why must my life suck so muuuuuch x.x

THERES A FURSUIT COSTUME IN SILENT HILL ORIGINS!

have to beat the game without saving to get it :O

*starts trudging through hell again*

http://silenthillorigins.com/silent.....-accolades.php
scroll down towards the bottom to see it :DDDDD

if you loved me so much youd make a journal about me.

if you loved me so much youd be commenting me
if you wanted to be with me youd be with me

but i bet you wont tell him those things because "you dont want to hurt him"

how fucking unfair is that...
that i have to play behind the scenes and see you doing all the same shit with someone else..

bullshit..

it sucks knowing you could have everything you ever wanted...
but you screwed up your chances for it by being a fucking moron...

i always wanted someone to love me.. someone i could love in return...
and over the years ive had so many chances but something always went wrong.. sometimes my fault.. usualy just because they didnt really want me...


but i could have had it for real this time.. and i was so busy being afraid that i let it all get away...
i was afraid id get hurt again.. or that id just end up getting used... and in the end me being as cautious as i was.. caused it...

i wake up every morning with a memory of you etched in my mind..
and the longer i think about it.. the more painful it becomes.. overshadowed by someone else..

no matter what i do.. there will always be someone who can do better.. there will always be someone who i just cant compete with...
i wish that i had done what i needed to do when i had the chance.,.. and now that its too late.. i have nothing but regret...

no happy memories.. all my memories just make me realize how much of a fool i was...
every touch... every kiss... every stupid little argument.. all those things that made us who we were together.. all they do is make a fool of me now.. taunting me and rubbing in my face that theres nothing left for me to do...

i just want something.. something to hold on to right now to let me know that its all okay.. that everything will be okay...
my friends arnt really the emotionaly comforting type.. the only one i ever could turn to for that kind of comfort was you.. and.. it seems wrong some how to seek comfort for pain thats caused by this from you..

so i have to cry my tears alone.. like i have since my best friend left
and all i really want to say is...
"i love you so much.. please just come home..."

but.. what home is there to come back to.. what reason would you have to come back...

as they say.. you dont know what you have till its gone.. cliched i know but anyone whos ever felt this way knows its true...




still holding onto the hope that one day ill be good enough for someone...
Dusty

yeah, that was a joke
hah. gotyah

no.. my life sucks. my cars broken
i have no money
im single and miserable
the person i want has someone now and likes him too much to even think about me..
scott lives far away and its too expensive to see eachother..
furfright will make me miserable for one of above reasons
i need to stop listening to sad music but i dont want to~
me being an idiot tookm a whole bunch of pills the other night, fail.

i could just ramble on about how much my life just sucks right now..

what sucks more is the people i care about are doing perfectly fine with there new lives -.-

my mom just offered to help me afford furfright =/

but.. i dont know if i really want to go yet.. i could be wasting all that money on a miserable time seeing the guys i care deeply for with other people x.x

and flaunting them like they're the new thing


merf.. i want to go but i dont want to have a shitty time.. and i know ill end up really upset seeing them..

Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down
Don’t you know I tried so hard
To love you in my way
It’s easy let it go...
Adia I’m empty since you left me
Trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
To see where we went wrong
’cause there’s no one left to finger
There’s no one here to blame
There’s no one left to talk to, honey
And there ain’t no one to buy our innocence
’cause we are born innocent
Believe me adia, we are still innocent
It’s easy, we all falter
Does it matter?
Adia I thought that we could make it
But I know I can’t change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
A friend who won’t betray
I pull you from your tower
I take away your pain
And show you all the beauty you possess
If you’d only let yourself believe that
We are born innocent
Believe me adia, we are still innocent
It’s easy, we all falter, does it matter?
Believe me adia, we are still innocent
’cause we are born innocent
Adia we are still innocent
It’s easy, we all falter ... but does it matter?

1. Open your music library.
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.
7. ???
8. PROFIT!

Songs:

Opening Credits:
Evanescence - Imaginary


Waking Up:
Lost Woods - Legend of Zelda: OoT


First Day At School:
Pas De Cheval - Panic! At The Disco

Falling In love:
Kiss the Girl - Colbie Caillat (holy crap no way)


Fight Song:
Calling You - Blue October

Breaking Up:
Dust In The Wind - The Eagles

Prom:
Duvet - Boa (from serial experiments lain, acoustic version)

Life's OK:
Pirates of Dragon Roost Island - remix of Dragon roost island from Legend of Zelda Wind Waker


Mental Breakdown:
The Road to Purgation - FFX

Driving:
Wandering - Final Fantasy X

Flashback:
Listen to Your Heart - Roxette

Getting Back Together:
Simple and Clean - Utada Hikaru

Wedding:
Ru'Lude Gardens - Final Fantasy 11

Birth of Child:
Yasashii Yoake - .hack//SIGN credits

Final Battle:
This aint a Scene, It's a God Damn Arms Race - Fall Out Boy

Death Scene:
Take A Look At Me Now - Phil Collins

Funeral Song:
At Emperor's Palace - Hero Soundtrack

End Credits:
Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me - TISM













okay so my cars broke, and i cant afford to go to FF and to fix it.. so i cant go to Fur Fright this year.

at least this way i wont have to bump into Argus and his new boyfriend and rain and his.

so i guess in the end its for the best i dont go

well.. no one had any interest in asking shiuk any questions
so.. meh..

this whole things probably not gonna work out.

if any one even still wants it feel free to offer support

but its pretty much just me doing it atm

well.. no one had any interest in asking shiuk any questions
so.. meh..

this whole things probably not gonna work out.

if any one even still wants it feel free to offer support

but its pretty much just me doing it atm

well. sitting around thinking about things, i figured i mineas well unveil the first artist chosen and confirmed to be the guinea pig for the first attempt at FAN!

im telling thisn now so that anyone who has questions for this artist whether it be about they're style or how they achieve what they do, or even what they like to draw most or hobbies even, can send me a note through FA and we will try and get those questions answered in the final version!

DO NOT POST QUESTIONS IN THIS JOURNAL CAUSE IT WILL RUIN THE SUPRISE IN THE ISSUE!!

anyway, the artist chosen for the first attempt is..

*drum roll*
*curtain raises*

 shiuk!

feel free to send me any questions you might have in a note form, with your fursona's name in the note as well so you get credit for the question!

thank you!

well. since theres actualy quite a bit of support for this idea
me and  xrainriekox have starting brain storming ideas for making it something that everyone can get into and take part in!

FIRST OFF
we plan on letting you all know who the artist in the the issue will be AHEAD of time so you can note us question youd like us to ask them and have answered for you!

which will come up in a little Q&A section along with (we hope) a section where the artist can talk about what they did to get where they are and offer helpful tips and hints to other artists!

Secondly!
we hope on having a section for upcoming con information such as dates, prices hotel bookings and even fun things to do during the cons!

and our third bright idea so far!

is to hold a contest from which we will choose 1 1st place winner and 2 other winners, second and third.
first place winner gets the picturee they entered into the contest as the cover for the whole thing!

since itll probably just be a blog thing atfirst this will be the first thing people see when they come to the page to read the letter.
and we will be plugging the artists who help us out ion hopes to get them more watches and more commissions and help out our community!


SHOW YOUR SUPPORT BY LETTING US KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!!

i had an idea upon waking up this morning

what if i styarted a little newsletter thing that id post on FA that would feature an artist maybe once or twice a month
like a new upcoming artists or somethiong, just getting info from them and writing a little paragraph about them or something to get them some more watches you know?


and also just to put little stupid info about whats going on in the community for the time.

who would even be interested in reading this?

i know i dont have many watches so id like word to get out if i did start it.. opr even a way to post it so more people in the community will see it

my power cord came in the mail today

praise your coony god, for he has risen from the depths of the "RL"

"I totally want to drink a gallon of that shit.

I don't care if my heart bursts straight out through my ribcage. It's concentrated Red Bull!

CONCENTRATED RED BULL!

If I mix that shit with Jack Daniel's, I'm pretty sure I'll become the Highlander.

Or die."


http://bannable-offenses.blogspot.com/



i love this guy xD