Howdy there~ So, I've been doing 4 streams so far and I saved all the videos so far. Now, in one of them, I'd like to edit it, cutting a part of it for example. Is anyone good enough at editing videos please? =)

Alright. I just finished my first stream and it went okay for now. So far, it seems to work fine but I'm gonna need some more suggestions to make it better in the future. Updating settings and all that... Yeah. I'm still learning for now.

I know I've been quiet lately, well, nothing much seem to happen at the same time though.

Anyway, I still need to test out my livestream in order to see if it's working well. The thing is, well, my Internet seems to be weak, so, I'm unsure if it's gonna work well.

Either way, I need to give a try someday. But when? It could be right now, next week... I need to think about a date right now. Any suggestion?

Alright, thanks to a friend, settings are done and it should be ready now.

I just need to find some people who want to watch me then. If some of you are interested to watch me playing eventually, feel free to talk to me and I'll try to plan a streaming for it. That being said though, well... I'm quite nervous right now... ^^;

Okay. I've been looking at many many videos but I can't seem to understand how it will really work if I start to go live. Even my brain can't handle that many informations...

So, I'm using Elgato and play games on my Nintendo Switch, I have all the materials I need. The only thing that is slow me down are the settings, I wouldn't mind to get some help for that. Any tips, ideas and suggestions please?

Also, to help me better to get fully prepared for streaming, better talk to me on Discord, send me a note for my ID Discord if you don't have it then.

Like the title said, yeah, I recently bought materials and I have everything I need to do streams on Twitch now. Well, I say that but, I need to test things and I never ever tried this before, not to mention I'm also quite nervous as well and shy... Because of that, I'm reluctant to start streaming at the moment and not quite entirely sure too. ^^;

Anyway, I've been working on that project lately for a while now. And well, wish me luck for that.
If some people want to help me for the settings and all that, you can then. I'm probably gonna need hints and suggestions. ^^

So, while I started to use SFM recently, I'm pretty satisfied of my first experiments so far. Managed to take snapshots and all that.

Now, I'm dealing with a problem and I don't know how to solve it... Does anyone know how to change Yoshi's color from Kabalmystic's models please? ^^;

Howdy everyone~ Been a while I wrote a journal around here. I might as well give some news.

Well... What a year so far... Lockdown but thanksfully, I had long games to keep me busy. Between Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Rescue Team DX... Rune Factory 4... Paper Mario: The Origami King... and finally, Xenoblade Chronicles 1 and 2. All on Switch! Man... I sure got quite distracted by long video games... Not to mention I still need to take of a few things but... I need a break a first!

Anyway... Like the title said, I started to look into SFM (Source FilmMaker) a few days ago and... Well, I'm still quite new to this right now. I've seen people posting macro stuffs with SFM and... I've been quite tempted lately, so, I decided to give a try. While I'm still on the learning process, I do need to gather plenty of interesting 3D models such as Super Mario characters (like Yoshi and Bowser), Pokémon obviously, but also MLP:FiM models (I want Spikey Wikey). So... Huh... Yeah. Lots of things to find so far...

I wouldn't mind to get some help, hints, suggestions and all that because... like I said, I'm still pretty new to this. Well, I managed to find how to change scale on model and make it "really" big~

So yeah. I'm tempted to try something new right now. ^^

While I could question a few things when they said they won't add any major updates or anything like that... I'm ready to forgive them since they announced pretty good news.

Balance was (almost) restored between the Kanto starters. G-Max Venusaur and G-Max Blastoise! You have no idea how much I'm relieved now they're here. I'm just so glad they're cannon now! Thanks to that, not only I can finally calm down about G-Max Charizard, I can finally start to enjoy it at peace! ^^

Of course, since Gigantamax Venusaur exists now... Well, expect me to get a few pics about it. Mainly... Effra as a Gigantamax Venusaur! >:3

Also... Oh my gosh! Pokémon Mystery Dungeon Rescue Team... the remake! My favourite on top on that! I can't wait to go back on this adventure as a Bulbasaur... and with my precious partner Gobou the Mudkip~ X//3

Overall... I'm good now! I feel so much better now! I can only hope they'll take care of the others generations like the 2nd and 4th. But only time will tell. =)

But yeah. I suffered... a lot this year... Many things upset me and I'm pretty down right now... I just hope 2020 will be a much better year for me. During 2019, I had problems to contain my jealousy on a few things and I did bad things as well, giving bad impressions too... In order to deal with it, I had to stop looking at many things even if I used to enjoy thoses before. Currently, there is a popular artist I can't afford to watch at the moment as whenever I see about it that could trigger my jealousy... I just feel miserable when it happens...

Well, before that happen, news from Pokémon Sword and Shield didn't really help at all neither... Right at the moment I was taking a break from macro stuffs in general... This happenned and they revealed the Dynamax feature... and I was really... really confused about what to do at that moment... It was a very bad timing for me and because of that... I lost my sanity and I was becoming insane... Things didn't get better as news kept going... While I was able to make peace with the Dynamax content and able to embrace it... They then revealed Gigantamax Pokémon. I was fine with it, I do like them... except one...

There is one thing that I really... really hate right now... *Sigh.* I hate Gigantamax Charizard... but I really hate it... I can't even bear to see a single one of them... Whatever it is a pic (unless he's dominated) or an ally GMax Charizard during Max Raids... I just refuse to look at it! I already had problems with Charizard before... they gave him 2 Mega Evolution instead of 1... While I managed to calm down about it for now, even though I still dislike Mega Charizard X... That Gigantamax Charizard just take the cakes... They gave nothing to Venusaur and Blastoise... and since I'm a Bulbasaur fan, things are much harder for me to accept... That's just... not fair for them... Simply not fair... I just hope balance will be restored between every Starters from every generation. Each starter having 2 different Mega Evolution and 1 Gigantamax form. Sadly... Charizard gets all that luxury...

Finally, the Galar Pokédex... I was... heartbroken... litterally... heartbroken... We knew the Charmander was in the Galar Pokédex before that, so, we could thing the Bulbasaur and Squirtle lines would be in as well. Yet, I thought they would never make it... and I was right... Bulbasaur and Squirtles lines are absent from the Galar Pokédex! They're still available in the game but only in transfer... What can I say about that? I know it's all about popularity and all that, I'm even fine with Gigantamax Pikachu and Eevee. But Gigantamax Charizard... Ugh... I'm still disgusted by it... I was conflicted at that moment... Should I play the games or not?

I got the games, but I was reluctant to play thoses. I gave a first try but I stopped, unsure if I should continue... But thanksfully, a good friend of mine helped me and encouraged me to play the games. I then kept going and I was able to have some fun, I even beat game at some points. But I had a main problem in this game... Charizard... Charizard... he ruined my fun in the games... he was... everywhere... but... EVERYWHERE!!! Lots of people using Gigantamax Charizard during Max Raids, I was even on a team where the 3 others used Charizard... Gigantamax Charizard class for the Curry... Leon's main partner is Charizard... And the worst part of it... you can even do that Charizard pose which is necessary to evolve a certain Pokémon. I mean, it's cool for the Charizard fans but for me... that was just too much! Just... WAY too much! Meanwhile, poor Venusaur and Blastoise... X_X

I don't want to hate Charizard... I really don't... I'm still okay with his regular form and Mega Charizard Y. But Gigantamax Charizard... Ugh... Unless they give a Gigantamax form for Venusaur and Blastoise later on, I would finally calm down but right now... I can't like GMax Charizard... I just can't... =X Maybe later in the future is balance is restored between the starters. *Sigh.* Sorry if I'm being harsh on that subject, especially if some of you are loving it, that I'm okay with it. Just be cautious when you mention it, that's all.

If I made my own Gigantamax Bulbasaur form, that's because I was desperated. I did it for the sake of my sanity, I even asked a pic about it and it turned out well. When Bulbasaur or Venusaur will get a Gigantamax form, when that day will come, I would instantly make a form of mine! I would also be able to treat Gigantamax Charizard normally, no hatred or anything like that. That's my only hope right now. I won't hide the fact that I was... quite disappointed about Sword and Shield... I even have some resentment toward the devs who removed half of them! That's a lot! Only 400 of them in the Galar Pokédex plus around 35 that will come later on. That's just heartbreaking because people can't bring their most favourite Pokémon in Sword and Shield. While I could with Bulbasaur... others people can't bring their Dragonite, Feraligatr, Piplup... You name it... As for today, we have now 890 of them, that's quite a big number, I like it. But I believe they should really slow down now... 890 Pokémon is quite enough to work with. They can create plenty of different forms like the Alolan and Galarian one, I do like that concept and I hope to see more.

Anyway... that's enough for rantings and I need to take care of myself right now. I hope in 2020, I'll get a new job soon, my previous one had to end as the company was moving away and it was too far for me to reach unfortunately. Right now, I'm stuck at home for an entire year, dealing with jealousy, news that can upset me... Blah blah blah... With a job, I'll be able to think about something else.
I also have a certain goal that I'd like to reach. Right now, I want to fight a lot more for Bulbasaur. I want to get as many macro Bulbasaur stuffs as possible. My goal is to increase the number of "macro Bulbasaur" results in the search bar. While I'd love to focus on my other forms sometimes, I just want to take care of my Bulbasaur form as much as possible, that's why I've been getting as many pics as possible. I want to do it for myself and for fun. But since I'm mainly the only or rare macro Bulbasaur around here, it's gonna be... quite difficult... ^^; When I'll be quite satisfied about it, I'd like to take care of Mudkip next~ X3

In any case... it's not midnight in my country yet but... I wish you all an Happy New Years in advance with lots of hope for everyone. I certainly want to be happy in 2020. I've been thinking about making new sprites lately, I tried to do some but got interrupted by Pokémon Sword and Shield. Plus, I was pretty depressed lately and my morale was pretty low as well. I just hope to recover quickly so I can finally focus back on drawing eventually and hopefully.

You know, I really wish there was a Gigantamax Bulbasaur or Venusaur one, I really do. I'm even working hard on getting a decent design for my own Gigantamax Bulbasaur form as well.

Well, I actually found a very neat gallery about Gigantamax stuffs, you can check it right here: https://www.instagram.com/balintcservenyi/
(That being said, you may need an Instagram account if you want to see more then.)

Yeah. I've been... quite inactive around here and I really need to get back at writing growy stuffs. Yet, doing it alone by myself is... not really motivating...

So, is anyone interested to write some with me? It will mainly contain growth, giants, destruction and domination. You know I love evil giants with an endless appetite for size and power~ Of course, we can also add big growing muscles, fattening, vore, transformation or anything else as well.

As for who should grow, preferably no OC or anything like that. I'm fine with any original characters such as Yoshi, Bowser, a Pokémon, a Digimon, MLP character... Anything. They can even be anthro as well. ^^

Let me know if you're interested then. =)

Alright. It is time to share the levels I created so far. Here:

-Giant - 1: The invasion: 5CT-PV4-FJF
-Giant - 2: The outpost: WLH-1QY-MMG
-Giant - 3: Research Lab: DJ2-F2J-MPF
-Giant - 4: A long journey: 0XM-3K5-2VF
-Giant - S1: The Lost Treasure: 1SK-M95-6FG

You can also my ID profile right here: 944-CRG-GYG

This list will be eventually update as I add more levels. In any case... Have fun. ^^

While I do feel better compared to weeks ago... I'm not fully recovered yet and I do need help on that.

So... To resume the situation... I did bad things before and I regretted what I've done, I even apologized to it. I took a break from it, then, came back, hopefully things will be better from now on. But... for some reasons, I feel... quite uneasy about being around some places sometimes.
And so, I'm thinking about things like: "Did they forgive me?" or "Do they still hate me after what I've done even after I apologized?"
Yeah... It's been haunting me lately. I'm not sure how I can explain this. But I think I'm being paranoiac right now, I believed I even had an unpleasant dream about it last night. I just hope I can undo the damage I caused before and redeem myself... Someday...

Another problem I'm having right now... Well, I need to resurrect my mood about becoming a growing macro Bulbasaur once again. Last time, I insisted way too much with my desires to get some pics about it. Mainly because I was... desperated at that time... And that wasn't a good thing to do, I admit... Because of that, I decided to punish myself for being bad about it... I removed a journal I wrote weeks ago, I even cancelled a few commissions I was waiting for as well. I had the need to disappear, to be forgotten... But thanks to some people, they helped me to recover and I'm grateful for that. I started to gain back my will to become back a growing macro Bulbasaur once again but it's not fully recovered yet. I don't mind getting some more help for that actually. I also need to get a new pic about it, hopefully I'll find someone for that.

Anyway... Hopefully I'll be able to solve thoses problems ASAP. I'm tired to bring my problems in a place like here again... and again... *Sigh.*

On a positive thought... I also discovered a fun app about macro rampaging monsters on my phone. I also started to create levels in Super Mario Maker 2 as well, I'll write a journal about it, sharing my new levels someday but not today. ^^

Howdy everyone. I apologise for my previous journal. But I definitely needed to take a break from stuffs around here. After 2 weeks, I finally recovered and I feel a lot better today. Sometimes, it's good to take a break from things, especially when bad things happened, because the time for things to calm down... Phew! This is just what I needed.

In any case, don't worry about me, I'm fine. I've been busy lately, especially after playing a lot of "Cadence of Hyrule" and "Super Mario Maker 2" on Switch. ^^

Now, I'm gonna have to catch up with a few things here.

I apologize in advance but I have to stay away from this community. How long? No idea. I had problems lately and I've been suffering too much because of my jealousy and selfish desires... Sorry everyone, but I can't stay here for now...

This is the second time I'm complaining about it. The first time that happened, it was 4 years ago: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6316419/
And I'm really questioning about it. So, here the thing...

When I pay people to get pics, I usually have 2 options:
-I pay for services. In that case, the artist has to pay a fee.
-I pay for friends and family. Here, I pay the fee.

Now... I have a question for you all... Who pay the fee? The customer or the artist? And why?
Feel free to reply, I'm all ears.

Alright, I finally recovered and I'm starting to feel better now. I'm even ready to talk about the Pokémon Direct yesterday. =)

Finally, I decided to went ahead and let out all my emotions. Even though I feel ashamed about what I did though... and it's gonna take time for me to recover.

There is... one thing I'm gonna ask from you... Do NOT talk about the Pokémon Direct at all. It came with a certain feature at the worst time possible. I had jealousy about something lately at it's related to that feature from this game. And I needed a break from it.
So, whatever you say... do NOT mention anything about this Direct! That's all I ask... I'm gonna warn you once... if you insist talking about it, I'll probably hide or deleted your comment. Get it?

Lately, I've been suffering quite a bit... and today, after seeing certain news, I'm quite devastated... I've been taking a break from a certain thing at the worst possible moment... *Sigh.* I don't know what to do anymore... I should be glad and happy about something I saw today but... for some reasons... I can't... and it's destroying me... Somehow, I want to enjoy it again... but how?

Lately, I've been pretty quiet as I ran into many problems, took me time to recover but I'm fine now.

Anyway... I'd like to do something but nothing much is happening so far. I wouldn't mind to think about lots of bigness~ Maybe a collab story about weight gain, muscle, or anything else combined with growth, macro, and domination as well. I do need to stay creative at some points but doing it alone is... usually a problem for me as I can't always find the motivation for it. While if I find someone to write a chapter with me, it does help me~ Oh! And... I don't mind being... naughty~ ;3

Yup. It's that time again. I'm 31 years old now. ^^
Gift pics for me are still welcome then. ;3

Yup. On April the 9th. ^^'

So... I decided to go ahead and started to upload the many growth stories I had written a long time ago. I'm currently thinking on how I'll organize stuffs there. With the folder feature, I'll try to sort out the best I can. In any case, you can find two old chapters I wrote a long time ago:

Chapter 1: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30598850/
Chapter 2: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30598938/

I'll try to add more later on. Enjoy all.

I tried to suggest about creating a group here, I even wrote a journal about it. Problem is... nobody cared about it last time... So, I'm not gonna bother explaining it all over again... I feel like I'm just gonna waiste my time if I suggest it once more... --'

I'm also open for thoughts, ideas and suggestions as well. So, go ahead. =)

Well... Today, I've been trolled on dA. I received some inpleasant comments there and yet... I can't help but smile because I just find it... amusing~
I mean... It's just pathetic~ Funny thing, I was his only target.

Of course, don't worry about me. I know how to handle that. I already blocked him and report his spams comments.
If you're curious about it, you can check his profile on dA: https://www.deviantart.com/ihatefurries666fu

I'll make sure he'll never stand up back again~ And if he insisted... I'll be ready to take him down once more~