Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Been residing in a "facility". The DHS raided my lab. They took everything. Finally admitted there was nothing to charge me with. But they've kept the reactor and all of my computers.Now they want me to give them access to the research files I was smart enough to take off the servers and stash. For some reason Boeing has gotten involved. And a bunch of guys from Harvard and MIT want to "review" my papers. FUCK YOU! They kept me locked up for 5 months without charges and now they want me to give them my research. My little girl cat Marie (16 years old) died while I was in there and the other two are sick as hell from lack of attention. WTF? They couldn't crack the encryption on the servers so now they want to make nice and give them access. They still have my equipment. They still have my computers. And they can't figure out what some lowly backwater hack was up to? Boeing says I was infringing on something or other that they're been vague about explaining. Well I'm back and I'm going to release my stuff to the net before I have to give it to them. I'm setting up a website for just that purpose. I'm not doing anything that a lot of other people aren't investigating. I'm just an easy target. And now I've lost 5 months of my life in a place filled with some of the worst people you'd ever want to meet. All they've done is to piss me off. And as Bruce Banner once said. You wouldn't like me when I'm mad. Sorry I've had to rant here. It's the one place they haven't seemed to have invaded. Furries Rule. Thanks to all of the people who stayed in contact. Kept me going through some dark days.

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Been residing in a "facility". The DHS raided my lab. They took everything. Finally admitted there was nothing to charge me with. But they've kept the reactor and all of my computers.Now they want me to give them access to the research files I was smart enough to take off the servers and stash. For some reason Boeing has gotten involved. And a bunch of guys from Harvard and MIT want to "review" my papers. FUCK YOU! They kept me locked up for 5 months without charges and now they want me to give them my research. My little girl cat Marie died while I was in there and the other two are sick as hell from lack of attention. WTF? They couldn't crack the encryption on the servers so now they want to make nice and give them access. They still have my equipment. They still have my computers. And they can't figure out what some lowly backwater hack was up to? Boeing says I was infringing on something or other that they're been vague about explaining. Well I'm back and I'm going to release my stuff to the net before I have to give it to them. I'm setting up a website for just that purpose. I'm not doing anything that a lot of other people aren't investigating. I'm just an easy target. And now I've lost 5 months of my life in a place filled with some of the worst people you'd ever want to meet. All they've done is to piss me off. And as Bruce Banner once said. You wouldn't like me when I'm mad. Sorry I've had to rant here. It's the one place they haven't seemed to have invaded. Furries Rule. Thanks to all of the people who stayed in contact. Kept me going through some dark days.

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Been residing in a "facility". The DHS raided my lab. They took everything. Finally admitted there was nothing to charge me with. But they've kept the reactor and all of my computers.Now they want me to give them access to the research files I was smart enough to take off the servers and stash. For some reason Boeing has gotten involved. And a bunch of guys from Harvard and MIT want to "review" my papers. FUCK YOU! They kept me locked up for 5 months without charges and now they want me to give them my research. WTF? They couldn't crack the encryption on the servers so now they want to make nice and give them access. They still have my equipment. They still have my computers. And they can't figure out what some lowly backwater hack was up to? Boeing says I was infringing on something or other that they're been vague about explaining. Well I'm back and I'm going to release my stuff to the net before I have to give it to them. I'm setting up a website for just that purpose. I'm not doing anything that a lot of other people aren't investigating. I'm just an easy target. And now I've lost 5 months of my life in a place filled with some of the worst people you'd ever want to meet. All they've done is to piss me off. And as Bruce Banner once said. You wouldn't like me when I'm mad. Sorry I've had to rant here. It's the one place they haven't seemed to have invaded. Furries Rule. Thanks to all of the people who stayed in contact. Kept me going through some dark days.

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Been residing in a "facility". The DHS raided my lab. They took everything. Finally admitted there was nothing to charge me with. But they've keep the reactor and all of my computers.Now they want me to give them access to the research files I was smart enough to take off the servers and stash. For some reason Boeing has gotten involved. And a bunch of guys from Harvard and MIT want to "review my papers. FUCK YOU! They kept me locked up for 5 months without charges and now they want me to give them my research. WTF? They couldn't crack the encryption on the servers so now they want to make nice. They still have my equipment. They still have my computers. And they can't figure out what some lowly backwater hack was up to? Boeing says I was infringing on something or other that they're been vague about explaining. Well I'm back and I'm going to release my stuff to the net before I have to give it to them. I'm setting up a website for just that purpose. I'm not doing anything that a lot of other people aren't investigating. I'm just an easy target. And now I've lost 5 months of my life in a place filled with some of the worst people you'd ever want to meet. All they've done is to piss me off. And as Bruce Banner once said. You wouldn't like me when I'm mad. Sorry I've had to rant here. It's the one place they haven't seemed to have invaded.

Having Heart Surgery friday at 12:30 pm
Wish me luck. I'm a bit scared. Honestly I
wouldn't be doing it if I didn't need it. The
thought of someone cutting into my body
fucking freaks me out. But I want to be
around for my family. I've died before and
No Sir, I didn't like it. But I learned that
it isn't the end. Just too different to describe.
If they screw up I hope someone misses me.
Sorry, I'm just being a whiny little bitch. Almost
nothing scares me. This time is different.

No Anesthetic, It hurts like hell to have someone
cut you open and insert instruments. I lived through
it though. So That's cool. Now it gets worse since
they want to open my chest. Seems that my weapons
work for the USAF caused some damage. Radiation
rocks but they didn't take the precautions I do. Now
I'm about to pay the price. But I'm still here. Gonna
be down for a while. So it's a good time to get out
the pad and do some drawing....

Having Heart Surgery tomorrow at 12:30 pm
Wish me luck. I'm a bit scared. Honestly I
wouldn't be doing it if I didn't need it. The
thought of someone cutting into my body
fucking freaks me out. But I want to be
around for my family. I've died before and
No Sir, I didn't like it. But I learned that
it isn't the end. Just too different to describe.
If they screw up I hope someone misses me.
Sorry, I'm just being a whiny little bitch. Almost
nothing scares me. This time is different.

No Anesthetic, It hurts like hell to have someone
cut you open and insert instruments. I lived through
it though. So That's cool. Now it gets worse since
they want to open my chest. Seems that my weapons
work for the USAF caused some damage. Radiation
rocks but they didn't take the precautions I do. Now
I'm about to pay the price. But I'm still here. Gonna
be down for a while. So it's a good time to get out
the pad and do some drawing....

Having Heart Surgery tomorrow at 12:30 pm
Wish me luck. I'm a bit scared. Honestly I
wouldn't be doing it if I didn't need it. The
thought of someone cutting into my body
fucking freaks me out. But I want to be
around for my family. I've died before and
No Sir, I didn't like it. But I learned that
it isn't the end. Just too different to describe.
If they screw up I hope someone misses me.
Sorry, I'm just being a whiny little bitch. Almost
nothing scares me. This time is different.

Having Heart Surgery tomorrow at 12:30 pm
Wish me luck. I'm a bit scared. Honestly I
wouldn't be doing it if I didn't need it. The
thought of someone cutting into my body
fucking freaks me out. But I want to be
around for my family. I've died before and
No Sir, I didn't like it. But I learned that
it isn't the end. Just too different to describe.
If they screw up I hope someone misses me.

DHS came knocking and I had to defend myself. Slowed things down for the last few months. Fuck them. I've decided to crank things up a few notches. I'd say why I need this fusion reactor but I'd probably have someone else trying to rip my head off and crap down my neck. Let's just say that time isn't as fixed and immutable as it's made out to be. Information isn't governed by physics. It can be sent in reverse. Finding a receiver is the problem. Especially if that receiver is supposed to be yourself. I'm not sure how to solve that quandary. Unless I've already sent myself information that's let me do the experiments I'm doing now. My head hurts. I do have some weird net mail thats helped a lot. On another note the rocket with the gamma detector reached 23,000 feet before I lost it. I hope whoever finds it sends me some e-mail so I can get it back. The telemetry was great but I'd like to get the atmospheric sampler plates back. BTW, if you fly a lot, get a cancer screening. And I'm hoping I don't screw things up. I mean, someone has to have tried this before right? the worst that's happened so far is an unexpected neutron burst from too much deuterium in the initial startup. What could go wrong?

The power supply in my main 3.5ghz 20 terabyte server caught fire on Monday. I'm trying to recover all of that data but may have lost several years of emails and research. Bummer. However, onward through the fog and keep moving forward and all that. Still right now all I can think is, SHIT!!!!

I'd already backed up a lot of that data but, SHIT!!!!! none the less....... Lost all of my saved Furaffinity files. :sad: But there is always a bright light. The lab is filled with a lot of volatile chemicals that can explode if you look at them wrong. Because of that I enclose anything that could possibly be a hazard in it's own case. That confined the fire to the server destroying the drives but, the lab didn't explode. And I have several DVD-ROM backups that with a lot of effort will allow me to at least get a running start on getting the AI I use to help me run the lab (I usually work alone so it's necessary) back to at least a re-learning stage.

It's name is Prometheus by the way. Ironic. 20,000,000,000 bytes of data is a lot but I'm a bit paranoid so I backup frequently. I got an automated CD duplicator a few years back and modified it to do automated DVD-ROM backups of the Linux and Windows systems so it's a start. I guess you do learn from your mistakes. Still, I feel like crying a bit. The AI's high resolution stereoscopic vision system is toast. And the voice synthesis hardware and software is so old I'm probably going to have to redesign them from scratch. Sorry I'm rambling but I'm still really upset and I guess I need to vent a bit.

Some asshole ran into my van. Bummer. I'm working on repairs to the van. A power surge in the town I live killed all of the rest of my computers and my televisions and I'm wondering if the universe is out to get me. I haven't been able to eat for 5 days. On top of that my identity was stolen and my bank account drained of over 2500 dollars. I'm afraid to go around my friends in case it rubs off. I'm not going to whine about it, it's just pissing me off. I've tracked the hackers back to Russia but that's no help.

The power supply in my main 3.5ghz 20 terabyte server caught fire on Monday. I'm trying to recover all of that data but may have lost several years of emails and research. Bummer. However, onward through the fog and keep moving forward and all that. Still right now all I can think is, SHIT!!!!

I'd already backed up a lot of that data but, SHIT!!!!! none the less....... Lost all of my saved Furaffinity files. :sad: But there is always a bright light. The lab is filled with a lot of volatile chemicals that can explode if you look at them wrong. Because of that I enclose anything that could possibly be a hazard in it's own case. That confined the fire to the server destroying the drives but, the lab didn't explode. And I have several DVD-ROM backups that with a lot of effort will allow me to at least get a running start on getting the AI I use to help me run the lab (I usually work alone so it's necessary) back to at least a re-learning stage.

It's name is Prometheus by the way. Ironic. 20,000,000,000 bytes of data is a lot but I'm a bit paranoid so I backup frequently. I got an automated CD duplicator a few years back and modified it to do automated DVD-ROM backups of the Linux and Windows systems so it's a start. I guess you do learn from your mistakes. Still, I feel like crying a bit. The AI's high resolution stereoscopic vision system is toast. And the voice synthesis hardware and software is so old I'm probably going to have to redesign them from scratch. Sorry I'm rambling but I'm still really upset and I guess I need to vent a bit.

The power supply in my main 3.5ghz 20 terabyte server caught fire on Monday. I'm trying to recover all of that data but may have lost several years of emails and research. Bummer. However, onward through the fog and keep moving forward and all that. Still right now all I can think is, SHIT!!!! I'd already backed up a lot of that data but, SHIT!!!!! none the less....... Lost all of my saved Furaffinity files. :sad:

It is so hot here....

This may be off base. But I have found that it doesn't matter if you are
male or female or whatever. If you like things inserted into you, you will
after a time start to lubricate. For females it's easier because of the wonderful
advantage mom gave them with those glands and all but for females
and males the rear entrance will with enough loving care start to relax
and make things easier. In fact the rear entrance will start to produce
as much pleasure inducing lubrication on it's own. Who knew? It's not
like I'm sitting here with a 12" toy up my ass or anything. Heaven forbid.

That would be sooooo wrong, right? But it was on my mind. The furry community
is so much more open to discussion to "theoretical" concepts. And really
I haven't ever heard from "males" about this. It can't be a one off. But
there is a certain lack of communication between men and women about
"other entrances". And frankly I love it when my mate explores.

Just musing. The reality is no matter how open minded we may think we
are we shy away from certain subjects because we feel uncomfortable
about them. And we are supposed to be the free thinkers, right? We pride
ourselves on being outside the box. But when it comes down to the real
physical reality of the things we love most People shy away. The furry
community is about free expression. Being your real self. When I talk
about the real animal feelings I have most furrys are put off. When we
try to express ourselves sexually we often self censor from a fear of going
too far. Well if you are truly a furry. If you are different and truly want to
love who you are, then don't be afraid to address the nitty gritty of life
that's different. I don't. My relatives don't talk to me because I'm to strange.

But out of the other sides of their mouths they say how much they admire
my free spirit. Mixed messages anyone? There are things that must be
discussed. And male "female" anal lubrication is just to start the discussion
going. It's an extreem I know but it's a start. Besides, pleasure is something
we all have in common. Especially with a happy and willing partner. We all
have our various trepidations about revealing ourselves to others. But they
can force us into a bad place when it comes to ourselves. And I have
met too many people who are depressed because of some perceived
personal fault or imagined fault.

The furry community is a place that allows for the most freedom of
personal expression I have ever found. But lately I talk to too many
furries who are still afraid of being themselves. STOP. We as a community
need to get over ourselves and really be more supportive. And that means
being more open and tolerant of our fellows. Besides where else can we
be our freaky selves but with each other. Fuck the outworlders. Being furry
means being different, being creative and being openly honest in our
sexuality. If you're not some creepy sexual preditor, and you do care
and love the people who make up your pack. Go for it. And do discuss
the real nitty gritty down to earth aspects of being you. Yes you may get
flamed. You may get rejected. But the world has almost 7 billion people
in it and a lot of them are on the internet. It's going to suck sometimes.

But from the detritis you will find a lot or really good folks. I know I'm
trying. I've promised myself to be open and honest and forthright with
the people I meet here. Even if it means I embarass myself. I'm an open
honest and loving caring person. If I say or promise someone something I will do
it. It costs nothing to be yourself when in the end you enrich your life
with the new fantistic people that are out there to know. Besides, you might
get laid with someone you'll like when you're done. It had to be said.
Sorry, And in the end you maje make a friend for life. It's worth the risk.

It has been for me despite the hurts. Murrrrrrrr