Just got an XBOX and created a gamertag.

Gamertag: SolariaLazear

I'm only a silver member atm, but gonna get gold soon.. for some reason i didnt get my free 30 days like everyone tells me i should have. Oh well. Add me ^-^

I am 19 years old today! =D Time to party!

Not a bright in your face purple but a nice dark purple that shines in the light. And no i didnt get my whole mess of hair dyed purple, just a good chunk of it XD Will post pictures soon



Who else has their hair dyed a non-natural color?

or dyed at all?

I am a photographer, considering i lead the digital imaging section at best buy.. and my FA says i am a photographer. yet i do not have any of my own photos up on FA yet. hmmmm... i'll get some pictures up tomorrow

Sucks SO BAD when only like 3 people show up and its people you work with who preordered the game as to not be "traitors". Tonight was the release of the WOW expansion pack AND the Avengers. along with FIFA 13 and a bunch o other stuff. I got a free shirt out of it though. Hopefully the general manager can fix the error on my clock schedule.. but anyways, its 1:15 am.. just got home.. and figured i'd post a journal about it XD Don't get me wrong, i love working at best buy. it sometimes is rough though. Especially when you are the lead for your department -.-

thank god i have.. umm.. today? off. it is tuesday now.. right? someone tell me its tuesday XD

Go check out  lupinefoxwolf, he has great artwork at low prices. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:28697213. He does mature art too!

I just want your thoughts anyone who plays minecraft. personally i believe he exists, i have seen him and been killed by him at least once.

I DO NOT WANT ANY FIGHTING! I just want peoples opinions and thoughts.

Like maybe as to your thoughts about a notch conspiracy, or maybe what is herobrine? Just want your thoughts ^-^

Negative hurtful comments will be deleted

Have fun guys! i'll reply to all posts that i can!

I am not kidding when i say that the moon over my town is casting a blood red aura on everything. its absolutely creepy. its also a blue moon, 2nd full moon this month, and it had the be the blood moon as well >.> for those who don't know, the first full moon before harvest season is known as the blood moon. Typically for the fact that the moons position to the sun makes the sun cast a deep red glow onto the moon.

I shit you not when i say its blood red outside.. and a slightly misting cloud is making the red glow spread and disperse further, making even the clouds look demonic and bloody. I will not be going outside tonight <.<



On a brighter side, Thank you to everyone who is concerned about me or commented on my last journal.. I am still getting kicked out, but knowing i have a community that cares makes things a little easier. My mom is helping me find rooms for rent, that may or may not be listed online or anything. The only thing is.. i need to be able to keep my job at best buy.. *group hug to all you furs* Thanks so much guys.

Yep, even though i did everything my dad asked of me except for maybe do the dishes for a week, he is kicking me out. apparently me not paying him weekly rent when i get paid every two weeks is unacceptable. Me not doing the dishes once or twice, or not mowing the lawn cus we are in a fucking drought is too much. ANd since he works 11 hours a day every day and i work what my job at Best Buy gives me, makes me inferrior and incapable of understanding what it means to have a job. hey, i get paid more than you to do a job harder than yours! you make food in a kitchen and drive a fucking school bus. AND to top it all, i know my conception wasn't planned, but my mom loves me, but to top it all! He told me to my face for the third time in a month, that i am a worthless useless waste of space who shouldn't have ever been born. He said they should have aborted me, and that he tried to make my mom abort me.

This feels AMAZING! Sitting here crying.. No where to go.. And no future apparently. Does anyone know the link to the new england furries site or anything? I want to see if anyone near me is willing to take in a room mate that will pay rent and food and is very tidy.. Hell i dont need any space either.. my room is only 5'x 8.5' and i barely leave it...

SO, because of best buys retarded scheduling, I cant go to either furcon in December that i want to! Because i cant take ANY DAYS OFF in November through December. and if i do take a day off i can consider myself fired i was told. So yea. More fur cons i really want to go to that i wont be able to. I may like working at Best Buy, but this is shit.

Who here likes Star Trek Voyager? Just the Voyager series, and maybe the book Full Circle that followed the series. Voyager is the only Star Trek series i like. Anyone else?

Rest in Peace elden. Your Heroism saved the one you love.



You will never be forgotten


If you would like to leave your condolences in a plce where they will be seen and read, put them in Beastcub's journal here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3704788/

I am so terribly upset right now.. I didn't know Elden that well.. But i feel for anyone whose life was taken by a drunk driver.. And even more so, someone who risked their life to save the one they love.

R.I.P. Elden. You Will not be Forgotten

Why the hell are guys so dense?

Everything you say, if they aren't 100% paying attention seems to go in one ear and out the other -.- Apparently they don't know the idea of "subtle hints" either. If i made the point I've been trying to make the past month or two any clearer, it'd be a train with a fucking huge sign on the front of it coming right at you! Or perhaps they do understand and just don't care?

Any girls out there know how to make a guy realize what you are trying to say without coming right out and saying it?

I am a guy, but i am exempt from this because i fucking noticed it!

So here's the deal everyone,  slushie-Nyappy-Paws has a sweet new idea for commissions, Pillow cases with a fox, wolf, or husky on them! Soon he's gonna open custom commissions, for custom pillow cases. But for now here are the current designs he has for sale http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8506799/. And he's a finished pillow case http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8495411/. Go check one out! Very original idea =3 I know the second custom commissions open up I'm gonna get right in and nab one! Spread the word! Also, give the guy a watch, his art is so adorable it deserves watching!

instead of adding to the list of reasons why they arent done yet, i am unfortunately going to cancel any unfinished commissions for now. My email decided to loose any emails i flagged as important, most of those pertaining to the start orbs. I will be doing another batch of freebies soon, I have a job now so finding a time to be free and do them is a bit harder, but if you still want one, watch for another journal for a list.

Also soon i should have examples of the light up clothing i make as well. Once i have the money for the parts lol

OMFG! Last week i was bit by a spider that incapacitated me for 3 days, then i find a wolf spider under my bed. and now i just had TWO god damn spiders crawl ALL OVER ME! AND I'M IN BED NOT FULLY DRESSED! Do you know how creepy it feels to have a spider crawl on you naked?!?!?! And my partially non working keyboard was the unfortunate tool i used to beat both spiders into a pulp! Where are they all coming from?!?!

I FUCKING HATE SPIDERS

I need help finding a fursuit maker! none of the ones ive asked for a quote from have replied x.x and its been days. can anyone direct me to a fursuit maker who is OPEN for commissions?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:27749697 go here =3

I spent most of my early years getting verbally and physically beaten which turned into pure anger. But in private the anger would turn to tears. After years of tempering my sword, i though i couldnt cry anymore. no matter how hard I tried, no matter what I did, or what was done to me, i couldnt cry.

But it appears a simple song has proved me wrong.. I dont like most of Maroon 5. But i bought their new album today, and the second song, Payphone, stirred something, because I am crying.. For those who Want to know, these are the lyrics.

Pay Phone

I’m at a pay phone tryin’ to call home, all of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two

Yeah, I, I know it’s hard to remember, the people we used to be
It’s even harder to picture that you’re not here next to me
You say it’s too late to make it, but is it too late to try
And in that time that you wasted, all of our bridges burned down
I’ve wasted my nights, you turned out the lights, now I’m paralyzed, still stuck in that time, when we called it love, but even the sun sets in paradise

I’m at a pay phone tryin’ to call home, all of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two
If happy ever afters did exist, I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song I’ll be sick

Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow ‘cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow, but you just gave it away
You can’t expect me to be fine, I don’t expect you to care
I know I said it before, but all of our bridges burned down
I’ve wasted my nights, you turned out the lights, now I’m paralyzed, still stuck in that time, when we called it love, but even the sun sets in paradise

I’m at a pay phone tryin’ to call home, all of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two
If happy ever afters did exist, I would still be holding you like this
And all those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song I’ll be sick
Now I’m at a pay phone

(Wiz)
Man fuck that shit
I’ll be out spending all this money while you’re sittin’ round wondering why it wasn’t you who came up from nothin’
Made it from the bottom now when you see me I’m stuntin’
And all of my cars start with a push of a button
Telling me I changed since I blew up or whatever you call it
Switch the number to my phone so you never could call it
Don’t need my name on my shirt, you can tell that I’m ballin

Swish, what a shame could of got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot, so you talk about who you see at the top or what you could of saw but sad to say it’s over for
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wished I’d go away got what you was lookin for
Now it’s me who they want so you can go and take that little piece of shit with you

(Adam)
Yeah, I’m at a pay phone tryin’ to call home, all of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two
If happy ever afters did exist, I would still be holding you like this
And all these fairy tales are full of shit
Yeah, one more fucking love song I’ll be sick

Now I’m at a pay phone

Im sorry everyone who commissioned me for a start orb, I know I said i would have them by today but with job interviews and family life getting busier by the day, I have only gotten one of the three done. I have a drug test for my job at best buy on monday, then i have the rest of the day off, i will finish them on monday

I need to find a good fursuit maker, who has reasonable prices and is open for commissions. i need to get a suit done before AC 2013 and i have the money. Can anyone lend me a hand in finding one? pleas and thank you!!

~Solaria

1111, Thats how many page views i had when i woke up this morning x3 I find that kinda hilarious and at the same time amazing =3 Once i get my clothing business up and running maybe that will go up more!

I am very sorry i haven't gotten your start orbs done. I've been very sick with pneumonia and then the day i got better i got bit by a venomous spider. The past 3 days have been nothing but agony and pain on my back (where the bite is)

I will have all your orbs done by the end of this week.

Thank you for your patience,
~Solaria

So, two days ago i got bit by a rather large semi-venomous spider. Next day went to the hospital with dizziness and motion sickness, they said i would be fine in a few days and its not bad enough to warrant use of anti-venom. Today i am in so much agonizing pain I can barely move. Fucking hate doctors. If i had known i would have spend 50 bucks in the ER just to have nothing done, i wouldn't have gone!

I better be better by tomorrow, I have a fricken job interview that could make or break my plans to move to Portsmouth..