Last journal stretched my page lol

so is the pokemon check list https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10308344

Looking for the claim sheet?
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48674205/

Bulbasaur - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48618683/

Ivysaur - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48630649/

Venusaur - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48645455/

Charmander - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48659099/

Charmeleon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48674252

Charizard - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48689324/

Squirtle - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48702364/

Wartortle - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48715892/

Blastoise - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48729644/

Caterpie - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48744646/

Metapod - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48764833/

Butterfree - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48782730/

Weedle - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48797709/

Kakuna - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48812329/

Beedrill - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48827351/

Pidgey - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48841208/

Pidgeotto - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48856270/

Pidgeot https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48879807/

Rattata - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53508537/

Raticate - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53509021/

Spearow - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55115679/

Fearow

Ekans - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55632559/

Arbok

Pikachu - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51541889/

Raichu

Sandshrew - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55643500/

Sandslash

Nidoran

Nidorina

Nidoqueen - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51484359/

Nidorino

Nidoking

Clefairy - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50826677/

Clefable

Vulpix

Ninetales - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52795036/

Jigglypuff

Wigglytuff

Zubat

Golbat

Oddish

Gloom

Vileplume

Paras

Parasect

Venonat

Venomoth

Diglett

Dugtrio

Meowth

Persian - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51208414/

Psyduck

Golduck

Mankey

Primeape

Growlithe

Arcanine

Poliwag

Poliwhirl

Poliwrath

Abra

Kadabra

Alakazam

Machop

Machoke

Machamp

Bellsprout - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50445938/

Weepinbell

Victreebel

Tentacool

Tentacruel

Geodude

Graveler

Golem

Ponyta

Rapidash - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57480878/

Slowpoke

Slowbro

Magnemite

Magneton - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50813338/

Farfetch’d

Doduo

Dodrio

Seel

Dewgong

Grimer - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51459312/

Muk - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51471935/

Shellder

Cloyster

Gastly

Haunter

Gengar - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52086769/

Onix

Drowzee

Hypno - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52239798/

Krabby

Kingler

Voltorb - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52104349/

Electrode

Exeggcute

Exeggutor

Cubone

Marowak

Hitmonlee

Hitmonchan

Lickitung

Koffing

Weezing

Rhyhorn

Rhydon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52251547/

Chansey

Tangela

Kangaskhan

Horsea

Seadra

Goldeen

Seaking

Staryu

Starmie

Mr. Mime

Scyther

Jynx

Electabuzz

Magmar

Pinsir

Tauros

Magikarp

Gyarados

Lapras - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50853329/ + https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51720102/

??? - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52221697/

Ditto - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57492497/

Eevee - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50748056/

Vaporeon -

Jolteon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56201357/

Flareon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55203702/

Porygon

Omanyte

Omastar

Kabuto

Kabutops

Aerodactyl

Snorlax - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52836889/

Articuno

Zapdos

Moltres

Dratini - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51635940/

Dragonair - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51306601/ + https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51323774/

Dragonite - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51899996/

Mewtwo -

Mega Mewtwo X - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49939404/

Mew - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52286361/

Chikorita - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55058096/

Bayleef - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55104534/

Meganium

Cyndaquil - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55032568/

Quilava - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55044943/

Typhlosion - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52274888/

Totodile - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51356773/

Croconaw - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52297911/

Feraligatr - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52915957/

Sentret - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53410765/

Furret

Hoothoot - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52313493/

Noctowl - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53507437/

Ledyba

Ledian

Spinarak

Ariados

Crobat

Chinchou - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55215696/

Lanturn

Pichu

Cleffa

Igglybuff

Togepi

Togetic

Natu

Xatu

Mareep

Flaaffy

Ampharos

Bellossom - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53396045/

Marill

Azumarill

Sudowoodo

Politoed

Hoppip

Skiploom

Jumpluff

Aipom

Sunkern

Sunflora

Yanma

Wooper

Quagsire

Espeon

Umbreon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52321662/

Murkrow - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57472804/

Slowking

Misdreavus - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51126964/

Unown

Wobbuffet

Girafarig

Pineco

Forretress

Dunsparce

Gligar

Steelix

Snubbull

Granbull

Qwilfish

Scizor

Shuckle

Heracross

Sneasel

Teddiursa

Ursaring

Slugma

Magcargo

Swinub

Piloswine

Corsola

Remoraid

Octillery

Delibird

Mantine

Skarmory

Houndour

Houndoom - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51887937/

Kingdra

Phanpy

Donphan

Porygon2

Stantler

Smeargle

Tyrogue

Hitmontop

Smoochum

Elekid

Magby

Miltank - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51374235/

Blissey

Raikou - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51554222/

Entei

Suicune - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50669958/

Larvitar

Pupitar

Tyranitar

Lugia -

Ho-Oh

Celebi

Treecko

Grovyle - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51178280/

Sceptile

Torchic

Combusken

Blaziken - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55874234/

Mudkip

Marshtomp

Swampert

Poochyena

Mightyena - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53510247/

Zigzagoon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50657312/

Linoone

Wurmple - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52346634/

Silcoon

Beautifly

Cascoon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52359884/

Dustox - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53504958/

Lotad

Lombre

Ludicolo

Seedot

Nuzleaf

Shiftry

Taillow

Swellow

Wingull

Pelipper

Ralts - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50455048/

Kirlia - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50467385/

Gardevoir - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52334291/

Surskit

Masquerain

Shroomish

Breloom

Slakoth

Vigoroth

Slaking

Nincada

Ninjask - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54267471/

Shedinja - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54267471/

Whismur

Loudred

Exploud

Makuhita

Hariyama

Azurill

Nosepass

Skitty - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52385431/

Delcatty - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52372989/

Sableye

Mawile

Aron - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52409478/

Lairon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52421791/

Aggron - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52397614/

Meditite

Medicham

Electrike

Manectric

Plusle

Minun

Volbeat

Illumise

Roselia

Gulpin

Swalot

Carvanha

Sharpedo

Wailmer

Wailord - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54281704/

Numel

Camerupt

Torkoal

Spoink

Grumpig

Spinda

Trapinch

Vibrava

Flygon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50480002/

Cacnea

Cacturne

Swablu

Altaria

Zangoose - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52434235/

Seviper

Lunatone

Solrock

Barboach

Whiscash

Corphish

Crawdaunt

Baltoy

Claydol

Lileep

Cradily

Anorith

Armaldo

Feebas

Milotic - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53768958/

Castform

Kecleon

Shuppet

Banette

Duskull

Dusclops - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53516613/

Tropius

Chimecho

Absol - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52446386/

Mega Absol - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53509454/

Wynaut

Snorunt

Glalie

Spheal - Claimed - Ultimate artist - CharKoal177 twit

Sealeo

Walrein

Clamperl

Huntail

Gorebyss

Relicanth

Luvdisc

Bagon

Shelgon

Salamence

Beldum

Metang

Metagross

Regirock

Regice

Registeel

Latias - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52464051/

Latios

Kyogre

Groudon

Rayquaza - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53205030/

Jirachi

Deoxys

Turtwig

Grotle

Torterra

Chimchar

Monferno

Infernape

Piplup - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55026326/

Prinplup

Empoleon

Starly

Staravia

Staraptor

Bidoof

Bibarel - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56225268/

Kricketot

Kricketune

Shinx

Luxio

Luxray - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52881179/

Budew

Roserade

Cranidos

Rampardos

Shieldon

Bastiodon

Burmy

Wormadam

Mothim

Combee

Vespiquen - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50492375/

Pachirisu

Buizel - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51497075/

Floatzel - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54429718/

Cherubi

Cherrim

Shellos

Gastrodon

Ambipom

Drifloon

Drifblim

Buneary - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50505049/

Lopunny - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52470171/

Mismagius

Honchkrow

Glameow

Purugly

Chingling

Stunky

Skuntank

Bronzor

Bronzong

Bonsly

Mime Jr.

Happiny

Chatot

Spiritomb

Gible

Gabite

Garchomp - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50542734/

Munchlax

Riolu

Lucario - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52546503/

Hippopotas

Hippowdon

Skorupi

Drapion

Croagunk

Toxicroak

Carnivine

Finneon

Lumineon

Mantyke

Snover

Abomasnow

Weavile

Magnezone

Lickilicky

Rhyperior

Tangrowth

Electivire

Magmortar

Togekiss

Yanmega

Leafeon

Glaceon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53508048/

Gliscor

Mamoswine

Porygon-Z

Gallade

Probopass

Dusknoir -

Froslass

Rotom

Uxie

Mesprit

Azelf

Dialga - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50555939/

Palkia

Heatran

Regigigas

Giratina

Cresselia

Phione

Manaphy

Darkrai

Shaymin - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52693059/

Arceus - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54291918/

Victini

Snivy - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54048586/

Servine

Serperior

Tepig

Pignite

Emboar

Oshawott - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55608325/

Dewott

Samurott

Patrat

Watchog

Lillipup

Herdier

Stoutland

Purrloin

Liepard

Pansage

Simisage

Pansear

Simisear

Panpour

Simipour

Munna

Musharna

Pidove

Tranquill

Unfezant

Blitzle

Zebstrika

Roggenrola

Boldore

Gigalith

Woobat

Swoobat

Drilbur

Excadrill

Audino

Timburr

Gurdurr

Conkeldurr

Tympole

Palpitoad

Seismitoad

Throh

Sawk

Sewaddle - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50760851/

Swadloon - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51113633/

Leavanny - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51217502/

Venipede

Whirlipede

Scolipede - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54025670/

Cottonee

Whimsicott - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55069135/

Petilil

Lilligant

Basculin

Sandile

Krokorok

Krookodile

Darumaka

Darmanitan

Maractus

Dwebble

Crustle

Scraggy

Scrafty

Sigilyph

Yamask

Cofagrigus

Tirtouga

Carracosta

Archen

Archeops

Trubbish - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53505898/

Garbodor

Zorua

Zoroark - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50569440/

Minccino

Cinccino

Gothita

Gothorita - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52485393/

Gothitelle

Solosis

Duosion

Reuniclus

Ducklett

Swanna

Vanillite

Vanillish

Vanilluxe

Deerling

Sawsbuck

Emolga

Karrablast

Escavalier

Foongus

Amoonguss

Frillish

Jellicent

Alomomola

Joltik - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55258814/

Galvantula - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55483543/

Ferroseed

Ferrothorn

Klink

Klang

Klinklang

Tynamo - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50581618/

Eelektrik - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55273231/

Eelektross - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54429789/

Elgyem

Beheeyem

Litwick

Lampent

Chandelure

Axew

Fraxure

Haxorus

Cubchoo

Beartic

Cryogonal

Shelmet

Accelgor

Stunfisk

Mienfoo

Mienshao

Druddigon

Golett

Golurk

Pawniard

Bisharp

Bouffalant

Rufflet

Braviary

Vullaby

Mandibuzz

Heatmor

Durant

Deino

Zweilous

Hydreigon

Larvesta - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56213967/

Volcarona

Cobalion

Terrakion

Virizion

Tornadus

Thundurus

Reshiram - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55655905/

Zekrom

Landorus

Kyurem - CLAIMED - Big bro ????? NPM

Keldeo

Meloetta

Genesect

Chespin

Quilladin

Chesnaught

Fennekin - Mine

Braixen - Mine

Delphox - Mine owo;

Froakie

Frogadier

Greninja

Bunnelby

Diggersby

Fletchling

Fletchinder

Talonflame

Scatterbug

Spewpa

Vivillon

Litleo

Pyroar male

Pyroar female - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52826210/

Flabebe

Floette

Florges

Skiddo

Gogoat

Pancham

Pangoro

Furfrou

Espurr

Meowstic

Honedge

Doublade

Aegislash

Spritzee

Aromatisse

Swirlix

Slurpuff

Inkay

Malamar

Binacle

Barbaracle

Skrelp

Dragalge

Clauncher - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53506679/

Clawitzer

Helioptile

Heliolisk

Tyrunt

Tyrantrum

Amaura

Aurorus

Sylveon - CLAIMED - Cell - charles.milette - 2 parter

Hawlucha

Dedenne

Carbink

Goomy - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50774485/

Sliggoo - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51101010/

Goodra

Klefki

Phantump

Trevenant

Pumpkaboo

Gourgeist

Bergmite

Avalugg

Noibat

Noivern

Xerneas

Yveltal

Zygarde

Diancie

Hoopa

Volcanion

Rowlet

Dartrix

Decidueye - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50594018/

Litten - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51282081/

Torracat

Incineroar

Popplio

Brionne - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56029714/

Primarina

Pikipek

Trumbeak

Toucannon

Yungoos

Gumshoos

Grubbin

Charjabug

Vikavolt

Crabrawler

Crabominable

Oricorio

Cutiefly

Ribombee

Rockruff

Day Lycanroc

Dusk Lycanroc - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54187122/

Night Lycanroc

Wishiwashi

Mareanie

Toxapex

Mudbray

Mudsdale - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50631856/

Dewpider

Araquanid

Fomantis

Lurantis

Morelull

Shiinotic

Salandit

Salazzle

Stufful

Bewear

Bounsweet - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53345519/

Steenee - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53358354/

Tsareena - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54235500/

Comfey

Oranguru

Passimian

Wimpod

Golisopod

Sandygast

Palossand

Pyukumuku

Type: Null

Silvally - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54073159/

Minior

Komala

Turtonator

Togedemaru

Mimikyu

Bruxish

Drampa

Dhelmise

Jangmo-o

Hakamo-o

Kommo-o

Alolan Rattata

Alolan Raticate

Alolan Raichu - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54198440/

Alolan Sandshrew

Alolan Sandslash

Alolan Vulpix - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53510820/

Alolan Ninetales

Alolan Diglett

Alolan Dugtrio

Alolan Meowth

Alolan Persian

Alolan Geodude

Alolan Graveler

Alolan Golem

Alolan Grimer

Alolan Muk

Alolan Exeggutor

Alolan Marowak

Tapu Koko

Tapu Lele

Tapu Bulu

Tapu Fini

Cosmog

Cosmoem

Solgaleo

Lunala - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53219914/

Nihilego

Buzzwole

Pheromosa

Xurkitree

Celesteela

Kartana

Guzzlord

Necrozma

Magearna

Marshadow

Poipole

Naganadel

Stakataka

Blacephalon

Zeraora - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54026698/

Meltan

Melmetal

Grookey

Thwackey

Rillaboom

Scorbunny - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54213962

Raboot

Cinderace - CLAIMED - cell - chirrveon - 2 parter

Sobble

Drizzile

Inteleon

Skwovet

Greedent - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51191290/

Rookidee

Corvisquire

Corviknight

Blipbug

Dottler

Orbeetle

Nickit - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55092127/

Thievul - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55380589/

Gossifleur

Eldegoss

Wooloo - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51453282/

Dubwool

Chewtle

Drednaw

Yamper

Boltund

Rolycoly

Carkol

Coalossal

Applin

Flapple - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53785339/

Appletun - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53259526/ & https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55139892/

Silicobra

Sandaconda

Cramorant

Arrokuda

Barraskewda

Toxel

Toxtricity

Sizzlipede

Centiskorch

Clobbopus

Grapploct

Sinistea

Polteageist

Hatenna

Hattrem

Hatterene

Impidimp

Morgrem

Grimmsnarl

Galarian Zigzagoon

Galarian Linoone

Obstagoon

Galarian Meowth

Perrserker Galarian

Galarian Rapidash - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52813718/

Galarian Slowpoke

Galarian Slowbro

Galarian Slowking

Galarian Corsola

Cursola

Galarian Farfetch’d

Sirfetch'd

Galarian Weezing

Galarian Mr. Mime

Mr. Rime

Galarian Darumaka

Galarian Darmanitan

Galarian Yamask

Runerigus

Galarian Stunfisk

Milcery - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53509893/

Alcremie - CLAIMED - Detailed - Andrew488345

Falinks

Pincurchin

Snom -

Frosmoth

Stonjourner


Eiscue

Indeedee

Morpeko

Cufant

Copperajah

Dracozolt - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53616417/

Arctozolt

Dracovish

Arctovish

Duraludon

Dreepy - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50644508/

Drakloak

Dragapult - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51088141/

Zacian - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52677686/

Zamazenta

Eternatus

Kubfu

Urshifu

Zarude

Regieleki

Regidrago

Glastrier

Spectrier

Calyrex

Galarian Articuno - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52263494/

Galarian Zapdos

Galarian Moltres

Enamorus

Hisuian Decidueye

Hisuian Typhlosion - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55886606/

Hisuian Samurott

Hisuian Qwilfish

Hisuian Lilligant

Hisuian Sliggoo

Hisuian Goodra

Hisuian Growlithe

Hisuian Arcanine

Hisuian Voltorb

Hisuian Electrode

Hisuian Sneasel

Sneasler

Hisuian Avalugg

Hisuian Zorua

Hisuian Zoroark

Hisuian Braviary

Kleavor

Basculegion

Wyrdeer

Overqwil

-Scarlet and violet pokemon are able to be gotten. I'm just lazy at writing them out :V

Tinkaton - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52492398/

Revaroom - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54222492/

Last one was too long for mobile. Just gonna have this short one here now :3

I mostly just don't want that last one there forever lol.

But since I'm here and the last one lasted a whole year, let's jot down some things. Capture them in time ♡

I trace this a lot, to see how I got to now but maybe writing it out will be easier.

Last year (2021) I made the decision to get healthy so I can transition. It was suppose to be my whole focus that year but I couldn't really grasp it.

Somewhere around March I had a dream. One where a friend took me to a spa. I use to think this was princess_lil but as time goes on I'm not so sure about this. Anyway, during that spa trip I was turned from myself into velvet. And I think that's where all this really started in earnest.

Come June I poked my found family mom for transitioning information. This led to more general talks and a friendship forming. Though I stayed pretty distant. Kind of idly posting here and there on her server.

Then an incident happened in November, my grandma passed. For a long while she was the only person that was on my side or did much for me. Downside being I only really got to know her briefly and then covid happened so I didn't get to see her all of those 2 years.

After taking time off, a lit a fire under my ass. WHAT THE FUCK WAS I DOING!?!? I KNEW WHAT I WANTED, AND I WAS JUST SITTING THERE DOING NOTHING FOR 10 YEARS!? D: FUUUUUUUCK. The suicide attempt really left me still, and I feel horrible Nini's death woke me.

So in January I poked mom again. I had to do this, I wasn't me. I knew I wasn't me, something was insanely wrong. I've been living like this since u was 7. Waaaaaaay back when the first crack appeared.

She gave me the resources, I set a date to actually do it, was all set!!... I got scared, before now probably the most scared I've ever been. What if I was wrong, what if I'm rejected, oh god she helped me so much she's gonna be so disappointed in me. Fuck.

The day came, she poked, and I said I was pushing off to another day cause of nerves. I sat there for awhile just feeling bad but she poked back. "Would you like me to sit in a call with you?" WHICH CJKENFKJSO!!!!! YES I REALLY WANTED THAT! JUST ANYONE TO HOLD MY HAND DURING THIS!!

we hopped in a discord call. I made the call, she helped coach me a little as I waited. Before I knew it, it was over??? I was crying really hard?? I hadn't cried in years, I didn't even cry when Nini died. I felt so happy!!!

Like the whole 22 years of knowing just fucking crumbled, and the feeling of having hidden for so long faded. EVERYTHING FELT SO HYPER REAL AND HYPER FAKE!! @@ it was a dream I was literally walking through!!!

Then as the day grew closer the doubts came back. Mom talked me through them, and somewhere along the line she wanted me to tell her when I got to the place, when I got the pills. Was frankly very strange to have someone look forward to a thing for me.

Figured she just wanted to make sure I saw it through, then we'd go back to regular communication.

NOPE!! BIG NOPE!!

I GOT PULLED INTO A COMMUNITY @~@!! I was in their server before but now I was WAY MORE ACTIVE. Though it was still slow at first. I met alot of folks!! All very friendly and nice. While on twitter I started talking with even more folks!! Which is where I met my sister.

So

Month 1
Decided that I wanted to try this. Made the call, got my pills on the 21st, my rebirthday. Started taking, cooking for myself, and working out daily. (Was about 520 pounds)

Month 2.

Nothing really happened, was still on my dailies. Added regular showers to that as well. (I was very much a smash player in smell) and teeth brushing. Late in the month I noticed some nipple pain.

Month 3.
MY SENSES STARTED TO COME BACK!!! I HAD LOST THESE THROUGH ABUSE AND DEPRESSION!! when I mentioned this I heard some other folks talk about it to and even one person who had the opposite. Extreme touch!

It was funny cause I was just outside getting the mail, then on my way back I noticed "this feels weird... Wait this feels??" Rubbed the envelope a little, passed it off as possibly being sick.

Then that night I woke up, and OMG!! EVERYTHING WAS DIFFERENT O_O I COULD ACTUALLY GET MORE THAN A FLAT FUCKING TEXTURE??? I GOT THE HEAT/COOLNESS, TEXTURE, AND WHATECER ELSE!!

AND THAT WAS JUST THE START??? A little later I realized my body's temperature guage was allllll outta wack! 50 degrees never felt cold to me before, it had to get really low. Now though geezum D: 50 degrees is so cold!! I had to bundle up.

Same for heat, I was a hot water warrior for forever.. yeah.. no... I think I was burning myself alive in the shower lmao. Incidentally I learned later that might be the source of my dandruff problem @@; cause colder showers now, and I haven't had any issues with it. No more head and shoulders for meeeeeeeee


Then my ears got more sensitive =w= loud volume actually hurt now. Big cry. Taste went up, I really only ate extremely spicy and sweet things before cause it's all I could really taste. Sight went up as well, I hadn't thought I was color blind before, now I'm pretty sure I was at least a little xD

This is also when the emotion bad came in. I passed it off a little, cause I had random cries in the past when I was younger. Figured "oh, I'm being myself and actually talking about depression. This is probably normal for that!"

Nope, big nope :D it was my emotions punching down the walls I made. Kicking me in the title and yelling at me. Did a lot of talking around here. It's where mom first started to fell like mom and sis was becoming more sis!

I was still pretty bad at being open tho.

Incidentally this is where I needed to take a break.

There was a huge break between me now, and cassie the former me. I thought I'd still be cassie and wouldn't really change on hrt. Haha... no... no... owo; not at all.

I've said this a lot on twitter or in servers. HAPPY EXISTENTIALISM? it's so weird!! It was like I woke up for the first time. And I was in a really nice field of flowers I could go any direction in.

It was genuinely nice. I had no idea who I was anymore since I didn't really exist outside of art for a majority of my life but I was here! And meeeeeeee!!!

Also somewhere in here an offer got made to me... move in with mom and her wife? 💕 st the tine it seemed really fake lol.

Month 4.

Lot of bad here. Talks forced on me, self doubt stuff, anxiety, depression fights, contending with suicide again, and a large draining of my funds

Weren't all bad though. While it took me some time to get over the family stuff feeling fake or like a game. I am over it, and kind of accepting I'm going to be a daughter and a sister?? It's genuinely weird to me but x3 I'm getting over that too!!

I also got the date for the move. It's soon, sooner than I ever imagined xD

Not much on the changes side that I've noticed. I do something called stimming? But I've always kinda had that I just know the name for it now.

We're on month 5 now, and hope all goes good. :3

♡ have a nice day ♡

Doing a gofundme for winter damage, and to help my electric bill. Most of it is explained in the link.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/winter-d.....f+share-flow-1

Bloop

Shit's hard an I want a refund on my life subscription cause everything is bullshit. Can't do that though without losing friends list, and logging back in is super hard if you you log out. Then there is customer service for life which requires like a payment on a plate in person every sunday. WTF kind of nonsense is that, I just wanna fix my account.

So gonna take a month long break instead at my guild house. Play some games, watch some stuff, draw some personals. Still gonna be around, making post, checking FA. If you wanna play something or chat hit me up as usual. Hope whatever I end up posting still tickles ya'll's fancy uwu/ cya around.

Same as last year, wanting to start prep on this early so I can actually post on 8-4 which will also be the cut off date. If you're unfamiliar with bowser day its a celebration of all things related to king koopa from his minions to himself as its suppose to be his birthday. Why not give him a gift and join his army? <3

Flat Color 20$ per page (Up to 5 page sequence)

Shaded 30$ per page (Up to 5 page sequence)

Pop me a note if interested owo/ and you'll get added to the trello https://trello.com/b/NCp0YXDE

Something simple to hop back into sales with. Fantasy versions welcome as well so bring in your pokes/digi/whatever mons.

Prices are as follow, you can mix and match as you please. Additional characters are allowed at additional cost.

Flat Color 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Shaded 30$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Comics 50$ per page (Up to 3 pages, I do 3 to 5 panels per page)

Pop me a note if interested owo/ and you'll get added to the trello https://trello.com/b/NCp0YXDE

Back to monthlies!

Time time around cows and moms :D get preggers and get milked! pretty simple ^^

Prices are as follow, you can mix and match as you please. (Sorry no comic option this round)

Flat Color 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Shaded 30$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Pop me a note if interested owo/ and you'll get added to the trello https://trello.com/b/NCp0YXDE

If I learned anything last year is that a lot of people wanna be assholes. Like genuinely wanna be assholes soooooooooooo

Howdy

April 1st is all things assholes, from the real to the fantasy all are welcome. So get plumped and puckered to be an ass. OCs, copyrighted characters ( Wanna be Kass’s fat buns go for it) your partner, whatever? bring it on.


For context its more so anything related to asses, and butts. If you want to be a thong, diaper, whatever. Go for it.

Bonus sale, wanna be a true asshole? Break the rules and get whatever you want baby. With a huuuuuuuge opaque red water mark over the picture labeling you as an asshole.

As an aside: any scat/diaper/stink related stuff goes to the alt account  -purplethecharmander- so it won't be posted on this one.

Lastly, there is no Guarantee you'll be posted on april 1st that's the goal, but if last year taught me anything, this is gonna take awhile for some folks xD

Prices are as follow, you can mix and match as you please.

Flat Color 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Shaded 30$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Comics 50$ per page (Up to 3 pages)

Anything monster related welcome all of march owo/ monster hunter, pokemon, digimon, monster girls, neopets, or really anything monster related? Bring it on <3

Prices are as follow, you can mix and match as you please.

Flat Color 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Shaded 30$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Comics 50$ per page (Up to 3 pages)

Please note me your commission if you decide to make one. Makes it easier to keep track of what you want.
Once your confirmed you will be added to my Trello https://trello.com/b/NCp0YXDE/commissions

Finally got this on the only F month :V took me long enough.

Same as before! All stuff final fantasy is on sale, chocobos, moogles, tonberries, if its been in a final fantasy its on the list. Spin offs (secret of mana counts), MMOs included (including fantasy earth zero)

Prices are as follow, you can mix and match as you please.

Flat Color 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Shaded 30$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Comics 50$ per page (Up to 3 pages)

Please note me your commission if you decide to make one. Makes it easier to keep track of what you want.
Once your confirmed you will be added to my Trello https://trello.com/b/NCp0YXDE/commissions

Heya, I’d like to add more options to the gachapon this year. I’m open to suggestion so if you have some go ahead and lay em on me. Can be anything. Heck if we get enough suggestions for something we might even get a new category! Just comment below with suggestions. Also don’t be shy to go crazy with em, the more we have the richer the Gacha experience can be.

Link to the Gacha so you can see if your suggestion is already there: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing

Poke/digimon sale is still up for those interested https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9308648/ stops when November ends.

Figured I'd get this out early this year since I skipped out last year.
This is an inanimate take on the 12 days of Christmas from the 13th all the way up till the 25th I will be doing daily inanimate pictures. So there will be 12 total slots. Unlike last time though I will not be picking the items. I am limiting the objects picked, so once someone has picked an object no one else can get that. Don't need a dildo drawing each day for 12 days after all.

You can however get multiple people in on one object on the same day. Wanna be a pile of Christmas ornaments with your buds? Sure. Pile of plushies? Go for it.

Payment is upfront.
Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)
Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)
Everything is first come first serve, once something is gone it is gone.
If a day remains untaken then I will use one of my own characters for it. So its getting drawn on anyway, may as well be you yeah?

13: Doormat - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34199025/
14: Hot Cocoa - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34211796/
15: Christmas Tree - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34233573/
16: Cupcake - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34239416/
17: Ginger bread - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34252784/
18: Wrapping paper - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34264514/
19: Inflatable deer - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34277268/
20: Ginger bread house - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34298738/
21: Onahole - ThunderEllah discord
22: Snowman -  skycharger
23: USB stick -  nightdragon0
24: Condom -  princesslil
25: Plushies -  ShapeShifter499

Its yearly now let's a go.

Same as every year <3 Pokemon, Neopet or Digimon related (games, anime, books, whatever) are on sale, as an aside all gachapons related to these two subjects get cell shading included by default during this sale (detailed is still an additional 10 USD). If you have any questions please feel free to ask, I'll try to the best of my ability to answer :)

Prices are as follow (There is no comic option this month)

Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)

Additional characters allowed for additional cost

There are no slots, no first come first serve, if you want something just note, and you'll get listed

Once your confirmed you will be posted below in a commers list.

https://trello.com/b/NCp0YXDE

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Heya! Iceborne is soon :D lets celebrate with a saaaaaaaaaaaale

Like the last few times anything monster hunter is welcome! Just pop me a note here on FA and we can get started.

Prices are as follow
Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)
Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)
Comics are 50$ per page (up to 3 pages)
Additional characters allowed for additional cost
There are no slots, no first come first serve, if you want something just note, and you'll get listed

Once your confirmed you will be posted below in a commers list.

Its kinda to late for a full blown zelda month, so lets do something a little more chill. An have a sale based around midna! So from now till september you can get midnafied, or imp'd. This can be either a TF picture or maybe your sona/target customized into an imp form.

We'll keep it simple too, just note me here and we can get started.

prices are

Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)

Additional characters allowed for additional cost

Current list
 imnottelling00

Heya wanting to start prep on this early so I can actually post on 8-4 which will also be the cut off date. If you're unfamiliar with bowser day its a celebration of all things related to king koopa from his minions to himself as its suppose to be his birthday. Why not give him a gift and join his army? <3



Prices are as follow

Sprites 10$

Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)

Additional characters allowed for additional cost

There are no slots, but keep in mind bowser day is in 2 weeks, so get in while you can if you want to be posted on the actual day.

Once your confirmed you will be posted below in a commers list.

Howdy

All of June is meant for toons, weither you're getting tooned up or turning into a toony version of something or someone! Anything from inky rubber hose to modern digital is welcome. A TF trigger running through the month (Not mandatory if you have a different idea) is the Toon Moon being high in the sky making you a were toon!

Bonus, Dad sale. Feel free to be a big loving daddy for father's day or beyond owo/

Prices are as follow

Sprites 10$

Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)

Comics 40$ per page (2 pages, can be combo'd with the above)

Additional characters allowed for additional cost

There are no slots, no first come first serve, if you want something just note, and you'll get listed. Please keep in mind art takes awhile, even longer for comic pages.

Once your confirmed you will be posted below in a commers list.

Shadowcharizard
Alyx_Dokutsu

Howdy you know what I love MOM TF HOLY FRICK. So this month is Maternity may or May-ternity~

This is a bit looser I guess? Not as much to describe or go into. Basically Mom stuff, feel free to species swap Or character TF to whatever your comfy with to get that mom belly. M-preg welcome if your into that kinda thing? Feel free to go into some of the more absurd stuff to, I'm not here to judge I just love moms. That includes things like unbirth, rebirth, egg laying just as a few examples, if your unsure please feel free to ask.

I even have a handy dandy trigger for whoever wants it. "Preg-mint gum: as fresh as your new born baby" be sure to check out "Cougar Cherry" as well for some good Age progression and child bearing hips :3

Prices are as follow (The comic option is back!)

Sprites 10$

Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)

Comics 40$ per page (2 pages, can be combo'd with the above)

Additional characters allowed for additional cost

There are no slots, no first come first serve, if you want something just note, and you'll get listed. Please keep in mind art takes awhile, even longer for comic pages.

Once your confirmed you will be posted below in a commers list.

 incinermyn
 AnHanora

Howdy

April is all things avian, from the real to the fantasy all are welcome if they've got feathers (Even dinos) so bird up! Bonus sale is twinning/cloning, doesn't have to be bird related. So long as you have someone you want to be go for it. Doesn't have to be copyrighted characters, if you want to be your partner's sona go for it.

Prices are as follow (The comic option is back!)

Sprites 10$

Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)

Comics 40$ per page (2 pages, can be combo'd with the above)

Additional characters allowed for additional cost

There are no slots, no first come first serve, if you want something just note, and you'll get listed. Please keep in mind art takes awhile, even longer for comic pages.

Finally, yes this is real. For all of april 1st this sale is on. After that, it'll go to the traditional sale.

Once your confirmed you will be posted below in a commers list.

 Alyx_Dokutsu
 mysticeevee49

Howdy

April 1st is all things assholes, from the real to the fantasy all are welcome. So get plumped and puckered to be an ass. OCs, copyrighted characters ( Wanna be Kass’s fat buns go for it) your partner, whatever? bring it on.

-edit-
For context since people have asked, its more so anything related to asses, and butts. If you want to be a thong, diaper, whatever. Go for it.

Bonus sale, wanna be a true asshole? Break the rules and get whatever you want baby. With a huuuuuuuge opaque red water mark over the picture labeling you as an asshole.

As an aside: any scat/diaper/stink related stuff goes to the alt account  -purplethecharmander- so it won't be posted on this one.


Prices are as follow (The comic option is back!)

Sprites 10$

Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)

Comics 40$ per page (2 pages, can be combo'd with the above)

Additional characters allowed for additional cost

There are no slots, no first come first serve, if you want something just note, and you'll get listed. Please keep in mind art takes awhile, even longer for comic pages.

Finally, yes this is real. For all of april 1st this sale is on. After that, it'll go to the traditional sale.

Once your confirmed you will be posted below in a commers list.

 Patchfoot1
 LittleMiss-V
 Agentxy14
 octorber13
 AnimeKing503
 shinx
 moongoatboy

HEYA! its been awhile, hope you all had a good new year.

So lets start off sales with something different! Fighting game related things are on sale all month. From Street fighter, to smash, or more indie stuff like Skullgirls or Them's fighting herds. Doesn't have to be just TF either can be sprite work or your character in a fighting pose. Maybe team up with someone get an action picture of you getting kicked in the tit or even better kicking a tit!

Prices are as follow (The comic option is back!)

Sprites 10$

Cellshaded full render 20$ per page (Up to 5 pages)

Detailed shading 30$ per page (up to 3 pages)

Comics 40$ per page (2 pages, can be combo'd with the above)

Additional characters allowed for additional cost

There are no slots, no first come first serve, if you want something just note, and you'll get listed. Please keep in mind art takes awhile, even longer for comic pages.

Once your confirmed you will be posted below in a commers list.

Heya its that time of year again :D CHRISTMAS!!! So that also means the secret santa is back ^^ Just to note it since some didn't get it last year this is a Character Swap You are going to be turning someone into one of your characters, and having them turn you into one of their's!

If you're not familiar with how Secret Santas work, or specifically how this one will go--I will be taking signups over the next few weeks, randomizing the list and assigning you a random person to draw/write for, while a random person will draw/write for you! I'll be handing out the Victims on the 10th so everyone will have a full 2 weeks to work with

Requirements are as follow

1. You need to have made something recently - To make sure everyone gets their gift, I won't be taking anyone who hasn't posted anything in 6 months. This doesn't necessarily have to be on FA, either.

2. Have a reference of your character. - Doesn't have to be a ref sheet specifically, just something someone can go off of to make things easier for the person writing/drawing for you.

3. Be alright with what you get. - Because it's a secret santa kinda random thing, you might get something you totally weren't expecting - that's okay, that's part of the fun! So don't be disappointed if you didn't get something that's exactly up your alley - just like a real secret santa, you might just get a regifted blender. Well, not exactly like that, but kinda like that.

4. An interest in transformation! Be both willing to draw/write at least some extension of Transformation, and happy to accept it if the person who drew/wrote you decided to make it for you! You will be able to request your favorite kind of transformation and any other kinks.


there is no skill requirement, only your willingness to give something nice to someone else in the community!

If you're down with all that post down below with a reference and about a sentence or two of what you enjoy, what your character is like, etc! To help separate signups from other comments, be sure to reply to my own comment below! I will have a publicly visible spreadsheet of those who are officially signed up as well.


Once you've entered and I've noted you with who you'll be drawing for, keep in mind a few guidelines:

Keep who you're drawing for a secret. I mean this one is kind of obvious but still

Post it as close to the 25th of December as possible. Try not to post too early or too late. If it doesn't get done til some point past the 26th I'll assume it's not going to be done at that point and work around it

Don't rush it! Give yourself plenty of time to work on it so you don't feel pressured, and don't wait til the last minute either! It'll help ensure others don't miss out on getting a gift on the 25th.

Keep it SFW. Teasing is okay, suggestive is generally not.

Also, if you can't think of a good theme or setting, keep it holiday themed!

I will be participating in this Secret Santa myself, and if people up not receiving a gift for any reason, I personally will do something to help make up for it, so you shouldn't have to feel worried about being cheated out of anything.