i actually have money to commission people, but im too scared and im also too scared to do commissions myself

why is everything so scary

The fandom and everything about it has left a bad taste in my mouth.

Although, I'm still willing to draw my friends sonic oc's and doing sonic oc's for commissions and art trades.

I'm just not all into sonic anymore, is all.

(I haven't been for the past 3 or 4 years, I just came back because of nostalgia.)

like if i post something on any website that i felt i worked hard on or just has a lot of detail on it, people are like yea, okayyyy

but if its just like something simple and like i dont put my heart into it, people r just like AHH YES. PERFECT. NEVER SEEN ANYTHING MORE CREATIVE IN MY LIFE. I WISH I COULD DRAW LIKE THAT EVEN THOUGH I COULD IN LIKE 2 MINUTES

Then there's popular artists that get 45678909876 views for like, a colorless, head drawing, not even detailed, and it looks like they didn't even try on it.

amazing.

/stares directly into the camera

/someone just called one of my ocs the ableist r word and my character has autism and they made a horrible response back when i brought it up, if you're going to rp, don't use fucking slurs, what the hell

/and then that same person has a sexist character what a surprise i don't know what i was expecting

/leaves

/stares at wall for ten hours.