to be was lazy and just rest. I don't even want to go to work, I don't even want to draw and I think back about the days I used to be able to draw 20 - 30 artworks per month and the times I enjoyed my job at work.
Right now, I just feel tired all the time and have a fogged up mind. I don't know if that's the depression talking or I just have a severe case of being burnt out. Deep down, I want to work happily, I want todraw well but my body just says, "Nope! No can do!". It makes me cry at night sometimes thinking about how useless I am right now, not being able to do anything I want. A slave to my own broken body, not being able to perform the simplest of tasks.
I wish I can turn back time and go back to how it was in the past. I hate my new self, they suck...
Right now, I just feel tired all the time and have a fogged up mind. I don't know if that's the depression talking or I just have a severe case of being burnt out. Deep down, I want to work happily, I want todraw well but my body just says, "Nope! No can do!". It makes me cry at night sometimes thinking about how useless I am right now, not being able to do anything I want. A slave to my own broken body, not being able to perform the simplest of tasks.
I wish I can turn back time and go back to how it was in the past. I hate my new self, they suck...
Voicing Out (2nd March 2021)
Posted 4 years agoHello everyone, I am going to make Voicing Out a series in my journals for me to voice out my thoughts randomly on my journals. I trust my watchers enough. I mean you guys have been amazing in giving me support especially for the CPAP machine so I trust this community very much with my thoughts. I know I have voiced out other issues I have in the past but I just want to continue to do it because it helps relaxes me and put my mind at ease.
Wonky Sleep Schedules
At night, it's really weird for me to maintain a sleep schedule because usually a lot more people talk to me when I am close to falling asleep instead of when I wake up. So, I end up talking with friends up past 1am and it is destroying my sleep. It's because I feel lonely when throughout the day since most of my friends are asleep during that time. I'd love to talk to people but I feel like my sleep just gets ruined because of it. I need to somehow tell myself that I maybe can talk to them in the morning when I wake up so that I can get my sleep schedule straight. The CPAP machine is helping but my bad habit of staying up late is the other part in making me tired. I hope I can get people to talk to me during my mornings, which is the time where people are already relaxing from their day of work. I just wish I have more people within my timezone (GMT+8) to talk to during my work hours or while I work to keep me preoccupied.
Losing Muscle Memory?
Drawing's been rough for me recently and I have been trying it about and it just feels like I have lost muscle memory. The way I draw feels different, the way my mind translates the drawing to the canvas is different and it just doesn't feel right at all. It's been making me put off my drawings a lot; what more with constant comparing to other much greater artists with their works has affected me a lot to not draw. I need to get out of the habit of comparing my art with other people and just draw for myself and you guys. I just wonder though, would you guys be okay with my art even if it is just rough simple doodles or practices I upload to FA? Or would you prefer just complete works to be on my gallery instead? I'd like to hear your output on this.
Thanks for reading up to this point if you have. I may not reply to your journal comments but I do read hem and I cherish them a lot. You all have been so supportive with responding to my journals so far and it always makes me smile when I read them. I hope everyone has had a nice week of March so far.
Wonky Sleep Schedules
At night, it's really weird for me to maintain a sleep schedule because usually a lot more people talk to me when I am close to falling asleep instead of when I wake up. So, I end up talking with friends up past 1am and it is destroying my sleep. It's because I feel lonely when throughout the day since most of my friends are asleep during that time. I'd love to talk to people but I feel like my sleep just gets ruined because of it. I need to somehow tell myself that I maybe can talk to them in the morning when I wake up so that I can get my sleep schedule straight. The CPAP machine is helping but my bad habit of staying up late is the other part in making me tired. I hope I can get people to talk to me during my mornings, which is the time where people are already relaxing from their day of work. I just wish I have more people within my timezone (GMT+8) to talk to during my work hours or while I work to keep me preoccupied.
Losing Muscle Memory?
Drawing's been rough for me recently and I have been trying it about and it just feels like I have lost muscle memory. The way I draw feels different, the way my mind translates the drawing to the canvas is different and it just doesn't feel right at all. It's been making me put off my drawings a lot; what more with constant comparing to other much greater artists with their works has affected me a lot to not draw. I need to get out of the habit of comparing my art with other people and just draw for myself and you guys. I just wonder though, would you guys be okay with my art even if it is just rough simple doodles or practices I upload to FA? Or would you prefer just complete works to be on my gallery instead? I'd like to hear your output on this.
Thanks for reading up to this point if you have. I may not reply to your journal comments but I do read hem and I cherish them a lot. You all have been so supportive with responding to my journals so far and it always makes me smile when I read them. I hope everyone has had a nice week of March so far.
A Letter to My Psychologist
Posted 4 years agoTuesday was a horrible and a scary day for me emotionally and mentally, so I wrote a email to my psychologist about it. You can have a look at my experience with the horrible day itself in the email listed below. I just want to voice this out because that day made me feel sick to my stomach and I couldn't sleep for it.
Hi Sam,
I am writing this in to voice out my feelings on something that happened on Tuesday 02 Feb 2021. I had a tussle with a customer today and it affected me badly. It killed the mood of me enjoying games with my friends that night, it killed the mood of me doing anything at all.
Early morning as I was going to my appointment, I got yelled at by a customer about my bad attitude which I have no idea what I did wrong. I wasn't able to find out what I said wrong from the customer but he was getting very aggravated about something I said which he wouldn't mention to me about. Analyzing the feeling, I felt very confused and it feels like my stomach is turning upside down. I discussed matters with the customer and thought it would go smoothly.
After the appointment, there were some complications with an arranged rectification work of a job that wasn't under me but I was told to settle the issue based on no information I had known about. I was continuously reprimanded by the same customer about my shortcomings. I got worked up and snapped back at him because I tried being nice but now he's just being very rude to me. I had no other way of dealing with him other than to be assertive about what I knew and what I did to help him as much as I can.
At that point of time, I felt worse like the pit in my stomach just got larger and I started to feel physically sick from it. I was already holding back my tears from that point on, trying not to cry. After one more back and forth, the customer decided to come to my office to bring it up to me personally. I still feel confused about what I did wrong and I wasn't told by him other than that my attitude was shit.
He came to my office and already wanted to start an argument with me but my boss defused the situation thankfully and he took the customer in to chat and work things out.
After what seemed like 30 minutes, I was called in to explain myself and I told my boss my side of the story. Apparently, the customer didn't like the tone of message I used when I was texting him, which I have no idea about. Apparently, my tone was wrong.
I apparently said to him, "I'll send the samples when I can" and it ticked him off thinking that I do not care about his job. When I said it, I did care but I didn't know he had a different idea when I said that, it's just that I was having lunch and not in the office so I cannot show him the samples straightaway.
This made me reflect heavily on what I have been doing as being a poor communicator to my clients and I felt horrible the whole night feeling as if there is a pit in my stomach. I cannot sleep, I feel like vomiting and I just don't feel physically well at all from all that emotional trauma. I don't know what to do from this point on because I feel lost on what I could have done better to prevent this thing from happening again. This made me think about how many other customers I might have rudely communicated with without me knowing and it makes me worse as a person as I have no way to gauge this kind of stuff.
I cried in the office from the overbearing stress and sick feeling in my stomach. I just couldn't take it anymore and requested for urgent leave the next day to recuperate. I know I am avoiding things again but I just feel like I cannot focus at all unless I am able to collect myself together to feel better. What with the feeling of burnout already with me, I just feel extremely lost on what to do or how to make myself a better employee.
I just wish I know what to do because the voices are strong with this feeling as usual but I am trying my best to pull myself out of it. What is there I can do to help me along this already rough path for me to walk on?
- Sincerely,
Mohamed Hafeez
Hi Sam,
I am writing this in to voice out my feelings on something that happened on Tuesday 02 Feb 2021. I had a tussle with a customer today and it affected me badly. It killed the mood of me enjoying games with my friends that night, it killed the mood of me doing anything at all.
Early morning as I was going to my appointment, I got yelled at by a customer about my bad attitude which I have no idea what I did wrong. I wasn't able to find out what I said wrong from the customer but he was getting very aggravated about something I said which he wouldn't mention to me about. Analyzing the feeling, I felt very confused and it feels like my stomach is turning upside down. I discussed matters with the customer and thought it would go smoothly.
After the appointment, there were some complications with an arranged rectification work of a job that wasn't under me but I was told to settle the issue based on no information I had known about. I was continuously reprimanded by the same customer about my shortcomings. I got worked up and snapped back at him because I tried being nice but now he's just being very rude to me. I had no other way of dealing with him other than to be assertive about what I knew and what I did to help him as much as I can.
At that point of time, I felt worse like the pit in my stomach just got larger and I started to feel physically sick from it. I was already holding back my tears from that point on, trying not to cry. After one more back and forth, the customer decided to come to my office to bring it up to me personally. I still feel confused about what I did wrong and I wasn't told by him other than that my attitude was shit.
He came to my office and already wanted to start an argument with me but my boss defused the situation thankfully and he took the customer in to chat and work things out.
After what seemed like 30 minutes, I was called in to explain myself and I told my boss my side of the story. Apparently, the customer didn't like the tone of message I used when I was texting him, which I have no idea about. Apparently, my tone was wrong.
I apparently said to him, "I'll send the samples when I can" and it ticked him off thinking that I do not care about his job. When I said it, I did care but I didn't know he had a different idea when I said that, it's just that I was having lunch and not in the office so I cannot show him the samples straightaway.
This made me reflect heavily on what I have been doing as being a poor communicator to my clients and I felt horrible the whole night feeling as if there is a pit in my stomach. I cannot sleep, I feel like vomiting and I just don't feel physically well at all from all that emotional trauma. I don't know what to do from this point on because I feel lost on what I could have done better to prevent this thing from happening again. This made me think about how many other customers I might have rudely communicated with without me knowing and it makes me worse as a person as I have no way to gauge this kind of stuff.
I cried in the office from the overbearing stress and sick feeling in my stomach. I just couldn't take it anymore and requested for urgent leave the next day to recuperate. I know I am avoiding things again but I just feel like I cannot focus at all unless I am able to collect myself together to feel better. What with the feeling of burnout already with me, I just feel extremely lost on what to do or how to make myself a better employee.
I just wish I know what to do because the voices are strong with this feeling as usual but I am trying my best to pull myself out of it. What is there I can do to help me along this already rough path for me to walk on?
- Sincerely,
Mohamed Hafeez
Rebranding Myself
Posted 4 years agoI have been thinking about rebranding myself in terms of what kinds of kinks I want to focus on and what kinks I have the most fun with when doing commissions. It feels better to do that so that I can feel relaxed whenever I draw be it for commissions or my own personal art. I have narrowed down the kinks to several I'd like to focus on and here they are:
1) Inflation
2) Pregnancy
3) Hyper
4) Vore
5) Universally Round Bellies (so can be muscle gut, food stuffing etc)
I want to dabble into art that I can enjoy more rather than have it feel like a chore. I know a lot of you might ask, "But Gale, what about fat?"
I still draw fat and blobs but it won't be something I will focus on unless it is a commission. I just don't enjoy fat as much as the 5 listed above.
So, from there, those would be my pick and what you'll be seeing more from this year onwards.
1) Inflation
2) Pregnancy
3) Hyper
4) Vore
5) Universally Round Bellies (so can be muscle gut, food stuffing etc)
I want to dabble into art that I can enjoy more rather than have it feel like a chore. I know a lot of you might ask, "But Gale, what about fat?"
I still draw fat and blobs but it won't be something I will focus on unless it is a commission. I just don't enjoy fat as much as the 5 listed above.
So, from there, those would be my pick and what you'll be seeing more from this year onwards.
Feeling Dead in Life
Posted 4 years agoHello everyone!
I hope everyone has had a good 2021 so far with the first week already gone in January. I am just writing this down to update people that I have confidence in myself to draw again and will be drawing more often when I can now. So, expect much more art streams coming on at around 8pm - 11pm (GMT+8).
As for everything else, I really don't know what to say. My life seems bleak right now. Nothing's really improving, nothing's really going up the scales other than my weight. I just feel dead inside. I don't have the spark to be in my job anymore and it hurts me greatly because of me not taking care of myself; I won't have a raise this year. Frankly, I have not been taking care of myself. I walk in the rain, I leave my room in a mess and I get sick often because of it. I just feel like crying everyday and I don't know why. I mostly feel like I don't want to work at all anymore. I just feel like I want to just lay on my bed for the rest of my life. My spark to live has been snuffed out and I don't know what to do anymore. My eyesight is getting worse, my weight is getting worse, maybe my other illnesses are too and I am not seeing it.
I am just at a loss at what to do in life anymore. I feel lonely and lost almost every day.
At this point, I don't feel like I have the will to live anymore.
*sigh* I don't know what to do.
I hope everyone has had a good 2021 so far with the first week already gone in January. I am just writing this down to update people that I have confidence in myself to draw again and will be drawing more often when I can now. So, expect much more art streams coming on at around 8pm - 11pm (GMT+8).
As for everything else, I really don't know what to say. My life seems bleak right now. Nothing's really improving, nothing's really going up the scales other than my weight. I just feel dead inside. I don't have the spark to be in my job anymore and it hurts me greatly because of me not taking care of myself; I won't have a raise this year. Frankly, I have not been taking care of myself. I walk in the rain, I leave my room in a mess and I get sick often because of it. I just feel like crying everyday and I don't know why. I mostly feel like I don't want to work at all anymore. I just feel like I want to just lay on my bed for the rest of my life. My spark to live has been snuffed out and I don't know what to do anymore. My eyesight is getting worse, my weight is getting worse, maybe my other illnesses are too and I am not seeing it.
I am just at a loss at what to do in life anymore. I feel lonely and lost almost every day.
At this point, I don't feel like I have the will to live anymore.
*sigh* I don't know what to do.
Sleep Study Results
Posted 4 years agoHello everyone!
Thank you for helping donate to my campaign so far and I have gotten the results for my sleep study. Apparently, I stopped breathing 150 times an hour during my sleep and my oxygen levels went down to 70%. For comparison, a normal reading would be breathing stopped at 0-5 times an hour and 95% to 100% of oxygen levels.
To test out the machine, the hospital has provided a CPAP trial rental machine for me for one month and if I want to buy it directly from them it would cost $2500 total including the mask, so I may need to raise my funding to fit the value of the CPAP machine. I hope people understand. These prices are what I got from the vendor of the CPAP machine for the trial run and I hope I may be able to get it soon.
Please do continue to help donate and spread the word if you can so I can have the machine to improve my sleep and life for the better.
The donation link is here: https://goget.fund/38SOpht
Thank you
Below is the CPAP machine trial rental that is provided for me:
https://imgur.com/tgWZvKO
Thank you for helping donate to my campaign so far and I have gotten the results for my sleep study. Apparently, I stopped breathing 150 times an hour during my sleep and my oxygen levels went down to 70%. For comparison, a normal reading would be breathing stopped at 0-5 times an hour and 95% to 100% of oxygen levels.
To test out the machine, the hospital has provided a CPAP trial rental machine for me for one month and if I want to buy it directly from them it would cost $2500 total including the mask, so I may need to raise my funding to fit the value of the CPAP machine. I hope people understand. These prices are what I got from the vendor of the CPAP machine for the trial run and I hope I may be able to get it soon.
Please do continue to help donate and spread the word if you can so I can have the machine to improve my sleep and life for the better.
The donation link is here: https://goget.fund/38SOpht
Thank you
Below is the CPAP machine trial rental that is provided for me:
https://imgur.com/tgWZvKO
Under A Lot of Stress
Posted 5 years agoHello everyone! I hope all of you are doing well.
First and foremost, I'd like to thank everyone who has donated and spread the word of my fundraiser to get the CPAP machine for my obstructive sleep apnea. I am greatly thankful and it's almost halfway there to achieving the goal. It's a great pleasure knowing that there is a community out there willing to help someone in need when they can.
I am writing this journal to think aloud lately. I am just under a lot of stress of a lot of changes needed happen in my life. Firstly, the machine I am getting which helps me improve my sleep which will in turn provide a boost of energy during the day. Additionally, I need to lose weight to just stop all this medical issues that are swarming towards me because I am quite worried of it myself. I have been falling sick a lot lately and been feeling weak to even draw. I have not been drawing lately and I hate it. It hurts to draw because my hand gets cramped up and weak after some time of drawing. Thirdly, I need a better PC because my laptop is slowly dying. I can't stream on it anymore, the screen is leaking fluids and it's just getting old from it all.
I am just worried that I may not get the machine or I may not be able to lower my weight or may not to replace my PC in time and it has just put me under a great amount of stress. I worry about these things every day. As much as I am taking action for a lot of my issues, there's only so much I can do. I am just one person.
Well, thank you if you read up to this point. I am just writing this to put my thoughts out because I can't really hold it in anymore. I feel like I am out of luck or am undeserving of the things I want to get especially when I work so hard at my real job to get the things I want. It's just extremely tiring honestly and I jut don't know what to do. I hope everyone is having a great December at least.
If you still want to help donate; you can do so here: https://goget.fund/38SOpht
Thanks for reading this journal. I appreciate the concern from everyone if you're willing to show it. Have a great December, stay in and stay safe.
First and foremost, I'd like to thank everyone who has donated and spread the word of my fundraiser to get the CPAP machine for my obstructive sleep apnea. I am greatly thankful and it's almost halfway there to achieving the goal. It's a great pleasure knowing that there is a community out there willing to help someone in need when they can.
I am writing this journal to think aloud lately. I am just under a lot of stress of a lot of changes needed happen in my life. Firstly, the machine I am getting which helps me improve my sleep which will in turn provide a boost of energy during the day. Additionally, I need to lose weight to just stop all this medical issues that are swarming towards me because I am quite worried of it myself. I have been falling sick a lot lately and been feeling weak to even draw. I have not been drawing lately and I hate it. It hurts to draw because my hand gets cramped up and weak after some time of drawing. Thirdly, I need a better PC because my laptop is slowly dying. I can't stream on it anymore, the screen is leaking fluids and it's just getting old from it all.
I am just worried that I may not get the machine or I may not be able to lower my weight or may not to replace my PC in time and it has just put me under a great amount of stress. I worry about these things every day. As much as I am taking action for a lot of my issues, there's only so much I can do. I am just one person.
Well, thank you if you read up to this point. I am just writing this to put my thoughts out because I can't really hold it in anymore. I feel like I am out of luck or am undeserving of the things I want to get especially when I work so hard at my real job to get the things I want. It's just extremely tiring honestly and I jut don't know what to do. I hope everyone is having a great December at least.
If you still want to help donate; you can do so here: https://goget.fund/38SOpht
Thanks for reading this journal. I appreciate the concern from everyone if you're willing to show it. Have a great December, stay in and stay safe.
Getting a CPAP Machine
Posted 5 years agoI have set up a GoGetFunding Page to ask for help in order to get a CPAP machine. It costs around 2000SGD and I need it to live a much more energized life and not be exhausted or fatigued. I currently live alone and struggling to make ends meet and I hope your donation will help me able to afford the machine. To help donate or spread the word, please go to this page: https://gogetfunding.com/to-live-a-.....nergized-life/
I need all the help I can get because living such an exhausted and fatigued day has made me lose concentration at work and my general daily activities. I don't even have the energy to do much of anything without ever wanting to collapse on my bed. Thank you for reading this and hope you can spread the word or chip in a little if you can.
I need all the help I can get because living such an exhausted and fatigued day has made me lose concentration at work and my general daily activities. I don't even have the energy to do much of anything without ever wanting to collapse on my bed. Thank you for reading this and hope you can spread the word or chip in a little if you can.
Discord Server
Posted 5 years agoCome join my Discord Server so you can see sketches not posted on FA and talk with other folk!
https://discord.gg/BRpNry29Tv
https://discord.gg/BRpNry29Tv