Hey y'all, 14 July is international non-binary day, which is a day for celebrating the existence and diversity of every person whose gender identity does not fall in line with the gender binary. Things have been a little tough for me but I wanted to post a journal about it.

Non-binary genders exist and there are many different ways how people express their identity as non-binary. There is not one single non-binary look. You don't have to be androgynous. You can have any body type, any skin colour, your gender assigned at birth does not matter.

It's just who we are. We are not male. We are not female. We found something else that feels like home.

Happy non-binary day!

There's been a bunch of commissions that have accrued over the year(s) that I have still failed to upload and it's kinda getting embarrassing and I feel bad because by uploading the art I might be able to promote some of the artists that I have been happy to support.

So I'm gonna try and upload some of that today. :V

I migh spread them out over several days until I feel like I have caught up again.

I usually try to not upload big group pics and leave that up to the artist to upload instead cause otherwise the same piece would be uploaded so many times on FA that it'd probably annoy other people. So yeah, I'll try and see which ones I should upload and get to as many of them as I can!

I haven't posted a journal yet this year so...


punch nazis



:3

and habeeb it new year

Heya, I'd like to signal boost another cool vore YCH that a friend of mine  creativecanine is doing. I learned recently that he just managed to find a place to live and he's been homeless for a period of a few months. He's a good artist, so if you wanna support his stuff, it'd be REALLY helpful to him!

Anyway, check out the link below for a cool animated vore gif YCH!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23610442/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23610442/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23610442/

Hey guys, a friend of mine  Dajan is currently doing a YCH where you can bid to be one of two prey for his new Snow Leopard character. The twist to this guy is that his belly is actually really cold on the inside. In case you're interested you can check the link right here. If the total bids go up to just 60 dollars you'll get a fully drawn pic which includes a background of you and another person inside of the snep!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23077761/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23077761/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23077761/

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8140871/

I just wanted to share via journal that  shwoopy-cat is doing cheap commissions to raise funds for a few friends who are in financial troubles. He's been getting a lot better at art lately, so if you wanna see what he has to offer feel free to check him out.

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Well, time to do one of those yearly reviews here. For one, this year has been tumultuous: a sickening amount of violence has happened, and I am worried about how far-right politics are spreading. Obviously there's the stuff that happened in the UK with Brexit, and the US presidential election. But also in my own country, far right parties (i.e. PVV) are becoming bigger, despite their policies literally being even more damningly racist.

Aside from that, there's personal developments for me too this year. It's a year in which I have greatly developed my sense of self. It's the year in which I discovered my gender: I'm non-binary, I am proud of it, I feel more involved in the queer community, I feel like I've learned a lot of new things, self-awareness. Acceptance of myself. That's amazing, and no amount of bad shit in 2016 should discredit that level of personal development. It's also the year in which I started to seriously think about whether I am autistic. I am more certain I am, and I have already taken steps to see a psychologist about this, so that I can know for sure. Again, I feel like doing so has been of tremendous help to me, and I feel proud of who I am. SO extremely proud in the face of adversity. I am so happy to have an explanation for all the beautiful strangeness that is me, and I'll love it and accept it until it's not strange anymore. I'm gonna flap, and dance, and stim, and love my special interests openly, and not be ashamed of being who I am

What's going to happen in 2017? In 2017, is the year that I pick myself up and I must push through barriers that I have struggled with since my dad passed away 2 years ago. I am enrolled in an amazing study programme, with amazing classmates. Being a teacher in training, I am preparing myself for an amazing profession in which I can make a difference for kids who have been through so much crap. Crap that I can perhaps relate to because I have BEEN there. I want to be an example for queer kids, I want to be an example for disabled kids. I want to be there for everyone. Just like some of my role model teachers were there for me and opened my eyes, and taught me that we NEED to stand up to people who marginalise others.

I also just want to be idealistic for 2017. I have always prided myself in being optimistic about the world. While it sure may have been hard with everything that happens. I don't want to give in. This year, I am going to try to cherish the good friends I have, I want to be more honest with my friends too. I don't want to hide parts of myself. I'm gonna be more openly proud of who I am, weird and broken as I may be, as unconventional and 'cringy' as some people may perceive me to be. I am me, and I love myself.

I love you guys so much. I stayed up all night as the results rolled in, and I am feeling physically sick from it all. I am so worried about the safety of my friends. I don't want to lose any of you. Especially those who are queer, PoC, disabled, women, all of you people. I love you, and please be safe. This is far from over. We need people who continue to do amazing things and make this tangerine moron's job as hard as possible.

Any one of you are free to talk to me about this too. I really want to support each and every one of you going through this crap.

Heyo! I wanted to signal boost a friend of mine  creativecanine who's just posted his first YCH auction on FA. If you are into vore, you should really check it out, as well as the other stuff in his gallery. He draws some pretty cool stuff.

Here's the link to the YCH in question, it'll remain open until 6 November at midnight CST

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21619490/

So, just wondering, but why do so many shark fursonas have big ears? I mean, my hypothesis is that Sergals have kind of influenced the way people design shark fursonas, due to their very similar head anatomy. Has anyone else ever noticed this?

This is not meant as criticism of course. Just something I noticed. I think that sharks with ears are incredibly cute.

[x] you meow/bark gyuck to get attention (kangaroos make different noises than canines and felines)
[x] you find pets toys amusing
[ ] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[ ] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[x] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[ ] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[ ] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 3

[x] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[x] you love fish/meat
[ ] you like to stick your head out trough the window of a moving car.
[x] you like when people pet your head
[x] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[x] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 5

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime
[ ] you enjoy scaring birds
[x] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[ ] you bite people if they annoy you
[ ] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[ ] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 2

[x] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[x] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park
[ ] you meow/bark gyuck when you see something you want
Total: 3

[x] you call your hands and feet "paws"
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 5

[x] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[x] you meow or bark gyuck very often
[ ] you hide when you get scared
[ ] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[ ] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[x] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[ ] you like to do tricks to get a treat
Total: 3

[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it
[x] you refer to your self as an animal
[x] your username has something to do with animals
[x] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[x] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[x] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 6

[x] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[ ] you like to say hi to strangers
[x] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[x] people think you act like a pet
[ ] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[ ] you like to eat grass
[ ] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Total: 3

Final total: 30

I'm 60% furry

I found a meme and then stole it from  tierhund

Personal
Real First Name: Joey (not my legal name though but still)
Nickname/Username: Joey / EGKangaroo
Location: Netherlands
Age: 21
Gender: non-binary demimale
Zodiac Sign: Cancer, but I feel like a pisces on the inside
Chinese Zodiac: piggo
Briggs type: INFP
Pets: I have a cat

Sexuality & Romance
Sexual Orientation: gay
Kinsey Scale: lol
Relationship Status: in a relationship
Poly or Mono: poly I guess but I don't really mind staying monogamous either
Want to Marry: maybe
Want Kids: No, I'd rather have a pet roo

Silly Stuff
Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff
GoT House: Fuck GoT
Bending Style: Earth
Pony Race: No
Pokemon type: Fire/Rock
What Are You Reading: Harry Potter: The Order of the Phoenix
What's The Last Movie You Watched: dunno, I tend to passively be present in the living room when others are watching a movie
What Are Your Greatest Irrational Fears: spiders, mirrors in the dark, spooky things

Sleep
Early Bird or Night Owl: night kangaroo
What Time Do You Go To Bed: between 12 AM to 3 AM
What Time Do You Get Up: HELP THIS IS EMBARRASSING
What Do You Sleep In: naked
Do you Dream Frequently: yes
What Position Do You Sleep In: never stop moving
What was the last dream you remember: Well I was at some kind of military training camp of this new world order army or something for some reason, and they realised I wasn't supposed to be there because I didn't do any of the exercises so I just said I was lost on the way to acting school where I was supposed to be and ran away but then the leader chased me and so I went on a massive panic run through their office building or something I dunno it was weird.

Work & Education
High School: done
College: not yet done
Occupation: doing a college
Where Do You See Yourself in 5 Years: being in high school all over again but now as a teacher
What's Your Dream Job: English teacher

Favorite Stuff
Foods: Gado gado, cajun chicken, chicken curry, hawaiian pizza, kapsalon döner, salmon pasta, spaghetti carbonara, nasi goreng, I can keep naming delicious foods but I guess you get the point
Carbonated Drinks: Cola
Non-Carbonated Drinks: Tea
Ice cream flavor: chocolate, chocolate chip, banana, pistachio
Season: Summer, especially late summer
Animals: kangaroos, deer, otters, foxes and more
Colors: green and gold
Music: punk rock
TV shows: Steven Universe, Pokémon, Avatar (LoK and AtLA)
Video games: The Elder Scrolls, Pokémon, and pretty much most open world sandbox games, fantasy RPGs, space games, creative building games and sim games.

Okay, it seems like with the password reset, a lot of people are having issues with recovering their accounts. I totally understand the frustration people are experiencing with this, and while it's depressing to read the sheer number of people who are so fed up they are leaving FA, I can understand. It's a major setback, and people do not feel secure on FA anymore.

I am making this journal to inform you all that I do have a Weasyl account, which I might try to use more often, and upload my stories on. I kinda abandoned it for a while, because I was struggling with writer's block and had nothing to upload for a while, but I'll just have to blow some of the dust off it and post on there some more and participate in that community again, because those people seem friendly I guess.

Here's a link to my Weasyl page:
https://www.weasyl.com/~egkangaroo

I also have a Tumblr where I am sorta active, in case you want to see me reblog and post dumb shit:
https://egkangaroo.tumblr.com/

There are some other websites where I have lurking accounts, but I do not feel like sharing those. As a) that would be pointless and b) I sometimes plain dislike participating in those communities.

I really hope I will not be losing any friends on here because they're leaving FA and such, so hopefully I'll find some of you over on Tumblr or Weasyl. In all likelihood, I will remain the most active on FA, because this community is by far the largest and I have friends here whom I really enjoy interacting with, but at least there are alternatives if you want to seek them out.

But I read in the rules that it's all focused on willing vore, so I guess it's not for me after all. :T A bit of a shame. I wish I could have read that somewhere before I set up an account there. But yeah, unless you roleplay your character as willing, the site is not meant for you it seems.

I'll just signal boost it here for people who might be interested in it, and if it really is something for you, but I am just super disappointed right now.

http://gurglrvore.com/

Hi there! I am just mulling over some things and wondering how to deal with a few steps in my discovery of my gender. I have not talked about it super openly, but some of you may have noticed that I have specified my gender as demi-male/non-binary on my profile page for a while now and joined two FA groups representing that.

Since my fursona pretty much is a representation of me, I know for a fact that in light of me slowly coming out as my gender, Joey is non-binary too. That leads me to the problem of having art now of Joey that's tagged male (not just in my gallery, but in the galleries of artists I commissioned).

The thing I am wondering about is, should I change the gender tag for all of Joey's art? Having it tagged as male is not...wrong per se, I guess, since I do partially identify as male (hence demi), but I just dunno. I have thought about changing the tags to transgender or other/non-specified. The other thing I wonder about is whether I should contact all the artists I commissioned and ask them to change the gender tags on that art accordingly.

Part of what has me confused is that Joey's refsheet is getting a little dated. It still says that his gender is male. I am planning on getting it redone soon, so maybe I should wait until then. I am just really unsure what to do and I hope somebody can advise me on this. I think in the end I really do think it is important to change the gender tags of my character's art since it's increasingly starting to feel like using just 'male' for me is misgendering...I dunno.

Halp pls

It's Christmas eve now here. Just had a really nice dinner with mum and watched a good movie. Here's to all of my friends, watchers, or anyone who stumbles onto my userpage. Happy holidays, no matter what you are celebrating! And if you aren't celebrating anything then have a very relaxed day.

I love you guys. :)

Programming sucks hard!
Who the fuck invented R?
I don't like those guys.

I am sorry if this is one of many journals about the attacks, but I feel the need to post something about this.

I heard of the attacks from my mother, who ran upstairs, panicked, telling me there was a really large attack going on, and I immediately switched to the live BBC coverage. I saw the numbers of dead and just thought: "Oh my god, those bastards". I wasn't even thinking who I meant when I said those bastards, if I meant just the attackers, or the ISIS that was later known to claim responsibility, or terrorism in general or religion or just all of humanity really. I was gripped by fear, fear of 'it' happening to 'us', and fear needs to assign blame, preferably on the largest possible group it can generalise.

And I mean, as I was reading about it, I realised that the attacks were literally still taking place. Like, there were literally still people being killed in the Bataclan concert hall. The usual mode of engagement of wanting to analyse and assign your own world view onto a fluid situation like this just does not work. People tend to want to immediately go: "Oh if we had just done everything the way I feel the world should be then this would not have happened!" and that idea is always going to be flawed.

It took a great deal of conscious thinking to remind myself that the majority of actions that occurred in Paris today were not acts of terror. They were not acts of hate and intolerance. They were acts of heroism and openness. #porteouverte was just one of many examples of Parisian solidarity being shown to the world. And we should not forget the hard work of the emergency respondents and common bystanders who helped the wounded, the confused, the terrified, the lost, just anyone really.

What I mean to say is, that the coming days, how we respond to this tragedy is going to be a reflection of us as a single humanity. Will we assign blame on Islam, and on the millions of refugees who are in Europe now because they fleed from this kind of daily terror of ISIS? I hope not, but I fear with all of my heart that this is going to lead to even more Islamophobia in Europe. If we choose to respond to this situation with hostility towards all muslims and we use this situation as an excuse to turn away countless people fleeing the horrid violence from ISIS, we do a great disservice to the heroism and solidarity that Paris showed last night and to all of humanity.

And that's when we let them win.

There's quite a few sketches and stuff I commissioned over the last several months that I just forgot to post so I am just gonna flood them in my submission box now so if you see a lot of vore in your submission notifications you know why you're welcome by the way I mean I know you like it you pervs

http://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news.....-rules-n375551

It fucking happened! WOOO!

Seriously, why the fuck is it that stress is seen as en entirely valid reason for a person to be incapacitated from the workforce for whatever length of time for almost every profession, but when a writer is too stressed out or depressed to write, we call it "writer's block" and then have to listen to a bunch of self-righteous assholes preaching that it doesn't exist and that you can just cure it by getting off your lazy ass and writing anyway. Seriously.

Imagine that happening for any other occupation:

"Oh, you're stressed out and you're losing sleep over your marital problems to the point where you barely have the desire to live anymore and it's impairing your ability to do your job? Well, geez, you just have to fight your 'inertia'. if you just put your mind to filing all these stacks of paperwork, I am sure it will go over soon."

LIKE FUCKING HELL IT DOESN'T!

I am not doing well this evening at all. Opened a word document, stared at my unfinished story, realised I had to introduce a room with five people in it. I can't get left alone by people. Can't concentrate. Can't fucking think of anything other than the sheer and utter terror of never making it past page 2. I can't read. I can't think. I can't fucking breathe. I have to vent it all out before I explode.

I lost my father last year and I still haven't gone through the process of grieving yet. Back when he was alive, I felt there was at least some purpose I was fulfilling. I was in school, I could do my part in taking care of him, and listening to him tell his stories about the work he did, and the people he met, and his half-fabricated stories about how he raised an orphaned otter as a kid, and also a red fox, and a crow that always waited for him on the steer of his bike when he went home from school. Mum told me that dad told fake stories more often, but, ya know, as a writer, as somebody who tells 'fake' stories all the time as well, I know that fiction can have a profound impact on reality as well. For those moments, when he shared his probably lied stories of animals he loved and was loved back by, we created a new bond between us.

I miss him so much, and I do not know how to recover from this. I had to quite university last November because the stress piling on top of me was too much. How can a 19 year old kid even focus on exams while his father's ashes come home one day, and his mother collapses with stress because she does not know how to make end's meet anymore.

Now it's May, and I haven't submitted a new story still. My hopes are that I'll crawl out of the valley eventually. I want to have hope again that I am not incompetent. I'm sick of hearing from my brother that I'm "retarded" or that I'm "worthless" and I am sick too of my mum treating me like I am too stupid to understand how to tie my own shoelaces and being hypercritical of everything I do for her. "Oh no, you got the wrong brand of soup! HOW COULD YOU NOT SEE THAT?!"

I'm gonna be 20 this year, and I haven't figured anything out. How am I gonna survive the adult world when writing more than 100 words of fiction literally exhausts me for the rest of the day?

'Kay. That's it. I'm doing it. I scrapped the previous chapters of Joey's short stories. As much as I like it, I feel I could do SO much better. I'm probably gonna start over at some point with a new story about Joey sometime. One that I feel he deserves far more than the drivel I wrote 2 years ago. Though I'll consider almost all things about the previous chapters canon, I'll probably overhaul everything.

This feels so good!

Also, I should work some more on a few one-shot projects I am doing. Mostly smutty stuff that I like. Vore and bondage and stuff. I haven't ever really finished any of my writing projects yet, and it's so annoying, because I wanna but my writing goes so slow, I just can't get more than a few hundred words a day before I exhaust myself.

I've had to fight so hard against my depression. At times, things just go well, and I can actually feel calm. I've had it on a few occasions where I suddenly felt like I had room to breathe. And then the next morning it is gone because this family issue pops up, or one of my friends is feeling depressed or I literally try my best to relate to things people share with me, and I just can't and it gets me down. EVEN BASIC THINGS TAKE SO MUCH ENERGY, LIKE AAAAAAGH!

I hope I can get out of this. I felt good yesterday. I gotta try and still feel good today. I need new ways to energise myself and feel enthusiasm for my own writing again.

Oh, there could be close to 90% coverage during this solar eclipse? I know what kind of weather will enhance this rare experience! HOW ABOUT IMMA FOG!

Yes, thank you weather. That's EXACTLY what I fucking wanted.

You fucking shit face.